okay. my dad is on his way here so i better post this one last entry and really pack all my things and plug this computer off.
so people, i probably won't post for a very.. very long time, so until that time,
TAKE CARE!!
and have fun!
have LOADS of fun!!
witch - out! =)
now. bored.
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i think trains ARE a great place to write. i mean, it's at least not as shaky as busses! hehe. and it offers the same 'change of views'. let see, Rowling got her idea of Harry Potter while she was on a train and Walt Disney first drew Mickey Mouse while he was on a train. so maybe one of these days i'll get a brilliant idea of some kind for myself! hihi.
*sigh*
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ooh~ this song just gave me the chills! for the first time today i listen to it loud enough that i couldn't even hear myself think.
i suppose this song is a bit sad. but it has this touch of strong-ness, so i gotta love this song! and Delta Goodrem's voice gave the best feeling to the whole song, so.. bravo! hihi.
Not Me, Not I by Delta Goodrem
You mixed me up for someone
Who'd fall apart without you
Yeah you broke my heart for the first time
But I'll get over that too
It's hard to find the reasons
Who can see the rhyme?
I guess that we were seasons out of time
I guess you didn't know me
If you think love is blind
That I wouldn't see the flaws between the lines
Surprise, that I caught you out
On every single time that you lied
Did you think that every time I see you I would cry
No not me, not I,
Not I, no not me, not I
The story goes on without you
And there's got to be another ending
But yeah you broke my heart it won't be the last time
But I'll get over them too
As a new door opens we close the ones behind
And if you search your soul I know you'll find
You never really knew me
If you think love is blind
That I wouldn't see the flaws between the lines
Surprise, that I caught you out
On every single time that you lied
Did you think that every time I see you I would cry
No not me, not I,
Not I, not I, not I
All you said to me
All you promised me
All the mystery, never did believe
No I never cry, no I never not me
Not I
If you think love is blind
That I wouldn't see the flaws between the lines
Surprise, that I caught you out
On every single time that you lied
Did you think that every time I see you I would cry
No not I, I won't cry
No not me, not I
Not I
ohh, i think Yukira posted this song somewhile ago on her blog. =D
good taste, yah cik Yukira!! heehee!
i suppose this song is a bit sad. but it has this touch of strong-ness, so i gotta love this song! and Delta Goodrem's voice gave the best feeling to the whole song, so.. bravo! hihi.
Not Me, Not I by Delta Goodrem
You mixed me up for someone
Who'd fall apart without you
Yeah you broke my heart for the first time
But I'll get over that too
It's hard to find the reasons
Who can see the rhyme?
I guess that we were seasons out of time
I guess you didn't know me
If you think love is blind
That I wouldn't see the flaws between the lines
Surprise, that I caught you out
On every single time that you lied
Did you think that every time I see you I would cry
No not me, not I,
Not I, no not me, not I
The story goes on without you
And there's got to be another ending
But yeah you broke my heart it won't be the last time
But I'll get over them too
As a new door opens we close the ones behind
And if you search your soul I know you'll find
You never really knew me
If you think love is blind
That I wouldn't see the flaws between the lines
Surprise, that I caught you out
On every single time that you lied
Did you think that every time I see you I would cry
No not me, not I,
Not I, not I, not I
All you said to me
All you promised me
All the mystery, never did believe
No I never cry, no I never not me
Not I
If you think love is blind
That I wouldn't see the flaws between the lines
Surprise, that I caught you out
On every single time that you lied
Did you think that every time I see you I would cry
No not I, I won't cry
No not me, not I
Not I
ohh, i think Yukira posted this song somewhile ago on her blog. =D
good taste, yah cik Yukira!! heehee!
all of whats!
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hihi.. had this bit of idea during the weekends.
1. what's weird.
- how somedays i can feel like the smartest person in the whole world while some days i feel like the biggest idiot.
2. what's dislikeable.
- bad looking boys giving their worst pick up lines. and roaches! really quick roaches. (i even HATE!)
3. what's cool.
- Comic Relief and RND. and guitar too, of course! guitar and drums. heh!
4. what's annoying.
- watching a movie on Astro, and 15 minutes before the ending, it RAINS! (has happened to me three times to date!)
5. what's impressive.
- guys who are in touch with their emotions. hihi! who are not afraid to actually let people know his thoughts. ekkeke!
6. what's envy.
- dida talking about the prospects of her being sent to overseas for her job! (roawr!!)
7. what's fun.
- catching up to your bestest buddies and your sisters! a big day of shopping is fun too! hahha!
8. what's scary.
- a dream with you just receiving a love letter. (that particular dream woke me up one morning, actually! hahha!) okay, other scary things would be my over-thinking, over-analyzing and high imagination thoughts.
9. what's amazing.
- great actors and writers. authors, composers.. they are all just amazing!!
10. what's sad.
- seeing a loved one in trouble but you are of no help 'cause you simply can't.
11. what's funny.
- life. no doubt about it!
12. what's lovable.
- rat!!! well ratman, i suppose 'coz i don't really love the ones that run around dirty places! so it'll be that guy i can never have 'coz he's just one of my silly little crushes; sir laughsalot!
okay! 1:30! i ought to get some sleep!!
1. what's weird.
- how somedays i can feel like the smartest person in the whole world while some days i feel like the biggest idiot.
2. what's dislikeable.
