Trailers Galore

It's that time again! When I have nothing else better to do so I go and watch Apple Trailers and yacked about it in here. It's all WK's fault, really. Two days break... now I have NOTHING else to do while I was wide awake through the night.

Okay, I saw Aquamarine which interested me. I checked IMDB that it was playing in May in Malaysia? Well, I wasn't here, so I'm downloading it now. Then there's Step Up, a film about dancing-stuff which had never failed to intrigue me into wanting to know more. hahha! It'll be out on August in America. The hero oddly looked like Wentworth Miller on the poster. heehee! I also saw the trailer of Thank You For Smoking which I thought was hilarious! Maybe I'll download it next. Not too sure what's left of this computer's memory. *smiles sheepishly*

Then there was Uma Thurman in My Super Ex-Girlfriend which I thought was really cool!! I mean, it's a bit odd that Uma Thurman is playing it, but the idea of a man, breaking up with a superhero and gets his ass kicked for it seemed really cool! -and very human! I also watched the trailer of Invincible, starring Mark Wahlberg. The trailer had smartly started with Baba O'Riley by The Who. heehee! As a typical Disney movie, this trailer had successfully made me warm and fuzzy and quite intrigued! I doubt I'd actually see it in the movies, but I'm sure I'll put a look out for it if it ever comes on the telly!

Lastly, Spider-man 3! It looks awesome! Looking forward to that one! The beginning of the trailer kinda reminds me of what they've done on Da Vinci Code's teaser - you know, the "walk-through" of the Mona Lisa. Well, it makes me anxious just the same! (but I do hope that Spider-man won't be a disappointment just the same.)

Okay, I saw this funny question on Tickle;
For the rest of your life, would you rather talk like Yoda or breathe like Darth Vader? ahhahhaha!! I laughed out loud at this one. Okay, if I really have to.. I'd rather talk like Yoda! I think it's hilarious to speak in circles!!

Okay, going to watch Aquamarine now. Then I should probably get some sleep since I haven't had any since last night. yikes!
Do you know that people can actually die from not getting enough sleep? It's something about the brain not being able to replenish/recharge(?? sorry, couldn't find the word!) the neurons in the brain. *sigh* Obviously, not having any sleep makes me rather dumb.

Football Talk

And then there were eight.

Exciting, isn't it? *glee*
In two days, the quarter finals are going to kick off!!

Friday, June 30th, 11pm
Germany v Argentina
Seems fair, yeah? I thought Germany had been very strong since the beginning and it didn't surprise me that they've gotten to the quarter finals. They deserve it. Argentina.. well, I'm not too keen on them. Mostly, I'm not keen on Maradona, hoho! So, sorry.. I am biased, it's pretty plain to see. So that's where I stand, Germany should win this one!

Saturday, July 1st, 3am
Italy v Ukraine
Ohh.. that penalty kick for Italy.. shameful! It wasn't even a real foul!! Come on!! But the match with the Socceroos were rather boring, so "whatever!" I couldn't care less about any of them. I don't care about them just as much as I don't care about Ukraine, but I think they were the better player between the Swiss. So who knows! Maybe the Ukranians will upset the Azzurri.
But as I said earlier, "whatever!"

Saturday, July 1st, 11pm
England v Portugal
ahhahaha!! Well.. I want England to win this one. I know they've been playing pretty lousy, I've been cursing at them abundantly! But I want them to win SO BAD!! I know I said they probably don't deserve to win the Cup, but compared to Portugal? God!! I SO want England to kick their arse! I hated their game with Nederland! It was awful! I've never seen a match so.. filthy! Shameful, really!
So yeah, I might be biased, but Portugal doesn't deserve to win it even more than England. *grins*

Sunday, July 2nd, 3am
Brazil v France
heehee. I thought Zidane looked cute after he scored that third goal that secured France's place at the last eight. Okay, I have been rather critical about France beacuse they have been playing like half-asleep since their first game! They've got Thierry Henry, they've got Zinedine Zidane.. I say this is the first great game they've played! So, cheers Les Blues - and their fans. *shifting a look* But I kinda feel sorry for Casillas. *sigh* Poor Casillas... (and to think that both him and Zidane plays for Real Madrid! ahhahahha!!! Such a huge advantage.)
Anyways, Brazil had an easy win over Ghana. Ghana was LAME! I just didn't get it why they just HAD to try to score goals with a long shot - every friggin' single one of them! And they didn't seem to learn ANYTHING every friggin' single time it failed!! That was just lame. Good for Brazil, Ghana were too lame to be in the quarter finals. Brazil and France is going to be an interesting match!

Oooh! Just exciting!!

**the times stated were of course, Malaysian time! And that's +08:00GMT, for those who didn't know.
***and I am rather harsh over some comments, aren't I? I seem to have a double personality when it comes to sports. Football especially. Suddenly I became some rude, cursing hillbilly from somewhere. heehee!

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My father was telling me about one of the main articles in the latest Reader's Digest, something about courtesies and politeness.
Kuala Lumpur turned out to be listed at #32 out of 35 cities.. (I think!) Well, that shocks me!! I admit, compared to other places that I've recently been to, Malaysians are quite unfriendly and may be rather impolite. But to be listed at #32?? I think not!!
Then my father said that the test was done on 60 people. 60 people??? Heck! That's not even one percent of the population!! So now I'm convinced that those people who'd ran those tests weren't thinking right and rather stupid. Yes. Stupid.
I mean, come on!!
What's more, among their definition of courtesies were;
1. if someone opens the door for you,
2. if the person at the store cashier says thank you after you bought something,
3. if someone helps you collect, for example, some papers you've dropped on the ground.
COME ON!! A joke, that's what it is! I bet dia pegi kedai runcit or mamak mane ntah and expected them to say thank you!! HAHH! How can you possibly run a test on 60 people.. and say, "ohh, most people in Kuala Lumpur were impolite."
Ohh! And New York was #1 on the list! ahhahhahaha!! Sorry, I have nothing against New York really, (I even wish to see it one day!) but even in the movies they'd portray New Yorkers as very loud and ignorant. So really.. REALLY!!
Stupid Reader's Digest ticks me.

