time is running out...

so now it's time to hug and ruuuunn~!! yeaaaaaaaaayyy~!!

Distance by Evan and Jaron

The sky has lost its color
The sun has turned to gray
At least that's how it feels to me
Whenever you're away
I crawl up in the corner
as I watch the minutes pass
each one brings me closer to
The time you'll be back; you're coming back

I can't take the distance
I can't take the miles
I can't take the time until the next time I see you smile
I can't take the distance
And I'm not ashamed
That I can't take a breath without seeing your name

And I can brave a hurricane
and still be standing tall
when all the dust has settled down
but i cant take the distance.

I still believe in feelings
But sometimes I feel too much
I make believe you're close to me
But it ain't close enough
Not nearly close enough

I can't take the distance
I can't take the miles
I can't take the time until the next time I see you smile
I can't take the distance
And I'm not ashamed
That I cant take a breath without seeing your name
And I can brave a hurricane
and still be standing tall
when all the dust has settled down
but i cant take the distance.
I can't take the distance
I can't take the miles
I can't take the time until the next time I see you smile
I can't take the distance
And I'm not ashamed
That I cant take a breath without seeing your name

I cant take the distance, the distance

I'd brave fire.
And I'd brave rain.
To be by your side, I'd do anything.
I can't take the distance.

I will go the distance.
I will go the miles.
That's how much you mean to me.

Cause I can't take the distance
I can't take these miles
I can't take the time until I next see you smile
I can't take the distance
And I'm not ashamed
That with every breath I take I'm calling your name.

It's harder to remember
The longer you're away.
When I find silence.
I don't want the distance.
It's harder to remember
The longer you're away.
When I find silence.
I can't take the distance.
It's harder to remember
The longer you're away.
When I find silence.

b-( :-* :"> >:D< :x :p

Wrong Impression

I really like that song by Natalie Imbruglia

Calling out, calling out
Haven't you wondered
Why I'm always alone
When you're in my dreams
Calling out, calling out
Haven't you wondered
Why you're finding it hard
just looking at me

I want you
But I want you to understand
I need you
I love you

Didn't want to leave you with-
the wrong impression
Didn't want to leave you with my-
last confession(yeah)
Of love
Wasn't trying to pull you in the-
wrong direction
All I wanna do is try to make-
a connection(yeah)
Of love

Falling out, falling out
Have you ever wondered
If this was ever more than a
crazy idea
Falling out, falling out
Have you ever wondered
What we could've been, if you'd
only let me in

I want you
But I want you to understand
I miss you
I love you

Didn't want to leave you with-
the wrong impression
Didn't want to leave you with my-
last confession(yeah)
Of love
Wasn't trying to pull you in the-
wrong direction
All I wanna do is try to make-
a connection(yeah)
Of love

Have you ever wondered?

I need you
I love you

Didn't want to leave you with-
the wrong impression
Didn't want to leave you with my-
last confession(yeah)
Of love
Wasn't trying to pull you in the-
wrong direction
All I wanna do is try to make-
a connection(yeah)
Of love

I didn't want to leave you there
I'm calling out (yeah)
Wasn't trying to pull you in the wrong direction
Well I'm calling out (yeah)
Wasn't trying to pull you in the wrong direction
I'm calling out

so I'll be going back this day.. (can't delay anymore!!)
Reasons to go back
1. No money.
2. My last bits of toothpaste had went onto the floor instead of the tooth brush! ekekke!!
3. I really have to squeeze my shower foam for my next shower.
4. hugs hugs huggsssss!! (cehh.. really should get myself a boyfriend. ekekke!!!)
5. can't wait to show off some new stickers on my cpu to Belba though she didn't really care! hahaha~!
6. everyone else is going back home!!

okay.. that's it! 6 reasons.. enough ek? :D
So I'll be updating the blog 'til the time to get home.. eh! Til the time I had to get the plugs off and all.. or Papa will get angry!! heehee~ He hates waiting.. only for special reasons.. and so do I! :D
Somehow I can't wait for the next school term!! Reaaaaaaaally anticipating! Though my holiday haven't started yet! ekekke!
The Ramadhan doesn't feel much like Ramadhan.. and this coming Raya doesn't feel much like Raya.. (I think!) Seemed like everything's going too fast somehow.. :)
This trimester have been.... heehee.. I don't know! Can't find the ONE word that relates to this semester. But I guess.. what this trimester is really.. WILD. Everyday is a crazy joyride that goes up and down and kept changing lanes. But all is good. Not saying that I'm mature now.. (not at all!!!) But I'd say that I grew some bits during the two months.. :)
And heyy! It's been 9 months! ekeke! 9 months of what? entahlaaa.. :p Persistant and consistant! I make myself proud...! :)) But I don't usually end what I had started 'coz I get bored midway.. hohoho! So we'll just see.. ;)
And a bit on this coming trimester has something to celebrate about! hahahha!! Can't wait to talk about that one when I get back! Words are swimming through my mind now.. :D
I love writing.. I love writing.. and writing loves me! ekkeke!!
I'm having fun typing all these out.. hope you've enjoyed reading it too! :D

