I'm disoriented.

Been feeling weird this entire night.
My head has been spinning since the afternoon and it still is. I'm not exactly sick, but this "spinning" has got to end soon or I might just throw up.

My dad caught a glimpse of my Blogger status-page earlier and he chuckled when he read the huge title; Absent minded ramblings. heh! It might not sound great but a chuckle.. a single piece of recognition could really swell me up in pride. Especially when it comes from my dad since he's not the kind who gives away compliments so freely.

I know that kinda sounds like it should mess up my psyche so let's avoid getting in too deep on that topic and allowing myself to claim that I am the way I am because of the way my father had treated his children. How completely Freudian.

There had been a rerun of Oprah tonight; it was the one with Ricky Martin talking about child trafficking and the new homes for the tsunami survivor in Thailand. I admit that Oprah is a nice person and cares about a lot of things, but I'm starting to get really irritated by her!

1. Remember that episode with Paula Malai Ali representing all Malaysian women? What a lie that was! She had made it sound like every women in Malaysia would spend an afternoon threading their eyebrows, looks great 24/7 and lives in a large apartment. Honestly, if Oprah really cared about "Malaysian women", she should know that Paula is by no means suited to represent this country.

2. On tonight's show, they were trying to point Indonesia on a map on screen but what-d'ya-know, the red dot was actually in between Thailand and Malaysia!! Nowhere near Indonesian land! Come on, how can anyone works for a wide-audienced show and let a slip up that big?? Honestly, if you can't tell the geographical locations, just skip it! It was seriously disturbing.

I probably shouldn't blame on Oprah and blame on the show's producer or something, but I won't sit here quiet and let her slip by. It's her show and she practically advertises herself as someone who really cares and smart.
Doesn't look smart to me.
Ohh and don't get me started on her magazine!

I'm certainly not angry. Just, very annoyed - and irritated.
But on a lighter note,
Happy Birthday Joanne Rowling!
- and Harry too, of course!

Currently listening to: the winds outside, bringing forth the rain.

Quiet day.

Well.. compared to yesterday!
The only thing worth mentioning was Muz' call about my copy of PS, I Love You 'cause Lena had wanted to borrow it - which isn't really worth mentioning.

Ciao tutti!
Just wanted to tell you guys that I'm moving all my podcasts to this place. I had a small panic attack when I saw my Geocities account has almost reached its limit! yikes!
Hate it when things reaches its limit!
So I'm going to remove all those embeded files in this next hour - or at least most of them.

Currently listening to: We Belong Together by Gavin Degraw

Podcast #6

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Biting more than I can chew..?

Just.. did something that I might (MIGHT) dread.
The idea of it is excellent.. if it works out, I'll be as ecstatic just as much as I'd be shaken.
Well, I'm hoping that it will work out so at least I can decide for real if I can go along with it.

I have time before I need to decide.
Just have to make sure there is a decision to make!

yikes.

my mom has suddenly taken up exercising for what ever reason.
have - to - erase - the image of her skipping with that skipping rope.

and my dad plainly laughs at the way I sing since I had my earphone on.

just great.
my family the comedian.

Update!

My father has ESP!! *lol*
I was looking at him and said that I feel like eating something. He offered me some crisps but I didn't feel like eating those, so he just looked at me and suddenly something in both our heads just clicked!
He was like, "let's.." and I went, "really?" and got up from lying in front of the telly as he got out of the couch and put on his "outside" pants. All the while my mom was looking at us and kept asking, "what? where are you two going?"

We went to A&W in PJ.
I had coney dog and a rootbeer while my dad got the waffle with ice-cream. Then he asked, how would I rate that waffle with a Belgian waffle, and I said... "it's incomparable" and he slouched as a respond, but as a joke - I think! I hope! 'Cause if it's serious, I said some considerably nasty things after that then.

Okie! Enough blogging! I should be reading some book or write some really smart things actually!
1:59 am

Podcast #5

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I did podcast.. and took a bit of pictures. (I was bored..)

It's

--me

who was left wanting.

