Today's bus.

I've been telling you stories about busses these days now, don't I?

Got the 10am shift today so I went out at 8. My "luck" I suppose, the bus arrived just as I got to the bus stop. So it made its route around Sections 8, 9, 10 and 11, past PKNS and Tesco. The bus picked up more speed and made a very disconcerting sound, right about under the seat where I was. Take note, I was sitting near the back door so what's under me was the wheels...
The sound was getting louder, and people were starting to turn towards ME.
ME.
ekekkekeke!! As if they could see through the steel and crap.. AS IF I had anything to do with that sound! ekekkeke! Hilarious human behaviour.

The bus driver decided to stop and see what the noise was about. He came back on the bus and told us that the tyre was flat and he'll flag another bus.
It was a 63, (heehee! -inside joke.) and most of us had to stood all the way to KL. The particular bus driver was a pretty big fan of sudden breaks I believe. He just couldn't help it, that there was one time I was caught unprepared and I literally bumped into a guy. It was really lame, God! (I always talk awful about people who couldn't brace themselves while they're in public transports.) I said sorry to the fella but I had an inkling that he had enjoyed it.. the pervert!

Alright, not a very good day, it might seem but it was amusing all the same. Had fun with Kak Wati, Angel and Lil. With Lil especially 'coz we make each other rather nutty. heehee. Gonna miss them three the most!! (not trying to have favourites here, but I just can't help it!)

Guess I've told most of my friends what I'll be up to next month. Told Hanis.. told Azraai.. told Arep.. just had to tell Muz.. and now I shall tell Yat about it too. eh! I have actually told Azrin too 'coz he asked. heehee!
O well...

Good night babes!

Your Soul Number is FIVE.

A deep inner restlessness and discontent with the status quo makes you seek out adventure, excitement, and the unconventional. You thrive on new ideas, change, travel, experimenting with new ways of doing things. Predictability and routine make you feel lifeless and unhappy so you must find a lifestyle that is varied enough to be mentally stimulating and challenging. Independent, freedom-loving, and easily bored, you have trouble making commitments and finishing projects. You often "move on" prematurely, whether in a personal relationship or in your work. You need to develop discipline and perseverance when you have an important goal.

You have many talents and need many outlets and avenues for their expression, but try to finish one thing before attempting the next.

ahahhahaahhaha!!! That last line stings as ever.
You can get the reading here.

Nothing much to write about.
Getting anxious that March is coming.. but slightly upset that I'm actually.. really leaving work next Monday.
I know I'll bug them as much as I can.
Wanted to bring my friends to the Coffee Club, kaco kaco ketenangan one particular person. heehee.

Goodnight world.

My my Azraai..

You're the best guy anyone could've ever known..
and the best buddy I could've possibly have..
You gossip, and as sly as a woman can be,
not very gentleman as you probably should be..

tapi takpe..
me love youu!
Hope you'll always be my favourite favourite pet peeve!
'Coz you're simply smashing!
(hahhaahah! macam kad Hallmark or somewhat.)

Thanks sooo much Azraai.
See you soon!! (cheer cheer!!) Looking forward to that!

"I hear bowling is more fun than stalking"

Funny line.
Meant to share this thought yesterday but I was too pissed to write about anything pleasant. T'was a line by Wilson in one of the new episodes I just downloaded! woohoo! Can't believe I was "busy" enough that I had to catch two episodes at one time. heeheee.
Need To Know must be one of my favourite episodes yet!

Today at work.... *daydreams blissfully*
Now that I'm in a much better mood, I feel like typing out what I've lost the other day. So here it is, it was something I wrote down on a scrap of paper while I was at work that very day.

New List of Things To STOP
1. day dreaming about talking to the guy.
2. rehearsing the things I wish to speak to him about.
3. glance towards the cashier where I'd usually see him walking past.
4. stare at the staircase everytime I heard footsteps coming down from the mezzanine floor - and still do when I've seen him leave for the day.
5. crane my neck over the crowd everytime I see someone in a black tee.
6. get slightly jealous when I see him being so friendly to the girls at the cashier.
7. get slightly more jealous when I see him being so friendly to Yana - 'cause he's known her longer.. and possibly better.
8. make silly faces or act as if I hadn't seen him when it's pretty obvious that I've seen him coming from metres away - 'cause then he'd return a silly face back at me.
9. speak ever so loudly near the huge window in hope that he'd look down and see little 'ole me.. simply trying to grab his attention.
10. make stupid lists like this, that would only show my silliness and vanity to the world. Also my distinct keenness to petty things.
(but dear me.. I simply LOVE making lists I won't follow!)

*sigh* Need to get it over with! Will ask the guy his zodiac sign the next time I get the chance to talk to him. Would've asked him today if I hadn't teased him about meeting my dad earlier. (we bumped into each other while I was heading towards Papa who came by to do some errands.. was it errands? Not sure if he thought they were errands.)
Anyways, I thought the guy has some certain features that is on a particular zodiac sign, so I'd love to have guessed it right.

By the way! Revision on the definition of a Malay good looking; it's someone who looks purely Malay, really brown, dark eyes, dark hair.. and sweet! Not in the way he carries himself as "sweet", it is as the Malay translation goes.. manis. heehee!
I think I've really known only two Malay good lookies. Sad saaad world. hihi! I don't think most of my friends look too much like a real Malay either.

Oh right, I'm officially letting you all know that I'm quitting my job in Kinokuniya by the end of this month. In fact, my last day at work will be this coming Monday! So if there has been any feeling or thought about 'visiting' me at work, now would be the time. I'll be the one fooling about and getting clueless every so often in these remaining weekdays. We could all watch the view outside from the huge window and speak as loud as we could so Wan would look down and hush at us. heehee.
(err.. yeah, Wan would be the real nickname (is it possible?) of the guy. How cute can we get? Wan and Wanie!!)
BWAHHAHAHHA!!!
I make myself puke, too.

All right, that's all for now. Feel like getting sentimental and write my journal.. nothing beats the feeling of scratching the pen on a clear, crisp paper.

Couldn't stop singing this song while I was at work today. geez! It's stuck now.
Pretty Baby by Vanessa Carlton

You light me up and then I fall for you
You lay me down and then I call for you
Stumbling on reasons that are far and few
I'd let it all come down and then some for you

Pretty baby, don't you leave me
I have been saving smiles for you
Pretty baby, why can't you see
You're the one that I belong to
I'll be the embrace that keeps you warm
For you're the sun that breaks the storm
I'll be alright and I'll sleep sound
As long as you keep comin' round, oh pretty baby

And I know things can't last forever
But there are lessons that you'll never learn
Oh, just the scent of you, it makes me hurt
So how's it you that makes me better

Pretty baby, don't you leave me
I have been saving smiles for you
Pretty baby, why can't you see
You're the one that I belong to
I'll be the embrace that keeps you warm
For you're the sun that breaks the storm
I'll be alright and I'll sleep sound
As long as you keep comin'

Why can't you hold me and never let go
When you touch me, it is me that you own
Pretty baby, oh the place that you hold in my heart
Would you break it apart again, oh pretty baby

Pretty baby, don't you leave me
I have been saving smiles for you
Pretty baby, why can't you see
You're the one that I belong to
I'll be the embrace that keeps you warm
For you're the sun that breaks the storm
I'll be alright and I'll sleep sound
As long as you keep comin' round

Pretty baby, why can't you see
Pretty baby, don't you leave me
Pretty baby, why can't you see
Pretty baby, don't you leave me
Oh pretty baby, my pretty baby, my pretty baby
Don't you leave me

DAMN YOU BLOGGER!!!

HOW CAN YOU LOSE AN ENTIRE POST?!!
I AM SO FRIGGIN' PISSED!!!!

ARRRGHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!

my lovely entry from yesterday...
damn it!!!!!!!!

and I was so elaborate yesterday.. so adored every word that I've said even with all its vanity and the public self-critisizing.
damn.. I'm so upset I could almost cry.

WHY MEEEEEEEEEEEEEE?!!!!!!!!

Funny man,

my father.

I said, "My head's spinning."
He replied, "No it's not.."

Just came off a terrible fever. Came home yesterday from work with a chill and goosebumps on my arms. Terrible fever it was; the one that kept waking me up after a few hours of shut eye so I could go to the loo, and have little control over your voice that you sometimes just moaned or sighed.
No longer warm now, but my head is definitely spinning.

Kinda worrying over tomorrow. Would HATE to miss work tomorrow.
See how weird it is?
I'm actually hating the idea of missing work!
Why? WHY??
The sole reason to it is that I hate the idea of missing the chance to speak to the guy! Haven't spoken to him for days.. He's been lipsing some things to me the day before yesterday but I'm not exactly a brilliant lip-reader. He was signing something yesterday, and again I have no clue what so ever!

So, things I have GOT to stop;
1. crushing miserably
2. make a connection when I know too well that I can't keep it
3. make a connection when I know too well that I won't be around long enough to even learn to keep it
4. I need to stop any eye-contact altogether

Now all of a sudden I'm thinking of The Cardigan's Communication... but I guess it's not quite the same.

Kudos to Domino's!

[fuck Blogger.
Had typed at least 100 words when they suddenly disappeared.
stupid freakin' Blogger!!
I swear the only reason I'm still using it is 'cause I've been a user for 3 years!
What shit loyalty is.
So I'll be as elaborate as my patience allows me.]

Nina and the kids are staying in Shah Alam as my brother in-law has some courses to attend to in Pahang. Here I am typing in wee morning as I have been worrying for her 'cause she had to take a bus so early in the morning to get to work. It's bi-standard, I know. I always fuss when my mother worries about me and I never worry about her! Am I to blame if I just worry more about my sisters than I worry about myself or my parents?

