Weird things

MAKCIK ASHA BAAAIK~!!
Hahhaha!! My pen dropped in class this morning and she picked it up for me! AHAHAH!! And I'm making such a BIG deal out of it! Ain't that silly??
Such a tiring day.. Didn't get the much required sleep that I need. Silly me.. supposedly I went to sleep at 2:30 am but as I lay my head on the pillow.. it struck me.. F1!!! So I checked the @F1 site to check the results only to find out that it hasn't ended yet!!! So I SMSed Dida and watched the streamed TV. hohoho! So Schumy won again!! hooraay~! Getting a bit boring that he wins the races ALL THE TIME, but you can't really complain that he IS good at it, 'aight? Oh heck, as long as it's not Montoya that gets the podium. Bluerrghh~! Bak kata my cousins.. Montoya cam Bangla. AHAHAH!! Biol~! So.. I ended getting just 3 hours of sleep since BJ called me to ask about SLIDE FILM in the morning!! Biol~!
I wonder if I'll be taking more pictures again later tonight.. :D

I know you think that I shouldn't still love you
I'll tell you that
But if I didn't say it
Well, I'd still have felt it
Where's the sense in that?

I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder
Or return to where we were

Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

I know I left too much mess
And destruction to come back again
And I caused nothing but trouble
I understand if you can't talk to me again
And if you live by the rules of "It's over"
Then I'm sure that that makes sense

Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

And when we meet
As I'm sure we will
All that was then
Will be there still
I'll let it pass
And hold my tongue
And you will think
That I've moved on

Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be
~*White Flag; Dido

I wish I can totally say what I want to say without thinking what the concequnces will be.. And I also wish that people will never misunderstood the things I say 'coz I'd hate them to, and 'coz I like talking in circles~! heehee~

Suicidal

hueeeh~~
(hang around me and you'll know how it's supposed to sound like..)
Tiring day.. I think if I talk to a psychiatrist, I'm sure he'd want to see me the next day. I am after all, pretty much suicidal! AHHAHA!! (how can I talk about this, laughing?? ohhohoho!)
Went to do the Light Trails with Asha accompanied by Dzayed!! Thanks guys..! Kinda tiring, really.. stood around too much. Bluerghh~ Dahlaa seperti biase, I played around too much with my slide film! AHAHHA!!
Anyways..
EPPY BIRTHDAY SHAHNON~!!
Okie.. gonna have a long day tomolo.. gotta get my rest!!!
I'll try and find something interesting to say in the day, wokie~!

{ i wish i was special }

Jessica Andrews - Who I Am

WAAHHH!! Album Central's the best!! ekekke!
First heard this song from a TV show on TV2 and I requested for it! And today I got it!! woo hoo~!!
LOVE THIS SONG!!!!

So when I make a big mistake
when I fall flat on my face
I know I'll be alright
Should my tender heart be broken
I will cry those teardrops knowing
I will be just fine
Cuz nothing changes who I am

Playlist

Here's the list of my favorite songs at the moment:
(been playing it over and over and over again!)

Vertical Horizon - Everything You Want
Vertical Horizon - Best I Ever Had
Dido - White Flag
Evanescence - My Immortal
Evanescence - Imaginary
Santana & Chad Kroeger - Why Don't You And I
Nemo - Another Better Day
OAG - Aku Statik
Duncan Sheik - Barely Breathing
Lit - Over My Head
I'm in over my head..

They wanna try and build me up
So they can tear me down
I wish that I could be back there
But I'm right here right now

They've taken everything that I've had to give and
They say it's over but man I'm still here livin'
I don't know what to do, I think that maybe

I'm in over my head
Stuck in the red
Somethin' they said
Makes me think that
I'm in over my head
Over my head
Over my head

I've got to get away from here
And it couldn't be too soon
Cuz I see the stars are here with me
Like rockets to the moon

You take me everywhere that I've never been and
Show me the meaning of what life had to give and
I don't know what to say, I think that maybe

I'm in over my head
Lyin' in her bed
Somethin' she said
Makes me think that
I'm in over my head
Over my head
Over my head

They've taken everything that I've had to give and
They say it's over but man I'm still here livin'
I don't know what to do, I think that maybe

I'm in over my head
Stuck in the red
Somethin' they said
Makes me think that
I'm in over my head
Over my head
Over my head

