Friendship is unnecessary, like philosphy, like art.. It has no survival value, rather it is one of those things that gives value to survival.I keep everyone in a distance. My good friends would know that since they've experienced it themselves. Always, an arm's length.
It is so if anything bad happens, I wouldn't care. So if I lose one, I wouldn't have to make a fuss over it. So if an evil man and his minion took my friends as a hostage, I wouldn't have to be a hero and get myself hurt.
It's true what a friend had said before, I am rather cold.
I will care for as long as they are still my friends. But when they're not, you won't see me worked up about it. I will miss them later, but I won't ever be the one who'd run to look for them. What was lost.. will forever be lost.
So I'd like to apologize in advance to all my friends whom hadn't known of this before. Maybe you haven't been close enough to see it first hand.
Today I woke up resolute to place another brick on the wall. It saddens me for the fact that we weren't in the fields anymore. But most of all I'm sad that I can't fix my heart out of the doubt.
I'd say doubt is my worst enemy. Well, next to myself of course.
You can't read my thoughts after all.
While you.. you need to get over yourself and leave me alone. Go cuckoo on someone else already.
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