Selamat Aidilfitri~!!
Maaf batin.. ekkee! I don't think I ever hit anyone so hard that they'd get mad at me! ekeke! :D I really am sorry for all the wrong-doings I did throughout the year. The wrong things I said.. and yeah, the wrong things I done as well. :) No Raya cards like An and Shahnon.. sorry~! :">
To those who consider theirselves as closest to me.. you guys are the best!!!! :x Mintak maap banyak-banyak for being so dimwitted sometimes!

and.. Enjoy the holidaaaaay~!!!!!
haa~! Relaxation from assignments, projects and studies.. We've survived yet another trimester!! wooh~!!
Have fun, okie peeps! To those who can drive... Darling, Bahijah, Shahnon, An, Dzayed.. drive safely!!! To Ana and Asha.. get your driving license quick laah!! Bole drive kan Wanie merata-rata~! hahahha!! Asha especially.. :D (coz she keeps breaking the law! hahaha!)

oh ohh! not forgetting.. simpanlah duit raya tu elok elok yee... sebab my birthday is coming!!!
HAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAH!!! Get me something! Get me something!! Kamon Kamonnn~! Ayohh ayohh ayoooohhh~!

gosh! this is the most FUN post I've ever written! :))
Take care peeps!! Jangan letupkan tangan korang.. nanti takleh chat! ekekkee!!
Well.. just take good care of yourselves.. >:D<

I'm scared but not too much.. :D

okay! here's something I've written such a long time ago.. During the break before Beta, I think.. :D Just thought I should post it somewhere.. Lama sangat simpan.. :p

Refuse to let it fall apart
As I lay alone in my bed
Feels so hollow in my heart
But so many questions in my head
I stare out the window to see what's outside
And all I get to see is, the shadows of the night
I'm trying to read what I feel inside
I see nothing, too dark and no light

Funny how I don't know what I feel
It gets hard as I don't know what to do
This feeling, so different and yet so real
And somehow it leads me towards you
Questions unanswered, it's making me confuse
Too many things to see, it all seemed blurry
Waiting mindlessly for a sign I could use
But this could be, right where I should be

bluerghh~!! crappy, I KNOW! I can't really rhyme lahh!! :">

just returning the favor.. :D

Asha gave me this quiz of hers.. (which I only manage to score 50!! bluergthh~) so, I just thought I'd do the same thing to her.. tengok dia leh jawab lebih taaak.. ekekke!!
So heyy! You peeps can try this as well! Most of the answers are in this blog really.. so if you've been following it.. you'll be just fine! :D

Take my Quiz on QuizYourFriends.com!

I hate blackheads..

I think my nose is so full with them! Maybe if I could get them all off, I could actually form another nose! huhuu~ Okay, so I was exagerrating.. but I really do hate blackheads!! :p
Prisca.. you're such a dear!! No matter what people might say about you.. I think I get the idea of YOU.. so I'll trust you rather than them! :x Yen's lucky.. and you're lucky to have Yen too~! I wish someday I'll get a hold on someone as cool as him! ekkeke! "Oh Asha and Dzayed is so cooooooooooooooooool~!!!" (scream this like Cursive does, wokie?!) heehee~! :x
Tadi kaaann... :D Asha brought me some drummets and bread for sahur! :D :x She's SO thoughtful.. Dahlaa tadi berbuka menyedihkan betul.. (I was in a crappy mood!) Just had some drink, and some crackers (felt like a parrot for eating too many crackers these days! :( ) and then I fell asleep. huhuu~ But nowww!! Rase cam tak patut kecik ati kat Asha for anything she does in 2 months! ekekke! (not that I always do.. :p) Immune from kesalahan.. :)) Then we went to 7eleven in Putrajaya to get some other things.. :D
Money update!:
In my wallet: RM 3.50
Phone credit: airtime: RM 0.06, sms: RM 0.20, valid until: 21/11/2003.
Hahhaa~! Life doesn't get any better than this.. :p Funny how life is not all about money, but you have to have money to live.. Gotta get home tomorrow.. I refuse to eat any more crackerssss!! Bluergthh~!!

Visited this blog somehow.. and I don't know why but I like this lines she wrote: (there are typos!)

..I had the impression that you where crazy about me. He said I'm not crazy about you..but I could be .... He said if you showed interest in me I could be crazy about you but I'm afraid to be right now..I don't want to get hurt. (which is justified since I keep telling him about not being ready)

He wanted to know is there potiential..I told him there is a lot of potential for this relationship and that I want it to go forward,,but I can't make promises before I'm sure I can keep them. But that I was willing to commit to getting to know him better and seeking the Lord's will in the matter.

