How did it turn out this way?
Saye nak naik gile dah.. seriousss!! Otak saye dah rase tak betul sangat sebab lately nih memang asyik cakap gedik gedik with my frens. Apsal aaa? I am, losing my mind!!
Got crazy people that I call friends.. Tadi lepas Authoring lepak lepak sat kat tepi jalan along side STAD tuh. BJ got herself silly by flirting around with the passer-bys. Maka, saye sebagai seorang rakan yang baik, pun turut serta! Check out smer yang lalu.. buat aksi tak snonoh sket.. ehheh~ You peeps really shouldn't start. (uUuUuu.. tak tahannn.. rRrRrRrR) Sebagai seorang perempuan, hehhe~ bolehla dikatekan buat malu kat depan Alitt.. but since memang tak tahu malu pon depan Alitt.. maka, takdelaa malu! AHAHHA!! Fina jadi tukang gelak je tadi sebab she was on the phone with Amal memanjang. Finally dared BJ to jump in front of any passer-by. Ingat nak suh buat kat stranger, but since blanje air je pon kan.. Takpelah~ biar dia choose nak jump in front of sape.. And kebetulan, Dar, Azarul ngan Fakhrul (ekk?) laluu.. dan BJ pon melompat dengan aksi buduhnye yang membuatkan kami (Alitt, Fina and myself) tergelak gelak. Sakit gile perot sampai kene duduk kat tanah tadik. Kamu ni bunguk la BJ!!!! Eyhh, tadi mase lecture Izuzi cakap pasal kite ke aaa? Humm~ tak terase langsung.. bukan kite la kot!
Still unable to stop myself from cursing. Kenape? Sebab bunguk/bongok/bangang/buduh tu cam minor sangat laaa!! Nak tak nak, terlepas gak! Hadoii~
Then we hung out at My Cafe when Sheeya and Farhana came to join us. Waited for Nana and Ana to join us after they got out from the darkroom. Lepak lepak.. minum minum.. borak borak.. tengok bola.. bla bla blaaa..
Humm.. really want to update the site's layout, taip tapi cam sayang lak 'coz I still like the simple layout! Camne yek? heehee~

Can't Get You Out Of My Thoughts; Dum Dums

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wahahhaha!! Kak Mai have a very evil clock!! It's an alarm clock that's very VERY loud!! Since we all missed our class yesterday, she locked her alarm and right on 8, it went off!! huwaaaaaaaaa!! I know I had a pleasant dream, but I've forgotten all about it 'coz I was so shocked by the clock!! hadoii~~ headache! --0835--
I am seriously going nuts over something!
Okay.. gi klass tadik.. boring je. Wasn't paying any attention at all. Why aa? Somehow my heart's not in anything this morning. Tried to remember what I dreamt of last night but all I recalled was Starbucks Coffee. Hayyo~ Pastu spent the rest of the morning bumping into Dar, Fariz, Ablen and the rest of the gang.. pastu tengok Ana ngan Fina makan donut dengan penuh comotnye.. hehhe!
Beshnyer dah reload my phone! Relieved about so many things these days.. Worried about some things, relieved about so many things.. So that should be okay, lah kan?
Waaaah~!! Dida's coming back for the weekend!! Sangat besh!! Tapi.. tengah tak sure when I'll be coming back plak.. Hopefully Majin bole confirm by Thursday. (please Majin pleaaaaase!!) Somehow I already imagined how I'd react when he said yes or no. Huhuu~ Perangaiku memang ugly.. But if he said no.. then.. Kene carik mangse baru lah kot! ekkekek!! Didaaaaaaaaa!!! Cam sanggup je dia nak bangun pepagi buta nak layan kerenah adek dia yang mengade nihh~
Whatever it is... I really really REALLY hope that I'd get the book on THAT Saturday! Been waiting for yeaaaaarss!! Sungguh tak tahan~
Get these songs if you haven't!! Been crazy about these lately.. hehhe~!
BBMak; Ghost of You and Me, Miss You More - Busted; Losing You, Without You - Counting Crows; Big Yellow Taxi - Fuel; Bad Day - Good Charlotte; Seasons, Wondering - Jewel; Intuition - Jimmy Eat World; No Sensitivity - Lifehouse; Take Me Away (Acoustic) - Linkin Park; Breaking The Habit - MxPx; Rock And Roll Girl, Without You - Simple Plan; You Don't Mean Anything - Third Eye Blind; Motorcycle Drive By
Tell me to silence my heart~
He Don't Love You Like I Love You; Daniel Bedingfield

And I laughed at myself..
It's funny when you thought you knew someone when you actually don't. And you'll get confused.. or you DO actually know them, but for some moments.. they became complete strangers to you.
Rase nak mati bile tengah konfius and sakit ati camni. Bukan menda ape pon.. but the things yang tak dicakap yang buat kite rase.. bunguk. I am feeling mighty stupid for expecting more than what I knew better. I guess.. sebenanye.. what hurts more is when you REALLY thought you knew a person tapi for some reasons, they changed. Kee.. selama ni diorang pretend to be someone yang pleasing? Or, I've been self-deceived all this while?? Bluerghhh~ memang rase nak ketuk kepala..
Trying to figure someone out is waaaay too hard for me. Though how much I try to avoid it, I still can't stop from trying to analyze certain people. And then I'll get confused.. bile confused, my mood will get crappy.. and time tuh, memang berjaya la for me to stop analyzing.. time tu jugak I'd stop caring! ahhahaha!!
Not so sure if everyone can relate to this.. but logically, it should. When someone that matters to you, said something or didn't say something that is out of your expectation, you'd get pretty upset. Though you didn't show it, there'd be a tinkle in your heart that said that it really matters to you, no matter how silly it really was..
Eyh, know what? If this wasn't my own blog, and I read this up.. I'd say that I'm actually in love with someone lahh!! Kan kaaann? ekkekeke!! But to get it straight, I've been typing this out bukan sebab something happened or did not happen between me and whomever I like lahh! It's just about someone that happen to matters to me. Sorang yang I cannot lose, somehow.. So, takmo la hilang!! Sedih tauu!
So.. the changes I thought I felt is freaking me out 'coz I don't want to realize someday, that I REALLY don't know that person. Memang selama ni cume bayangan of a person I cared jek.... okay? I guess that's my biggest fear.. Waking up one morning.. knowing that I only had the memory of friends but they're not really mine!
Baguss.. self-discovery di tengah malam. So what have I found out throughout the years? I have low self-esteem, very insecured, immatured, silly, spoilt, not really smart and some might even say dumb, self-centered, short-tempered.. so what's there to like? Rase smer dalam Friendster tu tipu lak. Ye yee je smer nak puji. Tak dapat pape la weeeeeiii! Kutuk la plak!! Kenape orang lagi suka mengumpat than just to tell the truth kat orang tuh? Sungguh Wanie takleh jadi psychologist.. rase cam Wanie yang naik psycho~

I wish I didn't knew of you so it'd save me from all these fears..

Miss you, I hope you're doing well..
Haaauuu~ been a very cold day, today. BrrRrRr..
Been doing nothing much all day.. Missed my morning class.. overslept! When I wake up, it was already 9! Hummph! But, paling kelakaa.. my whole room missed our morning class! Kak Mai also had class on 9, and Kak Siti on 10. But we all missed them. AHHAHAHA! Bengong~
Thenn.. what did I do? Owh! As we were walking towards MDP, bumped into Majin.. pujukpujukpujukpujuk.. Majiiiinnnnn!! JOM AA PEGI THIS SATURDAAAYYY!! Bleh dapat buku free kalo kite awal taaaau!! JOM AAA!! JOMMMM!!! Pujuk ape? Well, I'm trying to get Majin to get me and some others (maybe) to Kinokuniya on Saturday morning for the launching of Harry Potter and the Order of Phoenix. JOM AAAA!!!! pleasepleasepleaaaaaaaaaseeeee!! Majiiiinnnn!! Kang Wanie beg karaaaang!! Don't turn me down Majiiinnnn! Jangan jangan jangaaaaan! Nanti Wanie nangiiiiiiisss... huwaaaaaaaa!! JOM LAAAAAAA!!! Ayohhhh~!!
Okie.. I'd like to quote Che Mat's line this afternoon; "Girls and girls.. eeee~" Bengong~ Were briefed (spelling?) on our next assignment. Depth of field & Motion studies. He told us to go with groups of guys and gurls or it'll boring! cihh~! Sabo je laa.. And what else he said? He didn't want to see his students looking ugly (what word exactly did he used?) in swimming trunks so he told us to get in shape! AHHAHAHAH!! Klako la plak~
Database went.. pretty fine. I hate drawing those relations stuff, but takpeee.. sia-sia la kalo ade rumet IT tapi tak tanye ape, kan kaaannn?? Dahlaa Kak Mai pon kate "Database best aaa"! AHHAHA!! Memang patut ditanyee..
Oh well, the rest of the evening was boring! Main UNO ngan Ana and Kak Mai, tapi lepas tuh dah boring balek.. Mane taknye! Dok main dajal-dajal lak.. sampai kene amek 12 cards! chit~!
Saw My Bestfriend's Wedding for the.. I don't know! Brape banyak kali ntahh!! Kak Mai's CD.. and I noticed this neat line.. He have you in his mind, but me in his arms. hadoii~ So if someone said something like that to you, how would you react? Would you actually prefer to be in his/her arms, or mind? Kalau korang dah kenal Wanie, musti korang tau Wanie pilih ape.. HAHAHHAA!! So, I'm not gonna tell you what I'd choose..

Joel: "This song is about tortured love"
Seasons; Good Charlotte

crazy over..
1 - Good Charlotte!!
My playlist have been playing their songs for a straight 4 weeks now.. entah nape biarkan aje denga lagu diorang ulang-ulang..
2 - Guitars and guys that can sing! AHHAHA!!
I get a sudden shiver when I heard Take Me Away by Lifehouse, Bad Day by Fuel and Foo Fighter's Walking After You. Apsal aa? Dah naik basi dah lagu ni smer.. but still rase besh gak!!
3 - Strawberry
tak sudah sudaaah! Been spending the weekend by stuffing myself with strawberry-flavored ice cream and Chuppa-chups!
4 - colored pen
Been messing around with 'em and doodled on my own arm..! ekkeke!
5 - Big Yellow Taxi
haaau~ it's stuck in my head!! Still downloading this song! Just found out that Counting Crows sang it, so baru nak start download. Sape ade dah lagu nihhhhh?

lapa dan kesejukkan.. bencinyerr

wow!!
I just checked MMU's student directory.. looking for a friend's name, but afterwards.. I just typed around for my name.
When I typed ida, over 200 names come out.. when I typed hazwani, seventeen came out.. when I typed in wanie.. how many results came out? Only ONE! Only Ida Hazwanie je taaau!! AHHAHA!! I'm the only Hazwanie around here.. aaaah~ I love the E at the end of my name! ekkekek!!
Yippeee~!!

RE-CAP!!
Let's re-cap what I've had all through this week.. but first,
EPPY BIRTHDAY BILLY~!!
today's Father's Day, and also Billy of Good Charlotte's birthday! Turned 22 this year..

Monday
- went silly and created a discussion topic; Friends or Lovers. Joined by Dar and Ana. (Korang besh~!!)
- hung out at HB0 sebab rinduuuuu~~

Tuesday
- down with a flu.. yeech!!
- kene kaco ngan Ablen and Dar in the darkroom! Sebok nyer dua budak tuh~
- bumped into Shahnon for the first time!

Wednesday
- managed to finish the proposal for Authoring and kene puji ngan Hilmy lak tuuuh~!! woo~hoo!
- angau lagu Take Me Away by Lifehouse!! hauuuu~~
- saw Pui Sim!!
- nampak aje Shahnon around.. hummm? ekkekek!
- still down with the flu.. bluerghhh!!