- bad looking boys giving their worst pick up lines. and roaches! really quick roaches. (i even HATE!)
3. what's cool.
- Comic Relief and RND. and guitar too, of course! guitar and drums. heh!
4. what's annoying.
- watching a movie on Astro, and 15 minutes before the ending, it RAINS! (has happened to me three times to date!)
5. what's impressive.
- guys who are in touch with their emotions. hihi! who are not afraid to actually let people know his thoughts. ekkeke!
6. what's envy.
- dida talking about the prospects of her being sent to overseas for her job! (roawr!!)
7. what's fun.
- catching up to your bestest buddies and your sisters! a big day of shopping is fun too! hahha!
8. what's scary.
- a dream with you just receiving a love letter. (that particular dream woke me up one morning, actually! hahha!) okay, other scary things would be my over-thinking, over-analyzing and high imagination thoughts.
9. what's amazing.
- great actors and writers. authors, composers.. they are all just amazing!!
10. what's sad.
- seeing a loved one in trouble but you are of no help 'cause you simply can't.
11. what's funny.
- life. no doubt about it!
12. what's lovable.
- rat!!! well ratman, i suppose 'coz i don't really love the ones that run around dirty places! so it'll be that guy i can never have 'coz he's just one of my silly little crushes; sir laughsalot!
okay! 1:30! i ought to get some sleep!!
Tuesday, April 12, 2005
WARNING
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the fingers on my left hand is now SORE. really sore. in fact, typing this isn't comfortable at all. but heyy! in the name of the school break, i better type out simply EVERYTHING of ANYTHING! heehee~
in this post, i am going to thank Hot Frets for helping me tune my guitar. (good thing i'm not tone-
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i've put away my guitar now since my fingers are too sore for me to play a single note right.
and i'm gonna have to push back my plans on buying Rot3F cd, if i'm going to buy some book for guitar-idiots like me. (the idiot's book is rm70 in MPH!)
"excuse me, do you have change for 20 cents?"
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*giggle*
that was actually how my 'pretty long outing' started yesterday.
so yesterday i didn't return to my apa-to (apartment in japanese) 'coz.. i don't know. lack of self-resistance, probably. i took my own sweet time doing that law paper and got out with the very few people who stayed 'til the end of the two hours period.
i jumped onto a bus before i was even sure i really wanted to leave. i mean, it was already 5pm and that means i have just about 2 to 3 hours to come back to cyberia safely before it gets too dark out.
i got to midvalley around 6, and after a quick trip to the loo, i went straight to get my comfort food. (guess. something not too cheap and cheesy! hihi.)
then i walked off the calories (yeah, exactly!) around the mall and got myself two guitar picks! - which i just bought off quite randomly; according to the COLOR!! ahhahaha!!
then i went to MPH and as usual, find myself cursing at self for allowing myself to be tempted by the books! roawr! honestly, i never find a day when i went into a bookstore and see nothing that i want to buy. ohh, and then i found Room On The 3rd Floor on their cd racks!! so to lift off a bit of guilt, i called dida to ask if she thinks it's okay if i buy it. heehee.
and guess what? she said she was on Federal Highway with my parents, and then turned towards Midvalley 'coz i was there! all four of us ended up walking around (dida was surveying shoes) and later.. i followed them back HOME! ahhahaha!!
anyways, i got back here around afternoon today but i couldn't bring myself to type out anything. but since i'll get back home for good tomorrow..
EXPECT A SUPER-OVERLY-EXCESSIVE BLOGGING 'TIL I TAKE THE PLUGS OFF TOMORROW!!
wahhahahaha!!
see you soon! *wink wink!*
that was actually how my 'pretty long outing' started yesterday.
so yesterday i didn't return to my apa-to (apartment in japanese) 'coz.. i don't know. lack of self-resistance, probably. i took my own sweet time doing that law paper and got out with the very few people who stayed 'til the end of the two hours period.
i jumped onto a bus before i was even sure i really wanted to leave. i mean, it was already 5pm and that means i have just about 2 to 3 hours to come back to cyberia safely before it gets too dark out.
i got to midvalley around 6, and after a quick trip to the loo, i went straight to get my comfort food. (guess. something not too cheap and cheesy! hihi.)
then i walked off the calories (yeah, exactly!) around the mall and got myself two guitar picks! - which i just bought off quite randomly; according to the COLOR!! ahhahaha!!
then i went to MPH and as usual, find myself cursing at self for allowing myself to be tempted by the books! roawr! honestly, i never find a day when i went into a bookstore and see nothing that i want to buy. ohh, and then i found Room On The 3rd Floor on their cd racks!! so to lift off a bit of guilt, i called dida to ask if she thinks it's okay if i buy it. heehee.
and guess what? she said she was on Federal Highway with my parents, and then turned towards Midvalley 'coz i was there! all four of us ended up walking around (dida was surveying shoes) and later.. i followed them back HOME! ahhahaha!!
anyways, i got back here around afternoon today but i couldn't bring myself to type out anything. but since i'll get back home for good tomorrow..
EXPECT A SUPER-OVERLY-EXCESSIVE BLOGGING 'TIL I TAKE THE PLUGS OFF TOMORROW!!
wahhahahaha!!
see you soon! *wink wink!*
Monday, April 11, 2005
an untimely happy.
