time is running out...

so now it's time to hug and ruuuunn~!! yeaaaaaaaaayyy~!!

Distance by Evan and Jaron

The sky has lost its color
The sun has turned to gray
At least that's how it feels to me
Whenever you're away
I crawl up in the corner
as I watch the minutes pass
each one brings me closer to
The time you'll be back; you're coming back

I can't take the distance
I can't take the miles
I can't take the time until the next time I see you smile
I can't take the distance
And I'm not ashamed
That I can't take a breath without seeing your name

And I can brave a hurricane
and still be standing tall
when all the dust has settled down
but i cant take the distance.

I still believe in feelings
But sometimes I feel too much
I make believe you're close to me
But it ain't close enough
Not nearly close enough

I can't take the distance
I can't take the miles
I can't take the time until the next time I see you smile
I can't take the distance
And I'm not ashamed
That I cant take a breath without seeing your name
And I can brave a hurricane
and still be standing tall
when all the dust has settled down
but i cant take the distance.
I can't take the distance
I can't take the miles
I can't take the time until the next time I see you smile
I can't take the distance
And I'm not ashamed
That I cant take a breath without seeing your name

I cant take the distance, the distance

I'd brave fire.
And I'd brave rain.
To be by your side, I'd do anything.
I can't take the distance.

I will go the distance.
I will go the miles.
That's how much you mean to me.

Cause I can't take the distance
I can't take these miles
I can't take the time until I next see you smile
I can't take the distance
And I'm not ashamed
That with every breath I take I'm calling your name.

It's harder to remember
The longer you're away.
When I find silence.
I don't want the distance.
It's harder to remember
The longer you're away.
When I find silence.
I can't take the distance.
It's harder to remember
The longer you're away.
When I find silence.

b-( :-* :"> >:D< :x :p

Wrong Impression

I really like that song by Natalie Imbruglia

Calling out, calling out
Haven't you wondered
Why I'm always alone
When you're in my dreams
Calling out, calling out
Haven't you wondered
Why you're finding it hard
just looking at me

I want you
But I want you to understand
I need you
I love you

Didn't want to leave you with-
the wrong impression
Didn't want to leave you with my-
last confession(yeah)
Of love
Wasn't trying to pull you in the-
wrong direction
All I wanna do is try to make-
a connection(yeah)
Of love

Falling out, falling out
Have you ever wondered
If this was ever more than a
crazy idea
Falling out, falling out
Have you ever wondered
What we could've been, if you'd
only let me in

I want you
But I want you to understand
I miss you
I love you

Didn't want to leave you with-
the wrong impression
Didn't want to leave you with my-
last confession(yeah)
Of love
Wasn't trying to pull you in the-
wrong direction
All I wanna do is try to make-
a connection(yeah)
Of love

Have you ever wondered?

I need you
I love you

Didn't want to leave you with-
the wrong impression
Didn't want to leave you with my-
last confession(yeah)
Of love
Wasn't trying to pull you in the-
wrong direction
All I wanna do is try to make-
a connection(yeah)
Of love

I didn't want to leave you there
I'm calling out (yeah)
Wasn't trying to pull you in the wrong direction
Well I'm calling out (yeah)
Wasn't trying to pull you in the wrong direction
I'm calling out

so I'll be going back this day.. (can't delay anymore!!)
Reasons to go back
1. No money.
2. My last bits of toothpaste had went onto the floor instead of the tooth brush! ekekke!!
3. I really have to squeeze my shower foam for my next shower.
4. hugs hugs huggsssss!! (cehh.. really should get myself a boyfriend. ekekke!!!)
5. can't wait to show off some new stickers on my cpu to Belba though she didn't really care! hahaha~!
6. everyone else is going back home!!

okay.. that's it! 6 reasons.. enough ek? :D
So I'll be updating the blog 'til the time to get home.. eh! Til the time I had to get the plugs off and all.. or Papa will get angry!! heehee~ He hates waiting.. only for special reasons.. and so do I! :D
Somehow I can't wait for the next school term!! Reaaaaaaaally anticipating! Though my holiday haven't started yet! ekekke!
The Ramadhan doesn't feel much like Ramadhan.. and this coming Raya doesn't feel much like Raya.. (I think!) Seemed like everything's going too fast somehow.. :)
This trimester have been.... heehee.. I don't know! Can't find the ONE word that relates to this semester. But I guess.. what this trimester is really.. WILD. Everyday is a crazy joyride that goes up and down and kept changing lanes. But all is good. Not saying that I'm mature now.. (not at all!!!) But I'd say that I grew some bits during the two months.. :)
And heyy! It's been 9 months! ekeke! 9 months of what? entahlaaa.. :p Persistant and consistant! I make myself proud...! :)) But I don't usually end what I had started 'coz I get bored midway.. hohoho! So we'll just see.. ;)
And a bit on this coming trimester has something to celebrate about! hahahha!! Can't wait to talk about that one when I get back! Words are swimming through my mind now.. :D
I love writing.. I love writing.. and writing loves me! ekkeke!!
I'm having fun typing all these out.. hope you've enjoyed reading it too! :D

Selamat Aidilfitri~!!
Maaf batin.. ekkee! I don't think I ever hit anyone so hard that they'd get mad at me! ekeke! :D I really am sorry for all the wrong-doings I did throughout the year. The wrong things I said.. and yeah, the wrong things I done as well. :) No Raya cards like An and Shahnon.. sorry~! :">
To those who consider theirselves as closest to me.. you guys are the best!!!! :x Mintak maap banyak-banyak for being so dimwitted sometimes!

and.. Enjoy the holidaaaaay~!!!!!
haa~! Relaxation from assignments, projects and studies.. We've survived yet another trimester!! wooh~!!
Have fun, okie peeps! To those who can drive... Darling, Bahijah, Shahnon, An, Dzayed.. drive safely!!! To Ana and Asha.. get your driving license quick laah!! Bole drive kan Wanie merata-rata~! hahahha!! Asha especially.. :D (coz she keeps breaking the law! hahaha!)

oh ohh! not forgetting.. simpanlah duit raya tu elok elok yee... sebab my birthday is coming!!!
HAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAH!!! Get me something! Get me something!! Kamon Kamonnn~! Ayohh ayohh ayoooohhh~!

gosh! this is the most FUN post I've ever written! :))
Take care peeps!! Jangan letupkan tangan korang.. nanti takleh chat! ekekkee!!
Well.. just take good care of yourselves.. >:D<

I'm scared but not too much.. :D

okay! here's something I've written such a long time ago.. During the break before Beta, I think.. :D Just thought I should post it somewhere.. Lama sangat simpan.. :p

Refuse to let it fall apart
As I lay alone in my bed
Feels so hollow in my heart
But so many questions in my head
I stare out the window to see what's outside
And all I get to see is, the shadows of the night
I'm trying to read what I feel inside
I see nothing, too dark and no light

Funny how I don't know what I feel
It gets hard as I don't know what to do
This feeling, so different and yet so real
And somehow it leads me towards you
Questions unanswered, it's making me confuse
Too many things to see, it all seemed blurry
Waiting mindlessly for a sign I could use
But this could be, right where I should be

bluerghh~!! crappy, I KNOW! I can't really rhyme lahh!! :">

just returning the favor.. :D

Asha gave me this quiz of hers.. (which I only manage to score 50!! bluergthh~) so, I just thought I'd do the same thing to her.. tengok dia leh jawab lebih taaak.. ekekke!!
So heyy! You peeps can try this as well! Most of the answers are in this blog really.. so if you've been following it.. you'll be just fine! :D

Take my Quiz on QuizYourFriends.com!

I hate blackheads..

I think my nose is so full with them! Maybe if I could get them all off, I could actually form another nose! huhuu~ Okay, so I was exagerrating.. but I really do hate blackheads!! :p
Prisca.. you're such a dear!! No matter what people might say about you.. I think I get the idea of YOU.. so I'll trust you rather than them! :x Yen's lucky.. and you're lucky to have Yen too~! I wish someday I'll get a hold on someone as cool as him! ekkeke! "Oh Asha and Dzayed is so cooooooooooooooooool~!!!" (scream this like Cursive does, wokie?!) heehee~! :x
Tadi kaaann... :D Asha brought me some drummets and bread for sahur! :D :x She's SO thoughtful.. Dahlaa tadi berbuka menyedihkan betul.. (I was in a crappy mood!) Just had some drink, and some crackers (felt like a parrot for eating too many crackers these days! :( ) and then I fell asleep. huhuu~ But nowww!! Rase cam tak patut kecik ati kat Asha for anything she does in 2 months! ekekke! (not that I always do.. :p) Immune from kesalahan.. :)) Then we went to 7eleven in Putrajaya to get some other things.. :D
Money update!:
In my wallet: RM 3.50
Phone credit: airtime: RM 0.06, sms: RM 0.20, valid until: 21/11/2003.
Hahhaa~! Life doesn't get any better than this.. :p Funny how life is not all about money, but you have to have money to live.. Gotta get home tomorrow.. I refuse to eat any more crackerssss!! Bluergthh~!!

Visited this blog somehow.. and I don't know why but I like this lines she wrote: (there are typos!)

..I had the impression that you where crazy about me. He said I'm not crazy about you..but I could be .... He said if you showed interest in me I could be crazy about you but I'm afraid to be right now..I don't want to get hurt. (which is justified since I keep telling him about not being ready)

He wanted to know is there potiential..I told him there is a lot of potential for this relationship and that I want it to go forward,,but I can't make promises before I'm sure I can keep them. But that I was willing to commit to getting to know him better and seeking the Lord's will in the matter.