Thursday
- menggigil-gigil as I waited for Che Mat to check my work.. hadoiii~ I hate doing work in stress!!
- Majin's birthday laaa!!!
- BJ.. heart-broken
- went pretty psycho!!
- had to go home 'coz I was still down with that stupid flu~

Friday
EPPY BIRTHDAY BLOG~!!
ahhahha!! June 13th! Genap setahun dah my online journal nih wujud~~
- Jasmin came to visit!
- stayed at home all day..! But flu's getting better!!

Saturday
- went out early in the morning with Papa to catch the sun coming up!! He taught me how to use Abang Kamera (my dad's camera.. bought on '83!! Gile antik maaa!) Agak manual..



(these were taken with the digital camera)
- finally remembered that I need shower foam! Dah abess!! Try pH 5.5 yang Soothing lak ekk? Lavender~~
- saw the picture I took.. lawa ke? Will show it when I've scanned it up, insya-Allah kalau rajen..

Sunday
EPPY PAPA'S DAYY~!!
Takyah celebrate pon, Papa tau how I feel kan kaaan? hehhehh! Why have Father's Day when you can appreciate them any rest of the year? Why wait for a particular day?? Takkan nak tunggu June 15th baru nak sedar their sacrifices for you??? Kan kaaan?? *hugsssss*
- saw Pacarku; Shaden's video clip at the end of Juara Lagu on TV3!
- bored all day long.. takde aktiviti langsung!! BLUEKKK!
- until... Papa checked the bank, and decided to go to Pertama and get Abang Kamera's lense cleaned, and get the filter stuff!! WAHAHHAHA!!
- kalo nak beli lense baru for Abang Kamera, it'll cost RM900! So Papa bought me a 2nd-hand camera laahhh!!! It's manual (good thing I already knew how to work one!) but good enough for me lahh!! woo~hoo!!!
- I have my very own cameraaa!!! And makan chicken chop tadik!! WAHAHHAHA!!
- HEPI HEPI HEPI!!

That's all, folks!

conversation of the day.. (Y!M)
wanie: adohh~
wanie: nak gi toilet
wanie: :-&
ana: same
wanie: (fina slalu buat gini)
ana: ohoho
ana: okeh
ana: jumpe kat toilet
wanie: :))
wanie: :P
ana: toilet jomm
wanie: jom jomm

ekkekek!! I don't know why I find this so amusing.. probably coz there's nothing much else interesting left to say! Boring yang amat.. dahlaa tengah sakit aje!! Things are pretty sucky these days. I'm gonna say this without much doubt - this is one of the most terrible weeks I've had since I turned 18.. ehhehehe!
note : rupe rupenye name tutor MCP kitorang is Hilmy and NOT Helmi like I've been spelling his name since the start...
Anta asenmen tadi.. nothing much to be proud of.. practically rejected-lah! Lega that it's settled jek. But nothing.. absolutely nothing to be proud of. Actually I'm even more disappointed at myself for making stupid judgements along this week. I hate myself for something.. just to save my butt, I did the one thing I tried to avoid. I am horribly disappointed..
If equal affection cannot be, then let the more loving one be me.. I heard this in Felicity some weeks ago. And I think I believe in it. I asked Ana the question I once asked Papa, Nina and Dida last night while we were sitting around. Would you rather to like or to be liked? And I'm still the only one who preferred to like 'coz Ana picked 'to be liked'! Apsal aaa?? I guess there's something in me that says I need to satisfy my heart. I feel the 'must' to like that person first. There's absolutely nothing wrong about being liked first. It can be that guy likes me first.. just I'd rather to have some feelings for him before I know that he actually likes me.. Being liked ought to be flattering right? But I'd probably wait.. Chloe Sullivan's silly for waiting on Clark Kent.. something that she can't tell if it would ever be! But if you're not in a hurry, why jump onto the first bus that came to you, 'aight? Humm.. I think like crap these days.. entah mengape..!
Suddenly reminded of some wise words that my sister gave to me, takleh tamak dalam bende camni.. hehhehe!! That line made me think about loaaadddss of stuff!! Thanks Nina!!
klaka lak rase.. tengahari camni pikir pasal menda gini lak! Kalo tengah malam tu cam paham la gak! ekkeke!

stupidly, i....

marahmarahmarah
wahh~!! Gaya baru nak break up! Send an email!! Woww~!!
Such a coward! It's one thing not to see 'em in person, but not making yourself available for a feedback is simply stupid! And no one deserves that! DUSHUMM~! (punching my own face for my own cowardly act some years ago..) Tapi almaklumlah, dulu email tak femes sangat, so I wrote a letter! WAHHAHAHA!! Adohh~ my stupid stupid ole days.. and I am still stupid.. bahaye nih!
So there's some people in Friendster post something on the bulletin board, about 99 Things Girls Should Know About Guys..? Was that what it was called? Anyways, so I remember this thing.. quite clearly. It said something like, when a guy lets his girl go, it means that he truly love her..? Something like that.. well, is that true?? Tadi Katock said that every one of the info on that list was true.. about the crying part, and the hand-touching. AHHAHAH!! Tapi.. that particular number, betul keeeeeeeeeee???? Bluerghhh! Nak kate laki suxX.. ade gak yang menarik hati! Nak kate I hate guys, I'm straight.. takkan nak ske pompuan lak kan? WAHHAHAHA!! Harini memang Wanie saiko laa..
It hurts to see when someone you care about hurts.. kan? And it also hurts to finally realize that you cared for a scum!
Honey, you know you're much better without him.. and he just proved that he's not worth your heart and mind!! Bluekk to all guys like that! Laiepon.. bole temankan Wanie yang single nih kan?? WAHHAHAH!! Pening dok tengok lagi dua eko tu berkepit memanjang.. ekkekeke!! Tapi besh gak ade orang leh bawak kuar makan cam tadik~! Thanks Ana & Jai!! weeeee~!
Today is Yesterday was officially a bad day for me. Dari pagi hinggalaaaah ke petang! The only good thing that happened today yesterday was Helmi's comment on the proposal. Selain tuh memang takde yang menggembirakan hati. Dengan kene carik frame laiee.. dengan sempat lapar lagi.. adohh~! Tak seronok! And I was getting so worried over tomorrow's today's submission that I was getting so cranky and cerewet over the things I did. Doing the stupid overlay was not fun at all!! Langsung langsung tidak!! A BIG no no!! Memang saiko lahh!! Maybe someday later I should change my web's name into something more like Kak Yan's Emorealm.. jadi Taman Saiko lak kee.. tapi, 'taman' cam hepi sangat plak! Reminded me of Sesame's Street in Malay version - Taman Sesame.. (yes, definitely stupid!!)
Haaa.. takmo lupe niihh~
EPPY BIRTHDAY MAJIN~!!
Tak tipu kan arinih b'day Majin? Kalo tipu, takmo kawan! Hummph~!!
Okaay, I think I should rest myself.. ade lebih kurang 3 jam nak tido.. actually takde slera nak tido.. but macam takde menda nak buat, and takot Che Mat bising kee if I look like crap.. adohh~! Che Mat cerewet nih.. making me even mengade than usual!! I HATE!!

woops~ otak saye tercicir lagi.. (lost my mind again)

Some friends are worth to be thrown
Some are good to keep
Some are to be treasured forever
And I think you are the one to be thrown..

in the treasure box to be kept forever

ahtchoo~!!
I think I got a cold!! huwaaaaa!! My nose itches badly!! Dok bersin bersin jek.. I HATE!! Feels like I should put away my nose for a while to relieve the itch.
Been feeling down since the morning. Can't really say why.. just a feeling inside that leaves me feeling MIGHTY horrible. Despite the scary news of MDP's submission, and Che Mat's judgements on those photogramme stuff.. sure kene rijek esok!! woo~hoo!! I can hardly wait!! It should be one memorable hour! WAHHAHAHA!!
Authoring tutorial went fine, but it's a shame that we got one heck of a computer. Slow giler!! Memang menguji kesabaran. Helmi kept walking around the class, looking over our (me, BJ and Fina) shoulders to see what we're doing. It wasn't all that bad, somehow. Blaja gak something arinih~ Then I went to show him the proposal me and Ana did, and he said it was interesting and he was pretty satisfied with it!! There were some comments about our target audience though, since he's concerned about the way the layout will be and it may not be suitable for some of the audiences. Takpe laah~! Kene puji gak tadi!! WAHHAHAHA!! It was surprising that he finds the topic interesting! Besh beshh~!! psst~ Helmi kinda hummed/sang 'la la la laaa' while he was clicking and waiting for a page to load up in our computer! He is human after all!! He showed some humanly characters in class this morning, but could he be an android? ekkekek!!
Maseh bad mood~
Owh! Yesterday was indeed Shahnon.. ekkeke!! I really have to sort out myself. Ape kene laa mereng pandang gile gitu.. Sori Shahnon! ekkekke! Dah banyak kali kene tego sebab selalu sangat pandang orang menggile begitu. Just last week Fina bising sebab mase tu Wanie ternampak Shahrir kat FOE. ahhahha! O ye.. saw Pui Sim when me and the gurls were walking down the stairs towards class!! And then, I think I saw another schoolmate of mine.. humm~ mungkinkah? ekkekke!
Really don't know why I'm still feeling crappy! aiisyyhh!! Tak besh~!

change of heart starts with the change of mind.. ye ke?

I try to make my way to you
But still I feel so lost
I don't know what else I can do

I've seen it all
And it's never enough
It keeps leaving me needing you

Hadoiii~! Ade adeeee je la Jason Wade ni nak buat orang angau! WAHHAHAHA!! That was a part of Take Me Away; Lifehouse. Sape tak penah denga laie, DENGA LAAA!!
Did the Authoring proposal last night with dear Ana.. can't believe how much fun we actually had! heehee~ keje tu sronok, cume nak start nye tuh yang malas.. hehhe! Maybe later-later baru reveal what we're doing for the interactive CD stuff we're making!
Okay.. going back to sleep now since class is at 11! Just got up to get the proposal printed (thanks BJ!) and listen to Lifehouse.. nyehheh!!
Tengah selsema/pening-pening/seram sejuk now nih.. So I don't think I'll enjoy playing in the rain outside today.. aiiisyhh! Tak tau ape kene skang ni asyik tak sehat~ bluerghhh!

clueless

ekkekeke!!
Okay, finally letting go that Friends or Lovers topic. Dah tak tertahan, kene gak tulis daily blog! ekkeke!! Actually, I really fond of that topic 'coz two of my neat friends contributed an entry taau!! So, besh lak rase!! Ikutkan ati, nak je start discussion blog.. get all of my bestfriends on it. WAHAHHA!! saiko~
Having an achy everything. Rase cam smer bodyparts nak tanggal..
Did the photogramme stupidly again. I am seriously NOT talented in those things.. I HATE~!! Dahlaa Ablen ngan Dar kaco kaco..! Tau la korang nyer lawaaaaa!! (curik pandang tadik~ ekkeke!) Seb baik Wanie tak tunjuk tau! Kalu tak, buat malu jekk~! bluekk~ I am SO terrible at my assignment!!! Tolooooooooooong!!!
Authoring lecture was indeed interesting as it usually is.. hehhe~ I really like that Kenneth guy-lah! He seems more humanly than Helmi who seems so perfect and organized! Sayangnye dapat Helmi as my tutor. He's okay.. really! But it gets a lil' boring as he ALWAYS has an answer for everything! Cakap pon tak salah tuuuuuh~!!! Takde pon cakap mengarut time kelas..! Kalau nak diikutkan, patut takde menda nak kutuk.. (memang takde) but I REALLY prefer Kenneth! heehee~ One thing pasal Helmi though.. I really like the way he picks for volunteers.. That paper plane was exellent! ekkekke!
Getting dizzy.. ngantuk to be exact! heehee~

kerang busuk~ ngaaaap!

