Friends are indisposable, aight?
Long night... had some crisis over here..
Got me so worried! Friends are simply indisposable.. that's what I've been saying.
Somehow, the longer I'm here.. I learn much more things about friendships.
It's great to know the right things to say when someone's upset, for they can say the right things as well when you're upset.
It's great to keep track on your friends, for they can keep track on you as well.
And it's great to be there when your friends need you.. for they will be there when you're needy too.
So hey heyy..! To all my friends.. to those whom I care so much.. to those who have been around for me, in my toughest times.. I thank you loaaadddsss! Our friendship may not last forever, but I'll cherish all the memories we had together.. ^_^

You should know by now that no matter what will the outcome be.. we will always be there for you..

Kasut sape tertanggal tu? Ya Allah.. bodohnye!
Yeayyy!! Finally I can get into Blogger! Urghhh! Hard to believe that I can get real cranky not being able to let my feelings out.. Hee! But kewl thing I have a great person to share with..! Hihhihik! *~ Thank youuu! ~* You're such a kewl guy in my eyes.. ^_^
So I have to start from the beginning! Ehhehe.. Morning.. woke up so early 'coz we had to journey back from Sheeya's house. Honestly, I have to say that being away from my computer was pretty much relieving for my nerves.. Though.. humm.. well, I felt something else too.. but never mind that! But I have to say that I got pretty 'sick' last night. I don't know.. I just had this reaaaaally bad headache and chest pain and not forgetting my stiff neck!! GOD!! It pisses me off realizing that my body is malfunctioning bit by bit! Urggh!! Anyway, I actually had to lie down and kept changing my position 'coz the chest pain won't go away.. DUHH!! Good thing it left as I went to sleep.. sheesh! *Demm* stress! I do think I'm too young to handle this all.. yeeps!
So anyways, went to Graphics this morning with Aisha (who was surprisingly up at 7!!!!!!) We went by for only some few minutes.. sent in out assignments and left.. errr... practically running through the door while the tutor was clicking around her computer. And then.. Majin actually told us that she checked the attendance at the end of the session!! Ahahhaha!! *Demm* lah! But of course, this is what you get when you take chances.. and if you don't take your chances and risks.. might as well you just die! Hihhihi... no point of living if you're too careful! ^.^ Hihhi..
Fundamental was almost... absolutely useless! We just hung around and yapped and yapped 'til 3:30 to sign in the attendance! Sheesh! Though.. heyy! The session helped me realize something pretty much important about something in my life. Hihhihi... *~ so relieved that you felt the same! ~*
So what did I do for the rest of the day? Humm.. Went to Malee for dinner! Hihhi.. The gurls were so loud in the car! We were like.. ruining songs and all.. Everyone was pretty much hyper this night. And after dinner, we went to see the street soccer match. Well, not exactly a pretty sight at first 'coz as we got there.. we saw Alitt and his teammates were pissed and cursing and all. Yikes! Not a pretty sight at ALL! So we were like, hanging out over there for some while.. with roving eyes.. *nyeh nyehh* Don't blame us!! There were guys EVERYWHERE! Ahahhaha!! We were like talking about stuff with horrible horrible English. (ruining it on purpose - which I truly can't do as good as the others..) And even Fariz joined the English-ruining session! Hihhihik!
oOooO yeahh.. we were practically there (at the volley court) to see Alitt's team and Fariz' team.. Hihhihi.. Tariq was pretty hilarious back there..! Had fun just watching him guard that small goal post. Well.. me and Ana waited some while and got to see Alitt's team play. They were good! Seriously.. me and Ana agreed that Alitt can really use his legs.. AHHAHAH!! In the end.. well, I think everyone's pretty happy.. (At least that's what I think!)
Huu.. sooo.. it's night again lah! Sleepy.. sleepy sleepy to be honest! Bu tI need to wait for Musz to get online. Yeaaayyy!! Gosh, friends are so indisposable, aight? Can't wait to get home for the weekends.. Though.. really need to work on my Fundamental project!! Yeech!
Oh yeah, another thing I'd like to share.. this one came from Niez and I think it's reaaaaaaaally neat! ^_^
Do you know that a simple HELLO can be a sweet one?
How are you?
Everything all right?
Like to hear from you!
Love to see you soon!
Obviously I miss you!
So, HELLO!!
Hihhihik! Well, I think it's nice!

The need to share this with others.. ~winks!

You'll know that you miss someone very much, when every time you think of that person, your heart beats faster.
And just a quick warm "Hello" from that person calms you down.
Bottomline : You might have fallen for that person, it's just that you do not realize or refuse to admit.

Don't be too good, I will miss you. Don't be too caring, I might like you. Don't be too sweet, I might fall for you. It's hard for me to love you when you won't love me after all.
Bottomline : A person who makes me love him/her is actually a person who loves me more than I love him/her.

If someone comes into your life and becomes a part of you, but for some reasons he couldn't stay, don't cry too much.
Just be glad that your paths crossed and somehow he made you happy even for a while.
Bottomline : Time will tell. If he is yours, he will come back.

Don't throw your back to love when it's already in front of you, don't drive it away from you because if you did, someday you'll regret why you let love flown away when it was once right in front of you.
Bottomline : Treasure the one, who loves you, it's not easy to find a person who loves you. It's always more valuable to have a sincere heart.

The greatest regrets in our lives are the risks we did not take. If you think something will make you happy, go for it.
Remember, we only pass this way once.
Bottomline : Time doesn't wait. If you think you have found the right one, treasure him/her. Don't let him/her go away. Don't let fear hold you back. Give it a try or else you might regret later. No one knows what can truly make you happy except yourself.

Two teardrops were floating down the river. One teardrop said to the other, "I'm the teardrop of a girl who loved a man and lost him. Who are you?"
"I'm the teardrop of the man who regret letting a girl go."
Bottomline : Nobody will sympathize a person who constantly let chances pass by without making any efforts to salvage. We usually don't realize how important our loved ones are until they have left us. And we'll start reminiscences which results in misery.

It's so funny how we set qualifications for the right person to love, while at the back of our minds we know that the person we truly love will always be an exception.
Bottomline : We are critical especially to the one we like or love because we want him/her to be the best. Constantly seeking for perfection, which should be worked out by both parties in a relationship and not one party alone to shoulder the burden.

Love can make you happy although often times it hurts.
But love is only special if you give it to someone who is worthy.
Bottomline : If you have found someone who truly appreciates you, he/she deserves more of your love. "ATTITUDE, not APTITUDE, determines ALTITUDE."

** Thanks Alitt! **

Going away
Yaayyy!! Something's good happening in a few hours..
I'll be off to Sheeya's house with BJ later.. Staying there for the night.
Just what I need.. away from my computer!! Yaayy!!
Pardon me for saying this but computers have been some sort of a curse to me for the last three years. Yeech! It have brought me much much things.. Huuu! Though it have brought me much happiness.. I just can't seem to get over the sadness that it have brought me.. Huu!! I HATE!!!
Well.. gonna be away tonight... don't miss me okay! ^_^ I'm not worth all the trouble...

It just gets so hard..
Graphics test.. Yeech! I'm gonna be so screwed!
Huu.. so tired! I'll be brain-dead if this keeps on going. What am I talking about? Well.. sooooooooo many things I have in mind.. that rase cam nak tepu je otak ni. It's just.. so hard!! Huwaaaa!! If you think that I'm strong.. no I'm not! If you think that I'm brave.. no I'm not! I'm falling at this moment.. in a pretty fast rate, too! And I'm scared.. 'coz I refuse to lose the people I care so much..! And if that means I have to sacrifice some bit.. I am willing to.. 'coz friends are dead important and they're indisposable!! And.. I need friends more than any other sorts right now.. (And I'm dead serious about this!) Well, of course I can't change the way I feel about some things.. 'coz that's the way I feel.. and I may even feel the way I feel for ever.. But I am willing to restrain it all..
Huu.. this is how I run..! Urrgh! I hate admitting that I am more emotional than logical.. So tell me if I get too emotional wokie! I'm not really the rational-touch in anybody's life..
I'm asking myself where did I go wrong.. how did I get this far?
Please don't ask me what to do next.. 'coz I don't even know what I'm gonna do next..

Good night... Bad night...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY FINA!! October 15th.. Fina's birthday! Take a note on that! ^_^
Celebrated a bit last night.. Kinda did a surprise celebration for Fina. Honestly, we thought that she had already knew.. but when she got down to the cafe downstairs.. she was like pretty surprised! Heee! Well.. too bad Amal couldn't come.. Hihhihik! It'll be a real surprise if he did..!
My neck pain.. humm.. I guess it's getting better. Huu!
Anyways, not really in a good mood to talk.. all I feel like doing right now is.. I don't know.. hit my head hard? Yeahh... I guess that one's good. Urgghh!! Last night was pretty fun.. but amazingly, there are still things that bothers my mind so much.. and I don't like the feeling.
Isyk! Life just gets weirder everyday.. weird.. and harder everytime I realize it.

Current song : Naked by Avril Lavigne
~ doesn't really matter what I feel inside ~

Just not my day
Owwch.. I'm having such a horrible pain at the back of my neck.. Huwaaa!!
Can't turn my head properly.. can't look down without causing any pain.. can't help myself from keeping my head looking right straight like a zombie.. Sheesh!!

Current song : Falling Down by Avril Lavigne
~ I am falling down.. feel so good to hit the ground ~

Rainbows? Naahh.. that is SO over-rated!
Yeaaayyy!! Feeling much better now! Hihhihik! Kewl kewll! See see? Mood swings.. simpthoms of PMS.. Ahhahha!! Honestly.. the only times that I'm so thankful about being a girl is in Ramadhan (where I can at least have a break for a week from fasting), when people started talking about men's responsabilities.. and with the fact that I don't have to be brave to make a FIRST MOVE!! Ahahhaha!! Seriously.. periods can be sooo fussy.. yeech! And now, what's wrong with me? Talking 'bout period.. AHHAHA! I'm stopping~
Much much happier.. Weeeee!! It's good when you let go of things, ekk!! Kewl kewll!
Now.. should I go or shouldn't I for English? Malasnye mak datukk!
uUuUu.. honestly, just wanted to say.. How intimidated I was when I saw this girl pierced her eyebrow..! I just bumped to this girl last night.. small.. very petit.. Fadhilah is it, her name? Huu.. confused! But anyways.. I was like.. 'eh? piercing on her eyebrow!' And then one thing hit me.. O MY GOD!! She wears tudung lahh!! Huuu..! That is like so kewl!! But of course.. I'm not going to do THAT in any way.. Sheesh! Though I'm sick and tired of being a 'nice person' ehhe.. but piercing on anywhere else other than my ears is out of the question.. Hihhihik! Kewl? Maybe.. But that's not my style! Yeah yeahh!!
Get back later~!