Anyways, last night Nina and Papa told about the calls they made to get a delivery service to home. Naturally they called Pizza Hut first and the people had been so dumb I almost swore not to eat there again! (Just almost!) The person said that we had went outside their delivery area and that we are now under Tesco. The really stupid thing is that he/she also mentioned that Tesco haven't got a delivery service yet! What morons!

Then Papa called Domino's Pizza and the person on the line was even more half-witted! Either that or he/she simply loved making people repeat themself. The person kept making my father repeat our adress that at one point he had to explain, "'6/6' means it's in section 6.. '5**' means it's on the fifth floor.." Then the half-wit asked for the apartment's name when my father had already given 'em the block number so at that point my father just hung up.

Nina, being the very eloquent conversationalist then emailed Domino's and commented on the poor customer service and mentioned that "we ended up not ordering".
To her surprise, the phone rang within 5 minutes after she had sent that post and it was from Domino's.
They'd apologised for the abominable service and asked for our order. They had also threw in some garlic rolls. Talk about keen!
Then an hour later they called again to check on us. Isn't that nice?
I suppose the people at the head office was more able than the one in our area. Lovely! I just can't help feeling amazed by the keenness.

Alright. Nothing else to talk of work. I was really irritable the whole time yesterday, better not talk about the annoying things some customers did or asked for.
Gotta shower now. Working the early shift today.

Talk by Coldplay

Under the great North star
Try to work out where you are
In the silence of the sea
I don't know where I'll be

In the future, in the past
Going nowhere... much too fast
When I go there, go with me
When I go there, go with me

Cause I don't know where I'm going and I wanna talk
I feel like I'm going where I've been before
And I wanna talk

Take a picture of
Something that you're not sure of
Bring it back to show to me
But I don't know what I see

In the future, find a home
Getting nowhere on your own
Got to find your missing piece

Cause you don't know where you're going and you wanna talk
You feel like you're going where you've been before
Nothing's really making any sense at all
You tell anyone who'll listen but you feel ignored

Let's talk
Let's talk
Do you wanna talk

I'm walking the padded floor
I'm trying to sing the song
In a language I don't speak

I tried but I can't get through
I'm trying to get to you
But you’re difficult to reach
Won't you talk to me

So you don't know were you're going and you wanna talk
You feel like you're going where you've been before
Let's talk
Let's talk

ahhaha!

Kak Wati called..
Guess I'll be working today! (woohoo~!)

It's funny to think that work has become quite the "happiest place on earth" for me.
Maybe because I know I won't be stuck there for long.
Ooh~ I suppose I can't edit out the vanity, then.

Hey you stalker..

I got meself a stalker!
ahhahahha!! Not really.. it's a nice little story actually. At least to me.

So I've been eyeing on this one fella at work. I thought he's.. "Malay good-looking". (that's what I call guys who looks purely Malay and yet.. highly.. highly admirable!) heeheeee. Aaanyways, I think I've asked someone his name before but typically me, I forgot!

Sunday, I was walking towards the Putra LRT station and I felt like someone's staring at me and what-d'ya-know!! It was the guy! I was already smiling then 'cause I thought it was all silly, but there he walked along closer and asked for my name. heehee!

We talked.. or at least he did as long as we were in the train. It was so funny by the way the guy next to us kept looking. I probably should've invited him to our conversation. *sigh* Should've, could've but didn't.

Then yesterday I was talking to this man who had asked for directions to the surau just outside the Kinokuniya's staff entrance and I saw the guy coming along a few feet away, and what did I do??
I quickly finishes my directions to the poor man and practically ran into the entrance, barely looking at my back and went straight into the store (where us stationeries girls hangs out when we have nowhere else better to go!) And what's funnier, I looked through the slits of the door and saw him looking on as he was climbing up the stairs!!! WAHHAHAHHA!! Imagine the embarassment if he'd actually seen me looking through the slits.
Good God, I hope he didn't!!
I know I wished so all thoughout the day.
ahahhahaha! If there is one thing I hope would change this year, it'd be how easy it is for me to embarass myself. That has GOT to stop! heehee.

I spent half the day worrying if I'd offended him by running off, and for a few moments I had really believed so. But later in the evening he came down with his friend to the counter twice. It's a bit relief. Just a bit, 'cause when we bumped again when I was heading towards the locker room, he clicked. He was smiling, but he clicked. It's the clicking sound you make with your mouth.
BAH!!!
What am I doing, worrying about boys!!

Although.. I HAD to wonder.. What is the matter with me??
Seems like running away from boys are exactly what I do best. That and embarassing myself.

Day off tomorrow - I mean, today! Valentine's Day. As if I needed the day to run along and celebrate with somebody! Wish someone would call and say that I was needed for work.. at least I get to eye on the guy!
WAHHAHAHAHHA!!
I'm going off the rockers.

Currently reading Enid Blyton's First Term At Malory Towers. Had actually shared money with Dida to buy the whole lot (a series of 6!) for Nina! Looked through Enid Blyton with Lilian last Friday and I couldn't help remembering how often Nina had said that she had always wanted to have an Enid Blyton's books collection. I also remembered that she had mentioned Malory Towers before so I just HAD to tell Dida about the idea. She only managed to sigh when I told her that I'm going to read them all first! ahhahahaha!!

Just finishing up the First Term now.
Might change the layout of this page later today. Certain things seem to annoy me a little. (My face mostly. How vain can I be? - to talk about myself and see my face in four different occasions in one page!!)

Happy V-Day boys and girls!

80 Places In One Day

- so Lilian have called it.

Spent the entire yesterday going around KL with Lilian.
First stop was Mid Valley, we went to see Prime and it was neat! Loved the film. I thought it was.. poignant. Bittersweet. Wish there was more to the ending, but it's just as beautiful as it was. Makes me wonder a lot!
I thought it was funny that you can actually see the microphone at the top of the screen every now and then!
And the lines were pretty awesome; "His penis was so beautiful I wanted to knit it a little hat" ahhahahhaa!! Must be one of the silliest lines I've ever heard! Then there was this line Meryl Streep said, goes something like "You love, you learn, and you live." At least that's how I thought it goes. (If I'm wrong.. please let me know!)

After lunch we decided to go to Kino to let Pei Sun know about something work-related, and she, Liyana and Angel couldn't quite believe that we were spending our day off at "work". heehee. We were only there a few minutes, really. Couldn't stay anymore longer or we'll scream! hahahha!

Then we decided to visit Borders. We're such geeks! Visited all three bookstores in three malls. MPH in Mega Mall, Kinokuniya in KLCC and Borders in Berjaya Times Square. And we actually look around all those books in every bookstore! Geeks! Freakin' geeks!

Alright. I think I have enough of self-criticising for one entry.
'Til the next!

Can you keep a secret?

Remember when I told earlier that I was "trying to promise myself not to buy any book 'til March"?
Well.. I fail miserably - and I partly blame Lilian for it!!
Silly girl.. I shouldn't have mixed with girls who READ story books, DREAMS of owning a bookstore and WRITES their own stories fanfictions! heehee. BAD INFLUENCES! ekkekeke!
Well, me and Lilian discussed about books a lot and last week we were flicking through the February copy of Kinokuniya's Gems of the Month. Yesterday we got into some kind of agreement on which book we should buy. Since she was intrigued by The Binding Chair (Kathryn Harrison), we both agreed that I'd get Massive (Julia Bell) so we'd give the other to read it once we're done.

Haven't really gone through my latest book, but it's basically about a girl who turned obsessed about her weight since her mother keeps feeding her that "you're only beautiful if you're thin". Sad life, if you ask me. But I thought I should read some serious stuff once in a while - even though it is still just a storybook.

Finished reading Sophie Kinsella's Can You Keep A Secret? and darn it! Now I feel like I should own it! I feel like she might be in my list of favourite authors but I probably should read the Shopaholic series (can I actually call it a series?) first to adore her. I guess Cecelia Ahern's P.S. I Love You is yet unbeatable in this sort of genre. At least I think so. (Of course it's what I think! Who am I trying to kid?)
Now I shall wait on Lilian's thoughts on Cecelia Ahern. heehee. I told her I hated Cecelia, and she totally agrees.
- Why shouldn't we? Ms Ahern was 22 when she published the bestseller!
I'll be 22 this year, Lilian 23. Infinitely jealous, we are. Can't you tell?

Ah crap. Just realized I spent RM55.23 just today. Double crap! 13 days away to my next cheque! I'm starting to think that I should never be given the power to "control" my own money.

Nothing else interesting to tell. Except probably that a guy barfed at the steps of the bus I was on on my way back from work. Disgusting little fella he was. Probably had one too many beers 'cause the vomit smelled somewhat sickly sweet. (err.. okay, I don't know how I knew that!) Alright, he MIGHT actually had a stomach discomfort but I really don't feel like pitying one who puked inside the bus no matter how pathetic he might have seemed.

Alright, probably should rest now even though I'm getting the late shift tomorrow - with Lilian! woot~! Okay, probably shouldn't be too happy about it since Pei Sun will be back from her very long holiday and there is NO WAY she'll let us play around and have too much fun. heehee. I actually miss the spoil-sport, though.

A day of four part-timers.

Work today was slightly funny. Well, no. It was funny but I don't really know why.

Had the early shift with Angel. I secretly adore her, to be truth. She's 20 (if I'm not mistaken!), an Aquarius and studies Tourism. heehee. (I just find it funny!) She's really friendly and sometimes a little whacked. Some other times I just nod at what ever she was saying 'cause she has a pretty thick Chinese/Malay slang.
You know what I can't figure out? How is that Malaysian Chinese speak Malay language but fail to sound like the way Malay speaks the language? (I'm typing in circles, I know.) And what's even weirder, when Malay speaks to Chinese in Malay language, most of them would speak the same way as Chinese does.
It's just SO odd!!
For some reasons, Chinese-Malay language is infectious.