I told him---if he wants to put our relationship on hold....and investigate other girls...that was ok. ---no non i don't want to do that--he says Or if he wanted to go forward with this relationship then their needed to be only one person (me!!). He said I want it to go forward....

hehhe! I had to read it some times so I can understood it well.. :D Like I said, I don't know why I liked the line. Maybe for it's open-ness. heehee~ It just amazes me how some people can really say what they wanted to say.. without getting it to sound stupid like I always did.. :p
Well, I should try harder!! yoshhh!!!
Seems like I've been visiting plenty of blogs lately.. :D I'd say that most of them were interesting! There are some lines that I just can't get my thoughts off it.. (or I won't promote any of the blogs I've ever mentioned!.. unless they're my friends.. :D )

Missing. missing.. missing...
time is wasted all over again because of you..
I'm here while you're not... Maybe you just didn't care..
As always... :p
Oh well.. no point of nagging on it 'coz you're doing what you like and I'm doing what I like!
only wish that we're doing it together though.. heehee! :p
I wonder if you knew that I was talking to you all along.. :)
If only time can be rewind..

I wish I was half as good as you at keeping secrets.

heehee.. I do wish that way.. 'coz I don't know how to lie.. or dodge questions.. Ask me anything and the biggest chances are, you'll be getting the very answer that I hated to say. I take soooo much time to say something else than the truth and by then, everyone would know that I was going to lie. I am so jealous of those people that can fake how they feel or say the things that is far from the truth with a straight face. I guess I'm at a lost for not having that ability. I am simply imperfect no matter how I tried to be..
Should I give up trying?
'Coz if I do.. one day later I'll be whining about the same thing all over again...
But maybe.. it's just meant to be.. I am meant not to know these things for some reasons..
Just maybe...

in a liking of this song tonight..
It's About Time by Lillix

I't's about life,
I'ts about fun
I hate you, I love you
I just can't remember to forget you
Who are you, who needs you?
You make me feel alive, I die, so high
I'm crawling on the ground
And I've found I can fly

One of these days it all comes together
One of those days that goes on forever
Think I sound crazy? Maybe, whatever
What's it all about?

It's about life, it's about fun
It's over before it has begun
It's about you, it's about me
It's about everything between and I say
I'm saying goodbye to you, I say hi to you with no clue
It's about time that I
Make up my mind

It's simple, confusing, the truth is I'm winning but I'm losing
And pulling and pushing, won't do me any good
It could, it should
I'm honest to myself that the truth is I lied

One of these days it all comes together
One of those days that goes on forever
Think I sound crazy? Maybe, whatever
What's it all about?

It's about life, it's about fun
It's over before it has begun
I't's about you, it's about me
It's about everything in between and I say
I'm saying goodbye to you, I say hi to you with no clue
It's about time that I
Make up my mind

Time is creeping behind me, surrounding around me
Fading the words so desperately
Now give me a reason that I can believe in
Time is something you can't rewind
One of these days it all comes together
One of those days that goes on forever
Think I sound crazy? Maybe, whatever
What's it all about?

It's about life, it's about fun
It's over before it has begun
I't's about you, it's about me
It's about everything in between and I say
I'm saying goodbye to you, I say hi to you with no clue
It's about time I
Make up my mind
I wonder why are we having this silence.. don't you see that I'm right here just because of you?
tak ske tak skeeeeeeeee!!!

:D :D

seems like I'll be doing yesterday's record all over again!! :))
LOVING THIS SONG for it's lyrics and cute piano song!! :D

Out Of My League by Stephen Speaks

It's her hair and her eyes today
That just simply take me away
And the feeling that I'm falling further in love
Makes me shiver but in a good way
All the times I have sat and stared
As she thoughtfully thumbs through her hair
And she purses her lips, bats her eyes
And she plays with me sittin there slacked jaw
And nothing to say

Coz I love her with all that I am
And my voice shakes along with my hands
Yes she's all that I see and she's all that I need
And I'm out of my league once again

It's a masterful melody
When she calls out my name to me
As the world spins around her
She laughs, close her eyes
And I feel like I'm fallin but it's no surprise

Coz I love her with all that I am
And my voice shakes along with my hands
Coz it's frightening to be swimming in this strange sea
But I'd rather be here than on land
Yes she's all that I see and she's all that I need
And I'm out of my league once again

It's her hair and her eyes today
That just simply take me away
And the feeling that I'm falling further in love
Makes me shiver but in a good way
Often times I have sat and stared
As she thoughtfully thumbs through her hair
As she purses her lips, bats her eyes
And she plays with me sittin there slacked jaw
And nothing to say

Coz I love her with all that I am
And my voice shakes along with my hands
Coz it's frightening to be swimming in this strange sea
But I'd rather be here than on land
Yes she's all that I see and she's all that I need
And I'm out of my league once again

I wonder I wonder I wondeerrrrrrr!!!!

the tap leaks again

boncit..
tak dapat jumpe nina before raya...
she's going back to penang with abg. min and i dont feel like being selfish and let her get me from this place..
but somehow terase i'm making a "sacrifice" that is simply stupid..
wuwuuu.. rasenye nina tak tau kot wanie nangis.. :D managed to control my voice dengan penuh macho! :))
nina, slamat ari rayaaa.. maaf zahir batin.. love ya' always..
rase cam i hate the fact that you're married.. but i know it makes you happy..
and i like to see you happy... :D

:(( :( :| :) :x

time ticks away...

I wonder if I have more time for the things I wish to do first.. :p
Done with the exam paper!! woohhh~!! Pretty funny considering how dumb I actually felt having to answer all those history questions.. bluerghh~! The day was pretty... amusing I have to say! :D
Okay, since me and Prisc were in different rooms, I really can't budget out how long I can waste my time in that room.. :D But somewhere around 3:20..? I saw Asha outside the door!! HAHAHAH! Gile punye budaaak.. cepat betul jawab!! So, I did mine like crazy jugek so she wouldn't have to wait for long.. hehhe! I got out at 3:40, met up Fairy a while outside the room (she was waiting for someone, I suppose!) and walked to the foyer (?) and saw Asha talking to Avi! (haa.. seb baik she has something to do while waiting.. :D) Tatau apsal Wanie lambat sket nak jawab.. ekkeke! (sebenanye tahu...)
It's entertaining lah~ (to myself) I was reading through the questions and then this stupid feeling surfaces inside of me.. ekkeke! Termengelamun mengelamun.. termenong termenong.. Biol~! :p
So anywaysss!! After meeting up Asha, we went to Dzayed's exam room and see how he answers the paper. ekekke! He also happened to be in the same room as Dar! heehee~ Dar nampak sangat serius menjawab soalan!! :D While Dzayed, when he saw us outside.. dia mula buat aksi aksi pelik! ekkeke! :))
Oh, kat luar tu tadi ade Popo.. hehhe! :p
After Asha and Dzayed dropped me off at the zebra crossing, bumped into Achot! And he said, "baaiknyee tunggu kawan balek.." ('coz he saw me waving at the pair 'til the car moved away) huhuu~ Yeee.. saye sangat baik! :p
oh humm.. tadi cam sempat caught RP's eyes for a moment.. I thought I saw her smiled.. and she really did.. :)

something to relate to~!

Okaay.. so here's yet another Vertical Horizon's song that I like.. And I like this one for both the music and lyrics! :x

All Of You

So you say
I'm too quiet
Holding things
Up in my head

I say so much
But you don't buy it
I don't want to wake up
Alone in my head

Say that you'll never go now
don't go don't go

I need a lot of you
I want a lot of you
I need a lot of you
All of you

I tend to think
I'm getting nowhere
I drag it out
Whenever I can

Someday
I'll get back there
And find the world
You dropped from your head

Oh but some things you'll never show now
I know
I know

I need a lot of you
I want a lot of you
I need a lot of you
All of you

Watch you coming up
Out on top now
Watch you coming up

I need a lot of you
I want a lot of you
I need a lot of you
All of you

heehee~

wanie terlupa!!

EPPY BIRTHDAY MAMAAA~!!

heehee~! Balek nanti lah wish betul-betul..
Patut call ke? ekekkeke

pelik betul..

shahnon (3:27:50 AM): heppi nampak

ekekek! hepi sket sket je yeee :p Good luck for Saturday's paper Shahnon~! I'll be done by this afternoon~! weeee~! Macam nak jeles tak? But I think I'm getting jealous for the fact that you've already gone home!! :p Tak aciiiiiii!
So yesterday I stopped at 11 posts! ekekeke! I WAS crazy after all.. banyak betuuuulll!! Well, I think there's three posts yang boleh di ignore! :)) (mengelat, tak nak mengaku memang saje post banyak!)
Okie.. it's soooo close to Raya, kan? :D Thanks Shahnon and An for giving me the Raya card!! ekekke! Next year Wanie reply, ekk! Tak rajen nak carik site e-card yang best.. :"> ehheee~ Also thanks to that person who sent the Raya card to my home. huhuuu~ Belba said I had one, but I don't know who it's from.. :D Nak kene balek umah and see who it's from!! :D
My mood has lifted.. Cam tetiba perasan! ekekke! Hopefully no one will say anything stupid to me today that would make me feel the opposite again.. huhuu~
Okay, loving this song for the song!! Vertical Horizon - Finding Me The lyrics doesn't mean anything to me.. (I think!) So now I have two bands that I reaaaaaaaally do like. Vertical Horizon and Good Charlotte!! :D And I like Michelle Branch too! heehee..
Felt like I'm starting to put hope on someone all over again.. HAHAHHAH!! Terok betul.. I'm a hypocrit.. :| Cakap tak serupa bikin.. But who knows.. maybe in the long term, I will change... But I'm not sure if this is for the better or the worse.. we'll just see! Maybe nothing would change.. after all.. You can't teach old dogs new tricks. But one thing about that saying... I'm not a dog.. and I've never learn any tricks what so ever in my whole life! hahahha~! So maybe we should strike that saying out later.. :D
Nak mandikkk!!

"love can be so boring" (Vertical Horizon - Best I Ever Had).. It should be wrong!!

:x :x :x

:D
>:D<
:">
:x
:p

boncit..
termakan pujuk lak... heehee~!
tapi best! ekekek! So it's not a lost at all.. :D :x

*#^&!@#$#@*%$$#^#

You know.. they are only signs.. it doesn't mean anything! Honestly.. what has come out from my mouth just now wasn't really curse words.. 'coz I'm BEYOND cursing.. What I'm feeling right now is more to disappointed and heartbroken and depressed..
And I thank my two good buddies for that! yeaaaaaaaay~!
Honestly, if I don't know a person.. what ever the person does to me won't matter anything! Really..!
It only hurts when you trust that someone deeply..
TRUST
TRUST...
Seems like I've been getting hurt by believing in that word.
Lill is right after all.. Everyone is selfish.. And you can't put hopes on anyone.. And you can never trust anyone fully.. I'm such a stupid git for believing that she was wrong!
Thanks Prisca for hanging around...

morale of this: I NEED TO CHANGE!