Moving on.
Been wanting to write about this for days but I keep forgetting about it.
So I've seen McFly's latest video. The song wasn't exactly to my liking, but the video made me laugh!
There's news that Hillary Swank is going to play Holly in Warner Bros.' adaptation of P.S, I Love You by Cecelia Ahern! Well.. I don't exactly know what to think. Hillary Swank.. that's a big name there but.. I just can't imagine her in that role actually.
And Disney had bought the rights for If You Could See Me Now, which I think is.. very proper since the story is one o' those heart-warming kind, exactly what Disney movies are usually about. Hugh Jackman is going to play Ivan. heehee! Let's just say that I can't help myself grinning everytime I think about it. But then again, I read somewhere that it's going to be a musical of some sort? So... AHHAHAHHAHA!! I think it's a mistake, but what do I know?
I'll just wait and see.. and critic later.

I was randomly blog hopping again, and found some that was worth looking through. One of them had this as one of her entries:
"Let's say that you are granted the ability to travel in time to witness anything you want. You can do it 5 times. What 5 events would you choose to see, in the entire history of the world? Why? Keep in mind that this doesn't just include human history. Any time. Any place."
hehhe. Kinda interesting to ponder about, yeah?
But honestly.. although I could see 5.. I just can't quite decide what I really want to see. Maybe I'll get back to this, one day.

Just spent the past few hours doing this new layout. Nothing much changed, really. Just that I got rid of the archives - only because I couldn't find any space for it! hahahhaha!! Wish there was an option for an archive 'annually' instead of monthly! It's not like I started my blog last month! sheesh!
- never thought that I should explain the words that I choose to use on my blog, but here it is, when I said "got rid of the archives", I meant that I've gotten rid of it from the layout since I can't find a space for the links. I would never.. EVER delete the archives just for the sake of the layout!

Anger and disappointment subsided--

I can't seem to get this song out of my head!! (after watching High School Musical on Disney Channel) I'm not angry, but it's crazy!!

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Suddenly remembering my old days with the choir group in school. I can almost hear Mrs. Chin telling us, "smile.. smile..!" heehee! After a while our smiles were just plastered there on our faces.

There was this one time when Nina and Dida were still in school and I came with them to their choir practice, Mrs. Chin asked us three to sing something for the rest of the group. We sang Edelweiss - that song from Sound Of Music. Funny to think that I hadn't even started Standard One at that time. heehee! perasan prodigy of some sort! ahhahhahaha!!!

O well, my point being: I miss singing harmonies, that's it! Wish Nina and Dida were around so I could force them into singing this with me. hehh!

What I've Been Looking for by Zac Efron & Vanessa A. Hudgens

It's hard to believe that I couldn't see
you were always there beside me

Thought I was alone with no one to hold
But you were always right beside me

This feeling's like no other
I want you to know
That I've never had someone
That knows me like you do
The way you do

And I've never had someone
As good for me as you
No one like you
So lonely before
I finally found
What I've been looking for

Win-gerland!

Damn, that was one of the most stressful games I've ever seen!!

England - 1, Ecuador - 0

Thank GOD!!! I can feel my body becoming limber after that final whistle! I was tense the whole time! Stupid.. stupid!!
I choked, I shouted, I scream, I grunt, I cursed. It was an excruciating game to watch! Stupid.. stupid!!

It didn't help that I've already made my mind to hate Ashley Cole.. Now I'm hating Frank Lampard!! The chances he have got!! Man!! Idiot! And Rooney!! Well, okay.. he wasn't too bad. Beckham was awesome. But Gerrard was just.. disappointing! (and I hate to hate him, so it's not making me feel any good!)
*grunts* I HATE ENGLAND!! Well, I care too much that I had to hate them!!
Damn youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu!!

Was it worth the win as Robinson, Terry and that Carragher person got yellow cards? It's just stupid!! Robinson and Carragher only got them for delaying the game and that's just stupid!! STUPID!!

The game was excruciating. It was stressful - and frustrating.
I really don't think they'd get any near to the World Cup if they keep playing horribly like this. They don't deserve to win it. Even I won't approve of them winning it!! It's like, "I love you.. but I just won't love you if you keep acting stupid. My loyalty is blind, I'd probably still root for you in 10 years time, but I'd still curse at you when you're stupid! Really."

But hey.. GO ENGLAND! *saying this in a very morbid.. unenthusiastic.. exhausted way with one arm raised limply*

I hate plucking.

Okay. Maybe not hate exactly, but it definitely annoys me.
I realize that I can't be good at everything, but plucking.. plucking the guitar makes me BAD at something. Well, not bad, but mediocre. I'd rather be bad than mediocre. No middle ground for me, please. But I am.. rather ordinary; which annoys me terribly!
(been trying to play Catalyst these past few days - which is a considerably easy song but I just couldn't get my fingers to move the way I'd like it to!)

Change of subject. Did you know that before X3 were made, they had actually planned on having Gambit in it?
Ian Somerhalder was supposed to play him, but he declined for what ever reason. I think he looks the part. It's his eyes. I think he could've made an awesome looking Gambit!
So who's Ian Somerhalder? He's Boone, in Lost. Now just imagine.. he would have made a great Gambit, yeah? Although I can't really imagine him having that Cajun accent! heehee!

