SNEAK PREVIEW #2 !!!!

finally having the time to sit down and relax. but i decide to blog instead! :D
had a reaaaaaaaaally long day!! started from yesterday morning as i woke up early to register my majoring. :) MI 'coz they're mostly whacked. heehee. (seb baik bangun awal!!!! my sleep was restless pon..) then me and lily went out to get some approval for our location :D and getting some props. the morning lasted 'til about 5 pm!! :-S had a bit of shut-eye before going to d'melor for our next scene of the video clip.

some problems arised that night (last night lahh!) that forces fungusamongus to extend our schedule by one day. (next tuesday-wednesday!) but i do thank wanieblond and all her housemates for letting us use their home for our shooting. we were there from 8 pm til about 6 am!! so really.. thank you!

...i wish i can actually play a guitar.. for real.. hummphh!! wishful thinking lahh!

anyways, then we all went back for a short rest and shower before going out again for the third day of shooting. (from 7:30 am to 11:30 am) :D today was FUNNNN!!! had a great time.. you were really great lily!! getting the approval for that place! and i'm such a good sidekick as well, sebab temankan! ahhahahha!! fingers crossed so that all the trouble was not a waste (at all!) and the end product will turn fabulous!! :D :D
ohh!! i thank mostly for encik ahmad hashim and encik sulaiman for today!! heehee~! :x

today's shoot actually ends around 7 pm. after that 11:30 am, we all had our rests and get back out at 4 pm. :)
so here's some sneak preview from the second day's shoot! :D you'll have to wait for tomorrow for the third installment.. heehee! tomorrow is a resting-day, so i'll post today's pictures tomorrow. :)

our lighting person.. entertaining and serba boleh!! banyak btol dia take part, ya?


on the set.. everyone's looking tired from all the work.


powerpuff girls on the set!!! heehee~ well, if you already knew who those two powerpuff are, fine. but if you don't.. it'll remain as a surprise 'til the final product!! :D

eh alamaakk.. dah kul 9 lebeyyy..! gotta get my shower first! :D my hair is all stiff.
super tired!!!!! but relieved for that most of our scenes are done! :)

i think i stink!

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okay.. i feel lame..
i am halfway to breaking down 'coz i'm tired and i want to go home!
somebody tolong cucikan baju wanieeeeeeee!! tak laraaaaaaaattt!!! :((

still tired .

super duper tired.
a headache is coming on pretty soon.

soo many things to tell!! but i'm just too freaking tired.
(sneak preview #2 and #3 are coming up!) ..when lily transfers the photos onto the pc.

super duper tired.

the end.

tired .

freaking tired.
me and lily manage to enrich our foul-language vocabularies since these couple of days. we're so good for each other, ya? :D

freaking tired.

the end.

SNEAK PREVIEW #1 !!!!

yess you read it right!!
i'm giving away a sneak preview of our video clip!!!
since the original plan was a 3-days shooting, i'm going to have it in 3 posts! so here.. today's shoot!! :D

a supposedly-nice scene of the sky from a secret spot at a secret location.


the artist/supposedly-camera person gets to kick the producer during the shoot. that's the whole idea, a punkly video music.


the lighting person gets a dip into the pool as she gets a calling to get in.

yeahh.. don't believe a thing i say.. :D
horribly tired!! and we - hobbitses are supposed to go out again at 7!! no, not for work.. but just for fun! AHHAHAHA!! drogo's having his final paper today and it's been a while since the last time he hung out with us.. :)
gonna get some rest nowww!!!!
ohh.. mama topped up my credit earlier today!!! weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~!!!
domo arigatou okaasan!!!!!

and heyy.. my name is on today's bulletin board!!

By today bulletin on Fri, 27th February 2004
Expired date : 01-Apr-2004
For MMU campus: Cyberjaya ~ Department: ADMISSION
Category : Announcement/Memo/Circular



Title : URGENT:IDA HAZWANIE MOHD IDRIS- CYBER

SILA BERJUMPA DENGAN PN. LINDA DI BAHAGIAN KEMASUKAN PELAJAR & BIASISWA
(BANGUNAN STC-TINGKAT 2) DENGAN KADAR SEGERA BERKENAAN DENGAN PERJANJIAN
PINJAMAN MMU ALPHA LOAN ANDA.

SEKIAN, HARAP MAKLUM.



BAHAGIAN UNIT BIASISWA CYBERJAYA

i wonder what's this about....
thanks shahnon for informing this!!! :) been a looooong while since i last checked the bulletin board, myself. :D

nowwww i'm getting my rest!

period sucks !!

it really is..
who says being a girl is easy?? period really sucks!!
i thank God that i don't have period pains or really bad cramps. maybe once or twice but not every month like someone i know.. thank God for that.. but period really sucks!! it restricts oneself no matter what the sanitary-pad ads says!! and what i mostly hate about periods is the back-ache that comes with it!! urghhhhhhh!!! might as well i have my back removed (for a short while lah! i do need it to move around lah kan..) heehee!
still.. period sucks!!!!!!!!!!
can't wait for this next 6 days to be over!!

just spent the whole day outside.
tiring. VERY!
and tomorrow should be a looooong day for fungusmongus!! tomorrow will be our first day shoot!! *cheers* kinda excited.. but it gets me a wee bit cranky, considering the time i SHOULD get up in the morning. early. VERY!!

i have a pretty okay mood so i'll tell you everything about today! :D
stayed in bed until noon 'coz i don't feel like being awake for the world just yet. at two, went for design process. chematto gave some briefing about our next - last assignment!! weeeeeeee~! i say i'm excited about that one too.. though it'll be costly, but heyy!! at least we'll get to have a ROAD TRIP!!! woo~hoo!!! *jigs*
(ps: you may find some probably-new words in the blog. trying to improve my vocabulary these days. :))
chematto was quite amusing today.. he entertained us by doing this cute/silly frog impression. i really laughed at that one 'coz he was trying SO hard to be real. heehee. and today he was a little more imaginative than the usual.. so yeah.. he really amused me today. :D
then it was time to register our shooting place and partner. somehow we (hobbitses) managed to register quite early and didn't have to wait 'til the room is empty like last time; on the typography assignment. :D good job, hobbitses!! :D :D

afterwards we went to bandar menjalara - lily's home, to get some props for tomorrow's shooting. there was lily, prisca and myself. rosie decided to stay 'coz she was having a headache. at lily's house, the two got some shut-eye as i "entertained" myself with the archie's comics lily had. really love those comics!!!! i spent most of my extra money buying those comics on those school days! :D improve english lah konon, but i believe it does help me get use to english :D
anyways! then we had quite-a-big-dinner-for-three at uptown before going back to cyberjaya.
then went to drogo's place to get some more props and finally going back to this room of mine.. feeling extremely dizzy.. sleepy.. and stinky!!! (yeah.. i smell from all the running around i did in the afternoon!! bluerthhh~!) padan muka prisca and lily if they noticed it! HAHHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAH!! :))
so now that i just had my shower.. i smell nice again! heehee. and straight i type this all out. :D

okay!!
should go to sleep!!

note to self: the heart still skips.