Friends or Lovers
to be or not to be... that is not the question. the question is nak jadik ke tak. huhuhu.. bongok tak wanie?. hihihi....
it's going to be a very confusing moment for me if this situation happens. but i think if i like my friend and suddenly feel like wanting him to be more than just friends, i'll just keep the feelings to myself and wait for him to make the first move. hehehe. coz it's a very nice feeling having someone you love close to you at all time. things might change if he knows the truth prematurely. (tgh ngarut ke nie??..tapi cam logik jer). unless if he show signs that he is interested in you then it's not wrong to take the risk and let him know the truth (chewah cam expert plak..ngarut2 je nie wanie..tapi cam logik jugak..macam jerla tapi) buat ape nak kisah. if he/she doesn't feel the same way.. sekurang2nyer kite penah kenal dia. sempat nak gatal2 skit ngan dia (hohoho)..okayla cam nak dekat merepek dah nie..bye2
- ana -

Friends or Lovers
waaa,i really don't have any idea to write due to the topic, and i'm bad in writing!!..hmm...what would happen when friendship turns to love?? well,i guess there's nuttin wrong bout it, if both of them feel the same for each other, just go for it then.. maybe it will be easy for them as they already know each other well.. or maybe they will feel awkward, but that's if only one of them have such feelings towards the friend. i can't say that he/she need to think back wether he/she really like the person or it is just a feeling that he/she felt as they had become close together, because isn't that supposed to be in the package of relationship?? (ape aku merepet nih..!) if he/she is sure that the person feels the same way too, it's not wrong to make the first move (tak kesah laa yg buat first move tu laki ke pompuan asalkan sure) ..what bout if it's a one way feeling..? meaning he/she likes the person but sorang lagi yilek?? if the other person isn't into anyone, maybe he/she can lead the person to like him/her (kirenye buat baik + hints laa) akkaka....
but if that person completely ignored the hintings and dates with other people, just don't do that u-know-i-like-u-but-i-forgive-u-because-i'm-a-good-person face because to 'some' people that will annoy them n that will only make the chances less..
as for me, it all depends on...................~~
for further information, visit www.888.com ....dah panjang dah ni.. so baik blah sbb surely ade yg cakap saye ni merepek gile.. bye~
- dar -

Friends or Lovers
Dah lama tak mengarut.. So, let's!!
What would happen when friendship turns to love? ekkeke!! Okay, since I actually made some really neat guy friends over the years.. I think it wouldn't be too hard to say much about this. Practically.. I'll be talking about my fears, wokie! And my 'what-ifs'..!
I was thinking about three shows I watched throughout my life, one night. My Bestfriend's Wedding, Friends and Lovers (Japanese series), and the other.. I can't remember anymore! ekkeke!! The two I mentioned was about two girls and a guy, wokie!
Talking on the girl's side.. I'd say.. if a girl fell for her own bestfriend, I'd say that she'd be terrified more than pleased. It'd be nice to be with someone that knew you well.. someone that knew what makes you happy and upset. But getting to start that relationship, would be one terrifying experience.
Let's make an example out of Friends and Lovers. The guy and gurl was indeed a couple at first, and when they broke up they became best-friends. So it happens, the girl never lose her feelings towards the guy when the guy told her that he's in love with a new girl. She backed away~
I'd do the same if I was in her shoes. Honestly, what chances would I have against this new girl? If I was with him all this while - as his friend who's been there for him.. why wouldn't he choose me over this girl? I've been in front of him all the time, and he still sees the other girl.. I'd back away~
Sakit hati la jugak.. to see the one you like with another person, but what else can you do? In a way, I need to make sure that he's happy! Even when I'm not.. kan? That's the right thing to do, anyways!
As for My Bestfriend's Wedding.. see! Cameron Diaz got the guy in the end! Even when the guy seemed like he'll never forget Julia Roberts! They're very very good friends, and she did told him that she loves him.. but that guy made his choice..
Tapi kan.. Wanie rase, kalau pompuan single, she'd cherish her friendship more than any possible-relationships laa.. I'd say that she'd keep her feelings to herself and hope that someday her bestfriend would say something.. Like Chloe Sullivan.. (that's it!! The other show - Smallville!!) She has been into Clark since forever, and though she tried to show him how she felt for him, she never really CONFESSED.. y'know?! Still wishing that Clark would finally see her for real. (Excuse me, I'm still talking about the first season wokie! The ending of second season would turn differently.. nyehehh~) One sickening truth about girls.. Jarang beno nak take chances! Always keeping to the safe side.. Tapi kan.. Wanie rase laki pon lebih kurang jekkk!! WAHHAHAHA!!
Humm.. maybe if I get some guys' point of view, this topic would be a wee bit more interesting..

gelakgelakgelakgelak 6:50 PM
Thanks Dar!! Rajen layan kerenah Wanie ekk? Besh beshh~~ tapi, depends on.........~~ ape tuhh? Depends on what?
Aaaanyways.. I'm badgering on Ana to give her opinion now.. wahho~!!
oh yee.. warning : website Dar kasi tuh memang biOL!
ps= today's blog aaa.. boringboring.. slept at 6 in the morning and woke up at 8.. got headache during MCC.. only listened to the grammatical incorrect lecture about nept? nep?? amenda?? (see.. I don't listen at all..!) Was so into planning the Authoring proposal ~ kununnyerr! heehee~ tadi kene cobit ngan Cik Ummi..!!! nyehhehh~ o well.. will probably update laaaaater in the evening. PROBABLY je laa..
batokbatokbatokbatok 11:25 PM
feeling sick~!! what a stupid evening.. hung out at HB0 with Ana (thanks for the entry, Anaaa!! slop slopp~!!) and BJ after having our dinner, 'coz we missed hanging out there sooo much!! Honestly, I missed sitting there with the guys and their guitars! ekkeke!! Rindu giler.. bole juge dikatekan tahap angau~ AHHAHA!! So, after realizing that we're beeing the main course for the mosquitoes, we went back to our rooms.. And I went straight for my bed 'coz I was suddenly drowned with tiredness.. Pastu bile terjage, sedih giler!! The room was dark, no one was around.. and my computer was not blinking!!! Huwaaaaaaaa!! Sedih gile taaauu!! Dahlaa kene tinggal sensorang.. gelaap (sebab malas nak on lampu.. ehhe~) pastu computer bisu! I HATE!! Abehh window yahu yang besh! Aiiissyhh! Takdir Tuhan memang sukar nak diduga! ekkekeke!!

ADOHH~!!
sungguh bosan ini malam...

sekian, terima kacehh

Adohh~!
ahhaha!! Don't know why, but that word has been the most used word for me these couple of days.. "takleh nak install 3dmax laa.." adohh~! "sape leh tolong nih?" adohh~! "nak buat ape untuk 3d nihh" adohh~! "camne nak buat nihh!! bengapnyerr!!" adohh~! "maner smer orang?" adohh~! "sakit dada pikiiiir!!" adohh~! "kalau pasal awak nape?" adohh~! "camne nak anta nihh??" adohh~! "terbau awak kang" adohh~! And I'm still using that word frequently! Can't stop myself!!
Been spending most of the day sleeping. Didn't even wake up for MDP this morning, 'coz I was so tired from lack of sleep! (went to sleep at half past four) And had my shower and all at around 10.. but got to sleep again until 1 something when me, Ana and BJ went out for lunch in Putrajaya. Went to see those Digital Media peeps' works.. ade gak yang menariik.. tapi maseh tak rase sampai nak amek DM la nanti.. still open to suggestions.. Sape tau budak MI buat keje camner?? Nak tahuuu~! Wahhh~!! I must be lucky tonight~ This guy, Pak Long is majoring in MI!! ahhahha!! Gooood Friendster stuff! I really made neat friends! ekkeke! Aaaaaaanyways! Guess it's just my luck that when I got there, Shahnon and Kak Yan was not around to show me off their stuff.. and Kak Aleen was already on her way back.. tak besh~!
Okaay, suddenly I have a real shoulder pain. Stress? Entah dari mane la datangnye.. bluekkk!

I didn't mean to fall in love with you,
And maybe there's a name for what you put me through,
It isn't love, it's robbery,
I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me..
The Ghost of You and Me; BBMak

Guessing games
Adoiii.. what a confusing life I'm going through. It's SO confusing that you can actually relate it to having a crush! Y'know, when you like someone.. you're not sure if they like you back! So every little thing he/she did can make you think that they actually like you as well 'coz you can relate to the thing they did, when the truth is, they're just doing their everyday thing, and it has nothing to do with you! AHHAHA!! Bagos punye perumpamaan.. but hey! Having a crush IS confusing, 'aight? So.. that's my point! I have a REALLY confusing life!!! Entah kenape skang ni suke sangat buat perumpamaan yang bongok~
I was listening to Hemorrhage; Fuel just now and I got mad over the lyrics! It's absurd but I find myself hating this line now.. "don't fall away, and leave me to myself.." I seem to find myself that way these days.. by myself.. kenape? cube jawab sikit! And I was reminded of something someone said to me days ago.. what a lie! I don't know how I got this sensitive over measly things, but this really suxX!! Being emotional suxX! As much as I like being myself.. spoilt, silly, stupid and everything.. I hate the fact that my heart seem to overpower my brain! It shouldn't be like that, should it? Of course, if I listen to my head from the start, I won't be the spoilt, silly, stupid girl like I am right now.. but getting your brain overpowered by your own heart is *demm* tiring!! I am officially.. emotionally instable! Adoiii~

I want to fall away~

Saiko..!
Aaarrrghhhh!!! Why am I feeling like crap?!! I'm affected by someone that isn't really anyone in my life, so how's that possible??! I HATE!! I hate youuu 'person'! You're making my life miserable and you don't even care!! I regret the fact that I'm too trusting with people, 'coz it usually hurts me in the end!! I HATE!!!
What a lonely lonely day.. practically NO ONE was online! What a boring boriiiing day.. I HATE!!
And i still have my 3D object to do.. tapi application takmo jalan!! ARRGHHHHH!!! I HATE!!!

takde mood nak buat ape pon..

edited on June 9th 2003, 6:29 PM saiko tak tentu pasal.. nak kate PMS, tak jugak! memang mereeeng.. hisy~!

Half crap-half super~
What a day.. refuse to talk about the morning 'coz it's simply crap! Can't really tell about it or you'll see a hint of anger in the words I'll be using! So.. leave the morning out! It was simply crappy!
Can't stop myself from listening to Frenzal Rhomb - I Went Out With A Hippy & Now I Love Everyone. I think I like the song 'coz the fella got a bit of accent! AHHAHAH!! I mean, punk rockers usually sing with a slang/accent 'aight? And this guy's is like.. over-doing it? AHHAHAH!! Anyways, I like it! Honestly, if I wasn't 'saved' by the existance of 'menutup aurat' and 'adab', surely I would've been a punk.. 'coz I get jealous with girls that wear tank top and with extra piercing on their faces! AHHAHAH!! Terok ekk? So.. all I can do these days is color my nails in black! hehhehe~ Itu pon jarang dah.. sebab marker kene ciluk ngan sape ntah! Leceh btol.. nak carik real nail-color.. malas! Nak ilangkan pon leceh.. keje yang busuk~ Really can't stand the smell of the chemical used for removing the color!
Been talking to Syahrir this afternoon! It's nice to be talking to someone you've known for quite some time! Cite pasal bebudak skolah.. rambut Zooleak dah kembali normal ke?? Aduhh~ tak besh! Adam dah pindah Johor.. humm~ teringat time main lastik! ekkekeke! SO immature..
Oh ye, Fariz.. someone named trapzone sent you and Fakhrul his/her regards. (see over the chatterbox!) heehee~ Kawan skolah tak? ekkekeke! Bole plak main pesan-pesan ekk? heehee~

And I still wonder.. will I ever get through?