Current song : There Is by Boxcar Racer
~ will you sleep tonight or will you think of me ~

So help me God..
Urrghhh!! I am so frustrated for something but I just can't say it!! It's like.. something is really really reaaaaaaally bothering my thoughts but I just can't let it out. Get what I mean?? And it's causing a LOT of tension to me!! My neck is killing me!! Huwaaa!! I need to settle this out but I don't know how... how can I start when I just can't say what's bothering me?! Urghh!! EGO EGO EGO! My *demm* ego!
So what am I doing right now? I don't know!! I guess I'm just waiting for it to settle itself.. Urghhh!! I HATE!!!
Fundamental this morning was pretty okay, I guess.. I mean, Najib sort of approved my 'color wheel'. That's good I guess.. but then he said that my 'simultaneous contrast' couldn't show a real contrast 'coz of the shape of my 'grey'.. Bluerrghh! (Never mind if you don't understand this.. 'coz I'm not giving a *demm* if you don't right now..)
Huwaaaaa!! I hate it when I have things in my mind... things that have to do with other people.. which I have no control over it!! This suxX! Wish I could just say 'life suxX'.. but it doesn't! Well.. not ALWAYS at least..!!
It's just weird when some days you just hate yourself.. isn't it? Probably you wake up in the morning feeling great.. waiting for the day to throw things at you to go through.. and until some point, you realise that you're not really ready for it.. You try to be strong.. tried to put a smile on your face everytime people look at you.. but inside.. you wish you could just shout and scream to reveal it all..
Well, what can I say.. this is one of the days when I just hate myself.. for not letting things out.. for keeping away my feelings.. for trying to make others happy when I'm not.. for trying to figure out the answers.. for trying to understand it all when it's just so blurry.. for trying to settle all my confusion.. all alone, by myself..

* I love the fact that we can talk about everything, but I hate the fact that I don't know how to let things out *

I KNOWW!!
Oh well.. should be sleeping right now.. I've been telling everyone that I was going to sleep.. but I just can't.. yet! Something's in my mind? Could be.. I don't know.. Heck!
So anyways.. just did another quiz! Weeee!!

Take my Quiz on QuizYourFriends.com!

Huu.. in need of a sleep!! Catch ya' peeps later~!

Current song : Stars by The Cranberries
~ and still I have my ugliness ~

Coke?
Hey heyy!! Pretty okay weekend I had..
Well.. heck! Gotta type this blog sometime later 'coz I've got loaaaddsss of Fundamental work to do..
uUuuU! I just saw my grades.. and I didn't get any A.. Huu! Just B+, B, B-, C+ and C.. Hihhihik!
B+ is for English of course.. yeech! No matter where I turn up to be.. my highest grade must came from THAT! Well.. thank God that I'm at least pretty good at SOMETHING! Ahhahhaha!! Later now~

Current song : Sincerely Me by A New Found Glory
~ I've had a hard time, very hard time.. seeing less of you ~

Sometimes I get so weird. I even freak myself out
Humm... Just woke up! Gosh! The day was horrifyingly boring! After class, I bought myself a sandwich.. and after I ate 'em.. what did I do? SLEEP!! Ana is sleeping as well.. Hihhihik! I don't know.. somehow I feel like my cheeks are 'fatter'. Ehheheh!! Uuuu.. tembam tembam
Huwaaaaaaaa!! I am so *demm* bored!! This is like.. the most boring Friday I ever had!! Huwaaaaa!! The listening test for English this morning was pretty okay. Though.. I have to say that I have to improve my vocabulary 'coz I actually had to assume the meanings of some words. Blueerrghh! I hate to admit that I don't know about something. Sheesh!!
Humm.. sheesh! I may not be able to be on strike lahh!! Probably going back home this afternoon.. So much for merajuk! I hate when I'm not able to make my point!!
Ayyayya!! I don't know why I'm just so crazy for Avril's songs.. AHAHHAHA!! Noooo.. I'm not crazy about her.. but her songs! Oh well.. I think I should do some of my work now.. Later~

Morning..
Cold! Scared to take my shower, really.. Huuu! It's going to be freezing, I believe. Huuu.. why should I have class on Fridaaayyy!!
Anyways.. listening and singing to such a cool song.. So peeps, spend some time to listen to my current song for this entry! ^_^

Current song : I Don't Give A Damn by Avril Lavigne
~ I'm not gonna cry about some stupid guy ~

Dull and dumb?
Huwaaaaa!! What a sleep!! It wasn't relieving at all!! I felt even more sad when I get up! I don't know... just woke up with a bad feeling! Huwaaaa!! Wasn't a sweet dream I guess.. Huuuu..
Well.. what a day! I'm fasting again.. but today seemed such a long day somehow. And I don't like it one bit! Have this feeling that something's going shaky.. and I hate it!! Today is not really a happy day.. I don't know.. too many things messing up my head! Urrghh!
Humm.. a pretty lazy day for me.. Just went to sign the attendance for Fundamental.. But English was kinda neat! Well.. it was hilarious but also embarassing..! Had to discuss about compare and contrast and we spent loads of time just trying to pick what sort of thing we want to compare. Our group was Juju, Aisha, myself, Majin, Sharul, Joey and this other boy (which I never knew what was his name!). At first it was only us, three girls.. so we joked if we should compare Kotex and Whisper.. Hehhehe! Then.. when the guys came.. they started talking about boxers and briefs!! God!! It's hard to believe that I'm mixing around with those sort of people! What's more.. even Ms Zaiha joined the conversation! They have gotten theirselves so deep into the topic!! Urghhh!! I can't contribute much on the topic though.. I know nothing (and refuse to know about it!) I was laughing pretty hard.. Majin even said I blushed. How can't I?!! I kept on asking myself how I got into those sort of conversation in the first place!!
Anyways.. Kinda just woke up.. and I just have a nasty feeling inside of me.. Gotta stop~

Current song : Ready To Fall by Meredith Edwards
~ I can't promise forever but baby I try ~

I'm on top of the world and no one can bring me down... at least not tonight!
^_^ So happy!! I guess the day is SOOOO alright after all!! But of course.. I'll be careful tomorrow. I mean, it's usually like that isn't it? If you get too happy at one time.. next time you'd get sooooo sad! Well, it's usually like that for me anyways! ^.^ Well.. I'm happy now!! Seriously happy!! No biggies! Oh! What am I so happy about? Well.. I passed my supplementary Maths!! I was able to tell my dad with much much much relief.. I know he's relieved to know that I passed.. yeayyy!! Hihhihik! And.. my pointers happens to be 2.76! Yeahh.. good enough for me.. right now! Nyeh nyehh! Happy happy happy!! HAAAPPPPPYYYYY!!!
And I thank all those lovely people who felt the same for me... Gosh!! Friends are truly indisposable! ^_^
Early tonight me and the gurls went to Dengkil with Alitt.. Sheeya, Fina, Mya and Azura in the Punto and Alitt was driving his friend's car with Ana, BJ and myself.. Hihhihi! Gosh! Dinner was waaaaayy GREAAT! Had rice.. 'daging merah', 'tomyam', 'tauhu' and 'sayur campur' <-- sorry! too lazy to find the english words for them! ^_^ Me, BJ and Fina actually had second round! Hihhihik! It was such a happy hour! And then.. when I got back.. I even got good news 'bout my results!! Gosh!! Friends are so indisposable! .. My dream came true!! Thank You God! Alhamdulillah...! Sooooo super duper-ly happy that my dream actually came true!!! *September 29th entry* I dreamt that I passed my supplementary Maths but I was so worried to even imagine that it could really happen.. and.. now that it had happened.. YEAAAAYYY!! Bole joli!! Hihhihik.. No lahh! I am SO going to do my Maths properly next trimester! And I am SO going to try my best to achieve that 3 pointer this trimester! Let Papa see that his little witch is not so helpless after all!! Hihhihik... and they said that I can't cope with university life.. Well.. I'm still living! That should be a good sign, right? Hihhihik!
Humm... falling off my chair this morning was kinda worth it after all! Hihhihik!

Current song : Sweetness by Jimmy Eat World
~ I was spinning free, with a little sweet and simple numbing me ~
* humm.. where did I get that message thingy from, anyways?? It's making me wonder.. *

It was neat.. and I wish we could always be like that..
UuuUuUu.. can't wait for break-fast! Brape ari lagi kena ganti ekk? Ahhahha!! I really should keep track on the days! Silly me...
Tired.. that's what I feel.. but not really tired.. just a bit! Hihhih! Feelin' a bit tired getting all hyper this afternoon. I don't know.. the MUET doesn't seem to disturb me at all.. ^_^ Fundamental? Well.. it was... neat! Hihhihik.. well, I was bored most of the time, of course! But me and Ana kept finding some reasons to get out from the class and well... walk around! Hihhihi... Well.. all in all.. it was neat! *But the gurls were so.. urrghhH!! ~speechless~*
Humm.. going out for break-fast! Malee? That's what they said anyways.. Ahhhh!! Rindu nasi goreng daging merah!! Sedap laa gile!! Yeahh!~ Well, of course it's not confirmed yet!

Current song:Sk8er Boi by Avril Lavigne(see! I keep listening to her!)
~We are in love, haven't you heard, how we rock each other's world~

Is there anything else to be said?
Hohh.. what a.. umm.. crappy morning it is.. Had to woke up soooooooo early in the morning! Had to endure the super-cold water in the shower.. Had to endure my sleepiness while waiting for my turn for MUET! Yeech! Weird really.. everytime I close my eyes while waiting.. I dozed off.. and even had a wee bit of a dream! AHHAHA!! I kinda had a dream about snow.. silly huh? Well.. it was super-cold in that room too! My fingers became numb when I finally got out from the room. Everytime I touched Ana, BJ and Sheeya they'll say how cold my hands felt. Good thing Ana's hands were warm enough! Yeeheehee! Thanks Ana! Beshhlahh!
So how was MUET? I don't know.. but for sure I'm gonna lose some marks since our group wasn't able to make any conclusions by the end of the time limit. Yeech! Crappy lahh! But.. what the heck! I tried my best.. I know I did my best! ^_^
Then I went for the gurls' Fundamental.. (asked Dani to sign the attendance for my Graphics! Hihhii..) And guess what?? Got my 8th accident in MMU!!! (2nd one for this trimester) AHHAHHA!! How accident-prone can I get?? Well.. I fell from my seat as I was getting up to follow Ana and Sheeya. Stupid me..! I tried to jump from my seat when I know there are wheels on the chair, so it moved and gravity did the rest! Kinda bruised my elbow (but it's okay now) and a bit of my pride. AHHAHA!! Gosh, it was embarassing.. but I laughed anyways. Not to cover the fall.. but I just can't stand my silliness! Yeeheehee!! Honestly, I practically lay down on the floor and laughed at myself! Oh well.. I'm over that now. ^_^
Anyways.. going upstairs to Bahijah and Sheeya's room now.. Feel a bit sleepy really.. weird! I mean, I slept around TEN last night!! 'Coz the night was boring.. nothing good to do.. Let's just say that I went to sleep with such a bad feeling.. but I felt fine the moment I saw my computer! Why ahh??

Current song : Nobody's Fool by Avril Lavigne
If you're trying to turn me into someone else
Its easy to see I'm not down with that
I'm nobody's fool
If you're trying to turn me into something else
I've seen enough and I'm over that
I'm nobody's fool
If you wanna bring me down
Go ahead and try
Try.. and it'll be your big mistake 'coz I'll leave..

Current song : Tide Is High ~I'm gonna be your number 1~
Waduhh.. ape la tetiba teringat ape Kak Shima cakap smalam.. Wanie feminin.. AHHAHHA!! How funny can that be?? My sister's friend said that I was 'feminine'!! AHHAHA!! What? Just because I was wearing my boot-cut pants.. and a cardigan over my top.. I could look feminine?! AHHAHA!! What ever... I don't know!! It seemed like an insult somehow! AHHAHA!! I mean... feminine... eeeeww!! Hyuckk~! I only used that word for jokes.. never for real! And now, someone said I was feminine??! Yeoww!!
Remembering my primary school days... GOD! I am so relieved that I passed those days!! Can't imagine how I got that boyish.. hihhihi! Weird enough.. I even heard some years later that some people were scared to get close! AHHAHHA!! Gosh! Ain't that silly? And.. ahhaha!! Never mind.. I'll tell later... gosh! Hihhihik!
Well anyways.. boring afternoon..! Sleepy sleepy! Only Bahijah is around.. chet! My roomies are having classes! So.. probably... I'll get a bit of sleep right now..
Later~

Or am I already your number one? Ahhahha!!