**a bit of update [2:34 am of FEB 27th]

super sleepy.. and yet, sleepless!

just wanted to say that i'm feeling.. in a such light light mood. :D things somehow falls into the right places. :D klakar juga lah.. 'coz i had a dream that tells me things are going on just fine.. and today.. life proved itself! :D guess i'm just lucky.. not lucky, but God loves me.. :D (macam ayat chematto taakk??) heehee~
i'm like.. super-numb right now on my emotions. i mean, i should be excited about something but i'm not.. but undoubtedly.. i am relieved! :D so not really la super numb.. :D but i'm a lil not myself lately.. trying to get there.. and something just reminded me how it should be like.. how i should be like.. :D

ohh! mama smsed me earlier tonight to tell me that she bought a new battery for my 3310! hahha~!! lucky thursdayyy!! :)) i guess, having the phone keep turned off by itself during those conversations made a real note to her! hahhaa!! lucky lucky!! sms la plak kate you'll pass me a rm50 note so i can reload my phone! heehee! :D thank you mama~! please forget to see the digicam! heehee!

i have 3 and a half hours to sleep if i plan to have a shower before shooting. :D really should get my sleep!! and my back is starting to kill me!!!!!

absolutely loving this song!!!!!
Something About You by Five For Fighting

I don't know where to begin
I don't know how to get out there to see you
I don't know where to dig in
I don't how to get in there...to feel you

It's been too long and I'm about to be in time for me
It's been too long and I'm in time

Baby there's something about you that
I can hold on to
I'm going to hold on to that
Baby there's something about you that
I can hold on to
I'm going to hold on to that

I never thought I would win
I never thought much about that
(It's been a long time coming)
I never stopped to begin
Thinking about the process
(It's been a long time coming)

It's been too long and I'm about to be in time for me
It's been too long and I'm in time

Baby there's something about you that
I can hold on to
I'm going to hold on to that
Baby there's something about you that
I can hold on to
I'm going to hold that

And I'm going to be there.... be there...... alright

I don't know where to begin
I don't know how to get out there to see you

Baby there's something about you that
I can hold on to
I'm going to hold on to that
Baby there's something about you that
I can hold on to
I'm going to hold on to that

It's been a long time coming
I'm going to hold on to that

thank youuuu!! you may not know what things actually mean to me :D

f r a g i l e

hummph..!
am i really????
that's a bummer, honestly. feels like.. entahlah!

prisca led me into this. tells your personality (so it said, at least) according to your zodiac sign and blood group. since i never knew my blood type (supposedly either A, B or AB) i asked prisca which one sounded more like me, and she said the one with this line;
The first impression that people get is that you are fragile. They find this need to protect you.
rosie said she once thought of me that way as well...
rase lembik.. verrrry lembikkk!!
hummph..!
must be something i did or didn't do that made them ever thought that way.. bluerthhh~! still need to know my blood group, though! lama btol curiosity ni left, hung! did all those check-ups but i still don't know what's my blood group. merepek btol.
anyways, the rest of my line goes this way though;
But they are startled once they see your strength. New friendships seem to make you stronger.
macam.. it makes the whole line become somewhat as if a ray of sunlight coming through some dark clouds.. heehee.. at least it is to me. :D :D

isyk.. i feel like there's so much things to tell but somehow i can't put them into words..

okay, things i've been doing;
been spending most of the day with hobbitses dearest. yesterday and today.. buat macam macam but i don't feel like talking much 'bout that one. (go check prisca's or rosie's blog) all i want to say is that i had a good time yapping with them.. and i managed to get a rhumba earlier today! :x
it's a shame we keep forgetting to bring along a camera. :(

i'm talking again to mama.. (since last night!) :D wait until she sees the digicam.. surely i won't be talking/can't talk to her again! ekkekeke! haiyyo!!! :-S

Is it wise enough to say
That I’m better off without you
Is it cool enough to fake
'cause all that I’ve been breathing is about you

Is it wise enough to flow (flowing down)
From the head until my toes
But somehow I don’t really know
All that I’ve been doing is without you

okay
i was... halfway to typing something to someone some minutes ago. but somehow i 'backspaced' the whole line the second after. somehow it seemed hard to say something out of the blue.. been a bit quiet eh these days?
entah kenapa..
but biarlaaah~
i have nothing much to say, pon. don't feel like making myself stupid just to create a conversation.
so, biarkan.

And on and on my mind keeps saying
This is not what I believe in
This is where it ends
And on and on my mind's made up
And that is why it never stops

head's spinning.
if it weren't for the hobbitses.. i would've stayed offline the whole day long. can't find any reason to stay glued to the screen. i prefer lying in bed for hours these days. if i'm lucky enough i'll doze off.


(ps: sorry hobbitses! sometimes i'm not answering 'coz i am offline.. not just in an invisible mode.. korang miskol lah if anything, ek! i'll be online if i can :D)
i am waaaaay behind on my assignments. running out of time..!!!
and i hate that.
currently worrying about the voice-over assignment, the 1200-1400 words of essay, video clip and creative communication's assignment that i knew nothing about!!!!!

die. x_x

**a bit of update [12:45 am of FEB 26th]
just did a bit of light-reading about anemia. see here if you'd like to read more than just what i'm about to post.

go do a bit of check-up if you have most of these;
1. Extreme fatigue
2. Weakness
3. Shortness of breath
4. Confusion or loss of concentration
5. Dizziness or fainting
6. Pale skin, including decreased pinkness of the lips, gums, lining of the eyelids, nail beds and palms
7. Rapid heart beat (tachycardia)
8. Feeling cold
9. Sadness or depression
these are the major symptoms of anemia, okay!

die. still. x_x

more yago!!

hahhaha!! getting pretty crazy with this dude!!
anyways! i've compiled the yagos me and the hobbitses did!! :D
this is one entertaining assignment! :D



ekkekeke!!
anyways, quiz went horrible! i was clueless most of the time so i settled with things that kinda fits into the blank spaces. ekkeke!! *tuk*
just now hung about in rosie's room. (mimi konon sedang kat kelas!) ekkeke! see her as she did her yago, which was horribly hilarious!! yago yang menari tu rosie yang punya.. tak tahan btol!! then, when walking to buy food at hb3, us both sempat menjadi yago seketika. heehee~ twisted our body in some ways 'cause both of us weren't sure which way to go. heehee..
anyways!! enough of laughing at my own jokes.. i should get some rest!! just had 3 hours of sleep since yesterday..

+_+

meet yago~!

yago: yeahhhh~! nice to meet cha'!


hahhahaha!! so happy tonight. even tomorrow's quiz can't get me upset. worried a bit.. but not enough! heehee! finished mca assignment with the helps of prisca and lily!
and then i was laughing about as i see their work! this one is fun.. :D :D

priscaa!! i don't want to change either!! and so should youuu!! heehee~!
was suppressing a big laugh just now as i read prisca's new entry. (see blog!) berderau ya darah kamu! ekkeke!!
told you two that my anggaran was waaay off! but siapa yang berani kasi juga itu kunci? hahahhahaha!! had fun, though! terima kacehh kerana memberikan saya peluang sebegitu!!
and don't give it to me again!!
guess you two were lucky tonight! ekekkekeke!
domo arigatou!!!!!!!!
ureshii desu~! :D :D

hugs for you hobbitses!!!!


should get some sleep now!!!
supposedly there's class on 9 followed by quiz on 11!
bila ptptn nak masokkkkk???????????????
mau duit mau duitttt


:x :x :x

:D :D :D :D :D

thank you prisca for helping me with yago.. :D
was out with prisca and lily for a while.. had our late dinner (the tapau-ed pizza!) at putra. konon konon a break from doing yago lah~ :D
see prisca and lily got hysterical in the car while going back.. hahhahaha!! it was hilarious in a way.. why? malas nak citer.. go see prisca or lily's blog if they tell it. [-(
kinda wondering about some things but somehow i can't put it into words.. let alone asking "why?" out loud. so i'm here left to ponder things by myself.. but it's fine.. :|
terasa nak bercakap tapi tak tahu apa... so i will let things be.

just if anyone's wondering.. i am perfectly fine.
thank you for wondering..
IF you ever wondered lah..
but if you don't care.. i won't make you to care..
i've resolute to something during all these silence.

