g'morn!

just had a small trip to putrajaya with lily and prisca.
so thanks lily for saying yes even when you're already sleepy! heehee~
so hung out at mamak, had some laughs..
prisca showed us some soft porn.. HAHHAHAHAHA!! no lah~ joking.. *winks*
ate maggi goreng with iced milo.
itu saja.. and i have nothing else to say. except maybe...
i should stop saying that i should stop.. hehhe! 'coz you know.. i can't! my everything won't let me.. :| and i'm quite fine with that! :D so heyy, don't mind me when i say i need want you still, 'til the point i get too crazy! :D
should start on yago but i have been updating the friends' photos page instead...
and i'm sleepy!!

x_x

not a perfect weekend..

tiring.. mentally..
absolutely!

went out with dayat (won't bother using her hobbit's name..) on friday.. had to meet her in central market all by myself. but not before paying a little visit to mama's and belladonna's office in pwtc. okay.. practically "melembu" around kl 'coz i keep losing direction! left-right-left-right? cross-don't cross?? what? what?? hahhahaha!! moooooo~ stupid, really! i keep like going around asking people how i can get to places.. so, thank God i still have my voice even with my flu!! huhuuu~
me and dayat just went around cm and kotaraya saja.. :) she had things to do so we had to cut our meeting short..
then i had a fight with a certain relative and now i'm not in a speaking term with that person. urghhh!!! makes me SO mad, thinking about it!!!!!!!

saturday.. stayed at home, tending my dumb flu. bluerghhh~!!

sunday.. still not talking to that relative of mine. no point, really!
flu's getting better.. went pusing pusing around tasik shah alam looking for a tunnel rosie-p said existed. (but i couldn't find!) then i practically "dumped" the digicam i was holding onto the road.. and now there got some MAJOR scratch.. no..
...
.....
okay, i can't find any other word to exagerrate (spelling?) the scratch.
but it's horrible!!! i am SO going to get the old lecture when i'm busted by mama when i'm talking to her again.
yeah, i'm not talking to my mom right now.. she talks to me, sure! i just keep my vocabulary very restricted with her.. it usually concludes to sounds like "hummph~" and "haa".

couldn't send hanis to the airport tadi.. could be one of my regrets. hummphh~ wish she'll be fine in NI-PON! woo~hoo!! i am so proud of her! gonna miss her so baaaaaaaaadddd!!!!!!!!!
glad that at least i went to her house and said my goodbye.. :) hanis hanis hanisssssssssssssss!!!!!!!! she's as good as one of my blood-sisters. kurang kawan satu.. not kurang.. but.. sangat berjauhan.. :( i knew it all along.. growing up was no fun!! should've stayed in high school... hhehehe! :p

so i'm not in a very good mood..
so to those weird people out there.. talk all crap you want, but i don't give a shit.. pardon me for not listening or not replying according to what you expected.. not here to entertain your little heart when i'm feeling crap.
maybe tomorrow :p

i should be ashamed..!

so it is somewhat the mid-term in mmu.. most students are busying theirselves with studying.. working on final projects.. or SUPPOSED to. hehhe! and here in hostel, i am living with two seniors from IT faculty; Kak Mai and Engine faculty; Kak Siti. Here.. i'm showing you a short 'presentation' on how things are in this room.. 3013 yee.. to those yang nak anta love letter ke.. make sure it gets to the right room aaa.. 3013.. hahhaha!!
click on thumbnails for a better view..

this is kak mai's desk.. tidy.. and a bit odd 'coz she places her pc under the table.. cool actually.. (i think she should be in FCM! hahahha!!) the reason is so that she can fully utilize her desk for studying.. neat, huh?


on kak siti's there are some papers of notes lying around, sure! she needs to study, after all she IS taking some hard subjects!


what book?? what notes?? what study???? hahhahaha!! honestly.. there's just LOAAAADS of crap on my table!! the only book that is showing is my 5th HP book! :)) i'm actually doing you a favor since i save you guys from looking in my drawers! HAHHAHAHA!!
so that's it! it IS as simple as that.. :))

yeah, i should be ashamed of myself for having all my stuff all over the desk.. (and still losing things!) but i dont! ekekkeke!!
anyways.. a bit boring right now.. (the reason why i took the desks' pix)
a bit lucky today since i get to submit my photo!! yeaaaaaaaaayyyy~!!! but chematto seemed a bit reluctant to let me pass, really. he kept pondering aloud if i was using the right grammar.. luckily encik zul said it's acceptable.. but could've been better.. :D chematto manje!! :)) :p
so.. i owe this one to MAJINNNNN!!! thank you abang besa!!! :D :D

good luck for tomorrow, lily and rosie!!! abang besa jugeee!! yosh~! ;)

okay, pondering if i better go back home or not.. still have that green model to do (which is dued next TUESDAY!) and if i went back, surely i get back here on MONDAY! hahahhahaha!! *sweat*
adohh~ pemalasnyeeeee!! *tuk* (geram!!)

just got an sms from belba.. she's finally hired!!!! going to start work on march 1st in port klang! woo~hoo!!! do you know what this meansss??? this means that she'll get payed!! and when that happens.. she gets money!!! and know what she's gonna do with that money?? SHE'S GONNA BUY THIS BABY SISTER OF HERS SOME NICE THINGS LAAAHHHHHH!!! HAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHA!! gosh~!!! thursday IS my lucky day.. :p (selang beberapa minggu sekali, laa.. heehee~)
wonder how petunia's gonna be right then, though...

*blink*

indifferent. numb. hollow. stoic.

BAHIJAH OWES ME FOOOODDDD!!!
did a favor for her that caused me some breathing-problems. hahhaha!! so she didn't say that i need to run, but we were indeed in a hurry.. :p semput btol lari tadi.. :( think i should go see the doctor one of these days. my right-side face aches badly.. right ear, right nostril, right anak tekak.. hehhe! bermasalah!!! :(

was up pretty early.. lily did a MIRACLE really..
called me up at 8 something and asked; "want to go to class?"
WOWWW!!! something is not right, but really!!! that was what happened! hahahhaha!!
lily actually called me up to get to class!! hahhahahaha!! but tersemangat sangat, class actually starts at 10 but we were already there at 9! hahahha!!
but then lily said that her photo was ruined.. torn at the caption part and said that she wants to reprint. so somehow.. we concluded NOT to go to class.. but to borrow alitt's car and drove off to printgate! hahhahaha!!
though we didn't get into the class.. it's still a miracle that lily was the one who wanted to go on the first place. ekkekeke!!
(yeah, i'll probably tell this story over and over again! ekkekeke!)

dearest prisca.. ganbatte next week!!!! yosh~!

been pondering about some things lately.. guess things just happen to enter my mind these days. things i've seen and should interpret carefully. :D should i take it as a sign or it was all just another coincedence? humph~
my armful of hope has reduced to a pinch..
it does feel that way somehow.. and though i tell a certain story for over and over.. it felt as if i'm telling about any other story.. no, it's not tired that i am feeling.. just careful.. extremely careful... :D stuff will happen if it's meant to be.. either way, we'll have to meet it when it comes, 'aight? :D
penat ketuk kepala banyak sangat je arini.. hehhe!!

oh.. heard this song on hitz just now.. (i wonder why hitz keep playing old songs..)
Barely Breathing by Duncan Sheik

I know what you're doing
I see it all too clear
I only taste the saline when I kiss away your tears
You really had me going, wishing on a star
But the black holes that surround you are heavier by far

I believed in your confusion, you were so completely torn
It must've been that yesterday was the day that i was born
There's not much to examine, there's nothing left to hide
You really can't be serious, you have to ask me why
I say goodbye...

Cause I am barely breathing
And I can't find the air
Don't know who I am kidding
Imagining you care
And I could stand here waiting
A fool for another day
I don't suppose it's worth the prize and worth the price
The price that I would pay

And everyone keeps asking, what's it all about?
I used to be so certain and I can't figure out
What is this attraction? Only feel the pain
There's nothing left to reason and only you to blame
Will it ever change?

Cause I am barely breathing
And I can't find the air
I don't know who I'm kidding
Imagining you care
And I could stand here waiting
A fool for another day
But I don't suppose it's worth the price, it?s worth the price
The price that I would pay
But I'm thinking it over anyway...
I?m thinking it over anyway ?

I've come to find
I may never know
Your changing mind
Is it friend or foe?
I rise above
Or sink below
With every time
You come and go
Please don't come and go

Cause I am barely breathing
And I can't find the air
I don't know who I'm kidding
Imagining you care
And I could stand here waiting
A fool for another day
I don't suppose it's worth the prize and it?s worth the price
The price that I would pay
But I'm thinking it over anyway...
I'm thinking it over anyway...

And I know what you?re doing
I see it all too clear?