Help me figure out why I'm stuck in the middle
Yo yo!! Such a fine morning it is.. I was awoken around seven.. checked my computer a bit.. and got back to sleep again! And again.. and finally stayed up around nine.. Yeech! Still sleepy.. somehow.. Good thing I'm free for the whole afternoon! Yeayy!
Just remebered that I practically didn't buy anything in Mid Valley last night.. I mean, all I bought was that Maybelline Lip Gloss thingy and a pretty neat bangle I got with Bahijah.. Yeeheehee! Oh well.. and I suddenly remembered the discussion me and my sisters had in the car.. Hihhi.. 'coz Jasmin called Nina while we were on the way and Dida then asked.. 'why can't guys know how to treat girls?!' AHHAHA!! Well.. they discussed some stuff as I just listened.. Still wondering if I should share it though.. maybe some time later. ^_^
Weeee!! Feelin' cheery right now! Had McD's chocolate sundae just now.. and then somehow.. I got involved to this year book booth where they took pictures of groups.. yeeks! I HATE TAKING PICTURES!! It sucked so much! Promising myself not to get talked into those sort of things again! Bluerrghh!!
oOooOo yeahh.. what was I saying? I had something to say but somehow I can't remember it.. sheesh!! I hate it when this happen!
Yeoww.. had to spend my 50 ringgit just now for my phone's airtime! Urrgh! Really need to take things easy! Bluekk bluekk (I'm 'bluekking' at myself)
Humm.. well.. can't think of anything else to say.. get back later~

Current song : Losing Grip by Avril Lavigne (what's up with me and Avril's songs these days anyways??!)
~ Why should I care, 'cuz you weren't there when I was scared ~

I'm With You
I'm standing on a bridge
I'm waiting in the dark
I thought that you'd be here by now
There's nothing but the rain
No footsteps on the ground
I'm listening but there's no sound

Isn't anyone trying to find me?
Won't someone please take me home
It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Won't you take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I'm, I'm with you

I'm looking for a place
Searching for a face
Is there anybody here I know
Cause nothing's going right
And everything's a mess
And no one likes to be alone

Isn't anyone trying to find me?
Won't someone please take me home
It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Won't you take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I'm, I'm with you

Oh why is everything so confusing
Maybe I'm just out of my mind

It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Won't you take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I'm, I'm with you

Take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I'm, I'm with you
I'm with you
I'm with you...

Avril Lavigne

No point of getting so worried..
Just got back!! O my.. what a tiring night! I am so sleepy but I better type this all out before I forgot the details..
Went to Mid Valley with my two sisters.. But then we parted 'coz Dida actually met up with her friend.. so me and Nina walked around with nothing much to see.. Hehh! Then at 8 something Ana called.. told me that she's also in Mid Valley with the rest of the gurls!! Yeayy!! Hihhihi...! So, around ten my sister left.. and I met up with Ana, Sheeya, Fina, Bahijah and Majin in the third floor.. Yeeheehee! Pretty cool night.. as the shops closed one by one.. we were able to skip around and well.. practically act as if the whole mall was our's! Hehh! Then.. since it was just ten.. they decided to drive over to Bangsar (which we found nothing to do) and next to Hartamas, where we had our drinks and a bit meal courtesy of Bahijah!! BJ roxXs!! Yeahh! Good thing the Milo wasn't THAT hot.. Majin actually suggested that I should ask the guy to bring some ice.. Hehh!
Then when it started to rain.. we left, heading back. Sang so many songs in the car.. had to endure one song of KRU 'coz Fina sang through the whole song! Though.. the favorite moment was the part when Ana, BJ, Sheeya and myself sang through Complicated.. I dunno! It was pretty neat since we sang through the whole song.. from the beginning 'til the end! It was reaaaaally neat! So anyways.. in mid way.. when we got to Cyberjaya.. Majin received a phone call.. saying Inarah had an accident! So, as a pretty friendly people who do care about the people we know.. we followed behind Katok's (is this how his name's spelled?) car.. only to find Inarah and her gang having their late meal in PJ! AHHAHHA!! What a night.. silly silly silly.. All those talks in the car.. Ihhihik!! Never mind that though..
Oh well.. going for the Graphic's second session tomorrow.. why? Well, it kinda hit me that I don't really need the rush to get up early.. and that I reaaally need enough sleep.. and heyy! I'm free for the whole day tomorrow! Hihhihik! Yeahh!! Well, gotta get my works done anyways! But of course I'll find some slots to play around! Weeee!!
Well.. okie then.. good night.. sweet dreams.. and may tomorrow be a much better day than today..! ^_^

Current song : Goodbye To You by Michelle Branch
~ you were the one I love, the one thing that I tried to hold on to ~

Should I care? You care, don't you? You want me to care about it?
What a news.. but I kinda refuse to care. I mean.. it's what you think about yourself that matters the most, right? If you keep on following what other people say about you.. you might as well commit suicide! There'd be no point of living if you can't enjoy yourself through it! Bluerrghh! So.. pardon me for not caring as much as others, wokie? Gedik pon gediklahh.. I'm not all bragging about it.. but what's wrong with that? If I AM what they said about me.. I still have trusting friends by my side.. And obviously those who said crap about me don't know nothing about me!.. and obviously not my friend! And so tell me.. why should I care, again? Hehhe.. Sorry if it kinda sounded *bitchy* but I believe only I can talk bad about myself! Hehhe.. and those whom I care, of course! ^_^
English was pretty neat just now!! I mean, I was hessitated to go.. but it turned out okay after all! We did some listening exercise and me and Juju made fun of the 'speakers' 'coz they can't pronounce right! Like Ms Zaiha said.. they were using 'artificial accent!' Bluerrghh! But it was pretty okay! Considering I can get real cranky when I'm sleepy.. ^_^
Can't wait for my sisters to get here! I really need to walk off my troubles.. Yeeheehee!

Need to clear up my mind as you have been messing it up for me..

Saturday = lousy day!, Sunday = bluerrghh!
Hehh.. That was my weekend! No, not that it's that crappy! Just.. some parts of it are just... pretty disappointing! Sheesh!
Woke up on Saturday morning.. got ready and went back to kampung. Of course I didn't stay for long. Me and Dida left for the cinema not so long after we got there. Sadly, Nina couldn't come along with us 'coz her fiance, Jasmin SUDDENLY decided to come over with his parents to set the date of their wedding. Sheesh! Not that she can't leave.. she could, but Papa told Nina to learn how to do that kuih kemboja from Embah (grandmother in Java). Why? Because Jasmin's family liked it so much!! Urrghhh!! Such a party pooper they are!! Jasmin.. Papa.. sheesh!! Anyways.. managed to catch Dark Water with Dida in Mid Valley.. It was pretty suspense! It's not really that scary.. considering that I managed to control my tears.. AHHAHA!! Well, the storyline is pretty sad.. I have to say that it's quite enjoyable.. but The Eye is much more scarier! ^_^
Anyways.. then.. humm.. the day didn't get any much better! Bluerrggh!! Buat sakit ati jek! I was pretty much ignored for the whole night.. and it's just so frustrating! I've been messaging some of my friends but no reply came.. Sheesh! So I was on strike for the whole Sunday. Turned my phone off 'coz I was pretty angry.. I mean, what's the point of having a phone if it doesn't ring?? Might as well save the battery for some other day! Huhh!! Only turned it on again last night..
Sunday.. humm.. was left alone in my home.. 'coz the rest of the family went for Dida's convocation thingy. Well, I amused myself yesterday.. who would've thought that I can get sleepy by listening to rock music? Ihhihihihik! I blasted the player and I kinda dozed off for a while 'til my subconcious mind reminded me that I need to pack up my stuff.. Hehh!
Going out this evening with Nina and Dida.. to make out the time we're SUPPOSED to spend together in the weekend (which was ruined by JASMIN!! Urrghh!!) But the gurls planned to go out tonight! Huwaaa!! To catch a mid-night movie!! Huwaaa!! Then.. I might get back here.. when they're all gone in the middle of the night! Huwaaa!! Well.. I'll think of something! Sheesh!
Going for English at four.. haven't finished my summary though.. huhhu! And that Jonathan (or was it John??) lecturer guy said that my color list lacks of five colors! Aiyoo!! So many works to do!! Haven't even finished my Graphics yet.. Yeeheehee!! So much of planning to get it done in the weekend! Ahhaha!!
Well.. gotta run.. get back later~

Current song : I'd Do Anything by Simple Plan
~ This could be the one last chance to make you understand ~

Don't you just hate it when you can't find the words to say??
Ever felt that way? You reaaally want to say something to the person in front of you but your head was just... *blank*! Well, these are some things you might want to do if that happens:

Wanie RUN!! Don't even go and see the person! Ehhehe!
Ana Sing or hum.. just to cast away the awkwardness..
Wanie Just smile for your own silliness..
Ana Don't make any eye contact!
Wanie Just stare into space.. ahhahha!!
Ana Play around with an object.. example: handphone, wallet, cup, etc.!
Wanie and Ana JUST SAYY SOMETHING!! "Hey, nice weather isn't it?" - "Remember yesterday when.." - "Finished your assigment yet?" - "Why are we being so quiet today??"
Ahhahha!! That's what the both of us always do, anyways! ^_^

Related song : Things I'll Never Say by Avril Lavigne
What's wrong.. with my tongue..
These words keep slipping away
I stutter.. I stumble..
Like I've got nothing to say

What's wrong with meeee??!
Hehh.. nothing's wrong.. I was just merely being myself.. "Lazy girl who wonders a lot".. Nyeh nyehh! Curiosity kills the cat.. good thing I was not born as a cat! AHHAHA!!
Just got back from class.. yeowwch! My tummy is singing! Bluerghh! I just send in my essay just now and left! Ms Zaiha is sooooooooo KEWWLLLL!! Bluekk! Dani can't find the class so he messaged me to sign for him. Chitt! I really should use that sort of tactic somedayy..
Hungry hungry hungryyyy!!
Bile laa Sheeya nak abess klass nihh!
Well.. gonna run.. nothing else to say.. Just loads of things to feel... hehhe!
Get back later~

"Tengok sape?"
"Takde sape.. takde pape nak tengok.. tengok ajelaa sesaper.."

GOSH!! I am so attached to Simple Plan!! Ahahhaha!!