Anyways, then I bumped into Lilian who got the late shift in Logistics and we somehow just giggled. Then she asked, "why are we giggling?"
Really. I don't know.
I probably bond with Lilian the most. She has an odd sort of sense of humour and I have a theory that it's because she's the youngest of her family.
Okay, I know I have another theory that I can't really be buddy-buddy with "my kind" (read: youngest child of the family) but I suppose Lilian is an exception since there's only one other sibling in her family; an elder sister.
Plus, I find our similarities intriguing!

It's bad for Angel, though, 'cause when Lilian asked if I had wanted to come along with her to the post office, I immediately left my "post" and left Angel right there at the counter by herself. ohhohohok!
This whole thing reminds me so much of high school somehow! ahahhaha! Just me.. tagging along anywho who's going out of the class so I wouldn't have to stay at just one spot. heehee.

The other part-timer at work today was Mimie. Although I have nothing much to say about her, except that she's small! So small that I often forget that she's actually older than me! heeheee.

Alright. Getting off now. Would want to get back to the book Lilian lent me; Sophie Kinsella's Can You Keep A Secret? Had always wanted to read this!!!

One lousy update

As you can see.. I've somewhat updated the layout! Although.. I have to admit that it's quite empty. Will probably finish it up by March.
Why March?
Well.. March.. I'm hoping that March will be an excellent month, that's all.
I was actually trying to achieve the look of my real journal, but I suppose this is close enough. At least as close as I am willing to work for. hehhee.

Here's something worth telling.
I must have looked somewhat malnourished the past week 'cause I had strangers offering me food TWICE! It's just so odd!! I probably wouldn't mind it so much if strangers offered me food in the course of 5 years.. but in the same week? heehee.
Probably I'm just destined to meet amusing strangers.

Talked to Dida for the longest time, yesterday. I feel sorry for her, for the fact that she's actually counting down the day when she'll come back here. Just 31 days away!
We talked of totally random topics and also the upcoming F1! heehee. Dida told me to press on Mama everyday so she'd get a couple of free tix for us! haha! The sly.

Then Nina came by for a visit and a "sleepover". So right now Papa is trying to entertain two children as I cheated and do my own business when I should probably help him out. *sigh* I like kids.. I really do! But I wish I'd understand what they were saying and they'd listen to what I say! ahahhaha! Honestly, just looking at them running around gets me tired.

Ooh~ it's already February the 6th. Now I'm wondering where had all the time gone to. Getting a little depressed now. I'm 21.. achieved almost nothing.. and I can't even make time stop just a little while so I could at least notice the seconds.

I shall hide myself behind Pride and Prejudice now. NEED.AMUSEMENT.QUICK.
I want a Mr Darcy... ahhahahahaHAHAHAHHAHA!!!!

I miss my sisters...

Just talked to Dida. Just after I finished reading her email, so it was really nice! Missed just talking about nothing with her.

Alright. Nothing else to say, really. Just thought it's been a while since the last update. Kinda busy. Working straight 6 days this week, but it's okay since the 'really busy' season is over. So most of the day were spent standing around, just talking to either Kak Wati or Lilian. I think they're the best two people to talk to at the work place. Ohh, and Angel! But she's still on her Chinese New Year holiday.

My legs hurt.
I'm sounding even more lame since I've started working! Man o man!!
Really should stop posting "empty" entries like this, yeah?

Happy Chinese New Year!

Had spent the rest of the morning, and most of the afternoon finishing up Pride and Prejudice. Really really enjoyed it!!
Elizabeth Bennet, is definitely a character to look up to.. if she was in fact real. Not for the fact that she was most of the time prejudice over Mr Darcy, but at the times where she cared for her sister's welfare and able to empathize to dear Jane.
And of course, as Elizabeth rejoice in her life and perfectly aware of herself.

Errr.. is it a little odd to understand? I blame the confusing pages.
I recommend the book to anyone who would be willing to endure 300 pages of old-English. The story itself was brilliant, but the languange.. yeech!
I'm just glad that I've seen the film since it'd helped me through some really confusing paragraphs.
*sigh* I'm definitely starting to admire Jane Austen. (my fellow Sagi!)

I'll start on Dante's The Inferno by tomorrow. heehee!
Expect my English to become even more twisted as it already is.

Dida called in yesterday while I was at work. Irritating, since everyone else got to converse with her. Nina and family came over for a visit. (As of the moment, they are preparing to head back to Seremban.) Didn't get to talk myself silly with her!
I'm practically just waiting for March. Hanis coming back at the first week and Dida on the second.
Hopefully all my errands will be done by the third week!

*sigh* I fear this wishful thinking.

ps: If I'm not making much sense to you.. it's because I'm slightly disoriented from being exposed to too much old-English since last Wednesday.

Dear Miss Elizabeth..

and the unfortunate Mr Collins.

heehee. I have thought the scene where Mr Collins proposed to Elizabeth funny.. (in the movie) but it was even funnier when I read it! Mr Collins was such a proud, self minded git! Exceptionally ridiculous! Totally oblivious about the way he sound, I believe.
But really.. hilarious!

Although, he oddly reminds me of someone who was at one time, dear to me. Silly, foolish and rather stubborn in the matters of my heart.
Not trying to compare myself to Elizabeth, who has been said by many to be one of the greatest character ever written in history!
But really.. that particular chapter of the proposal was really amusing.

Alright, I am rather enjoying my day off doing almost nothing, but as of the moment.. I should probably focus on the tiny Media Player that is playing The Chronicles of Narnia : The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe.
I'm really hating Edmund right now. Reckless brothers should be banned from the family! Gaaaah!

update!
--7:10 pm--
Okay.. The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe was WEIRD!! I am tempted to read the book itself, but that would mean I have to buy it, and I'd be severely disappointed if it turned out as weird as the film!
yikes!

A tall tale..

about Wanie the super saver.

Of course, as mentioned it's only a tall tale and that basically says "totally bollocks"! I can never be a super saver, and nobody should even THINK that I am.

So I had a fantastic day! Such a brilliant brilliant day to spend doing anything as you like. Of course, Pei Sun had called me at 10 and asked if I could come to work - heck NO! (Okay, I gave a really polite answer to her. I said that I already had plans for the day..)

With 50 Ringgit in my purse and my bus pass and Touch 'N Go in my back pocket, I head towards Mid Valley!!
I got there around 1pm and went to GSC to collect my movie ticket. I had about 30 minutes to waste so I took out RM150 from the ATM and decided..
I should get myself a lip gloss.

I love Pride and Prejudice!! I couldn't help smiling at the end of the movie. It's just wacky! There I was.. by myself in my seat.. smiling stupidly at the way Mr. Darcy says....
Err.. I believe the thing he said would probably spoil the viewing experience of those who haven't seen it, so I better not type it out, yeah?
After I came out of the cinema.. I went to MPH and stroll around the Travel section. Then I walked around Romance, trying to find Jane Austen's book, which was in the Classics section - which I have never looked through! So yes people.. after I saw the movie, I bought a copy of Pride and Prejudice! But it had only cost me RM9 so that's a real smart buy, I'd say...
Although.. when I got out of the bookstore, I was carrying three books that had me spent almost RM100. ahhahha!

After that I got onto the commuter and Putra line and head to KLCC. Kinokuniya to be exact. But first, to the ATM again and get another RM50! ahhahaha!! Really wanted to look for that awesome book I saw a few months ago. I think it goes like 101 Things To Do Before You Die, then of course.. I'd waited too long so it's no longer there. But! I did find The Writer's Book of Wisdom which is also one of the books I'd longed to get, so I really snagged it from the shelf and hold tight to it. hehhe!

Being true to all the book-aholics and geeks in the world.. I'd spent RM176 on books alone, today! AHHAHAHAHA!! This is the laugh of a really proud shopper.

I'm trying to promise myself not to buy any books until March, here. But I had to give an exception if Cecelia Ahern releases a normal size paperback for If You Could See Me Now or if Dan Brown releases The Solomon Key anytime soon! eeeek!! SO looking forward to another Robert Langdon's misadventure!!

Enough geek talk.
Better start on one of the four books I bought today.
Good night everyone!

Money money moneyyy

I never really felt the NEED to have money. I've always just.. WANTED it. I want it a lot! hehhe!
I mean, for someone who doesn't get hungry a lot, who doesn't mind much about how old the clothes she's wearing as long as she feels sexy in it.. why would she need money?
I just WANT. I want to get that cute jacket I saw in ZARA. I want to be able to spend at least RM100 at the bookstore and not feel guilty to spend my money on books again. I want to own a pair of heels. I want to have enough money to get a passport. And I want to be able to treat my three best friends at a nice restaurant once Hanis gets back here.
I just want a lot of things, don't I?

Moving on!
To those who MIGHT wonder.. me and my dad, are now normal. As normal as it could've been. I know neither of us needs another "crazy" person in the house. I was able to identify that I am turning into somewhat of my father - and not necessarily what he's best for. So really....

Been in touch with Hanis since Saturday. Just had to email her after the day out with Muz and Yat. I always miss Hanis most after seeing any of the two. It just brings out too much good memories and and it just sucks not having Hanis around to reminicse about it together.
So! News about her.. she'll be having an exam in about two weeks and once she's done, she'll be coming back here in March for a month. March. I had to tell her something that I hadn't told neither Muz or Yat and it kinda makes both of us sad. Not exactly something really upsetting, just a fact that points out how restricted time is.. and will be.

Was text messaging with Dida in the morning. She was bragging about what her client had said to her and told me that she might have to stay with the project until December! How.. annoying! (Don't bother to understand this twisted thoughts of a younger sister.)
The thing she was very proud of.. (and so did I) was that her client offered her a job if she ever got bored with the company whe's working with right now. heheh! I believe it's the second time that has happened.
I seriously don't know what my sister did to impress her clients so much!! Grrr.
I was thinking about learning a point or two on how to impress people, but I know I'd deject myself if ever I lift an extra finger just so I'd look impressive. ahhaha!
I'm trying to say that I'd love myself better if I could impress people by not trying.. but honestly, even I don't think it's possible!