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hihi.
had a pretty amusing weekend. i was sleep-deprived, mind. but roughly i had a good time. been following the Augusta Masters (golf) with papa most mornings 'coz i can't get to shut my thoughts (when i tried sleeping). so how boring am i? - to actually follow GOLF, of all sports. (if you can call it a sport!) i wonder if any of the F1 drivers are interested in golf. i mean, that's a real big difference there, isn't it? hihi.
ohh. and i coudn't help myself laughing as i watched Man United lose to Norwich City by 2-0. to set the records sraight, i AM a Man U fan, but how lame were they; to lose to Norwich?? a bit pathetic, really. *sigh* so i simply couldn't help..
i miss having Beckham in Man U. *sigh* not too fond of him being in Real Madrid, don't know why. so i'd usually get hyped when it's the World Cup Qualifying with England on telly. hihi!
now i can't make out why i started rambling about football!!
ANYWAYS!! dida just got off her plane late tonight.
okay first, last thursday when i visited nina, she said dida had called and told her that she (dida) had a surprise for me!! little ole me!! heehee! and dida told nina what it was, and just wouldn't tell me. nina described it as "cool" and had guessed what it was before dida had told her.
SO! my weekend was entirely spent thinking what this mystery present was! hahha! it really bugged me that nina could have guessed it and i had NO IDEA WHAT SO EVER! (probably 'coz i want too many things that i can't just guess ONE! ahhahaha!!)
SOOO! i was watching the telly at the waiting area in KLIA (Trump just gave the apprentices their assignment) when mama called me out and said she's seen dida. so i looked where she was pointing and yeah! dida was walkin towards the exit..
and on her back.. she was carrying.......
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEKK!!!
couldn't help but forget telly and run towards her!!
i gave her an extra hug when they all sent me here afterwards! hihi!!
i thought the pic looks a bit cool! the guitar was reflecting my computer screen and even my other hand which was on the camera! heehee!
okay. now i ought to go to sleep if i want to wake up early tomorrow and study for Media Law!!
can't wait for the break and "study" my guitar!!!!!!
had a pretty amusing weekend. i was sleep-deprived, mind. but roughly i had a good time. been following the Augusta Masters (golf) with papa most mornings 'coz i can't get to shut my thoughts (when i tried sleeping). so how boring am i? - to actually follow GOLF, of all sports. (if you can call it a sport!) i wonder if any of the F1 drivers are interested in golf. i mean, that's a real big difference there, isn't it? hihi.
ohh. and i coudn't help myself laughing as i watched Man United lose to Norwich City by 2-0. to set the records sraight, i AM a Man U fan, but how lame were they; to lose to Norwich?? a bit pathetic, really. *sigh* so i simply couldn't help..
i miss having Beckham in Man U. *sigh* not too fond of him being in Real Madrid, don't know why. so i'd usually get hyped when it's the World Cup Qualifying with England on telly. hihi!
now i can't make out why i started rambling about football!!
ANYWAYS!! dida just got off her plane late tonight.
okay first, last thursday when i visited nina, she said dida had called and told her that she (dida) had a surprise for me!! little ole me!! heehee! and dida told nina what it was, and just wouldn't tell me. nina described it as "cool" and had guessed what it was before dida had told her.
SO! my weekend was entirely spent thinking what this mystery present was! hahha! it really bugged me that nina could have guessed it and i had NO IDEA WHAT SO EVER! (probably 'coz i want too many things that i can't just guess ONE! ahhahaha!!)
SOOO! i was watching the telly at the waiting area in KLIA (Trump just gave the apprentices their assignment) when mama called me out and said she's seen dida. so i looked where she was pointing and yeah! dida was walkin towards the exit..
and on her back.. she was carrying.......
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEKK!!!
couldn't help but forget telly and run towards her!!
i gave her an extra hug when they all sent me here afterwards! hihi!!
i thought the pic looks a bit cool! the guitar was reflecting my computer screen and even my other hand which was on the camera! heehee!
okay. now i ought to go to sleep if i want to wake up early tomorrow and study for Media Law!!
can't wait for the break and "study" my guitar!!!!!!
Thursday, April 07, 2005
Lindsay Lohan ni memang laa..
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so i finally watched her new music video; Over, and guess who played as her "boy" in this one.. DREW FULLER!!
ahhaha!! remember those posts where my IQ had decreased because of him? *lol* if you can't remember who the heck he is, Drew is the young white lighter guy in Charmed, Piper's son that came from the future to stop Wyatt from turning evil. hehe!
and Lindsay's going to appear late this year with a movie called Just My Luck(?) - i think that's what it's called! it has something to do with Vegas and luck. hehe. and in that movie.. there'll be the boys from McFLY!! yaaaaaaaah~!! (by now you should understand why the title for this post is Lindsay Lohan ni memang laa..!) lucky indeed! =P
going to get shower and off to my mom/sister's office in a bit! thought of having lunch with nina, but she had plans with her friends. and somehow right now i'm feeling like i'm going to miss not having dida at home when i get back later today. *sigh* (i really hate not having my sisters around! wonder how it'll be when dida gets married! eeech!)
i've been repeating Rob Thomas' new single lately and don't you think that the song is just funny?? well, i honestly like the song but it's very.. pop-ish don't you think? very unlike Matchbox 20. and what's funnier was the video!! ekkeke! i guess since it falls under pop, Rob would think moving his rear end to the beats was okay. *lol!* just.. funny. from cool rock-ish songs like Disease to booty-moving pop! but i do like the new single! i DO!