10th post for today...

this has never happened before. 10 posts in a day! What an absurd blogger I am..
Listening to yet another stupid song by *NSYNC. serious tatau mane datang lagu niehhh!!!
I was feeling depressed just now. Entah mengapa. Just felt like puking.. (I always feel that way when my insides are 'bothered')
Kenape kenape??
Tak tahu tak tahu..
I wish I knew why.. but there are just times when I don't even know what I feel..
For myself.. or anyone else...

Love Song For No One

by John Mayer

Staying at home alone on a Friday
Flat on the floor looking back
On old love
Or lack thereof
After all the crushes are faded
And all my wishful thinking was wrong
I'm jaded
I hate it

I'm tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
So tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
(get here)

Searching all my days just to find you
I'm not sure who I'm looking for
I'll know it
When I see you
Until then, I'll hide in my bedroom
just staying up all night just to write
A love song for no one

I'm tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
So tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here

I could have met you in a sandbox
I could have passed you on the sidewalk
Could I have missed my chance
And watched you walk away?(2 times)

I'm tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
So tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
You'll be so good
You'll be so good for me

If only wishes could be dreams and all my dreams could come true..

There'd be the two of us standing here in front of you..
:) Somehow I really like that line from M2M's Mirror mirror..
Also in a liking of Mr Big - Next To Be With You
I'm the one who wants to be with you
deep inside i hope you'll feel it too (feel it too)
wave it on a line of ways and blues
just to be the next to be with you...

This is going to be such a boring night. It's getting SO boring that I just spent the last minute trying to sort my bulu kaki so it goes only one way.. HAHAHHA~!! Stupid betul.
Bahijah had already gone home.. leaving a message on a post-it that she stuck on my monitor screen.. Felt a bit sad, looking at it. Should've hold on for some more minutes so I could hug her goodbye.. but I was so sleepy that it just makes things stinks!!... 3 weeks to see her again.. :(
the things I love about school: friends friends friends
the things I hate about school: uninteresting assignments and subjects
the things I love about home: unlimited hugs from Papa, and Belba shouting around at me and I shout back.. heehee~
the thing I hate about home: Mama getting jealous/angry 'coz I'm so attached to Papa.. hahhaha!! no laah~ what I hate is being so far from my friends.. it gets boring when I'm left alone..

And if I go back tomorrow.. it'd be 3 weeks away from seeing Prisca and Rosie.. 3 weeks away from chatting through the night with Beastmaster.. 3 weeks away from the internet... 3 weeks away from having something else to worry than my heart.. 3 weeks away from getting myself busy.. 3 weeks away from fooling around with my roommates.. 3 weeks away from getting up early and excited to go to class.. 3 weeks away..
Hope that I'll still be the same after that. Hope that everyone's still the same by then.. Hope that my feelings will never change..

I love Vertical Horizon.

*tuk*

rase cam sendiri kene marah...
o well, prepared myself for that, somehow..
but not that much.
so sekarang ade rase sedikit kecewa for sharing...
bluerghh~
buat tak tau aje lah yeee~
ade sedikit boncit~
tapi to myself somehow...

if you'd like to know...

got this from one of the blogs I was browsing through.. Kinda long, though.. Skip it if you're not interested.. (why bother, anyways?)

Me
name = Ida Hazwanie.
piercings = just one on both ears. (wish there'd be more but Papa would be SO furious.. bluerghh~)
tattoos = a small heart at the back. hahahha!! kidding.. NONE.. serious!!
height = 163cm
shoe size = 5.. (american, I think!)
hair color = err.. reaaaaaaally dark brown but with uneven lighter shade of brown at some parts.. huhuu~
length = hung a bit above the shoulder.
siblings = 2 elder sisters.
pets = cats.. err.. 4? But they walk around to other people's houses.. except this one which is 'disabled'. it can't even stand up since birth..

LAST:
movie you rented = err.. Freaky Friday, I think!
movie you bought = never bought one.. I cilok my sisters' all the time! heehee~!
song you listened to = You And I Both by Jason Mraz :x
song that was stuck in your head = Perfect by Simple Plan (Prisc put it there!)
thing you've downloaded = song, The Sign by Ace of Base.
cd you bought = whoaa~ such a long time ago.. err.. Sixpence, Divine Discontent.
cd you listened to = does fully downloaded album counts? Vertical Horizon, Go.
person you've called = err.. miscalled Prisca just this morn! :D No credit to call for real! huhuu~
person that called you = Prisca! she called me back after I miscalled her.. heehee! :x
tv show you've watched = err.. a korean drama on TV3. The Story of a Bright Girl was it called? Kak Mai turned it on and I just saw some bits of it.. that was the day before yesterday, though!
thinking of = humm.. Rosie

Do..
you have a bf or gf = nope.
you have a crush on someone = yeah.
you wish you could live somewhere else = definitely.
you think about suicide = sometimes.. but I'll stay discontent that way, so I won't do anything my stupid inner-voice suggested.
you believe in online dating = ekkeke! Dar-ling, were we dating?? ekkeke!
you want more piercings = yesss!! but Papa won't let me.. (but I might do it secretly one day, though.. shhhh~)
you want more tattoos = haram weihh.. haraammm! heehee!
you drink = non-alcaholic drinks? yesss..!
you do drugs = ubat batuk when I'm coughing real baad! heehee!
you smoke = seesha doesn't count, does it?
you like cleaning = bluerghh~!! my sisters had to do it for me! :x
you like roller coasters = yeahh!! I love screaming my head off. (even when it's not that scary)
you write in cursive or print = both.. depends on the mood
you carry a donor card = umm.. nope

For or Against..
teenage smoking = against.
doing drugs = against.
premarital sex = err.. mostly against..
driving drunk = reaaaaally against.
soap operas = hahah! for, if it's not lame. (that Pangako Sa Yo's okaay)

Best...
tv show = umm.. reality tv's okay (not quite bored of Survivor yet!) CSI and Gilmore Girls.
thing in the world = music music music.
thing to collect = true friends.
colors of all time = red!!.. sometimes blue or purple though.
thing to do on a rainy day = have shower in it with someone you care :D
feeling in the world = to love, being loved and appreciated.

Have you...
ever cried over a guy = heehee.. :"> yeahh..
ever lied to someone = sure! :))
ever been in a fist fight = umm.. somewhat like it.. huhuu~

What...
Perfume do you use = Ketiak Masamm by CK. hahhaha~!! I don't use perfume.. selalu terlupa nak pakai, so I don't bother anymore.. :p
shoes do you wear = red Converse. kinda stuck with it for the moment. just waiting for it to fall apart! :D
are you scared of = total-black darkness, heights, loneliness, not having enough time.

Number...
of continents I have lived in? = just Asia..
of drugs taken illegally? = none.
of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends? = just 2. and I haven't seen them for months!!!
of people I consider my enemies? = heehee~ I get jealous of people easily and I hate them sometimes but they're not my enemy.. :p
of times my name has appeared in the newspaper? = just once.. heehee~ was on the Malaysian Flag of 92's Flora Fest.
of scars on my body? = agak banyak, I think! I'm accident prone.. I can even fall on clear ground.. or bump my head for no reasons at all.. :(

Have you ever...
Fallen for your best friend? = ekkeke! guy bestfriend or gurl?? guy yes, gurl no..
Made out with JUST a friend? = no no no no.
Been in love? = maybe.. but I always thought of it as the "illusion" of love. agak sipi sipi.. cheating ni kot! ekekeke!
Cheated on someone? = erkk! umm.. not cheated, but I had a crush on someone while I was in a relationship.. :p

Who was the last person...
You touched? = Prisca!! can't get enough of her.. arrRrrRr (horny sound!) AHHAHAHA!!
You talked to? = Lily.. said goodbye to her at the stairs.
You hugged? = Papaaa!! in his visit last Sunday.. :x

Have you/are you/do you....
Considered a life of crime? = hahha! yeah..
Considered being a hooker? = no waaaaaaaayyy!!
Considered being a pimp? = hahahhahah!! no noo..
Are you psycho? = at some points, yess!
Split personalities? = just when I talk against my head and heart.. huhuu~
Schizophrenic? = I think not.
Obsessive compulsive? = some bit. some things NEED to be just the way I wanted it to be.. :p
Panic? = only when really unexpected incident/accidents happen
Anxiety? = yesss
Depressed? = somewhat.. :p
Obsessed with hate? = I'm just angry.. but I can't hate.. (I just don't.. oh! except with things like maths! hahha!) :)
Dream of mutilated bodies, blood, death, and gore? = death.. a few times.. I don't like that!
Dream of doing those things instead of just seeing them? = what those things? But yeah, I have.. whatever that those things means. :D

Are you...
Understanding: only when people doesn't talk in too many hints.
Open-minded: I consider myself that.
Interesting: maybe not.. but I hope I am to some people! :|
Hungry: nope.
Friendly: not so, but trying to be. :D
Childish: super!! :))
Healthy: nope. I have a sickness. :-S
Difficult: not surprised if I am to some.. :p
Thirsty: VERY!!
Responsible: when needed, I can be.
Sad: somewhat.. :|
Happy: kinda numb right now.. :|
Trusting: VERY! Lill thinks it's lame but I can't help it! huhuu~
Talkative: just to my dearests~!!! :x
Lonely: err.. right now.. I feel like it. just a bit though!
Own a webcam? : nope!
Current Clothes: small tee of green-yellow-blue and jeans. (blom tuka dari pagi tadik!)
Current Mood: wishful.. always and always.. :(
Current Taste: umm.. my mouth is dry right now. (forgot to have a drink right before imsak!!)
Current Hair: hanging.. bushy a bit.. can't quite bother about it!
Current Annoyance: my shoulders hurt from sitting in front of the computer too long.. :p and my lips too 'coz I accidentally bit it last night at breakfast. bluerghh~!
Current Smell: lime from my shampoo.. huhuu~
Current thing you ought to be doing: GET MORE SLEEP! or maybe study for tomorrow's Malaysian Studies paper.
Current Book: haven't read one for monthhhssss!
Current DVD In Player: none.
Current Refreshment: none-available.
Current Worry: if I'll be losing my favorite game.. ekk!! should be worrying about my typography, should I? (but I'm not!)
Current Crush: hahahha!! busy-body betul! :p

On Dating....
Long or short hair? = short!! guys are meant to have short hair! case closed..!
Dark or blond hair? = dark dark dark!!
Tall or short? = taller than me, please!
Ms. Sensitive or Ms. Funny? = somewhere in between.. :x
Good boy or bad boy? = not good. ahahhah!! but not bad either. Just that good is usually dull.. :p If he's right in the middle.. he'd be SUPER!
Dark or light eyes? = dark dark dark!
Pierced or no? = no no no no no no no!!!!!