Looking forward to:
1. Dida coming home with my rather-expensive-but-smashing-jacket! ahhahha! Just hoping that I won't be putting on more weight until then. yikes! I've NEVER worried about my weight before!! This is so wrong.
2. Movies!
Just My Luck; July 6th, which I heard, is a terribly predictable film but I just had to see it myself! After all.. my imaginary boyfriend is in it! hahahaha!!
Pirates of the Caribbean : Dead Man's Chest; July 6th? July 13th??, which Muz had agreed to go with me, so Incik Cine.. don't you go stealing her around that date! heehee. But come to think about it, I wouldn't really mind you tagging along! - only if Muz let you, o'course!
The Lake House; July 20th, intriguing. Very.. intriguing. I'm no fan of Keanu (in fact, I kinda hate him! Such a bad actor!) but I love Sandra Bullock.. haven't seen her for a while, so I WANT to see this film! Plus, I'm sensing that there's a possibility that it could make me cry. I like movies that makes me cry. Call me a freak if you must.
3. New season of Grey's Anatomy, House and Prison Break (that'd be in September!!)
4. Artemis Fowl and the Lost Colony, and The Solomon Key!!


The song that is currently in my head;
Grace by Kate Havnevik

I'm on my knees, only memories
are left for me to hold
Don't know how, but I'll get by
Slowly pull myself together

I'll get through this

There's no escape, so keep me safe
This feels so unreal

Nothing comes easily
Fill this empty space
Nothing is like it seems
Turn my grief to grace

I feel the cold, loneliness unfold
Like from another world
Come what may, I won't fade away
But I know I might change

Nothing comes easily
Fill this empty space
Nothing is like it was
Turn my grief to grace

Nothing comes easily
Where do I begin?
Nothing can bring me peace
I've lost everything
I just want to feel your embrace

Man, I hope one of my parents are waking up soon. Nak breakfaaaast! huhuuu. I'm confused. If it's jetlag that I'm having, which time zone am I exactly following?? 'Cause even if I'm still on European-clock, I should be sleeping right now!! It's 4am!! WK is definitely screwing up my system.
Germany and Argentina, through. Tonight, England!! (well, I'm hoping! Fingers crossed. Wishing on an eyelash. The works. heehee!)

ohh! OHH!!! And there's Fruits Basket on NTV7!!!! AHHAHAHHAHA!! But it's translated into Malay and it's friggin' annoying!! ahhahhaha!!
It's that episode about Hatori - I don't think I'd be as upset as I would if it had been in their original voices 'cause as I said.. it's ANNOYING!!

Now, THAT'S a jumble of things!

A jumble of things.

" When you drop a glass or a plate to the ground it makes a loud crashing sound. When a window shatters, a table leg breaks, or a picture falls off the wall, it makes a noise. But as for your heart, when that breaks, it's completely silent. You would think as it's so important it would make the loudest noise in the whole world or even have some sort of ceremonious sound like the gong of a cymbal or the ringing of a bell. But it's silent and you almost wish there was a noise to distract you from the pain.
If there is a noise, it's internal. It screams and no one can hear it but you. It screams so loudly your ears ring and your head aches. It thrashes around in your chest like a great white caught in the sea, it roars like a mother bear whose cub has been taken. That's what it looks like and that's what it sounds like, a thrashing, panicking, trapped, great big beast, roaring like a prisoner to its own emotions. But that's the thing about love; no one is untouchable. It's as wild as that, as raw as an open flesh wound exposed to salty sea water, but when it actually breaks, it's silent, you're just screaming on the inside and no one can hear it."

You're right on that, Miss Ahern.

that was an excerpt from Cecelia Ahern's, If You Could See Me Now. No credits to me.. no no! It's all Miss Ahern's words.
I care so much about copyrights! hahha!

OOOH!! I just talked to Dida and she was in ZARA and the jacket I was sooo into had a discount!! And she's buying it for me - with a condition, of course - but she's buying it for me!!! Lil' ole me!! woo-hoooo!!! Can't wait for her to come home now!! eeeeeeeeeeeekkk!!!

Okay. Calming down, now.
eh. Now I've lost every thought that I had before I started writing this entry.
Okay. I just can't think of anything else other than Dida and the jacket!!! I swear I had something really smart just now!! It should be "a jumble of things"!! Now it's just.. a small pile of things.

This morning..

I fell asleep at around 9am.
I've wrote that quick update, put away my book and decorated my slingbag with some pins.
Then I fell asleep.
Later my father strirred me a bit, asked what I had wanted for dinner.
When I finally woke up - after hearing something a little too familiar from the telly, my father just chuckled.
And he asked, "had a good sleep?"

The time was 8:20pm

ahhahahhahahha!!
Horrible! I was just horrible!!
And my mom spurted out, "whoa, Wanie slept for 24 hours!"
My father made fun of that while I just managed to smile groggily.
I have NEVER slept this long!!! It's just horrible!!

My father was looking at tonight's WK match schedule and said to me, "are you going to watch them?"
- "Takkan Wanie nak tido??" (I can't go back to sleep, can I??)
He laughed.

Mistake number two.

Quick update, If You Could See Me Now has been brilliant!! I haven't finished reading it but so far.. it's bloody brilliant!! Cecelia Ahern is definitely.. definitely one of my favourite writers. The story so far has been... sweet.
One that makes me smile, yet saddens me slightly. I have a feeling about the ending and I'm not too sure that I shall like it.
And just now I was trying to see the number of the final page of the story.. and my eye caught a few words that.. disturbs me.
So.. that's a definitive sign that I won't be getting any sleep tonight. I'd be wondering.. and wondering.. and wondering.. Might as well I just get it over with!!
(So far, my philosophy in life!)

My father just woke up and joined me in the living room to check on the scores of tonight's WK matches and as he walked past me to go to the loo he said, "watch the telly.. once you've done with that book you won't have anything else to read!"
hahhaha!! Ironic is the word.