but this morning i'm going to post the other song that i've been over-listening to since yesterday! (don't worry, it's not McFLY! *lol*) i think this song sounds so.. wonderful! (but i don't think it's "wonderful" enough for parents to approve! *lol*)
The Ghost Of You by My Chemical Romance
I never said I’d lie in wait forever
If I died we'd be together
I can’t always just forget her
But she could try
At the end of the world
Or the last thing I see
You are never coming home, never coming home
Could I, should I
And all the things that you never ever told me
And all the smiles that are ever, ever, ever
Get the feeling that you’re never
All alone and I remember now
At the top of my lungs, in my arms she dies
She dies
At the end of the world
Or the last thing I see
You are never coming home, never coming home
Could I, should I
And all the things that you never ever told me
And all the smiles that are ever gonna haunt me
Never coming home, never coming home
Could I, should I
And all the wounds that are ever gonna scar me
For all the ghosts that are never gonna catch me
If I fall
If I fall (down)
At the end of the world
Or the last thing I see
You are never coming home
Never coming home
Never coming home
Never coming home
And all the things that you never ever told me
And all the smiles that are ever gonna haunt me
Never coming home, never coming home
Could I, should I
And all the wounds that are ever gonna scar me
For all the ghosts that are never gonna..
100 days away from Half-Blood Prince!! *cheer cheer!!*
ahhaha!! remember those posts where my IQ had decreased because of him? *lol* if you can't remember who the heck he is, Drew is the young white lighter guy in Charmed, Piper's son that came from the future to stop Wyatt from turning evil. hehe!
and Lindsay's going to appear late this year with a movie called Just My Luck(?) - i think that's what it's called! it has something to do with Vegas and luck. hehe. and in that movie.. there'll be the boys from McFLY!! yaaaaaaaah~!! (by now you should understand why the title for this post is Lindsay Lohan ni memang laa..!) lucky indeed! =P
going to get shower and off to my mom/sister's office in a bit! thought of having lunch with nina, but she had plans with her friends. and somehow right now i'm feeling like i'm going to miss not having dida at home when i get back later today. *sigh* (i really hate not having my sisters around! wonder how it'll be when dida gets married! eeech!)
i've been repeating Rob Thomas' new single lately and don't you think that the song is just funny?? well, i honestly like the song but it's very.. pop-ish don't you think? very unlike Matchbox 20. and what's funnier was the video!! ekkeke! i guess since it falls under pop, Rob would think moving his rear end to the beats was okay. *lol!* just.. funny. from cool rock-ish songs like Disease to booty-moving pop! but i do like the new single! i DO!
but this morning i'm going to post the other song that i've been over-listening to since yesterday! (don't worry, it's not McFLY! *lol*) i think this song sounds so.. wonderful! (but i don't think it's "wonderful" enough for parents to approve! *lol*)
The Ghost Of You by My Chemical Romance
I never said I’d lie in wait forever
If I died we'd be together
I can’t always just forget her
But she could try
At the end of the world
Or the last thing I see
You are never coming home, never coming home
Could I, should I
And all the things that you never ever told me
And all the smiles that are ever, ever, ever
Get the feeling that you’re never
All alone and I remember now
At the top of my lungs, in my arms she dies
She dies
At the end of the world
Or the last thing I see
You are never coming home, never coming home
Could I, should I
And all the things that you never ever told me
And all the smiles that are ever gonna haunt me
Never coming home, never coming home
Could I, should I
And all the wounds that are ever gonna scar me
For all the ghosts that are never gonna catch me
If I fall
If I fall (down)
At the end of the world
Or the last thing I see
You are never coming home
Never coming home
Never coming home
Never coming home
And all the things that you never ever told me
And all the smiles that are ever gonna haunt me
Never coming home, never coming home
Could I, should I
And all the wounds that are ever gonna scar me
For all the ghosts that are never gonna..
100 days away from Half-Blood Prince!! *cheer cheer!!*
Wednesday, April 06, 2005
food is good.
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now i'm certain that i'm in a much much better mood than yesterday! fuuh~ i actually took the last 20 hours to finally get back my normal mood! how freaky was that?
the 8-9 hours of sleep last night might have helped. and the sugar. hehe! loaads of sugar. i had the worse craving yet, late in the afternoon! i had to went to the shop even though it was raining outside. (such a bad time to crave for some junk!) and such a spoil that the shop didn't have any chocolate, so i had to settle with some twiggies, a big bottle of soda and a bag of chips - and voila! better mood. heehee!
i didn't know what i did for the rest of my day, but i only checked on mugglenet around 5pm and their latest news was about a downloadable countdown calendar on scholastic!
it hasn't started yet, gotta wait 'til tomorrow for some fun facts or any special features to come out from the calendar. (tomorrow = 100 days away from HBP!) the wallpaper is in shockwave, so sometimes an owl would swoop across the screen! hehe! i might get back to my old wallpaper if it weights down my already slow computer!
hihi! it's actually an illustration of the marauders; which i just ADORE! i don't know who did this wallpaper since i took it from a HP site, but i gotta love the person who did it!!
