Can't stand the state that I'm in.

Maybe I shouldn't be listening to sad songs.
Maybe maybe maybe..

mm.. I'm not exactly.. depressed or anything. It's more like.. I don't know what to feel. I'm upset because it's irrational. Of course you're not supposed to be able to make sense of love but THAT just IRKS me!!
The fact that I understand a certain thing but I'm acting as if I don't.. and I can't even control my reactions! Just.. irritating. So so irritating.

"Isn't it supposed to be like this?" He smiled. "The glory of first love, and all that. It's incredible, isn't it, the difference between reading about something, seeing it in the pictures, and experiencing it?"

"Very different," I agreed. "More forceful than I'd imagined."
Chapter 14, Twilight by Stephenie Meyer

Dammit.
Pushy.. pushy love. grr.

Brandi Carlile - What Can I Say

pshh. Let's pretend that I'm over that. I got this notification in my inbox today;
shawnjohnson (shawnjohnson) is now following your updates on Twitter.
Funny stuff. Considering the real Shawn Johnson is the Olympics medalist in gymnastic artistic. Oh yes, I know that because gymnastics and volleyball are pretty much the only Olympic events that I watch.
Kinda neat actually.. since I like her better than Nastia Liukin. Shawn Johnson smiles more. hahhaha!

So I missed the Canadian Team show on MIFC tonight. Dida's out with a friend so I'm stuck at home. Well.. not stuck per se. I just rather go with her than listen to her suggestions.. she had listed a few of my guy friends that I could "use" to bring me to the show. Horrible.
But the funny thing is.. the moment she said "I know who you could use!".. I'd think of a name and she would say the same name! HAHAHHA! Three freakin' times!! Oh God, I'm evil..
So anyway.. that's why I didn't call anyone anyway. I always end up feeling bad after I take-take-take; not worth it. But I do hope that Canada didn't do anything spectacular. That'll be a tad upsetting.

oh. Here's something weird. I did a search on my name in Twitter and apparently I don't exist. It only listed fourteen "wani(e)" and I wasn't among them. hmm.. I don't know how I feel about that. Good that I have my privacy? Bad because I don't exist? *sigh*

mm.. okay. That's it for tonight.
I need to find something relaxing to do.. cast my frustration and worry away. Far.. far away.