*sighs*

bored

very bored..
and confused with a certain someone..
hummm.. lantaklah~

prisca changed her layout so i was determined to update mine as well!! :D prisca main tak aciiiiiiiiiii~!!! uwekk! :p
kamon lily! your turn now..! hehhehe!! :D (since all of us have different layouts now!)

thanks shahnon for the song!!!! :D

should go to sleep now.. still dizzy.. bluerthhh~
+_+

:D :D

thanks lily for giving me things to do right now..
super bored right now..
(yosh!! i'll try to conclude as good as you, okie?!)

Emode's Classic IQ Test
Congratulations, Wanie!
Your IQ score is 118

This number is the result of a formula based on how many questions you answered correctly on Emode's Classic IQ test. Your IQ score is scientifically accurate.
During the test, you answered four different types of questions — mathematical, visual-spatial, linguistic and logical. We were able to analyze how you did on each set of those questions, which reveals the way your brain processes information.
We also compared your answers with others who have taken the test, and according to the sorts of questions you got correct, we can tell your Intellectual Type is a Precision Processor.
This means you're exceptionally good at discovering quick solutions to problems, especially ones that involve math or logic. You're also resourceful and able to think on your feet. And that's just some of what we know about you from your test results.

hahhaha!! duuude~ i am pretty smart, see?? no wonder i am good at arithmancy!! hahahha!! (same class with lily lah nampaknye)

Your Years at Hogwarts by nevermindless
Name:
The Sorting Hat places you in:	Hufflepuff (Yellow and Black)
Subject you are naturally best at:	Arithmancy
Your favorite book:	Gadding With Ghouls by Gilderoy Lockhart
Pet you bring to school:	Green TOAD
You are most known for:	Your pet.
Created with quill18's MemeGen 2.0!

The Inkblot Test

Wanie, your subconscious mind is driven most by Curiosity

This means you are full of questions about life, people, and the potential of your future. You spend more time than others envisioning the possibilities of your life — things that others are too afraid to consider.
Your curiosity burns with an almost physical need to know and do more. It's only through new experiences that you feel a greater understanding of yourself or the world — which ultimately is the greatest way for you to feel satisfied.
It is possible that the underlying reason for your drive towards curiosity is a deeply rooted fear of boredom. That means that you are probably more susceptible than others to feel like you're falling into a rut when life slows down into a comfortable routine.
You need to make sure you have stimulation in your life — that makes you feel like you're innovating or being exposed to the ideas and experiences that truly inspire you.
With such a strong orientation towards curiosity, you're also prone to a rebellious quality that shows up when you feel you are just going through the motions, and are unable to really influence the world around you. But interestingly enough, your drive towards novel experiences also indicates an openness others don't have, but wish they did.
Unconsciously, your curiosity presses you to learn more, experience more, and get the most out of life.
Though your unconscious mind is driven most strongly by Curiosity, there is much more to who you are at your core.

and out of curiosity and boredom, i set sail to conquer the whole universe!!! yosh~!
big thanks to the antarans.. now we all get to see what happens if bigotry is made legal!
HAHHAHAHAHAH!!!

The World Is MINE! by Demonac
Name:
You will conquer:	the Entire Universe (except for Arakis).
Your title will be:	Lord (regardless of gender)
You will succeed by:	A complete accident.
Your Enforcers will be:	The Antarans (from Masters of Orion II).
Your first act as ruler:	Remove anti-hate/bigotry laws just to see what would happen.
(What happened after)	Try "The World Was Yours! What Happened?" MEME to find out!
Created with quill18's MemeGen 2.0!

but then..

The World Was Yours! What Happened??? by Demonac
Name
Abused your power by	Calling people names
Until	your own slaves (the ungrateful bastards)
...	Showed everyone how bad you were by releasing a fake KKK to make it appear that the Klan was praising you.
And adding insult to injury	Sales plummet for your motivational book: "Why I Rule and You Suck."
But now, after all that, you are	in that alternate dimension, conquering the world there.
(How did you conquer?)	Try "The World Is MINE!" MEME to find out!
Created with quill18's MemeGen 2.0!

those stupid a$$es fooled the nation with those KKK!! not fairr!!!!
and my book's not selling!!!
urghh!
but heyy.. at least i'm able to conquer the alternate dimension!! hahhahahah!!! AWESOME!

heyy lily.. this is neat!!!! :x thank you!!
very dizzzzzy right now. ought to get some more rest.. but somehow stuck here, doing these silly quizzes!! heehee..

sleepless. i hate!

morning..
really hate a quiet morning like this.. a very dark, cold, quiet morning and i can't utilize it as much as i want to.
very dizzy right now. seems like things are swaying about in my world
:( was restless in my very short shut-eye. tap water was freeeeezing!! that are all signs that i am not really well. i hate!! and i'm having a sore throat.. and there's no water to drink!!
oh lupa.. ade cerek kat blek ni.. ehee~ *tuk* tapi malas sehh nak masak air!! hahhaha!!
another thing why i hated quiet morning is that i can totally hear my heart!! bongok!! takde benda pon bole jadi ade benda.. X(

thinking...
how i hate busy days.. when everyone has no time for anyone.
when time is spent away with other things.
when i'd like time to be wasted,
as much as i want,
on me.
for that person to be around.

maybe time was stopped for me, for a moment there.. but maybe for some others as well..
how should i know???
bosan!!!!!!!
urghhhhh!!!

i hate quiet quiet nights!!!!
shaddap lah hati.. shaddap lah kepala!!

o heyy.. prisca told me earlier that an mmu student got into an accident in putrajaya. article here.

Overrated by Gavin Degraw

Take my home
Take everything I own
Take it, take control
You will feel better
You will feel whole
You're so good
You stopped me where I stood
And let me look at love and I feel better

Oh I feel good
I just wanna give it all to you
I wanna share this with you
Make you mine and mine will be all yours
Whatever you want and more
What I'm anticipating
Everything else would be overrated
Baby it's for you it's all for you

You speak kind
Oh if you were mine
What would we be like
We would be liked
We would be

I just wanna give it all to you
I wanna share this with you
Make you mine and mine will be all yours
Whatever you want and more
What I'm anticipating
Everything else would be overrated
Baby it's for you it's all for you
Everything else would be overrated
Everything else would be overrated

Open up
Let me fill your cup
I can really pour it out
It will be like
I will be enough

I just wanna give it all to you
I wanna share this with you
Make you mine and mine will be all yours
Whatever you want and more
What I'm anticipating
Everything else would be overrated

Baby it's for you
Baby it's for you
Baby it's for you it's all for you

still hating quiet nights!!
but seems like all the hobbitses are still up. (lily and prisca are having the same problem as mine.. sleepless!!)
[1:53 am]

somehow my horoscope says this;
Sagittarius November 22 - December 21
It's better to say less about what you're thinking. You'd rather discuss done deals than sound like a dreamer. Your worries are probably groundless. Already your ideas show signs of being on the fast track.


pandai

ehh.. look at the entry's time!!
missing this in a way.. :)

pandai gel is very dizzy

anyways.. did this thingy and i'm laughing my butt-man off!! :)) ahhahahaha!!

Your Superhero Persona by couplandesque
Your Name
Superhero Name	Butt-Man
Super Power	Invisibility
Enemy	Martha Stewart
Mode Of Transportation	Motorcycle
Weapon	Condoms
Created with quill18's MemeGen 2.0!

yeah.. condom is my weapon.. i use it to lastik pebbles! ahahhahaha!! :)) bongok punye menda..!!! but i admit.. it's entertaining! :D

feels like getting sick somehow.. very very dizzy throughout the whole day :(
woke up late again.. missed creative communication (again!!!!) and didn't go to animation lecture (yet again!!!!) skipped media history (AGAIN!!!!) but went to media production (thank God!!) before leaving at half past four to get our (hobbitses) photos printed at print gate.
thanks for the idea, majin!!

then went to pyramid, bought some things for a project thingy i'm doing for a friend (yeah.. sentimental as always!!) i have four and a half days to get it done. yoshh!!! (o yeah, this project is much more important than maya! ha-ha!) (getting all my priorities all messed up again, but heck!!) (typically me!) :))

got back in cyberjaya around 7-8? and not long afterwards prisca invited for dinner.. makan banyak at malee along side prisca, drogo and lily. (rosie was waiting for jai to finish his exam paper!) sampai tak mampu nak abeskan!! :| i absolutely love a day with good food.. but just now was really "too much"! ekkeke!
while waiting for our food, akmal called lily! akmal was my schoolmate that gotten to know lily through some people. he's now in cyberia since he's a limkokwing student! bet we'll get to see him one of these days! heehee~

kak siti started a blog some days ago!! cepat cepat search tengok ape dia tulis!! ekkeke!!

okay.. super tired!! feels like getting a fever.. (jangan!!!!)
gudnite....