another reason for the much happier note is probably 'coz i finally get to download the video i've been wanting to see yesterday! weeeee~! *lol* i know, i get upset for the silliest things!
okay. i know it's really early and everything, but i think i do need to get to sleep sometime soon. so..
goodnight world!
the 8-9 hours of sleep last night might have helped. and the sugar. hehe! loaads of sugar. i had the worse craving yet, late in the afternoon! i had to went to the shop even though it was raining outside. (such a bad time to crave for some junk!) and such a spoil that the shop didn't have any chocolate, so i had to settle with some twiggies, a big bottle of soda and a bag of chips - and voila! better mood. heehee!
i didn't know what i did for the rest of my day, but i only checked on mugglenet around 5pm and their latest news was about a downloadable countdown calendar on scholastic!
it hasn't started yet, gotta wait 'til tomorrow for some fun facts or any special features to come out from the calendar. (tomorrow = 100 days away from HBP!) the wallpaper is in shockwave, so sometimes an owl would swoop across the screen! hehe! i might get back to my old wallpaper if it weights down my already slow computer!
hihi! it's actually an illustration of the marauders; which i just ADORE! i don't know who did this wallpaper since i took it from a HP site, but i gotta love the person who did it!!
another reason for the much happier note is probably 'coz i finally get to download the video i've been wanting to see yesterday! weeeee~! *lol* i know, i get upset for the silliest things!
okay. i know it's really early and everything, but i think i do need to get to sleep sometime soon. so..
goodnight world!
Tuesday, April 05, 2005
...someplace else.
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humm.
despite that i don't even feel like typing right now, i actually feel the need to at least try to explain the frustration. weird? yeah. anyways, i just feel like a real good-for-nothing person today. just a stupid existence and a major waste of space. there. and now, i could just hit my head for even saying that 'coz i SHOULDN'T! this is such a weird day; i'm just really emotional and maybe a bit more dramatic than i usually am, i don't know. morning was a rough start, and it didn't even get a bit better. okay, maybe a bit when i went for lunch after the exam with the girls but afterwards it just got worse. got hit by a realization; on how hard was the exam paper. i felt real stupid for leaving out as much blanks as i did! GOD!! obviously i'm not among the people You love. ooh~ don't get me started on that subject or i'll just cry. SO moving on.. this head. i wish this head will shut up and stay quiet for at least 5 minutes! just 5!! i actually thought of 11 topics that i could write out on this blog since yesterday! and what's frustrating, when i finally got myself in front of the pc, they all seemed to just flew off and left me quite dumb. i don't think i'll ever find anyone who gets mad at herself/himself as much as i do. maybe i'm not as lucky as i thought. *scream!* i'm doing it again. no, i AM thankful for all the luck i keep getting. i just.. want to cry. *sigh* i'm not making any sense, am i? been trying to explain myself but it's useless! i'm just too frustrated about everything right now. most probably frustrated with myself for being so ME. me who knows exactly what is right and wrong, but keeps on ignoring the things i should and shouldn't. me that knows exactly what she wants but simply isn't working her butts off for it. me who is smart, but wasting all of her time fooling around and do moronic things. me who wishes for all the things she couldn't have if she keeps on rambling in this blog. yeah. useless. how did i get this way? i wonder if my family thinks of how useless i am as much as i do. maybe they do. couldn't blame them. i'm slacking off too much. too spoilt and too care-less. useless. definitely useless! *sigh* blame the world for being so big that i keep wishing to explore. blame the internet for resetting the connection while i was downloading a file. blame music for being so beautifully created. blame myself for being the 87% sagittarius that i am!
Help! by McFLY
(listen to the Beatles' if you like!)
(Help) I need somebody
(Help) Not just anybody
(Help) You know I need someone
(Help)
When I was younger, so much younger than today
I never needed anybody's help in any way
But now these days are gone
I'm not so self assured
Now I find I've changed my mind
I've opened up the doors
Help me if you can, I'm feeling down
And I do appreciate you being 'round
Help me get my feet back on the ground
Won't you please, please help me
And now my life has changed in oh, so many ways
My independence seems to vanish in the haze
But every now and then I feel so insecure
I know that I just need you like
I've never done before
Help me if you can, I'm feeling down
And I do appreciate you being 'round
Help me get my feet back on the ground
Won't you please, please help me
When I was younger, so much younger than today
I never needed anybody's help in any way
But now those days are gone
I'm not so self assured
Now I find I've changed my mind
I've opened up the doors
Help me if you can, I'm feeling down
And I do appreciate you being 'round
Help me get my feet back on the ground
Won't you please, please help me
Help me, help me..
