the more i wait.. the more i wonder..

doesn't seem right but it is what it is..

feeling soo much like a lost cause.
have been for a while now, and i still haven't figure out what my next move is..

okay. done typing for the day.
(currently at the school library. not exactly the right place to stare at the screen while i think what i'd like to mumble next.)

my mom does a lot of gossiping.

WOMEN!
so i'm sitting here at my mom's desk at her office, practically freezing up all my bones. this was not how i planned to spend the day. i'd prefer jumping onto a plane and fly off to some foreign country! hohhohok! you know that's not going to happen anytime soon.

nothing much to tell at the moment. i'd rather spend writing my thoughts away in my scrapbook right now.
so...
here i go!

have a great day, visitors!

caffein - schmuck.

i've always loved the thought that caffein/coffee could help you stay awake.
but maybe to just some people, 'coz it does nothing for me!
but i still love the thought... hehe!

so today i went to class as usual.. feels a bit weird after the long long school break. i got too comfortable at home that the mere thought of sitting down and listening to some lecture just puts me off the mood.
but anyways! my dad said something that just forced me to pick myself up and got to class this morning.
class was a bore since i'm taking the subject that i've taken a year ago.

YES - i'm a repeat student.
NO - i'm not stupid. just reaaally lazy. but if you really think about it, me being lazy is quite a sign of stupidity. i mean, nobody should be lazy, yeah? but i picked lazy over 3D, so..
YEAH - i was pretty stupid.

all through class i was text-messaging cik ila; half-drawing, half-planning what we'd like to spend the afternoon doing.

so after my class was over, (errr..) we head on to midvalley and well.. just had lunch and fooled around in MPH Bookstore!! it's just odd how anyone could have such loads of laugh in there, but laugh we did!
might even go to Kinokuniya either tomorrow or the day after!
ME LOVE KINOKUNIYA!!!
can't wait 'til July 16th!! (but i guess i just have to deal with it!)

okay! err.. bye?

sports week.

the last weekend has been pretty much like an all-sports week for me.
i was catching up to golf, and there's that odd indianapolis F1 race.
both finals was this morning actually, so you have to understand just why my English is bound to be horrible this morn.

Tiger Woods lost to that Michael Campbell(?) person by three shots. quite a nobody, yeah? so happens he has been missing the cut for a couple of years and this year, he even won! i suppose this year's U.S Open was for the 'nobodies' to make their name. 'coz since the 2nd day, Jason Gore has been leading the pack. (i know - who??) by the end of the 4 days, Retief Goosen couldn't manage to defend his title and rest at +8, Gore at +14, Phil Mickelson +12, Woods at 2 over. quite a disappointment, but i guess you could say that the weekend belongs to Michael.

- Schumacher included. but the win was very disappointing. i mean, what's a race with only 6 cars on the track?! pathetic! as much as i like Ferrari to win, winning without a real competition is just SAD. just because of the safety issue about the Michelin tyres. honestly, i don't mind some bumping cars in the race! that's what makes the race more exciting! ekekke!! but it does bother me if Ralf is the one who keeps getting accidents. click here to read more.

i'm sorry if you got bored by the sports talk. to be honest, i'm not really sorry.. i just thought it'd be polite! hihhi. well you know, if you don't like what i write in here.. you can always visit somewhere else!
cheerio!

happy birthday nina!!

if i was to live a normal life.

okay okaay.. what is normal anyways?
i suppose my definition of normal is when everything is just what it seems.

my life hasn't been that way for a very long time. my life these days seemed more surreal. everyday i woke up to some serious thought that goes on through the day and made me feel like i've been dreaming all along.
is this by any chance, understandable to you?
some other times the thoughts i had through the day continues onto my dreams.
it's just.. weird.

on some lighter topic, don't you think i've been doing too much of this lately?
pondering on something i have no answer to, and write about it? i suppose i don't do these bits too often as i report my daily activities.

just last night i filled in my old man on my thoughts and in response, he asked me;
"how did your thoughts come to that?"
- i really don't know.
(i only asked for his view on God's plans when a child dies young.)
i suppose i ask too much.
i suppose it could be true that Sagittarians are philosophical and spiritual.

i do notice that i've been pointing at my date of birth at times like this.