safe inside myself

pandai pandai pandaaaaai.. pandai pandai pandai pandai pandai pandai pandai pandai sangat lahh pandai.. wanie pandai sangat. so smart!! smarty pants! pandainyeeeek.. pandai pandai pandai pandai paaaaaaaaanndai sangat. sangat lah sangat pandaaaai. really! very very lah the pandai. pandai pandai pandaaaaaaaaaai

don't ask me why, but i feel soooooooo smart right now. yeahh.. i ought to get a pulitzer or a nobel prize or something to recognize my intelligence.

i like evanescence's songs.. totally love the lyrics.. thanks amy-lee (?)

sweet raptured light

* faint *

i am about to fall off this chair..
i am like soooooooo sleepy but sleepless at the same time!
my mind kinda turns off every 30 seconds.. really!!! it's like.. "oops! i was typing, yeah.."
tak tahan... :(

went for a small walk with lily and prisca :)
that was the first time we walked around at night aa? but honestly, we did more of sitting down than walking. :) meant to write more of this but i can't take this dizziness.. atoii~!
prisca.. hope everything will work out! ;)

wish i'll get to stroll down with you again one of these days.. ekkekeke (gedik!)

today is monday

let see...
had a pretty neat day, honestly.. but somehow right now it felt.. typical. like a typical boring day sedangkan i had some well-spent time with the hobbitses!
had a majoring briefing in the afternoon.. which was hilarious in some ways.. the hobbitses were entertaining as always.. :D and then since me and lily and prisca had already made our minds for media innovation we only kept quiet at that particular time. ohh, exception for that film animation's part when they showed the animation of "haruan makan anak". sangat amazing!! truly!! and the sound effects were spooky!! half expected for a ghost to come out but the animation turns out to be just sad.. super sad... ehee~ *tersentuh*
but the funny thing was, me, lily and rosie had already seen a part of that animation.. when the tear drop turns to rain drops.. heehee~ there's this one time when we were messing around with macromedia director in the lab.. we found the picture frames for that animation. heehee~ didn't expect it to be as great as we just saw it! :))
so girls.. MI?? heehee~
rosie might be taking DM though.. (and i'm really considering between those two)
o yeah.. pandai MI advertise ya? ekkeke! we get our grades by shouting and screaming about and do plenty of mexican waves! ekkeke! easy lahh!! :))
[8:30 pm]

very sleepy.
had dinner with the hobbitses and went for a short mpm meeting with the rest of the fungus. :)
i don't feel chatty right now.. kinda messed up in my head.. thinking about the things that i should've done and work i should be doing (tapi tengah takde mood!!)
caught up in mixed feelings.. had spend the night by having laughs, boredom, panic-attack, hope.. banyak bannnyyaakk! :D all is good, though..
but i'm super sleepy right now.. but i feel like i shouldn't go to bed yet.
entah apa yang kutunggu tika ini
but heyy! i shouldn't be sleeping just yet!!!! ought to get my photo done.. bluerthhh~!!
kering idea.. :-S

Innocente by Delerium

You can't see my eyes
You can't see my eyes
They don't see yours
Hear me when I say
They don't mind at all

It's the rain that I hear coming
Not a stranger or a ghost
It's the quiet of a storm approaching
That I fear the most
It's the pain that I hear coming
The slightest crystal tear, drops to the ground
In silence, when my love is near.

Darling, when did you fall? When was it over?
Darling when? When did you fall? When was it over?

It's marching through my door now
The stony cold of lonesome
A bell tolls for my heart and then my lonesome song begins
It's marching through my door now
The stony cold of lonesome
A bell tolls for my heart and now my lonesome song begins

Darling, when did you cry? I couldn't hear you
Darling when? When did you cry? I couldn't hear you

I suppose it is the price of falling in love
I suppose it is the price of falling in love

It's the rain that I hear coming
Not a stranger, not a ghost
Of the quiet of a storm approaching
That i fear the most
It's the pain that i hear coming

The slightest crystal tear drops to the ground
In silence when my love is near
It's marching through my door now the stony cold of lonesome
A bell tolls for my heart and now my lonesome song will end

Darling when did we fall? When was it over?
Darling when? When did we fall? When was it over?

I suppose it is the price of falling in love.
I fear that it's the price of falling in love.

just got to like this song though i have had it for long! hehhe~

love . love . life !

what daysss!!
okay! like i said, i have PLENTY of things to tell, but i'm not really sure i remember all the details now.. :D

FRIDAY
had a Jolly-Jumaat with the hobbitses.. (somewhat like Ritual Rabu.. spent time together!) in MVU. went out around 2 and had laksa for lunch.. yes.. laksa... i don't adore it as much as lily and prisca does.. but yeah.. i had laksa with them. memula tanye rosie if she's eating, ('coz she doesn't 'adore' it too) but since i was sooooooo hungry.. lantak lah, suka ke tak.. me and rosie ordered as well.. but then lily and prisc finish the laksa for me.. heehee! (i can't finish it!) and then went around.. lily wanted to buy some clothes for a party that night.

so we left mvu around 6.. (though lily planned to go out at 7!!) and all of us got stuck in a HORRIBLE HORRIBLE traffic jamm! hahhaha!! kinda funny remembering it now.. patience really is a virtue, 'aight? and i don't think all four of us had any! hahahha!! well, except rosie maybe. i didn't hear any single curse come out from her mouth that time. ekkeke! lily was like throwing her finger every 10 minutes (and we were practically stuck for 2 hours!!) and me and prisc kept dissing the other drivers. our favorite was this lady who kept her distance waaay apart that some cars managed to cut through the line!! memang kene diss abes lahh! hahahha!!
and then there's this one time when we roll down the window and screamed out.. it was HOT and BORING and everything crappy!! and surely.. what we did, attracted some attention of other cars.. hahhaa! sebook aje!
around 8, mama called me and said, "be ready at 8:05!" so i was like.. HAAAA?????? i'm not even in cyber yet!!! adohh~! gelabah betul rasa.. 'coz papa hated waiting.. we arrived around 8:15 after dropping off prisca and me and lily ran to our block (parked at hb4). i made a short stop at papa's car (they're already there.. papa's really on-time, y'know!) and sprinted to my room..

letihhh!! and sangat kocohh!! tak sempat nak type blog.. and i was even planning of a special v-day entry!! guess i have to post-poned it to next year.. hahahha!!

SATURDAY
Sentimental-Saturday..? ekekke!! a nice valentine's day spent with old friends..
got to see ruby and rosie.. spent some hours in our hang-out time skolah dulu.. KOMPLEKS PKNS!! wahhahahahhahahhahahahhahahah!!! it's such a lame "mall" compared to mvu.. but heyy! time skola dulu best tau lepak situu!! ahhahahahhahahahhahaha!! anyways!! it's still a neat time spent. catch up on things.. some that made me happy and glad.. some that confuses me.. just things!
though it felt a bit different with ruby.. well, it's been AGES since i last talked to her.. and i have to say that she's no longer my "twin", nu-uhh~ she's... simply different!
it's a wonder how you thought that you knew one person when the fact is that you really don't!!
breaks my heart, really.. but heyy! it's out of my control.. :)

anyways!! me and rosie were there since 12, ruby joined us at 2.. we went back around 4:30! and what's neat was that we walked back home! it really felt like when we were in school days.. hehhe!
happy happy day!!

SUNDAY
rosie had a majlis of some sort!! hahahha!!! funny.. she invited her friends for a "kenduri" but it didn't look any like the kenduri i went before. hahhahahahha!! sunyi sungguh!! ekkekeke!! well, it was mostly for her family members to come down and say their good-byes to rosie. (she's leaving on a jet plane!!) lily was there as well!! (lily BRAMBLE and not BUMBLEROOT) -sorry, i'm confusing you with these hobbitses name, aren't i?- if it helps by any chance.. i'm not talking about any of the mmu hobbitses during this weekend entry, okie? :D
zul was there as well.. (rosie's boyfriend) merepek merepek ngan dia like last time.. (kinda like him 'coz he's pretty cool for rosie!) usik usik rosie that i'll keep 'company' of zul when she's away! *winks* ekkeke!
catch up with lily as rosie talked to her guests. *missing them all still!!!* ohh!! two of my old teachers came.. they didn't remember my name.. and so did i!! HAHHAHAHAH!!! bongok sungguh la saye ni! there's this one time i said to zul that one of the teachers was a maths teacher.. but i couldn't remember if she taught me before.. so i asked rosie what did she teach.. and she said PHYSICS! hahhahahahhaha!! i laughed, and was laughed AT. ekkekeke!! ye yeee je konfiden ajar maths! bluerthhh~! me and my crappy memory! :-S

was there 'til 4 something.. said goodbye to her but promised to send her next sunday.
had papa send lily to the commuter.. probably seeing her later in the week.. :)

practically.. i had a great weekend.. after all, petunia is at home laaaa!!!!! :x :x
i am so lucky.. just last week i mentioned about missing some people, and i actually get to see them during the weekend!! :x