I Just Threw Out The Love Of My Dreams by Weezer

i'm so tall
can't get over me
i'm so low
can't get under me
i must be all these things
for i just threw out the love of my dreams

he is in my eyes
he is in my ears
he is in my blood
he is in my tears
i breathe love and see him everyday
even though my love's a world away

oh, he's got me wondering
my righteousness is crumbling

never before have i felt this way
know what is right, want for him to stay
i must be made of steel
for i just threw out the love of my dreams

he is in my eyes
he is in my ears
he is in my blood
he is in my tears
I breathe love and see him everyday
even though my love's a world away

oh, he's got me wondering
my righteousness is crumbling

oh, he's got me wondering
my righteousness is crumbling
and i see him everyday
even though my love's a world away

he is in my eyes
he is in my ears
he is in my blood
he is in my tears
i must be made of steel
for i just threw out the love of my dreams

kinda

elyse sewell

funny name.. ekekkeke

really love this pic of hers.. it's a shame that it's not her that wins the first season of America's Next Top Model. but still.. i love her! 'coz she's pretty real.. and honest. but her mouth is a bit foul sometimes.. i like her anyways!

okay, tadi went brunch with lily, prisca and drogo at pyramid. drogo kepingin pizza and i was kepingin to ikut. heehee~ ate such LOAAAADS that each needed to pay up as much as rm21.50!!! gila. and i owe someone (either drogo or prisca) rm10 'coz i am short of money. harus cucuk sometime soon.
still full from eating.. tadi pon ade tapau but it's with prisca maybe..
poor lily had a "women's-pain" while walking back to the car.. she slept through the journey back. get well soon lily!
kinda sleepy right now. having a minor headache somehow. should rest now but yago's been calling on me..

nanti lah yago!!

g'morn!

just had a small trip to putrajaya with lily and prisca.
so thanks lily for saying yes even when you're already sleepy! heehee~
so hung out at mamak, had some laughs..
prisca showed us some soft porn.. HAHHAHAHAHA!! no lah~ joking.. *winks*
ate maggi goreng with iced milo.
itu saja.. and i have nothing else to say. except maybe...
i should stop saying that i should stop.. hehhe! 'coz you know.. i can't! my everything won't let me.. :| and i'm quite fine with that! :D so heyy, don't mind me when i say i need want you still, 'til the point i get too crazy! :D
should start on yago but i have been updating the friends' photos page instead...
and i'm sleepy!!

x_x

not a perfect weekend..

tiring.. mentally..
absolutely!

went out with dayat (won't bother using her hobbit's name..) on friday.. had to meet her in central market all by myself. but not before paying a little visit to mama's and belladonna's office in pwtc. okay.. practically "melembu" around kl 'coz i keep losing direction! left-right-left-right? cross-don't cross?? what? what?? hahhahaha!! moooooo~ stupid, really! i keep like going around asking people how i can get to places.. so, thank God i still have my voice even with my flu!! huhuuu~
me and dayat just went around cm and kotaraya saja.. :) she had things to do so we had to cut our meeting short..
then i had a fight with a certain relative and now i'm not in a speaking term with that person. urghhh!!! makes me SO mad, thinking about it!!!!!!!

saturday.. stayed at home, tending my dumb flu. bluerghhh~!!

sunday.. still not talking to that relative of mine. no point, really!
flu's getting better.. went pusing pusing around tasik shah alam looking for a tunnel rosie-p said existed. (but i couldn't find!) then i practically "dumped" the digicam i was holding onto the road.. and now there got some MAJOR scratch.. no..
...
.....
okay, i can't find any other word to exagerrate (spelling?) the scratch.
but it's horrible!!! i am SO going to get the old lecture when i'm busted by mama when i'm talking to her again.
yeah, i'm not talking to my mom right now.. she talks to me, sure! i just keep my vocabulary very restricted with her.. it usually concludes to sounds like "hummph~" and "haa".

couldn't send hanis to the airport tadi.. could be one of my regrets. hummphh~ wish she'll be fine in NI-PON! woo~hoo!! i am so proud of her! gonna miss her so baaaaaaaaadddd!!!!!!!!!
glad that at least i went to her house and said my goodbye.. :) hanis hanis hanisssssssssssssss!!!!!!!! she's as good as one of my blood-sisters. kurang kawan satu.. not kurang.. but.. sangat berjauhan.. :( i knew it all along.. growing up was no fun!! should've stayed in high school... hhehehe! :p

so i'm not in a very good mood..
so to those weird people out there.. talk all crap you want, but i don't give a shit.. pardon me for not listening or not replying according to what you expected.. not here to entertain your little heart when i'm feeling crap.
maybe tomorrow :p

i should be ashamed..!

so it is somewhat the mid-term in mmu.. most students are busying theirselves with studying.. working on final projects.. or SUPPOSED to. hehhe! and here in hostel, i am living with two seniors from IT faculty; Kak Mai and Engine faculty; Kak Siti. Here.. i'm showing you a short 'presentation' on how things are in this room.. 3013 yee.. to those yang nak anta love letter ke.. make sure it gets to the right room aaa.. 3013.. hahhaha!!
click on thumbnails for a better view..

this is kak mai's desk.. tidy.. and a bit odd 'coz she places her pc under the table.. cool actually.. (i think she should be in FCM! hahahha!!) the reason is so that she can fully utilize her desk for studying.. neat, huh?


on kak siti's there are some papers of notes lying around, sure! she needs to study, after all she IS taking some hard subjects!


what book?? what notes?? what study???? hahhahaha!! honestly.. there's just LOAAAADS of crap on my table!! the only book that is showing is my 5th HP book! :)) i'm actually doing you a favor since i save you guys from looking in my drawers! HAHHAHAHA!!
so that's it! it IS as simple as that.. :))

yeah, i should be ashamed of myself for having all my stuff all over the desk.. (and still losing things!) but i dont! ekekkeke!!
anyways.. a bit boring right now.. (the reason why i took the desks' pix)
a bit lucky today since i get to submit my photo!! yeaaaaaaaaayyyy~!!! but chematto seemed a bit reluctant to let me pass, really. he kept pondering aloud if i was using the right grammar.. luckily encik zul said it's acceptable.. but could've been better.. :D chematto manje!! :)) :p
so.. i owe this one to MAJINNNNN!!! thank you abang besa!!! :D :D

good luck for tomorrow, lily and rosie!!! abang besa jugeee!! yosh~! ;)

okay, pondering if i better go back home or not.. still have that green model to do (which is dued next TUESDAY!) and if i went back, surely i get back here on MONDAY! hahahhahaha!! *sweat*
adohh~ pemalasnyeeeee!! *tuk* (geram!!)

just got an sms from belba.. she's finally hired!!!! going to start work on march 1st in port klang! woo~hoo!!! do you know what this meansss??? this means that she'll get payed!! and when that happens.. she gets money!!! and know what she's gonna do with that money?? SHE'S GONNA BUY THIS BABY SISTER OF HERS SOME NICE THINGS LAAAHHHHHH!!! HAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHA!! gosh~!!! thursday IS my lucky day.. :p (selang beberapa minggu sekali, laa.. heehee~)
wonder how petunia's gonna be right then, though...