Wohh~! I guess I'm very much LUCKY!
So I was wrong about Kak Mai's name. It's actually MaiZATUL! ahhahha!! She's so neat and now I know why! It started with she.. waving about at me while I was SO into my mp3s with my headphone. When I lowered it down she asked, "Libra bulan brape?". So after answering her question, I asked her what's her star sign.. when she answered, I got pretty excited, and when I've calmed down, I gave her some bits of horoscope compatibility that I knew of.. so why did I get excited? Kak Mai's actually a Sagittarian as well!! And her birthdate is on December 15th!!! So I went to Fina's room (where there's BJ as well since she was locked out from her own room! Poor BJ~) and told them about the new discovery! And somehow we started on a list of Sagittarian we knew! Who was on that list? Ana, Musz, Ablen, myself, Michael Owen, Kak Mai, Izwan (BJ's boyfriend!), Dida, Brad Pitt and some other loads!! Besh taau~! 'Coz Sagittarians are cool! AHHAHAHA!! I have so many Sagittarian friends! I really noticed that most of my good friends are all fire elements! (Aries, Leo, Sagittarius) AHHAHAHA!!
Okay.. having a bit sore-throat. Probably from screaming around and laughing about! Had that quite some times this day.. So in conclusion, this was such a dehydrating, tiring and depressing day but full of laughters! heehee~ That shouldn't be right.. but that's what today was.. well, yesterday-lah!

bebola getah yang menggelikan hati~

EPPY B'DAY PAPAAA~!!
Quite a tiring day, today.. After meeting up Papa and Nina in the morning, I went to class.. without Ana by my side as I usually do. And I met up with Ablen who happened to be waiting for his guy friends to come along! And since I was alone, what the heck?! Why would I want to stay alone all morning, 'aight?! heehee~ Later, Ana came though.. late! But she came.. ^_^ O yeah.. note to myself : nak geram ngan Dar sebab dia cakap "takmo kacau korang" when we asked him to sit with us. Ngadeee!!
Then in the afternoon.. hung out a while in HB3, as we decided when to move for Pyramid. BJ wanted to find a hub for her room, and Sheeya also wanted to get her car washed! Bermasalah sungguh! Sheeya's car won't start after the car wash, so we went to Pyramid by BJ's car. Tak buat ape pon, lepas beli hub, masok kedai gitar kejap.. balekkk.. Had to go for Database at 4!
And now, I'm finally back to my room since the morning! I'm really REALLY tired! And I think I should get some shower soon.. Somehow I think I'll be getting itchy soon... aarrrghhhh!! Later~

bluerghh~

Wah~ emo juge diri ini kadang kala..
Just last night a friend asked if I get bad mood all the time, and I said "nope". Ye ke? ekkekke!! Okay, I do believe that I don't get like that so much, but when I do.. rase cam teruk! Sometimes I don't feel like I should give myself a ME time. ahhahha!! 'Coz I felt like I've given myself loaaads of ME time.. But.. really? ahhahahha!!
Went to sleep in a pretty crappy mood. Pasal ape? Malas nak cite.. And around 3 am.. that itch got to me again! CRAP!! Stupid allergy! I really should get to the clinic. Can't stand to scratch myself for another night! Good thing I got Mopiko last night, somehow tak perlu menggaru sangat bile dah letak tu..

No Sensitivity; Jimmy Eat World

well i've got my car
we could go and sit awhile
I know it won't turn over
but we'll get somewhere just the same
i'm through talking
the strangest thing but I feel safe when i'm lonely
don't take too much
cause you'll get burned if it's all at one time

the world don't spin without you
i'm amazed you're standing still
taking my kisses back oh
and I want my kisses back from you
no your problems they aren't problems
so be glad they never will
i'm taking my kisses back oh
and I want my kisses back from you

take it easy
don't you get it's just expression
won't you raise your voice
everytime a little dirt gets under
cry if you want
the return of no sensitivity
you don't have to scream
to say something that you honestly mean

the world don't spin without you
i'm amazed you're standing still
i'm taking my kisses back oh
I want my kisses back from you
and no your problems they aren't problems
so be glad they never will
taking my kisses back oh
I want my kisses back from you from you you

when you hear those footsteps calling
isn't it obvious, isn't it obvious
it's okay if you don't answer
I thought it was obvious, I thought it was obvious

the world don't spin without you
i'm amazed you're standing still
i'm taking my kisses back from you
I want my kisses back from you
your problems they aren't problems
so thank god they never will
taking my kisses back from you
i want my kisses back from you from you you

from you you you
from you you you
from you you

I want my kisses back from you you you

Must be a bad weekend.
While I'm writing this entry, it's not even half past six! So it must be a bad weekend at home, 'aight? 'Coz I'm already in MMU..!
Honestly, I don't know.. but I had to endure one itchy weekend..! And I'm still itchy all over!! I think I have this allergic reaction to something I don't know, 'coz I didn't get to the clinic. Why? Because I am one stubborn git, and I have a hard-to-tame temper!! A VERY bad combination, indeed! So, in conclusion, I'm still itching like h* and there's rashes all over my body!! Huwaaaaaaa!! Tak tahaaaaaaaaaan!!
Then, balek bilek, Kak Mai cakap.. "..dah tengok Finding Nemo! Best~" Huwaaaaaaaa!! And checked my chatterbox, Kak Yan already seen it as well!! Chit!! Tak aciiiiiii!!

hadoi!! gatalgatalgatalgatal!! Rase cam kucing lak.. tergaru-garu cam ade kutu.. akkakakka!!

Without You; Mest

I warned you I told you I'd be better without you
But you didn't care you
Told me I'd go nowhere if I didn't have you
But where are you now

I haven't seen you around you're nowhere to be found
I wonder what happened to you
All the insecurities built inside of you
Must have just blown up

Thoughts of happiness
Only when you reminisce
Cause now that things are bad
You think of what you could've had

Think of the years they spent
With no money for the rent
From the bottom to the top
They stuck to their guns they'll never stop

Cause I warned you I told you I'd be better without you
I wonder what happened to you
All the insecurities built inside of you
Must have just blown up

Now everyone has changed
But somehow you stayed the same
A life lesson has been learned
Your best came back and you got burned

What you done you try to hide
It's time to swallow your pride
You'll never change and I can see
When you said at least you're makin money from me

When I warned you I told you I'd be better without you
But you didn't care you
Told me I'd go nowhere if I didn't have you
But where are you now

I haven't seen you around you're nowhere to be found
I wonder what happened to you
All the insecurities built inside of you
Must have just blown up

And I wonder where you are sometimes
And I wonder where you are
Right now

AHHAHA!! Actually, I thought of putting up Wondering; Good Charlotte.. but I HAD to put this one up for SO many reasons! I was surfing around for infos on Good Charlotte, and especially on their collaboration with Mest and Goldfinger, 'coz I think it's REALLY neat! Having three bands doing a song! heehee~ So anyways, read up some loads of stuff 'bout those guys.. how when Mest was on tour with Good Charlotte, they'd perform The Innocent, or when Good Charlotte's with Goldfinger, they'd perform that track.. hehhe! beshh~ So I read up this interview by Music Head with Mest's lead singer, Tony Lavato.. and he was talking about their tour together, and he mentioned that there's this song he wrote about Joel and Benji Madden! AHHAHA!! So I just HAVE to hear it.. ekkeke!! I searched for it through Kazaa and found just one person shared the file - anastasiah3.. (I think she's a GREAT person! ahahhaha!!) so I double clicked at it.. and guess what?? It started downloading immediately!! And what's more amazing, with an average speed rate of 3.7Kb/s!! (About that-lah!) AHHAHA!! So, I just stared at the bar.. waiting for it to complete as I prayed that it won't get stuck in the middle! ekkekeke! And in less than 15 minutes.. I HAVE IT! Completed!! It was the most beautiful thing I've seen! ekkekek!! The song sounds cute, but this copy I have is in a pretty low quality I think.. Ade sikit bunyik dalam tong~ ekkeke!!
Anyways.. weekend's coming up! I'll be home in some hours.. hope everyone will have a GREAT weekend! Jangan lupa tengok Charmed malam nihh! ekkekke!!

Punk-rockers really love to jump around, huh?

Kak Sitiiiii, I DON'T LIKE YOUUUU!!!
Really, I practically hate her last night! Because of her, I was unable to get to sleep! Because of her, I only slept for 3 and a half hours!! Bongok~! I know I said some days ago that I hope I'll get along fine with my roommates (and I still wish that I will) but last night, I got to know that she's such an insensitive, stupid jerk! I HATE!! Okay! Nak ske Kak Mai je.. Kak Siti tak besh!! Bluekk~!!!
Good thing Kazaa was nice to me this morning.. probably 'coz it pitied me for not getting the sleep I need, so it completed 6 of my downloads! AHHAHA! Cukup puas ati~ Kak Siti maseh bongok la.. Added 3 songs in the GC collection.. downloading another 6, 7 files searched without having any results~ Tak besh! Tapi Kak Siti lagi tak besh!!
Went into the darkroom this morning with Ana. Kinda sucky since the chemicals smelled terrible.. I was so dizzy, that I was at the point of swaying around if not trying to hit something.. ahhahah!! Still haven't got any ideas for a theme.. so the work I did was.. terrible! Main letak je ntah hape-hape ntah.. perabis tiga kertas.. Memang tak syok, tapi Kak Siti lagiiiiiiiiiii la tak syok! Going into that room next Tuesday. Hopefully I'll figured out a theme by then!
Okay.. sleepy~ Tapi Kak Siti ade lak tido kat sini.. TAU PLAK MENGANTUK!! Ingatkan kalau dah bole bergayut telepon malam-malam sambil menggedik atas katil tu, dah hebat sangat la! Takyah tido kot dia ni! KENE GAK TIDO! Bongok~!! Hisy! I really need to control my temper, kan? Maybe I will start.. as soon as KAK Siti learn how to control her STUPIDITY!! ahhahhaha!!!
I can't believe I'm amused by myself~

Wohh~! Dizzy and sleepy~
Shahnon kalau nak lagu GC, Mest, Goldfinger - The Innocent ngan Weezer - The Fall, message Wanie tau!

Beshnyeeeeeeerrrrrr!!!
Ape yang besh? Teka sendrik la..! Skang ni sikit je menda yang besh, Good Charlotte, ngan Shahnon! AHHAHA! Bile dua-dua gabung, jadi SANGAAAAAAAAT BESH!! ahhahaha!! (cam lain macam la plak bunyinyer!) Skang ni tengah rase besh sangat sampai kalo bole, nak jerit! Tapi kang tak pasal-pasal Kak Siti kate Wanie mereng lak kan? heehee~! Tengah hepppppiiiiiiii sangat sampai malas nak layan English! Cakap Malay pon besh!
Dah ade 34 lagu GC! Heppi giler ni taau! Skang ni tinggal nak carik lagi 17! (setahu Wanie laa..) Hadoiii.. sedih btol Kazaa bunguk! Seb baik dapat gak lagu Wondering dari Shahnon! Lagu tu memang comeyy!! Sape yang takde lagi, sile lah carik!! Eyh kejaap.. sebagai spokes-person GC.. cariklah SEMMMUUUUAAAA lagu Good Charlotte sebab diorang memang besh!! Joel~~ ekkekek!
Waaah~! Mama baru call.. tanye dah sehat ke tak.. Cam lagi mereng jek! ekkekek! Dah okay sikit kot.. pening tak ilang lagik, uuh~ seluruh alam sedang berpusing-pusiiing! heehee~! Temperature pon tak normal sangat ni rasenye, tapi sangat sangat heppi, so malas nak kesah pasal tu skang nih!
Eyh, kalau rase cam Wanie makin keding ke kan, tolong bagitau ekk! Wanie kat MMU ni memang tak jage diri sendrik laa.. esyyk!! Orang tak buat crash-diet taau! Dieting is SO lame.. (pade Wanie yang skrempeng ni lah~!) Tapi sebab malas tahap maksima. Terok kan? Orang lain trying hard tak nak makan, Wanie.. malas makan. Aaarrgghh!! Teroknyerr!!
Ana balek dari kuar ngan Jai kul 10 lebeyy tadik! Wohh~!! Ganaszzz! Lama ekk? heehee~!