so today!! skipping mlh as usual.. heehee! mane ntah sumer orang nihh :-S but my thoughts now is occupied by the thought of rosie leaving.. aduhaaai~ kurang lah bilangan kawan yang tak seberape nih.. :( it's usually me or her that will be enthusiastic to get a get-together with the all four.. but now that she's leaving to ni-hon.. hummph~
kyotsukete ne oneechan!!!
wish that i have the whole week to myself so i can just waste my time talking to her so i won't miss her so badly.. :|

from an's:
Knight and shining armour, I am. Strong, brave and cunning for I shall in need of it to defend my King and country. Riding swift with my white horse (kude puteh) and haunt em down. Die, die you enemy of the King, for I shall give or show no mercy. Muahaha. Fear not of your safety, Prince Shahnon, Lady Yukira and Courtesan Wanie for I am your shield.tak tahan btol!! :p (this is also on yukira's! hehhe!)
Knight An, are you sure you'll be there to defend the King, the Prince or the Lady when you're spending time with me?? (kate Courtesan.. goda~ goda~~) ahhahahaha!! :))

oh.. to prisca and drogo..
happy 1st anniversary~!!!!
(February 15th)
you two are the coolest couple i've ever got to know.. keep it up!!!
so proud of you two... :D :D

giggle.giggle. life's actually great!

arrrghhhh!!

i have some loaaaaaaaaaaads of things to say but i'm running out of time!!

grrRrR

soo!! i'll see u peeps after the weekends!!!


happy valentine's daaaayyyy!!

try to enjoy it, huh? :D

the light is fading..

.. i still wish i know how to dodge questions [refer to November 20th, 2003 post :p ]

payahnye jadi pompuan yang emosi..

okay.. so i realized that i'm not ready.. for anything.
anything that requires me to be stable for at least 24hours.
heart of a child la konon.. :))
but truly.. i am just incapable of thinking. my rationality only shows once in a while.. rest of the time i am just emotional..

crap.
crap...
i'm crappy!!

not sure how i get through this 19 years..
this sort of heartache should've killed me at least 4 years ago! when nothing have ever started..
wouldn't life be wonderful that way?

insecurity.. confusion.. thoughts.. dreams.. wishes..
heartache heartache heartache
these are killing my insides..

thanks buttercup (as in the song) for making me see..
that i'm just not ready..
really...

this is me..
Going Under by Evanescence

Now I will tell you what I've done for you
50,000 tears I've cried
Screaming,
Deceiving,
And bleeding for you
And you still won't hear me
Going Under....
Don't want your hand this time
I'll save myself
Maybe I'll wake up for once (wake up for once)
Not tormented daily defeated by you
Just when I thought I'd reach the bottom

I'm...dying again
I'm going under (going under)
Drowning in you (drowning in you)
I'm falling forever (falling forever)
I've got to break through
I'm...going under

Blurring and stirring the truth and the lies
(So I don't know what's real)
(So I don't know what's real and what's not)
Always confusing the thoughts in my head
So I can't trust myself anymore

I'm...dying again
I'm going under (going under)
Drowning in you (drowning in you)
I'm falling forever (falling forever)
I've got to break through,
I'm, so go on and scream
Scream at me, so far away
I won't be broken again
I've got to breathe
I can't keep going under

I'm...dying again
I'm going under (going under)
Drowning in you (drowning in you)
I'm falling forever (falling forever)
I've got to break through,
I'm, going under (going under)
Going under (drowning in you)
I'm going under

i'm STUPIDLY confused.
stop huh?

BOOOOO!!!!

(act surprised, here!)

quoted from shahnon;
Happy Friday 13th~!!
ekekkekeke!
thank you for reminding me the date, mama nonzz! hahhaha!! sorry.. kidding ek shahnon.. takkan laa tetiba jadi bapok.. kasihaaaan dia. heehee~ gudluck ya buat kejeee!!

been hearing how busy those gamma peeps are.. but i'm more looking forward to it as each day pass.. :D

still bored here but had fun posting up things on shahnon's haloscan! ekkeke!! :p
listening to norah jones - sunrise coz prisca made me. hahahha!! (it's still not my cup of tea, dear..) :p
going into bed now.. i am having bad ideas.. and i'm not liking it! better shut it soon before it gets on my nerves.. huhuu~

o heyy..
Happy Friday 13th~!!
again... heehee~! :D
[2:45 am]

bored o bored~

where has everyone gone to????
sedihnyeee!!

been googling; though there's nothing to google about. :|
my my.. how did things get this boring?? :((



You are a Courtesan!
Lovely, Intelligent, and Talented!

You are a lover of royalty and fantasy and probably express this artistically, musically, or in writing, or absorb yourself in works related to it. You are gifted with a beautiful intellect and a wonderful imagination and creative spirit!

Which Royalty Are You? Find out! By Nishi.
did this quiz, and checked on dictionary what courtesan means..

cour·te·san (kôrt-zn, kr-)
n.
A woman prostitute, especially one whose clients are members of a royal court or men of high social standing.

HAHHAHAHHA!! prostitute.. how original! :)) hobbitses!! do this one and tell me what you guys get!!

the sky just now was amazing.. kinda weird too..

checked on my friendster and my friends'.. almost laid eyes on 'something' but i scrolled over quickly.. or i'll probably be in another bad mood right now. hahhaha!!

missing ruby, rosie and lily.
see, that's my school friends :p Ruby Gamwich, Rosie Hamwich and Lily Bramble..
and hobbitses over here are Rosie-Posie Deepdelver, Lily Bumbleroot, Prisca Deepdelver and Drogo Proudneck :D :D (really like those silly hobbitses names!)
anyways.. i can honestly fall into a deep depression abist/abiss (spelling?) right now due to missing and boredom.

oops.. going dinner with prisca and drogo!
[9:13 pm]

just got back! [11:45 pm]
had a nice dinner! :D there were nasik goreng usa (mine), nasik pattaya (prisca), nasik paprik (drogo), otak-otak and kerang bakar on the table! :D like i said days ago.. i love a day with great food! :D ohh! had dinner at 15.

wondering if lily's coming back here tomorrow. if not, i'll probably go back home.. not like i'm having any special plans for saturday.. hehhe! :p just probably go home though.. things might change if lily's coming here.. humm~
bored..

my mood ring is showing this, though

click here to know what the color of mood ring means..
not really sure if THAT'S true..

--may be updated later when i remember what i wanted to say--

missing petunia now...

just listened to this.. :) :x
Blue and Yellow by The Used

And it's all in how you mix the two,
And it starts just where the light exists.
It's a feeling that you cannot miss,
And it burns a hole,
through everyone that feels it.

Well your never gonna find it,
If your looking for it,
won't come your way,
Well you'll never find it,
if your looking for it.

Should've done something, but I've done it enough.
By the way, your hands were shaking,
Rather waste some time with you.

And you never would have thought in the end,
How amazing it feels just to live again,
It's a feeling that you cannot miss,
it burns a hole, through everyone that feels it

Well you're never gonna find it,
If your looking for it, won't come your way, yea
Well you'll never find it, if you're looking for it.

Should've done something, but I've done it enough.
By the way, your hands were shaking.
Rather waste some time with you.

Should've said something, but I've said it enough.
By the way, my words were faded.
Rather waste some time with you.

Time with you...
Waste some time with you...

Should've done something, but I've done it enough.
By the way, your hands were shaking.
Rather waste my time with you.

Should've said something, but I've said it enough.
By the way, my words were faded.
Rather waste my time with you.

Should've done something, but I've done it enough.
By the way, my hands were shaking.
Rather waste some time with you

Waste some time with you...

yeayyy~!! *mexican wave, here* lily's coming back tomorrow!! means, will be going out to survey on some things, yeaaayy!! tiring, surely it'll be.. but heyy!! activityyyyyy!!!! :))

half expected..... *sigh* having my thoughts on green lights.

short short

not in the mood to talk much.. but i feel like blogging.. so here;

photo rejected for EVERYTHING but i'm not cursing, no. still giggling about to be honest. but right now, i'm having a minor headache.. don't know what else i can write for the caption. :|

i prefer the printing-shop guy than chematto. :p

prisca & rosie are so neat to waste time with!! (we had to wait for 3 hours before submitting, so we entertained each other pretty well while the wait) thanks hobbitsess! :D

shivered during studio 'coz it was soooo cold and i was soooo hungry!!! (seb baik perut tak bunyi time beratur! :">) my palms were white without blood! (okaay, ade reason lain for that too)

had roti bakar telur afterwards in FCMcafe

mood ring turned to real purple during studio!! how cool was that??? i had blue, dark blue, purplish-grey and purple today! so neat!! :x :x

now i have two regrets.. should've stick to my first instinct before going out tadi.. :( hummph!


http://www.utusan.com.my/utusan/archive.asp?y=2004&dt=0212&pub=utusan_malaysia&sec=muka%5Fhadapan&pg=mh_03.htm&arc=hive murtad kah saye?? i read horoscopes and tarots for my hobby and i celebrated valentine's before with my favorite friends. come on!! i don't think any of that is wrong 'coz i only do it for fun.. and come on!! who thinks of that valentine guy when they're celebrating their love? sheesh! love should be celebrated everyday, yes.. but who can afford to do special things everyday?? :D i may be too "open minded" (not sure if i'm using the right term, really) to some.. but heyy! i still know the right from wrong, and it's fine with me.. no one else should care too much! ekkeke :p
so.. valentine's anyone?? :D (malay: hari kekasih; and not hari memperingati valentine)

ohh! majin.. jahat! X( u read me well aa? :p

and tariq ialah seorang yang perasan! :)) and he's related to rosie too!! (no wonder, aa?) ekekke!!

bullfrog (frog, i say.. nothing else!)