"The Journal of the Late-Bloomer"

that would be a great title for my autobiography, wouldn't it?

insert laugh here you must think i have a really high imagination or just forget to rationalize. with this rate of 'maturity', i even wonder if i could be as successful to write myself an autobiography. or if i'd bloom at all!
what ever happens to the innocence of our wishes, eh? why do we keep rationalizing our hopes?
i should know because i'm doing it right now! i'm rationalizing to my most deepest, craziest desire - and i don't like it one bit! i'm practically putting myself down for the one thing i adore most!

when i was little - in standard school; as if on protocol, the teachers would ask, "what do you like to be when you grow up?"
so what do i want to be when i grow up this time? doctor? engineer? architect? honestly, when i was little, there was only 3 professions exists! ohh, add 'lawyer' to the very short list. i have to wonder why wasn't i told about the other jobs that are just as well paid and respectful!

you have to understand the disappointment i had when i realize how bad my memory was, to learn and remember little things meticulously if it might become a life and death situation. that just strikes off 'doctor' from the list. and i've never felt strongly for cars or machines, thus 'engineer' was struck off too. ohh, i have to mention that i was a lousy mathematician - still am, really! then i saw a ray of hope in law. i loved watching Ally McBeal so i gotta love law, right? WRONG! despite the fact that my mom once said that i'd be a great lawyer, it turned out that my quick wit and lightning-speed response in conversations was - as a matter of fact - just tactless sarcasm. that goes about right since i am after all a Sagittarius. then it's time to strike off 'architect'. buildings ARE fantastic! i have to admit that i'd truly enjoy travelling if only to watch the buildings. *sigh* too bad that the buildings that inspires me were the ones with historical values, and for me to to design a building just as moving as i was moved, i would have to become an architect about 200 years ago.

then i went through high school, my form five class teacher HAD to have the answer to that question again. imagine the pressure i had as i listened to 3/4 of my classmates answered breezily to the seemingly easy question before me. i have been reasoning with myself the whole period as the teacher goes through one by one student according to their seat placements. then she started on the final row, third desk from the back, right next to the window. (i must say, i had the BEST - but very distracting - seat in class.)

"Ida, what do you want to do when you finish school?"

errr.. probably something like computer design..?

i had NO CLUE what i had just said. after all, i haven't figured out what i really want to do right then, and i had to decide what i was going to do for life? computer design sounded fine at that time. i heard IT was going to be really huge! companies would open wide their arms for computer design graduates! (you wish!) after all, i love taking care of my website then. i did design the layout and the little buttons on it! i have mastered doodling on paper and it's only time someone should take it to the next level. i should be wonderful at this!
i was gifted.
at least, that was the idea!

little did i know what it was. it still is what it was - a HOBBY.
i am three years too late to realize this, of course. life could be really different if i hadn't taken this road.
i probably wouldn't mess up my computer over 'image-manipulator' softwares. i probably hadn't tried coffee in Starbucks. i wouldn't have known the people i've met in the last three years. you probably wouldn't find this blog on the internet!
but you know what? if i had to give back the last three years, there is this one thing that i certainly will be doing the same....

[it's been a really long time since i wrote something like this, hasn't it?]

3 years too late..

*sigh*
i wish i had thought about things earlier on. i suppose "we'll see how it goes" doesn't work too well with me.

this is not a very good day for me.
it was a little fun - but i didn't deserve to have any!!

okay, i'm so deprived of sleep for the last two days that 2 cups of caffe mocha from Delifrance and Starbucks couldn't even help. good thing that i'll get the rest that i need tonight! just can't wait to get back home!!! (i'm in KL right now)

dizzy dizzy.. @_@
and rather... terrified.

hummm..

i really had something to say just now but all seemed lost after reading this.. awkward entry a friend had posted on his journal. it's like one of those things that you wish you hadn't read 'coz now you're stuck to thinking about it.

i'd say.. knowing what you want it great.
but knowing EXACTLY what you want.. can become quite troublesome.
- as it has been for me. troublesome, but a bit.. satisfactory. hehhe!

i'm talking in circles!
anyways! today i went to campus and saw cik ila. we did some 'serious business', actually. i even went to ID studio and talked to mr fariz. huehhuehh. i like him-lah! not in that "wrong-exceed-student-teacher-boundaries" way, rest assure.. i find it comforting that he seemed to really want to help. me like nice people!
gives you hope for the whole world.

okay. i'm yapping unnessecarily again. me - out!!
(i think i'm actually missing the little fellas i'm actually missing..)