I had an urge

I went out today.
Was planning to go out at eleven but my darned tudung seemed to be making a habit of disappearing just when I needed it, so I only managed to step out of the house a quarter past. Late, yet still hoping that I'd manage to catch the 12:30 show of The Lake House in GSC - I failed, naturally, and I blame the stupid KTM commuter's schedule completely!

So I bought a ticket for the next show which was at 2:45. With hours to waste, I decided to go to MPH in hopes of saving a little money from buying a certain cup of something from a certain familiar chain store - which was fab since I can easily spend an hour around Classics and Chick Lit alone! But of course, by the second hour it became hard as I can easily find three books that I should read everytime I enter a bookstore. In today's case, I found ten!! - and by the end of The Lake House I had made up my mind to buy a completely different book (different as in it wasn't among the earlier ten books that made my list). So I returned to MPH but unfortunately I couldn't find a single copy of it!!
I went home with a frown. Heartbroken was the word.

The Lake House was nice. It was predictable to a point - until a small twist of chance - predictable non the less, but nice. Really. There were moments that made me wonder how they let it go that long or slow, or how the camera sat still not even moving an inch to make the scene slightly more interesting, but it shouldn't matter much to anyone else.

If you're not a big fan of logical things, this is the movie for you. As for me, I love this film and I think fondly of it but I couldn't help wondering how the letters of the main characters; Alex and Kate, could possibly defy the laws of physics! You can't blame me for being curious.
The film didn't get me any close to crying as I had expected. I guess my logic sort of got the better of me, instead of the usual; submersing my thougts into the romantics of the entire thing. Pity.

Now wishing that I had loads of money to buy all those books I saw today. I might go back though. A complete collection of Shakespeare's works for RM19.90!! The same price goes for Oscar Wilde's! I'd be crazy to not snag it up sometime soon!! (might have to ask my dad for some money though *lol*)

Anyway, later my dad picked me up from the commuter and I had my super late lunch at McD waiting for the time to pick my mom up. We headed to the MPH in SACC since my mom was running late and guess what? I found the 11th book on my list!! woot~!

Currently reading: Persuasion by Jane Austen
and listening to: This Never Happened Before by Paul McCartney (download!)
ps: stupid love song!!
pps: you should know that I don't really find this song stupid.
ppps: but it's making me stupid.

You And I Both

So it's an old song..
But I couldn't help falling in love with this song all over again. It's the word unencumbered that got me listening to this song again!
There are certain songs that I really remember because of the words that were used in the lyrics. Another fine example, Muse's Time Is Running out. The word asphyxiated just gripped me somehow.

I love words. They are the most wonderful things in the world.
heh. Such a geeky entry this is.

Currently listening to: Jason Mraz

Slightly ticked.

Of course, this person who ticked me couldn't possibly tell that he's ticking me off since it's typically me not to come up to one's face and completely poke them in the chest. Confrontation makes me nervous. I might be born with a quick wit, but don't ask me to speak so much of that wit. I'm only good with words when I write. I stutter a lot when I speak - or spit. *lol* I'm rambling.

Now that our family has got a new ride (since that whole Dida's accident thing late last year!) Papa had suggested that we went to OU to try out that Waffle World (? sorry, not quite sure of its name) shop. Now that I'm around and have actually tasted Belgian waffles, we're going to see if the waffle there is any good as the waffles I had in Belgium. haha! My dad's idea - not mine!
So we might head there sometime this week, and I am hoping that I could fix my guitar around that time! (sheesh! I've got to stop yacking about the guitar!)

I was eating one of those Mini Cornetto's earlier and I felt so lucky!
I just feel lucky that I wasn't allergic to peanuts! Okay, laugh at this if you will but you have to be thankful if you're not allergic as well! Think about the things some people might have to miss!
A good cone of ice cream.. honey glazed cashews.. a complete nasi lemak meal.. sambal kacang!! I'm thankful that I'm not allergic to sambal kacang, that's for certain! *lol* I'm rambling again.

I've been misspelling things lately. It's like, just now when I had wanted to spell cashews, I'd spelled it sashews. Or sone for cone, and vice versa with things that should start with an S instead of a C. Nina joked that I have an odd kind of dyslexia. Sabo je laa..
It's annoying, having to go back and correct these small things when I'm easily irritated by grammar/spelling mistakes! Hopefully I'll get over this soon.