Quotes . quotes . quotes

it's so hard to find a good quote these days. (define: good quote - one that stucks in my head) hehhe!
words words.. i love words..
for they convey things that are more certain than a wink. heehee! (ape kamu merepet ni wanie uit?!)
for the moment, well.. for many moments, really! this one is in my head;

"It does not do to dwell in dreams and forget to live,"

- Albus Dumbledore in Harry Potter and the Philosopher's Stone.

ekekke!! i think it's funny that i'm quoting a character in a book. well, credits to the author; JK Rowling! :)
love those words.. but i keep forgetting to live it out.. humm.. keep getting caught in my thoughts over and over again. a disease, really.

it has been a slow day. i've had this page on the screen for like 2 hours and i only typed this long!!!
skipped media production's class (again!) this morning 'coz the hobbitses weren't around! i know.. i am pathetically dependent!! it bugs me but i don't know how to stop.
same to the other thing that me and prisca talked about last night..
i don't know how to stop.. :p
will be submitting my photo on 2!!

29 minutes

If you're not obsessing, you're not quite into it.

a line i took from a blog i just visited..
the blog however, tells nothing of any obsession.. :))

bored o~ bored..
missed my every meal.. sepanjang ari cuma makan oreo, maggi and kinder bueno (bueno means good!!) ekekke! terok, i know.. but at least i can still get some calories from all those lah! :))
lily has gone back home.. her mom will be leaving for bangladesh tomorrow afternoon (work!). supposedly she'll (lily) be back here on friday since there were some plans made.. but who knows that girl! :))
prisca invited for dinner earlier but i just ate my maggi and was full at that time.. but now already lapar!! :((

but heyy! i'm still in a rather light mood.. thank God for that!! :D though i wish i had something good to do or someplace neat to go or someone nice to talk to.. but i have none of that so i am left to ponder things by myself.. yet again!
i have to thank God again for lifting my mood.. or you'll surely see some more curses over here, ya? ekkekeke!

so here's a bunch of quizes and things i did through the evening..
(o~ so bored!)


Your a petunia. You keep your distance from most
people. Your artistic, humourous and you always
have your little circle of good friends around
you. You never hold anything back, you express
yourself very well.


What kind of flower are you?
brought to you by Quizilla

i kept my distance from most people??? well.. some laa.. SOME.. :p


You are one of the few out there whose wings are
truly ANGELIC. Selfless, powerful, and
divine, you are one blessed with a certain
cosmic grace. You are unequalled in
peacefulness, love, and beauty. As a Being of
Light your wings are massive and a soft white
or silver. Countless feathers grace them and
radiate the light within you for all the world
to see. You are a defender, protector, and
caretaker. Comforter of the weak and forgiver
of the wrong, chances are you are taken
advantage of once in awhile, maybe quite often.
But your innocence and wisdom sees the good in
everyone and so this mistreatment does not make
you colder. Merciful to the extreme, you will
try to help misguided souls find themselves and
peace. However not all Angelics allow
themselves to be gotten the better of - the
Seraphim for example will be driven to fighting
for the sake of Justice and protection of those
less powerful. Congratulations - and don't ever
change - the world needs more people like you.


*~*~*Claim Your Wings - Pics and Long Answers*~*~*
brought to you by Quizilla

hahhahhaha!!! you wish!


Dark shadow. Something has drawn you into darkness
in the past, and you're now trying to get out
of it. The darkness is already inside you, and
getting it out will be hard, but if you try,
maybe one day you can be who you want to be
again. Don't give in!!!

What kind of dark person are you?
brought to you by Quizilla

hohh ho~ these lines rings a bell... :|

Your Love Situation by Amberishjewel
Username?
Your Love Is...	Sweet
During Lovemaking You Act...	Like a river, very refreshing
Your Partner Is...	Your support
Your Partner Has Said That You...	Are a good listener
Your Love is Summed Up In A Quote.	"I love thee wild with desire"
Created with quill18's MemeGen 2.0!

hahhahaha!! you all should try this one!!!! ekkekeke!!


What attracts people to you?
brought to you by Quizilla

funny.. i never thought myself as a funny person.. hummm~



which stereotype are you?

hahhahaha!! wasn't satisfied with this one so i re-took it;



which stereotype are you?

hyuckk!! (why avril??????) on the other hand, i kinda agree with the cheerleader one.. hahahha!!!! but honestly.. NEITHER represents me!!



hahhahaha!!! been laughing myself off laa with these quizes!


hee! you're sweet. sometimes sour though, and sometimes chocolatey.


which pleasure are you?

:D :D sweet laa benoo!

that's all!!
from all of the above, i really recommend that love situation thingy! *winks~* ekkeke! honestly.. i reaaaally like that one!!
okaay.. nothing to report since the night has been slow... and quiet... and slow.. and quiet... bluerthh!!
but thank God i'm in a light mood!!! :))

...something must be very wrong with me

just woke up from a sleep 'coz prisca been calling (but said nothing!)
still haven't animate anything for maya..
and my friends have been awake to finish their animations (as i sleep!)
hummph... rase terok 'coz i didn't feel the slightest guilt when i went to sleep and actually plan to get up when i do.. huhuuu... terokkkk!!
but heyy.. i'm awake now.. :|
yoshhhh~!!!

suddenly brushed with a bad-mood-wind. bluerthhhh!!
[5:23 am]

X(
SOOOO!! upset (angry kind of upset) with maya!!! tried to make the ball move but it won't budge even one bit!!! (perhaps i am a bit cow on this.. but fukk lahh!!!!!!!) vavi la ko satu satu, pedulik ape aku!! die~! honestly.. it just ticks me more than making me worry.. die~! (not me, maya!)
pe - du - likkk !!!!!!!
better do something else that has a rather calming effect on me than this stupid stupid thing that just pisses me off!!!
dari aritu.. been "angry" with maya ek? not "worry" at all.. gila kot.. :|
marahnyeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!! marah sampai nangis... a*hole!!!!!!!!

welcome back~ foul-mouth!
[6:21 am]

good morning..! (good?? yeah right!!)
calmed myself by sleeping :)) now i'm calm enough to look at maya again after another 3 hours of sleep. so calm that my stupidity doesn't bother me at all!! i've resolute to do what i can.. send in what i have.. animated or not! :)) gambler.. perhaps! i should be a gemini for that. :))
honestly i'm really a cow at this thing!
so anyways.. should get back to trying to make the ball at least roll over instead of bouncing at the same spot in slow motion! hahahha!! ngok betol~!

but i do feel like going back to sleep 'coz the 'sakit ati' feeling is building up again
[10:37 am]

>:D<
huuuuuge thanks to the hobbitses!!! don't know what i'd do without you.. well, i do! but.. you guys are such a huuuuge help!!!! i know i'm a lazy cow, no doubt about that.. and you peeps still help me.. :"> don't know what else to say...
thank youuuuuu!!!
(submitted maya!)
now my only job is to print out my name for the photo i'm about to send tomorrow... *sigh* wondering if the lecturers will accept the tagline i am using.. :-S


i owe my media animation grades to the hobbitses
[3:29 pm]

*shiver*
lapa lapa lapaaa... sangat lapaaa~!!
loading up with sugar as i eat some oreos. nak turun, but malas! dahlaa tak mandi laie! HAHAHHA!! syhhhh~! :-$ went to media animation without having a bath (tak sempaaat!!) but i looked as if i had my shower.. so tak kesah la! hahhaha!! :)) so, since i'm having a lazy wave right now.. i'm going to eat up what ever i have around the room. heehee~ :D
alang alang, nanti mandi petang terus..! :))
uploaded the pictures from ritual rabu.