Ohh, I told Dida that I might get that lovely jacket in ZARA with my pay (yes, I got my cheque yesterday!!!) although I'd probably moan afterwards that it'd cost me RM200 and she simply replied.. "Don't buy it.." *sigh* Now I'd feel extremely guilty if I do. Darn it!
Fine. I probably won't buy it then.. But I'm definitely going to watch Pride and Prejudice!! grrr. Actually it was my first choice last Saturday but Dayat has seen it. sheesh! And I'm definitely buying some books!! I don't care!! I'm spending my money, one way or another!

If only I hadn't told Dida about the jacket....
Guilt... damn guilt!!!
Should probably start saving a little money.. but that damn guilt!! I'd be more guilty to not spend a cent of my pay. All those money.. they'd think they're unappreaciated!

Overkill

by Colin Hay

I can't get to sleep
I think about the implications
Of diving in too deep
And possibly the complications

Especially at night
I worry over situations
I know I'll be alright
Perhaps it's just imagination

Day after day it reappears
Night after night my heartbeat shows the fear
Ghosts appear and fade away

Alone between the sheets
Only brings exasperation
It's time to walk the streets
Smell the desperation

At least there's pretty lights
And though there's little variation
It nullifies the night from overkill

Day after day it reappears
Night after night my heartbeat shows the fear
Ghosts appear and fade away
Come back another day

I can't get to sleep
I think about the implications
Of diving in too deep
And possibly the complications

Especially at night
I worry over situations
I know I'll be alright
It's just overkill

Day after day it reappears
Night after night my heartbeat shows the fear
Ghosts appear and fade away

(really love this song on Scrubs! And when Dr. Cox smashed the guitar.. evil!)

Missing my sisters..
Remembered one particular night long ago when we crammed into the bed, us three just talked until we each fell asleep. The price of growing up.

Alright,

now let's talk about what a horrible daughter I make.

FYI, since the last two days I haven't had a normal conversation with my father, and I am only slightly guilty about it. I still think he shouldn't have told me to shut up when I was merely pointing an opinion. Then he went on about with one of his favourite lines that goes something like, stupid people can be taught unlike proud people who refuses to learn.
Well, I think "egomaniac" is just a fancier word to replace "crazy".

Moving on..
Had fun today! Met up with Dayat, which has always been a lot of fun! Mostly we just talked and talked and ate, and talked. Then we went to see Memoirs Of A Geisha which I thought was.. funny in some odd ways. It was a good movie indeed, but I just couldn't help thinking in the end.. what dispassionate kissers Asian couples make! AHHAHAHAHA!! Honestly! They need to learn a bit or two from those British and American actors.
Overall, I liked the film, and since I didn't read the book; I have no bad comments about it! (Simply typical, ain't it?) Ooh~ I just adore that kid who plays Chiyo! kawaiiii!!

Then we conveniently "bumped into" Muz and her "friend" Faiz Faizal. Sat and yacked at Coffee Beans. I suppose third time is the charm for Faiz Faizal. I was about to cross him out if I ever saw him in his moods again. AHHAHAHAHA! Of course, no one really needs my approval for anything but it's always nice when everybody just gets along, doesn't it?
Anyways! Faiz Faizal was such a fun today! He laughed at the right places everytime! His Aries' manner was really showing and I was pleasantly surprised. Third time's the charm, definitely.
Even Dayat was amused that he was in fact the same person we had seen in March last year. (The first time we were introduced.) Horrible first impression. Faiz Faizal was definitely no Zul (Hanis' boyfriend) but he could really be charming.
*sigh* Missing Hanis.
And if only I hadn't forgotten to bring Dida's PDA along! Could've taken some neat photos! grrr.

Later I went back on the commuter with Muz.. around 9, (Dayat left at 7) and met up with her sister at the Shah Alam station who was also out with her friends. Then we aaalll went for a detour to Giant Supermarket with the girls' father.
I only arrived home near to 11pm. heh!

Well, had a really fun day.
Almost forgot about a "thing" that looms about my thoughts since yesterday. Just almost.. 'cause I still have that stupid darned letter inside one of my drawers. *grunts* Probably Karma. Karma is making me pay for being so reckless. (and a bad baaad daughter!)

Guess what?

I'm in hate, and I'm not sure why.

For some reasons my parents just teamed up and said some nasty things to me. Really odd.

And I am certain that I didn't do anything wrong.

They must be getting really old.

The one you seek,

Had a really dull Monday. Had to work as well as having my period, so I find less things amusing. Horrible feeling. Would probably prefer pain. Not being able to find something to smile or laugh about always makes me feel like some kind of a defected person - not a very good feeling.

Right now spending this other day off.. not sleeping. Seems like the best way to spend some time. Should probably doodle on some ideas for the next layout or surf around for ideas to steal but right at this moment I'm just torn, thinking if I should pick up the guitar instead.
I'm such a lousy musician and I don't think I'll ever be good. But hey! All the more reasons to find a guy who is! ahhahahahhaha!!!
Rephrase: bump into. Bump into a guy who is, since I'm convincing other people (and myself!) that I am not looking for a guy. heeheee!

That's one thing I love about being young - that it's okay to say (and do) stupid things 'cause you have plenty more of time to correct them.

Starting to really miss Dida. Talking to her 3 times a week just isn't enough. I'd prefer having her around.. fight about stupid things like how I get irritated by the way she keeps changing the tv channel and not talk to her for two hours and then suddenly just joined forces when Mama starts yakking about something preposterous. heh! Well, that's just mean, but my head just frizzles everytime Mama starts talking and just won't stop!
I'd love to just scream when that happens but it's really rude to interrupt when people are talking... (ahhahahaha!!!)
Now now.. as I said again and again.. I love my parents and sisters but I'm really really impatient and rather pissy sometimes. Also, I don't usually bother to think before I say, and that says a lot about me.

Okay. I've decided.
I'll play the guitar and write some stuff first before I start any plans on the layout. Earlimart makes me wanna play.

(I spent 40 minutes on this entry!!!)

..you may never find

*groans*

Day off.
Just one day. Kinda sad cause my legs are aching. Weird. I thought I was over all the pain. Guess I was wrong. That happens.

Saw 2x10 - Failure To Communicate. Good episode. House was out of town and the "kids" decided to take on a case. Interesting patient too!
But the scene with House and Stacy.. urgh. Makes me cringe. Just something that I'd expected to happen but wished it didn't have to.

Wish I had a new book to read. Seems like a good day to stay in bed and catch up on some reading. Right now I'm just waiting on the paperback version of Cecelia Ahern's If You Could See Me Now. Could've bought the one in bookstores now, but I'd hate to have an unnecessarily large (like B5 paper size!) book in the shelves. Messes up the whole order.

Even after three years as a blog owner, I still have that mixed emotions about this. Some days I hope the whole world visits this blog yet some other days I wish they'd ignore it once they came by this.
I'm almost certain that some of my extended family members are going to come across this and they're probably going to read about the days where I'm just pissy about everything and everyone, including my parents and sisters.
I was going to explain myself so I won't get the bite in the future but my head keeps screaming that this is MY blog and that I shouldn't have to explain myself to other people. I guess I am very self-centered like that.

I can't tell people what to think. I can't even tell people what to say. Might as well just let them do what ever they want, and maybe they'll have the decency to let me do what ever I want.

I'm turning into one of those boring people who thought they should have a blog too, aren't I?

Levi's jeans hates me!

Yeah, well.. I HATE 'EM TOO!!

Went to look for a new pair of jeans after work today and my first stop was Levi's. Believe it or not, at the age of 21.. I have never own a Levi's, so I thought, "Hey, maybe today!"
So I surveyed the price while I was on break.. and had my father on the phone, confirming that we'll meet up in MidValley (I just missed the place!) at six-ish.
Then it's time to look for a pair of jeans...

Well... just to cut things short, I came out of the store empty handed and feeling FAT. Yeah, I really did, and I never thought I was fat!! It was a really depressing experience - to not have your size. I feel HUGE! O'course, the sales person said they're sold out, but I wasn't sure about my size at first so I tried two sizes that didn't fit me. I AM FAT!!!
(Okay.. my dad told me to quit thinking that way 'coz he thinks I look just fine. He even added that I don't have to work out! ahahhahaha! Well, I still think I should even if I'm not really fat.)

After the upsetting experience I dragged my parents (yeah, I'm one o' those people who still goes around with their parents. Honestly I can't remember when's the last time I tried to look cool. Never cared too much what people think, really.) - uhh.. I dragged my parents into ZARA. Cheered myself up by trying on some of their jackets and coats. They were on sale but simply getting a coat is.. too impulsive, even for me.

Then Papa asked if there isn't any more stores I can think of where I can get a new pair of jeans. Well, I can so I did end up getting one at the end of it all. Even managed to get two pairs of socks!! (Aaah~ socks. My passion. heehee!)
I thought my new jeans fits perfectly. Although I'm slightly disturbed that it highlights my humongous butt! - but I'm guessing that that's what a pair of jeans are meant to do.

Okay. I hate Levi's for making me feel lousy and think crap about myself.
End of tonight's entry.

Ooh~ January 12th marks a month I've been working. I'm slighly amused by this fact.
And ohh! Happy birthday Orlie!

My "dangerous" job.

Who ever thought that you can't possibly get hurt by working in retail sales?
I know I managed to cut myself twice and gotten three scrathes just from doing pricings earlier today. But of course, I am more accident prone than most people, so that kind of explains all five paper cuts I managed to get during the day.