On preferences....
Chocolate milk or hot chocolate? = hot chocolate
McDonalds or Burger King? = umm.. umm.. both? okay okay.. umm.. burger king! 'coz I'm so used of McD.. :p
Marry the perfect lover or the perfect friend? = both if possible.. if not, the perfect friend.. :)
Sweet or sour? = sweet.
Root Beer or Dr. Pepper? = root beer root beer!
Sappy/action/comedy/horror? = all! ekeke! more to sappy I think.. I like the ones that touches the heart.. :p
Ocean or Pool? = ocean.. always!
With or without ice-cubes? = with!
Shine or rain? = umm.. rain.. but not for long!
Winter/Summer/Fall/Spring? = autumn, maybe!
Vanilla or Chocolate? = both.. but if I REALLY have to choose, vanilla!
Gloves or mittens? = mittens are cuter. :))
Eyes open or closed? = one open, one closed! hahha! :p
Fly or breathe under water? = fly!!
Bunk-bed or waterbed? = it doesn't matter much.. but water maybe..
Chewing gum or hard candy? = toffee~! I don't care! I still prefer toffees!! :p
Motor boat or sailboat? = sailboat.

10 people you want to meet(in random order)
1. papa
2. izzati
3. crush crush
4. prisca & lill!! (oops! 2 ppl, but I really wanna hang out 'coz I'm bored!!)
5. avril so I can throw her with something.. (I can be punk as well laa~)
6. orlando bloom!! :x
7. jason behr too~! :x
8. my evil twin - Musz
9. Hanis as well!!
10. Bella and Belladonna~!
so that actually makes 12 people! huhuu~

9 things you wear everyday
1. undies!! hahaha! :p
2. specs.
3. the gold ring and necklace Mama gave me
4. earrings
5. something comfy and breathable.. :D
humm.. I don't wear up to 9 stuffs laa~! Less is more.. ;;) ekekkeke!!

8 of your favorite foods
1. mac and cheese
2. pizza
3. Bella's cooking (just gimme anything and I'll finish it!!!)
4. ice cream!! (I scream for ice cream!)
5. junk foods
6. does starbucks' rhumba counts? ekekke!
7. otak otak (crazy for it these days!)
8. tau foo far (tatau apsal crazy for this since last Ramadhan! hahha~!)

7 of your closest friends (at random)
1. Musz
2. Hanis
3. Prisca
4. Lily
5. Beastmaster.. ekkeke! :p
6. RP
7. my sisters; Belba and Belladonna
so that's actually 8! :D

6 of your favorite shows
1. CSI
2. survivor
3. charmed
4. roswell
just can think of this 4 right now..!

5 things in your room
1. my bed
2. my computer
3. my unwashed clothes (all over the place!)
4. my assignments stuff (also all over the place!)
5. pix of my friends (yeah.. all over again!)

4 things you ate today
since I'm fasting (I think! hahha~!) there's just one..
1. nasik goreng daging merah @ Malee

3 things you could not live without
1. my heart for those I care.. :p
2. music music music!!
3. guys.. :-* hahahha!! Papa laa.. Papaaa! :p

2 books you recently read
1. erkk! umm.. Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix (for the 2nd/3rd time!)
2. blablaa.. introduction to Operating System.. hahha!! Just read some bits on Kernel.. (Colenel Sanders!)
spelling?

1 thing you said today
1. boncit btol~!!

woww!! I'm finally done! And you've finally finished reading it! Well done! *taps on shoulder* :p

nothing to be seen...

Felt somewhat invisible this morning.. Thanks dude for making feel me this way.. You've been very helpful.. (NOT AT ALL!!)
Been feeling furious for RP's irresponsabilities. HOW DID YOU GET THIS WAAAAAY!! You disappointed me today, for real! I'm sorry for saying that, and I'm sorry for cursing a bit this morning.. Before today I used to get jealous of the time you spent with your bf but now my mind's totally changed. Right now, you can just do what ever you like to do 'coz I'm just numb about you right now.. I don't even know you anymore!!.. And Prisca have nagged on you this morning 'aight? So that's it.. do what so ever you like to do.. I wish for your happiness!
Sent the photography work with Prisc and Lill. It went fine.. THANK GOODNESS! The lecturers didn't comment much.. I think they kinda liked the Oreo, even! hahha~! Did some things at the very last minute.. but we three manage to pull it together. Dengan tak malu nyee... Prisca, Lily and Sweetpea roxX!! HAHHAHA~! (I think that should sound MIGHTY silly.
Got into the car after submission and an old song was on! I used to reaaaaaaaaaally love this song! Brought back my standard school memories! :x How Pn. Zaiton kantoikan Wanie jumping around singing this song like a mad man at home. HAHHAHA!! She told the whole class and everyone was like.. smiling around.. :p note from this: get a house faaaaaaaaaar from any of your teachers.. or! If they move in after you did, sabotage their house with pests so they will be forced to get out! HAHAHHA~!

The Sign by Ace Of Base

I got a new life
You would hardly recognize me
I'm so glad
How can a person like me care for you?
Why do I bother
When you're not the one for me?
Oo-oo oo oo-oo
Is enough, enough?

I saw the sign and it opened up my eyes
I saw the sign
Life is demanding without understanding
I saw the sign and it opened up my eyes
I saw the sign
No-one's gonna drag you up
To get into the light where you belong
cause where do you belong?

Under the pale moon
For so many years, I've wondered
Who you are
How could a person like you bring me joy?
Under the pale moon
Where I see a lot of stars
Oo-oo oo oo-oo
Is enough, enough?

I saw the sign and it opened up my eyes
I saw the sign
Life is demanding without understanding
I saw the sign and it opened up my eyes
I saw the sign
No-one's gonna drag you up
To get into the light where you belong
cause where do you belong?
Oh, oh, oh-oh

I saw the sign and it opened up my mind
And I am happy now livin' without you
I've left you
Oh, oh, oh-oh

I saw the sign and it opened up my eyes
I saw the sign
No-one's gonna drag you up
To get into the light where you belong

I saw the sign, I saw the sign
I saw the sign
I saw the sign, I saw the sign
I saw the sign, I saw the sign
I saw the sign and it opened up my eyes
I saw the sign

We went round and round the campus just so the song could finish! Thanks Prisc! Eyyhh! I managed to get the song downloaded in less than a minute! Ain't that just AMAZING!! woohooo~!
I'm tired of thinking/wondering now.. I need a break please~! :D But not too long.. I don't want to lose my heart.. :)

sometimes I boggle my own mind...

too many posts...

Ignore the ones that you refuse to read...

Just read Lill's latest entry..
I guess I do have things to say about it but somehow it turns out to be "all about me" somehow.
I'm not sure if I made it look the way I wanted it to look just now. I guess it's no point asking the real reason of your blog title. To me, you can see your life as you'd like to see it.. 'coz no one's commenting on how I see my life.
Sorry if you feel that that's how much life is worth.. but it's absolutely understandable if you're not content with life.. (as I can't really be sure that I am!)
And I'm sorry if I've 'forced' you to fake what you didn't feel at some times. I guess I was being selfish for always acting the way I am.. not considering what I said to you or the others and did all those childish and immature things that I did without thinking 'bout what the consequences are. I do realize that I can hurt people with my words at times. Sorry for that.
But this morning when you were explaining yourself... it just made me realize one thing.
As much as I thought I know a person.. I really don't! This is the second time I reminded myself that way. The first time was when Zero left me. hehhe! (somehow it made me feel stupid remembering 'bout him.. bluerghh~) I'm sorry for the fact that I trust people to act the way they am as I act the way I am. People are so full of surprises and you are one of those people who has this huge closet of secrets.
I saw it in your eyes this morning.. how you thought that it was absurd.. trying to explain the real you to Prisc. The way you look at us.. I know you wish not to say anything on the subject.. but you did anyways. Why? Was it to make us 'happy'? Sorry if I am wrong about this. I'm still learning about you peeps. (and happy learning it!) Sorry if telling us the things you told us hurt you.. As it somehow did to me. 'Coz it hurts badly.. knowing how a good pretender you really are.. (been realizing that for sometime now..) But this is not about me.. Why should you care about how I feel when we're talking about you, here.. 'aight?
I just wish.. that you didn't have to say that you 'fake' it. Which means that I never knew you. That all this while I never saw the real you.. Have I?
I'm just truly sorry that you have to be the strong person that you are so I can be happy.. how selfish can I get?? I'm really sorry for that..
Maybe someday I can really see the real you.. just maybe one day you won't mind to open up everything to us.. But even if the time will never come.. I hope you have someone that you can really open up to. 'Coz I don't see where's the good from keeping everything bottled up.. I hope that somewhere, there is someone you wouldn't mind sharing your life with.. if not with us..
All I wish is for you to be happy...
You do know that, 'aight?

:x
sometimes I wonder where the heck did I learn to write like this.. :D heehee~

Doll-story

huhuu~ I came to this site one day and found this 'story' which made tears filled my eyes.. ekkeke! I know.. I'm a hopeless.. err.. romantic? Cam poyo lak mengaku romantic.. ekekke! So I take that back and replace it with pathetic.. That's it.. I'm a pathetic at things like these.. :p
Read it if you like..