despite that i don't even feel like typing right now, i actually feel the need to at least try to explain the frustration. weird? yeah. anyways, i just feel like a real good-for-nothing person today. just a stupid existence and a major waste of space. there. and now, i could just hit my head for even saying that 'coz i SHOULDN'T! this is such a weird day; i'm just really emotional and maybe a bit more dramatic than i usually am, i don't know. morning was a rough start, and it didn't even get a bit better. okay, maybe a bit when i went for lunch after the exam with the girls but afterwards it just got worse. got hit by a realization; on how hard was the exam paper. i felt real stupid for leaving out as much blanks as i did! GOD!! obviously i'm not among the people You love. ooh~ don't get me started on that subject or i'll just cry. SO moving on.. this head. i wish this head will shut up and stay quiet for at least 5 minutes! just 5!! i actually thought of 11 topics that i could write out on this blog since yesterday! and what's frustrating, when i finally got myself in front of the pc, they all seemed to just flew off and left me quite dumb. i don't think i'll ever find anyone who gets mad at herself/himself as much as i do. maybe i'm not as lucky as i thought. *scream!* i'm doing it again. no, i AM thankful for all the luck i keep getting. i just.. want to cry. *sigh* i'm not making any sense, am i? been trying to explain myself but it's useless! i'm just too frustrated about everything right now. most probably frustrated with myself for being so ME. me who knows exactly what is right and wrong, but keeps on ignoring the things i should and shouldn't. me that knows exactly what she wants but simply isn't working her butts off for it. me who is smart, but wasting all of her time fooling around and do moronic things. me who wishes for all the things she couldn't have if she keeps on rambling in this blog. yeah. useless. how did i get this way? i wonder if my family thinks of how useless i am as much as i do. maybe they do. couldn't blame them. i'm slacking off too much. too spoilt and too care-less. useless. definitely useless! *sigh* blame the world for being so big that i keep wishing to explore. blame the internet for resetting the connection while i was downloading a file. blame music for being so beautifully created. blame myself for being the 87% sagittarius that i am!
Help! by McFLY
(listen to the Beatles' if you like!)
(Help) I need somebody
(Help) Not just anybody
(Help) You know I need someone
(Help)
When I was younger, so much younger than today
I never needed anybody's help in any way
But now these days are gone
I'm not so self assured
Now I find I've changed my mind
I've opened up the doors
Help me if you can, I'm feeling down
And I do appreciate you being 'round
Help me get my feet back on the ground
Won't you please, please help me
And now my life has changed in oh, so many ways
My independence seems to vanish in the haze
But every now and then I feel so insecure
I know that I just need you like
I've never done before
Help me if you can, I'm feeling down
And I do appreciate you being 'round
Help me get my feet back on the ground
Won't you please, please help me
When I was younger, so much younger than today
I never needed anybody's help in any way
But now those days are gone
I'm not so self assured
Now I find I've changed my mind
I've opened up the doors
Help me if you can, I'm feeling down
And I do appreciate you being 'round
Help me get my feet back on the ground
Won't you please, please help me
Help me, help me..
bluerghthh!! *ugly word here* i hate myself.
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i seem to have the weakest control of my own self.
let's just say that today hasn't been the best day of my life. very bad to the head really, since i don't posess a single way to shut up my thoughts!! *screams in frustration!*
maybe i'll write more when i'm in a better mood.
in the mean time, piss off!
let's just say that today hasn't been the best day of my life. very bad to the head really, since i don't posess a single way to shut up my thoughts!! *screams in frustration!*
maybe i'll write more when i'm in a better mood.
in the mean time, piss off!
Monday, April 04, 2005
hey, rat!
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okay. i have about 15 minutes to type this out.
it's been.. not a very good morning.
i had only 4-5 hours of sleep 'coz i was too nervous to rest.
went to Finance around 9 and thank God that there wasn't even a line, so i could finally talk to that finance person man.
so he has un-barred me so i could take the exam but i still can't register for next semester's subject. blaaaah!!
i was rather panicky earlier this morning, but considering the procrastination.. i guess i wasn't panicky enough. heh! you'd thought that with all these worries i would've at least quit the slacking off, yeah? *sigh*
o yeah, while i was talking to that finance person, i found out that he had mastered the art of not picking up a ringing phone! amazing, yeah? he simply ignored the ring and it simply wouldn't stop!
9 minutes..
okay. take note that with this time left, i am going to work on the post for before this one. i actually wrote about it at home but stupidly forgotten to copy it into a disc to post it today! *hits head*
okay.
wish me luck for digital animation!! i MIGHT need it. =)
it's been.. not a very good morning.
i had only 4-5 hours of sleep 'coz i was too nervous to rest.
went to Finance around 9 and thank God that there wasn't even a line, so i could finally talk to that finance person man.
so he has un-barred me so i could take the exam but i still can't register for next semester's subject. blaaaah!!
i was rather panicky earlier this morning, but considering the procrastination.. i guess i wasn't panicky enough. heh! you'd thought that with all these worries i would've at least quit the slacking off, yeah? *sigh*
o yeah, while i was talking to that finance person, i found out that he had mastered the art of not picking up a ringing phone! amazing, yeah? he simply ignored the ring and it simply wouldn't stop!
9 minutes..
okay. take note that with this time left, i am going to work on the post for before this one. i actually wrote about it at home but stupidly forgotten to copy it into a disc to post it today! *hits head*
okay.
wish me luck for digital animation!! i MIGHT need it. =)
..like falling in love for the first time.
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2:00am saturday. i KNOW i was going to see it on telly and my heart STILL pumps a beat faster. must've seen it dozens of times already and yet it still excites me to actually see it on a bigger screen. so i've been watching the video for countless of times on my own computer, but seeing them again on MTV at the same about of time i first saw it, brought that little joy.. and a weird sense of pride in the chest.
it's probably alike falling in love for the first time.. as if you just opened your eyes from one deep slumber and the brilliance of the light hurts the eyes but made you giddy at the same time. as if the time you first set your eyes on that perfect person and you just couldn't see any bits of them that was out of order. the emotions that took you over were simply overwhelming that you just couldn't make any sense to any of it. you couldn't believe your luck that the perfect person - your perfect person was right in front of you and now you could just reach out and touch them.
and there i was - falling in love for the first time.. again.