Papa said Dida called earlier in the evening and had wanted to talk to me. Well, I only got home at 11 and now I'm kicking myself.. wondering what the call was about. Tried to call her house, but she might probably still commuting from work 'cause there was no answer.
I think Papa is starting to miss Dida. Earlier in the day he suddenly told me about the conversation they had a few months ago. Well, it was a story really. About how Dida liked her tuna sandwiches. We laughed.. and well, I thought Papa's eyes were slightly glassy after the laugh.

Trying to download the new episode of House but it's currently at 3% and there's... another 10 hours and 40 minutes to go - I don't think so.
Maybe I'll just wait until the good people at the transcript site finished writing it. Will probably be more keen on downloading the next episode. The preview looks interesting! 2x11 - Need To Know.

Okay. Better get to sleep now.
Will have to be at the store before 9:30 in the morning.
Be well, everyone!

My four days of fun

was reduced to two days of torment.

I had just written Dida one long email, so I'll try to put as much passion in this entry, okay?

I was supposed to have my Sunday to Wednesday off but sadly I'm the only person to fill in for absent people at work. It's sad.. really. I can't think of any other word than just sad. For what ever reason, just saying that "I like my day off, thank you very much" isn't enough. I'm beginning to think that it's only useless that Jesse (the boss) has reduced my work days. It's turning out just the same. Just sad.
I'm still looking forward to my day off tomorrow, but I hope it'll last loooong as I'm supposed to fill in for Mimie who has classes to go to.
Man! I'm starting to get annoyed by people who are still in school! ahhahaha!

Saturday I met a reaaally interesting character.
"Beautiful Stranger" is no longer just a song title. Beautiful stranger does exist! Of course, at first I thought he was an old Indian creep who can't seem to peel off his eyes from the journal I was writing in, but then he made a comment - in English - and I am biased about that. If he were to talk to me in Malay, I'd probably admire him less. ekekke! I just can't help it. It's my vice - to be nicer to English speaking people, it's horrible I know. Just can't help it!
I now have a pattern of liking to talk to people my father's age. I think they're extra friendly in some way. What's neat, Manir; the stranger in question, was an Aries! ekekekke!! It was just SO odd!

I think I'm going back to the telly now. Missed it loads! I should probably continue on my writing now that I've found some really great characters in life, but now I just miss TV more. (I've seen enough words for the day.)

D'Arvit!

Finally finished reading Artemis Fowl : The Opal Deception, it took me 4 days!! 4 DAYS!!
I'm ashamed of myself.
I thought the book was just as good as the other three, although compared to The Arctic Incident and The Eternity Code, The Opal Deception was kind of subdued. But it was heart-warming. Really heart-warming. Gives me more reason to love the 14 years old criminal genius.
Words been going around that Mr. Colfer's next Artemis Fowl installment will be out late this year or early next year! Yeayyy!!
I just can't help falling for a series. It just gives you something to look forward to, doesn't it?

Now I shall try to summarize my work during the week;
I.. communicated with more foreigners; Japanese, American and a particularly thick-tongued Indian - yikes! I feel sorry for making him repeat himself a couple of times.
Yesterday a local actress; Umi Aida, came along with a friend. I was slightly surprised at how lean she actually was. But she seemed.. unfriendly. I'm just glad she didn't approach me to ask any kind of question. Would hate to serve any unfriendly customers.

Today I was actually posted at the office to do some Japanese stock items. It concludes to this: Office job makes Wanie sad..
I'm amazed now by how many people has it. I complaint a lot about retail sales, the short break.. the long hours just standing.. being forced to serve boring customers.. But now I'm just GLAD that at least I get to meet different kinds of people, and for some reasons these strangers had been able to uplift my mood for a couple of times.
Ohh, and today I ran into Bobo at Wisma Goshen. Apparently he's working there. (I was on my way to the Kerinchi Putra station from the "office")

*Sigh* Although I am glad to be back to Kino come tomorrow, I am slightly down because I had a schedule change. Supposedly getting the E1 shift, but now it's L1. Man! I just can't seem to like having to stay until the store closes!
And I also have to work on Sunday!! I was supposed to have the day off!! Grrr. All because Yana couldn't come to work.

Good thing I lied to my boss; Jesse, today. AHHAHAHAHA!! I know, it's a bad sign to have to lie to your boss, but she asked me, "Ida.. can you work on the 10th? Raya Haji..."
Of course, I've always been a bad liar but she doesn't know that! So I "uuhed" before answering, "no.. I can't.." Then she asked why. "Uuh.. I think the rest of the family are going to balek kampung."
I just had to laugh inside. My father laughed aloud when I told him this.
If you could recall, "the family" HAS NO CAR since Dida had crashed it. And as for "kampung", well.. it's not exactly a kampung when there's no grandparents left to greet you, is it?

Okay. Dida's on the phone with Papa right now.
He'll pass it to me soon.
G'nite everyone!!

1x21 - Three Stories

Tonight on House

This episode won an Emmy for Outstanding Writing for a Drama Series!
Gotta see this one! Definitely a favourite for any tv lovers.
(Hey, Carmen Electra's on it!)
A little introduction to a new character on House's future episodes; a character that was on his past..
And a little more insight on House.
You just gotta love House!!







Credits to Oneirophobic for the caps!

Politician - schmuck.

I encountered a funny sort of situations today. (Monday.. yesterday, of course!)
First was on the bus to work. It was pretty full except this one seat I clearly saw near the doors. I headed to the seat and the lady next to it said very quietly, "Bangsar.."
"Huh??"
- "Bangsar.."
Oooookaay... So I still pointed at the seat and squeezed through the lady and just sat. Then suddenly my butt felt cool, and I finally figured out.
"Basah.." (wet)
That was what the lady was trying to tell me earlier!!
ahhahahahaha!!! So at the next stop, some other lady goes off and I took her seat, saving my butt from actually getting wet.

And later, guess what??!

Najib Tun Razak; the Deputy Prime Minister visited Kinokuniya (with his super good looking, tall son) and I was unfortunate enough to be the one to help out. *sigh*
He was asking about the "best pen for signatures" and DUH! I barely worked there a month, how should I know about all the 200 pens on display?? So I poked for Chai Ling who was actually entertaining another customer, and once she turned to see who my customer was, she leaned over and said, "Najib la.. Najib laa.."
I KNOWWW!!
Then I turned back to look at Najib, and turned again to talk to Chai Ling and she wasn't there! She was practically running towards the store room!!! EVIL!!
But then she brought along Yana who took over and simply relieved me from anymore embarassment.

The whole thing was hilarious! We talked about it for hours afterwards. Chai Ling said she had panicked and that's why she ran. heehee!
Well, I thought trying to please a guy with his 3 bodyguards standing by was uncomfortable. Such an unpleasant feeling. But since I didn't give a rat's ass about politics or POLITICIANS (no offence to those who does) it really didn't matter if I seemed foolish in front of Najib.
Actually I cared more about being silly in front of this sweet looking boy who works at the book shelves. heehee.
And I smiled even more to Najib's bodyguards than himself. ahhahaha!! I can't help it.

Then there was this transvestite.. err.. it sounded a bit cruel, doesn't it? So let's call this one a lady/man, heehee. So this lady/man can't seem to make up her mind between two files and she stood right in front of me and kept saying, "which is better?" Since I thought she (he?) was kind of attractive, I tempted myself to be extra friendly and clutched each of the files so she could imagine how she would probably look like if she were the one holding it. I suppose I got a little excited over one of the files that I put a little more enthusiasm when I held it up, and what did she/he say??
"eh, mengadenyee.." (what's mengade in English, eh??)
AHHAHAHAHA!!! The nerve of her/him! I just had to laugh out loud at that point.

Today's customers was really entertaining, 'cause there was this young couple.. (younger than me, I mean) looking around at the notebooks area, and the guy was probably too tired from being dragged around by his girlfriend, sat on the floor as the girl picks out the notebook she'd wanted. When the girl had made her mind, and the guy had to get back up again, he moaned so I looked and smiled, then he asked;
"Kak, kat sini takde tempat urut Jepun ke?" (Isn't there any Japanese massaging place here?)
heehee! Then Chai Ling asked what I was laughing about when I was supposed to be arranging the stamps area.

And today I took out my money from last month's pay and I spent it all already! (I'm horrible, I know) I bought myself one of those monthly bus pass, and a book!! (what a geek!) And the bus pass - SO NOT ME!! So.. secure. So.. safe! I'm NOT safe! It's weird but I kept thinking to buy it one of these days, and I did!! I rarely THINK practicality!!
Good God, I think I am growing after all.
But if you look it in an odd sort of way, the unpredictability of it all actually says a lot of ME! heehee.
And the book I bought was Eoin Colfer's Artemis Fowl:The Opal Deception, that was definitely me.

Day off tomorrow! (Today, Tuesday!)
woo~hoooo~!!

First of January.

Quite a good day, I'd say.

Met a stranger who was a pretty good conversationalist. It was neat! He talked about his children and what they were doing now. Cool guy! Well, neat old guy, actually.

Then I met another stranger who asked me what "conservative" means. She made me smile because she was referring the word to a tabloid she probably read earlier in the day.

Another stranger asked my help with an envelope. She was so nice (even though she has a little B.O. heehee!) and wished me a happy new year as she was leaving.

It could seem odd to some, but I do get amused most by strangers.
You can never expect what they'll do or say, can you?

G'night everyone.

Happy New Year!!

"Am I bovvered?"

heehee. Of course I am, I'm no Catherine Tate though I thought she was bloody brilliant for Comic Relief with McFly!
Dida called in at about 8 am this morning and once I get my turn to talk to her, the thing she told me was that McFly won the best moments of the year (for March/April) on BBC. heehee. Well they should! I voted for it!! ahhahahahha!!
Their moment for Comic Relief beat out Jamie Oliver's moment of blending pieces of chicken in front of some kids (Jamie's School Dinners), a hilarious moment in a soap called Footballers' Wife (it probably shouldn't be funny), and that one where Prince Charles was heard over the microphone, saying he couldn't stand the reporters (BBC News). haha! The git.