I have a boyfriend who grew up with me. His name is Jin. I always thought of him as a friend until last year, when we went to a trip from a club. I found that I fell in love with him. Before that trip was over, I took a step and confessed my love for him. And soon, we became a pair of lovers, but we loved each other in different ways.

I always concentrated on him only, but by his side, there were so
many other girls. To me, he was the only one, but to him, maybe I was just another girl Jin, do you want to go watch a movie? I asked.

Jin: "I can't"

Me: Why? You need to study at home?
I felt disappointment grabbing me.

Jin: No. I am going to meet a friend.

He was always like that.

He met girls in front of me, like it was nothing. To him, I was just a girlfriend. The word "love" only came out from my mouth. Since I knew him, I had never heard him say "I love you" before. To us, there weren't any anniversaries at all. He didn't say anything from the first day and it continued till 100 days, 200 days. Everyday, before we say goodbye, he would just hand me a doll, everyday, without fail. I don't know why.

Then one day...

Me: Um, Jin, I...

Jin: What? Don't drag, just say..

Me: I love you.

Jin: you...um, just take this doll and go home.

That was how he ignored my three words and handed me the doll. Then he disappeared, like he was running away. The dolls I received from him everyday, filled my room, one by one. There were many... Then one day came, my 15th year old birthday. When I got up in the morning, I pictured a party with him, and stranded myself in my room, waiting for his call.

But ...lunch passed, dinner passed...and soon the sky was dark he still didn't call. It was already tiring to look at the phone anymore. Then around 2am in the morning, he suddenly called me and woke me from my sleep. He told me to come out of the house. Still, I felt joy and I ran out happily.

Me: Jin...

Jin: Here...take this...

Again, he handed me a little doll.

Me: What's this?

Jin: I didn't give it to you yesterday, so I am giving it to you now.
I'm going home now, bye.

Me: Wait, wait! Do you know what today is?

Jin: Today? Huh?

I felt so sad, I thought he would remember my birthday. He turned around and walked away like nothing had happen.

Then I shouted..."Wait..."

Jin: You have something to say?

Me: Tell me, tell me you love me...

Jin: What?!

Me: Tell me

I put my pathetic self behind and clung on to him.

But he just said simple cold words and left.

"I don't want to say that I love someone so easily, if you are
desperate to hear it, then find someone else."

That was what he said. Then he ran off. My legs felt numb...and I collapsed to the ground. He didn't want to say it easily... How could
he!.

I felt that... Maybe he is not the right guy for me...

After that day, I stranded myself at home crying, just crying. He
didn't call me, although I was waiting. He just continued handing me a little doll every morning outside my house. That's how those dolls piled up in my room... everyday

After a month, I got myself together and went to school. But what
made the pain resurface was that... I saw him on a street...with another girl... He had a smile on his face, one that he never showed me...

I ran straight back home and looked at the dolls in my room, and
tears fell...

Why did he give these to me?? Those dolls are probably picked out by some other girls! In a fit of anger, I threw the dolls around. Then suddenly, the phone rang. It was him. He told me to come out to the bus stop outside my house. I tried to calm myself down and walked to the bus stop. I kept reminding myself that I am going to forget him, that it's going to end. Then he came into my sight, holding a big doll.

Jin: Jo, I thought you were pissed, you really came?

I couldn't help hating him, acting like nothing had happen and joking
around. Soon, he held out the doll as usual.

Me: I don't need it.

Jin: What?. Why?

I grabbed the doll from his hands and threw it on the road.

Me: I don't need this doll, I don't need it anymore!! I don't want to
see a person like you again!

I spitted out all the words that were inside me. But unlike other
days, his eyes very shaking.

"I'm sorry..." He apologized in a tiny voice.

He then walked over to the road to pick up the doll...

Me: You stupid! Why are you picking up the doll?! Just throw it
away!!!

But he ignored me and just went to pick the doll. Then...

Honk~ Honk~

With a loud honk, a big truck was heading towards him.

"Jin! Move! Move away!" I shouted....

But he didn't hear me, he squatted down and picked up the doll.

"Jin, move!"

HONK~!!

*Boom!* That sound, so terrifying. That's how he went away from me. That's how he went away without even opening his eyes to say one word to me.

After that day, I had to go through everyday with guiltiness and the sadness of losing him. And after spending two months like a crazy person I took out the dolls. Those were the only gifts he left me since the day we started going out. I remembered the days I spent with him and started to count the days- when we were in love..

"One...two... three..."

That was how I started to count the dolls...

"Four hundred and eighty four... four hundred and eighty five..."

It all ended with 485 dolls.

I then started to cry again, with a doll in my arms.
I hugged it tightly, then suddenly...

"I love you~, I love you~"

I dropped the dolls,shocked.

"I...lo..ve..you??"

I picked up the dolls and pressed its stomach.

"I love you~ I love you~"

It can"t be!

I pressed all the dolls' stomach as it piled on the side.

"I love you~"

"I love you~"

"I love you~"

Those words came out non-stop.

"I love you~"

Why didn't I realize that???.

That his heart was always by my side, protecting me.

Why didn't I realize that he love me this much...

I took out the doll under the bed and pressed it's stomach, that was the last doll, the one that fell on the road. It had his blood stain on it.

The voice came out, the one that I was missing so much....

"Jo...Do you know what today is? We've been loving each other for 486 days. Do you know what 486 is? I couldn't say I love you..... Um... since I was too shy.

If you forgive me and take this doll, I will say that I love
you.. everyday...till I die.. Jo... I love you!"

The tears came flowing out of me. Why? Why? I asked god, why do I only know about all this now? He can't be by my side, but he loved me until his last minute For that.. and for that reason... to me..... it became courage... to live a beautiful life...

:( It still makes me sad everytime I read it.. bluerrghh! Y'know.. throwing the doll away could be something that I'd do if I get angry.. So I guess I have the tendency to feel guilty later on in the future lah~! huhuuu~ :p
Conclusion that we get from this story; if you like someone, you really should tell them.. 'coz you'll never know.... 'aight?
*tuk*

:D

sorry if I'm posting too much, but since the break is coming.. I just have this tendency to post more and more 'coz I won't get to online as much as I want.. :p
Just got back from sahur with Prisca and Lily.. heehee.. seemed like we're getting into more 'mature' subjects everytime we strike a conversation.. but all is good! :)
Prisc is getting really okay with Yen's car.. heehee! And Yen's so cool to let her drive as much as she does these days..!
Imagining myself having a large Rhumba.. I don't know.. Just felt like getting myself "high" for not being able to get sleep 'coz of the caffeine! ekkeke!!
But I should get some sleep now.
Photography submission in the morning.. :-S

why do I feel like time is wasted..?

can you take me higher?

I know you can... :D I'm such a trusting person, don't you think? heeheee!
Anyways!! It's a boring night.. waiting for the time to get sahur..
Been spending the night helping Prisc and Lill getting their blogs to work.. kehkehkeh!! Rase cam pandaaaaaaaaii!! wooh~! RP's out with Jai, I think.. :p Jeles btol orang kuar malam-malam nihh!!
Ehh.. suddenly reminded of a promise someone made to me.. chihh, you liar youuu!! ekekke! :p
Humm.. 30 mins left before going out with Prisc and Lill...
what shuold I do.. what should I do.....
O well! Let's do the names stuff as seen on Kaoru's and An's!! ekekke!

Matrix - Cleo (like the magazine.. wuwuuu)
Elvish - Finduilas Lúinwë (berbelit lidah!)
Hobbit - Sweetpea Tighfield of Tookbank (heehee~ loving it!)
Clueless - Betty Halle Madden (wahh!! could I be related to the Madden brothers??? :x)
Smurf - Igneous Smurf (hmm?)
DJ - DJ Clumsy Thunder (ekkeke! imagined myself tumbilng over a turn-table!)
Superhero - Archangel (heehee~ I used to like him.. :D)
Afghan terrorist - Abdalla The Kenyan (wahhahaha!!!!)
Jamaican name - Wolde C (err.. no womaan no cryy..?)

alamaaak! 3 o'clock!!

tak mandi laie niee...

hahhhaa~!!
Just spent the night doing multimedia-stuff!
Picked some shots for the pictures page.. (updated!!) and helped Prisca set up her blog layout! ekkeke! Sorry dear, since you don't want to learn by yourself.. you just have to settle for simplicity.. ekkeke! :p
O yeah.. found this pic while sorting out my pictures collection!!
ENJOY! ekkekeke!!