Obviously, you thought wrong! Hihhihik!
Mixed emotions.. that's how I feel! I'm just extremely happy.. but I'm afraid to get so attached! Yikes! What if it doesn't go through the path I hoped it would? Humm.. I guess only time will tell.. Yeeps!
Anyways.. I can't deny that I'm totally tired from the day's activities.. But I am extremely pleased this evening! Hihhihik! Had dinner at HB1.. Amazingly.. there's so many things to talk about!! And then Majin came by after he had his game of rugby. Sebok suruh orang blanje! And since he actually wanted my drink.. I offered him a ringgit instead.. Hehhek! Gosh.. talked about so many things! Somewhat unlikely topics are included.. Ehh Majin.. Thanks ekk! For saving me from an extreme blister.. Uhhuhu! 'Coz it was pretty cold outside, I ordered hot Milo.. And guess what? It was *demm* HOT!!!!!! The first sip that came to my mouth actually caused tears to my eyes.. and my tongue felt pretty numb even until now.. Then Majin went into his 'gentleman-mode' and dunked some ice into my cup.. Yeahh!! Hihhihi.. Thank you thank you.. You're my saviour!! AHAHHAH!! Bunyik cam lain macam jekk!
And when I got back to my room.. the first words that came out from my lips was.. Aiyyakk!! Pencabulan hak assasi!! 'Coz Fariz was playing around my computer with that remote administrator thingy. Hihhihik! Then all four of us.. (BJ, Sheeya, Ana and myself) just watched where the cursor was goin'.. AHHAHA!! Cool stuff!!
Ohkie.. now I better start my other Graphics thingy.. Thought I should get it done by tonight since I've got nothing else to do.. Well.. minus Fundamental of course! I am toooooo *demm* sick and tired of looking at those colors!
Mengingatkan balek En. Anis yang dok nak tolong Wanie ngan Ana tadikk.. hisyy!! Sampai orang nak mengelamun pon taklehh! Dia ingat kitorang ni rajin sangat ke?? AHHAHHA!! Tak pasal-pasal jek.. AHHAHHA!!
Wokeyy.. gonna lie down for a while.. need to rest my back.. Have a pretty long night ahead for me... ^_^

But you seem to amuse me even more.. and that's why I like you best! ^_^

I was spinning free
Hohh!! Tiring day it is.. I was out my room most of the dayy!! And the heat was not exactly helping.. Sheesh! Anyways.. Fundamental was so-so.. honestly, I went to get my smart card while I was supposed to be in the class.. Hik! Thenn... humm.. went back to my room doing absolutely nothing.. and again went out for English. It was silly really.. Coz me and Aisha was sleepy.. that we kept on talking crap. Crap around with each other.. crap around with Ms Zaiha.. crap around with Majin.. There's this one time when Ms Zaiha was explaining about those Adverbs and Nouns and all.. So anyways, she asked us to give any sentence.. So we come up with "Sleeping is my favorite hobby" (Something like that, anyways!) And so.. Ms Zaiha kept repeating the sentence over and over again.. changes her question to which is the subject.. which is the noun.. blaa blaa... And there's this time she repeated, "My favourite hobby is.." and me and Aisha answered "sleeping"! And Ms Zaiha looked at us and me and Aisha laughed kinda hard. Ms Zaiha wasn't expecting an answer! She was just repeating the sentence to make us understand!! Well.. stupid.. stupid.. my mind was just OFF right there.. oOooOo yeahh.. maybe if you get the chance to see my phone.. you might want to, y'know! Hihhihik!.. It's being very funny! Hihhihik!
Well.. humm.. gotta run! Getting dizzy dizzy dizzzzzyyyy!!

Current song : Sweetness by Jimmy Eat World
~ Sinking into sweet uncertainty ~

They didn't hear that BJ.. did they?
Well.. gotta type this fast! Going for English in a few mins.. and I haven't even wear my tudung!!
OooOoO.. tiring morning.. urrghh! I have a feeling that it's going to be a tiring afternoon too!! Well.. I'm going for the afternoon Fundamental I guess.. may not be for the whole session.. but I may stop by or something like that.. depends how tired I am after English..
Oh well.. actually I have nothing much to say.. well, at least not for now.. but I really want to post in my current song!! AHAHHAHHA!!

Current song : Best In Me by BLUE
~ I don't ever want to lose this feeling ~

Are we more than just friends?
Empty...............
Yesslahh! That's how I feel 'coz I'm pretty much left alone right here! Sheeya somehow disappeared without any notice.. BJ and Fina went for the Alpha commitee meeting.. And Ana.... well, she's sleepin'!! Bluerrgh! I tried doing that, but then BJ called.. asked me if I could help her start her Graphics work. Of course.. right when my brain's fully funtional, wokie!
Gosh.. I am so bored! It's so frustrating!! Urrghhh!!

Current song : Help Me by Nick Carter
~ I wish I could define all the thoughts that cross my mind ~

Surrounded by kids lahh!!
Very tired indedd... just got back from foolin' around at the playground.. Yepp.. playground! Hihhihik! Of course I can't play much since I was wearing a LONG SKIRT!! Cam tak caye je ekk.. Wanie pakai skirt! Hihhihik! Such a tiring daaaayyyy!! Went for Graphics.. hang around the morning session's Fundamental.. Then went for MY session of Fundamental.. Menggatal nyer pasal.. AHHAHHA!!
oOooOo yeahh.. while we were at the playground.. while Fina, Ana, Bahijah and Azura were running around.. I got to listen to the radio..!! (Yeahh.. so what's new about THAT?!) But anyways... at first I had to listen to *NSYNC's This I promise You.. (which is not really what I feel at the moment..! Bluerrghh!! Tak pasal pasal otak slow Aiyyakk!! Memories!! Bluerrghh!) And then guess what?? I changed the frequency.. aaannnndddd... Sweetness was ON!! Ahahhahhaa!!! And then later BJ passed again the radio when My Friends Over You was on.. Hahhaha!! We actually sang the whole song as we walked back towards HB4.. and people were watching!! AHHAHHA!! (As if we care that much..)
AHHAHHAHHA!! O my goat (mmbeekk).. Sheeya's singing to Mariah Carey!!! Yeooowww!! AHHAHHAHAA!!! Okayy... saved by the cellphone! Yeeheehee!!
So anyways... been crapping around the whole day.. Especially to the lecturers! Ihhihik! Wonder what's up with me these days... Hihhihik!
Oh well.. what else? I guess I've already wrote in the main points for today... Hihhihik.. Of course there's always something else.. but.. hummm.. I just decided not to tell! ^_^
Oh yeahh.. just thought of sharing these words I got from some forward thingy my sister gave me..

Where there is pain, I wish you peace and mercy..
Where there is self-doubting, I wish you a renewed confidence in your ability to work through it..
Where there is tiredness, or exhaustion, I wish you understanding, patience, and renewed strength..
Where there is fear, I wish you love, and courage...

Ye ke good lookin'?? Ye ke? Ye keeeeee??? Ihhihihik! Padann ekk? AHHAHAHH!!

I'm staring at my feet..
Pretty much sleepy right now.. Slept around 3 something last night.. trying to get our Fundamental done.. and clearing/cleaning out our stuff out of the way. We did our works along the hallway, to be the truth.. (no electricity, remember?) So everytime anyone passes the hallway.. they could see how much mess we made on the floor. Hihhihik.. Well anyways, I wasn't really doing JUST clearing up.. 'coz I went to Juju's room and watched a couple of video clips.. Nyehnyehhh.. Incubus.. Hoobastank.. Avril.. who else, huhh?? Oh well.. it was pretty fun!! 'Coz Juju was learning the keys for the guitar.. and guitars are just sooooo.... ~aaaaaahhhhh~ Hihhihik!!
Yeah yeahh!! BJ and Ana are going for Fundamental for sure! Yeayyy!! So I won't be alone!! Weeeee!!
Anyways... reaaaaaaaaaaally sleepy right now... Gotta get some rest.. GOD!! Why does it have to be so hot!! Huwaaa!! I am SO going to sing through my walk towards the studio later.. Who knows.. I might get lucky and get it to rain! Hihhihik! Gosh.. I really need to remember those lyrics.. Hihhihik! Kept getting stuck halfway in my songs.. Bluerrghhh!!

Cause I know you're worth it..

Wing A can be so sucky!
Bluerrghh! I hate those renovations at the toilets!! Just imagine.. I had to walk over to Wing C just to satisfy my bladder! AHHAHA!! It sounded a bit disgusting, doesn't it? But I'm telling the truth!! Coz most of the toilets in Wing A is not working.. NO WATER!!! Huwaaa! Means.. I'm supposed to wake up early tomorrow and shower in Wing C.. Bluerrgh!!
Anyways.. I just noticed that I've been listening to punk rock songs these days!! Waaaahh!! Hihhik.. I guess the thing that amazes me about the couple of bands I've been listening to is the fact that their singer has a real nice vocal.. but they just had to 'flatten' their voice!! Hihhihik! Cool though... had loads of fun imitating their voice.. Yeeheehee!
Wokehh.. one down, one more to go! I'm gonna need to get the other song Dida asked me to download.. Bluerrgh! Mengade nyer pompuan! Of all the things she asked.. she asked me to get Justin Timberlake and Nick Carter's songs.. and clear up her inbox!! Jahat jahaaatt!! Mempergunakan adek sendrik! Tak senonoh nyer kakak! But I miss you anyways! ^_^ So pleased that I'll get to see you when I get home!! Tak saba betul nak balek Jumaat nihh! Lepas kelas jugak nak balek!! Since Papa takmo amek time petang.. Balek tengahari lahh!! Yeahhh!! So I get to spend more time with you!! Yeah yeahh!! Happy happy happy!!
Owhh!! But I haven't get my smart card yet.. Shucks! I hate to get my pictures taken! Bluerrghh!
Just noticed the 'templates' for the messages in my hand phone.. What a waste of space! Of all the 5/6 (??) templates.. the only one that I MAY use someday is the one with.. "Please call". Chett!! The others were like.. "I'm going to be late.." Blaa blaa.... bluekkk!! What a waste!!
Wokielahh.. Going to get myself drunk with my mp3s while trying to do my - ngok ngek - Fundamental..
Get back later..

Current song : Things I'll Never Say by Avril Lavigne
~ If it ain't coming out, we're not going anywhere ~

Even when she's tired from all the walking in the baking sun.. she still manages to give away her sweet smile..
Tired!! VERY VERY VERY!! Uhhuhu... felt like fainting right at this moment..!! I was just so forgetful that I forgot to bring along my keys when I got out with Sheeya just now.. So I went to the lecture hall again to get Ana's key.. Urrghh!! Soooooooo tired!! -_-
The electricity gone out last night.. hehhehe!! Pretty funny story, really.. but I can't say it right here.. Hehhe! I don't have the rights to tell.. hihhi.. So last night, Ana, BJ, Fina and I went to HB1 to get some air and drinks! Azura was there for a while.. but then she went out with a certain someone.. Hehh! And then Alitt joined us.. Hehh! Can't remember about all the things that the five of us crapped about last night.. But there was something about cows and goats.. tom yam bowls and soap boxes.. AHHAHHA!! Just some silly things.. but we stayed there even after they turned the lights off.. Hehhe! Mamak pon dah balek!
Honestly.. there are some more things I can crap about right here... but I guess I'm just toooooo tired to talk about the things I can talk some time later.. Ehhhe...
So, til next time!

Current song : You Drive Me Crazy by *NSYNC
~ You are the cure, and you know but you don't care ~

Let's kick a$$!!
Just a question... ever felt so furious that it ruins your whole day? Ever felt so angry that your heart beats faster just to think about the cause? Ever felt so mad that you just can't say anything about it? Ever felt so pissed that you could just strangle someone??!
Urgghhhh!!! How could you?!!!!!