I'm in over my head

been loving these songs around this week! :X

gelakgelakgelak

heehee~ Just did this quizes.. The topic was pretty neat, but the site is horrible!! So I'm not going to promote it here 'coz it was disgusting! bluerrghh~!!
Anyways, the first quiz was Do You Need A Boyfriend? And here's what I got:
You need a boyfriend like you need a hole in the head.
There’s been drama.
There have been words.
Breakable items have been thrown.
In short, men are trouble and you want no part of them for any reason.
Conventional wisdom says they’re from Mars...
And that actually is not quite far enough away as far as you’re concerned.
Send them all to Pluto!
And the chances of your changing your mind are slim to none.
But that’s okay. We need to hate certain things in life...
So we’ll appreciate the things we love all the more.

hehhe!! But I also did Is There A Boyfriend In Your Future? And what I got is this:
There is 50-50 CHANCE of a boyfriend in your future.
You’re interested, most of the time, but also rather unsure of how to
proceed. It’s like your mom or older sister never took you by the hand,
led you into the garden and had the heart-to-heart instructional talk
that other girls seem to have had.
You know the one, with all the juicy stuff about how to handle men.
But don’t feel like you’re missing out; you’re not! You’re learning
the ropes and eventually you’ll reach the point where you’re beating
men off with a stick.

hahha! Kinda funny when I think about it..
Anyways, currently listening to With Rescue Breathing - You're An Hour Late. Never heard of it? Well, some guy 'promoted' this band to me through Friendster! heehee~ Ain't that nice? This is the second time people from Friendster told me listen to not-known-before bands. And the first one was Nemo! And they're pretty neat!! @nemorocks! hehhe~ I don't mind promoting to this one! :D

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Time fades it all away..

It amazes me how time can really make you forget.. The things that used to mean to you.. Things that you believed you will never forget.. As for me, somehow.. the one thing that used to mean dearly to me has fade away slowly.. It became much more meaningless by day. Kinda sad really, when I really put my thought at it. But somehow I don't think it'll ever be the same again. Honestly, my head kinda get to overpower my heart these days, so that explains it. It's not really hard as I thought.. to focus on what I should've. AHAHHAHA!! What am I babbling here???
O well, gonna let myself dream off the thing I've been longing of for quite a while.. and just that! Dreaming is not so bad, really... Kan Wanie kan..?
Anyways!! Went out with BJ, Asha and ABANG Dzayed! Saw LXG - League of Extraordinary Gentlemen. I have to say.. Really like that shot when Dr Jeckyl/Mr Hyde transformed. And what a handsome man, that Dorian Gray! ahahhaha!! Interesting indeed~~ Anyways, thanks ABANG Dzayed~! Blanje orang makan tadik.. :D ngee~
Humm.. Feeling a bit sleepy and grumpy right now.. bluerrghhh!

It's important to know what's your capabilities and when some things are out of reach, you should just let it be..

bluerghhh~

why am i getting more and more upset about my website?
seems like i'll never put it up properly again..
feels like leaving it just like that for ever..
i have not yet regain my usual excitement to work on it..
feels like stopping at mid-way...

Everything You Want; Vertical Horizon

You're waiting for someone to put you together
You're waiting for someone to push you away
There's always another wound to discover
There's always something more you wish he'd say

He's everything you want, he's everything you need
He's everything inside of you that you wish you could be
He says all the right things at exactly the right time
But he means nothing to you, and you don't know why

Love this song~!!

bodo tripod

anyways.. maybe it's just on me..
but the tripod ads are getting ridiculous!! so there's a big chance that I'll be changing host the next time I get back to MMU..
sakit ati btol tengok ads tolol ni!!
grRrRRR!!!

adohh.. demm these tripod ads!!!

UPDATED~!

Anyways.. takde keje.. so buat layout baru..
FRUITS BASKET!!
Sangat sukaaaaaaaaaa~!
Okielaa... tengah tak tau nak taip ape nihh..
Slamat bercoti MMU peeps!! Skolah pon nak start cuti ekk?
:D

Thursday = Bad day

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memang hari yang sangat tak besh!! One crappy morning yang meleret leret ke tengahari..