I told him---if he wants to put our relationship on hold....and investigate other girls...that was ok. ---no non i don't want to do that--he says Or if he wanted to go forward with this relationship then their needed to be only one person (me!!). He said I want it to go forward....

hehhe! I had to read it some times so I can understood it well.. :D Like I said, I don't know why I liked the line. Maybe for it's open-ness. heehee~ It just amazes me how some people can really say what they wanted to say.. without getting it to sound stupid like I always did.. :p
Well, I should try harder!! yoshhh!!!
Seems like I've been visiting plenty of blogs lately.. :D I'd say that most of them were interesting! There are some lines that I just can't get my thoughts off it.. (or I won't promote any of the blogs I've ever mentioned!.. unless they're my friends.. :D )

Missing. missing.. missing...
time is wasted all over again because of you..
I'm here while you're not... Maybe you just didn't care..
As always... :p
Oh well.. no point of nagging on it 'coz you're doing what you like and I'm doing what I like!
only wish that we're doing it together though.. heehee! :p
I wonder if you knew that I was talking to you all along.. :)
If only time can be rewind..

I wish I was half as good as you at keeping secrets.

heehee.. I do wish that way.. 'coz I don't know how to lie.. or dodge questions.. Ask me anything and the biggest chances are, you'll be getting the very answer that I hated to say. I take soooo much time to say something else than the truth and by then, everyone would know that I was going to lie. I am so jealous of those people that can fake how they feel or say the things that is far from the truth with a straight face. I guess I'm at a lost for not having that ability. I am simply imperfect no matter how I tried to be..
Should I give up trying?
'Coz if I do.. one day later I'll be whining about the same thing all over again...
But maybe.. it's just meant to be.. I am meant not to know these things for some reasons..
Just maybe...

in a liking of this song tonight..
It's About Time by Lillix

I't's about life,
I'ts about fun
I hate you, I love you
I just can't remember to forget you
Who are you, who needs you?
You make me feel alive, I die, so high
I'm crawling on the ground
And I've found I can fly

One of these days it all comes together
One of those days that goes on forever
Think I sound crazy? Maybe, whatever
What's it all about?

It's about life, it's about fun
It's over before it has begun
It's about you, it's about me
It's about everything between and I say
I'm saying goodbye to you, I say hi to you with no clue
It's about time that I
Make up my mind

It's simple, confusing, the truth is I'm winning but I'm losing
And pulling and pushing, won't do me any good
It could, it should
I'm honest to myself that the truth is I lied

One of these days it all comes together
One of those days that goes on forever
Think I sound crazy? Maybe, whatever
What's it all about?

It's about life, it's about fun
It's over before it has begun
I't's about you, it's about me
It's about everything in between and I say
I'm saying goodbye to you, I say hi to you with no clue
It's about time that I
Make up my mind

Time is creeping behind me, surrounding around me
Fading the words so desperately
Now give me a reason that I can believe in
Time is something you can't rewind
One of these days it all comes together
One of those days that goes on forever
Think I sound crazy? Maybe, whatever
What's it all about?

It's about life, it's about fun
It's over before it has begun
I't's about you, it's about me
It's about everything in between and I say
I'm saying goodbye to you, I say hi to you with no clue
It's about time I
Make up my mind
I wonder why are we having this silence.. don't you see that I'm right here just because of you?
tak ske tak skeeeeeeeee!!!

:D :D

seems like I'll be doing yesterday's record all over again!! :))
LOVING THIS SONG for it's lyrics and cute piano song!! :D

Out Of My League by Stephen Speaks

It's her hair and her eyes today
That just simply take me away
And the feeling that I'm falling further in love
Makes me shiver but in a good way
All the times I have sat and stared
As she thoughtfully thumbs through her hair
And she purses her lips, bats her eyes
And she plays with me sittin there slacked jaw
And nothing to say

Coz I love her with all that I am
And my voice shakes along with my hands
Yes she's all that I see and she's all that I need
And I'm out of my league once again

It's a masterful melody
When she calls out my name to me
As the world spins around her
She laughs, close her eyes
And I feel like I'm fallin but it's no surprise

Coz I love her with all that I am
And my voice shakes along with my hands
Coz it's frightening to be swimming in this strange sea
But I'd rather be here than on land
Yes she's all that I see and she's all that I need
And I'm out of my league once again

It's her hair and her eyes today
That just simply take me away
And the feeling that I'm falling further in love
Makes me shiver but in a good way
Often times I have sat and stared
As she thoughtfully thumbs through her hair
As she purses her lips, bats her eyes
And she plays with me sittin there slacked jaw
And nothing to say