Let's get high!!! :))

Okay, loving this song for the moment!!! Just heard it from my long list of playlist.. ekekke! I really need to sort it out sometime soon.. :D Sangat suka Vertical Horizon~! :x

Won't Go Away by Vertical Horizon

Heal me baby, baby
Won't you
I go crazy, crazy
For you
Won't you tell me, tell me
What to do
I go crazy, crazy
For you

Cause the way you look at me
I can say you set me free
And no matter what you say
I won't go away
I won't go away

I see your world, the world is you
I see baby, baby blue
Everyday is a day to get through
Till I see baby, baby blue

And the way you look at me
I can say you set me free
And no matter what you say
I won't go away
I won't go away

And it takes
Such a long time to get through this
Such a long time to find this kiss
And I can't forget it
I'm not ready yet

And I came such a long way
From where you are
Now I'm falling from this star
And I can't forget it
I'm not ready yet

Cause the way you look at me
I can say you set me free
And no matter what you say
I won't go away
I won't go away

Heal me, baby, baby won't you
I go crazy, crazy
For you
Won't you tell me, tell me
Something new
I am crazy, crazy
For you
I am crazy, crazy
For you
I am crazy, crazy
For you

Okay.. how was my day..?
A bit weird, considering what I SHOULD be feeling.. heehee~
Thanks Dar-ling miskol pagi tadi.. heehee~ :x Or my work memang for sure unfinished.. :p
Humm.. sent the typography work in the morning.. Which turn out to be crappy.. huhuu.. diugut that I will fail this subject and the trimester.. hehhe~ There were tears in my eyes right then but COME ON!! What's the point of regretting the thing that you purposedly did, 'aight? Takde gunaa... It's my own decision, and it's my fault.. I am deserving for what ever I may get. heehee! I think I grew up pretty well, lah! I'm taking responsabilities for my actions! woooh~! I'm making myself proud.. (in some funny way..)
Okaay.. thanks to Lily and Prisca for replacing my non-available conscience.. ekkeke! RP lak tadi cam pandaaang je.. ekekke! Not helpful at all! :p I'm sure I've said some things yang boleh membuatkan my dearest friends annoyed. Seemed like I didn't care much about my future, do I? huhuu~ So thanks, you guys.. You've been very helpful throughout this Beta year.. :x We'll see how it'll go in the next trimester, yaa!
Pape hal pon.. I can still take Media Production Process in the next trimester! That's what we've been waiting for all this long, 'aight? :D
O well, been messing around these days.. Agak teruk!
Had breakfast at Selera Putra with the three.. :D Tak sudah sudah kite nie dengan otak otak yee? ekekke!
So there's the photography submission and Malaysian Studies paper left on Thursday. And then I'll be going back home.. to my ever-dearest family~!! :x Dua minggu tak jumpa Nina, Dida and Izzati~ :( Can't wait can't waaaaaaaaaiiitt!!! :x Entah sejak bilaaa la Wanie jadi homey sebegini. :D Papa!! Needing hugs!! :x Entah bila nak jumpa 'sweetheart' yang bole menggantikan hugs Papa.. ekekkee! I'm getting hopelessly hopeful again.. :p
So what's been on my mind? Just been asking myself.. "Why can't I just have crushes on those typical good-looking guys like Bahijah does?" huhuu~ Won't that be easier to forget? I really should learn to let go 'coz this crush of mine is pulling me in deeper and it keeps getting me wandering in dreams.. :p Buncit btol~!

Asking again if I'll ever get tired of this.. :x I hope not! :D

errr...

feeling MIGHTY HOLLOW inside.. should be feeling something else, though.. oh heck! I'll tell later when I'm less shaky, okie~!

getting to the point where I need ya'~

I simply don't know..

if I'm the silly one or you're sillier than me. All that I know, I'm hurt this night.. somehow..
Wish that somehow you'd understand how it hurts inside without me telling you.. someday...

Been listening to Westlife loads these days! ehhee~ For your info, that line up there; can't lose what you never had, that's really a song by Westlife! heehee~ Been liking that song since I first heard it when I was in Form 3! :D But I still haven't post the lyrics of that song out in here, 'aight? :D

If Your Heart's Not In It by Westlife

I'm missing you
Girl even though you're right here by my side
Cause lately it seems
The distance between us is growing too wide

I'm so afraid that you're saying it's over
It's the last thing that I wanna hear

But if your heart's not in it, for real
Please don't try to fake what you don't feel
If love's already gone
It's not fair to lead me on
Cause I would give the whole world, for you
Anything you ask of me, I'd do
But I won't ask you to stay
I'd rather walk away
If your heart's not in it

You say that you love me
But baby sometimes
You're just saying the words
If you've got something to tell me
Don't keep it inside
Let it be heard

I'm so afraid that you're saying it's over
Girl I'll make it easy for you

If your hearts not in it, for real
Please dont try to fake what you don't feel
If the loves already gone
It's not fair to lead me on
Cause I would give the whole world, for you
Anything you ask of me, I'd do
But I won't ask you to stay
I'd rather walk away
If your hearts not in it

How I wish I could take us back in time
But it's gone too far now we can't rewind
There's nothing I can do
To stop from losing you
I can't make you change your mind
If your heart's not in it

If your hearts not in it, for real
Please don't try to fake what you don't feel
If the loves already gone
It's not fair to lead me on
Cause I would give the world, for you
Anything you ask of me, I'd do
But I won't ask you to stay
I'd rather walk away

If your hearts not in it
Please don't try to fake what you don't feel
If the loves already gone
It's not fair to lead me on
Cause I would give the world, for you
Anything you ask of me, I'd do
But I won't ask you to stay
I'd rather walk away
If your hearts not in it

Okehh, this is my favorite super-small talk for the time being:

wanie (11:10:21 PM): azarul~! get well soooon!
wanie (11:10:24 PM): ok itu je.. :D
wanie (11:10:25 PM): byebye
azarul (11:10:43 PM): hihihi
azarul (11:10:43 PM): tenkiuuuu
azarul (11:10:45 PM): :D
azarul (11:10:53 PM): i will!!
wanie (11:10:57 PM): yeaaaaay!
wanie (11:11:02 PM): pastu kene main gita balek, okie!
wanie (11:11:03 PM): :x
azarul (11:11:12 PM): haffunn wif subm tomoro yaa
wanie (11:11:20 PM): heehee.. okie :p

Macam senang hati tengok Azarul online.. :x

ekk !!!

huwaaaaaa!!
Bahijaaaah~! Sorry!!
Tadi Wanie memula nak bising main-main je.. Sekali cam sangat serius pulak.. Sori BJ! Wanie tak marah langsung.. sorry sorry! Teruknye Wanie nieee.. menda kecik pon nak kecoh! huhuu!
Tak sengaja langsung nak cakap segarang.. sekuat.. se-harsh tadik.. wuwuuu~ sowee~ ;;)
Macam kelaka sikit.. sampai camtu Wanie.. tapi I really didn't mean it! ekkee! okehh? :x

ps: cemane Wanie leh geram/menyampah/sakit ati ngan Bahijah pon.. you're still one of the best!! No doubt!! ekekke! Sayang BJ.. always and always.. :x

message for no one

I hope you're not talking about me.
It's getting me annoyed silently, even when you don't say anything to me.
It's not fair.. everything that you did to me was never fair.. And I get so tired with you. Mentally and emotionally.. You really tire me out, even up til now.
So please don't try to fake what you don't feel.. What you've never felt for me.. Stop all those nonsense 'coz I'm just tired thinking about you! Wondering if you'll ever screw my life..
Everyone has a past, and so happens that ours was not a pleasant one.
Give it up already..
Just as I have already done..
Thank you for everything that you did for me.. but please let me go.. walk away...

I've let us go..

bijak-pandai

yeaaaaaaay~!
Went through the Operating System's paper. Was it hard? ekekke! Actually I felt VERY lucky this morning! 'Coz there were 4 questions and we need to answer 3 of it. So I answered the objectives (which was so fun to guess! ekekke!), the one with the Unix Shell.. (Bahijah mentioned something of it last night! hahha!) and the one with the word Kernel in it (which I read myself to sleep to! ekekke!!) Guess I'm just plain charmed.. :D I always have the right people that I need at the weirdest times. ekkeke!
Well, don't know if I answered them all correctly, but at least.. I only skipped ONE sub-question! ekkeke! Wahhh!! I'm so proud of myself! Papa, you should too~! ekkekeke! (Papa would be nagging at me if he saw how I was last night.. ekkee!) Ehh, everyone should be proud of me! ekeke! :x
Settled our (Asha, Ana, Bahijah and myself) photography right after the exam. Now we only have to focus on the typography~! weeeeeeee!! (now, let's try to focus on how to focus.. ekekke!)
Azarul, get well soon~!!
don't let the guitars collect dusts for long!!
Ina and Amri too~!! Get well get well get well!!!

Just been thinking.. maybe it'll be okay if I'll never move from this confusion. Not knowing how you feel keeps me going somehow and it makes me anticipating for tomorrow. Not knowing keeps me in this circle of wonderings but I never want to lose this feeling. Not this one.. 'coz I want us going always.. and always! heehee! :x What ever happens, I never want to lose this.. even if it's never mine to lose. :)

Stranded by Plumb

You know it only breaks my heart
To see you standing in the dark,
Alone waiting there for me
To come back
I'm too afraid to show

If it's coming over you
Like it's coming over me
Crashing like a tidal wave
That drags me out to sea
And I wanna be with you
If you wanna be with me
I'm crashing like a tidal wave
And I don't wanna be
Stranded, stranded, stranded, stranded

I can only take so much
These tears are turning me to rust
I know you're waiting there for me
To come back
I'm too afraid to show

If it's coming over you
Like it's coming over me
Crashing like a tidal wave
That drags me out to sea
And I wanna be with you
If you wanna be with me
I'm crashing like a tidal wave
And I don't wanna be
Stranded, stranded, stranded, stranded

I miss you, I need you
Without you I'm stranded
I love you so come back
I'm not afraid to show

If it's coming over you
Like It's coming over me
Crashing like a tidal wave
That drags me out to sea
And I wanna be with you
If you wanna be with me
I'm crashing like a tidal wave
And I don't wanna be
Stranded

always and always..

bosan betul. . .

Found this link from Bahijah's blog..

Ida Hazwanie Mohd Idris was a Sensitive Poet in a past life. Discover your past lives @ Quiz Me

I am SO tired of seeing myself surrounded by sensitivity..
Paling geram.. I only got the results just by entering my name. sheesh~!
so crappy! even if it's just a quiz.. pelik la jugek kan, tengok sikit sikit word itu yg keluar..
bluergthhh~!

woke up at 3 and have been spending the day talking to myself...
and Bahijah said thinking too much is actually a disease...

Goodbye Again by Vertical Horizon

I'm on the outside looking in
What do I see
so much of this left to begin
Where would I be
I'm on the outside looking in
Cover me through this night

I guess I don't know what's left to say
Hear me out
All of the dreams of yesterday
keep breaking me down
What's on the outside
can you say?
Am I getting carried away

It's in your mind
It's in your eyes
So it's goodbye again
It's way past time
for one last try
So it's goodbye again

Goodbye again...

I'm getting on
what's the use?
You know how I get
I can't decide which is the truth
at least not yet
I got the feeling that it's you
what can be said alone in this room?
And now...

It's in your mind
It's in your eyes
So it's goodbye again
It's way past time
for one last try
So it's goodbye again

Who wants you now?
Maybe somebody else
I'll wait around
Maybe you'll forget
you were never here
Maybe forget
you were never, never, here...