Dida messaged me earlier and told me she was at Pathe to catch The Break Up. How unfair! It'll only be out over here in August 3rd. But The Lake House isn't out yet over there and I might catch it this Wednesday if I feel like going out! hah! Eat that! *grins* But I'm proud that my sister is watching a movie at the cinema by herself! That is so Wanie. *rofl*

Okay! I suppose that's enough of a "jumble of things". Just wanted to let off some steam while I'm trying to figure out what I'm going to write next.

Currently listening to: Just My Luck by McFLY (download!)

The kiddies gone.

Nina and the kiddies went back to Seremban earlier today.
Poor my parents. Now the house has become extremely quiet in comparison when they were around. Okay, I can make them laugh every once in a while but only the kiddies could puke on the floor and became heavenly adorable the minute after - even when the nauseating sour smell of regurgitated milk still lingers in the air.

Unfortunately I don't have that gift.

Nina took my Travel Journal with her since I wanted her to see the pictures I took while I was away. God, I hope she'd really ignore the awful things I've said about Dida on our way to London! yikes! I was really crabby at the time.
Sometimes I do feel sorry for what I've written in the past. The downside to a journal/blog, I suppose. You wish you could take some things back but it's already there and to strike everything out would be a total waste of effort. ha!

I'd like to be merciless, but I'd rather not be inhuman.
On a different note, I wish other people would update their blog as much as I do! ahhahahhahaha!! Wishful thinking, obviously.

Currently listening to: I Predict A Riot by Kaiser Chiefs

Nightmare.

Bonjour tout le monde!

Anyways, it wasn't really a nightmare that I had. Well, just a little maybe.
I was dreaming that I was back in school and I was late for a pop quiz! sheesh! And all the good places were taken and a dear friend pointed me the only acceptable seat was near this one guy I used to know in school and I dreaded it. I was smiling a lot, but all the time I was wondering "why the heck am I smiling so much??"
Okay, the fella was a nice guy. A little too nice for my own liking, honestly. haha! That's the only reason why I dreaded him actually.

Didn't mean much that much anyway.

I shall refrain myself from posting right after I wake up next time. I always feel silly everytime I talk about my dreams - especially when I have nothing else to say afterwards. Like this.

Ooh, Tiger Woods won the British Open! woot~!

Silence Is A Scary Sound

Honestly, if I have an electric guitar, I'd play this song!
It isn't really that great, but I just love the fact that Dougie sings in it. (He hardly ever sings.) I even sent this song to Muz! *lol* Just because she loves Dougie, of course.
And I also love the fact that Danny only sings one part in the entire song. It makes the song a little special somehow.
By the way, I'm not going to share the song here.. just because this is my favourite favourite band and I'm just selfish that way. heh!

Ohh, in case you're wondering why I've been talking a lot about songs lately, it's just because I have nothing else better to write about!
..and writing is such a big part in me that I need to write whether it is any good or not. (On the rare occasion, I do come up with something considerably good!)

I don't remember when was the last time I wrote in my journal. I suppose I have nothing much too personal to hide from the blog, and nothing too exciting to yack so deliberately.
Plus, I've made a mental note to write nothing but a story. *snicker* A vague attempt of commitment.
That idiotic thing really rots the mind now that I think about it. I hate to admit that some of my works is turning out as an accidental version of something I've seen before. Curses.

Silence is a scary sound, Dougie!

I'm a sex machine ready to reload

Been listening to McFly's cover version of Queen's Don't Stop Me Now that made the official song for the 2006 Sport Relief.

I wonder why British singers/bands likes doing cover version on any song they can get their hands on. It's a bore for most of the time. Honestly, can't they write a new song??
Ronan Keating singing Iris that was originally sung by Goo Goo Dolls? Honestly!

Just lucky that I happen to adore McFly, that even when I know for a fact that they've recorded at least 9 covers(!!!) I still love them. *sigh* But it's terrible, isn't it?

Of course, in a way they introduces those old songs to a younger audience. That's how I know songs like Honky Tonk Women, Lola and Pinball Wizard at least.