shiver shiver
[5:55 pm]

my saviour~*

is my mother!
hahaha!! she gave me money and i call her a 'saviour'.. tak patut betul.. my mother is my mother.. i have no saviour for i don't need saving. (really?) (i think!) bluerthhh~!! (merepek sudaaah!)
for some days i wish my 'inner-voice' is dead mute! hahahha!! confuses me so when i hear me judging myself. bluerrthh! i'm not really a good friend to myself lahh! :|

been spending the afternoon with the hobbitses. went out around 11 to get our photos printed. ikutlah kata kata si rosie who mentioned about a shop in sungai wang. circled the building but couldn't find the shop!! terok betul! :p end up with lily and prisca buying large posters, eyeing on neat pants and making a pack with rosie to go there again and shop for silly things next time. hahhaha!! merepek!
ohh, we got our photos printed in kelana jaya! hahaha!! and the guy in the shop has a fling on lily. hohh hoo!! (ade ajee!) baru ingat nak suka that guy for 'laughing' on my picture ('coz he gets it) but then he bugged lily pula. (he got her number from a book that we all put our names on)
o well, practically... design process.. done! (unless i'll get rejected later!)

ohh! i just changed my shampoo.. :D (ini pon nak cite) using clairol now. has a nice scent.. smelled like apple.. but leaves a not-so-nice texture to my hair. maybe 'coz i wore my tudung when it was still wet kot! hahahha!! (yeah, my hair like is SO the horrible - pemalaaas!) too lazy to care.. terok kan? *sigh*
[5:18 pm]

hahhah!! merosakkan kuku.. *sigh*

ekk! orang kate kalau mengeluh, cam kurang nyawa kan? i think i heard somebody said that before.. huhuu..!

i don't have the heart..
not that i totally lost it. but somehow i don't feel as strong as i used to.. hummph..
i started some project in january and i might stop it midway.. somehow i lose the courage to continue.. kinda sad really.. but i'll try to finish what i started.. :)
i hope the story won't end here.. i still wish there will be more. :)
try harder ya prisca? :D

yoshh~!! ganbatte wanie!!
you'll never know what the future might bring.. things can get better...!
[8:05 pm]

kenyaaaaaanggg!!!
went dinner with hobbitses except rosie (but including drogo!) heehee~ there was loaaads of food on the table and we all finished our rice! :)) there was tom yam campur, kangkung sambal belacan, udang masak pedas, tauhu sos tiram, daging masak merah, keropok lagi.. hahhaha!! i love a day with good food!! :)) didn't miss any meal today.. :x best sehhh!! :)) (gaya rempit here)
my weight right now is 47.5 kilos. (underweight!) hehhe.. used that weighing machine with that fortune cards siang tadi in sungai wang with prisca and rosie. mine said, "you are prolific in original ideas and impatient of old methods," heehee.. am i? i don't know.. :p

okay! this should be my last post for the day..
should start on my maya assignment (due tomorrow!). but first, finish up my presentation for design process and clear up my bed (so i can sleep without doing any work! hahhhaa!!) it's soooooo messy!! correction.. not only my bed is messy.. every corner of mine, is!! meja ni bersepahhh!! rase nak buang aje semua barang keluar tingkap! :))

[12:30 am] oops lupa repot!! as we arrived back in cyber tadi petang, saw ablen at the traffic light! hahha~! asyik nampak aje orang yang dikenali di situ. huhuu.. :p end of report! :D

getting back my mood.. :D
having back my heart! :x

seringkali..

seringkali diri ini diulit mimpi
mimpi mimpi indah yang membuai perasaan
namun mimpi hanyalah mimpi
aku terjaga jua di siang hari

siang, siang bertemankan malam
pabila siang aku keseorangan
mana hilangnya pasanganku?
sekali lagi bertemankan sendiri

alangkah indah kiranya malam berpanjangan
biar aku tenggelam dalam perasaan ini
realitinya aku seorang diri
namun sekurang kurangnya, aku bertemankan mimpi
[2:37 am]

bored..
so bored... :(
my mood ring doesn't show it.. but my heart it screaming with despair. entahlaa.. pelik kan? one minute i can laugh with joy.. but the other minute i'd scream with pain.. like a never-ending pms.
bosan betol!!!
rase nak muntah.. gosh, i hate this!!! (i usually feel like throwing up when i feel reaaaally crappy)
feels like i'm letting people down for being so messed-up. feels like i have let some down.. and will let someone down in the near future.. hummph.

been spending the night helping prisca and lily measure up their photos as rosie helped for my maya! :D should get my sleep.. supposedly be having a looong day ahead. class at 9 am. hummph! :|

Bizzare Love Triangle by Frente

Every time I think of you
I get a shot right through into a bolt of blue
It's no problem of mine, but it's a problem I find
Living a life that I can't leave behind
There's no sense in telling me
The wisdom of a fool won't set you free
But that's the way that it goes, and it's what nobody knows
And every day my confusion grows

Every time I see you falling
I get down on my knees and pray
I'm waiting for that final moment
You'll say the words that I can't say

I feel fine, and I feel good
I feel like I never should
Whenever I get this way, I just don't know what to say
Why can't we be ourselves like we were yesterday
I'm not sure what this could mean
I don't think you're what you seem
I do admit to myself that if I hurt someone else
Then I'll never see just what we're meant to be

Every time I see you falling
I get down on my knees and pray
I'm waiting for that final moment
You'll say the words that I can't say

humm.. listening again to this. (and some other sappy songs) *sigh*

don't know if i should go ahead with the venti...... *sigh*

i can't catch you..
oh, i wanna catch you..
*sigh*

update!!
----------

phone bisuku tiba tiba berbunyi;

"Alamak..pc asha terestart laa pas2 xleh nak konek
balik..oops =P sleep well yah..jus don think much
of things dat r uncertain.b happy.always.gudnite
wanie...gudnite"
[3:21 am]

hehhe! thanks prisc! >:D<

kelisa kecil menjadi saksi..

when you have a love story.. the moon will be the witness.
but since we (hobbitses) made a different story tonight.. lily's car became our witness!!
ekkekeke! >:)
prisca and rosie lah niee! lily was the good sister.. watched us as we did our "thing" while i'm like the very-easy-to-persuade sister. honestly.. all they have to do is reach their hand, and i'll just grab it! hohoho!
but heyy! taking prisca's words.. live life.. try everything that you can! 'aight sis? :D

had an "entertaining" afternoon.. felt foolish for getting all angry tadi.. it was what i felt.. but not anymore lahh! just praying that God won't show me things that i don't want to see again. it'll break me apart for sure.. :(

butter butter butter
taco taco taco
ekkeke!! suddenly remembered creative communications' class in the late afternoon. fariz sebut takde feel!! hahhaha!! apelaa mrs. zaiha..

after class me and funguses (fungusAMONGUS; our media production team) had a meeting that last for about an hour. (record!!) that was the first time that we manage to hold a meeting that lasted less than two hours!! heeheee~!! had things to decide.. some detailed planning.. :) ohh!! had late lunch/early dinner in hb3 earlier and some funny things happened!! ohh!! but takdelaa funny sangat.. 'coz PEOPLE!! BE AWARE!! lain kali makan, check if there's unwanted insects in your food! tadi ade lalat dalam makanan priscaaaa... haaaaa!! *eeeeeeeeee* menakutkan!! so, careful people!!!
so anyways! at the end of the meeting, siape ntah brought up the idea of going to pyramid to get a mood ring! hahhaa!! (prisca already have one; she bought it yesterday!) so we (hobbitses) kinda ran to the car and started the "journey". ekkeke!!
now everyone has one!! hahhahaa!!
current ring color : blue (don't know what that means!)

okehh! tired! still got things to do! maya.. copywriting.. ever after!! hahhahaa!!!

geram.. tapi biarlaaah~
i should speak less and less of you

boncit!!!!

*insert curse here*

infuriated..
i really hate the fact that i'm an idiot git that can be easily influenced with jealousy!
*curse*
bonciiiiittttt!!!
tak ske tak skeeeeeeeeeeee!!!
tried so hard not to feel anything everytime i see it, but i do!! i'm not supposed to feel anything, really!! not of the place.. i shouldn't be.. no, i shouldn't be..
why am i feeling so angry like this?
bencinyee..
:(

i keep feeling the things i shouldn't be feeling. why do i keep myself wondering as much as this?
let go..
let go.
if others doesn't care.. why should you?
if he doesn't care.. why should i?
:(

aaahhh!! gila!! 8-}

anyways!!
surfed around on saliva.. and now waiting for the song always to finish download. i can't remember how it sounded but i know i liked it.. (supposedly) somehow i wrote the name of song in my scrapbook, so now i'm looking for the song. the lyrics was pretty neat, i think. heehee~

Always by Saliva

I hear, a voice say "Don't be so blind"
It's telling me all these things, that you would probably hide
Am I, your one and only desire
Am I the reason you breathe, or am I the reason you cry

Always... always... always... always... always... always...
I just can't live without you

I love you, I hate you, I can’t get around you
I breathe you, I taste you, I can't live without you
I just can't take anymore, this life of solitude
I guess that I'm out the door and now I'm done with you

Done with you, done with you, done with you, done with you,done with you

I feel, like you don't want me around
I guess I'll pack all my things, I guess I'll see you around
Its all, been bottled up until now
As I walk out your door, all I can hear is the sound of

Always... always... always... always... always... always...
I just can't live without you

I love you, I hate you, I can’t get around you
I breathe you, I taste you, I can't live without you
I just can't take anymore, this life of solitude
I guess that I'm out the door and now I'm done with you

I love you, I hate you, I can't live without you

I wrapped my head around your heart
Why would you tear my world apart?