Coz I love her with all that I am
And my voice shakes along with my hands
Coz it's frightening to be swimming in this strange sea
But I'd rather be here than on land
Yes she's all that I see and she's all that I need
And I'm out of my league once again

I wonder I wonder I wondeerrrrrrr!!!!

the tap leaks again

boncit..
tak dapat jumpe nina before raya...
she's going back to penang with abg. min and i dont feel like being selfish and let her get me from this place..
but somehow terase i'm making a "sacrifice" that is simply stupid..
wuwuuu.. rasenye nina tak tau kot wanie nangis.. :D managed to control my voice dengan penuh macho! :))
nina, slamat ari rayaaa.. maaf zahir batin.. love ya' always..
rase cam i hate the fact that you're married.. but i know it makes you happy..
and i like to see you happy... :D

:(( :( :| :) :x

time ticks away...

I wonder if I have more time for the things I wish to do first.. :p
Done with the exam paper!! woohhh~!! Pretty funny considering how dumb I actually felt having to answer all those history questions.. bluerghh~! The day was pretty... amusing I have to say! :D
Okay, since me and Prisc were in different rooms, I really can't budget out how long I can waste my time in that room.. :D But somewhere around 3:20..? I saw Asha outside the door!! HAHAHAH! Gile punye budaaak.. cepat betul jawab!! So, I did mine like crazy jugek so she wouldn't have to wait for long.. hehhe! I got out at 3:40, met up Fairy a while outside the room (she was waiting for someone, I suppose!) and walked to the foyer (?) and saw Asha talking to Avi! (haa.. seb baik she has something to do while waiting.. :D) Tatau apsal Wanie lambat sket nak jawab.. ekkeke! (sebenanye tahu...)
It's entertaining lah~ (to myself) I was reading through the questions and then this stupid feeling surfaces inside of me.. ekkeke! Termengelamun mengelamun.. termenong termenong.. Biol~! :p
So anywaysss!! After meeting up Asha, we went to Dzayed's exam room and see how he answers the paper. ekekke! He also happened to be in the same room as Dar! heehee~ Dar nampak sangat serius menjawab soalan!! :D While Dzayed, when he saw us outside.. dia mula buat aksi aksi pelik! ekkeke! :))
Oh, kat luar tu tadi ade Popo.. hehhe! :p
After Asha and Dzayed dropped me off at the zebra crossing, bumped into Achot! And he said, "baaiknyee tunggu kawan balek.." ('coz he saw me waving at the pair 'til the car moved away) huhuu~ Yeee.. saye sangat baik! :p
oh humm.. tadi cam sempat caught RP's eyes for a moment.. I thought I saw her smiled.. and she really did.. :)

something to relate to~!

Okaay.. so here's yet another Vertical Horizon's song that I like.. And I like this one for both the music and lyrics! :x

All Of You

So you say
I'm too quiet
Holding things
Up in my head

I say so much
But you don't buy it
I don't want to wake up
Alone in my head

Say that you'll never go now
don't go don't go

I need a lot of you
I want a lot of you
I need a lot of you
All of you

I tend to think
I'm getting nowhere
I drag it out
Whenever I can

Someday
I'll get back there
And find the world
You dropped from your head

Oh but some things you'll never show now
I know
I know

I need a lot of you
I want a lot of you
I need a lot of you
All of you

Watch you coming up
Out on top now
Watch you coming up

I need a lot of you
I want a lot of you
I need a lot of you
All of you

heehee~

wanie terlupa!!

EPPY BIRTHDAY MAMAAA~!!

heehee~! Balek nanti lah wish betul-betul..
Patut call ke? ekekkeke

pelik betul..

shahnon (3:27:50 AM): heppi nampak

ekekek! hepi sket sket je yeee :p Good luck for Saturday's paper Shahnon~! I'll be done by this afternoon~! weeee~! Macam nak jeles tak? But I think I'm getting jealous for the fact that you've already gone home!! :p Tak aciiiiiii!
So yesterday I stopped at 11 posts! ekekeke! I WAS crazy after all.. banyak betuuuulll!! Well, I think there's three posts yang boleh di ignore! :)) (mengelat, tak nak mengaku memang saje post banyak!)
Okie.. it's soooo close to Raya, kan? :D Thanks Shahnon and An for giving me the Raya card!! ekekke! Next year Wanie reply, ekk! Tak rajen nak carik site e-card yang best.. :"> ehheee~ Also thanks to that person who sent the Raya card to my home. huhuuu~ Belba said I had one, but I don't know who it's from.. :D Nak kene balek umah and see who it's from!! :D
My mood has lifted.. Cam tetiba perasan! ekekke! Hopefully no one will say anything stupid to me today that would make me feel the opposite again.. huhuu~
Okay, loving this song for the song!! Vertical Horizon - Finding Me The lyrics doesn't mean anything to me.. (I think!) So now I have two bands that I reaaaaaaaally do like. Vertical Horizon and Good Charlotte!! :D And I like Michelle Branch too! heehee..
Felt like I'm starting to put hope on someone all over again.. HAHAHHAH!! Terok betul.. I'm a hypocrit.. :| Cakap tak serupa bikin.. But who knows.. maybe in the long term, I will change... But I'm not sure if this is for the better or the worse.. we'll just see! Maybe nothing would change.. after all.. You can't teach old dogs new tricks. But one thing about that saying... I'm not a dog.. and I've never learn any tricks what so ever in my whole life! hahahha~! So maybe we should strike that saying out later.. :D
Nak mandikkk!!