So Little Time by Arkarna

Took a while to drag me out of bed,
Aim some coffee at my head,
Saw the clock I'm running late,
It's an ordinary day.
And I'm like a dog on heat,
Knock one out and then fall asleep,
It's sad but true,
I'd rather be with you

Don't you forget about me,
When you're a celebrity,
It will be only you and me
Before too long.

So little time so much to do,
I rather spend my days with you,
So little time so much to do,
I'd like to spend one day with you,
And if that day is not enough,
Maybe we can stay in touch,
But i'm not making plans for tomorrow,
For tomorrow never comes.

Said I've been celibate for years,
Not out of choice theres no-one here,
See I can't give my end away,
Another ordinary day,
And I've love to see a little more of you,
You're clothes would look better on my bedroom floor,
bedroom floor,bedroom floor.

Don't you forget about me,
When you're a celebrity
I know you're busy,
But we all need somebody - before too long

So little time so much to do,
I'd rather spend my days with you,
So little time so much to do,
I'd like to spend one day with you,
And if that day is not enough,
Maybe we can stay in touch,
But i'm not making plans for tomorrow,
For tomorrow never comes.

Never comes
never comes
for tommorow
never comes

okay, let's break it down together now.

F1 in Canada last 2 nights.. must have been the best "show" yet! with all the incidents and drama. i saw the first black flag last night! i was telling my sister months ago how i've never seen the marshall waved around the black flag, but that night - they did!! to Montoya even!! wahhahhahahahha!! *very evil laugh* i know this seems SO biased, but i'm REALLY not fond of the "Monster" - or so he was called 2 seasons ago. haven't been winning podium much ever since, have he?
and the two Renault retirement - BRILLIANT!! ahahhaha!! i very much dislike Alonso for being the proud-pompous-racing git i've ever seen. it's not business - it's purely personal! ekekke!
so, in the end only 11 cars left on the track, with Kimi in first place, Michael second and Rubens third. i bet no one saw that one coming, yeah? hehhe! i'm surprisingly fine with Kimi getting the podium, actually. since last race's incident he had in the very final lap, i can't help but feel sorry for him. most probably because Alonso was the one who gained something from the incident!
and did you notice Malaysian own, Michelle Yeoh amongst the Ferrari crowd? hehhe!
ohh, the commentator said something really interesting last night; out of nine years the race have been held in the Canadian track, the safety car was released in seven of them. SEVEN!! just how much incidents can it handle?

so this last weekend has been pretty... illuminating. it's AMAZING how in-touch you actually are to your surroundings isn't it? i've had my more than two months of school break, but three days before new term starts.. three days.. my body decided that it should get down with a fever!! ekkeke!! just how much do you have to reject the inevitable? but i'm getting better as i am typing this out. (i BETTER be!) i have like a long list of to-do's just for today!

i read on Sunday Star about this Malaysian born writer; Tash Aw. humm.. what can i say, yeah? okay. honestly.. it was inspiring.. and i felt a bit.. disappointed for not knowing what i wanted to do when i was in school. Tash is now based in London, he just got his first book published by Harper Collins (which, if you're a fan of books, you'd know that it's a very well known publisher) and he actually studied law, but in his mind he'd always wanted to write. the feeling i have right now, would most probably close to envious! roawr!
ohh, and especially when i keep remembering how darned lucky Emerson (of Mugglenet) and Melissa (TLC) when Rowling called them personally and invited them to the press conference she's holding on July 17th!! (yes people.. i AM talking about Harry Potter again..)
JUST ONE MONTH AWAY!!
ohh, and i've seen a bit of the teaser of the movie and some small cuts of Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire that's coming out this November and well, yet again, they are messing up the book again!! *sigh* a bit disappointing but being the dork that i am, you can be sure that i'll see the movie anyhow.

okay, so you are surrounded by the knowledge of how far people can get when they put their minds to it.
now don't you wonder why you are still where you exactly were and practically unmoved??