Seperti biase.. tido tak cukup.. Otak dah tak berfikir.. blank pun.. Mata maseh tak terlelap.. Doa Qunut dah bace.. 'Bismillah' dah bace 21 kali.. yadaa yadaa yaddaaa.. still!! 'Tido' cemane pon serupa tak tido! Then pagi submit Rule Of Thirds.. Humm.. macam bakal teruk je the outcome.. why?? Sebab the lecturers cakap Wanie tak rendam gamba cukup lama kat fixer! Humm.. ye lahh~ Memang pun.. Sebab kaki sangat feddap menampung badan dari crashing to the ground.. :(
And then... ade lah lagi menda yang malas Wanie nak cakap.. sangat feddap dengan smer bende!! Sangat sangat sangat SANGAAAT!! X(
Wanie sangat marah dengan banyak sangat menda.. rase nak lepas geram kat smer ulat gonggok yang Wanie nampak sepanjang arini! Nak pijak je smerr.. Tapi Wanie sendri pon geli.. OHHOHOHO!! Wanie, you're so lame...
thanks Ana.. Wanie hijack comp Ana laie~

Somewhere there's speaking, it's already coming in
Oh and it's rising in the back of your mind
You never could get it unless you were fed it
Now you're here, and you don't know why

But under skinned knees and the skid marks
Past the places where you used to learn
You howl and listen, listen and wait for
The echoes of angels who won't return

He's everything you want, he's everything you need
He's everything inside of you that you wish you could be
He says all the right things at exactly the right time
But he means nothing to you, and you don't know why

You're waiting for someone to put you together
You're waiting for someone to push you away
There's always another wound to discover
There's always something more you wish he'd say

He's everything you want, he's everything you need
He's everything inside of you that you wish you could be
He says all the right things at exactly the right time
But he means nothing to you, and you don't know why

But you'll just sit tight and watch it unwind
It's only what you're asking for
And you'll be just fine with all of your time
It's only what you're waiting for

Out of the island and into the highway
Past the places where you might have turned
You never did notice, but you still hide away
Anger of angels who won't return

He's everything you want, he's everything you need
He's everything inside of you that you wish you could be
He says all the right things at exactly the right time
But he means nothing to you, and you don't know why

I am everything you want, I am everything you need
I am everything inside of you that you wish you could be
I say all the right things at exactly the right time
But I mean nothing to you, and I don't know why

And I don't know why
Why, why
I don't know
~*Everything You Want; Vertical Horizon

mentalmental :-S

Countdown towards home..

This week is SO tiring and depressing..
Absolutely.. terribly.. horribly busy!! Wanie tak penah terase se-busy ini selama ini!!
Monday.. nothing really.. it was such a depressing day as it was horribly boring!! Tau kene re-sit Database balek.. SANGAT TAK FAIR!!!!!!!! MMU bodo! X(
Amek film b/w aritu cuci kat ESIX (mengelat!) with the girls (BJ, Asha, Nana and Fina). Oh iye.. tapi haritu takde laa menyedihkan sangat.. Got to see Sheeya after such a long time!! :x But the day is crappy for BJ.. so.. pendek kata.. Monday is not a good day..
Tuesday.. horribly TIRING! Me, BJ, Asha and Nana waited to get into the darkroom since 3:30 pm!! And kul brape kitorang dapat masok?? 7 pm!!!!! Tak tahan gile!! Sempat buat ntah hape je lak tu.. hadooi laa~ Good thing about yesterday was the fact that me and BJ stayed in Asha's house in Cyberia! ekkeke!! Sangat besh malam itu.. Main masak-masak lak kitorang.. Buat nasik goreng (gune perencah Sri Aji!! ahhaha!!!) tapi main tambah ntah hape-hape ntah laie.. Paling besh, BJ said that I was good at it.. cooking la kan.. And then Asha came in and said.. "Eleeeh~ tere masak kee tere kacau-kacau nasik..?" SABA JE LAA!! :p Malam tu tido lambat sebab tengok VCD Yusry & Erra along with Asha's housemates. Klakaa~!! And sangat dreamy.. Tetiba lepas tengok tu smer kate nak kawen.. or carik pakwe kaya! AHHAHA!! note: Yusry sangat besh!! Mari kite carik Melayu good-looking like Yusry and Azhar Sulaiman.. AHHAHHA!! Pastu carik yang bole main gita sekali.. OHHOHOHO!! Cam susah sangat nak jumpe ke ekk? ekkeke!) Then when we had the lights out, Asha played her new song.. BESH~! Then Asha told us something that made us so SOOOO dreamy~~ Adooh la haai~ Tuesday is a better day~ (not GOOD, but better than Monday..)
Today.. Bangun awal-awal nak cuci gamba la kan.. But then something came up and we had to go later!! grRrRrR!! I hate people that changes a plan at the very last minute! BONGOK!! So, mase yang terluang diisi dengan gosip gosip pasal orang yang tidak digemari.. WAHHAHA!! Seriously, as far as I know.. me and my friends tak penah la kutuk kutuk orang tanpa sebab taau.. Mengumpat memang la tak elok kann (obviously!) but we can't help telling our friends the wrong things that others did to us, kan? ehee~ Then pegi KL sat.. (Asha and Nana needed to buy the photographic paper) and then we went to the photolab. Rase nak retak retak tulang kaki diri lama lamaaa~!!!!! Dahlaa kene percikan air dari Dar!! Ntah bersih ke idak tangan dia tuu.. dengan chemical nye.. kalo dia baru korek idong ke.. bukan orang tau dalam gelap gelap tuu! Memandai je.. demam karang siaplaa kamuuu!! ekkeke!
Okielaa.. ni tak mandi laie ni.. ingat nak siapkan keje sumer.. pastu mandi.. pastu tidooo~!!! Wednesday is a.. super-tiring day..!!
Dah lama tak tido lena.. Apsal? Setan kaco kot.. ehhehe! Sangat penat.. Sedih to be honest.. for so many reasons.. Unreasonable reasons.. ehee~
Sangat jauh.. sangat rindu.. sangat penat..