*giggles!!* i know i knoooww. that's a bit TOO dramatic to describe my feelings towards A VIDEO, i knoww! but i was feeling mighty giddy at that moment, and was smiling like a fool - 2 o'clock in the morning; should be a bit scary, yeah? hihi!
disclaimer: i am NOT going to give any credit to MKA; my first really serious crush when i said "..like falling in love for the first time." hahha!! i DO get a big pang in the mind when i just realize my feelings (if there were any!) towards someone, thus resulted to that part when i "described" my "first love" - which is all the time, really! *lol!*
can't really compare your feelings when you'd naturally become crazier and more lame the next time, now can you?
ooh! please read the "love" above as "like like"! love sounded a bit too mature, i think!
it's probably alike falling in love for the first time.. as if you just opened your eyes from one deep slumber and the brilliance of the light hurts the eyes but made you giddy at the same time. as if the time you first set your eyes on that perfect person and you just couldn't see any bits of them that was out of order. the emotions that took you over were simply overwhelming that you just couldn't make any sense to any of it. you couldn't believe your luck that the perfect person - your perfect person was right in front of you and now you could just reach out and touch them.
and there i was - falling in love for the first time.. again.
*giggles!!* i know i knoooww. that's a bit TOO dramatic to describe my feelings towards A VIDEO, i knoww! but i was feeling mighty giddy at that moment, and was smiling like a fool - 2 o'clock in the morning; should be a bit scary, yeah? hihi!
disclaimer: i am NOT going to give any credit to MKA; my first really serious crush when i said "..like falling in love for the first time." hahha!! i DO get a big pang in the mind when i just realize my feelings (if there were any!) towards someone, thus resulted to that part when i "described" my "first love" - which is all the time, really! *lol!*
can't really compare your feelings when you'd naturally become crazier and more lame the next time, now can you?
ooh! please read the "love" above as "like like"! love sounded a bit too mature, i think!
Friday, April 01, 2005
oooh!!
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mugglenet is EVIL!!
i said earlier to watch your back, and then i just got myself shocked with what's in front of me! roawr!! emerson's a riot. *sigh*
okie! birthday wishes to people who don't exist!
happy birthday Gred and Forge!!!
the sole founders of managable mischieves! it's their fault really, that i've solemnly swear that i am up to no good! hahha!
and also..
happy birthday Sakura Kinomoto!
kikkiki!
okay. i'm still barred by the stupid Finance Division, and i've tried calling them. you would've expect them to at least pick it up once in a while, yeah? what's the point of posting your number when you won't pick up?? morons! grrr.
and the line outside their office was reaally long!! and i was there early 10am! how inconvenient! so maybe i'll get my exam slip printed on monday. (d'you think i'll manage?) grrr. MORONIC FINANCE PEOPLE YOUUUU!!!
ps: i'm not as frustrated as i might seem, actually. quite surprisingly cool about it! (despite i didn't get an on-campus residential, didn't get my loan, couldn't pay my fees, barred from printing the exam slip and registering next sem's subjects, having my digital animation paper on monday and not being able to see hanis fly off back to japan.)
such a weird april friday, this is! *giggles*
i said earlier to watch your back, and then i just got myself shocked with what's in front of me! roawr!! emerson's a riot. *sigh*
okie! birthday wishes to people who don't exist!
happy birthday Gred and Forge!!!
the sole founders of managable mischieves! it's their fault really, that i've solemnly swear that i am up to no good! hahha!
and also..
happy birthday Sakura Kinomoto!
kikkiki!
okay. i'm still barred by the stupid Finance Division, and i've tried calling them. you would've expect them to at least pick it up once in a while, yeah? what's the point of posting your number when you won't pick up?? morons! grrr.
and the line outside their office was reaally long!! and i was there early 10am! how inconvenient! so maybe i'll get my exam slip printed on monday. (d'you think i'll manage?) grrr. MORONIC FINANCE PEOPLE YOUUUU!!!
ps: i'm not as frustrated as i might seem, actually. quite surprisingly cool about it! (despite i didn't get an on-campus residential, didn't get my loan, couldn't pay my fees, barred from printing the exam slip and registering next sem's subjects, having my digital animation paper on monday and not being able to see hanis fly off back to japan.)
such a weird april friday, this is! *giggles*
AHHAHAHAHAH!!! *mad laugh again*
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sorry! i know i shouldn't laugh -first, before telling the story.
but i just saw this stupid video by McFLY. so happens that this show, TOTP (Top Of The Pops) has this confession cam and they were in that booth - confessing. (duh?)
well, anyways! danny farted in there and i couldn't help laughing to it!
i mean, he was voted as the Most Fanciable Male by Smash Hits (yes, the magazine!) and THERE'S NOTHING FANCIABLE ABOUT FARTING!! ahhahahha!!
okay well, i'm not being fair - even to myself! i admit, even after seeing that fart scene, i still really fancy him! ahhahaha!! *hits head!* *reminds self not to start rambling too much - especially about silly crushes!!!*
o yeah, the Most Fanciable Female was Rachael that were in S Club 7.