*blink*

indifferent. numb. hollow. stoic.

BAHIJAH OWES ME FOOOODDDD!!!
did a favor for her that caused me some breathing-problems. hahhaha!! so she didn't say that i need to run, but we were indeed in a hurry.. :p semput btol lari tadi.. :( think i should go see the doctor one of these days. my right-side face aches badly.. right ear, right nostril, right anak tekak.. hehhe! bermasalah!!! :(

was up pretty early.. lily did a MIRACLE really..
called me up at 8 something and asked; "want to go to class?"
WOWWW!!! something is not right, but really!!! that was what happened! hahahhaha!!
lily actually called me up to get to class!! hahhahahaha!! but tersemangat sangat, class actually starts at 10 but we were already there at 9! hahahha!!
but then lily said that her photo was ruined.. torn at the caption part and said that she wants to reprint. so somehow.. we concluded NOT to go to class.. but to borrow alitt's car and drove off to printgate! hahhahaha!!
though we didn't get into the class.. it's still a miracle that lily was the one who wanted to go on the first place. ekkekeke!!
(yeah, i'll probably tell this story over and over again! ekkekeke!)

dearest prisca.. ganbatte next week!!!! yosh~!

been pondering about some things lately.. guess things just happen to enter my mind these days. things i've seen and should interpret carefully. :D should i take it as a sign or it was all just another coincedence? humph~
my armful of hope has reduced to a pinch..
it does feel that way somehow.. and though i tell a certain story for over and over.. it felt as if i'm telling about any other story.. no, it's not tired that i am feeling.. just careful.. extremely careful... :D stuff will happen if it's meant to be.. either way, we'll have to meet it when it comes, 'aight? :D
penat ketuk kepala banyak sangat je arini.. hehhe!!

oh.. heard this song on hitz just now.. (i wonder why hitz keep playing old songs..)
Barely Breathing by Duncan Sheik

I know what you're doing
I see it all too clear
I only taste the saline when I kiss away your tears
You really had me going, wishing on a star
But the black holes that surround you are heavier by far

I believed in your confusion, you were so completely torn
It must've been that yesterday was the day that i was born
There's not much to examine, there's nothing left to hide
You really can't be serious, you have to ask me why
I say goodbye...

Cause I am barely breathing
And I can't find the air
Don't know who I am kidding
Imagining you care
And I could stand here waiting
A fool for another day
I don't suppose it's worth the prize and worth the price
The price that I would pay

And everyone keeps asking, what's it all about?
I used to be so certain and I can't figure out
What is this attraction? Only feel the pain
There's nothing left to reason and only you to blame
Will it ever change?

Cause I am barely breathing
And I can't find the air
I don't know who I'm kidding
Imagining you care
And I could stand here waiting
A fool for another day
But I don't suppose it's worth the price, it?s worth the price
The price that I would pay
But I'm thinking it over anyway...
I?m thinking it over anyway ?

I've come to find
I may never know
Your changing mind
Is it friend or foe?
I rise above
Or sink below
With every time
You come and go
Please don't come and go

Cause I am barely breathing
And I can't find the air
I don't know who I'm kidding
Imagining you care
And I could stand here waiting
A fool for another day
I don't suppose it's worth the prize and it?s worth the price
The price that I would pay
But I'm thinking it over anyway...
I'm thinking it over anyway...

And I know what you?re doing
I see it all too clear?

*sighs*

bored

very bored..
and confused with a certain someone..
hummm.. lantaklah~

prisca changed her layout so i was determined to update mine as well!! :D prisca main tak aciiiiiiiiiii~!!! uwekk! :p
kamon lily! your turn now..! hehhehe!! :D (since all of us have different layouts now!)

thanks shahnon for the song!!!! :D

should go to sleep now.. still dizzy.. bluerthhh~
+_+

:D :D

thanks lily for giving me things to do right now..
super bored right now..
(yosh!! i'll try to conclude as good as you, okie?!)

Emode's Classic IQ Test
Congratulations, Wanie!
Your IQ score is 118

This number is the result of a formula based on how many questions you answered correctly on Emode's Classic IQ test. Your IQ score is scientifically accurate.
During the test, you answered four different types of questions — mathematical, visual-spatial, linguistic and logical. We were able to analyze how you did on each set of those questions, which reveals the way your brain processes information.
We also compared your answers with others who have taken the test, and according to the sorts of questions you got correct, we can tell your Intellectual Type is a Precision Processor.
This means you're exceptionally good at discovering quick solutions to problems, especially ones that involve math or logic. You're also resourceful and able to think on your feet. And that's just some of what we know about you from your test results.

hahhaha!! duuude~ i am pretty smart, see?? no wonder i am good at arithmancy!! hahahha!! (same class with lily lah nampaknye)

Your Years at Hogwarts by nevermindless
Name:
The Sorting Hat places you in:	Hufflepuff (Yellow and Black)
Subject you are naturally best at:	Arithmancy
Your favorite book:	Gadding With Ghouls by Gilderoy Lockhart
Pet you bring to school:	Green TOAD
You are most known for:	Your pet.
Created with quill18's MemeGen 2.0!

The Inkblot Test

Wanie, your subconscious mind is driven most by Curiosity

This means you are full of questions about life, people, and the potential of your future. You spend more time than others envisioning the possibilities of your life — things that others are too afraid to consider.
Your curiosity burns with an almost physical need to know and do more. It's only through new experiences that you feel a greater understanding of yourself or the world — which ultimately is the greatest way for you to feel satisfied.
It is possible that the underlying reason for your drive towards curiosity is a deeply rooted fear of boredom. That means that you are probably more susceptible than others to feel like you're falling into a rut when life slows down into a comfortable routine.
You need to make sure you have stimulation in your life — that makes you feel like you're innovating or being exposed to the ideas and experiences that truly inspire you.
With such a strong orientation towards curiosity, you're also prone to a rebellious quality that shows up when you feel you are just going through the motions, and are unable to really influence the world around you. But interestingly enough, your drive towards novel experiences also indicates an openness others don't have, but wish they did.
Unconsciously, your curiosity presses you to learn more, experience more, and get the most out of life.
Though your unconscious mind is driven most strongly by Curiosity, there is much more to who you are at your core.

and out of curiosity and boredom, i set sail to conquer the whole universe!!! yosh~!
big thanks to the antarans.. now we all get to see what happens if bigotry is made legal!
HAHHAHAHAHAH!!!