Been having this song on the playlist since this week.
Chasing Cars by Snow Patrol

We'll do it all, everything, on our own
We don't need anything or anyone

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me
And just forget the world

I don't quite know how to say how I feel
Those three words are said too much
They're not enough

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me
And just forget the world
Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads
I need your grace to remind me
To find my own

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me
And just forget the world
Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes
They're all I can see
I don't know where
Confused about how as well
I just know that these things
Will never change for us at all

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me
And just forget the world

Okay. Getting back to my tea and crackers and the book now! Just a little over one hundred pages left to go.
"--That was all the part of giving someone a piece of your heart; they ended up taking a whole chunk of your mind and reserving it all for themselves"

Update!!
8:30 am
Finished the book. I'm truly.. absolutely convinced that Cecelia Ahern is gifted - in making me cry! If I need to have a good cry, I shall re-read any of her books. Brilliantly touching..
The story is actually based on something silly.. but no doubt, she is so great; to turn something silly into something.. special. Amazing.
Kudos, Miss Ahern! You're at the top of my list!

My kind of day.

Started the day with coffee and a good friend.
What more do I need? heehee.

Me and Muz walked to SACC this morning and had our - well, mine really - dose of caffeine. (Muz had hot chocolate!) Yacked a lot. Dissing, gossiping (don't you wonder about it, Encik Cine?? ngehngehh..) and just catching up. She showed me the postcards I've sent her and I told her that there should be another 2 coming along. hehhe! By the way, the place had felt as if we owned it! We had the entire place to ourselves for two hours! Really neat.

Later around noon we decided to go to Midvalley! Did nothing much.. Honestly, describing everything I did today would be a total bore. Went to see what's good at the movies, which turned out to be NOTHING.
Ohh, we had lunch at Kenny Rogers'.. for 2 hours!! hahhaha!! We saw everybody else walking in after us leaving first. There must've been three couples whom have sat at the table behind us along the time we were there.

Anyways, we head back home around seven. Arrived home about nine.
Really sleepy. None of us had enough sleep the night before. (Darn WK!) Lucky that Muz was woken up a few minutes before we arrived at the commuter station! hahha!
Okay.. I finally bought Cecelia Ahern's latest book; If You Could See Me Now. So far - VERY intriguing! So I'm really trying to post this entry without trying to sound.. boring and rushed. So far - not very successful, I assume!

Ooh. I did found my simcard a couple days back but it's been idiotic this entire day. My phone kept saying, "Insert sim card". Dah masuk la, bongok! I have been spending the entire day shaking around my phone - as if it would've helped! heehee. Umm.. ohh, Dida had asked me to survey the price for England's home kit jersey. Well, I didn't find the home kit earlier but the away kit was RM249! Talk about cekik darah.

- and an added note about yesterday's entry about blog hopping, you know what I really can't stand?
People spelling "really", reli. REALLY!!

Better get back to Miss Ahern now before my body decide for itself to shut down instead!

I feel drunk.

It's that Win-gerland song.
It's been playing over and over in my head and it's making me dizzy. It definitely sound like a song from an English pub somewhere.
Plus, getting smoked by those mosquitoe-fog doesn't help either.

Remember the entry I did before I left for Europe?
I made a list about things I'd like to accomplish while I was there, so here's the update;

1. an end to my writer's block
Well, can't say that the trip ended it, but I've definitely gotten a few ideas while I was there.

2. snap brilliant pictures
heehee! I think some of the pictures I took were brilliant! Postcard-worthy even.

3. eat Belgian waffles!!
check!!

4. make at least three friends
ehh.. well. I failed this one. I kinda made friends with Kim, just kinda. Then there's Tik, and Med, the fella in London.. but I don't think any of them are real "friends" in my book. They're.. acquaintances.
Shame, really.

5. pick up some Dutch and French!
I definitely know a little Dutch. French.. ahhahaha! Je ne sais pas.. almost none, really.
About picking up the men.. AHAHHAHAHA!! Well, I bat eyes with a couple Frenchmen and Catalans, that's the closest I get. heehee! Turns out I can only talk to people who were much older than me.. hahhaha! Which is SO wrong and made Dida think that I'm only attracted to older men!

Okay. I'm just bored now. Been blog-hopping but honestly, everyone else's is SUCH a bore. ahhahhaha! It's the basic template that puts me off. Ohh, and the poems and heartbreaks.. blaah! I found one that only talks about SCIENCE! What was that about?

I do realize that mine would seem a bore to some.. but at least I have a customized layout! hahh! Eat that!

ps: Azraai, I haven't sent the letters I wished to send you sebab tak sempat! So.. better tunggu kau balek je ke.. nak send juge eh? By the way, when are you coming back??

Stupid Ashley Cole!!!

demmit!!
bodoh! bodoh! bodohh!! Really.. bodoh!!!
Honestly, if you can't stay close to the post.. don't bother at all!!!
bodohhh!!
I am so pissed!!
Didn't anyone see how Ashley Cole let those two goals in TWICE?!!
GOD!! It's.. INFURIATING!!!
bodohh!!!
Sia sia Gerrard kasik gol that second time! MORON!!
urrghhhh!!
So frustrating!! All those while stressing out and all those talk about the "jinx", England just couldn't manage to beat Sweden again! Man!!!
Annoying!!

Okay.. obviously I make a pretty good hooligan here, eh?
I mean.. England has qualified for the next round even before the match.
But really.. Ashley Cole INFURIATES me!!!
bodoh!

So next match, against Ecuador on June 25th!
Man, if England plays like crap again..... I might just need to switch teams!
(this is of course a lie! I can't imagine rooting for another team. Although I am slightly keen on Holland. hahha! But nooo.. My loyalty sticks with England..)