okay. thought i'd spread a bit more than just McFLY. this is a song by V.. with collaboration from McFLY! *lol!* (if you're wondering when this will end - probably not soon enough!) i think the song is quite okay, but V ni macam busuk sikit! (V stinks a bit!) They're 5 guys who sing and dance (or so they claimed!) and toured with Busted, with McFLY. i don't quite understand why would a dancing-boyband would even agree to tour with instrument-playing-band/boyband to be honest!
anyways! these guys didn't work out and broke up after working together for 2 years, releasing an album. (though i couldn't find anywhere the DATE of the break up; whether it was after or before Busted did) (o yeah, if you didn't knew that one, Busted did broke up when Charlie; the tall one, big voice, decided to work on his other band Fightstar) scares me a bit since McFLY's the only one left standing now. (hope they'll last long!!!)
now, aren't you impressed by my "knowledge" of the British pop music scene? *lol!*
back to V. i have nothing much flattering about them to say. have to be honest, i find british boybands simply irritating! okay, maybe except Take That and 5ive - they did have some neat songs! (either that, or i'm simply saying this because they had a bit of sentimental values) and maybe because i concentrated too hard on *NSYNC. wooooot~!! hahhahaha!! they always have a soft spot on me, sorry!
OKAAAYY!! now, REALLY back to V!! here's the song!! {V's website}
(pssst! Tom of McFLY wrote the song with James of Busted!)
Chills In The Evening by V feat. McFLY
Being with you
Was all that I needed
I don’t know why
You were to blind to see it
Now you’re gone
And I need you here tonight
You know that I can’t sleep coz I'm terrified
Feels like I'm falling
Down really fast inside
And I’m
Wishing the night away
Chills in evening
They won't go away
And sometimes I feel like
I can’t go on living
There’s not much to take when you've done all the giving
Now you’re gone and I need you here tonight
You know that I can’t sleep coz I'm terrified
Feels like I'm falling
Down really fast inside
And I’m
Wishing the night away
Chills in evening
They won't go away
And now I need to find a way
To stop this pain from getting stronger
And I just can’t explain
I don’t understand
Why you left me here
You know that I can’t sleep coz I'm terrified
Feels like I'm falling
Down really fast inside
And I’m
Wishing the night away
Chills in evening
They won't go away
o yeah! HAPPY APRIL FOOLS! =D
watch your back!!
but i just saw this stupid video by McFLY. so happens that this show, TOTP (Top Of The Pops) has this confession cam and they were in that booth - confessing. (duh?)
well, anyways! danny farted in there and i couldn't help laughing to it!
i mean, he was voted as the Most Fanciable Male by Smash Hits (yes, the magazine!) and THERE'S NOTHING FANCIABLE ABOUT FARTING!! ahhahahha!!
okay well, i'm not being fair - even to myself! i admit, even after seeing that fart scene, i still really fancy him! ahhahaha!! *hits head!* *reminds self not to start rambling too much - especially about silly crushes!!!*
o yeah, the Most Fanciable Female was Rachael that were in S Club 7.
okay. thought i'd spread a bit more than just McFLY. this is a song by V.. with collaboration from McFLY! *lol!* (if you're wondering when this will end - probably not soon enough!) i think the song is quite okay, but V ni macam busuk sikit! (V stinks a bit!) They're 5 guys who sing and dance (or so they claimed!) and toured with Busted, with McFLY. i don't quite understand why would a dancing-boyband would even agree to tour with instrument-playing-band/boyband to be honest!
anyways! these guys didn't work out and broke up after working together for 2 years, releasing an album. (though i couldn't find anywhere the DATE of the break up; whether it was after or before Busted did) (o yeah, if you didn't knew that one, Busted did broke up when Charlie; the tall one, big voice, decided to work on his other band Fightstar) scares me a bit since McFLY's the only one left standing now. (hope they'll last long!!!)
now, aren't you impressed by my "knowledge" of the British pop music scene? *lol!*
back to V. i have nothing much flattering about them to say. have to be honest, i find british boybands simply irritating! okay, maybe except Take That and 5ive - they did have some neat songs! (either that, or i'm simply saying this because they had a bit of sentimental values) and maybe because i concentrated too hard on *NSYNC. wooooot~!! hahhahaha!! they always have a soft spot on me, sorry!
OKAAAYY!! now, REALLY back to V!! here's the song!! {V's website}
(pssst! Tom of McFLY wrote the song with James of Busted!)
Chills In The Evening by V feat. McFLY
Being with you
Was all that I needed
I don’t know why
You were to blind to see it
Now you’re gone
And I need you here tonight
You know that I can’t sleep coz I'm terrified
Feels like I'm falling
Down really fast inside
And I’m
Wishing the night away
Chills in evening
They won't go away
And sometimes I feel like
I can’t go on living
There’s not much to take when you've done all the giving
Now you’re gone and I need you here tonight
You know that I can’t sleep coz I'm terrified
Feels like I'm falling
Down really fast inside
And I’m
Wishing the night away
Chills in evening
They won't go away
And now I need to find a way
To stop this pain from getting stronger
And I just can’t explain
I don’t understand
Why you left me here
You know that I can’t sleep coz I'm terrified
Feels like I'm falling
Down really fast inside
And I’m
Wishing the night away
Chills in evening
They won't go away
o yeah! HAPPY APRIL FOOLS! =D
watch your back!!
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