*blink* *blink*

!gnirob *mmed* os si sihT
Huwarghh! I don't know for how long I slept this afternoon.. Could be 3-4 hours. Why? Because I have nothing else to do!! I was so bored! And there's that dizziness in my head.. elok beno lah~! Bluerghh! Nothing much appeals to me anymore.. boredboredboredboredbored!!
I can remember all the things I did, this whole day! Waking up, messaged Ana, shower, went to her room, shared 'fresh orange gelas besa - ice blended'! with her while we're at HB4, saw Ahmadsyah, shook Firdaus' hands, chatting to Fariz, and BJ, talked to Ablen, got stupid files from Fina, putting up messages on Shahnon's tagboard about his site's ads, and on Kaoru's about Squirt of Finding Nemo, and.. sleep! Bluerghh! Buhsan nyer la idup skang nih~ Esyyyk!
Haven't thought of anything for my assignments! Going into the dark room tomorrow morning.. not quite sure what I'll be doing.. and Modelling assignment.. Humph! Dued on next Wednesday! Aduhaaaai~!! Dah tak sronok bile ade asenmen, dah.. ekekkee!
Kak Mai gave me an advice just now.. Quite interesting, I must say.. "Carik la pakwe cepat-cepat.. boleh kuar hari-hari cam kawan Wanie tuu~" Wohh~!! Bagoss nyer pesanan! Iyolah, akan dipertimbangkan, nanti.. Tapi takkan nak pakwe sebab nak kuar ari-ari? Tak baaaiiiiik.. heehee~!
Kazaa don't disappoint me noW!! I'm REALLY waiting for these two songs to get downloaded; Good Charlotte's Wondering (it sounds cute~) and Weezer's The Fall.. interesting line for the chorus, "I fell for you, I fell for you, I fell for you and now I'm falling apart~" ekkeke!

klakarnye majuk ngan orang yang tak tahu kite sebenanye majuk ngan dia~ I.D.I.O.T!

Now; Def Leppard

I wanna know you better, let's spend some time together.
I wanna be what's on your mind.
Look in my eyes, they're calling,
I need your love to fall in, if you could just give me a sign.

I can't get over, baby, I can't get over now
I can't get over this feeling I feel now, right now.
If the fire inside you feels like I feel now, right now
deep inside of me

I'm tired of make-believin', I'm lost and barely breathin',
I'm on the ceiling, help me down, yeah
so stop my heart from breaking,
I'll be the risk you're taking, and I won't rest until you're mine

oh, I wanna show you, baby, I wanna show you now
I wanna tell you, this feeling I feel now, right now
if the fire inside you feels like I feel now, right now
if it's love you're craving, it's a love worth saving

I can't get over, this feeling I feel now, yeah...

Now, right now
Let the fire inside you burn like I do, now, right now
if it's love you're craving, it's a love worth saving

Gosh, I love this song! Eyh, does anyone have it in mp3?? 'Coz I have it in Real file.. tersilap copy.. Geram sungguh! Takleh pasang kat Winamp! So jarang-jarang je pasang, sebab malas nak bukak Real Player.. Listen to this if you haven't! It's really neat! I really like these sort of songs.. Sweet lyrics, with rough music. Macam kalau suka orang tu, saje tak nak make it too obvious. Nyehnyehh~ Unlike Dida, she doesn't like these sorts.. Love songs should be slow.. ekk? Bluerghh! Boring~! Anyways, GET THIS SONG!!
Heehee~ Poor Shahnon.. takde letrik kat HB1 ye bang? Ekkekke!
Haa.. Dar plak mengade! Ajak Ablen hang out.. sesamer.. tapi dia kate dia tak dijemput lak! Ketuk karaaaang!
Aaaand.. thanks Fariz, nanti orang donlod lah smer yang direkomenkan tu.. kalau berkesempatan. Sakit ati ngan connection Kazaa yang lembab!
Ana's out with Jai, so I'm right here.. blocking my dizziness to stay in front of my computer.. Tried sleeping, but I can't seem to let my mind rest! GrrRrRR!
Oh! And how can I forget to mention that I met Ahmadsyah with his girlfriend Nur Firdaus?? AHHAHAH!! I think I somehow disturbed them, lah~ Ekkekke! Whoops~
And Fina lak baru ni kasi files yang sungguh buduss sekali! Arrrghhhh!! Geram~!! Tak tertahan nak gelak! Bongok~!!

hadoii~ FRIENDS are SO indisposable!!
senang sungguh hati ni nak terhibur~

Dumb Reminder; No Use For A Name

I heard the message then I rang it off the hook
I didn't get you til 1 am
Who was wrong and who was right?
And this distance caused a fight
Now I'm ready to give in

Honestly, I'd give anything to be with you right now

This town is full of dumb reminders
"Having a good time" can't you tell?
Hang up the phone and then I come back down
Miss you, I hope you're doing well

I'm used to waiting
What's a voice without a face?
I think of dying without you here
So I drink myself to sleep
And then I hide beneath a sheet
And I try to disappear

But I get up every single time
Cuz you keep me alive

This town is full of dumb reminders
How far I am from you in miles
If I could get what time has taken down
Maybe then I could see you

This town is full of dumb reminders
"Having a good time" can't you tell?
Hang up the phone and then I come back down
Miss you, I hope you're doing
Miss you, I hope you're doing
Miss you, I hope you're doing well.

Thank you so sooooo much Shahnon!!! Besh!!!! Dah brape kali Wanie kate Shahnon besh? AHHAHAHA!! Here's how the story goes.. he 'supplied' me some LOADS great songs and video clips!! AHAHHA!! Tengah rase hepi sangaaat! Thank youuuuuuuu!! Beshnyeeeeeeeeerrr!! heehee~ I am feeling SO happy that I can almost forget that my head's burning up again! AHHAHAHA!! Okay, I'll take some Panadol after this.. Hummph! Been practically 'floating' this whole afternoon.. still dizzy..

2 things~

Fuu~
Okay, feeling quite dizzy right now. But my body temperature has gone quite normal lah! Sebab tadi kul 12 lebey nak tido kene pakai selimut, tapi skang dah start peluh.. Alhamdulillah.. Sempat mengadu kat Mama tadi sebab tak sehat.. AHHAHA!! Mengade sungguh~
Well, that's all the update I got for this afternoon! --My fever have lessened!--

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Head is spinning
First and foremostly, I'd like you peeps to check out the time of this entry. HAHHAHA!! Memang seksa.. I WAS asleep for the past three hours, but I just woke up 'coz I am feeling reaaaaaaaally sick!! Tak penah rase cam gini kat MMU! My head aches but I just can't get back to sleep. Dahlaa rase sejuk semacam! Musti cam mengade btol Wanie ni kan? I'm even telling you peeps how sick I'm feeling!
This really suxX! Dahlaa this week orang stay sampai ari Jumaat! Saketnyer kepalaaaaa!!! Hope I'll be feeling much better in the morning.. serius tengah rase terseksa! Dahlaa tengah takde air nak minom! aaAaaAaaaAAaAaAaa!!!!

achy body and puffy eyes.. bluerrghhh!

Hadoi seksanyerrrr!!
This is one of the worst nights I ever had this trimester in MMU! I am like.. so *demm* tired, but SO stubborn to go to sleep! Bengap~! I still feel such tireness even after I forced myself to go into the shower!
Having loaaaaaads of self-triggered problem these days. But adelaa gak yang I have absolutely no control over.. bluerghh! For example.. the 'medical' problem I'm having these days.. my back hurts like h* for three reasons!! Stress, tireness, and.. some.. stupid thing lah~! Shiot jek!
Gosh, dahlaa gigi belakang ni makin tumbuh.. sikit-sikit makan, tergigit gusi! SAKITLAAA!! Seksa sungguh~
And I'm really tired right now.. Gi tido la Wanie!! Bengong~!!

nak dia~! ekkeke! *bleep*

Missing and lost..
What would you do, if you're stuck with someone you.. pretty much dispise (betul ke eja?) and there's no way to run?? AHHAHA!! I guess it's not right to admit this, but I always seem to avoid that from happening.. I mean, I avoid from getting stuck-lah! But I guess, getting stuck in that situation with someone else you absolutely care about is not so bad after all, ek? heehee~
I am so so SOOOOOOOO tired!! I was practically out the whole night! Teman Alitt gi Mid-Valley, he's looking for a new wallet. There was Alitt, myself, Ana, BJ, Sheeya and Azura.. it was a pretty nice walk, but so SOOOO tiring!!!
I am so pooped out, I think I'll be going into my bed to get some shut-eye. Tak larat nak mandi pon ni haa~ gi kencing okay la kot! AHHAHAHA!!

hayyo~

Benciiiiiiiiiii..!!
My Kazaa has gone slow! Very VERY slooooooow! I HATE!! And it was all fine last week~! Huumph! I hope some things WILL get downloaded later in the afternoon.. Right now, I may be getting a nap.. 'coz I don't know what else to do.. Bored!!!
Eyh, the month's about to over, ek? Gonna work on a new template soon! Wahho~! I'm thinking.. should I have 'witchcraft' as the theme, or 'Good Charlotte'? AHAHHAA! Still plenty of time to decide.. later peeps~
Have a neat day!

Current song : Seasons by Good Charlotte

Noise and Kisses; The Used

Look in my eyes
I'm jaded now
Whatever that means
By sharing these things
I rip my heart out
It's worth my time
Whatever that means
So...
Hard to see up
My neck feels stiff until I wake up
The orange I choked
And back to my neck
It's worth my time
Whatever that means
So...

Share with me
Cause I need it right now
Let me see your insides
Or write me off
Cause I'd rather starve now
If you won't open up

Give it to me
Give me all, whatever you want
It's never been me
To want this much, from you I can see

Share with me
Cause I need it right now
Let me see your insides
Or write me off
Cause I'd rather starve now
If you won't open up
you wont open up

Tears me up

Look in my eyes
I'm jaded now
Whatever that means
By sharing these things
I rip my heart out
It's worth my time
Whatever that means
So...