Win-gerland!!
website here!!
"Don't be a loony, just get over the Rooney
if he can't break 'em, we'll put our trust in Beckham
we got the Gerrard, we also got the Lampard
let's make it easy like Cole also rhymes with gooal!"
Hahha! Definitely my current theme song. (I'm sure the Cole they meant were Joe Cole and NOT Ashley Cole.. the git! - ohh why does he have to be a Sagi?!)

Me like Prison Break's opening theme!

Sounds cool, doesn't it? It's like soothing yet dramatic in the same time! Really cool..

So.. as I've said in my previous post, I downloaded the rest of Prison Break and now.. I am left eventless as I wait for the England match at 3am.
I just need to point out that the ending of the last episode was kinda disappointing. It's.. well, I don't get why Sarah did what she did. Although, maybe I'd understand better if I didn't skip a couple of episodes.. heehee.

Okay. Nothing else to say, it's pathetic really.

song of the day!
Unlike Me by Kate Havnevik

There are no guarantees in life
Not for the present,
Nor for the future.
All I know is
That I'm here;
Don't know for how long.
I love the way
You live so intensely
Enjoy every minute of life
With space to swing
Your arms around
Laughing loudly

Unlike me
Unlike me
Do you think I'm strange?
Unlike you
Unlike you
I am not pretending

There is no time,
There is no time,
There is no time,
Time doesn't really exist.

The past, the present,
And the future,
Are all side by side,
Hand in hand.
You move and change,
Yet you go nowhere:
Everything stays the same.
You stare at me,
And ask me questions,
Makes me nervous,
This room it keeps a constant tone
While I'm on a roller coaster

Unlike me
Unlike me
Do you think I'm strange
Unlike you
Unlike you
I am not pretending

There is no time
There is no time
There is no time
Time doesn't really exist

There is no time
There is no time
There is no time
Time doesn't really exist

Meredith is so messed up, isn't she?

I carried on watching the rest of Grey's Anatomy and I came to a conclusion that Meredith, is one messed up woman.
It's sad, really. It's all Derek's fault. McSelfish!

Okay, the idea of a married man, had fallen so madly in love with you is kind of.. sweet. And nice. It's amazing how he couldn't forget Meredith and really work on his relationship with his wife when he should.
But really.. forget McDreamy! He's obviously McSelfish!

I'm all for Meredith. I get that she's completely broken when Derek chose Addison instead of her but it is SO wrong for him to keep messing with her head. I mean, if you love her, you love her right? What is he still doing with Addison?? Stop messing with these two women and make up your mind!! grrrr! McStupid.

Honestly, I love McDreamy. I mean.. he is after all Meredith's "love". But the longer he stayed married to Addison, the more convinced I am that he really should stop.. Meredith should stop calling him McDreamy. It pains me to see the series unravelled itself as it had.
Clearly.. McStupid!

"What does this mean?" - "Meredith, what does this mean?"
What do you think it means, a*hole?!
ahhahhaha!! I am SO emotional.

Anyways, I am obviously bored.
Maybe I'll download the rest of Prison Break next and start obsessing about it. I mean, it's only time right? First House, then Grey's Anatomy.. about time for Prison Break! ahhahahaha!!

I - am - stressed!!

Okay, it is totally uncalled for.
Stupid really..
but searching for a song on several websites when my usual downloading-application won't work stresses me.
Heart beats.. F*!! what's the word!?? Well, my heart beats in a weird effing rythm as it spaces me out. You know.. when you're feeling a tad overwhelmed and somehow it got you high.. but in bad way. A really really bad way.
Seems like I'm on the edge these past couple of days.. it's a horrible feeling. I really shouldn't get stressed out on a song, should I?
Especially now that I've finally got it downloaded.
Urrgh! The emotional stress!!!!

the stressing song

Dedicated.

Who Knew by Pink
download

You took my hand
You showed me how
You promised me you'd be around
ah huh that's right

I took your words
And I believed
In everything you said to me
yeah huh that's right

If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Coz they're all wrong
I know better
Coz you said forever
And ever
Who knew

Remember when we were such fools
And so convinced and just too cool
oh no, no no

I wish I could touch you again
I wish I could still call you a friend
I'd give anything

When someone said count your blessings now
'Fore they're long gone
I guess I just didn't know how
I was all wrong
But they knew better
Still you said forever
And ever
Who Knew

I'll keep you locked in my head
Until we meet again
Until we, until we meet again
And I won't forget you my friend
What happened

If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Coz they're all wrong and
That last kiss I'll cherish
Until we meet again
And time makes it harder
I wish I could remember
But I keep your memory
You visit me in my sleep
My darlin' who knew

My darlin', my darlin', who knew
My darlin', I miss you
My darlin', who knew

Who knew

I think this is the best song I've heard this season.
So.. I'm dedicating this to those who've fallen out of orbit - my orbit - or that I have fallen out of their's. Well, time do changes things, eh? I think I'm feeling a bit sorry for that. *sigh* Don't mind me, I'm just.. rather emotional these days.
Good night everyone.

#2 - Medical-series fix.

It's hardly 24hours since I got back and I've seen..
4 episodes of House and 2 of Grey's Anatomy.
Out of the altogether 6 episodes.. 3 of them made me cry! hahaha!!
Talk about pathetic.

Euphoria made me cry.. that part when Cameron was in the room with Foreman. Man! And I was watching that 2-episodes of Grey's Anatomy; It's The End Of The World and As We Know It. Really.. touching!
I'm so going to watch it again later. heehee.

Okay, I somehow have this feeling that I should write about my way home. It's kinda boring actually, so.. don't mind me. I'm just trying to relieve myself.

So I headed for Frankfurt the other day, and Tik was there to pick me up from the train station. She's a doll! She brought me along to her friend's house, Kak Ina and had a good meal over there! There were a bunch of people and we ate and hung out watching football. It was really hilarious 'coz everyone had their favourites and some of them just rooted for Trinidad and Tobago 'cause they didn't want England to win! ahhahaha! So pardon me for joining in the shouting and screaming. hahhaha!!