I'm on the outside looking down
What do I see?
So much of this cold in the ground
Where would I be?
I'm on the outside looking down
Cover me before you go...

It's in your mind
It's in your eyes
So it's goodbye again
It's way past time
for one last try
So it's goodbye again

You're falling out
I'm falling in
so it's goodbye again

It's way past time
for one last try
so it's goodbye....

I feel horrible...

bluerghhh~
feeling MIGHTY horrible somehow. Can't really explain. It's just a feeling I have inside. :(
Updated the layout.. I know it's kinda crappy.. the picture's horrible and the color kinda stink! But heck! I never played with this one before so bear with this 'til I get bored by it. Messy, I know.. an hour's worth of work.. dasar pemalaaas!!
O well.. should get some rest now.. It's starting to rain outside.. and it's just perfect. Reflecting my very feeling this morning..
I really don't know how we got this way, but this is just absurd!! :(

oh! did this quiz:
Your soul is bound to the White Rose: The
Pure.

"I've been waiting in the dark for a long
time, shining my beacon of hope through the
shadow. If you see me, don't you hide your
eyes from me."

The White Rose is associated with purity, honor,
and chastity. It is governed by the goddess
Artemis and its sign is The Cross, or Agape.

As a White Rose, you are a person of your word.
You may have a strong moral code, but
regardless of your virtue, you always stay true
to yourself. To you, love is the most pure of
emotional forms and it's just a matter of
waiting for it to bless you. Some people may
say you are too idealistic, but it's only
because you don't want to mess things up.


What Rose Is Your Soul Bound To?
brought to you by Quizilla

Girl roxXs!!!

at least my friend does~! weeeeeee~!!
Spent the whole day outside..
The day started kinda.. umm.. crappy. Wanted to get shower, but there was no water in hostel. Crappy management! So Asha picked me and Bahijah up so we could get our shower at her place. :x
Okay, the plan was; Jai (Ana's bf) supposed to drive us to KL so we can get our films developed (coz no one else was willing to help! bluerghh~!). But something came up, and he couldn't do it. And so.. us four; Asha, Bahijah, Ana and myself.. decided, "heck! let's just gamble our lucks!" And we ourselves went there all by ourselves by Dzayed's car! (details couldn't be elaborated.. hehheh!) wooaahohhh Asha~!!
Went out at 10:30 am, and we just got back.. 9:20 pm. huuu~ such a tiring dayy!!
So we got our films developed.. Managed to had breakfast with the gurls.. (err, what time was it then? 1:45 pm? hahahha! Asha... Asha.. :)) ) The real breakfast was at Mid-Valley's Mc'D.. (wooaahohhh Ana~!) Printed our slide.. And I managed to grab a Large Rhumba Frappucino from Starbucks :x while Bahijah had a Small Sunrise from Coffee Bean & Tea Leaf. ekekke! (I reaaaally enjoy coffee ice-blends!)
Today is such an amazing day...
Asha, you're amazing!!!!
tired tired tired~!! Should get some rest. I think I'm getting high somehow. ekekke! :D

Heyy you! :p
I Could Be The One by Donna Lewis

I could be your sea of sand
I could be your warmth of desire
I could be your prayer of hope
I could be your gift of everyday

I could be your tide of heaven
I could be a hint of what's to come
I could be ordinary
I could be the one

I could be your blue eyed angel
I could be the storm before the calm
I could be your secret pleasure
I could be your well wishing well
I could be your breath of life
I could be your European dream
I could be ordinary
I could be the one

I would lie here in the darkness
I would lie here for all time
I would lie here watching over you
Comfort you
Sing to you

I could be your worry partner
I could be your socialite
I could be your green eyed monster
I could be your force of light
I could be your temple garden
I could be your tender hearted child
I could be ordinary
I could be the one

I would lie here in the darkness
I would lie here for all time
I would lie here watching over you
Comfort you
Sing to you

Will I ever change the journey
Will the hushed tones disappear
Oh little Rita
Let me hold you
Oh little Rita
Let me love you

I could be your leafy island
I could be your thunder in the clouds
I could be your dark enclosure
I could be your romantic soul
I could be your small beginning
I could be your soothing universe
I could be ordinary
I could be the one

I could be ordinary
I could be the one

I could be ordinary
I could be the one

amazed amazed amazzzeddd~!!

how 'serious' I can be

vavi
humm.. see it how you'd like to see it.
could I accidentally misspelled the word "viva".. or could I have purposedly misspelled a certain curse word in the Malay language? humm.. let's think it together...

sometimes I just feel you so, but sometimes I am just numb.. that's how serious I am about all these. sometimes I see this as a total waste of time. but it's my time to waste, and I happen to have so much time in my hands these days. kinda crappy sometimes. but somehow I just can't help it.

"ignore me.." this goes to whomever that think it means any meaning to them. you can really annoy me sometimes. can't believe how I can get mad at you at times. you can be such a crappy crappy friend, you know that?? trusting you can be my worst mistake. putting any hope on you can be such a big mistake when now I see that you're not at all dependable. but yet again, it's myself to blame.. why should I depend on anyone?? my mistake.. as always. it has always been my mistake.

I am having my period, I don't have time to THINK of what I should or should not say. I am 'surprisingly' more blunt at these times. and I will not beg for your pardon for saying this 'coz this is who I am.. and if you think I'm too much, don't bear me! I can't bear you as well..
so! which vavi do you think I mentioned earlier?

it's a wonder how I don't even feel the slightest guilt...

Sweetpea Tighfield of Tookbank

heehee.. I'm fine now.. :D
Okay, some of my friends went to this site. heehee~ I think I did it before.. and I did! :D The site has been there for a long time, really. And I think I did the name stuff around the first movie's installment. heehee~ Used to even type out all my close friends' name. heehee.. (excited) Name saye sangat cute~ :x ekekke!
In a liking of this conversation I had last night with Ablen.. Though I'm not really sure if we're really talking about the same things here.. ekkeke! Ignore this if you think it's too long to read.. :D

ablen (2:03:55 AM): 'somethin' better than this'... pretty interestin'
ablen (2:04:49 AM): do u want to just keep waiting ??? kalau btol la ader kaitan ngan real life
wanie (2:05:20 AM): maybe...
wanie (2:05:22 AM): sebab
wanie (2:05:55 AM): settling for what i have right now won't make me content for long
ablen (2:08:10 AM): so u just want to keep waiting.. n waiting.. ??
wanie (2:08:43 AM): i'll wait until i get bored of it
wanie (2:09:06 AM): sebab tak taaau
wanie (2:09:17 AM): ntah2 tunggu laie sket je dapat ape yg lebih baik tu
ablen (2:09:42 AM): y don't u make a move to make it quick a lil'..
wanie (2:10:20 AM): move like how?
wanie (2:11:11 AM): maybe somethings are better left alone
wanie (2:11:17 AM): maybe ajelahh
wanie (2:11:18 AM): heehee
ablen (2:11:26 AM): half of it
ablen (2:11:39 AM): is true~
ablen (2:11:41 AM): hehe
wanie (2:11:52 AM): heehee
wanie (2:12:10 AM): lagipun, waiting shows how much i wanted it
wanie (2:12:32 AM): kalo saje2 je.. waiting mmg buang mase
ablen (2:12:40 AM): macamana kalau tunggu2 pon takder jugak ??
wanie (2:12:46 AM): then it's fate lah
wanie (2:12:53 AM): cemane ekk
wanie (2:13:01 AM): pikir ayat jap
ablen (2:13:04 AM): hehe
wanie (2:13:27 AM): saye taknak move sbb saye sendri tak btol2 pasti mmg itu yg saye nak
wanie (2:13:32 AM): so saye tunggu ajelah
wanie (2:13:48 AM): sementara tunggu.. pikir2 jugek
wanie (2:13:52 AM): tak buang mase
ablen (2:14:00 AM): i like that~.. hehe
ablen (2:14:23 AM): so.. if u 100% sure that u want it.. u will make move ??
wanie (2:14:48 AM): umm.. maybe move sikit lah kot
wanie (2:14:53 AM): lebih ade effort
wanie (2:15:00 AM): cam now let things be aje
ablen (2:15:33 AM): hmm hmm
wanie (2:15:47 AM): heehee
ablen (2:16:31 AM): wanie mmg btol2 pandai susun ayat ye~
wanie (2:16:58 AM): :"> domo arigatou~


-Sensitive- You're Sensitive, and you'd like to stay that way. You're sweet and very emotionally charged. You definitely love the person you're with, and always want to know how they're feeling so you can make sure they're happy.


What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?
brought to you by Quizilla
ekekke! kinda interesting for the fact that Ablen said these last night.. :p

ablen (3:05:23 AM): manje tol
ablen (3:05:41 AM): mmg manje
ablen (3:05:42 AM): hoho~ :D
wanie (3:05:44 AM): :p
ablen (3:06:00 AM): hope ur future bf can handle that

hehhe! I hope he can handle me too lah~! :)) ehh.. I keep getting different results of those Quizzillas from my friends lah! Coz all Ana, Asha and Bahijah got -Perfect Girlfriend-.. even Majin (and Dar too!) is a perfect girlfriend for some guy out there! ekekek! O well, I AM imperfect.. :p
Ohh.. sorry girl, for not choosing to go with you. I'm needing a "me" time right here.. :)

...
notice how empty this post really is?

urghh demmit..
why cant i stop crying over some stupid measly thing..!
all i wanted was to be at home.. hug my dad as much as i can.. coz that's what i needed most right now.
so i cant go back due to the stupid rejected assigment.. even if i did, it wouldn't worth the time at all..
so i cant go back.. i just cant.. i shouldnt... so what's the big stupid deal?
why cant i just let it be?
why am i pouring like a leaking tap ???
arrghhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
sakit nye hatiii... tuhan aje yang tahu..
time macam iniiilah wanie sangat tak tahu ape lagi nak buat..
everyone seemed to be disappearing somehow..
felt like screaming... i am screaming.. inside, though..
this is the worst day of my life!! not being able to do exactly what i want...
stop crying you stupid girl!!!!
felt like cursing.. but it won't help anything, would it? let me try it once...
a$$hole!!!!!
no.. it doesn't stop me from crying, so now it's proven that i shouldn't be cursing...
i hate thissssssss!!!
bahijah and ana are going back anyways!! and i'm still here sebab.. entahlaa! baik sangat ke sampai kate takmo balek?? hahahha!! maybe i was just stupid... and still am...
huwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!! stop crying laaaaaaaaaaa!!!!
felt like i'm crying because of the fact that i can't stop crying....
benci laaa... benci sangat..... benci benci benci.......
"i dont wanna be lonely, i just wanna be alone.."
but alone is what i am....

where is my shoulder to cry on ?

sorry if I might sound pathetic but I'm feeling MIGHTY low right here..
Someone tell me that there's something more than Che Mat and these stupid assignments!