English can be funnn!!
Heyy, don't diss me for this but English CAN be fun!! At least my class is.. Hihhihi.. Well, it gets a bit boring when we had to start working on some essay stuff..
It started off with a discussion about what we want to do.. That cause and effects stuff or compare and contrast.. So then Majin and I were into some sort of debate coz we wanted to do the different things.. So anyway.. ends up Majin won.. then we started doing the cause and effects.. Bluerghhh! So anyways.. the silly part is since Gabe kept on making the topics ended with 'deaths'.. Like... greed.. they became greedy for a wish to be rich.. and when they get rich.. they're unhappy.. they feel the need to take care of their money.. paranoia.. and they get insane.. which leads to - SUICIDE! Now.. that's the sort of things we talk about in class.. Even from the last trimester.. Death and all that has become the favourite topic in class.. the weird thing is.. all of the members in the class are all the happy type! Not at all the depressed.. Hehhe!
Then.. when we had to start making the outlines for our essays.. I get sleepy! Nyeh nyehh.. good ole Juvita, Aisha and Rina get to finish the work and our group became the first to get out from the classroom.. Weeee! Thank you loads gurls!! ^_^
Oh well.. I'm hungry right now.. But hey! Gotta wait for my friends to get back here.. Eating time became more fun when you're with the people you care! Hehhehe!! Ohana means family and family doesn't left anyone behind! AHHAHHAHHA!!

What would you say if I change my path.. away from you?

Because I'm a girl..
OooOoo yeahh..! A new week! Funny enough.. the three occupants of this room were late this morning.. Ana and I woke up pretty much late than we would usually wake.. While Fina wasn't even around by 8:30!! Hahhahha!! She only got to the room when me, Ana, Bahijah and Sheeya were walking towards the E-Theatre.
Lecture was normally boring.. hummm.. what more can I say? So now I'm wasting my time while waiting the clock ticks by for my class at 4.. Bluerrgh! Owh! I forgot to mention... that I got Ms Zaiha back for the trimester!! Hihhihik! We were all cheering when she informed us last week.. ^_^
Wokehh.. so anyways.. I'm kinda sleepy right now, but I guess it's too late to get a nap at this hour.. Sheesh! Soo.. what else can I say?
Owhh.. last night was weird..! Seriously.. Got extremely sleepy while we were doing Fundamental.. (Probably 'coz I got a bit fed up 'coz my color won't 'flatten'!) And people have been asking me weird questions.. And my dreams were all jumbled up while I was sleeping.. I don't know!!! Urgghh!! Everything just seemed weird.
Probably 'coz I got tired from running back and forth from my room to Sheeya and Bahijah's room.. hehhe! 'Coz we were all excited with that application Fariz gave.. so I had to run around to help the two get their thingy to work. Hehhe..! It was tiring, really.. Even got myself confused, trying to figure out their IP addresses..
And then there's this one time when Sheeya entered my pc.. and gosh, I hate to lose control of things!! Urgghh! I was pretty pissed really.. But finally.. I solved it all.. by switching off her pc!! Wahahhaha!! Neat stuff, really.. if you're willing to let people take over the pc.. Hihhihik..
Wokehh.. gotta run! An errand to do.. Aisha asked me to wake her up!

And I do get tired from waiting..

Just a thought..
Another week gone by.. a new day is arriving..
My heart beats faster when I think about tomorrow..
Will I change for the good? Will people treat me differently?
These are the things I wonder, when I think about tomorrow..
Had a pleasant dream this morning..
But I can't say if it'll happen for real..
I wish that it would.. for that means I'll have a brighter future..
It's a long way ahead.. but everytime I get to think about it,
I get scared..
Do I have enough will to go through it?
Or will I run away like I always did?
The things I regret keep bashing in my head..
It's my fault, no one else to be blamed..
Why should I go away? I could not say..
Maybe I'm just too afraid of what people might say..
I don't want to regret anymore.. but why is it everywhere I turn,
I'll always find it in front of my face again? And why do I feel like I'm going to run again?
I don't know when.. I don't know how..
But if the time comes, forgive me for what I've done..
Remember me like you do care..
But don't keep thinking about me in your days..
For I am not worthy to hang around in your thoughts..

Three girls in one room.. Hihhihik!
Wokehh.. goin' home some minutes from now..
Slept at Sheeya's last night. Honestly, Ana and I left our room around two in the morning.. but we stayed talking until about FIVE! Ahhahha!! Talked about so many stuff! Mostly about the things that has been bothering our minds... ^_^
Today's a bit silly really... Me and Ana only woke up when Sheeya got BACK from her class.. hihhihi! And Sheeya said that Ana did some weird thing in the morning which made me laugh so hard! Hihhihih!
It rained again today.. spent the day mostly in front of the window.. the air seemed cool!! Hihhihi.. Well of course me, Ana and Sheeya also used the chance to see who passes by the building.. Hihhihik! Very pleased to know that Ana seemed happier today.. at last.. at the end of the week... Kan Ana.. kan??
Eyyhh!! I need to pack my bags!! Maybe if I can still remember what happened today.. I'll tell you about it sometime later...
Well.. have a nice weekend!!
Probably I'll get back here on Monday.. Rase malas nak balek awal... Hihhihik!

It's mind-boggling but I'm enjoying every moment of it! Hihhihik!
Hello lovely people! Hihhi.. In a pretty good mood today, but I have to say that I'm still feeling sleepy.. Urgh!! Oh yeahh.. woke up this morning with a bit of a cramp on my left arm and few hours later.. I find it swollen!! Sheesh! Seems like my arm was bitten by something.. amazingly it even causes cramps! Well, what can I say.. I'm just simply irresistable! Even for bugs.. ahhahha!!
Got to go to Fundamental this morning.. Well, nothing much really.. Got to mix some colors.. got myself bored.. (coz I kept getting the wrong tones and I just can't seem to 'flatten' the color!) But anyways.. the day can still be considered as okay.. ^_^ I skipped my English today.. just decided not to go and hang out with the gurls around HB1 and our room.. Hehh.. Then at 2 I went to their session of Fundamental.. Hihhihi! Really.. I just felt like making myself bored all over again.. Hihhihi..! I'd have to say that I enjoyed my own Fundamental session better.. Hihhi..! Plus.. the gurls said that they might come over to my session next time.. Yaayyyyy!!
So anyways.. I'm tired of course.. just got back from Street Mall for an early dinner.. caught a glimpse of Winter Sonata.. Hihhi.. Sent silly messages to Alitt.. all five of us.. Sheeya, Bahijah, Ana, Azura and myself.. sent Alitt messages like - 'Alitt, jom kapel! Ekonomi meleset ni.. dating pon jadik ahh!' and 'Alitt, jom dating.. buat isteri pon ok gak!' and some more silly silly SMS that contains the words 'ekonomi meleset' and 'couple'.. Hahhaha!!
Anyways.. gonna sleep at Sheeya and Bahijah's room tonight.. Hihhi..! Though.. BJ won't be around 'coz she's going home!! Talking about home... hummm... I feel hessitated to go back.. urghh!! My dad's gonna ask about the Maths paper.. and I really don't know what more could I say... I really hate that when it happens!
Wokie... going to Sheeya's room in some moments.. if any of you guys need to contact me.. Just message her on Y! M, asking for this reaaaaaaaaaaally cute-but-a-little-shy lil' witch wokie! Hihhihik! Or.. well.. try again tomorrow lahhh!! AHHAHHA!!

What a dayy..
Heyy.. I do believe that I'm kinda sick in a way.. my body is malfunctioning!! Seriously.. I can't understand how it works anymore! Seriously.. I'd get sleepy anytime of the day! Even after I just had a good nap!! Something's not right is going on!! So.. forgive me if my mood changes drastically.. I'm sure it's not PMS.. it's.. something that even I cannot explain! Urgghhh! HELLLLLPPP! Every moment of the day.. I'm like forcing myself to keep awake! Urrghh!!
Anyways.. Maths paper was a nightmare!! Err.. almost cried at the end of it 'coz I was really upset.. And Dani didn't help in any way.. he actually said.. 'It can't be that bad..' URGHHH!! He seemed to be able to do it.. of course he'd say that!!!!! I just hate those too-positive-thinking-people!! Bluekk bluekk blueeekkkkkkkkk!!!!!! 'At least we die trying'.. ya lahh!! I'm about to jump off the window and commit suicide!! So anyways.. I haven't spoke to my dad yet.. just messaged him before and after the test.. he must've been really upset.. Apelaa nak jadik ngan Wanie ni??!! Sampaaahhhh!! HUWAAAAA!!
So when I got back to my room.. I burried my face into the pillow.. and then it rained! So I went down my bed and shoved the monitor of my pc away and sat on the table and just stared blankly at the rain drops.. Ehehhe.. somehow I didn't get pissed when Fina, Ana and Bahijah gets positive... And when the rain gets heavier.. we went to HB1!! Got ourselves some hot drinks to warm ourselves.. Hihhi.. Catch up on each other's news.. Since we're not in the same class.. Hihhi.. Truly cheered me up.. Even talked about our moms! AHHAHHAH!! Then had a bit of a walk around MMU.. ehhehe! Got back in our room around 8.. and had a bit of a Magee party.. Hihhihi.. while Azura was getting ready for a DATE!! Wah wahhhh..!! Tak aci.. tak aci.. apa lagi BJ.. jomm kite!! Guys-hunting! AHHAHHA!! Tengah tak sehat ni ade hati plak nak usha orang.. Yeeheehee!
So.. it's night.. And I'm feeling really sick! Really don't know what's happening... Heyy fellas!! If I won't get up by midnight.. errr... well, make me!!!
Oh my.. just realized that the star on my wrist won't come off!! Ayayyaya!

Current song : Anything But Ordinary by Avril Lavigne
~ Is it enough to die, somebody save my life ~

OH... MY...!!!!!!!!!!
I am feeling extremely pleased!! And I'm shocked with it!! OH MY!!! MY.. my.. my!!!
Even with the fact I'm having my supplementary test in a few hours.. I'm extremely happy!! Ihhihihik!
Why.. I managed to get the two songs that touched my heart in this couple of months! Hihhihik..
One of them is that song from Winter Sonata.. Well, yeahh.. I don't really understand it.. but I do know some parts of it!!
- sorry if I love you too much but I can't control it - AHHAHHA!! Neat! But the song is really sad to be the truth.. that's why it touches me! Ihhihihik!
And the other song.. is from that Greese movie.. Ahhahha!!
What's up with me and slow songs these days?!
Anyways.. class this morning was pretty fun!! We were making silly jokes with that Adobe Photoshop.. been messing around with some fruits and veggies! It felt fun again with Aisha and Majin in the same class.. we were pretty noisy 'coz we kept laughing! Hihhi.. and I was kept being interrupted with my Y!M that one of the tutors actually came to my desk and gave me a 'look'.. so what did I do?? I smiled at him!!! AHHAHHA!! Typically me... Anyways.. and somehow that tutor.. Dr. Hew (was it??) kept coming back to our (me, Aisha and Majin's) desk! Hihhihi.. why.. feelin' a bit magnetic, do we?? Ahhahha!!
Oh well.. gotta stop getting silly and check on some more notes! Bob pon messaged suruh stadi.. Hihhihik
Wish me luck!!

Current song : Hopelessly Devoted by.. (what's her name??)
~ I'm out of my head.. hopelessly devoted to you ~

The things I held back..
Ola! Still feeling slow... had a bit of a nap just now.. A very bit to tell you. And the funny thing is, when I woke up.. I asked myself.. "why did I wake up??" Hihhihi...
Gosh, I wonder why I've been having weird dreams.. like.. I don't know! It's kinda hard to explain 'coz it doesn't make any sense at all! Blueerrgghh!
Anyways.. feeling... kinda empty tonight.. why? Beats me! Heyy.. how often do you get that feeling.. when you think that you should just say the things you really wanted to say.. but something just holds you back?? Urghh! That's how I feel tonight, to be honest! There's this 'thing' that has been hanging in my thoughts.. but.. I just can't let it out!! Why?? 'Coz I'm just too demm ego about it.. Urrghh!! But honestly.. the thing is actually a clash of ego and shame.. AHHAHA!! I guess that's just why I can't let it out... as much as I want to..
Know what? Somehow I wish I could just ask the things I wanted to ask, when I want to ask it! Instead of holding it back.. and keep on wondering why.. Blueerrgh!! Know what?? Who knows... maybe one of these days I'll just let it out..!! Though.. I believe that it could be the most foolish day of my life history.. well.. maybe I could throw it all away.. entahlaa! How much I tried to brave myself to brought it up.. something will just turn out weird! Bluerrghh!! Papelahh Wanie ni ngarut!