It has been a testing day. The kiddies are a test and I find myself boiling every half an hour. And I registered on MySpace 'cause I was tempted since there's McFly and JC on it.. 2 minutes later I cancelled the account 'cause I thought I was being weak!
Idiotic, I know.
Ohh, and I missed yet another episode of Danny Phantom yesterday, so really.. idiot is the word.

Tiger Woods Eagle

Funny.
Sounds like a red indian name of some sort.

Was following the British Open Championship on telly with my father. We were glad that Tiger Woods is performing as brilliantly as he could've been since he didn't make the cut in the US Open. (It was his first game after his father passed away.)
That eagle on the 14th hole today was brilliant!
And his expression and his caddy's were amusing!

I must add though, the course in Royal Liverpool is extremeley horrible! Might be the hot summer weather but it definitely looked terrible with the small green patches as the rest of it were brown. Really.

Not too keen on sports?
Too bad! *smirks*

So much drama!

God!
And I thought my life was eventful!
Well.. not exactly! My life has always been quiet, really. Exciting, yet quiet for most of the time.
Anyways! Been reading these series of things and it deeply disturbs me. I suppose it's the sort of mind I have. You know, I feel like it's okay for a bunch of people to hate me, but when I see some other people hate each other.. breaks my heart. Oddly. I usually don't give a rat's ass about this kind of things. Too much drama to be bothered with! But.. it's sad, really. (Then again, it is my job to romanticize things so for me being sad over this, isn't really that odd!)
Well, as long as everyone in it is happy.
My thoughts don't matter one bit.

Although I must say, the major grammatical error was the thing that disturbs me the most! *manic laugh*

Went around Subang and PJ earlier, trying to find a photo store that could process my two b/w films. To no avail! I'm finding films very troublesome now.
I LOVE films, actually. B/W films, especially, but trying to find a store that can actually process them.. is starting to annoy me real bad!!

Missing Europe.
Doesn't feel right, but I am.
And Dida told me last night that 5 people have died in Europe because of the heat.

Cheers!

A fella named Chris Lam from a well recognized company emailed me today.
I feel smart! heehee.

Not in a very cheery mood, actually.
And the weather isn't helping either.

Update!
I take that back.
Exercise really makes you feel good.
Either that, or the exercise ball I was playing with Nina was seriously intoxicating!!

Really, sharing is caring.

Ciao tutti!

Now let's listen to something somber and dark today.
I am currently listening to Hate Me by Blue October.
(download here!)

Okay, going out with the old ones (my parents! hahha!!) and the kiddies in a bit.
Yepp.. the kiddies are here! A menace, those two are.

Heppy birthday, couzie Sarah!
to those who went to Nina's wedding a few years ago, she's the one at the buffet table giving out the rice - and the one Azraai thought that had looked like me.

'Cause sharing is caring.

Hola!
Been sleeping for the most of the day so there's nothing much to blog about really.
So here are the two songs that I've been listening to lately. (they're just clips, though.) A bummer since a minute and 40 is definitely unsatisfying!
I think Santana really knows how to collaborate with people. I honestly haven't heard a "bad" song by him.

JC Chasez - I'm Not Sleeping Alone (download!)
Santana feat. JC Chasez - If I Don't (download!)

Update!
I thought I've talked about this song before, but apparently I haven't!! (Can't believe that I haven't talked about it!!)
Dida told me to listen to this when I was back in Rotterdam with her and I totally fell in love with song. It's.. country, o'course. But a rock-ish country at that!
(Dida.. she's great at keeping a look out for great slow songs!)

Since I'm a lyric person, I'm going to post the lyrics here - just like what I'd usually do. I'll put the link to download the song from SendSpace at the end of the lyrics.
Ohh, and if you've already heard this song, good for you!!

What Hurts The Most by Rascal Flatts

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ It
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you
That’s what I was trying to do

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Wishlist
1. new guitar strings
2. an mp3 player
3. go back to Europe
4. the "gift" to commit to something. specifically, being able to commit to one storyline that I'm working on instead of trying to work around three!

Planning on 5, but I only have 4 at the moment. Guess life isn't so bad after all since I can only find four things that I want! *grins*

Podcast #4

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