"love can be so boring" (Vertical Horizon - Best I Ever Had).. It should be wrong!!

:x :x :x

:D
>:D<
:">
:x
:p

boncit..
termakan pujuk lak... heehee~!
tapi best! ekekek! So it's not a lost at all.. :D :x

*#^&!@#$#@*%$$#^#

You know.. they are only signs.. it doesn't mean anything! Honestly.. what has come out from my mouth just now wasn't really curse words.. 'coz I'm BEYOND cursing.. What I'm feeling right now is more to disappointed and heartbroken and depressed..
And I thank my two good buddies for that! yeaaaaaaaay~!
Honestly, if I don't know a person.. what ever the person does to me won't matter anything! Really..!
It only hurts when you trust that someone deeply..
TRUST
TRUST...
Seems like I've been getting hurt by believing in that word.
Lill is right after all.. Everyone is selfish.. And you can't put hopes on anyone.. And you can never trust anyone fully.. I'm such a stupid git for believing that she was wrong!
Thanks Prisca for hanging around...

morale of this: I NEED TO CHANGE!

10th post for today...

this has never happened before. 10 posts in a day! What an absurd blogger I am..
Listening to yet another stupid song by *NSYNC. serious tatau mane datang lagu niehhh!!!
I was feeling depressed just now. Entah mengapa. Just felt like puking.. (I always feel that way when my insides are 'bothered')
Kenape kenape??
Tak tahu tak tahu..
I wish I knew why.. but there are just times when I don't even know what I feel..
For myself.. or anyone else...

Love Song For No One

by John Mayer

Staying at home alone on a Friday
Flat on the floor looking back
On old love
Or lack thereof
After all the crushes are faded
And all my wishful thinking was wrong
I'm jaded
I hate it

I'm tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
So tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
(get here)

Searching all my days just to find you
I'm not sure who I'm looking for
I'll know it
When I see you
Until then, I'll hide in my bedroom
just staying up all night just to write
A love song for no one

I'm tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
So tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here

I could have met you in a sandbox
I could have passed you on the sidewalk
Could I have missed my chance
And watched you walk away?(2 times)

I'm tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
So tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
You'll be so good
You'll be so good for me

If only wishes could be dreams and all my dreams could come true..

There'd be the two of us standing here in front of you..
:) Somehow I really like that line from M2M's Mirror mirror..
Also in a liking of Mr Big - Next To Be With You
I'm the one who wants to be with you
deep inside i hope you'll feel it too (feel it too)
wave it on a line of ways and blues
just to be the next to be with you...

This is going to be such a boring night. It's getting SO boring that I just spent the last minute trying to sort my bulu kaki so it goes only one way.. HAHAHHA~!! Stupid betul.
Bahijah had already gone home.. leaving a message on a post-it that she stuck on my monitor screen.. Felt a bit sad, looking at it. Should've hold on for some more minutes so I could hug her goodbye.. but I was so sleepy that it just makes things stinks!!... 3 weeks to see her again.. :(
the things I love about school: friends friends friends
the things I hate about school: uninteresting assignments and subjects
the things I love about home: unlimited hugs from Papa, and Belba shouting around at me and I shout back.. heehee~
the thing I hate about home: Mama getting jealous/angry 'coz I'm so attached to Papa.. hahhaha!! no laah~ what I hate is being so far from my friends.. it gets boring when I'm left alone..

And if I go back tomorrow.. it'd be 3 weeks away from seeing Prisca and Rosie.. 3 weeks away from chatting through the night with Beastmaster.. 3 weeks away from the internet... 3 weeks away from having something else to worry than my heart.. 3 weeks away from getting myself busy.. 3 weeks away from fooling around with my roommates.. 3 weeks away from getting up early and excited to go to class.. 3 weeks away..
Hope that I'll still be the same after that. Hope that everyone's still the same by then.. Hope that my feelings will never change..

I love Vertical Horizon.

*tuk*

rase cam sendiri kene marah...
o well, prepared myself for that, somehow..
but not that much.
so sekarang ade rase sedikit kecewa for sharing...
bluerghh~
buat tak tau aje lah yeee~
ade sedikit boncit~
tapi to myself somehow...

if you'd like to know...

got this from one of the blogs I was browsing through.. Kinda long, though.. Skip it if you're not interested.. (why bother, anyways?)