The World Is MINE! by Demonac
Name:
You will conquer:	the Entire Universe (except for Arakis).
Your title will be:	Lord (regardless of gender)
You will succeed by:	A complete accident.
Your Enforcers will be:	The Antarans (from Masters of Orion II).
Your first act as ruler:	Remove anti-hate/bigotry laws just to see what would happen.
(What happened after)	Try "The World Was Yours! What Happened?" MEME to find out!
Created with quill18's MemeGen 2.0!

but then..

The World Was Yours! What Happened??? by Demonac
Name
Abused your power by	Calling people names
Until	your own slaves (the ungrateful bastards)
...	Showed everyone how bad you were by releasing a fake KKK to make it appear that the Klan was praising you.
And adding insult to injury	Sales plummet for your motivational book: "Why I Rule and You Suck."
But now, after all that, you are	in that alternate dimension, conquering the world there.
(How did you conquer?)	Try "The World Is MINE!" MEME to find out!
Created with quill18's MemeGen 2.0!

those stupid a$$es fooled the nation with those KKK!! not fairr!!!!
and my book's not selling!!!
urghh!
but heyy.. at least i'm able to conquer the alternate dimension!! hahhahahah!!! AWESOME!

heyy lily.. this is neat!!!! :x thank you!!
very dizzzzzy right now. ought to get some more rest.. but somehow stuck here, doing these silly quizzes!! heehee..

sleepless. i hate!

morning..
really hate a quiet morning like this.. a very dark, cold, quiet morning and i can't utilize it as much as i want to.
very dizzy right now. seems like things are swaying about in my world
:( was restless in my very short shut-eye. tap water was freeeeezing!! that are all signs that i am not really well. i hate!! and i'm having a sore throat.. and there's no water to drink!!
oh lupa.. ade cerek kat blek ni.. ehee~ *tuk* tapi malas sehh nak masak air!! hahhaha!!
another thing why i hated quiet morning is that i can totally hear my heart!! bongok!! takde benda pon bole jadi ade benda.. X(

thinking...
how i hate busy days.. when everyone has no time for anyone.
when time is spent away with other things.
when i'd like time to be wasted,
as much as i want,
on me.
for that person to be around.

maybe time was stopped for me, for a moment there.. but maybe for some others as well..
how should i know???
bosan!!!!!!!
urghhhhh!!!

i hate quiet quiet nights!!!!
shaddap lah hati.. shaddap lah kepala!!

o heyy.. prisca told me earlier that an mmu student got into an accident in putrajaya. article here.

Overrated by Gavin Degraw

Take my home
Take everything I own
Take it, take control
You will feel better
You will feel whole
You're so good
You stopped me where I stood
And let me look at love and I feel better

Oh I feel good
I just wanna give it all to you
I wanna share this with you
Make you mine and mine will be all yours
Whatever you want and more
What I'm anticipating
Everything else would be overrated
Baby it's for you it's all for you

You speak kind
Oh if you were mine
What would we be like
We would be liked
We would be

I just wanna give it all to you
I wanna share this with you
Make you mine and mine will be all yours
Whatever you want and more
What I'm anticipating
Everything else would be overrated
Baby it's for you it's all for you
Everything else would be overrated
Everything else would be overrated

Open up
Let me fill your cup
I can really pour it out
It will be like
I will be enough

I just wanna give it all to you
I wanna share this with you
Make you mine and mine will be all yours
Whatever you want and more
What I'm anticipating
Everything else would be overrated

Baby it's for you
Baby it's for you
Baby it's for you it's all for you

still hating quiet nights!!
but seems like all the hobbitses are still up. (lily and prisca are having the same problem as mine.. sleepless!!)
[1:53 am]

somehow my horoscope says this;
Sagittarius November 22 - December 21
It's better to say less about what you're thinking. You'd rather discuss done deals than sound like a dreamer. Your worries are probably groundless. Already your ideas show signs of being on the fast track.


pandai

ehh.. look at the entry's time!!
missing this in a way.. :)

pandai gel is very dizzy

anyways.. did this thingy and i'm laughing my butt-man off!! :)) ahhahahaha!!

Your Superhero Persona by couplandesque
Your Name
Superhero Name	Butt-Man
Super Power	Invisibility
Enemy	Martha Stewart
Mode Of Transportation	Motorcycle
Weapon	Condoms
Created with quill18's MemeGen 2.0!

yeah.. condom is my weapon.. i use it to lastik pebbles! ahahhahaha!! :)) bongok punye menda..!!! but i admit.. it's entertaining! :D

feels like getting sick somehow.. very very dizzy throughout the whole day :(
woke up late again.. missed creative communication (again!!!!) and didn't go to animation lecture (yet again!!!!) skipped media history (AGAIN!!!!) but went to media production (thank God!!) before leaving at half past four to get our (hobbitses) photos printed at print gate.
thanks for the idea, majin!!

then went to pyramid, bought some things for a project thingy i'm doing for a friend (yeah.. sentimental as always!!) i have four and a half days to get it done. yoshh!!! (o yeah, this project is much more important than maya! ha-ha!) (getting all my priorities all messed up again, but heck!!) (typically me!) :))

got back in cyberjaya around 7-8? and not long afterwards prisca invited for dinner.. makan banyak at malee along side prisca, drogo and lily. (rosie was waiting for jai to finish his exam paper!) sampai tak mampu nak abeskan!! :| i absolutely love a day with good food.. but just now was really "too much"! ekkeke!
while waiting for our food, akmal called lily! akmal was my schoolmate that gotten to know lily through some people. he's now in cyberia since he's a limkokwing student! bet we'll get to see him one of these days! heehee~

kak siti started a blog some days ago!! cepat cepat search tengok ape dia tulis!! ekkeke!!

okay.. super tired!! feels like getting a fever.. (jangan!!!!)
gudnite....

safe inside myself

pandai pandai pandaaaaai.. pandai pandai pandai pandai pandai pandai pandai pandai sangat lahh pandai.. wanie pandai sangat. so smart!! smarty pants! pandainyeeeek.. pandai pandai pandai pandai paaaaaaaaanndai sangat. sangat lah sangat pandaaaai. really! very very lah the pandai. pandai pandai pandaaaaaaaaaai

don't ask me why, but i feel soooooooo smart right now. yeahh.. i ought to get a pulitzer or a nobel prize or something to recognize my intelligence.

i like evanescence's songs.. totally love the lyrics.. thanks amy-lee (?)

sweet raptured light

* faint *

i am about to fall off this chair..
i am like soooooooo sleepy but sleepless at the same time!
my mind kinda turns off every 30 seconds.. really!!! it's like.. "oops! i was typing, yeah.."
tak tahan... :(

went for a small walk with lily and prisca :)
that was the first time we walked around at night aa? but honestly, we did more of sitting down than walking. :) meant to write more of this but i can't take this dizziness.. atoii~!
prisca.. hope everything will work out! ;)

wish i'll get to stroll down with you again one of these days.. ekkekeke (gedik!)