Current song : Perfect by Simple Plan
~ I'm sorry I can't be perfect ~

Crazy feeling..
I have a very nasty feeling 'bout how this thing is going on... urrghh!!
Gonna go crazy about this..!

Current song : Anything But Ordinary by Avril Lavigne
~ Is it enough to love, is it enough to breathe.. somebody rip my heart out and leave me here to bleed ~

How Should Guys Confess : Part Two
Hihhihi... the final part of this cheeky topic! I guess I'd have to say that these are the quite 'casual' part of the topic..

As Juvita would say, you guys should at least make sure that she likes you.. even a little bit so the confession won't be such a shock to her.. You should take her someplace nice.. but act casually. So, no matter how the responses be.. you can still stay as friends. And she said that you should 'tell' her through actions, but not too drastic. 'Coz words can go wrong and gifts might gave the wrong hints..

My sister, Nina said you guys won't have to wait or create a special occasion to get it out your chest. I mean, save it all for the proposal, okie! So that strikes out candle-light dinner and that large bouquet of flowers.. wokehh! As Nina said, better make it a private conversation.. that strikes out while you're hanging out with loads of friends or the cafeteria.. Hihhi..! And, you really gotta SAY it! Make it short and simple.. Make it CLEAR, that's important!
Let me tell you how her fiance confessed.. well, not exactly confess.. but I'll explain that a bit later! Okehh!! Her fiance really like the number 19.. and so.. he actually planned of doing 19 special things in 19 days! Flowers on one day.. letter on a day.. chocolate on another.. but then somewhere around the 14th day.. my sister actually asked him.. "Awak ade ape-ape nak cakap kat saye ke?" Hoping that he'd tell how he feels for her ('coz she likes him).. And guess what?? He blurted it out! Hihhi.. Well, it's a pretty kamikaze thing Nina did.. I mean, by actually asking the guy, means that the girl has this feeling.. but she didn't want to waste it on the guy if he didn't want her. Get me? That's why she asked! ^_^ Oh yeahh.. like she said, you don't have to create an occasion, but your efforts counts, y'know! 19 stuff.. that's pretty sweet! ^_^

Hope all these is helping guys out there understand a bit 'bout girls! Hihhi.. I have to say that.. even if you have a bit of the feeling, you gotta tell her! Nanti melarat.. I mean, just imagine if you waited until that feeling grow.. and by the time you got the guts to spill it out, she doesn't feel the way you do.. hihhi..! Can you just move on with your life?? ^_^ Wokehh.. it's easy to dedicate songs to the girl.. (or guy, for those gurls who's brave enough to make the first move!) But be SPECIFIC! I mean, which part of the songs expresses your feelings. ^_^ Unless it's the whole song-lah! And letters are pretty good too! If you can write-lah! Hahhaha!! If you choose to write.. please oh please.. DON'T RHYME!! You might go from sweet to downright hilarious.. you don't really want her to laugh at your efforts, do you? Well.. just... avoid from rhymes.. just.. PLEASE!! I had such a funny experience about that one.. Can't stop crying when I remember about it.. (hihhi! 'coz I can't stop laughing!) ^o^ But... the thing about songs and letters is that, you'd still have to SAY how you feel.. 'Coz she'll need confirmation.. HAHHA! I mean.. if you talk face to face.. she can ask you if you're serious.. if it's just a letter, she might think it's just one of your pranks! ^_^ Crystal? oOooO yeahh.. YOU'RE CUTE is not exactly a confession.. since plenty of guys might've said that to her.. And you might want to repeat that you do like her.. 'coz there's plenty of like.. there's the 'just' like.. and LIKE LIKE.. Heehee!! Just ask me if you need to know more about the 'likes'.. hehhehe!!
Well.. just remember not to go too slow, nor too fast! If you act too slow.. some other guy might get her!! Or.. if she has the same feeling.. she'll wonder what took you so long to just say it?.. and ended with her running off with another guy who's brave enough to let it out! Hahhaha!! Too fast as in.. you went up to her and said I LOVE YOU.. that's just freakish! She might freak out and you'll never get to see her again! LIKE is much much better word, wokehh? *winks!* Oh yeahh.. I have a story about being too fast though. Actually a cousin of mine.. well, there's this guy.. He probably has been looking at her (my cousin) for so long.. and one day, he went up to her and actually said.. "One day I'll make you my wife" She freaked out, of course... but guess what? They're now happily married! Yeeheehee!!
Well.. just.. let it out, will ya'! It MIGHT hurt a bit (to your ego!.. or if she rejects you).. but it MIGHT also be the starting point of a beautiful story!! Yeeheehee!! Seriously.. until the moment you confess.. you'll forever be 'nothing'.. ^_^

Well... enjoy your experiments! Heehee.. hope one of those works for you!
Gosh, I need sleep badly!!

How Should Guys Confess : Part One
Hahha!! Now, before I get serious with my Maths.. I should get this topic done.. ^_^
Yeeheehee... ain't it cheeky?? Well, I've talked about crush.. I've talked about hints.. so I better just go through with the whole subject! ^_^ Anyways, this time I'm asking all around the girls so you guys out there could choose which ways are more compatible with you! Yeeheehee! And so this is what they said... ^_^

Azura said.. Hehhehe.. Eye contact is very important! So don't wear any tinted glasses when you say it.. 'coz she needs to see the sincerity in your eyes.. And.. probably you should say it in whispers. So it'll be like a real 'secret' between you two. Ahha! And probably, you also might want to sing her a very nice song.. Hihhihik! Just.. pick a nice place to say it... and tell her that she looks good. Hihhi...

Fina agrees that you should confess at a special place. Somewhere special, meaningful and memorable for either the guy or girl.. And cards would be nice too! Fina also agrees that the guys should say nice things about the girl. All that really matters is that you say all the right words and you're very sincere about your feelings..

Mya said she's prefer those romantic things like flowers. And as a guy, you should be sweet! And you should know how to play with your eyes... Hehhe.. And dress smartly! You don't really want her to go out with a scruffy looking guy, do you?? Aaaannnddd... Mya also said that you probably want to say it in public.. as in.. all the people around you are the witness of your feelings for her!

Now, Sheeya said.. before you confess anything, you should date her first! Take her somewhere nice to dine in.. and do dress nicely! And to make it all more special, get someone to play some song for the both of you!

Ana thinks that anyway anyhow.. you should get her to see the hints.. Make her see that you have some sort of feelings for her.. Y'know.. look at her and those stuff! Aaaannnddd... well, for Ana.. she'd really like it if the guy confesses under a tree.. (note: it's supposed to be romantic) And heyy! Just to make that hint obvious, the next time you have to do that public speaking.. talk about her!!

Honestly.. this is what they all said..! So if any of you guys like any of these gurls.. do take note! Wokehh!! Though.. I have to say.. this ways doesn't work for every girl, okie! Anyways... Part Two is from my point of view and my sister's and some experiences-lahh! So... probably it'll be up sometime tonight! Wokehh!! I need to get some shut eye now or I'll faint! Later~

Samui
Mak aihh sejuknyer!! My teeth is chattering!!
Dah berkurun tak mandi sepagi nihh!!
HUWAAA!! My chest hurts sebab jantung laju giler!!
Urghh..

Ayyayyayyayya!!
And now I'm glad I'm not sleeping when I really should..
'Coz now I get to listen to this one catchy song I first heard from Miss Teen.. Yeeheehee!!
Well.. I guess even with my eyes are puffy and my back aches like mad.. I'm still enjoying my time.. AHHAHHA!!
You don't really get to hear that everyday, do you? Hihhihi..
Anyways, this song.. it's a bubble pop - sorta though.. And the talking part is pretty stupid I have to say.. But heck! I think the song's pretty neat! Yeeheehee!
They're pretty cool in Miss Teen.. the boy I mean.. He's pretty good at making the moves 'manly'.. Nyehh nyehh! They were dancing to girls' moves but he somehow managed to make it guy-ish! AHHAHA!! I was pretty impressed, really... But sheesh! They're just kids...

Current song : I'm Gonna Make You Love Me by Play feat. Chris Trousdale
~ Yes I will.. yes I will.. ~
Yeeheehee!!

Sleep
What sleep??
I can't get any sleep!! URGHH!! It frustrates me!
It frustrates me that there's too much stuff in my head and it frustrates me that I just can't get my eyes shut!! Isyk!
Tak tido la gamaknye...

Current song : Hanging By A Moment by Lifehouse
~ I'm standing here until you make me move, I'm hanging by a moment here with you ~
Aaaahhh... Jason Wade!!!

Guess what, guess what??
I accidentally hit the bruise I got!! Gosh, it hurts!!!!!!!!!!!! HUWAAAAAAA!!
Can't my day go better.. not worse?! Sedeyynyerrrr...
Camner laa bole terpukul luka nihh..
Anyways, it's the bruise I got on Saturday... I posted something just some minutes after I got 'hit'. It's a stupid story really.. how I got the cut.. But anyways.. if you're curious where the bruise is.. it's actually on my forehead.. YEPP!! As if there's nowhere else to get a cut!!! Urggh!! Accident prone!
Did you know that through out the time I've been in MMU.. I've fell on ground level twice, fell at the stairs twice.. bumped my leg plenty of times, and bruised my forehead twice??! AHHAHHA!! Silly me.. the ground level ones are pretty funny, but the forehead ones are just too painful! Bluerrgh! Tolonglaa takde parut! Isyk!
Oh well.. gotta sleep! My eyes are getting puffy...

Sometimes I give myself the creeps..

Flop Poppy - Kau Dan Aku
Kau masih cantik seperti dulu
Saat pertamaku jumpa denganmu
Terasa inginku bersamamu
Tapi aku tidak seperti dulu

Kau senyum mesra
Mungkin entah mengapa
Tapi ku tak bisa
Pasti ada yang kan terluka

Jangan ditunggu
Pasti takkan berlaku
Walau ku cinta kamu
Biar disimpan adakan sempadan
Aku dan juga dirimu

Kini aku telah berdua
Masa depan yang tak kita duga
Ku tahu kau masih mengharap jua
Tapi ku tak bisa meninggalkannya

Kau senyum mesra
Mungkin entah mengapa
Tapi ku tak bisa
Pasti ada yang kan terluka

Jangan ditunggu
Pasti takkan berlaku
Walau ku cinta kamu
Biar disimpan adakan sempadan
Aku dan juga dirimu

Yeah.. somehow I like this song! Heeheee!! .. After all those hours, I finally managed to get it!! Yeah yeahhh! Hanging around with my dad through out the break.. dah disogokkan with Malay songs! Heehee!! Maybe in these few days I'll post the other two Malay songs I like.. hihhihik!

Stupid connection!
Gosh! Now I'm getting pissed again!
I've been trying to download this song and the connection is not helping... AT ALL!! Urrghh!!
Sheesh!! Good thing I need to get on with the study anyways!!
But.... urrghhhh!!!!!!!! I HATE THIS AGAIN!!