Me
name = Ida Hazwanie.
piercings = just one on both ears. (wish there'd be more but Papa would be SO furious.. bluerghh~)
tattoos = a small heart at the back. hahahha!! kidding.. NONE.. serious!!
height = 163cm
shoe size = 5.. (american, I think!)
hair color = err.. reaaaaaaally dark brown but with uneven lighter shade of brown at some parts.. huhuu~
length = hung a bit above the shoulder.
siblings = 2 elder sisters.
pets = cats.. err.. 4? But they walk around to other people's houses.. except this one which is 'disabled'. it can't even stand up since birth..

LAST:
movie you rented = err.. Freaky Friday, I think!
movie you bought = never bought one.. I cilok my sisters' all the time! heehee~!
song you listened to = You And I Both by Jason Mraz :x
song that was stuck in your head = Perfect by Simple Plan (Prisc put it there!)
thing you've downloaded = song, The Sign by Ace of Base.
cd you bought = whoaa~ such a long time ago.. err.. Sixpence, Divine Discontent.
cd you listened to = does fully downloaded album counts? Vertical Horizon, Go.
person you've called = err.. miscalled Prisca just this morn! :D No credit to call for real! huhuu~
person that called you = Prisca! she called me back after I miscalled her.. heehee! :x
tv show you've watched = err.. a korean drama on TV3. The Story of a Bright Girl was it called? Kak Mai turned it on and I just saw some bits of it.. that was the day before yesterday, though!
thinking of = humm.. Rosie

Do..
you have a bf or gf = nope.
you have a crush on someone = yeah.
you wish you could live somewhere else = definitely.
you think about suicide = sometimes.. but I'll stay discontent that way, so I won't do anything my stupid inner-voice suggested.
you believe in online dating = ekkeke! Dar-ling, were we dating?? ekkeke!
you want more piercings = yesss!! but Papa won't let me.. (but I might do it secretly one day, though.. shhhh~)
you want more tattoos = haram weihh.. haraammm! heehee!
you drink = non-alcaholic drinks? yesss..!
you do drugs = ubat batuk when I'm coughing real baad! heehee!
you smoke = seesha doesn't count, does it?
you like cleaning = bluerghh~!! my sisters had to do it for me! :x
you like roller coasters = yeahh!! I love screaming my head off. (even when it's not that scary)
you write in cursive or print = both.. depends on the mood
you carry a donor card = umm.. nope

For or Against..
teenage smoking = against.
doing drugs = against.
premarital sex = err.. mostly against..
driving drunk = reaaaaally against.
soap operas = hahah! for, if it's not lame. (that Pangako Sa Yo's okaay)

Best...
tv show = umm.. reality tv's okay (not quite bored of Survivor yet!) CSI and Gilmore Girls.
thing in the world = music music music.
thing to collect = true friends.
colors of all time = red!!.. sometimes blue or purple though.
thing to do on a rainy day = have shower in it with someone you care :D
feeling in the world = to love, being loved and appreciated.

Have you...
ever cried over a guy = heehee.. :"> yeahh..
ever lied to someone = sure! :))
ever been in a fist fight = umm.. somewhat like it.. huhuu~

What...
Perfume do you use = Ketiak Masamm by CK. hahhaha~!! I don't use perfume.. selalu terlupa nak pakai, so I don't bother anymore.. :p
shoes do you wear = red Converse. kinda stuck with it for the moment. just waiting for it to fall apart! :D
are you scared of = total-black darkness, heights, loneliness, not having enough time.

Number...
of continents I have lived in? = just Asia..
of drugs taken illegally? = none.
of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends? = just 2. and I haven't seen them for months!!!
of people I consider my enemies? = heehee~ I get jealous of people easily and I hate them sometimes but they're not my enemy.. :p
of times my name has appeared in the newspaper? = just once.. heehee~ was on the Malaysian Flag of 92's Flora Fest.
of scars on my body? = agak banyak, I think! I'm accident prone.. I can even fall on clear ground.. or bump my head for no reasons at all.. :(

Have you ever...
Fallen for your best friend? = ekkeke! guy bestfriend or gurl?? guy yes, gurl no..
Made out with JUST a friend? = no no no no.
Been in love? = maybe.. but I always thought of it as the "illusion" of love. agak sipi sipi.. cheating ni kot! ekekeke!
Cheated on someone? = erkk! umm.. not cheated, but I had a crush on someone while I was in a relationship.. :p

Who was the last person...
You touched? = Prisca!! can't get enough of her.. arrRrrRr (horny sound!) AHHAHAHA!!
You talked to? = Lily.. said goodbye to her at the stairs.
You hugged? = Papaaa!! in his visit last Sunday.. :x