Anyways.. it's a new year now. Another 365 days (hopefully!) to grow.
New year's resolution!
1. If I found a grumpy yet endearing and handsome man like House, or a funny lad who laughs a lot like Danny, or someone typical looking yet charming like Mark Ruffalo, I promise I'd snag him up!
2. Stop picking my work and just get on with it a little faster than my usual comfortable pace.
3. Finally decide what I should do - study wise.
4. Have a thousand in my account, entirely my money
5. Write 300 pages of words.. by the end of the year.
6. And you can't have a resolution without one that is deemed to be doomed; eat healthier, be nicer to people and not get too grumpy when I get disappointed.
heh!

Okie.. gotta get ready for work!
Have a great year ahead, everyone!

I adore!

I think this is one of the best-est songs I've heard this year.

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She said I feel stranded
And I can't tell anymore
If we coming or I'm going
It's not how I planned it
I've got the key to the door
But it just won't open

And I know, I know, I know
Part of me says let it go
That life happens for a reason
I don't, I don't, I don't
It goes I never went before
But this time, this time
I'm gonna try anything that just feel better

Tell me what to do
You know I can't see through the haze around me
And I do anything that just feel better
And I can't find my way
Girl I need a change
And I do anything that just feel better
Any little thing that just feel better

She said I need you to hold me
I'm a little far from the shore
And I'm afraid of sinking
You're the only one who knows me
And who doesn't ignore
That my soul is weeping

I know, I know, I know
Part of me says let it go
Everything must have its seasons
Round and round it goes
And every day's a one before
But this time, this time
I'm gonna try anything that just feel better

Tell me what to do
You know I can't see through the haze around me
And I do anything that just feel better
And I can't find my way
God I need a change
And I do anything that just feel better
Any little thing that just feel better

Long to hold you in my arms
To all things I ought to leave behind, yeah
It's really getting nowhere
I think I need a little help this time

I'm gonna try anything that just feel better
Tell me what to do
You know I can't see through the haze around me
And I do anything that just feel better
And I can't find my way
Girl I need a change
And I do anything that just feel better
Any little thing that just feel better

Now I just can't stop listening to it over and over again..

In the spirit of a real hussy.

Fickle I am.

Went back to Isetan today. (Well, yesterday now) But I no longer remember the face of the guy I minorly fond of on Thursday. haha! Ickin' idiot.
But I did talked to this one customer who was especially nice and especially charming looking!! heehee. I'm forgetting his exact looks now, but I remember how I liked him at that moment!!
*sigh*
Cute guys with good English are definitely my vice. Definitely. Just can't help it. Simply.. definitely.

A shout out (although I'm quite certain it wouldn't be heard) to my fellows who'll be working today; Kak Wati, Lilian, Chai Ling and Mimie! Happy to know that neither of them will be sent off to get stressed out on Isetan, Level 2. heeheee.
Couldn't help feeling sorry for Chai Ling and Lillian who had been, on Thursday and Friday. They seemed so gloom everytime I went to look up on them while I was on my break.

Day off today! Thank God, too! Would hate to share the bus and train with those "party people" who will be looking forward to the new year's festivities around the city.
Plus, I love Saturday! House rerun! ekkeke!

Dida sent some photos today. I'm sharing this one 'cause I couldn't help loving it! It's the bridge in Rotterdam; considered the landmark there.


Aaah 2005.
Such fond memories it has been.
I am sort of looking forward to the new year! Can't say why.. *wondering blissfully*

Goodnight everyone!

Perseverance.

Yesterday actually.. read about Steven Spielberg in January's Reader's Digest.
It's amazing what one's perseverance can lead them to. As for Spielberg, he had always knew what he wanted to do (plus point right there!) Had always carried around his 8mm camera. Even dropped out of secondary school until his parents persuaded him to return.
I thought the short article was rather.. inspiring. Not about the dropping out of course; just the part where he had always wanted to film things.. And that part about him sneaking into Universal Studios.. hilarious! You got to read the article.

Somewhat unwell today. Probably because of the lack of sleep. Although I was moody most of the day, I couldn't help feeling amused at the two guys at the Isetan Supermarket. I guess I'm not so mean after all. Couldn't help smiling at strangers even though I wasn't feeling too great.
But.. the fact that one of those guys weren't bad looking might have helped! ekkeke! He said; "Come again!"
OKAAYYY!!!

Now trying to learn the guitar to Aly & AJ's No One.
Can't help it.. I just adore the song!

Oooh~ Today I saw Eoin Colfer's latest book!! An Artemis Fowl series!! Eeeeeek!!!!! Gotta have it soon!! Gotta gotta!!

January's work schedule much more relaxed.. yeayyyy!! Oddly looking forward to that. (the WORK, I mean.)

Neat day!!

Well.. a much better day than the days I've had before. (at least for the past 2 weeks!)
I thought it was nice to be able to wake up late for work. heehee. Although going back home at 10 was a bit tiring. *sigh* And my mom.. my mom worried so much that she actually WAITED until it was time for me to go home. It's a mix between over-protective and over-bearing. HAHAHAHAH!!
Had the L1 shift with Angel, which was neat! I like her a lot actually! She's 18 and lives in Taman Sri Muda.

Tonight's bus driver was amusing. I was trying to pay for tickets when he suddenly asked me to smile. I didn't see the harm in that, so I smiled! He then sighed and said something that goes like: "you're pretty.." I said thanks and walked back towards my mom (already in a seat) while I heard the man sighed again. hohhohok! Funny.

Tired now. But pretty hungry. Gonna eat the instant mee that my dad made me. heehee.
G'nite people!!

Love Hurts.

Sure they do!

Anyways, nothing much to say except the fact that my favourite episode of House was on AXN tonight!! eeeeek! Okay.. it was one of my favourite episodes.


Getting the late shift tomorrow. yikes!! Would probably arrive home at 11:30. double yikes!! Gonna lie down now. My whole body aches, and I really should update on my life in my journal. hohhohok!
My life has seemed to be on pause in there.
*sigh* Really need more time to myself.

ooh! Credits to oneirophobic for the cap and Theresa for the ones I've put up before. heehee. And I'm not going to share their links because I'm simply selfish!

Auburn Brown.

My new shade of hair. heh!
My mom asked if I had wanted to finish up her extra hair colouring since her hair is pretty thin and it'd be such a waste to just throw it away, so I said - yeah!!
So now I have the same shade of hair as my mother. Well, not exactly! Her shade is lighter from the greying hair. heehee.

Okay.. got nothing more to say.
I'm boring.. I know.

Of course you are..

Should probably have a decent update, yeah?
Well I don't!
But you should know that today is a better day than yesterday...

And please note that I don't hate my job.
I just hate the to and fro.

Jolly Christmas everyone!

Really REALLY pissed.

Happened to run to a rather rude mamak as I was walking towards the bus station from work. Note: I'm not being racist. I'm simply giving out the particulars of the guy who pissed me earlier. He was a mamak, with love handles, rather short, and has a woman-like voice. When I think about it, the person could have actually been a very man-like lady. O well, who cares! I don't! As a matter of fact, I wouldn't mind at all if that particular mamak just DIE! Maybe I should light a fire at the very spot where he stood. Stupid friggin' idiot!

Then there was rain.. I really don't mind the rain. I LIKE rain. But I was in the bus.. and there was a leak on it's roof. Well, you do the math.
And a certain person promised to come pick me up with an umbrella from the bus stand.. well, the person didn't came. Empty promises. What a surprise.

Really really upset.
Really REALLY.
Couldn't even pretend to write about the nice things that happened today.

Disorganized thoughts.

eek! December's ending! I haven't quite figured out next months layout! egaad! I think it's slightly frustrating that now I've been working.. I hardly have any time left to think. Well, maybe because I've never been a very good thinker anyways that I just find it even harder to slip a thought in.
I told Pei Sun (the supervisor!) that I wish to work for only four days come January but she said January is a busy month as well - and that Jesse (?) (bigger boss at the office in Kerinchi) would want a real excuse for having such request.
Apparently the others; Chai Ling, Angel, Liyana, Mimi (co part-timers) only works 2-3 days a week because they're still studying.
Yeah yeahh.. too bad for me. Now I'm tempted to go back to school! ahahhaha!!

Maybe they'll let me change my schedule in February. Hopefully. I really wish to have the time to lie down and think, instead of squeezing in a thought while I was shampooing my hair. And I'd like to be able to write like a decent sane woman instead of trying to keep my handwritings readable as I was writing in a particularly ancient bus.

Pei Sun was really nice today.. She bought all of us a Christmas pressie! Me like very much! It was a little bag of cookies and a small cute cup. I can never say no to sugar!! heehee.
Just this week I'm practising an all-fat diet. Really awesome!
You know what they say about emotional-eaters? The ones who stuffed themselves because they were upset or depressed? Well, of course I'm upset about Dida not being here to hover around me and nag, but really.. getting to eat as much sugar as you want for a mere reason of depression?? THIS IS THE LIFE! ekkekeke!!
I had ice cream on Wednesday (an Oreo McFlurry to be exact!), chocolates on Thursday (Kinder Bueno and TWIX!) and a chocolate sundae and some cookies on Friday! I've never felt happier in my life!
Note: fat and sugar is the PERFECT way to sabotage yourself.