Share with me
Cause I need it right now
Let me see your insides
Or write me off
Cause I'd rather starve now
If you won't open up
You wont open up

Share with me (yeah it tears me up)
Cause i need it right now
Let me see your insides (tears me up)
Or write me off (and it tears me up)
Cause I'd rather starve now
If you won't open up
You wont open up

Tears me up

neat song~* and my idiocy have lessened! wahho~!!

aduhaaaaii~ ape nie blogger buat hal.. benciiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii

Sleeeeeeepy...
Wohh~! Can't believe that I'm really tired! Heehee~ Didn't do anything much, but still penat~
Just went to my usual classes.. oh! Bought that printing paper.. and me and Ana booked the 0900 slot of Friday to do our Photogramme! Wahho~! Cam tak saba rasenye nak buat eksperimen.. Wahho~!!
Anyways, since no one asked me about my roommates, I'm going to tell some things about 'em anyways! One of them is Maisarah, I think.. 'Coz I call her Kak Mai! heehee~ She's doing IT, majoring in something that has to do with Multimedia. hehhe! She's supposed to be in her final year, but she's going to extend it 'coz she can't stand the many many subjects! (She's supposed to take 8 subjects this semester but she's extending so she'd have to take only 5 this sem!) She's 21, from Perak (which explains why she got loads of things in the closet!) AHHAHAH!! I'm sharing the closet with her, I don't mind.. 'coz I don't have so much of stuffs..! Dia ni cam besh gak~! At least I managed to get some conversation going on with her. Dia ni cam sempoi sikit! So, cam tertarik ati nak tengok dia! AHHAHAHA!!
The other roommate is Kak Siti. Bukan nak kate ape, since it may be my mistake.. I haven't been able to talk to her much. Takde ape yang nak dibualkan! huu~ She's from Melaka, and she's doing Engineering. (She got loads of stuff in her closet as well!) That's all I know about her. Terok kan?
Okay! That's the introduction I have about them.. maybe there'll be more in the future! heehee~ Let's wish that I'll get along with them perfectly fine, wokie?
Wahho~! Ape penat sangat arinih? Benci~!

And I'm an idiot, still~

Shahnon besh!!!
AHHAHA!! Thanks Shahnon~! Beshh!! He gave me Good Charlotte's new video, Girls and Boys! It was such a good laugh!!! And Joel looks pretty cute while doing that dance with the old ladies! AHAHHAH!! Besh sangaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat!!!
And thanks Fina.. she let me hijack her laptop for a while and now I'm able to post my offline blog as well! AHHAHAH!! Macam ade orang nak bace jek.. (apart from myself.. checking some mental notes I made)

yosh!!

Budus punye cite Jepun!
I know it's silly for getting mad at a Japanese series, but I spent last night watching this Japanese series called Summer Snow and I hate it for it touched me!! AHAHHAHA!! A story about this girl, who has a heart problem.. and fell in love with this guy who adores her as well.. and he promised her that he'll be there with her no matter what. Her heart's condition was getting bad, and the only thing that can keep her living is a heart transplant. And, she did have the operation, and that guy was with her when she woke up, with some bruises 'coz he just had an accident. And so, he managed to gave her a necklace that he kept for her.. And it gets weird, that whenever she's talking to him.. and someone interfered, he'll disappear.. and he keeps wearing the same piece of clothings.. Huwaaaaa!! Sedih taau! I cried like a baby.. stupid! If you still don't get it.. the guy actually died.. from the accident, and the heart that was transplanted in the girl was his! Sedihhhhhhhhh!! I was crying.. at 4:10 am. Stupid!!!! So he did keep his promise.. that he'll be there with her forever.. Aaaarrrrrgh! Benci~! Okay, ingat ekk! Kalau Wanie sakit jantung, pastu Wanie suka someone.. jangan kasi dia kasi jantung dia kat Wanie tau. I think I'd rather die than living off with his heart.. isyk! Tak sanggup..
Okay.. got class at 9! Gotta have my sleep.. can't be late for anything again.. Maybe I'll say more in the morning. Nak try open disket blog offline, but disket buat hal.. hummph!

Break at the bend = Patah di bengkok (Dar bengong!)

Ice Cream Social; Vroom

It was about a year ago I fell in love with you
you were unlike any other girl I knew
and what we had was special I can clearly see it now
I'd love to have you back if you would show me how

I looked into your eyes and I saw the light
as a thousand thoughts ran through my mind
I realized I've wasted all this time
how could I have been so blind?

Cause I am just a man who acted foolishly
without regard to what I'd done to you
and in your heart I hope there is still a place for me
in mine there's one for you

And every time I see your face I fall in love anew
I found I never lost the love I had for you
I love the way your hair curls on a windy day
I want to be with you your the only one for me

I looked into your eyes and I saw the light
as a thousand thoughts ran through my mind
I realized that I've been so unkind
how could I have been so blind?

Cause I am just a man who acted foolishly
without regard to what I'd done to you
and in your heart I hope there is still a place for me
in mine there's one for you

14 files downloaded!! Cam tak caye jekk.. hehh~

Kamu jangan main-main dengan saya
Huwaaaaaaaaarghhh!! That's what Che Mat said to me and Ana when we got to the photography lab. We were 20 minutes late! Huhuuu~ Sorry Ana!
I woke up at six, and can't get back to sleep though I still need the rest. So I checked my Kazaa.. 12 files downloaded! Baguss!! So I arranged my playlist.. and got back to my bed, with the headphone on. 7:40 my alarm goes off.. "but it's still early... 5 minutes won't make much difference.." 8:59 "Wanieeeee~!" Ana was at my door. AHHAHA!! I OVERSLEPT! stupid!! Okaylaa.. mengaku.. tak mandi but gosok gigi.. and walked towards the photograph lab.. And then.. Che Mat got angry at us for being late. At first, I was still smiling.. but it got sour, I guess.. (a stupid habit of mine - smile when someone's mad at me) Terbiase! Like Ustazah Normah said to the class in Form 5, "apa kate kamu cuba senyum pada orang yang marah kamu. mana tau, lembut sikit hati dia nanti.." heehee~ I really like that advise! 'Pelembut hati' heehee~ klakar, but it's a very good advise! I find smiling as someone's getting angry with me is less stressful, for me! Serious! Dahlaa memang slalu kene marah.. ekkeke!
Okielaa.. just hope he won't hold a grudge on me and Ana.. kang tak pasal-pasal ter-fail lak! Huhuu~
Going back home today! Dida's already badgering me to call Papa and pick us up! (she's in Petronas' Permata at Bangi.. doing some kursus..)
O yeah.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!! Ahhahaha!! Tak patut kecoh pon.. After all, it's my birthday according to the Islam calendar. Rabiulawal 20th. Ehheh~ But still! I was born on this date berbelas tahun dulu! heehee~!

Good Charlotte's the best!!

Lambatnyeeerr..
Haa~ just finished all my classes. Authoring was canceled, which left me the whole afternoon to get my things into my room. Naseb baik tak banyak barang! Kalau tak, mau patah pinggang! Getting my monitor up the steps was HORRIBLE!! Imagine.. we were from Ana's room (block B, ground floor, HB4) and we had to carry that... thing up to my room! (block A, 2nd floor, HB3) Huwarrghh!! Good thing there were Ana and BJ to help me carry it! AAaaaAaaaaa~!! Korang memang beshh!! Was soooooooo tired from carrying the computer.. Malang sungguh takde tenaga lelaki yang boleh membantu.. mmph! ampehh!
Modelling went pretty okay.. the designer said I have style.. but I need to improve my posture! AHHAHA!! Ape Wanie ngarut?? Hurts my neck.. the monitor was so high.. Sakit btol tengkuk.. I HATE!

Residential Unit yang mengong
PENAT!! I got all my stuff over here, so I can get into my room and get my computer to run! Tapi, pegi RU.. skali tutup daaa~! They're having a meeting over STAD and will open at 11, which, I have class at that time!! So, naseb baik Ana ade kat sini.. tumpang letak barang sat. Amazingly, I don't have so much stuff around..
Wondering though.. dapat blek mane aganye agaknye ni ekk? Hopefully tak tinggi-tinggi!! Mati Wanie nak bawak! heeheee~
Oh ye.. I think there's some broken links in my webby.. Nanti Wanie betulkan lah! If I can get my computer to connect.. huuu~
(takut kalau dah ade rumet, pastu diorang dah amek meja! Wanie takde meja ngan cable panjang-panjang...)

*drip*

why do I have to be so dependent??
I HATE!! Ana's out with Jai.. which is perfectly okay with me.. nak pegi MCP sebenanye.. but sebab tengahari.. takde slera nak jalan sensorang gi xr1005!! I know I'll be missing some lot.. 'coz truthfully, I think I like Multimedia Authoring!! The first lecture was quite interesting! So, tengah sedih jugak la ni memontengkan diri.. But of course, I know I shouldn't be this way. ntahapehape la Wanie nihh! Bole pulak ponteng kelas sebab takde kawan nak berjalan ekkk? AHHAHAH! I wonder when was the last time I asked someone to sign the attendance for me.. humm.. agak jarang tu! English last sem la slalu.. sebab malas sangat nak pegi! AHHAHA!!
So anyways.. then we're going back to the real problem here. Why do I have to be so dependent? entohh!! Dah ter slalu sangat kot! ampehh btol! Ok ok.. I'll try to reduce that, ek? sebab, macam tak sehat je idup camni.. AHAHHA!! silly me!
Oh ye, if you're wondering, why can't I go with Fina and BJ.. well, I CAN! But I don't have my mobile with me.. left it at home this morning.. sedih tau!! So, I don't have their number to even call them from the booth.. I HATE!!

boriiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiinnggg!!

heppinyer sayeee~
what a start of day.. well, to be honest, pagi tadi takdela besh sangat! after all, kene bangun kul 630 sebab papa had to send off mama and nina to KL as well! tapi tak kesah laa.. kelas database besh!!! sorry.. cam pelik kan cakap kelas besh? tapi sebab paham! so, suke hati!! hehehhe!!
and then, when I checked my name in RU, diorang cakap.. I GOT THE HOSTEL ROOM!! sangat besh!! wahhhooooo~!!!!

can't wait til tomolo.. somehow!

offline blog
oh yee.. if you missed me SO much, you can also read my blog during the holidays taau! the times I was actually offline.. just scroll down this page, and click for 'holiday blog' 'offline blog' wokie! KALAU nak tau laa what I was doing all this while when I was at home.. heehee~
benci!! ANA DAH TERE MAIN GITA!! well, better than me, so kire tere la tuhh!! 'coz I'm simply crappy! AHHAHA!! tak kesah laa.. being the listener is always better than the one who's performing. leh enjoy sepenuhnyer! wahho~!
NAK OSTELL!!!!! mintak-mintak esok dapat ostel!! nak ostel gaaaakk! Dah made up my mind.. kalau tak dapat, Wanie merayu.. ok tak?? AHHAHAH!! Just, hopefully I get a room.. huuuu~

tralalaa.. tralalaa..

Yosh~!
Tak sangke nyerrrrhh! Had my database exercise and it went fine! Wahho~!!
Saw my friends today.. somehow sumernye nampak hepi cam takde masalh masalah. Memang takde masalah ke? Cam sedikit risau pon ade.. Humm.. I can only check if I get the hostel tomorrow.. entahlaa.. Not really sure if I WANT to stay inside. Sebab umah Asha ade kosong la plak! But seksanye kalau nak kene jalan tengahari kan? Humm.. still considering what I'll do if I DO get the hostel room. A part of me want it so badly, but the other part.. cam entah! Rase cam teringin nak duk luar. It'd be a different experience! So.. cam menarik lak! Humm.. kalau esok kene make my choice.. hostel room.. or A3-9-something? Heehee~ Blok A3 rupenye pompuan itu. Went to her place tadik before MDP.. cam menarik la! ^_^
MDP.. humm.. the lecturers told us what we're going to do on tutorial next Wednesday and Thursday. It ought to be interesting, don't you think?? Wahho~!!

adehh.. kenapalaakepalakuu.. hisy~!

YEAAAAAAAAAYYYY!!
DONE!! everything's finished!! yeayyy!! bole tido ngan aman kat umah nanti.. heehee~
slamat bercoti smerrr~~

test! mintak-mintak archive kuar.. uhuuuu

all afternoon..
good thing I have the whole afternoon to work this out.. Ana lak tido.. THANKS ANAA!! hehhee!
I'm still working on the archives.. wish me luck~! heheh!
lepas ni nak kejekan template lak! wahho~!!

ALAMAK!
broken links la plak bile nak bukak archives... tak ske nyerr!!