Sadly I didn't have much time to really soak in the World Cup atmosphere in Frankfurt since I had to leave early to the airport, but it was pretty clear that you can easiy find people with different nationalities there. Prety cool!

Had a good flight! I wasn't forced into sleeping out of boredom since I finally managed to find one o' those "Search-a-word" books. heehee! Now I shall never be bored as I travel! And I thought the meal was pretty good - which was weird 'cause I hated them on my trip to Frankfurt 3 months ago.

Arriving at KLIA gave me a slight calming effect somehow. Well, it was calming to find my parents had missed me so. heehee! Although I almost cried when I couldn't find them as I walked out of the glass doors. hahha! (seems like I'm crying to anything these days!)

Just wishing that Dida was home as well. It would've been really festive if we were to open our bags and unload every souvenirs and things we had bought for everyone together. Yet, today she'd spent her day in Brussels with her friends.

Okay, going to figure out if I should sleep or finish up on my journal.. or just Search-a-word instead! ahhaha!
Happy vaderdag!

I'm home!!

- and currently trying to watch Euphoria (Part One)!! ahhahahhahahahhaha!!
Talk about a House-fix. Thought I had downloaded the second part but turns out that I clicked the wrong link! ahhahahha!!

Anyways, my parents think I'm fat! Well, "fat" isn't really the word used, but they definitely think I've gained weight. eeeeek!!
Okay, I'm not exactly fussing about gaining weight, but I am fussing about getting wider!!
How - unattractive. ahhahahhaha!!

Had a great flight. Still tired. Jet lagged?
O well, don't feel like talking much. Ohh by the way, I lost my simcard somewhere so.. no point in trying to call me on my number, yeah?
Later!

Bah!

I'm hours away from making my way home. I probably should get back to packing my things, but MAN!! Packing is such a drag!!
I wish I could just throw all my stuff in the bag and they magically sort itself neatly even with extra room to spare! Now, if there's such an incantation for that, it'd be the first thing I'd learn! It's just handy!

I've figured out what I'm going to do first thing tomorrow!
First, call - or sms Tik about the time I should be arriving in Frankfurt. Then I should call home. Then maybe a quick stop at the post office - IF Azraai will ever give me his address!! And afterwards I should be making my way to the train station.

Feels awful to leave Dida. After all she's the one who's really homesick being so far away from home. But two of her friends are coming over tomorrow and staying for a week! So that's great.
But afterwards.. I'm guessing that Dida will be calling home like crazy afterwards. Too bad she couldn't come home with me as planned earlier. Turns out that she might have to stay here 'til August, until her boss thinks that it's okay for her to leave her work here and another person comes over to take it over.

I'm gonna miss telly here! Grey's Anatomy, Lost, Prison Break.. old ER, old Friends.. auction and sales programs on BBC.. McLeod's Daughters!! ahahhahaha!! Well, Nick and Tess are married so I'm quite contented with that! ahhahahha! I definitely won't get frustrated over that.

Guess I should get back to packing now.
Bahhhh!!! I really wish there was an incantation for packing.
Okay then.. goodbye from Rotterdam! I should be right at home in the next update.

Man, I'm going to miss European weather.
I wonder if there's WK on MAS flights! I think it's awesome if there is, but my guess is there isn't.

Some Serious Spending

Some load of films and single-use cameras to be developed! Now those cameras.. is all Dida's fault for forgetting her digital camera on our trip to Roma!

Somehow I'm starting to get a teeny.. tiny bit excited about going home.
Muz, I hope you're free on Monday!
I miss a good long conversation over a good caramel ice blend.

Just a bit bummed that there won't be any WK (We-Ka, the Dutch's way of saying World Cup) match held in Frankfurt on the 15th. Would've been awesome if there is!! The most bumming fact is that England is playing Trinidad & Tobago that day in Nurmberg!!! cis ciss dan cisss lagi!

By the way incik Azraai, I tried calling you earlier this evening and my call was directed to a voicemail. I think! I have no idea what the lady was saying!
And I've successfully called Tik! ekkekekkekekekekeke!!!

Right now working on my travel journal. Kinda pissy since I lost one of my boarding pass somehow! It's the one for my flight from Rome to Amsterdam. grrr.

Okay. There's lightning outside. Kinda scary. Haven't had this sort of weather ever since I've been here!!

It's definitely zomer. (summer)

It's hot outside. HOT!! You can't blame me for envying these Europeans wearing sleeveless and spaghetti-strap top with shorts. It's really hot!!

And I'm brown. Okay, might not seem really obvious but I feel like I'm 16 again, after spending all those hours dancing around with the pom-poms. It's annoying, really. It took ages to get rid of my tanned-line on my face and now it's there again! *grunts*

So let's talk about Rome.
Rome was nice! If you're keen on history, it's brilliant! It's amazing how wherever you go, how random the path you take, it'll bring you to some old, ancient-looking ruins that nobody seemed to really care!
An exception to the Colosseo, Palantino or Pantheon, of course.

I'm never "crazy" about Rome so it doesn't have that much impact on me but the Eternal City was definitely beautiful. I think it's amazing, how the Roman empire actually sculpted today's modern civilization.

People in Rome was nice... and rather curious! I'm curious. They're extremely friendly, I think! Now, if you're Muslim in Netherlands and London, you're going to see a lot of other Muslim walking around in town and they of course - ignore you since you are after all "one of them"! If you're Muslim in Barcelona and Paris, you don't see much of other Muslim but people leave you alone just the same.
Now, if you're Muslim in Rome, you don't really see much of other Muslim but they would actually come to you and ask, "you're Muslim?" and greets you with the salam. It just felt.. Well, I felt welcomed!