Always... always... always... always...

I see, the blood all over your hands
Does it make you feel, more like a man?
Was it all, just a part of your plan
The pistol's shaking in my hands and all I hear is the sound

I love you, I hate you, I can't get around you
I breathe you, I taste you, I can’t live without you
I just can't take anymore, this life of solitude
I guess that I'm out the door and now I'm done with you

I love you, I hate you, I can't live without you
I love you, I hate you, I can't live without you
I just can't take anymore, this life of solitude
I pick myself off the floor and now I'm done with you

Always... always... always...

*curse*
(sorry.. tak tahan.. still angry for things)

o heyy! i just found out that josey scott is the vocalist of saliva! hahahha!! he sung hero with chad kroeger of nickleback. huhuuu~ ohh! and i saw the video clip of rest in pieces.. not nice at all! hahahha!! bongok btol la saliva nihhh..!

lambat btol la donlod lagu always nihhh! X(

bad mood...
tak bestnyeee.. :(
what makes it worse is that i can't even talk about it..
i shouldn't be feeling what i am feeling for there's nothing in between.. even if i tell about it, he'll surely think i am stupid.. :( well, he won't say "wanie, you're stupid!" but i will feel that way anyhow! and if i tell my friends about it.. they'll say i'm silly..
because i am...
and i don't need them to tell me that...
:(

marahnyee.. but it's no point
gonna be busy in some hours.

shahnon gile! :p

jangan kawan ngan dia X( hahahhaa!! jahat jahaaaaat!!

just got back! [10:40 am]
and should be getting ready for class 'coz it's 11:04 now!! hahahha!! (my class is on 11!) but i'm waiting prisca for the moment.. :D
had a pretty good weekend. slept through all the afternoon! hahhaha! and telly wasn't so bad, huh? Survivor is back!! it's disappointing how samboga kept being sent to the tribal council when they have rupert and ethan on the tribe. sheesh!! DISAPPOINTING!! kinda hard to pick a favorite this time 'round.. used to like very much colby, ethan and rupert! but i want that richard to lose!!! bluerghhh!! he's DISGUSTING.. getting all nude.. walking around. HAHHAHA!! i laugh about it 'coz it's disgusting.. pelik tak? heehee~
but jeff probst was FINE wasn't he?? that time in tribal council when it was raining... gaa~ gaaa~ arrrRrrR~ HAHHAHAHA!! sorry..! i like him very verrrrry much and he doesn't look bad at all, wet! HAHHAHAH!! :x :x
anyways!! nothing much to tell about the weekend, really.. but here's what i have;

thurdsday : mama's office was boring and her computer is too demm slow!
friday : phoebe as a mermaid? ha-ha!!
saturday : "Perhaps you will resolve to 'go steady' but be sure of it. If not, don't make the resolution" ha-ha!!
sunday : sleep sleeeeeep!!

gotta go!!
prisca is at stad!!

ritual rabu

it's always on wednesdays..
always park on the same spot..
did practically the same things.. :D
gelak gelak..!!

ekkekekekke!!
remembering something..
so i wait 'til lily gave me the pix we took just now.

okehh!! spent like.. 4 hours with the hobbitses! :x dining.. talking.. just hanging..! it was kinda neat, though it kinda felt.. quiet somehow. (i was, at least) entah mengapa tiada cerita untuk diceritakan.. but,
i want a mood ring!!!!!!!
drogo showed his and i was totally amused!! teringat the mood ring i had at school.. but got lost, somehow! geram btol!! nak mood ring!!!! naaaaaaaaaaaaaaakkkkkk!!!
just then when i was wearing the ring, it turned to purple/dark blue as others had green.. wonder what that means!
never had a mood ring on?? play with this!

anyways!! arrived back in cyberjaya at 1:30 am. after dropping off prisca and drogo in cyberia, and rosie at hb4, me and lily went around putrajaya for about an hour.. time really flies with that car, huh lil? so addictive!!
thanks for getting me around.. :x Tengkiuuuuuuu lily!!! i really like getting into cars! ehh, i don't like to stick to just one place.. :D tengkiuuuuuu!! :x tengkiu kat parents lily jugek! :))

ohh!! lily have sent the pix!! weeeeeeeeeeee~!!


reading the tarot!! (haven't master the cards yet.. huhuu! had the guide's help!)


see seeee!! the girl is driving the car!! and drogo was "happy" to be the passenger. :))


pandai btol makcik tu berlakon ekk?? hahahha!!


ain't she adorable?? :p rosie had an image make-over?? ekkeke!! she was wearing my tudung.. :p

had funnn!!!
thanks hobbitses! :)

going out tomorrow with lily to mvu; midvalley university for some errands.
sedang sakit tekak. :(
o heyy!! pembetulan.. me and lily went to cyber LODGE two days ago.. not cyber lounge.. ehee! :">

..yadaa~

A penny..

for your every thoughts..
won't you share them with me?
.. humm, left to ponder them by myself again.
mereng~

anyways.. i am honestly bored.
bored..
bored..
REALLY bored!!!

liking this song for the moment even though i think it has a funny tune..
Crush by Gavin Degraw

Well my past came in
You dropped the ball
It didn't change the way I feel
And I was wishin I'd break down your walls
A kiss will know if flips things still

There is a line I cross
There when you missed, a loss
I'm not a loser
Girl, you know that I'll be back again

My deal, I went for the steal
Maybe it was rushed
Oh, my crush
I gotta crush

I suppose that I could hold it in
But you excite my every cell
Sources say that senses are your friend
My senses say that I should tell

You that i'm not ashamed
you might just feel the same
but you have to try it
if you're ever really gonna know

my deal, i'll wait for the steal
maybe it was rushed
oh, my crush
I gotta crush

I want to
I need to
I have to
I need you so much
It's your touch
Girl you're too much and I can't control it
You got me all over the road

My deal
I'll wait for the steal
Maybe it was rough
Oh, my crush
Damage in my soul
You blew me up but I don't mind
I just can't get in time

So do you
Oh, my crush

[ 5:40 pm ]

humm.. pondering some things..

tadi sempat jumpe mama, papa, belba, belladonna and izzati!! (ought to find her hobbit's name later!) :D macam manje betul rase.. they were going to seremban.. and i asked them to stop by.. hehhe!! :D was pondering about where my loyalty and priorities lie.. and number one is certain, to the family. hehhe!! others in the list, i can't say.. it keeps changing. :D
decided not to tag along since i have plans with hobbitses dearest later tonight! :D

ohh! thanks shahnon!! kasi gak dia mp3. ekkekek!! :p

thinking about soooo many songs right now.. felt like posting them, but then again, i've already posted the lyrics of a song up there! huhuu~

[ 8:09 pm ]

ehh! harini maghrib cam budak yang bang! :D suare budak laa...

i'm resuming my hobby again.. merepek + wishing

[ 8:41 pm ]

sleepy sleepy!!
but getting ready to go out now, i suppose..
have a good evening, all!!
and.. those (us) in selangor,
Selamat menyambut Thaipusam!!
heehee!

@_+

i need to have mittens

i really do..
mittens.. gloves.. that pot holder would be fine, too! but mittens are cuter lahh! :D
anyways!! i'm a total hazard/hazzard (spelling?) to myself!! gatal - garu garu.. sampai melecet, pastu sendiri sakit! hahhaha!! lama lama kulit berlobang sebab asyik melecet. ekkeke. :p
i need to have mittens!!
semalam banyak nyamuuuuk!! kumbang pon ade.. :| bluerthhh!

finally saw the video clip shahnon gave me!! Blink 182 - I Miss You. Sangat menarik the video!! sangat artsy.. heehee~ kelakar seeing those three that way, pun. and i like the lyrics of the song.. tapi shahnon tak kasi mp3 diaaaa!! :( ape shahnon nieee!! X( ekkeke!!