merengmereng 8-}

RENOVATION~!

ekkeke~!!
Bongok ni taaau.. I wanted to update the site, really.. tapi tetiba cam.. "humm.. tunggu after cuti kan boleh?" ekkeke!!
Later yaa~!
entah mengape takde mood btol nak update pape pon.. (hari yang tak fair!!! grRrrR)
+_+

ps: ngantuuuk~ Cemane Beckham bole sangat tere target kasi bola kat Figo? Sangat sangat kaguuum!! Everytime tengok, musti dia dapat target bola kat tempat elok elok.. :D Smalam besh tengok TV.. 3R besh~! Congrats to Alonso for the podium.. Youngest driver ya! Baguuuus~ as long as bukan Montoya.. (bluekkk!) Rory's speech was moving! (besh~!) And then tengok Super Cup lak.. Real Madrid lost to Real Mallorca with 1 - 2. (sape suhh kuarkan Beckham cepat sangat!!) Tapi... slalu Real Madrid memang kalah ngan Real Mallorca kan? (at least that's what Dida said to me lah~) :D

Matters of the head..

Tatoeba kurushii kyou datoshitemo
Itsuka atatakana omoide ninaru
Kokoro goto subete nagedase tanara

(Although today is hard to bear
Someday it will be a tender memory
If I free everything in my heart)

So soooo tired!! Kak Mai tried to wake me up 3 times last night but I wouldn't budge. I was so caught up in my sleep..
Funny isn't it how you can be absolutely estatic yesterday, while feeling so miserable today. My head keeps spinning and gets so heavy.. Not really sure what's stuck in my head but the feeling just lingers around and makes me feel uneasy.. endlessly......

Okay.. Fruits Basket. Rasenye Wanie dah tau dah whom I prefer the most.. Yuki or Kyou. Though, my answer would change if I were to put myself into Toru's shoes.

*edited on 3:11 pm*

merengtakterhinggalagitidakterkawal~!!