More To Life by Stacie Oricco

I've got it all, but I feel so deprived
I go up, I come down and I'm emptier inside
Tell me what is this thing that I feel like I'm missing
And why can't I let go

There's gotta be more to life...
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
Cause the more that I'm...
Tripping out thinking there must be more to life
Well it's life, but I'm sure... there's gotta be more
Than wanting more

I've got the time and I'm wasting it slowly
Here in this moment I'm half way out the door
Onto the next thing, I'm searching for something that's missing

There's gotta be more to life...
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
Cause the more that I'm...
Tripping out thinking there must be more to life
Well it's life, but I'm sure... there's gotta be more
I'm wanting more

Than waiting on something other than this
Why am I feelin' like there's something I missed.....

There's gotta be more to life...
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
Cause the more that I'm...
Tripping out thinking there must be more to life
Well it's life, but I'm sure... there's gotta be more
Than wanting more

Torn yet again..
My priorities keep jumbling up.
Felt like really crying my eyes out.. running to someone who'd think that I matter to them.. Someone that I wouldn't mind showing how low I can be at times. Someone to comfort me at times like this.. everytime..
*tuk tuk*
I don't have anyone like that.. everything is just in your dreams, Wanie.. there were never anyone you can really run to..
At times like this.. all I can do is wish. Wish that for one moment.. there'd be someone. But not just anyone.. a someone..
And there's this voice keeps telling me... you can't have that person just by wishing, Wanie..! So it is.. but what else is there to do??
I am pathetic.. yess..
Feels like I should leave... just leave everything... but that is not the answer.
Felt like I should jump off into a big black hole... that is not the answer as well..
So tell me now.. where's my shoulder to cry on?
(yes, I have great friends.. truly good friends.. but I'm not expecting them to be right here, right now.. You must've misunderstood me in some way, dear. I'd totally call up for you if I wanted you to be right here, but I didn't.. 'coz you're in the same situation as I do.. I didn't expect you or the other two to be my shoulder to cry on.. I hope you don't think of me as one silly git whose a selfish brat.. 'coz I don't think I am.. 'coz I know all of us needed the time..)
Crying is a sign of weakness.. so I am weak.. what's the point of trying to be strong, anyways!

...
Horrible day..
[ edited on 2:14 pm of November 14th 2003 ]

tired of wondering...?

sto·ic
n.
1. One who is seemingly indifferent to or unaffected by joy, grief, pleasure, or pain.
2. Stoic A member of an originally Greek school of philosophy, founded by Zeno about 308 B.C., believing that God determined everything for the best and that virtue is sufficient for happiness. Its later Roman form advocated the calm acceptance of all occurrences as the unavoidable result of divine will or of the natural order.

tired really.. Was so tired that I accidentally slept though I planned on to wait for another while..
overslept for the photography submission. ekekke! woke up at 8:54 am after Bahijah knocked vigorously on my door. Kecoh gile rase pagi tadi. Even Asha overslept.. such a horrible morning! :(
And we still haven't submit our work 'coz it wasn't our turn yet.. the chance of getting rejected is.. 90%. I was putting the 10% for some miracle.
Going back home later today. I am so torn apart! Tak tahu mana yang patut dipilih.. All my priorities are messed up! Buncit btol!
tired of my works.. tired of being late.. tired of being torn.. tired of being tongue-tied..
tired of wondering..
but wondering is all I have right now so I'll be holding on to that for a while.. :)

oh! Selamat berbukaa~!
oops! What time is it? 1:57 pm.
oh heck, selamat berbuka anyways~! *winks*

*the greatest fan of your life...

related status

these were the status messages that was up this night that is related to the accident:

azarul,ina n amri..semoga cepat sembuh.
harap-harap derang okey..sian ina~~ iskisk!
hope they are going to be fine....
:: lets pray 4 ina-amri and azarul ::
Thank U all 4 concerning bout ina, amri n azarul
ya allah kesiannyer kawan2 aku...
seram dgn cyberjaya byk eksiden
..berhati-hati di jalan raya...
abg az** accident. gile terkejut!
azarulll
tibai mat salleh tu jom...tak ngaku lak dia

some of it were stated by the same people..

They're all fine.. :) Thanks for telling, Darling! hohohoh! (sangat suka name Dar sebab leh buat camtu.. tambah -ling je dah jadi name manje. Cuba try tambah kat Bahijah... Bahijahling!! ekkeke!! burok! Ashaling!! Analing!! ekkeke!!)

8-} rase cam tengah tak betul sangat.
Come back quick!!

my friends.. Out of the question.. ?

this ought to take just some minutes. a bit jumpy to type out much..
Went out in the evening to get our (ana, asha, bahijah and myself) photography work done. Had break-fast outside.
Went back around 9..? When we arrived in Cyberjaya, we talked about the accident that took away the life of this FCM Gamma guy just last night. Saw the site.. the accident knocked down two light posts..
Horrifying just to imagine about it.
And then... when we drove through D'Melor.. saw two cars.. ANOTHER ACCIDENT! Broken glasses were everywhere.. Saw a police car near the spot.. And All 5 (including Dzayed) of us were wondering to ourselves what happened there.. the fact that there were 2 car accidents in just 24 hours.. I just hate to think about all this.
And then when I got back to the room.. I saw some loads of Y! M windows.. 'Forwards again.. bluerghhh!' I thought.. until I read one of it..

someone (9:32:50 PM): someone: someone: someone: sesape yang kenal kawan2 amri iqwan, azarul and ina ... dieorang accident.... everythings fine n dieorang dah dihantar ke ospital.. plz fwd this! thats all i know at this moment

ERKKK!!!!
I know those guys.................................
MERISAUKAAAAAAAAANNN!!!
You know, it's one thing if an accident occured somewhere nearby but it's really another thing if your friends were in it. Takuutnyee~
Dar, Fariz and Azilah are at the Putraja Hospital right now. Kinda wish I was there.. but come to think of it.. NAK BUAT APENYERR PONN!! Busy body btol.. :">
Hope they're all fine. I mean, really REALLY fine.
There'll be our photography assignment tomorrow... cemane ?

Do you know where you children are?

Hug-and-Run :x

it goes something like hit-and-run.. :D
Been feeling pretty nice since I woke up. Had great companies through the afternoon, or this ought to be quite a dull afternoon. :x

as·phyx·i·ate
v. as·phyx·i·at·ed, as·phyx·i·at·ing, as·phyx·i·ates
To cause asphyxia in; smother.
v. intr.
To undergo asphyxia; suffocate.

The word was in Muse - Time Is Running Out. Loving the song.. The beats are just nice! Like the drums pretty much!! :D Wanted to post the lyrics over here in the last post but then I noticed Shahnon had already posted it in his! :p

bahijah(3:33:35 PM): that's what u always wanted

heehee~! Funny how things happen according to your thoughts. Cam.. you just imagine some things.. and somehow it was proven that you ARE going to do the things that were on your thoughts. ekkeke! Faham ke? I think I'm talking in circles right now. :D
Anyways! Feeling too good to say anything more!
It's like.. I'm very content of today! Everything about today just amuses me and I love being amused this way. :) :x :x :x Macam kalau suka orang, every silly things that he or she does won't matter much 'coz you just like 'em too much to care about small things like those. heehee~ That's how the afternoon has been for me. Loving the hours that had past so much that it doesn't really matter with the fact that I could use a lil' bit more of sleep.. :D
:x

{ addicted to addictive addiction }

Playlist

been repeating these songs lately:
1. Jason Mraz - You And I Both Dar said he sounded gay, but I like the song anyways!
2. Muse - Unintended doesn't sound like Muse much! heehee!
3. Muse - Time Is Running Out really love the beats, thanks Iqbal!
4. Westlife - If Your Heart's Not In It interesting lyrics there!
5. Saliva - Rest In Pieces such a great song! a bit sad though..
6. Bic Runga - Sway besh nyanyi lagu ni kuat kuat! :D
7. Frente - Bizzare Love Triangle know the chords to play it already! but I'm such a crappy guitar player.. :(
8. Save Ferris - Let Me In suka ati je smalam humm lagu ni time Che Mat tengah bebel bebel rijek keje.. :D what can I do.. the song's stuck in my head...

i've been watching you and all you do
for quite some time
knowing all the ins and outs of you
i should have known what was on your mind
but all the world is spinning round and round,
inside my head tonight
i will fall into the darkness
and i fear i will never see the light

i've been watching you and all you do
for quite some time
knowing all the ins and outs of you,
i should have known what was on your mind
but all the world is spinning round and round,
inside my head tonight
i will fall into the darkness
and i fear i will never see the light
the light

so let me in
all that i wanted from you
was something youd never do
so let me in
oh please tonight,
dont let this end tonight
i'll fall

through the light the darkness seems to be
so very strong
how does one alone against the world
find the strength to carry on
what happened to the way we used to love
it seemed as though life had just begun
but now that love has come and goneto fade away
like the setting sun
ohhhh

cause you won't let me in
all that i wanted from you
was something youd never do
so let me in
oh please tonight,
dont let this end tonight
cause i'm starting to fall
so let me in

it was all that i wanted from you
it was something you never knew
to let me in
but not tonight,
for this is the end
tonight
i fall

>:D<