Was just thinking about what I'm going to do with my first pay. It's not much, but still! I could buy some things with the money. Of course, the practical way is to reload my Touch 'N Go or my phone or to let it "grow" in the bank, but really! My insides just screams that I should spend every cent of it on silly things so I'd remember it for the rest of my life!
I actually have a couple of ideas..
1. that McFLY songbook I found at the shelf in Kino for piano, vocals and guitar. Although I might never actually play their songs as it was meant to be played, it should feel great to own a piece of them! (downside: the book costs RM114)
2. had always wanted one o' those take-away coffee flasks. (downside: RM60+ well, could probably found one that's cheaper.. but do I have to?)
3. treat my good friends at a really nice place!! (downside: they didn't get me anything for my birthday!! And with food, you won't have much memory of it since you'll flush them away by the next day.)
4. get that new Cecelia Ahern's book! (downside: it's not out in pocket size yet! Would hate to carry around an A5-like story book. And it's RM60+. Should probably buy two books with the same price!)
5. finally get a decent, nice, something for Dida's belated pressie and send it off to Rotterdam. (downside: err.. naaaah! I'm too selfish for that! ekkekeke!)

O well, I'll decide once I cash in the cheque. Will tell how the outcome goes..
As for now, I better go to sleep. Getting the early shift tomorrow. Can't afford to be late - AGAIN! (I keep on getting in late, it's awful!)

Quite a day...

Got the late shift today.. so I ended up getting home at 11:30. Feel sorry for Mama who had waited for me at Central.

Dida has settled in her apartment. She told Papa that she fits in fine over there.

Today at work, I spoke to some Nihonjin (Japanese). Well.. I talked to just one, actually.. I mostly used sign language with the other. I seriously needed help with that guy! Horrible! Simply horrible. The other Nihonjin was a really kawaii (cute) lady. Really really cute. Although I knew it well that she was Japanese, I just HAD to ask if she really was, so I could talk more to her. heehee.

Oooh~ and I got my first ever pay-cheque today!!! It was exciting!! Really!! My first ever cheque!!


Okay.. gotta rest now. Terribly tired.
By the way.. KLCC will be open 'til midnight today for those who haven't done their Christmas shopping!

Life goes on, apparently.

Feels like the ugliest person alive this morning.
Couldn't stop myself from crying and it seems like I'm the only one. Not only I'm the laziest, silliest of the family.. I also happen to be the lamest of all.
It's a wonder how life could just go on and how minutes simply turn into hours when you're curling inside your bed, trying to hide from the world that you are truly depressed.
It isn't fair.
I wish I had the day off tomorrow so I could at least show up to work looking decent, but by the way I can't stop this tears from rolling down my face it would be impossible. I'd probably look like a retarded guppy by the morning.

What's more messed up is that I cry even more when everyone else is being nice to me. Papa gave me an extra hug.. Mama and Nina sugared more of their voice.. It makes me feel even worse!!
I just don't get why am I the only one who's crying like crap! I feel so pathetic!!!

You can't possibly imagine the silence of the house.
Just entering the room was depressing.

I miss Dida already, and it sux!

Rather upset.

No.
Really upset to be exact.
Feeling really really alone right now, and I can't help getting cranky over it.
In a roomful of loud, noisy people but I am just so so alone.

And by Tuesday I will no longer feel alone.
I'd completely turn lonely.. and admitting to this is simply pathetic and sad.
Really not looking forward to becoming lonely. Been there.. it wasn't pretty. I had forgotten how that actually felt.. but the feeling is returning now.

Again, I will be spending my hours waiting on the people I love...

OH - MY - GOD!!

It's out!! It's finally OUT!!!

Da Vinci's Code full trailer!!
First looks of Langdon, Sophie, Sauniere, Bezu Fache, Teabing and Silas!!
(err.. sorry if I turned out to get the names somewhat incorrect. I don't feel like getting out of bed to look for the book right now - of course, I can Google it but books feels so much better!)
The trailer looked AWESOME by the way!!
Though I think Tom Hank's do looked a bit odd. heehee!

This is so exciting! Can't believe it'll only be out in May!!

Got it!!

Finally got it!!
After 2 weeks of searching. Silly me.. could've actually gotten it a little earlier! It's not in a very brilliant quality though, but it'll do.
This was the soundtrack played at the last scene of House, 1x17 - Role Model.
Really love this song! Really really.

[embeded file removed! sorry..]

It's okay, to think about ending
And it's okay, to not even start
Put it away, wait 'til tomorrow
Put it away, and take care of your heart
Of your heart

It's okay, to stay here forever
And it's okay to read in the dark
Put it away, wait 'til tomorrow
Put it away, and take care of your heart
Of your heart

Just for a while, I'd seen you smile

call out.

hey somebody..
or anybody..

if you got Earlimart - It's Okay To Think About Ending, please please please pleaaaase let me know! I really really reaaally want it and I couldn't find it anywhere to download.
Please please pleaaaasee..

Preposterously tired.

Saw a boy today. Just an ordinary boy that walks in and out of your vision. He wasn't British.. Not exceptionally tall.. nor particularly handsome. Just a very simple looking boy. But I had to notice, for he deserved to be noted. heh!
Imagine the typical boy you'd see everyday; probably wearing a typical tee, typical jeans or khaki pants, and complete the look with a typical pair of sandals or sneakers. This boy I saw was all the same, typical. Except that he completed his looks with a pair of loafers. I suppose I am easily amused, but I was truly impressed by this not entirely typical boy. Wish I'd seen more of that.

Found a perfect lunch break spot today. I almost can't believe that I haven't found it earlier. Can't wait to share it with Muz!
Speaking of the devil.. still haven't got the file she wanted. It's frustrating! I wanted so much to let her see that particular episode! (Err.. yeah.. the file I'm downloading is House's 1x17 - Role Model.)
Right now I'm just pissed that the connection kept getting terminated. Just don't get why couldn't it finish the download already! "Fingers and toes crossed."

But I'm glad that it's finally weekend! I understand perfectly now; how real working people felt. Certainly I am qualified in that category; "real working people", but for some reasons I just feel like a child labour most of the time! ahahhaha!

House's cane is on eBay!

..and I'd like to say reaaaally sorry, to my pet Azraai. I was being a jerk, wasn't I? huhuuu. Never again. (well, that's a lie!) Well, you should know.. mengade mengade ni is my territory. You should never try that on me. I have low tolerance on icky people. Why do you think I have no girl friends who happens to be the last child?? sheesh! Menyampah! ahhahahhak!
Okay dah tak sori dah. Kejap je ni. ekekkeke!
Azraai sudah kembali bongok. hohhohok!

Getting a headache now. Probably 'cause the lack of sleep.
Well.. have a great weekend everyone!
Ooh! Dida's trip got post-poned again! She'll be leaving on Tuesday!

Currently listening to High Hopes. huehhueh!

Conversations with no one.

It's true what they say.. What doesn't kill you, makes you stronger.. Well, it goes something like that!
4 days of retail sales.. 4 days of agony.. And when I thought I should've been buried by the second day, I became more and more immune to the pain. My feet still hurts; analgesic balm (those creams that heats up once you put onto your skin) has officially become my new best friend. The truly, one and only thing I run to every night. It's an amazing bond!
So far.. this working thing is giving me mixed emotions. Sometimes I feel so good about it while most times I keep wondering "what a lousy worker I am," 'cause honestly, I'm HORRENDOUS! (Although Muz might tell you that I seemed busy all those times she's seen me.) My supervisor, Pei Sun; even calls me "adik" (lil' sis) at times. Okay, it might not be too bad.. but for me, it just highlights my incompetence in most things in the store.

But for a moment today, I felt SO proud! I guess it's just too bad that I went to the wrong interview; that instead of getting to work with the books, I got to work at the stationery section IN the bookstore.
Anyway, the story goes.. On my first day, Pei Sun told me that if anyone asks for directions to any book they were looking for, I should direct them to the information counter. And today, a lady asked me; "where can I get the C.S. Lewis Narnia series?" Ooh! I felt soooo proud to be able to tell her exactly where it was.
But still.. I can't remember exactly where the name card holder goes.

Just realized today that I don't even get the chance to think while at work, and when I was on break, I'd forget to bring along my journal with me. It's a sad, idiotic thing. Wish I had more break than the work! AHAHHAHA!!
Although I did get to notice that one half of the people who wished me on my birthday had also noted to me to "be happy always!" What does that exactly mean, eh? Does it mean that I'm usually cranky and they wanted me to be happy instead, or that I'm happy all the time and they wanted me to stick that way?

Ooh it's annoying to try downloading a file at this time! Trying to download a file that I had promised Muz in the morning but it's just TOO SLOW!! Wish I could be at home at 3pm when my downloads are usually reasonably fast..
All is left a dream for now I have a JOB. *sigh* I'm missing unemployment.

Note: To those who wishes to see me at work, you can. I promise I won't get mad. Just come near my break so I won't be eating alone. heehee. Having the noon shift can be a bore.. although I'm loving the fact that I only need to be there by 12!

Okay. Seems like I won't stop yapping.

Loving today.

Today felt really neat...
For one, my feet didn't hurt as much as the last two days.
Two, Nina came along after work with us - feels like the good ole times.
Three, we ate at Pizza Hut - and when "serious senior Pizza Hut diners" that are closely related to Mohd Idris doesn't get the exact topping on their pizzas, drama will surely follow. heehee! Was so funny, watching the waiters having a meeting over extra cheese, pineapples and olives.
For a minute, there were 3 waiters at our table!
Then later when it's settled, those waiters just got so keen on our table that when one of them overheard Dida saying that there wasn't any chilly sauce on the table, he clearly calls out at his friends for sauce - repeatedly. Probably afraid that we'll cause any more "scene". heehee.
Obviously something's wrong with us.. for enjoying our time bullying those waiters.

Okie! Sorry if you didn't understand my rather rusty writing skills. The whole thing about the pizza place was supposed to be funny.
Gotta go. Dida wants the laptop.

G'nite!!

Not a very bad ending.

Though I almost cried 6 times in public.. and in front of Muz at lunch (who stopped by 'cause she's plain nice).. wanting to off every single soul who dared to ask me where they could find "an indexed note book".. the even more aching feet..
It comes down to a nice family dinner at Chilli's.
It was still one of the worst days of my life.. but it was nice to have the whole family around.