today is monday

let see...
had a pretty neat day, honestly.. but somehow right now it felt.. typical. like a typical boring day sedangkan i had some well-spent time with the hobbitses!
had a majoring briefing in the afternoon.. which was hilarious in some ways.. the hobbitses were entertaining as always.. :D and then since me and lily and prisca had already made our minds for media innovation we only kept quiet at that particular time. ohh, exception for that film animation's part when they showed the animation of "haruan makan anak". sangat amazing!! truly!! and the sound effects were spooky!! half expected for a ghost to come out but the animation turns out to be just sad.. super sad... ehee~ *tersentuh*
but the funny thing was, me, lily and rosie had already seen a part of that animation.. when the tear drop turns to rain drops.. heehee~ there's this one time when we were messing around with macromedia director in the lab.. we found the picture frames for that animation. heehee~ didn't expect it to be as great as we just saw it! :))
so girls.. MI?? heehee~
rosie might be taking DM though.. (and i'm really considering between those two)
o yeah.. pandai MI advertise ya? ekkeke! we get our grades by shouting and screaming about and do plenty of mexican waves! ekkeke! easy lahh!! :))
[8:30 pm]

very sleepy.
had dinner with the hobbitses and went for a short mpm meeting with the rest of the fungus. :)
i don't feel chatty right now.. kinda messed up in my head.. thinking about the things that i should've done and work i should be doing (tapi tengah takde mood!!)
caught up in mixed feelings.. had spend the night by having laughs, boredom, panic-attack, hope.. banyak bannnyyaakk! :D all is good, though..
but i'm super sleepy right now.. but i feel like i shouldn't go to bed yet.
entah apa yang kutunggu tika ini
but heyy! i shouldn't be sleeping just yet!!!! ought to get my photo done.. bluerthhh~!!
kering idea.. :-S

Innocente by Delerium

You can't see my eyes
You can't see my eyes
They don't see yours
Hear me when I say
They don't mind at all

It's the rain that I hear coming
Not a stranger or a ghost
It's the quiet of a storm approaching
That I fear the most
It's the pain that I hear coming
The slightest crystal tear, drops to the ground
In silence, when my love is near.

Darling, when did you fall? When was it over?
Darling when? When did you fall? When was it over?

It's marching through my door now
The stony cold of lonesome
A bell tolls for my heart and then my lonesome song begins
It's marching through my door now
The stony cold of lonesome
A bell tolls for my heart and now my lonesome song begins

Darling, when did you cry? I couldn't hear you
Darling when? When did you cry? I couldn't hear you

I suppose it is the price of falling in love
I suppose it is the price of falling in love

It's the rain that I hear coming
Not a stranger, not a ghost
Of the quiet of a storm approaching
That i fear the most
It's the pain that i hear coming

The slightest crystal tear drops to the ground
In silence when my love is near
It's marching through my door now the stony cold of lonesome
A bell tolls for my heart and now my lonesome song will end

Darling when did we fall? When was it over?
Darling when? When did we fall? When was it over?

I suppose it is the price of falling in love.
I fear that it's the price of falling in love.

just got to like this song though i have had it for long! hehhe~

love . love . life !

what daysss!!
okay! like i said, i have PLENTY of things to tell, but i'm not really sure i remember all the details now.. :D

FRIDAY
had a Jolly-Jumaat with the hobbitses.. (somewhat like Ritual Rabu.. spent time together!) in MVU. went out around 2 and had laksa for lunch.. yes.. laksa... i don't adore it as much as lily and prisca does.. but yeah.. i had laksa with them. memula tanye rosie if she's eating, ('coz she doesn't 'adore' it too) but since i was sooooooo hungry.. lantak lah, suka ke tak.. me and rosie ordered as well.. but then lily and prisc finish the laksa for me.. heehee! (i can't finish it!) and then went around.. lily wanted to buy some clothes for a party that night.

so we left mvu around 6.. (though lily planned to go out at 7!!) and all of us got stuck in a HORRIBLE HORRIBLE traffic jamm! hahhaha!! kinda funny remembering it now.. patience really is a virtue, 'aight? and i don't think all four of us had any! hahahha!! well, except rosie maybe. i didn't hear any single curse come out from her mouth that time. ekkeke! lily was like throwing her finger every 10 minutes (and we were practically stuck for 2 hours!!) and me and prisc kept dissing the other drivers. our favorite was this lady who kept her distance waaay apart that some cars managed to cut through the line!! memang kene diss abes lahh! hahahha!!
and then there's this one time when we roll down the window and screamed out.. it was HOT and BORING and everything crappy!! and surely.. what we did, attracted some attention of other cars.. hahhaa! sebook aje!
around 8, mama called me and said, "be ready at 8:05!" so i was like.. HAAAA?????? i'm not even in cyber yet!!! adohh~! gelabah betul rasa.. 'coz papa hated waiting.. we arrived around 8:15 after dropping off prisca and me and lily ran to our block (parked at hb4). i made a short stop at papa's car (they're already there.. papa's really on-time, y'know!) and sprinted to my room..

letihhh!! and sangat kocohh!! tak sempat nak type blog.. and i was even planning of a special v-day entry!! guess i have to post-poned it to next year.. hahahha!!

SATURDAY
Sentimental-Saturday..? ekekke!! a nice valentine's day spent with old friends..
got to see ruby and rosie.. spent some hours in our hang-out time skolah dulu.. KOMPLEKS PKNS!! wahhahahahhahahhahahahhahahah!!! it's such a lame "mall" compared to mvu.. but heyy! time skola dulu best tau lepak situu!! ahhahahahhahahahhahaha!! anyways!! it's still a neat time spent. catch up on things.. some that made me happy and glad.. some that confuses me.. just things!
though it felt a bit different with ruby.. well, it's been AGES since i last talked to her.. and i have to say that she's no longer my "twin", nu-uhh~ she's... simply different!
it's a wonder how you thought that you knew one person when the fact is that you really don't!!
breaks my heart, really.. but heyy! it's out of my control.. :)

anyways!! me and rosie were there since 12, ruby joined us at 2.. we went back around 4:30! and what's neat was that we walked back home! it really felt like when we were in school days.. hehhe!
happy happy day!!

SUNDAY
rosie had a majlis of some sort!! hahahha!!! funny.. she invited her friends for a "kenduri" but it didn't look any like the kenduri i went before. hahhahahahha!! sunyi sungguh!! ekkekeke!! well, it was mostly for her family members to come down and say their good-byes to rosie. (she's leaving on a jet plane!!) lily was there as well!! (lily BRAMBLE and not BUMBLEROOT) -sorry, i'm confusing you with these hobbitses name, aren't i?- if it helps by any chance.. i'm not talking about any of the mmu hobbitses during this weekend entry, okie? :D
zul was there as well.. (rosie's boyfriend) merepek merepek ngan dia like last time.. (kinda like him 'coz he's pretty cool for rosie!) usik usik rosie that i'll keep 'company' of zul when she's away! *winks* ekkeke!
catch up with lily as rosie talked to her guests. *missing them all still!!!* ohh!! two of my old teachers came.. they didn't remember my name.. and so did i!! HAHHAHAHAH!!! bongok sungguh la saye ni! there's this one time i said to zul that one of the teachers was a maths teacher.. but i couldn't remember if she taught me before.. so i asked rosie what did she teach.. and she said PHYSICS! hahhahahahhaha!! i laughed, and was laughed AT. ekkekeke!! ye yeee je konfiden ajar maths! bluerthhh~! me and my crappy memory! :-S

was there 'til 4 something.. said goodbye to her but promised to send her next sunday.
had papa send lily to the commuter.. probably seeing her later in the week.. :)

practically.. i had a great weekend.. after all, petunia is at home laaaa!!!!! :x :x
i am so lucky.. just last week i mentioned about missing some people, and i actually get to see them during the weekend!! :x