Tengok Fruits Basket bagai nak gileeeee~!! Sangat sangat SANGAT sukaaaaaaaa~!! But Toru seemed so innocent to be real.. Tapi tengok anime ni sangat feeling aaa~!! Nak nangis rase.. when Momiji told Toru 'bout his mom.. Aaaanyways, baru epi 17.. and I have a very bad feeling about the ending.. hauuuu~~

-none-

okaaay~
sementara wanie blom out dari cc nie.. nak kate something yang ade kat kepale ni sat..
kenape.. kite lari dari ape yang ade di depan mata kite.. dan tercari cari ape yang tak ade.. sedangkan ape yang kite cari tu sebenanye ade kat depan mate kite, cuma rupenye maybe berbeza..?
ekekkeke... agaknye paham ke? well, kite ubah sket ayatnye..
kenape.. kite tak mau ape yang ade di depan mata kite.. dan ikuuuut sangat kemahuan hati kite, sedangkan secare logiknye.. ape yang hati kite nak maybe ade kat depan mata kite tu, cuma dia datang dengan rupe yang berlainan..
ekekkeke!! same je sebenanye kan?
ikut perasaan sangat ni susah btol! i hate myself for listening too much of it! :p

The thing I missed~

Remember last time when I said I didn't miss the fact that I'm away from MMU at all? Well.. I finally felt missing a bit last night.. I miss my friends so much!! (Even with the fact that they're all 'different' now) Can't help thinking that I can't stop talking to certain people there... Kalau dah takde menda nak cite pon, create something rather stupid just to keep the conversation going. :)) I miss bumping into those people that simply make my heart skipped a beat. Itu aje laa yang Wanie rindu.. menda lain takde ape sangat.. other than friends and 24/7 worth of free internet.. takde ape sangat MMU tu kan?
Aaaanyways!! Tak start laie Rule of Thirds nih!! Cemane?? Probably going out tomorrow morning with BJ and Ana. But of course, pape hal pon kena balek MMU dulu kan? Adohai laa~ Stadi pon tak start laie niee! hohohoho!! Okiee.. you're welcomed to read the offline-written blog, if you please~ ekkeke!! Take care peeps!! Good luck for the finals!

the bestfriend that makes my heart jump~

"Nape banyak sangat barang atas keta you?"

heehee~ Pretty much addicted to Siti's vidclip!! ahahhaha!! Thanks Shahnon~! Nicholas Saputra is a fine fine guy.. ekkeke!! Sukaaaaaaaaa dia in the vidclip!! Pakwe yang protective!! :x Tapi apsal asyik gadoh2 ngan Siti?? Siti ngade laa~! Yang part awal tu.. yang dia majuk bile Nicholas kene panggil ngan Yuen.. (sbb time tu diorang tgh main-main) hohoho!! Tapi cam besh jugak. ahhahaa!! (something I'd probably do la kaan.. marah tak pasal pasal.. so takleh nak kutuk part tu sangat! ekekkee!) Kepade sesape yang tak ske Siti.. sorry, but I have to say this.. I think she can act laa!!! hohoho! Berlakon jadi girlfren gedik~ ekkeke!!
Adohh~! Tak beshnyer denga cite tak besh! :( Ape apelahh~

Aku pun keliru, terdiam membisu
Terasa bagai kehilanganmu..

pelik taau~

I think it's odd that I don't miss MMU at all when I wasn't around as I used to. Kalau dulu, even weekends pon leh buat orang rindu macam-macam pasal MMU, tapi sekarang, langsung dah tak. Kalau tak balek sini langsung pon tak kesah sangat agaknye. Apsal ye? Somehow.. bile ade kat sini mesti terase 'berat'. beraaaat~ Entah ape laa yang memberatkan nihh.. hisy!
Anyways!! Drenched by the rain earlier this day. The weather was amazingly-frightening! Tak penah Wanie tengok awan serendah tadi.. Gelap gile!! Macam ade ura-ura nak puting beliung pun ade! Sorry if I seem exagerrating (spelling?) but truly.. it was just half past three but the lighting was as if it was 7 something already! sangat gelap wooo~ Dahlaa kilat banyaaak!! Takuuuut~ (at least I was frightened laa~)
Okehh.. that's all for today..
Shahnon! Tadi orang message nak mintak favor sebenanye.. nak vid clip Sitiiii~!!!! ekkeke!! Buat keje bebaik! And also to everybody else.. Sesaper yang tak anta laie MCP.. gud luck peeps!! I've submit mine siang tadi.. nampak crappy dikalangan keje-keje yang ade tadi.. huhuu. O yeahh.. slamat menyiapkan MCC gakk!! And slamat amek gamba for MDP!! weeee~
Jom gi Cameron beli sayur! AHAHHA!! {mereng}

twirls around~
teringat KRS TTDI laie.. hohohoho!!