How happy is the blameless vestal's lot!
The world forgetting, by the world forgot.
Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind!
Each pray'r accepted, and each wish resign'd;
Labour and rest, that equal periods keep;
"Obedient slumbers that can wake and weep;"
Desires compos'd, affections ever ev'n,
Tears that delight, and sighs that waft to Heav'n
~ Eloisa to Abelard by Alevander Pope

happy birthday, blog!
(it's been up and about for 3 years, yesterday. sorry that the layout hasn't been perfected yet. there's no frontpage on the pc i'm using at the moment, so i'm quite blind seeing too much of html tags in one day.)

one long post.

ohh, i apologize if my English turns out a bit crappy. it's been pretty rusty lately.

heyy there people!! i suppose i HAVE been missing typing my everyday out for everyone to read. (weirdo!) ooh~ and i'm also missing mugglenet and portkey!! the news i have missed, eek!!! anyways, just a week left to the long long school break. to tell you the truth, i think this has been the best school break yet!! i should've find a job to get a few bucks (at least that's the most rational thing to do with the 2 months break) but i had too much fun doing almost nothing, skipping my showers and just talk with my sister through the month! hehhe! and she's been bringing me along to some fun things like movies, shopping, karaoke and bowling!! (mind, i feel like i'm starting a writing version of Globe Trekker right now!)

karaoke is not my thing, though. as much as i like singing, i don't think my voice sounded for the better when it came out louder than it should have been. *sigh* but shopping, movies and bowling (in that order, please) are DEFINITELY what i wish to do for life! ekkeke!
ohh, and i bought - rephrase - Dida bought me Dan Brown's Deception Point and that concludes my collection of his works to date! he's a really good writer, i tell you! it's amazing how he can write a day's worth of events on 580+ pages! ekkekke! his stories were intense!! so if you like reading, Dan Brown's is a MUST!!
i also made Dida bought this cool book about Sagittarius and that one was really fun to read. and i suppose Kinokuniya are going to do something like what they did 2 years ago on the day Harry Potter came out! this is SO EXCITING!! and i've got this cool ticket from pre-booking. heehee! ME LIKE VERY MUCH!

i remember out all the albums i've ever bought all my life just to see how weird my taste were (and probably still are!) so i actually have two Chinese albums which were Zhao Wei's, one SMAP (Japanese band which one of the member was Takuya Kimura!), a Cardcaptor Sakura soundtrack, Cayote Ugly soundtrack, Pokemon First Movie soundtrack and Beautiful Life soundtrack. Two KRU and one Elite (wakkakakka!!) Two of Spice Girls, three of *NSYNC, one Britney, B*Witched, Westlife, Lifehouse, Brian McKnight, Linkin Park, Sixpence, Evanescence, New Found Glory and McFLY's All About You. ekkeke!! i think they were all too mixed matched for me to find out what my true favorite genre is.

okay, one social message; at Starbucks Coffee now you can buy this yellow rubber wristband cost RM5. by buying this wristband, you're actually supporting the National Cancer Society Malaysia. so people, this is a good cause! CELEBRATE LIFE!
hehe. i thought, if i've been supporting Comic Relief all this while, i should at least do something on my own land for once. :D

*sigh* a week left to the break. i'm sorry that it had to end.. o well! still many things to do, places to go.. take care people! see you guys soon!

chakk!!

just a quick post!
actually hijacking dida's boss' pc at the moment! ekekeke!
just a really quick message to tell you to listen to this song!! i thought it was cool! ekekeke!

Goodnight, Goodnight by Hot Hot Heat

It's not enough to hear me say you've won
You only wanted me for having fun
But now I think you've gone and had your way
And left me with a pile of bills to pay
I can't even rewind the tape machine
To listen to your drunken reasoning
So here it is - your final lullaby

Goodnight, goodnight
You're embarrassing me
You're embarrassing yourself
So goodnight, goodnight
Walk away from the door
Walk away from my life
So Goodnight

I've given up on social niceties
I threw 'em out when I threw out your keys
Along with all your records I can't stand
You never even listen to any one of them
You're never gonna drag me out again
With all the people that were never ever even your friends
So here it is - your final lullaby

Goodnight, goodnight
You're embarrassing me
You're embarrassing yourself
So goodnight, goodnight
Walk away from the door
Walk away from my life
So goodnight

A little bit of rain I'd say is fair
But when it starts to thunder they all stare
This isn't goodnight, this is goodbye...