Have you/are you/do you....
Considered a life of crime? = hahha! yeah..
Considered being a hooker? = no waaaaaaaayyy!!
Considered being a pimp? = hahahhahah!! no noo..
Are you psycho? = at some points, yess!
Split personalities? = just when I talk against my head and heart.. huhuu~
Schizophrenic? = I think not.
Obsessive compulsive? = some bit. some things NEED to be just the way I wanted it to be.. :p
Panic? = only when really unexpected incident/accidents happen
Anxiety? = yesss
Depressed? = somewhat.. :p
Obsessed with hate? = I'm just angry.. but I can't hate.. (I just don't.. oh! except with things like maths! hahha!) :)
Dream of mutilated bodies, blood, death, and gore? = death.. a few times.. I don't like that!
Dream of doing those things instead of just seeing them? = what those things? But yeah, I have.. whatever that those things means. :D

Are you...
Understanding: only when people doesn't talk in too many hints.
Open-minded: I consider myself that.
Interesting: maybe not.. but I hope I am to some people! :|
Hungry: nope.
Friendly: not so, but trying to be. :D
Childish: super!! :))
Healthy: nope. I have a sickness. :-S
Difficult: not surprised if I am to some.. :p
Thirsty: VERY!!
Responsible: when needed, I can be.
Sad: somewhat.. :|
Happy: kinda numb right now.. :|
Trusting: VERY! Lill thinks it's lame but I can't help it! huhuu~
Talkative: just to my dearests~!!! :x
Lonely: err.. right now.. I feel like it. just a bit though!
Own a webcam? : nope!
Current Clothes: small tee of green-yellow-blue and jeans. (blom tuka dari pagi tadik!)
Current Mood: wishful.. always and always.. :(
Current Taste: umm.. my mouth is dry right now. (forgot to have a drink right before imsak!!)
Current Hair: hanging.. bushy a bit.. can't quite bother about it!
Current Annoyance: my shoulders hurt from sitting in front of the computer too long.. :p and my lips too 'coz I accidentally bit it last night at breakfast. bluerghh~!
Current Smell: lime from my shampoo.. huhuu~
Current thing you ought to be doing: GET MORE SLEEP! or maybe study for tomorrow's Malaysian Studies paper.
Current Book: haven't read one for monthhhssss!
Current DVD In Player: none.
Current Refreshment: none-available.
Current Worry: if I'll be losing my favorite game.. ekk!! should be worrying about my typography, should I? (but I'm not!)
Current Crush: hahahha!! busy-body betul! :p

On Dating....
Long or short hair? = short!! guys are meant to have short hair! case closed..!
Dark or blond hair? = dark dark dark!!
Tall or short? = taller than me, please!
Ms. Sensitive or Ms. Funny? = somewhere in between.. :x
Good boy or bad boy? = not good. ahahhah!! but not bad either. Just that good is usually dull.. :p If he's right in the middle.. he'd be SUPER!
Dark or light eyes? = dark dark dark!
Pierced or no? = no no no no no no no!!!!!

On preferences....
Chocolate milk or hot chocolate? = hot chocolate
McDonalds or Burger King? = umm.. umm.. both? okay okay.. umm.. burger king! 'coz I'm so used of McD.. :p
Marry the perfect lover or the perfect friend? = both if possible.. if not, the perfect friend.. :)
Sweet or sour? = sweet.
Root Beer or Dr. Pepper? = root beer root beer!
Sappy/action/comedy/horror? = all! ekeke! more to sappy I think.. I like the ones that touches the heart.. :p
Ocean or Pool? = ocean.. always!
With or without ice-cubes? = with!
Shine or rain? = umm.. rain.. but not for long!
Winter/Summer/Fall/Spring? = autumn, maybe!
Vanilla or Chocolate? = both.. but if I REALLY have to choose, vanilla!
Gloves or mittens? = mittens are cuter. :))
Eyes open or closed? = one open, one closed! hahha! :p
Fly or breathe under water? = fly!!
Bunk-bed or waterbed? = it doesn't matter much.. but water maybe..
Chewing gum or hard candy? = toffee~! I don't care! I still prefer toffees!! :p
Motor boat or sailboat? = sailboat.

10 people you want to meet(in random order)
1. papa
2. izzati
3. crush crush
4. prisca & lill!! (oops! 2 ppl, but I really wanna hang out 'coz I'm bored!!)
5. avril so I can throw her with something.. (I can be punk as well laa~)
6. orlando bloom!! :x
7. jason behr too~! :x
8. my evil twin - Musz
9. Hanis as well!!
10. Bella and Belladonna~!
so that actually makes 12 people! huhuu~

9 things you wear everyday
1. undies!! hahaha! :p
2. specs.
3. the gold ring and necklace Mama gave me
4. earrings
5. something comfy and breathable.. :D
humm.. I don't wear up to 9 stuffs laa~! Less is more.. ;;) ekekkeke!!