OH MY GOD!!
I don't believe it! I can't believe it!! I managed to 'demolish' the advertisement! I managed to upload my blog using Blogger.. to Tripod's FTP!!! Wahho~!!!!!!!! I am ecstatic!! I'm absolutely... HAPPY!!! AHAHHAH!! Besh nyerr!! This is one of the best days I had in weeks! AHHAHA!! BESHNYERR!!

*hope i'll get this right someday.. bluerrghhh*

experiment
Shahnon suggested Pitas.com for blog. Well, it started with me, not wanting to have those stupid advertisements on my blog! Menyampah laa.. and Pitas is quite free.. I mean, no such ad.. but then.. I've been doing my blog on Blogger for almost a year now, so macam.. all my archives are right here! Sentimental value Blogger nih.. ekkekek!

WAHHO~!
Jenna won!! It's unbelievable!! She got 6 of the 7 votes from the jury!! For the first time of the Survivor history, the youngest of the survivor won the million dollars.. and got 6 votes!! Gile aah! This is actually the first time my favorite survivor actually won the million dollars.. Eh! Tipu kot.. ekkeke! Ethan won few Survivors ago, and he's my fave as well.. ekkeke! Suka Ethan, sebab mase dia menang, he said: "You don't have to lie to win," AHHAHA!! O well, Jenna roxX!! Can't believe she won the last two immunities.. Gurl power!! Wahho~!!
Anyways, nothing much to say other than that..
Wondering what's really in my head, what I'm thinking about.. someone.. something?
O well, smalam ade orang sombong ngan kite.. dia cakap something, pastu tetiba cam lain macam lak.. Sakit ati je dengan dia.. TAK SKE! And then.. hummph!! I'm surrounded my people who's making my life great while even more confusing..

weird!

let see..
going to do just a quick post.. tak tau nak kate ape.. having a bit of stomach ache right now.. Shouldn't have skipped my lunch, huh? Tadi serius malas nak makan.. padan muka then! oh well, nak balek dah niee! next week baru stick to this place, I guess.. later then~~
o yeah, update sket webby arinih! wahho~!

time.. ticks away

umm..
template lain.. sebab nak buat penyesuaian di hari kelak.. ehhe!
later-later baru wanie explain, wokie! tengah tak tau nak tulis ape laa..
kat CC.. and keyboard nih tulul! nak tekan pon susah.. bluekk!

woops!
lupe nak sentuh pasal nih..
thanks to leeds, man u managed to win the epl!! woo~hoo! padan muka those gunners.. ekkeke!! sorry ye, arsenal fans.. wanie memang kurang gemar ngan diorang nihh! ehhe!! okay, tu jek! sat lagi nak balek umah sebab takde lecture dah minggu nih!
jom sumer.. gi mid valley ahad nihh!! ehhehe.. me and my good ole friends nak jumpe balek.. besh juge kalau tersempak ngan sesaper laie yang dikenali nanti! ehehe!
later peeps!! have a nice week ahead!

dumbstruck..?

Adehh..
so bored.. can't remember when was the last time i got this bored..!!
sampai tak tau nak tulis ape...

(May 5th) uhuu~ I got tears in my eyes.. why? My elbow just hit my mom's sewing machine.. It hurts so badly!!!
Today's the first day back.. though I managed to upload my files on Tripod, I still haven't got the time to actually complete it. Nak tulis blog pon tak sempat! Hehh~ The first day was not so bad. Kinda exciting, to be honest! I mean, I get to see some of my friends.. though, sempat buat something yang agak pelik.. humm.. Memalukan jek! Ever felt like your bodyparts didn't do what you expect it to do? Hummph! Memalukan.. benci!! Well, not another accident.. just that my voice projected in a rather weird tone.. Cam pompuan gatal, to be truth! AHHAHAH!!! Ingat nak bercakap cam biase je.. skali terklua slow semacam.. I HATE!! ekkeke!! Other than that, my day was perfectly normal!
Wish me luck~ esok nak try carik ways to blog.. ehhe!! Nak tanye orang, takut tak paham-paham gak bile di-explain nanti.. hee~ 2020

Uhuu..
Sorry for yesterday's post.. uhuu.. tak manis sungguh! ekekke!! I'm all cooled down, now.
Actually I was pissed off with my mom's office's server yesterday, tu yang kuar segala yang tak baik tuh.. but right now dah okay sangat! Finally got to register some of my subjects.. ade sedikit problem though.. MCP ngan TDB nyer jadual agak tulul.. but biar ajelaa kot! Takleh register kali ni, try laie lain kali!
Anyways.. nak cakap nie.. thru the break, I did missed all my friends! Really looking forward for the next sem. (passed all my subjects! alhamdulillah..) Maka.. Beta lah nantiii!! Weeee~ buang duit~ buang duit~ woo~hoo! ekkeke!
Well, gotta end now. Nak try register balek subject yang bengong bengong tuh...

Take care peeps!!

Vaviiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii!!!
sial shit stupid bodoh-betul bangang bengap bingai busuk bahlol bengong bongok babiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii!!!!!!!
smer nye cam siaaaaaaaaaal belaka!! rase cam nak ketuk kepala!!!!!!
babibabibabibabibabibabibabiiiiiiiiiiiiii!!!
and still!! dah mencarut dengan penuh kesialan pon tak puas lagi nih! rase cam nak hampok something.. babiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii

I HATE!
Bengap btol.. been trying to get into MMU's website and still!! Takleh!! BENCIIIIIIIIIIIII!!!
O yeah.. hello all! Tengah kidnap my mom's desk nih! Nak check results.. register.. and those things I can do lah.. but nampaknyer, buat mase nih takleh nak buat ape-ape pon! Chit! Saje buat tensen orang..
Okie.. maybe I'll ost again when I'm in a better mood..

bengap nyerh MMU..

Bapak tak tau nak tulis ape
Oh well, since this may be my last entry.. dalam blek nihh..
Oyy!! Tak tau nak tulis apeeee!! except.. GONNA MISS YOU ALL!! and the free internet.. EKKEKEKEK!!
You peeps are going to be running through my thoughts day and night during this break.. Tak saba nanti naik semester.. We'll be having juniors!! Wahho~~! Tengok stail sape yang dah berubah.. sape ade janggut ke.. misai ke.. rambut tahap pinggang kee.. Ekekkeke!! Gonna miss my frens sooooooooo much!!
Ana.. you roxX no matter what..
Fariz.. tak kesah cemana annoying awak leh jadi pon and sakitkan ati saye pon, you're still the one I talk to about stuff, kan kaannn?
Fina.. caring gile nyer bdak! Cam potensi mak.. ekkeke
Asha.. thanks sebab kasi pinjam gitaa!! Aja main gitaa!! Kasi pinjam tamborin!! Wahho~~
Dar.. penghibur hati di malam buta.. weee~!
Ablen.. pelik ekk? Baru start baik, Wanie dah comfy untuk citer memacam kat budak nihh.. hehhe!
BJ.. huhuu.. bapak tere buat Fundamental.. teringat mase BJ tolong lukiskan gamba pelam (mangga) untuk Fundamental..
Sheeya.. ahahha!! adelaa time yang tak besh sebab Sheeya senang terase.. tapi still, you're the best joker I've found!
SAYANG KORANG SMER!! Korang smer sangat sangat sangaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaatlah beshnyerr!

Gile.. everyday I'd think of you peeps!!

Emotionless
Am I? Not so sure about that.. maybe I wished to...
Tengah pusing-pusing, main mp3 lama-lama.. teringat la kat menda-menda dulu.. Terdengar la plak lagu My Friends Over You. Adehh.. ape gila dah lama tak denga lagu nihh.. Me and Ana had this conversation about 'which song reminds of what..' So adelaa.. terdenga certain songs, teringat kat sem 1 2 or 3.. Macam-macam sangat laa running thru my head skarang nih..!! Sampai my feelings are blurred by my thoughts. Dah tak tau ape nak rase.. cam numb all over. Macam dah a while camtu.. kenape ekk? Penat sangat kot!
I've been asking myself the same question last night. What am I feeling? Mungkin ke betul.. ape yang Wanie rase skarang ni.. ataupun anxiety semata-mata? Am I ready to move on? Hahhahha!! Rasanye cam tak.. rasa cam maseh nak berada in the middle of this phase. Feels nice to have everyone as friends, kan?

True to myself.. and I'll be true to you~

Motorcycle Drive By
Summer dies and swells rise
The sun goes down in my eyes
See this golden wave
Darkly coming
To take me home
And I've never been so alone
And I've never been so alive
~ Third Eye Blind

Sangat sangat tension.. can't really stand the feeling that I burst into tears.. Ever felt so tired so you want to get some sleep and not to wake again? Huhuuu.. PENAT aaahhhh!!! Macam-macam sangat in my thoughts that it tires me out...
Just realized.. banyak btol nyusahkan Papa ngan Mama... kenape huh??

Ahhahah!! Buat false alarm..
Told my friends that I was going back today.. even asked Nina to tell Papa to pick me up around 8.. made dinner plans with Mama.. Can you believe that the three of us were in Yahoo! Conference earlier this evening? Ahhahaha!! Well, cancelled it quite last minute since.. err.. okie, let me start from the very beginning. Ehek!
So, we started looking for a house, 'aight for next trimester? We contacted an agent in Cyberia.. they helped us pretty much! The first time we met them, they were reaaaaaaaaally warm! Ahahha!! 'Coz it was raining and me and Fina and BJ were all wet 'coz we walked to their office. They were offering us hot Milo laah.. roti laah.. Heeheehee! Very friendly, indeed. So anyways, after some choices were lain laid in front of us, maseh tak jumpe prospek yang menarik ati. And today, they messaged me through Y! M and asked if we've found anything yet, and I said no.. and asked some stuff and they have this unit that would be perfect for us!! Agaknye laa.. ehheheh! So we'll be having a meeting at 11 tomorrow morning.. Someone help me to wake up!! Uhuuu..
Last night, ingat nak balek dah.. kitorang (me, Ana and Asha) lepak on Ana's bed.. borak-borak. Gile aaah! Tiga orang in one bed is absolutely uncomfortable.. but very good for a midnight chat. Though.. Ehehe! Mase tu sampai kul 6 pagi pon. Woke up around 11 and didn't get back to sleep after that.. so I'm really reaaaaaaaally tired right now, but takde mood nak tido.
Ohh!! Pasal false alarm.. Besh jekk! Terharu tau mengingatkan rakan-rakan yang ingatkan kite nak balek.. ehhehe! Ablen's status was touching.. ekkeke! And Dar lak tak tido petang sebab ingat orang dah nak balek! Ekekke!! Korang smer memang besh!! Okie.. reaaaaaaaally reaaaaaally hope that last night's promise will happen next trimester. Sedih tau kalau tak jadik! Ekekke!
Okie.. hopefully tomorrow's meeting will be great!