So goodnight, goodnight
You're embarrassing me
You're embarrassing yourself
Goodnight, goodnight.
Walk away from the door
Walk away from my life
So goodnight

take care peeps!!
McFLY is still cool.. Danny's still in my mind!! ikkiki!
lotsa love!! (i'm in a such good mood, it's almost terrifying)

school break!!!

okay. my dad is on his way here so i better post this one last entry and really pack all my things and plug this computer off.

so people, i probably won't post for a very.. very long time, so until that time,
TAKE CARE!!
and have fun!
have LOADS of fun!!

witch - out! =)

now. bored.

i think trains ARE a great place to write. i mean, it's at least not as shaky as busses! hehe. and it offers the same 'change of views'. let see, Rowling got her idea of Harry Potter while she was on a train and Walt Disney first drew Mickey Mouse while he was on a train. so maybe one of these days i'll get a brilliant idea of some kind for myself! hihi.

*sigh*

ooh~ this song just gave me the chills! for the first time today i listen to it loud enough that i couldn't even hear myself think.
i suppose this song is a bit sad. but it has this touch of strong-ness, so i gotta love this song! and Delta Goodrem's voice gave the best feeling to the whole song, so.. bravo! hihi.

Not Me, Not I by Delta Goodrem

You mixed me up for someone
Who'd fall apart without you
Yeah you broke my heart for the first time
But I'll get over that too
It's hard to find the reasons
Who can see the rhyme?
I guess that we were seasons out of time
I guess you didn't know me

If you think love is blind
That I wouldn't see the flaws between the lines
Surprise, that I caught you out
On every single time that you lied
Did you think that every time I see you I would cry
No not me, not I,
Not I, no not me, not I

The story goes on without you
And there's got to be another ending
But yeah you broke my heart it won't be the last time
But I'll get over them too
As a new door opens we close the ones behind
And if you search your soul I know you'll find
You never really knew me

If you think love is blind
That I wouldn't see the flaws between the lines
Surprise, that I caught you out
On every single time that you lied
Did you think that every time I see you I would cry
No not me, not I,
Not I, not I, not I

All you said to me
All you promised me
All the mystery, never did believe
No I never cry, no I never not me
Not I

If you think love is blind
That I wouldn't see the flaws between the lines
Surprise, that I caught you out
On every single time that you lied
Did you think that every time I see you I would cry
No not I, I won't cry
No not me, not I
Not I

ohh, i think Yukira posted this song somewhile ago on her blog. =D
good taste, yah cik Yukira!! heehee!

all of whats!

hihi.. had this bit of idea during the weekends.

1. what's weird.
- how somedays i can feel like the smartest person in the whole world while some days i feel like the biggest idiot.

2. what's dislikeable.
- bad looking boys giving their worst pick up lines. and roaches! really quick roaches. (i even HATE!)

3. what's cool.
- Comic Relief and RND. and guitar too, of course! guitar and drums. heh!

4. what's annoying.
- watching a movie on Astro, and 15 minutes before the ending, it RAINS! (has happened to me three times to date!)

5. what's impressive.
- guys who are in touch with their emotions. hihi! who are not afraid to actually let people know his thoughts. ekkeke!

6. what's envy.
- dida talking about the prospects of her being sent to overseas for her job! (roawr!!)

7. what's fun.
- catching up to your bestest buddies and your sisters! a big day of shopping is fun too! hahha!

8. what's scary.
- a dream with you just receiving a love letter. (that particular dream woke me up one morning, actually! hahha!) okay, other scary things would be my over-thinking, over-analyzing and high imagination thoughts.

9. what's amazing.
- great actors and writers. authors, composers.. they are all just amazing!!

10. what's sad.
- seeing a loved one in trouble but you are of no help 'cause you simply can't.

11. what's funny.
- life. no doubt about it!

12. what's lovable.
- rat!!! well ratman, i suppose 'coz i don't really love the ones that run around dirty places! so it'll be that guy i can never have 'coz he's just one of my silly little crushes; sir laughsalot!

okay! 1:30! i ought to get some sleep!!