Okay, I probably should tell or write more about Rome but I'm just pooped. Lethargic. Just gotta stop - now.

Pooped!!

So friggin' tired.
Rome was awesome! No pics for the time being 'cause Dida forgot her digicam.
Just going online to check my email.
Elaborated "stuff" about Rome later.
Tired.
Really tired.
And still long day coming ahead.
English not good.
So tired.

Good morning!

It's a new day and I'm feeling much better. Turns out all I needed was a good sleep. Just hoping that no one would come along and make me feel like crap again!

Writing is definitely my therapy.

Anyways, I won't be around this weekend! woohoo! Got a new city to explore!
ROME!!
I'll be depressed again once I get back. It can wait, but for now I am going to skip around in excitement!

Then on Thursday I should make a trip back to Frankfurt and head back to Malaysia.
Been trying to call Azraai for two days but I just couldn't get through! Turns out that I've been dialling the wrong number!! ahhahhahahha!!
His number is 4917*****3*** but I kept dialling 4917*****8***! bongok.

Okay. I'm rambling. I hate it when I'm rambling.

Me - pissed!!!

I don't think today is "my day".

Honestly, if anyone strike a knife through my chest, I won't be stunned at all. I would actually be surprised that it had not been done sooner!

A good time to listen to some depressing songs. Choices;
1. Damien Rice - The Blowers Daughter
2. McFLY - She Falls Asleep (Part 2)
3. Ryan Adams - Come Pick Me Up
4. The Cardigans - Communication
5. Earlimart - It's Okay To Think About Ending
Lyrically, none of it really describes the way I feel, but as a jumble of songs, it does represent the jumble of things that is my heart.

Don't know what's up with this day! Feels like the world hates me! As long as I am left by myself, I feel perfectly fine! And then I had to have some people to mess things up. Whyyyyyyy?!!!

Telephone should be banned! They're a menace! I rarely get anything good from it, probably means that I should throw away the ones in my sight. I am OFFICIALLY hating telephones!! The only good thing that comes out of it is a phone-LINE which enables me to post this entry on this blog! Other than that - pure shite! Screw it!

Maybe it's my fault to think feel that a phonecall means so much.

And then there's that Prison Break on telly. The ad said that it was the final episode but it really WASN'T!! Then it said something really quick in Dutch in the end, I couldn't catch it. Something about terug and sez uur. WHAT ABOUT SEZ UUR?! What about being back and six o'clock?? demmit!!!!!!!! And it WON'T be on next week since they've got a new ad for a new show!! ARRGHHHHHHH!!! Okay, it's not like I'm going to be here next week.. still!! And I just checked the episode list.. well, it doesn't make any sense!!
I'm effing infuriated!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Discouraged?

Okay, originally it wasn't because of going home.. It's because of that entry I wrote, one with the title "Okay".

But now I am about coming home.
But it's alright.. I've got hell to pay to some people.

Talk about being bitter!
AHHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!

Btw, Rooney is going to play some part in the World Cup.
(I'm in no mood for "woohoos")

I-

am going to sound just as corny as the English medias this morning;
It's Waynesday!!
ahahhaha! So funny.
I'm not exactly keen on Wayne Rooney's injury but I suppose it's my luck, I woke up around 6 this morning (not intentional) and managed to catch a couple of English speaking cartoons (woohoo!) before tuning on to BBC.

So! It's only natural that they keep on talking about Rooney's injured toe since today he's going back to Manchester to get a scan on his leg which will determine : will he play, or won't he?
It's THE day.

Exciting, isn't it??
Just two days away.. WORLD CUP!!!!!!!! *screams and throws hands in the air*

These English people.. they're really.. really concerned about Rooney's injury. It's... amazing, actually!
And right here in Holland, people are really pumped up for their team. Even the McDonald's are offering.. Holland-football-stuff-freebies! Shopping areas are adorned with oranje (mind, I'm starting to comfortably spell in Dutch!) flags. You can even get an oranje-coloured barbeque sauce these days! Heineken - with a box of Heineken you'll get a free hat! And I know it's Heineken, but man, it is such a cool hat!!

I wonder if Malaysia made it to the World Cup, would we make such a big deal out of it? I know it'll be a MASSIVE achievement but I just can't imagine how much we're going to put into it.
The tickets are extremely.. extremely pricey too! I'm not sure if it's any different if the the tix were bought earlier but I saw in CNN yesterday, a ticket costs over US$1000!! (F1 is cheap compared to that price!) Suddenly football has become the "sport for the riches". Doesn't seem right, does it?

Haven't got a plan for today. I'd probably just sit around and write. Sounds boring, isn't it? *sigh* If only everyday is a party.

Okay,

honestly I don't usually get offended much when people ignores me or ditches me. I reckon that everyone has better things to do than to talk to me or simply hang out with me. I get it. Most people have lives, I know.
I myself won't make too much of an effort to win them over anyways, so.. it's understandable, right?

But honestly, I was never.. ever had felt as offended as I have tonight. Oh, I don't know.. possibly it's my own mistake to begin with but really. I'm actually.. really.. feeling pure rage under my skin.

This sucks.
You suck!
What a complete waste. I shouldn't have bothered building up my courage.

What's more annoying, in this case.. I actually see myself begging for attention in the near future! Screw you for being a friend! urrghhhh!!! *verry frustrated here*

Odd, isn't it?

Most people would be excited to come home after a while spent outside the country. Not me. Why, eh? Feels... wrong!
And Dida just couldn't wait for her turn to get back home. I wish I was glued to this part of the country instead! Man! How messed up is that??

Anyways, I asked Muz earlier where did the luv letter I sent her came from..
Did you know that the British stamp is the only stamp that does not state the country of origins? It's because in the 18-something, it was the Brits who had invented stamps and everyone else hasn't got any!
So.. no point of telling where it's from, right?