Hello there, the angel from my nightmare
the shadow in the background of the morgue
the unsuspecting victim of darkness in the valley
we can live like Jack and Sally if we want
where you can always find me
we'll have Halloween on Christmas
and in the night we'll wish this never ends
we'll wish this never ends

(I miss you, miss you)
(I miss you, miss you)

Where are you and I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep, I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
this sick strange darkness
comes creeping on so haunting every time
and as I stared I counted
webs from all the spiders
catching things and eating their insides
like indecision to call you
and hear your voice of treason
will you come home and stop this pain tonight
stop this pain tonight

Don't waste your time on me
you're already the voice inside my head (I miss you, miss you)
don't waste your time on me
you're already the voice inside my head (I miss you, miss you)

(I miss you, miss you)

(yukira's blog pon ade lirik lagu ni jugek!)
tengkiu shahnon!!

anyways!! maya is going on okay.. ;) mine is ugly.. but it's okaay.. :)

now i'm thinking about me and my sisters.. sedang fikirkan our "gifts". i think i'm losing mine.. getting out of touch.. not really out of touch, but seems like i'm seeing less what i wanted to see. nampak orang lain :| *tuk* toloooong!! tak mahuuuu!!! boncit! :( takpe.. i don't want to believe what i see.. heehee~ tak aci btol.. but heck!! i know what i like.. and i don't like what i just saw.. :)

nak buat camera trail..
mandi pon blom nieee...
nak ponder on some things juge..

update!!
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dah anta maya!!
hahahhaha!! bodo gile.. main anta je.. but heck!!
i'm freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!
up for the "ritual", hobbitses??
:)) :x

[ 1:40 pm ]

hammock story

lily's great!!
silap.. lily's car is great!!
HAHHAHAHA!!

we spent an hour in cyber lounge acting like we're a guest there.. hehhe! sorry prisca!! it was totally out of the plan. we could've drove back to hostel after sending you to cyberia but entah cemane gatal kate, "jom amek angiiin~!" and so we went pusing pusing.. listened to lily's dream house.. on her dream location.. (wished we were rich!! hehhe) and then make a stop at cyber lounge.
mula mula nak tengok the award winning garden(?).. then we walked along the pool (ade mamat sedang mandi seihhh!! HAHHAHA!!) there was tattoo on his left shoulder.. and dia pakai spentot! AHHAHAH!! klakar btol.. remembering lily said, "aww.. he's not even good-looking" hahha!! kesian mamat tu..
and then, at that place got some hammock lahh!! so neattt!! me and lily talked and talked as we watched the sky turned dark. (macam sesuai buat ngan couple!! hahahhah!!!!) the place was neat!! and we got to see the first glimpse of the moon!! romantic seihhh~!! love lily! :x ekkeke!! we're SO right for each other!! :x

anyways!! malam ni eating dinner with just lily.. prisca will be out with drogo.. :)
sleepy.. but i still have much things to work on!!
haiyyo~!

update!!
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just got back from our so-called dinner!! hahahha!!
i practically spent the whole day talking to lily!! bosan betul.. ekkeke!! of course not!! :x
first went to malee.. sekali bumped into prisca and drogo pula! got our seats, tak sampai 2 minutes, we got up and got into the car again! hahaha!! dua dua terasa nak berjalan jauh!
so we end up in 15 (lagi!!!) but concluded our dinner-adventure with a waffle each from A&W. hohohoho!!

lily's car is very dangerous!!
it kept calling us to get on it!!

ps: dah tak tensen pasal mayaa~!! tengkiu dar! wanie dah tak pening dahhh.. :x

[ finished on 1:19 am of February 4th ]

moOoOoOo~

calling all cows.
moooo~ moo~ moooooo~ moooo~ moooooooo~ moooo~ moooo~ moooooooooo~ moooo moooo~ mooooo~ mooo~ mooooo~ moooooo~ mooo moo~ moooooooo~ moo~ moooooo~ mooo~ moo~ moooooo~ mooooooo~~

i feel like such a cow!!
macam.. bodoh nak mamposs!!
frustrated tak terhingga!!!
marah
benci
sakit ati
semua pon ade!!!

i am so furious for something yang wanie tak dapat nak control.. i depend too much on people.. i am such a cow for that!!! when will i ever be independent?? sudah sudah la wanieeee!!!
urghhhh!! i am so agry angry at myself!!!!

maya lak..
nak buat tingkap pon cam tahi!!!
hopeless betul!
*mencarut mencarut*
i hate my life now.. benci!! benci!!!!!!!!!
*mencarut*

tolooooooonggg!! nape susah sangat nak buat maya nieeeeeee!! (dahlaa buat simple gile!!) tu pon susah!! urgghhhhh!! marahnyeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!

badmood.badmood.moooo~

badmood.badmood

my "pretty okay" mood didn't last long after all..
in a such bad mood!!!!!!!!!!
stupid freaking a*hole maya!!
i feel like a real cow!!
sangat SANGAT lembu!!
vavi juga..
tapi lebih kepada lembu la sebab vavi cam terok sangat..
L E M B U !!!!
translation.. C O W !!!
i wish i am good at this.. but how can i be when i haven't got the slightest interest in it!!!!
URGHHHHH!!!! I HATE THIS!! I REALLY HATE THIS!!!
boncitnyeeeeeeee!!!!!!

don't know if i can finish it in time.. i just hate it too bad!
urghhhh!!!!
tak suka nyeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!
tolong toloooong!!
(crying for help to myself.. trying to help myself in some way..)
tolooooooooooooonggggg!!!!!!!!!

cursing real bad..! honestly, i don't know how to handle this in a better way. i know cursing won't help me finish the freaking 3D but i just can't help it!
tak skeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!

missing.. stupid.. and sleepy..
yeah, what a great combination.
tak ske nyeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!
toloooooooooonggg!!!!

mooOooOoOoO~!!

so lazy

very very lazy!!
i am so lazy that i swear, if papa knew this, he'd nag soooo bad! adehaai! teringat time form three! ekkeke! (lazy laaazy days!!)

just spent some hours with lily and prisca. had a ride on lily's new car!! woo~hoo!! tak saba rase nak merayap!! hahahha!! (yeah, as if i have no assignments to worry about!) bluerghh~ dari tadi dok message message orang suh buatkan, but sorang pon tak sudi! hummph! don't call me as a friend any longer tau!! HAHAHA!! kidding.. ;)
we practically toured dengkil and putrajaya for a place to eat but they were all closed! hahha!! well, belba made me something so it doesn't bother me lah, but kesian lily and prisca 'coz they were hungry!! anyways! we end up in ss15 :D time lalu puchong, lily kate nak 15 lak. :D ended up being out for 2-3 hours for going around and waiting for food and yapping altogether.. hehhe!

i am freaking out to some things these days. macam.. things i look at, or things that i did unintentionally.. always lead to one thing. maybe 'cause i've been asking it, kot! been asking for some signs or somewhat 'coz i was in a such confused state. anyways! pelik pelik pon, i like the things i see!! hahha! :p

while going back home tadi, looked at the moon.. clouds were surrounding it.. and a distance away from the moon was a bright star..
first star i see tonight
can't help wishing to something.
entahlaa.. not that i believe that wishing upon a star could bring my dreams come true, but i just need to let it out in some way.. :) it doesn't hurt to wish, kan?
wishful and hopeful.. that's what i usually am anyways.. susah nak change on that.

ehh! i'm in a pretty okay mood now.
somehow terase tiade ape untuk dikejar.
things will come my way if it's meant to be, kan?
hiyapp~! i should listen to the words i keep saying to others, myself la! pandai cakap aje.. denga sendiri tak reti pula! hehhe!

like like love these songs these days.. :x
Gavin Degraw - Follow Through (like it.. love it!!)
Stacie Orrico - I Promise (like it sooooo!!!!)
Kelly Clarkson - The Trouble With Love Is

Love can be of many splendid things
Can't deny the joy it brings
A dozen roses, diamond rings
Dreams for sail and fairy tails
It will make you hear a symphony
And you just want the world to see
But like a drug that makes you blind
It will fool you everytime

The trouble with love is
It can tear you up inside
Make your heart believe a lie
It's stronger than your pride
The trouble with love is
It doesnt care how fast you fall
And you can't refuse the call
See you've got no say at all

Now I was once a fool it's true
I played the game by all the rules
But now my worlds a deeper blue
I'm sadder but I'm wiser too
I'd swore I'd never love again
Swore my heart would never mend
Said love wasn't worth the pain
But then I hear it call my name

The trouble with love is
It can tear you up inside
Make your heart believe a lie
It's stronger than your pride
The trouble with love is
It doesn't care how fast you fall
And you can't refuse the call
See you've got no say at all

Everytime I turn around
I think I've got it all figured out
My heart keeps callin and I keep on falling
over and over again
This sad story always ends the same
Me standin in the pouring rain
It seems no matter what I do
It tears my heart in two

The trouble with love is
It can tear you up inside
Make your heart believe a lie
It's stronger than your pride
The trouble with love is
It doesn't care how fast you fall
And you can't refuse the call
See you've got no say at all

should work on maya now..
dari aritu buat meja aje.. terok sungguh!!
jadi marilaaaahhh!!! buat kejee!! yosh~! :| (muka serius)

mengantuk tapinye niee... :))