Current song : A Thousand Miles by Vanessa Carlton
~ It's always times like this when I think of you and I wonder if you ever think of me ~

Yeah yeahh!!
I am feeling amazingly quite happy right now! Coz finally.. I found the song I've been looking for agesssss!! Well, actually 'coz I just forgot to find it.. but anyways!! I GOT IT!! I swear I could start a jig right now..! Yeeheehee!!
Wokie... gotta STUDY!! Hyuckks!

Current song : Halfway Around The World by A*Teens
~ Halfway around the world, I'd still be feeling the way I do ~

This sux!!
Gosh!! I believe I can really kill something right this moment!! Everything's just.... felt wrong!! Urgghhhh!! I HATE THIS!!!
Anyways.. I'll be having my supplementary Maths test on this Wednesday.. So I'm wondering.. how about my Fundamental class? AIYYAAKKK!!
Stupid.. stupid.. stupid..!!! Now I have another extra entry for the things I regret! Stupid!!!!
Urgghhh!!

I just hate this feeling.......

Yeah yeahhhh!!
I LOVE MY DAD SO MUCH!!
Papa beshh! Papa beshh!! Tak saba nak peluk Papa lagi!! Yeaaaahhh!!
Anyways.. seems that I'm going back home tonight 'coz I'm alone tonight! Ahhahha!! And the fact that I actually left some things at home.. HAHHAHAH!!
Papa is so great!!
O yeah anyway.. there MAY be a great topic coming when the new trimester starts.. Hihhi! I have this reaaaaaaaaally cheeky topic but it'll be better if I get together with my friends to talk over the topic! The topic I'm thinking of.... HOW SHOULD GUYS..... ahhahaha!! You didn't think that I was going to spoil all the anticipation, did you?! Ihhihihik!! Can't wait to discuss about this!! Yeeheehee!!
Oh yeah, that promise thing I wrote.. well, it's not about me okie! So don't wonder so much if *someone* did wrong to me.. I was only writing it because it's something that related to my sist, Nina and her fiance! Ahaahhaha!! Hamek kau! Yeeheehee!!
Oh and... there is somewhat a connection to my last messages at the end of every posts.. Hihhihi! See?
Love is overrated >> ego attack!! AHHAHA!! Just.... something..!
Oihh... ape laa mood change ganas sangat nihh.. PMS kot? AHHAHHA!! Things that guys just can't understand... Yeeheehee!!

Yeah yeahh EGO attack!! Bitchy bitchy bitchy!!

Promises are meant to be kept!
You know.. there are somethings people ought to know about promises.. hehhe! Just thought I should talk about this since *something* happened through the break.. Ehheh..
See.. you really shouldn't make them if you cannot fulfil it. Do take this seriously.. Just imagine the heart break you'll cost when you can't fulfil your promise to someone..
Humm.. now, not that I'm saying NOT TO make promises. Honestly, you should be brave to make a promise.. that shows your confidence in yourself and your will to actually make them happen. But you do have to remember it in detail. I mean, the people you gave your promise to.. they'd probably get their hopes real high. They may trust you with all their heart and they may rely on you to make your words HAPPEN! But please, no sweet talks! It'll only cost more and more heart ache if you make one bit mistake. ^_^ To be on a safe side.. make your promises short and simple..!
Wokeyy.. if you're not that confident about yourself. SAY IT! I mean like.. humm... how should I say this. For instance, if you promised to see someone on a certain day.. but you can't really confirm the time, CONFIRM that you're really going to see that person! Get it? I mean.. if that someone truly care about you.. they may wait for you no matter what time you're going to get there! Crystal?
Woraitt... enough said! I think you peeps ought to get the idea already! Can you believe that I actually take notes before I typed this out? Hihhi..! Just for safety precautions that I won't forget my main points.. ^_^

emotion sickness.. oh my! I'M going a bit ego over here.. why?!

JERK-ish
I am feeling a bit that way right now.. so I might act differently for these few days ok? Don't get upset/angry if I said or did something to you guys... Just... I've got loads of things in my head right now that I might just ignore your feelings.. Hummm... just... to be safe... stay away from me!!

love is overrated, isn't it??

F*
OH MY GODDDD!!!
I've just got here for some minutes and I've already got my first accident!!!!!
God, I hope it won't bleed too bad... it hurts like mad though!!
URGHHHHH!!

Damn!

Holiday Summary... some flashbacks banging into my head
Ola!! Yeeheehee! Anyways, as promised, I'm going to do a bit of a summary about the school break I had.
Honestly, as my dad was driving me towards this place... I dunno.. it felt strange again! usually I'd go like.. "Yeahh!! Cendawan!!" But this time, the sight of the water tank was like a stab in my heart! -_-
Let's just say.. that the break wasn't so bad after all! (Surprisingly!) I mean, with the so many free time in hand, I get to do a bit of self-discovery! Truly... something! ^_^ Y'know, by lying in my bed.. with my diary/scrapbook in front of me.. I can say that I've found out what I am afraid of.. I've learn to appreciate the things people had done to me.. and I realize about the things that I regret the most.. (which I really have to make up for it if I ever get the chance!) So.. hanging around wasn't bad at all! ^_^ Though.. through all the self-discovery 'sessions' still cannot explain what I truly want! Urghh! My biggest problem in life! Sheesh!
And telly wasn't too bad as well if I manage to get up from my bed early.. Hihhi.. And amazingly, I CAN get up by 9 am.. and straight towards the telly I go.. to see if there's any new vids on ntv7! Hihhi...! And I have to say that I am VERRY satisfied 'coz they got new vids!! Yeeheehee!! And surprisingly, they listed the videos the way I listed it in my playlist! Yeeheehee!! ^_^ There's this one time, I even shriecked 'coz after Hoobastank's Running Away.. Silverchair's Without You was on!!!! Ayayyayyaya!! Such a happy morning it was... ^o^
So other than that, I got to bully my cats as usual.. Hihhik! Well.. it costed me some blood to be honest! Got scratches on my arm and believe it or not, on my right ear too!! Ahhahha!! Dumb. One of my cats scratch my ear.. but all I feel was this sting on it so I ran my fingers on my ear.. and guess what I found? BLOOD! Ahhahha!! Dumb again for me! Well, I have to say that for an ear.. there was quite a lot of blood! ^.^
Oh.. ohh! If anyone have ever said to you that they got cramps from using the computer but you didn't believe it.. BELIEVE IT!! 'Coz other than lying in my bed.. and do some silly stuff around the house, I keep on coming back in front of the pc, and it made an aching pain to my shoulders, kaki kebas, cramps on my right arm (twice!) and of course.. neck pain. Uhhuhu! Dumb! Well of course, that's just one of the silly things I've done.. ^_^ Honestly, what I did in front of the pc was just trying to complete my website.. listen to music.. play solitaire and hearts.. and of course, MELALAK!! Yeahh!! Of course it's more enjoyable when I'm alone in the house.. which is almost every morning!! YEAHH!! Without my dad around, I get to sing like $hit who doesn't care about anything at all.. Yeeheehee! I have to say that the best songs were I'm Just A Kid ('coz it said fu*k which I can sing freely!), Complicated ('coz I can get angry like the way Avril sings it!), Love Left For Me ('coz I REALLY don't know the lyrics.. AKA I got to ruin the song!!) and all the other songs which requires me to sing in high pitch.. AHHAHHA!! Totally horrible! Honestly, there's this one day when I was left alone 'til the evening.. hihhik! I had to keet quiet for a few hours afterwards 'coz my voice cords were too strained that my voice became hoarse! Ahhahha!! Had soar throat for a whole night.. Yeeheehee! O yeah, I also got to find out that if I stay tooooooooooo long in front of the pc, I feel like throwing up. Hihhi..!
And anyways, yesterday was a pretty interesting day.. (no, I'm not talking about when I found out my results!!) I sorta saw Wanita Hari Ini on telly and they're actually discussing about Internet Love! AHHAHA!! I know I smacked my forehead the moment I saw the topic and I was like.. giggling like mad. AHHAHHA!! Me and the internet..... it's a curse I'm telling you!! Years passed by and still.. AHHAHHA!! (If you don't get this part, don't bother!) So anyway, expect me not to chat so much after this.. I need to study on my Maths anyways.. Oh, then I went to my mom's office and there's this one guy actually said.. "Perempuan ni kalau baru bangun tido teruk ek?" AHHAHHA!! And I remembered all the times my friends phoned me while I was sleeping. I must've sounded horrible.. yeech! Well.. it's like.. err.. I have a tendency to sleep-talk so I had to talk real slow to make sure that I won't go talking all crap that you won't understand! Yeeheehee! Though... I have to say thanks to all who continued on talking to me even though they knew they just woke me up! Hihhi.. it's not like I can get back to sleep, anyways! ^_^ DOMO!
Wokehh.. I also found out that my dad actually trusts me enough to let me go to KL all alone. Hihhik! We were in the car heading towards the commuter station and I just suddenly asked, "Aren't you afraid of letting your daughter going to KL alone?" Ehheh! It was a bit of a pleasant shock to me.. memandangkan Papa sebenanye cadang cume kasi Wanie kuar bile dah Form 4. And in just two years he trusts me to go out alone. A funny story really... about my tween-life. I like to ask my dad silly/stupid questions like.. what age would you let me go out.. outside Shah Alam with my friends - which he at first said Form Three and when I got to Form Three he said Form Four! (Though.. of course, I seldom listen to anyone, so why start then? ihhhihik!) O yeahh, I also once asked him when will he let me to have a boyfriend - which I can still remember the answer and my reaction, but you may not want to know about it! Hihhi..silly! Anyways, I didn't went out with my friends only when I got F3 of F4.. nu-uhh..! Hihhik.. I remembered the first time I went out.. secretly with Nani and Zeida. I was in Standard Six back then! Yeeheehee! Then.. another secret one while I was in Form One.. I went out with Musz and my dad found it out from her dad!! Ahhaha!! Kantoi giler mase tu.. Papa tanye, rase cam kecut nak jawab! Terkejut giloss.. rupenye ayah Musz bagitau.. ampehh!! But anyway, Papa only found that out when I was in Form Two.. Yeeheehee!!
Oh well, sorry for a bit of de-tour from the main subject! So anyway, the point is.. PAPA TRUSTS ME ENOUGH! Hihhihik! Know what? What surprises me is the fact that there's this time in the car when I did some silly/stupid jokes, Papa asked Nina if she would believe that I'm actually in a university if she didn't knew me. Well anyways, Papa said that if he didn't knew me.. he'd thought that I look more alike a Form Three student! Wahhahha!! So.. does that mean he actually trusts me since I was in F3?? Hihhihik! Gosh! Now I'm thinking about that year!! Aaaaahhh.. F3, besshhnyeeerrr!! Rase cam nak patah balek, tapi takdelaa sangat.. But F3 memang beshh!! Tahun paling mengarut but paling besh! Takleh kira brape banyak kali Wanie memalukan diri.. dan dengan bantuan Azraai!! Ahhahha!! Lawaknyer bile ingat balek.. Tahun BA kan tu.. BARAI?! Ahhahha!! I can't help smiling when I think about 1999.. Hihhihik! The best year of my tween-life!!
Oh well.. I should stop.. or I'd talk more about Form Three.. I have to admit that I might not stop if I really started! ^o^

Current song : Quizzical by Juliet de Orange
~ Is this what you truly want for a girlfriend or am I just someone you find pretty cute for a good time.. ~

Bluerghhhh!!

