i wanna be with you if you wanna be with me..

okay.. let's just say that i am having quite a major conflict of feelings at the moment.

macam... hehhe.. i know i have a bunch of cheerleaders on my back, i know they meant well.. tapi.....
i don't exactly know what i want.. and i don't intend to make mistakes. what's more is i really like what i have right now, and yes, sometimes i wish i have more of it but i also know that i can be stupid enough to throw everything away.
just what anna said to seth.. (the OC) "once you get what you want, you've got something to lose"
i know you girls meant well.. i really do. sometimes i wish i would just do the things you girls suggested. but the last two things i started didn't end as well as i planned. so, i just can't. i can't do more than this...

if i am forever destined to be a glass door; transparent and ignored.. so be it.
maybe later i'll just break myself.

Falling For You by Jem

Said there'd be no going back
Promised myself I'd never be that sad
Maybe that's why you've come along
To show me, it's not always bad

Cause I can feel it baby
I feel like I'm falling for you
But I'm scared to let go
I'm scared cause my heart has been hurt so

It's true I've become a skeptic
How many couples really love
Just wish I had a crystal ball
To show me if it's worth it all

Cause I can feel it, baby
I feel like I'm falling for you
But I'm scared to let go
I'm scared cause my heart has been hurt so
Yeah I can feel it, baby
I feel like I'm falling for you
But I'm scared to let go
I'm scared because my heart has been hurt so

And I've got to be sure cause it's been so long
And I cannot take the pain again if it all goes wrong

Cause I can feel it, baby
I feel like I'm falling for you
But I'm scared to let go
I'm scared because my heart has been hurt so
Yeah I can feel it, baby
I feel like I'm falling for you
But I'm scared to let go
I'm scared cause my heart has been hurt so

I want you so much
I need you so much
I want you so much
I need you so much
(believe me my love, believe me my love)

that's all i can say

oops! i DO have more things to say!
7:09 pm :

so i am emotionally instable.. stressed with MORE assignments.. (breakouts, cramps, sleeping problem.. i have it ALL!)
- i have 5 assignments to work with at the moment!!
and mr john didn't like my chopstick. grrr.

but!

my ptptn dah masokkk!! so i probably won't have to whine about money for a bit while now! hahhahahahaha!!
and our group went into the top 10 for the video clip we did last semester!! 6th, to be exact!! hoyehh!! (tapi gue maluuuuuuuukkkkk!! huwaaaaaaaaaaa!! malunyeeeeeeeehhhhhh!!!!!!)
and harris completed my group of three with yoges for our ID assignment!! hoyehh!!
and my family are coming to see me (when i told them about my loan?) ekkeke! and to top it off, will be seeing harry potter later tonight!!!

thank you! thank you! to those who've made my day.. better? :D

9:53 pm :
i take my words back.
the end.