Kick me when I'm down.

You know why I really want to get the job that I'm training for right now?

I want to meet people.
I like talking to strangers.
People whom I don't know and does not know me. Most importantly, they don't even assume that they know me; which is worse.

It's really tiring when the loved ones are the ones who knows how to hurt you best.
It's painful to admit that no one really knows who you are.
No one.
(If you think that's hard to read, you should be in my position and feel how I feel.)

I don't need a friend.
I just need to get lost.