At the bottom of your list.. that's where I belong
God!! I just realize that I was so pissed off!!! I just realized that I am furious about some things!! I just realized half of the things that's been inside my heart!! I just took notice of the way I feel!! Godd!! I am SO mad!! I can't believe that my hands shook real hard just now! I can't believe that it took me weeks to realize how I really feel!! Godd!!!! I feel soo... minor! So... useless!! So... un-important!!
And yet I'm still confused.. my feelings changes in an instant! In just two hours.. I think differently through all this. Uuurrrghhhh!! I am such a fool!!!

And the fact is, there is no second place in the matters of love..