8 of your favorite foods
1. mac and cheese
2. pizza
3. Bella's cooking (just gimme anything and I'll finish it!!!)
4. ice cream!! (I scream for ice cream!)
5. junk foods
6. does starbucks' rhumba counts? ekekke!
7. otak otak (crazy for it these days!)
8. tau foo far (tatau apsal crazy for this since last Ramadhan! hahha~!)

7 of your closest friends (at random)
1. Musz
2. Hanis
3. Prisca
4. Lily
5. Beastmaster.. ekkeke! :p
6. RP
7. my sisters; Belba and Belladonna
so that's actually 8! :D

6 of your favorite shows
1. CSI
2. survivor
3. charmed
4. roswell
just can think of this 4 right now..!

5 things in your room
1. my bed
2. my computer
3. my unwashed clothes (all over the place!)
4. my assignments stuff (also all over the place!)
5. pix of my friends (yeah.. all over again!)

4 things you ate today
since I'm fasting (I think! hahha~!) there's just one..
1. nasik goreng daging merah @ Malee

3 things you could not live without
1. my heart for those I care.. :p
2. music music music!!
3. guys.. :-* hahahha!! Papa laa.. Papaaa! :p

2 books you recently read
1. erkk! umm.. Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix (for the 2nd/3rd time!)
2. blablaa.. introduction to Operating System.. hahha!! Just read some bits on Kernel.. (Colenel Sanders!)
spelling?

1 thing you said today
1. boncit btol~!!

woww!! I'm finally done! And you've finally finished reading it! Well done! *taps on shoulder* :p

nothing to be seen...

Felt somewhat invisible this morning.. Thanks dude for making feel me this way.. You've been very helpful.. (NOT AT ALL!!)
Been feeling furious for RP's irresponsabilities. HOW DID YOU GET THIS WAAAAAY!! You disappointed me today, for real! I'm sorry for saying that, and I'm sorry for cursing a bit this morning.. Before today I used to get jealous of the time you spent with your bf but now my mind's totally changed. Right now, you can just do what ever you like to do 'coz I'm just numb about you right now.. I don't even know you anymore!!.. And Prisca have nagged on you this morning 'aight? So that's it.. do what so ever you like to do.. I wish for your happiness!
Sent the photography work with Prisc and Lill. It went fine.. THANK GOODNESS! The lecturers didn't comment much.. I think they kinda liked the Oreo, even! hahha~! Did some things at the very last minute.. but we three manage to pull it together. Dengan tak malu nyee... Prisca, Lily and Sweetpea roxX!! HAHHAHA~! (I think that should sound MIGHTY silly.
Got into the car after submission and an old song was on! I used to reaaaaaaaaaally love this song! Brought back my standard school memories! :x How Pn. Zaiton kantoikan Wanie jumping around singing this song like a mad man at home. HAHHAHA!! She told the whole class and everyone was like.. smiling around.. :p note from this: get a house faaaaaaaaaar from any of your teachers.. or! If they move in after you did, sabotage their house with pests so they will be forced to get out! HAHAHHA~!

The Sign by Ace Of Base

I got a new life
You would hardly recognize me
I'm so glad
How can a person like me care for you?
Why do I bother
When you're not the one for me?
Oo-oo oo oo-oo
Is enough, enough?

I saw the sign and it opened up my eyes
I saw the sign
Life is demanding without understanding
I saw the sign and it opened up my eyes
I saw the sign
No-one's gonna drag you up
To get into the light where you belong
cause where do you belong?

Under the pale moon
For so many years, I've wondered
Who you are
How could a person like you bring me joy?
Under the pale moon
Where I see a lot of stars
Oo-oo oo oo-oo
Is enough, enough?

I saw the sign and it opened up my eyes
I saw the sign
Life is demanding without understanding
I saw the sign and it opened up my eyes
I saw the sign
No-one's gonna drag you up
To get into the light where you belong
cause where do you belong?
Oh, oh, oh-oh

I saw the sign and it opened up my mind
And I am happy now livin' without you
I've left you
Oh, oh, oh-oh

I saw the sign and it opened up my eyes
I saw the sign
No-one's gonna drag you up
To get into the light where you belong

I saw the sign, I saw the sign
I saw the sign
I saw the sign, I saw the sign
I saw the sign, I saw the sign
I saw the sign and it opened up my eyes
I saw the sign

We went round and round the campus just so the song could finish! Thanks Prisc! Eyyhh! I managed to get the song downloaded in less than a minute! Ain't that just AMAZING!! woohooo~!
I'm tired of thinking/wondering now.. I need a break please~! :D But not too long.. I don't want to lose my heart.. :)

sometimes I boggle my own mind...