I don't know how to connect, so I disconnect*

I've Been Waiting

So I'm waiting by a phone for the blessing ring
Like a holy grail for the fisher king
Time is ticking down like a metronome
Rhythm for my brain, and ceaseless scales
I never seem to play them to the beat I hear
Though my heartbeat is a beat that beats so near

So we had a talk last night about the heavy blow
That you dealt in fright, your back against the wall
It was a puzzle piece, important to the whole
That I may not find to place within that hole
I never seem to put them in the gaps I see
Like a puzzle with the pieces lost you need

So I'm changing who I am
'Cause what I am is not good
And I know you love me now
But I don't see why you should
And I don't see why you should
No, I don't see why you should

So I drift into the air like a moth to light
Down the boulevard to a coffee shop
In the land of song, in the land of waits
My pen is bearing down on this lonely down
I never seem to write them down as good as him
Like I somewhere lost the keys that let me in

Sixpence None The Richer

For long will I remember those times...
Going back home today.. Agaknye korang leh imagine my feelings tak? A bit sad... and scared. That hollow feeling I've felt last Saturday is coming back again.. Going to wonder about the next semester.. Will me and my frieds friends stay close? Will I still be friends with the guys I've known throughout this Alpha year..? Hoyy, sedihh!!
Kemungkinan nak main gita laie dengan those guys I know dah takde.. Fariz.. Dar.. Ablen yang senyap tu.. (besh gile borak ngan dia, tapinyer!!) Azarul yang dalam 'keganasan' ade 'kegedikkan'nyer.. (mane Ila?) Heehee* Dani.. yang tak mau mengaku dia caring sebenanye.. Ekkekek!! (kalau menyebok tu, musti ade sebab kan? Ehhehe!) Majin.. teringat lak SMS "stop" mase ponteng English.. Ekkeke! Lawak spastik Tariq.. Yatta Yus.. pergerakan Alitt yg slalu agak amusing untuk ditiru.. those things that make me smile..
Takdelaa rapat ngan smer bebudak kat atas tuh.. but penah la juge hang out same.. Heehee* Buat janji ngan Ablen smalam.. heehee* Besh besh!!
My gurl frens.. Ana, Fina, BJ, Asha, Sheeya, Nana.. Aisha makcik, Juju.. korang smer memang besh!!
If the good times were never to repeat itself, I'll cherish every moment and laughters we'd share together. In my thoughts, I'll be thinking of you peeps.. and in my heart, I'll regret for not knowing you peeps even deeply and spending more time with y'all.. Heehee*

Berikannya padaku!! Ayoh ayoh ayoohhh*

*PEMBERITAHUAN*
tak sempat nak siapkan infos untuk webby!!!!!!!!!!!! AHAHHA!! So.. sila tunggu bile Wanie berkesempatan, okie..!
Just, for the time being, it's a picture gallery website.. Ehhehe!

Sowee.. heehee*

It hurts when you're self decieved
That's what Vroom said in Dumb Like That, and it's true! I think it hurts even more than having someone decieve you.. AHHAHA!! So why am I saying this? Honestly, I don't know.. was I self-decieved? I think not.. but probably self-confusing.. Nyehnyeh~~
Humm.. I think I'll have to get away from Ana a bit lah! Sebab tadi main gita ngan Dar and Ablen kat HB0.. and it got her into 'trouble' with Jai. Am I feeling guilty for it? Maybe.. though I know she made her own choices.. but I hate it when I am somehow related in this relationship stuff. Jealousy really suxX, huh? Tak nak kapeeeeeeeeeell!!! Tapi....? Well, I just hope when my time comes, I'll run into someone who'd really understand.. Ahhahha!! See my un-fairness?? Seems like I'm just going to make that person understand me no matter what. AHHAHA!! Honestly, jealousy can become sweet sometimes.. but I think I've been surrounded by tahap kejelesan yang melampau.. Hisy!! Tak tahan tengok.. so, untuk my friends yang ade kapel.. I salute y'all for going through all that dengan penuh selamat.. Moga korang berkekalan, okie! As long as you guys are happy, lah kan?
Cakap pasal main gita lak.. ekkeke! Maseh agak segan nak main depan orang yang bukan berada dalam bilek. AHAHHA!! Dah.. lain kali takmo dah demo secare live.. takmo takmo takmoo! 3 kali cukup dah..

Occupied~ figuring out what I'm feeling.. heehee*

*Why am I still single?*
Ekkeke.. did the EMODE test on that.. kinda interesting really.. So what did I get?? I am still single 'coz I *don't want to commit*! Which is pretty much true.. AHHAHA!!
Nak bace Wanie bercerita? Ehhehe! When I look at my friends with their couple.. sometimes I CAN get jealous.. tapi takdelaa sangat.. 'coz mostly, my thoughts would go like.. "camne diorang leh same-same lama camtuu???" Ekkekke!! I really can't imagine myself so commited like Fina and Amal.. huhuu! And well, obviously depend so much on my friends! Well, not really.. but if I were to chose between my friends and a special friend.. I would probably choose my friends!! Ekkeke! Maybe 'coz I haven't find someone that I reaaaaaaaaally want to spend time alone with.. AHHAHHA!!
Tapi serius aa!! Tengok Ana ngan Jai.. tengok Fina and Amal.. I just can't imagine myself in their places.. Nape cam restricted sangat commitment nih ekk? Macam-macam kene jage ekk? Jage ati orang ni keje yang susah.. and Wanie cam tak sesuai jek! AHAHHA! Serius tak ready! Gile gile gileee!! Bergayut kat fon lama-lama lagi.. Huhuu! Takleh imagine.. camne kalau leh jumpe ari-ari pon nak bergayut laie ekk?? Gile gile gilee!! Semua ni tak masuk akal pada Wanie.. Sometimes cam tak caye jek Wanie penah gone through this.. AHHAHAH!!
So.. being surrounded by couples didn't really make me feel like I should get someone to call my own.. Tapi made me realize how I'm not up for it!! Undeniably, one day Wanie mungkin akan terminat kat sape sape.. 'coz all the peeps around me are so nice..! Baik sangat sangat.. tapi maybe I'll choose to like him from afar, and not getting myself commited. Realize jugak.. I am better as a friend, than a 'special friend'.. Actually menda tu dah lamaaaaa tau.. but, biaselaa.. menggatal! Ekkekke!! So kite tengok ajelaa camne nanti.. siapa yang maybe dapat tarik Wanie from my group of friends.. Ehkehehkeh!!
But for the time being.. I don't feel like getting myself commited to anyone, but myself!!! (ye kee?) Well, at least that's what Papa suggested.. Ekkekkeke!!

Pening aa pikir pasal umah.. huwaaa!!

Kecik tapi tak kecik...
Ekkekke!! Papa and Nina just came by to get some of my stuff back home.. Brought along my makanan ruji.. McD!! Weeee!! Ekkeke!! Hepi hepi..
I think Papa kinda missed me! Ekkekke!! Sebab datang datang trus kiss my cheeks! Ehhehhe!! Yeaaaaaay! Besh btol bile disayangi begini! Eheeeheee! Got most of my stuff out of this room.. it's getting emptier by day lah~ Sedih sedikit.. with the fact that I'll be leaving this memorable.. memorable room!
Tempat bergelak ketawa.. tempat menangis.. tempat marah.. tempat merajuk.. tempat hilang barang.. tempat makan.. tempat tido.. tempat menari dan melompat-lompat cam spastik.. tempat menyanyi.. smernye kat blek nihh! SUMERNYE KAT BLEK NIHH!!! And I'll be leaving it soon enough!! But.. I don't want to stay either.. memandangkan all my friends are going back as well.. Tak ske nyer kene tinggaaaaaaaaaal!!!
Papa and Nina cakap something yang agak memeningkan tadi.. "Nape bile Wanie balek umah, nampak Wanie kecik.. tapi bile kat sini nampak biase? Bile nak besa?? Nape cam kecik lagi?" Huhuuu!! Mane orang taau!! Ye aa ye aa.. Wanie tak matang laie.. untuk Papa jugak taau! Ekkeke!! So he'll feel younger than his age and also know that I'll still be his youngest, cutest, cheery, spastic-joker, and most precious brat he'd ever want to have for a long time, still.. Ekekke!! Ingat nak cakap tu tadik kat diorang.. but tak sempat pikir ayat! Ehheheh!
I'll be missing everyone kat MMU nihh.. SAYANG KORANG SMER!!! Yang laki pon Wanie sayang gak.. without you peeps, my sleepless night would be such a bore! Huwaaaaaaaaa!! Sakit dada laie.. sucky!!!

Missing oledi..

*Life is fine*
Really, it is.. though, I admit.. it can get crappy at some points.. but all in all.. it's still fine!
Last night was.. pretty.. umm.. ape ek? Cam, sedikit sebak. Showed Sheeya the vid clip with that song I made. Huhuu.. there were tears.. Ekkeke!! Klakar la gak.. mase tu Sheeya ingatkan tu menda ape.. Coz we switched off the lights and put on some candles.. so after she clicked the movie file, she went away from the screem screen and then she stopped.. When she heard the song, she went "eyh.." and sat on Ana's bed.. Ehheheh! Sebak la jugak.. after the clip, we sang it live to her.. but we all got the wrong lyrics and stuff.. kept stopping every now and then. Oyy, sebak aaa!!!
I didn't study a heck for Graphics! Just listened to my friends talking 'bout some of the topics.. well, then this morning.. honestly! I don't think the paper's that hard.. I mean, I don't know much of it.. so, why should i think it's hard?? Ekekke.. well, I have a weird way of thinking anyways!
Well.. err.. okaaay, I'm feeling a bit shaky right now.. tak tau nape.. since the last hour.. Macam nak kene makan je nihh.. Ekkekek!!

Your heart is playing tricks**

*Partly happy*
Creative Expression was fine!! Surprisingly fine!! So I thank Fina.. LOAAADS and LOAAADS for talking aloud last night! AHAHHAHA!! Thanks Finaaaa!! Muaaahhh!! Cayang Fina! And the gurls talked about CE through lunch.. so.. THANKS YOU GUYS!! Ana, Fina, BJ, Sheeya and Asha!! Yeyyeyy yeyyey! Korang sumer memang besh, tiada tandingan! Eyh.. eyh.. ade! But.. kadang-kadang takde! Ekkeke!!
Okehh.. thanks to Asha laie skali, sebab dia kasi lagu besh!!

The Cardigans - Communication

For twenty seven years I've been trying
To believe and confide in
Different people I found...

Some of them got closer than others,
And some wouldn't even bother,
And then you came around.

I didn't really know what to call you,
You didn't know me at all,
But I was happy to explain.

I never really knew how I'd move you,
So I tried to intrude through
The little holes in your veins.

And I saw you.
But that's not an invitation,
That's all I get,
If this is communication,
I disconnect...
I've seen you, I know you,
But I don't know how to connect,
So I disconnect...

You always seem to know where to find me,
And I'm still here behind you,
In the corner of your eye.

I never really learnt how to love you,
But I know that I love you,
Through the hole in the sky
Where I see you
And that's not an invitation,
That's all I get.
If this is communication,
I disconnect...
I've seen you, I know you,
But I don't know how to connect,
So I disconnect...

Well, this is an invitation,
It's not a threat,
If you want communication,
That's what you get.
I'm talking and talking,
But I don't know how to connect.

And I hold... a record for being patient
With your kind of hesitation.
I need you, you want me,
But I don't know how to connect,
So I disconnect,

I disconnect...

*sangat bosan itu last night*
-alpha one to alpha two-
The server was down down dooowwn last night in HB4. God!! It was such a bore!!
Spent the night convincing Fina to let me sleep but she hept kept talking to me about Expression and checks out if I was asleep. By the time we're done, my mood for sleeping was already gone. Cehh.. So I grabbed my trusty pen and paper and started the 'project' me and my friends planned earlier this week. Eheh! Actually I wrote a song last night.. klakar jek! Did it less than an hour, so imagine a reaaaaaally silly song. After writing the 'lyrics' I went up to grab Sheeya's guitar in her room, and managed to get a tune soon afterwards! Ngee~ Then, me and Ana and Fina tried it out.. and somehow my fingers felt like crap. Hurts so bad last night! ..and I played like crap as well..! Blueekkk! Maybe I should stick to the tamborine.. Ehhehe!!
The finals has been.. I don't know! Just had our Maths last Monday.. and it was horrible!! ..not going to say more than that. Yesterday, had that Alpha showcase. Huhuuu.. I don't know what to say.. But it was fun taking pictures! Ehhehhee!!
I wonder.. why am I having my kicks from artsy stuff?? Huu.. Gosh! I'm so different from my family..
-over-

What would I do.. lonely as you.. *Foo Fighters*