WARNING

blogging marathon starts NOW!

the fingers on my left hand is now SORE. really sore. in fact, typing this isn't comfortable at all. but heyy! in the name of the school break, i better type out simply EVERYTHING of ANYTHING! heehee~

in this post, i am going to thank Hot Frets for helping me tune my guitar. (good thing i'm not tone- deaph deaf!)

i've put away my guitar now since my fingers are too sore for me to play a single note right.
and i'm gonna have to push back my plans on buying Rot3F cd, if i'm going to buy some book for guitar-idiots like me. (the idiot's book is rm70 in MPH!)

"excuse me, do you have change for 20 cents?"

*giggle*
that was actually how my 'pretty long outing' started yesterday.

so yesterday i didn't return to my apa-to (apartment in japanese) 'coz.. i don't know. lack of self-resistance, probably. i took my own sweet time doing that law paper and got out with the very few people who stayed 'til the end of the two hours period.

i jumped onto a bus before i was even sure i really wanted to leave. i mean, it was already 5pm and that means i have just about 2 to 3 hours to come back to cyberia safely before it gets too dark out.
i got to midvalley around 6, and after a quick trip to the loo, i went straight to get my comfort food. (guess. something not too cheap and cheesy! hihi.)

then i walked off the calories (yeah, exactly!) around the mall and got myself two guitar picks! - which i just bought off quite randomly; according to the COLOR!! ahhahaha!!
then i went to MPH and as usual, find myself cursing at self for allowing myself to be tempted by the books! roawr! honestly, i never find a day when i went into a bookstore and see nothing that i want to buy. ohh, and then i found Room On The 3rd Floor on their cd racks!! so to lift off a bit of guilt, i called dida to ask if she thinks it's okay if i buy it. heehee.

and guess what? she said she was on Federal Highway with my parents, and then turned towards Midvalley 'coz i was there! all four of us ended up walking around (dida was surveying shoes) and later.. i followed them back HOME! ahhahaha!!

anyways, i got back here around afternoon today but i couldn't bring myself to type out anything. but since i'll get back home for good tomorrow..
EXPECT A SUPER-OVERLY-EXCESSIVE BLOGGING 'TIL I TAKE THE PLUGS OFF TOMORROW!!
wahhahahaha!!

see you soon! *wink wink!*

an untimely happy.

hihi.
had a pretty amusing weekend. i was sleep-deprived, mind. but roughly i had a good time. been following the Augusta Masters (golf) with papa most mornings 'coz i can't get to shut my thoughts (when i tried sleeping). so how boring am i? - to actually follow GOLF, of all sports. (if you can call it a sport!) i wonder if any of the F1 drivers are interested in golf. i mean, that's a real big difference there, isn't it? hihi.

ohh. and i coudn't help myself laughing as i watched Man United lose to Norwich City by 2-0. to set the records sraight, i AM a Man U fan, but how lame were they; to lose to Norwich?? a bit pathetic, really. *sigh* so i simply couldn't help..
i miss having Beckham in Man U. *sigh* not too fond of him being in Real Madrid, don't know why. so i'd usually get hyped when it's the World Cup Qualifying with England on telly. hihi!

now i can't make out why i started rambling about football!!

ANYWAYS!! dida just got off her plane late tonight.
okay first, last thursday when i visited nina, she said dida had called and told her that she (dida) had a surprise for me!! little ole me!! heehee! and dida told nina what it was, and just wouldn't tell me. nina described it as "cool" and had guessed what it was before dida had told her.
SO! my weekend was entirely spent thinking what this mystery present was! hahha! it really bugged me that nina could have guessed it and i had NO IDEA WHAT SO EVER! (probably 'coz i want too many things that i can't just guess ONE! ahhahaha!!)
SOOO! i was watching the telly at the waiting area in KLIA (Trump just gave the apprentices their assignment) when mama called me out and said she's seen dida. so i looked where she was pointing and yeah! dida was walkin towards the exit..
and on her back.. she was carrying.......

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEKK!!!
couldn't help but forget telly and run towards her!!
i gave her an extra hug when they all sent me here afterwards! hihi!!

i thought the pic looks a bit cool! the guitar was reflecting my computer screen and even my other hand which was on the camera! heehee!
okay. now i ought to go to sleep if i want to wake up early tomorrow and study for Media Law!!

can't wait for the break and "study" my guitar!!!!!!

