will i stay the same?

thinking too much of nothing lately. :)

had a dream last night after a while of dreamless nights.
and i hate it.
i hate the fact that my dreams were so vivid that at some points i really believed i was in reality.
and i hate the fact that i get too emotionally attached even in my dreams.

i am even hurt inside the dream.
i am even confused in my dream.
i am even wishing for the same things in my dreams!!!!
God!!! why do i have to mess up even in dreams?!

going to get my shower now.
supposed to have lunch with papa. :)
good thing, too. need the hug!!