WHY THE HELL MATHEMATICS ARE SO FULL OF SHIT?! @!#%$&*!!

damn!

Just something you might want to do if you're bored.. ^_^

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Unspeakable
Hey heyyy!! What's up peeps? Hihhik.. anyways, I'm at my mom's office again.. Have some things to do.. ^.^
So have you guys verified your 2nd trimester registration? Bluerrghh! I hate the fact that there's no free-day anymore!! I have classes on Monday 'til Friday!! Bluergh! And... like Ms Zaiha said, my group will be getting a new English lecturer.. and I got Ms Farihan! So.. anyone have any information about her? How she teaches?? Oh well.. gonna meet her on Monday anyways!
Well.. wokie, nothing much to say! I'll give you guys a long summary of my school break when I get back to MMU.. Hihhi! I promise it'll be BORING! Nyeh nyehhh...
Ta~!

She's not really THAT cute! Sheesh!

A very cool article indeed..
Hey heyy!! Anyways, I'm at my mom's office right now. Actually I had some business with the bank downstairs, but heck! So I came up to her office and hijacks her pc for some while.. Nyeh nyeh..! ^.^ Pardon me if this entry is going to be looong! I just have this urge to tell you everything that have happened to me since the last entry! Hihhihik!
Such a *busy* week I had.. I'm out the house everyday and I feel greaaaat about it! At least I don't spend the whole break just staying inside!
So anyways, yesterday I went out with Niez. Walked around Subang Parade with full stupidity. I mean, we were really wasting our time there, but I have to say that I might be coming back there before this break ends! Hihhi.. there are some 'interesting' things I can get from there.. Hihhihik!
So anyway, afterwards we hopped on the commuter and get ourselves to The Mall.. which was all the same.. BORING!.. since the fact that I've been hanging round there since I was in.. what? Form 1? Hyuckkk!! But anyways, so we went around looking for cards and shoes (Hanis' business of course!) while I kept tugging her into places with make-ups booth! AHHAHAHA!! Can you believe it?! AHHAHA! And.. we even get to met up Fariz 'coz he had some thingy at the PWTC.. ^.^ The second MMU guy I saw throughout the break. The first? HAIKAL!! Can you imagine?? Of all the people in MMU.. I actually saw HIM near the Asia Jaya Putra station just the day before! AHHAHHA!! <-- don't ask much about this part, wokehh! ^.^ So anyway, we walked around a while in three and got ourselves bored.. AHHAHAH!! And then Fariz had to went back to the expo in PWTC. :Þ
So me and Hanis walked around some more.. and got ourselves some ICE CREAAAMM!! *Yee hee hee!* Good ole trusty McDonald's.. ^.^ I just can't resist the temptation of a chocolate sundae! ^o^ Bile laa nak gemok sikit nih? Then my mom left her office and met us up at The Mall. (And we had to tag her along while she looks around the handphone booths around the lobby! Blueerrgh!)
The jourmey back was pretty.. DUMB! Well, that's the way I see it anyways. It's not really dumb.. but URRGHH!! Such a tiring journey! First, we got to the LRT.. stopped at Masjid Jamek station. Got off, and we got into the PUTRA train.. had to stand up throughout the jourmey until Asia Jaya station.. and waited 'til my dad picks us up before picking Nina up from her office.. Blueerrghhh! Though, it was pretty amusing.. The 'scenery' kept me entertained and I can't help smiling to myself.. Hihhihik! *Crazy!* But I just HAVE to show you this simple equation.. seriously, 5:25 pm + PUTRA = SUCKY!!
Okayy, anyway! Just wanna tell you people that I actually broke that nose thingy on my specs last night. I seriously don't know how it happened, but it just seemed to fall off while I was twiddling around the somputer. Sheesh! But no worries.. ehhehe! Got it repaired earlier today! ^_^ Pretty much happy yesterday! Hihhihik! So many cool things happened.. I called Ana.. Sheeya SMSed me.. Whee! I'm not really alone in this world.. AHHAHA!! (Whoops, getting sillier!) Good thing there wasn't any 'freakish' messages yesterday...........
Wokehh! Now, if you realise about the title of this entry, I actually mentioned about an article right? So anyways.. just wanna tell you people that September's CLEO magazine is pretty much interesting! AHHAAHAHA! Why? Because there's this article which read.. 30 Secrets Women Wish Men Discovered!! AHHAHAHA!! And I have to say that I strongly agree on numbers 6, 18, 20, 21, 22, 24 and 26! AHHAHA!! Do you want me to type it down? Well.. maybe I should.. ^.^
# 6 Avoid the "I'm just a guy" defence. We'd rather you be creative and say something like "I realise I'm weak and pathetic and a slave to my monster. I'm sorry. I can't help it."
# 18 When taking her to a party with your friends, don't make it a test to see how adaptable she is. Introduce her around and pave the way. When she takes you home to her family or to a party of her friends, make an effort to win them over - it's just smart business practice.
# 20 *Niez' favorite!* Don't be petty. Arguments are about gaining better mutual understanding, not humiliating the other into silence. Theoretically, they're not about winning. That said, she is always right! *^_^*
# 21 *my favorite!* Don't blatanly check out other women. It's bad form and anxiety-producing and may force her to go off with another man. *AHHAHHA!!*
# 22 *my other favorite!* Instead of leaving voice mail or email, consider sending something via an archaic form known as a letter. *Hihhihik! Typically... kepada siapa yang tahu.. ^_^*
# 24 *most girls' favorite!* Get jealous. Not stalker-crazy jealous, but a little miffed on occasion.. *Hmmm..?*
# 26 Shut up and listen. Don't try to solve her problems; she just wants you to let her vent. On the other hand, she might also want your input and reaction, so it's up to you to figure out which applies. Remember details, the kind of small details that make a story special to her and meaningless to everybody else. Bonus points: Later slip one of those memories into conversation. *As I would always say... it's plainly SWEET! ^_^*

Yee hee hee!! Pretty much sorry for the loooong entry! Hihhihik! Not sure when I'm gonna update this blog again, to be honest! Hihhihik! Hopefully I won't leave it for long.. ^_^ And so, until next time.. TAKE CARE PEEPS! Hihhihihik!

...are you wishing the time would past faster too?

Bluerrghhh!
So bored at this cc!! Urghhh!
Ehh? Phone! Someone SMSed me!!
Hihhihi.. so.. current update : Dani's sitting on a chair, singing to an Incubus song!
Chitt! I guess he's really enjoying his break!
HANISSSSSS... moh kite blah! Wanie kesangapan disini kebosanan lalu kesedihan.. Ehhe!

This is the starting point.... when.... I.....

Those mixed signals
Anyways.. I'm at a cyber cafe in Section 2 honestly.. Just went to visit some of my teachers with my dear friend, Hanis.
I am feeling much better now.. I mean, I really think that the break is not so bad, until now. I mean, I do have another 2 weeks to go through! (Sadly) But to be reaaaally honest, I do think that I need the time off. So many things have been bugging my mind lately! Ayyayaya!
SO! This two days have been quite fun. Went to Niez' home yesterday. We talked and talked for about SIX hours! Even managed to hijack her PC for a bit while but seriously.. something's very wrong with that computer so it sux a bit! (Pardon me.. hihhi!)
Even got to chat with Fariz! :Þ Congrats for the contract! So I guess from now on, you're a very busy young man, aren't you? Hihhi.. Too bad.. no more playing around for you! ^.^
Anyway, my phone's pretty quiet today and yesterday. Blueerrghh!! No point of having a phone by the looks of it! -_- But to be really honest, I am happy with its presence! Hihhihik! I mean, I get to know when will my mates be coming back from their school.. hihhik!
Oh yeah.. someone's having such a great holiday right now! :Þ Dani told me that he's in Terengganu yesterday. Bluekk!! He actually SMSed me that he was sitting at a beach! Bleuurrgh! But I'm truly happy that someone's enjoying the break! In his call last Monday he said he's going to Thailand as well.. so.. contact him if you need something from there!! Ahhahhaha!! ^.^
Oh well.. good thing that the phone rings everyday even though not constantly... ^.^
Hihhihi... really not sure when me and Niez are going offline.. we're going someplace else after this, though I don't know where.. all depends on Niez! Hihhi.. Can't wait for my evil twin to come home! *Musz!!* She said she might be back for the weekend before her finals starting on 15th. Gosh.. when I think about it, I realize how much I miss the old times more and more.. When us three.. rampaged the school.. with nobody can really put us down! Ahhahaha!! How poetic can I be??! ^o^
So anyway.. I'm gonna leave this entry with a bit of a question for all of you.. If you were given the power to go back time, would you do it? Even if you knew that you will change the present... you won't get to know the people you just met.. and those recent memories you had with them. Would you push that away and get back to your PRECIOUS past??

..is making me feel unsure again!

Nak kena ada tajuk ke?
Gomen ne, Wanie-chan! Dah terbiasa, lagipon Wanie bole blaja sekali! Hikhikhik!
Ape lagi nak tulis ni ek?
Boring la takde benda nak buat kat rumah.. kan Wanie kan??
Wanie : ha ahhh!!!

Dahlah

Aaiiiyyakk!!
Ape nih Hanis! Dok campo campo Malay English Jepun!! Ayayayaya!! (Mare-go Ei-go Nihon-go!)
Yappari desyo! Naseb baik orang reti sikit tau! :Þ
Hontoni tsumaranai!! Yappari!! Ahhahha!! Orang reti gak tau!! :Þ
Wakatta desuga Nihon-jin janai! Ahhahaha!! I am so proud of myself!! ^.^
*please take note that the English after the Japanese is NOT the translation.. wokie?!*

Hontoni....

CAKK!!
Hihhihi!! Anyways, I'm at Niez' right now.. belasah pc dia sat! So it'll be short, wokie! Just a summary of my holiday until now.. Hihhihik!
So what have I done in this.. 7 days back from MMU..?
Absolutely nothing useful at all!! Wahhaha!! How pathetic can I be? Anyways.. I did went back to kampung in Bukit Kapar (Klang) 'coz there was a bit of kenduri. Ahhah!! Felt pretty much silly about it really, 'coz I was absolutely useless there.. Me and one of my cousins Sarah (who's in Form 2 right now) was like.. lounging around, chatting.. avoiding ourselves from getting any work! Akkaka!! Lazy girls! ^o^
And on Sunday, I did went to Kerteh to send away my 'perfectionist' sister - Dida for her practical. She's a Petronas scholar so she'll be there for about a year. Yee~ha!! ^.^ Well, I know one of these days I'm gonna miss her but for now.. It'll be better with just me and Nina at home! Ahhahha!! I know my dad's gonna miss her 'coz she's the only one who can drive the car other than him! Ikkikiki!! So I guess.. I won't be coming home as much as I would later in 2nd Semester. I'd hate to burden my dad.. ^_^
Anyway.. back from Kerteh on Monday.. I am feeling soooo TIRED!! A bit feverish to tell the truth. +_+ But heck!! I just gotta see Hanis!! Hihhihik!
And I'm officially starting to miss MMU. Why? 'Coz I've complained twice about the ice lemon teas I've bought through the 7 days! Ahhaha!
So anyways, going back to school tomorrow with Niez and... joli kite Khamis nih? Hihhihik!
Oh well.. I leave you guys with a line from a song I'm humming in my head right now.. Try and guess where it's from.. What if I don't wanna hear the things you say, where were you when I was needy yesterday? Hihhihik! This song is so COOL! Or should I say.. KEWWL? Ihhihik! :Þ

Falling.. so catch me if you would..