Lindsay Lohan ni memang laa..

so i finally watched her new music video; Over, and guess who played as her "boy" in this one.. DREW FULLER!!
ahhaha!! remember those posts where my IQ had decreased because of him? *lol* if you can't remember who the heck he is, Drew is the young white lighter guy in Charmed, Piper's son that came from the future to stop Wyatt from turning evil. hehe!
and Lindsay's going to appear late this year with a movie called Just My Luck(?) - i think that's what it's called! it has something to do with Vegas and luck. hehe. and in that movie.. there'll be the boys from McFLY!! yaaaaaaaah~!! (by now you should understand why the title for this post is Lindsay Lohan ni memang laa..!) lucky indeed! =P

going to get shower and off to my mom/sister's office in a bit! thought of having lunch with nina, but she had plans with her friends. and somehow right now i'm feeling like i'm going to miss not having dida at home when i get back later today. *sigh* (i really hate not having my sisters around! wonder how it'll be when dida gets married! eeech!)

i've been repeating Rob Thomas' new single lately and don't you think that the song is just funny?? well, i honestly like the song but it's very.. pop-ish don't you think? very unlike Matchbox 20. and what's funnier was the video!! ekkeke! i guess since it falls under pop, Rob would think moving his rear end to the beats was okay. *lol!* just.. funny. from cool rock-ish songs like Disease to booty-moving pop! but i do like the new single! i DO!
but this morning i'm going to post the other song that i've been over-listening to since yesterday! (don't worry, it's not McFLY! *lol*) i think this song sounds so.. wonderful! (but i don't think it's "wonderful" enough for parents to approve! *lol*)

The Ghost Of You by My Chemical Romance

I never said I’d lie in wait forever
If I died we'd be together
I can’t always just forget her
But she could try

At the end of the world
Or the last thing I see
You are never coming home, never coming home
Could I, should I
And all the things that you never ever told me
And all the smiles that are ever, ever, ever

Get the feeling that you’re never
All alone and I remember now
At the top of my lungs, in my arms she dies
She dies

At the end of the world
Or the last thing I see
You are never coming home, never coming home
Could I, should I
And all the things that you never ever told me
And all the smiles that are ever gonna haunt me
Never coming home, never coming home
Could I, should I
And all the wounds that are ever gonna scar me
For all the ghosts that are never gonna catch me

If I fall
If I fall (down)

At the end of the world
Or the last thing I see
You are never coming home
Never coming home
Never coming home
Never coming home

And all the things that you never ever told me
And all the smiles that are ever gonna haunt me
Never coming home, never coming home
Could I, should I
And all the wounds that are ever gonna scar me
For all the ghosts that are never gonna..

100 days away from Half-Blood Prince!! *cheer cheer!!*

food is good.

now i'm certain that i'm in a much much better mood than yesterday! fuuh~ i actually took the last 20 hours to finally get back my normal mood! how freaky was that?
the 8-9 hours of sleep last night might have helped. and the sugar. hehe! loaads of sugar. i had the worse craving yet, late in the afternoon! i had to went to the shop even though it was raining outside. (such a bad time to crave for some junk!) and such a spoil that the shop didn't have any chocolate, so i had to settle with some twiggies, a big bottle of soda and a bag of chips - and voila! better mood. heehee!

i didn't know what i did for the rest of my day, but i only checked on mugglenet around 5pm and their latest news was about a downloadable countdown calendar on scholastic!

it hasn't started yet, gotta wait 'til tomorrow for some fun facts or any special features to come out from the calendar. (tomorrow = 100 days away from HBP!) the wallpaper is in shockwave, so sometimes an owl would swoop across the screen! hehe! i might get back to my old wallpaper if it weights down my already slow computer!

hihi! it's actually an illustration of the marauders; which i just ADORE! i don't know who did this wallpaper since i took it from a HP site, but i gotta love the person who did it!!

another reason for the much happier note is probably 'coz i finally get to download the video i've been wanting to see yesterday! weeeee~! *lol* i know, i get upset for the silliest things!
okay. i know it's really early and everything, but i think i do need to get to sleep sometime soon. so..
goodnight world!