so today!! skipping mlh as usual.. heehee! mane ntah sumer orang nihh :-S but my thoughts now is occupied by the thought of rosie leaving.. aduhaaai~ kurang lah bilangan kawan yang tak seberape nih.. :( it's usually me or her that will be enthusiastic to get a get-together with the all four.. but now that she's leaving to ni-hon.. hummph~
kyotsukete ne oneechan!!!
wish that i have the whole week to myself so i can just waste my time talking to her so i won't miss her so badly.. :|

from an's:
Knight and shining armour, I am. Strong, brave and cunning for I shall in need of it to defend my King and country. Riding swift with my white horse (kude puteh) and haunt em down. Die, die you enemy of the King, for I shall give or show no mercy. Muahaha. Fear not of your safety, Prince Shahnon, Lady Yukira and Courtesan Wanie for I am your shield.tak tahan btol!! :p (this is also on yukira's! hehhe!)
Knight An, are you sure you'll be there to defend the King, the Prince or the Lady when you're spending time with me?? (kate Courtesan.. goda~ goda~~) ahhahahaha!! :))

oh.. to prisca and drogo..
happy 1st anniversary~!!!!
(February 15th)
you two are the coolest couple i've ever got to know.. keep it up!!!
so proud of you two... :D :D

giggle.giggle. life's actually great!

arrrghhhh!!

i have some loaaaaaaaaaaads of things to say but i'm running out of time!!

grrRrR

soo!! i'll see u peeps after the weekends!!!


happy valentine's daaaayyyy!!

try to enjoy it, huh? :D

the light is fading..

.. i still wish i know how to dodge questions [refer to November 20th, 2003 post :p ]

payahnye jadi pompuan yang emosi..

okay.. so i realized that i'm not ready.. for anything.
anything that requires me to be stable for at least 24hours.
heart of a child la konon.. :))
but truly.. i am just incapable of thinking. my rationality only shows once in a while.. rest of the time i am just emotional..

crap.
crap...
i'm crappy!!

not sure how i get through this 19 years..
this sort of heartache should've killed me at least 4 years ago! when nothing have ever started..
wouldn't life be wonderful that way?

insecurity.. confusion.. thoughts.. dreams.. wishes..
heartache heartache heartache
these are killing my insides..

thanks buttercup (as in the song) for making me see..
that i'm just not ready..
really...

this is me..
Going Under by Evanescence

Now I will tell you what I've done for you
50,000 tears I've cried
Screaming,
Deceiving,
And bleeding for you
And you still won't hear me
Going Under....
Don't want your hand this time
I'll save myself
Maybe I'll wake up for once (wake up for once)
Not tormented daily defeated by you
Just when I thought I'd reach the bottom

I'm...dying again
I'm going under (going under)
Drowning in you (drowning in you)
I'm falling forever (falling forever)
I've got to break through
I'm...going under

Blurring and stirring the truth and the lies
(So I don't know what's real)
(So I don't know what's real and what's not)
Always confusing the thoughts in my head
So I can't trust myself anymore

I'm...dying again
I'm going under (going under)
Drowning in you (drowning in you)
I'm falling forever (falling forever)
I've got to break through,
I'm, so go on and scream
Scream at me, so far away
I won't be broken again
I've got to breathe
I can't keep going under

I'm...dying again
I'm going under (going under)
Drowning in you (drowning in you)
I'm falling forever (falling forever)
I've got to break through,
I'm, going under (going under)
Going under (drowning in you)
I'm going under

i'm STUPIDLY confused.
stop huh?

BOOOOO!!!!

(act surprised, here!)

quoted from shahnon;
Happy Friday 13th~!!
ekekkekeke!
thank you for reminding me the date, mama nonzz! hahhaha!! sorry.. kidding ek shahnon.. takkan laa tetiba jadi bapok.. kasihaaaan dia. heehee~ gudluck ya buat kejeee!!

been hearing how busy those gamma peeps are.. but i'm more looking forward to it as each day pass.. :D

still bored here but had fun posting up things on shahnon's haloscan! ekkeke!! :p
listening to norah jones - sunrise coz prisca made me. hahahha!! (it's still not my cup of tea, dear..) :p
going into bed now.. i am having bad ideas.. and i'm not liking it! better shut it soon before it gets on my nerves.. huhuu~

o heyy..
Happy Friday 13th~!!
again... heehee~! :D
[2:45 am]

bored o bored~

where has everyone gone to????
sedihnyeee!!

been googling; though there's nothing to google about. :|
my my.. how did things get this boring?? :((



You are a Courtesan!
Lovely, Intelligent, and Talented!

You are a lover of royalty and fantasy and probably express this artistically, musically, or in writing, or absorb yourself in works related to it. You are gifted with a beautiful intellect and a wonderful imagination and creative spirit!

Which Royalty Are You? Find out! By Nishi.
did this quiz, and checked on dictionary what courtesan means..

cour·te·san (kôrt-zn, kr-)
n.
A woman prostitute, especially one whose clients are members of a royal court or men of high social standing.

HAHHAHAHHA!! prostitute.. how original! :)) hobbitses!! do this one and tell me what you guys get!!

the sky just now was amazing.. kinda weird too..

checked on my friendster and my friends'.. almost laid eyes on 'something' but i scrolled over quickly.. or i'll probably be in another bad mood right now. hahhaha!!

missing ruby, rosie and lily.
see, that's my school friends :p Ruby Gamwich, Rosie Hamwich and Lily Bramble..
and hobbitses over here are Rosie-Posie Deepdelver, Lily Bumbleroot, Prisca Deepdelver and Drogo Proudneck :D :D (really like those silly hobbitses names!)
anyways.. i can honestly fall into a deep depression abist/abiss (spelling?) right now due to missing and boredom.

oops.. going dinner with prisca and drogo!
[9:13 pm]

just got back! [11:45 pm]
had a nice dinner! :D there were nasik goreng usa (mine), nasik pattaya (prisca), nasik paprik (drogo), otak-otak and kerang bakar on the table! :D like i said days ago.. i love a day with great food! :D ohh! had dinner at 15.

wondering if lily's coming back here tomorrow. if not, i'll probably go back home.. not like i'm having any special plans for saturday.. hehhe! :p just probably go home though.. things might change if lily's coming here.. humm~
bored..

my mood ring is showing this, though

click here to know what the color of mood ring means..
not really sure if THAT'S true..

--may be updated later when i remember what i wanted to say--

missing petunia now...

just listened to this.. :) :x
Blue and Yellow by The Used

And it's all in how you mix the two,
And it starts just where the light exists.
It's a feeling that you cannot miss,
And it burns a hole,
through everyone that feels it.

Well your never gonna find it,
If your looking for it,
won't come your way,
Well you'll never find it,
if your looking for it.

Should've done something, but I've done it enough.
By the way, your hands were shaking,
Rather waste some time with you.

And you never would have thought in the end,
How amazing it feels just to live again,
It's a feeling that you cannot miss,
it burns a hole, through everyone that feels it

Well you're never gonna find it,
If your looking for it, won't come your way, yea
Well you'll never find it, if you're looking for it.

Should've done something, but I've done it enough.
By the way, your hands were shaking.
Rather waste some time with you.