Great people are/were Sagittarians.

Of course, great can either mean good or terrible, so no offence to everyone else who wasn't born between November 23rd and December 21st. I'm just being pompous.

To name a few of those great people; Karl Benz, Bruce Lee, Jimi Hendrix, Mark Twain, Winston Churchill, Woody Allen, Maria Rilke, Francisco Franco, Steven Spielberg, Walt Disney, C.S. Lewis, Charles Schultz, Frank Sinatra, Jane Austen, Ludwig van Beethoven, Andrew Carnegie, William Bonney, Morrie Schwartz and Nostrodamus. (of course, then there's those plain celebrities such as Britney Spears, Tyra Banks, Tina Turner, Benjamin Bratt, Brad Pitt, Katie Holmes, Jake Gyllenhaal and Alyssa Milano.)
To name a few, I said - hah!!
[the underlined names, are of course the people that are featured on this month's layout!]

And today, I'm wishing happy birthday to Jamie Foxx, Nick McCarthy, Tom Delonge and Amy Lee!

(It is slightly disturbing that I find more famous men than women. More disturbing that people born this day turned out to be just celebrities!)

I hope I'll come close to greatness one day. As of right now, I just feel..
mightily timid.
And slightly depressed. My true feelings aren't nearly as cheery as the first half of this post, 'cause honestly this is the worst morning I've ever had. Stupidest morning ever!

You can tell it's a horrible morning when you're banking on people to forget. (-thanks to those who didn't.)
Maybe I'm just really really cranky because I am still in pain. Just thinking about going to work later just aches me.

Stupid damn day!!! *curse curse and more curses*

Pierre Cardin KILLS!!

Never thought working in retail sales could be so hard.
Well, not exactly "hard" but I should take a while to get used to it. What's certain is that I could really.. really DIE wearing my lovely black shoes for straight 8 hours. *cries* Of course I didn't cry in front of my co-workers, but once I got into the car with Mama, Papa and Dida.. I couldn't possibly hold my pain any longer.
Good God, I really need a proper, comfy black shoes.. (If only they'd let me wear my Converse..)
The people there was okay. This one girl, Chai Leng was so funny. She said I looked like someone with mixed blood. WAHHAHAHHA!! Yeah, RIGHT!

Dida's trip was post-poned. She'll be leaving on either Saturday or Sunday. I tried to persuade her to create a blog so we (the family) could easily check up on her, but of course.. she even HATES reading. Can't possibly tell her to start WRITING!

Okay.. gonna lie down now. Feet really hurts and I still need to go to work tomorrow!
Need - rest.
Goodnight everyone!

And ohh.. thanks Shahnon - you cheater!

As mentioned.

Went to see the wreckage this morning.
She wasn't lying about being in a ditch.
And too bad for Dida.. her phone is officially gone. Couldn't find it anywhere. Must've dropped into the water.


What seemingly to be nothing horrid at all.


What's left of the car.


The ditch in question.


The dead labrador - and it's guts?


One of the hubcaps left in the water.


Recovered Daniel Bedingfield.


Where it all happened.

DIDA IS AN ARSE!!!

She got into an accident AGAIN!!! Can you believe her??
The stupid git.

This one was worse.. but she got out of the wreck pretty okay. Yes, wreck.
She was driving at 100km/h and somehow hit a "dog with a mission". As Dida had told us, it (the dog) was sitting pretty still on the road and when Dida tried to changed lanes, the dog changed it's position too. The damned dog!
So Dida had no choice but to ram the stupid dog - which then died (padan muke ko!) - but her car swerved to the side and hit the divider, and then it flipped a couple of times and landed on it's roof into a ditch - submerging her head for a few seconds before it turned to land back on it's "feet". (pardon the too many 'and's)
DAMN THE DOG!!!

She's okay. She's really fine. Just some scratches and cuts from the broken glasses.
Will probably upload a few pictures later.
Thank God there were people around to help her out.
God...

Dida said she's now considered a stuntman. Could even match Evil Knievel. She also said, "anjing memang haramm!" (dogs are definitely haram!)
And here's a community message from her; Don't speed, and always wear the seat belt.

Now tell me.. why shouldn't anyone get worried when she'll leave for Rotterdam??
(Good thing she won't be driving there!)

*sigh*

Pardon the sigh. I am feeling rather upset since yesterday evening.
As you might have known, Dida going to Rotterdam is now CONFIRMED. I suppose I have expected that news to come by this week. What I hadn't counted on was the when she'll be leaving.
This time next week.. she'll be hustling and bustling around for her things.
She's leaving on December 15th.
And I'm upset because of that.
She won't even be here for her birthday!!
I know she doesn't need a bash or something like that.. but she'll be celebrating birthday with no one she knows by her side. I mean.. o I don't know.. I seem to take this personally, don't I? I just think.. no one should be alone on their birthday. The thought.. is upsetting.

And she'll be gone for 3 months, be back here for 2 weeks, and get back there again. And we'll go this way again, then.
I'm just so used to having her around.. bugging me, nagging on me, pisses me off.. Now, how can I gossip with her about our parents?!! My one true ally will be gone for 3 WHOLE MONTHS!!!
Now I've lost all reason to be happy for her.

And me, being the very typical emotionally-retarded person me, have started to feel some sort of resentment towards my sister.
How messed up can a person get?
*sigh*
Maybe I'll just die and stop having feelings.

Note: To those who are thinking I'm being overly dramatic and that I'm just blowing things out of proportion.. Go piss someone else!

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A quick update:
Got a call. A part-time job offer, starts Monday. Might actually take it even though I'd have to spend half of the salary on transportation alone.
O well. Not like I have better things to do once Dida's gone.

7:34 pm @ December 8th, 2005

Noone wants to be alone.

Am I right, or am I right?
heh! I don't remember what I was thinking just now.. but I know I was thinking of that line right at the end of my thoughts.
eh.. am I making sense?
O well, probably this will make things a little clear; saw The Perfect Man just now.. Couldn't sleep. I thought it was enjoyable. Not great, but "enjoyable" - definitely. Starting to like Hilary Duff more - maybe because Joel Madden is her boyfriend. *lol*

Change of subject!
Apple now has a trailer of the upcoming X3 movie!! wooot~!! GO HERE!
Out May 26th. Seems like I'm going to reaaaally like May next year!! (Da Vinci Code will be out on the 19th!)
Yeayy! This is bloody brilliant!

#17 - Role Model.

Saw Ice Princess last night and the first thing I noticed was the soundtrack at the opening! So I look up on it and found this girls;

They're sisters; Aly & AJ, and if you watch enough Disney Channel, you'd notice that Aly, is a matter of fact Keely in Phil of The Future!
Anyway, if you go to their website, you could listen to bits of their music and watch their video.. so, get!
(No One is the song I heard - and love! - in Ice Princess.)

Tonight on House!
At a high-level campaign fundraiser, a senator becomes violently ill. Vogler forces House to take the senator's case and offers to let off the hook on firing a team member if he'll deliver a speech on behalf of Vogler's pharmaceutical company.

now.. what will he do, eh?
heehee.

E noi dovrem, ahimè, morir.

A line from a song, of course.
I hardly know any other language than English and Malay. heh!

Hope you had a good weekend!
Mine was simply fine.

Have a good week ahead, everyone!

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A lil' update on this fine Monday afternoon.
Found a funny Mad TV spoof of House!
You can download from this link! (right click and "Save Target As...")

- file hosted by BD212.
- discovered at play.house
1:52 pm

Dida called. She's going.
Heart - dropped.
2:40 pm @ December 5th, 2005

For some odd reasons..

and I don't know why;

- I feel like a day of my life is missing. I spent the whole yesterday thinking that it was Thursday until my father asked if I knew Dida's plans for the weekends. He told me that the day was Friday and I can't help but gape in wonder.

- I am sooo bothered by House's episode titles for the last five of the second season. Bothered. Verrry bothered. Those episodes are called: Need To Know, Happiness, Skin Deep, Heartless, and Clueless. Is it only me, but they sounds very melancholic and.. oh, I don't know.. A possibility that there'll be more character development - and probably sad ones?

- I searched for some spoilers on Lost. Well, it's not exactly odd that I went off finding it, but I'm not as obsessed about it as I am with House. Aaanyway, it's all because of one o'those small cuts on AXN! They've hinted on the next person who got killed on the island. *sigh* Yeah, now I know who gets the 'X' - in the second season. (TV haven't started on the second season yet, over here.)

- Tom dyed his hair dark (brown, likely.) bluergthhh! Well, not THAT awful but I'm just so used to him being blonde. *sigh* Their new single out on this 12th December. The video was creepily neat! I liked it.


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And to my dear non-evil twin, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!
May the age finally match your level of maturity this time 'round! heehee.

I've finally done it.

Yes I did.

Finally made a friend in one o' those online community who told me exactly where to find House videos and download them!
Amazing.. Amazing people those are!


I didn't really went downloading crazy.. So far I've only seen two episodes in advance! One is of the first season, the other is from the second season! Really, not so bad, my obsession. Am still looking forward to next week's episode; I don't plan on downloading anymore from the current season on AXN.
There's something about being all anxious that excites me. heh!

For one night I didn't hog the remote control - cause I hogged the computer, o'course! Watched videos religiously; Bend It Like Beckham (out of curiosity) and that two episodes of House!
Probably should go off to bed now, yeah?

I crack myself up.

No pun intended, but if you get the pun, it'd be fine.. heh!
So what does this remind you of?


Just put up a new layout. The theme is.. well, the theme is PURPLE, and the photos.. I'll tell you about that somewhere mid this month. hehe!

Finally got well in 7 days! heehee. My immune system kicks in in seven days! Lousy, but it works!! yeayy!

And this one is for Azraai. (takdelaa best sangat lagu ni!)
[embeded file removed. -sorry!]
The Beatles - In My Life