Should've said something, but I've said it enough.
By the way, my words were faded.
Rather waste some time with you.

Time with you...
Waste some time with you...

Should've done something, but I've done it enough.
By the way, your hands were shaking.
Rather waste my time with you.

Should've said something, but I've said it enough.
By the way, my words were faded.
Rather waste my time with you.

Should've done something, but I've done it enough.
By the way, my hands were shaking.
Rather waste some time with you

Waste some time with you...

yeayyy~!! *mexican wave, here* lily's coming back tomorrow!! means, will be going out to survey on some things, yeaaayy!! tiring, surely it'll be.. but heyy!! activityyyyyy!!!! :))

half expected..... *sigh* having my thoughts on green lights.

short short

not in the mood to talk much.. but i feel like blogging.. so here;

photo rejected for EVERYTHING but i'm not cursing, no. still giggling about to be honest. but right now, i'm having a minor headache.. don't know what else i can write for the caption. :|

i prefer the printing-shop guy than chematto. :p

prisca & rosie are so neat to waste time with!! (we had to wait for 3 hours before submitting, so we entertained each other pretty well while the wait) thanks hobbitsess! :D

shivered during studio 'coz it was soooo cold and i was soooo hungry!!! (seb baik perut tak bunyi time beratur! :">) my palms were white without blood! (okaay, ade reason lain for that too)

had roti bakar telur afterwards in FCMcafe

mood ring turned to real purple during studio!! how cool was that??? i had blue, dark blue, purplish-grey and purple today! so neat!! :x :x

now i have two regrets.. should've stick to my first instinct before going out tadi.. :( hummph!


http://www.utusan.com.my/utusan/archive.asp?y=2004&dt=0212&pub=utusan_malaysia&sec=muka%5Fhadapan&pg=mh_03.htm&arc=hive murtad kah saye?? i read horoscopes and tarots for my hobby and i celebrated valentine's before with my favorite friends. come on!! i don't think any of that is wrong 'coz i only do it for fun.. and come on!! who thinks of that valentine guy when they're celebrating their love? sheesh! love should be celebrated everyday, yes.. but who can afford to do special things everyday?? :D i may be too "open minded" (not sure if i'm using the right term, really) to some.. but heyy! i still know the right from wrong, and it's fine with me.. no one else should care too much! ekkeke :p
so.. valentine's anyone?? :D (malay: hari kekasih; and not hari memperingati valentine)

ohh! majin.. jahat! X( u read me well aa? :p

and tariq ialah seorang yang perasan! :)) and he's related to rosie too!! (no wonder, aa?) ekekke!!

bullfrog (frog, i say.. nothing else!)

Quotes . quotes . quotes

it's so hard to find a good quote these days. (define: good quote - one that stucks in my head) hehhe!
words words.. i love words..
for they convey things that are more certain than a wink. heehee! (ape kamu merepet ni wanie uit?!)
for the moment, well.. for many moments, really! this one is in my head;

"It does not do to dwell in dreams and forget to live,"

- Albus Dumbledore in Harry Potter and the Philosopher's Stone.

ekekke!! i think it's funny that i'm quoting a character in a book. well, credits to the author; JK Rowling! :)
love those words.. but i keep forgetting to live it out.. humm.. keep getting caught in my thoughts over and over again. a disease, really.

it has been a slow day. i've had this page on the screen for like 2 hours and i only typed this long!!!
skipped media production's class (again!) this morning 'coz the hobbitses weren't around! i know.. i am pathetically dependent!! it bugs me but i don't know how to stop.
same to the other thing that me and prisca talked about last night..
i don't know how to stop.. :p
will be submitting my photo on 2!!

29 minutes

If you're not obsessing, you're not quite into it.

a line i took from a blog i just visited..
the blog however, tells nothing of any obsession.. :))

bored o~ bored..
missed my every meal.. sepanjang ari cuma makan oreo, maggi and kinder bueno (bueno means good!!) ekekke! terok, i know.. but at least i can still get some calories from all those lah! :))
lily has gone back home.. her mom will be leaving for bangladesh tomorrow afternoon (work!). supposedly she'll (lily) be back here on friday since there were some plans made.. but who knows that girl! :))
prisca invited for dinner earlier but i just ate my maggi and was full at that time.. but now already lapar!! :((

but heyy! i'm still in a rather light mood.. thank God for that!! :D though i wish i had something good to do or someplace neat to go or someone nice to talk to.. but i have none of that so i am left to ponder things by myself.. yet again!
i have to thank God again for lifting my mood.. or you'll surely see some more curses over here, ya? ekkekeke!

so here's a bunch of quizes and things i did through the evening..
(o~ so bored!)


Your a petunia. You keep your distance from most
people. Your artistic, humourous and you always
have your little circle of good friends around
you. You never hold anything back, you express
yourself very well.


What kind of flower are you?
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i kept my distance from most people??? well.. some laa.. SOME.. :p


You are one of the few out there whose wings are
truly ANGELIC. Selfless, powerful, and
divine, you are one blessed with a certain
cosmic grace. You are unequalled in
peacefulness, love, and beauty. As a Being of
Light your wings are massive and a soft white
or silver. Countless feathers grace them and
radiate the light within you for all the world
to see. You are a defender, protector, and
caretaker. Comforter of the weak and forgiver
of the wrong, chances are you are taken
advantage of once in awhile, maybe quite often.
But your innocence and wisdom sees the good in
everyone and so this mistreatment does not make
you colder. Merciful to the extreme, you will
try to help misguided souls find themselves and
peace. However not all Angelics allow
themselves to be gotten the better of - the
Seraphim for example will be driven to fighting
for the sake of Justice and protection of those
less powerful. Congratulations - and don't ever
change - the world needs more people like you.


*~*~*Claim Your Wings - Pics and Long Answers*~*~*
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hahhahhaha!!! you wish!


Dark shadow. Something has drawn you into darkness
in the past, and you're now trying to get out
of it. The darkness is already inside you, and
getting it out will be hard, but if you try,
maybe one day you can be who you want to be
again. Don't give in!!!

What kind of dark person are you?
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hohh ho~ these lines rings a bell... :|

Your Love Situation by Amberishjewel
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Your Love Is...	Sweet
During Lovemaking You Act...	Like a river, very refreshing
Your Partner Is...	Your support
Your Partner Has Said That You...	Are a good listener
Your Love is Summed Up In A Quote.	"I love thee wild with desire"
Created with quill18's MemeGen 2.0!

hahhahaha!! you all should try this one!!!! ekkekeke!!


What attracts people to you?
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funny.. i never thought myself as a funny person.. hummm~



which stereotype are you?

hahhahaha!! wasn't satisfied with this one so i re-took it;



which stereotype are you?

hyuckk!! (why avril??????) on the other hand, i kinda agree with the cheerleader one.. hahahha!!!! but honestly.. NEITHER represents me!!



hahhahaha!!! been laughing myself off laa with these quizes!


hee! you're sweet. sometimes sour though, and sometimes chocolatey.


which pleasure are you?

:D :D sweet laa benoo!

that's all!!
from all of the above, i really recommend that love situation thingy! *winks~* ekkeke! honestly.. i reaaaally like that one!!
okaay.. nothing to report since the night has been slow... and quiet... and slow.. and quiet... bluerthh!!
but thank God i'm in a light mood!!! :))