Boring day, today. Well, it wasn't really as I was living through it, but it's going to sound boring if I write about it now.

Ohh, we watched The Omen. It was.. well.. It's, sad. A bit sad, I think! I know that he's the Devil's son and everything.. but what's the point, really? Ohh I don't know.. I couldn't possibly understand how evil works! It's just too.... evil! heehee.
It's great that Dida had seen the old version. She told me exactly what's going to happen next while we were watching the film - which was great! So I wasn't so scared watching the whole thing. Funny thing, some people (girls, o'course!) screamed at some parts of the film and I was quickly reminded of Malaysian cinemas. ekkekeke!
Guess things don't change much no matter which part of the world you're in.

The Last Stand.

I - WENT - TO - SEE - X-MEN!! woohoo!!!
ahahhahaha!! Sorry, I'm just.. so, SO excited about it!! 'Cause it was released weeks ago and Dida said "no" when I said I wanted to see it. She said that it was cheaper too see it back home (since I'm coming home next week!! *sigh*)
And me and Dida weren't in very good terms for the last couple of days. In fact, we weren't even speaking to each other for the whole of yesterday! So, I was verry pleasantly surprised when we walked into Pathè earlier! heehee.

I absolutely adored it!! I thought it was brilliant! Bloody brilliant!! It's just.. I LOVE IT!! So much, in fact!! ahahhaha!! Dida's been trying to shut me up from keep talking about the film, but I think it was GREAT!!
It was definitely the best of the three X-Men movie made.
I do have a bit problem with some parts of it. Like Rogue.. stupid Rogue! ahhahaha!! It's just I love her character too much that it PAINS me to see her so.. weak!! urrghh!! How could she??

And that final scenes with Phoenix/Jean and Wolverine. It was.. romantically tragic. Dida kept saying to me, "nak nangis la tu! Tau sangat.." ("You must be tearing up! Typical..") It's horrible, isn't it?? Wolverine.. I love Wolverine! It's just.. sad! urrghh!

Lucky that I looked up on X-Men in IMDB last night and wait until the very end of the film before leaving! ahhahahah!! I AM SO GLAD! And Dida just couldn't wait to leave but I kept telling her to stay put. Mean, isn't it? That verry last scene that comes out after ALL the credits have rolled out. Evil! I'm just reaaaally glad that I didn't miss it or there's that possibility I'd go see it again once I get back.

Anyways, the film was awesome. The ending was.. well, I hate that Rogue part. A little out of character, I think. I can never see the comic Rogue would do anything like it but well.. I just love that ending with Magneto and the chess! ahhahahahhahahahhahahahahha!!
A great chance of possibility with one tiny scene. Brilliant!

But I know that the plan was just these three X-Men films. I think it was Bryan Singer who said it. That he'd only planned to make three. But if there's anyone else who'd like to continue with it.. he has no problem with that!
I hope someone would! I just love the X-Men! No way I would miss any!

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Okay, after reading a couple reviews of this film, I realize how amature-ish my comments were so here's another try;
WARNING!! Not too sure if I'm going to write spoilers, but mostly I'm going to write about the characters' names and the oddness from comic to film. So.. to be safe, if you care about getting spoilers, just don't read these!

Basically, I loved it. But that is probably because my mind is perfectly created to fill up the holes that was left out in the film.
If you weren't anywhere familiar with the X-Men, you'd probably have questions about the characters and the places where things took place along the film; for instance, that room in the earliest scenes: it's called the Danger Room, it's a room with fantastic thingamajiggies where the X-Men can practice their powers without actually going out and cause real trouble! (or destruction, I might add.)

And the characters, they had never mentioned their mutant names, did they? Like Kitty, the one who walks through walls. Her X-Men name is Shadowcat! And that tinman.. I was calling him Tinman until I finally remembered his name; Collosus! Oh, I probably should just add that in the comics, he's Russian! hahha! And Juggernaut!! Now he's the weirdess! (is that a word?) He's supposed to be Xavier's stepbrother!! How come they looked as if they didn't knew each other?? DUH!! They have a huge animosity since they were kids, so puh-lease! Not recognizing that was LAME!

And my anger for Rogue's out-of-characterness is well put, I think! She would've never NEVER done what she did in the film! Come on!! As desperate as she was for connection, she couldn't possibly have done that! I think it's depressing. Just, weak!! yeech! Disappointing, more like!

Ohh, and I kept stumbling over the comments on Phoenix and I'd have to agree; she didn't seem as powerful as she was intended to, was she? She was supposed to burse/burst (spelling check?) into flames, right? And not simply looked as if she was posessed.

Yet here I am.. still unsatisfied with Rogue! hahhahahah!! COME ON!! It's just Bobby the Iceman! SO not worth the fussing over. (Unless there's Gambit, I might've rest this case but since he's not!) Okay, I know that in the comics, Rogue and Iceman did hook up for a while but come on!! She even hook up with Magneto in the comics, and STILL I don't think she'd trade her powers! COME ON!!! arrrrghhhh!! I'm so frustrated over that one bit. Stupid! That's just STUPID!!!
And Marie???????? Marie?????? That name didn't come up until waaaaaaaay after she's with Gambit and Ms. Marvel's powers surfacing her and they're living off at some tiny town which is apparently, another story!! So, MARIE???? Why not throw "Carol Danvers" at that??
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I really hope there'd be an X4 so it could rectify the mess from The Last Stand. I love X3, really. But once I put it side by side with the comics, all I could find was mistakes, "should've" and "supposed"-s.

See the amazing trick my mind made earlier in this entry? Everything was lovely and exciting.. but once the drug's worn off, all that's left was the obvious mistakes and the clear roughness of this film was.

Final pre-game.

ahha! Gerrard's back on number 4 jersey. And Owen's back!
Fingers crossed that England will win again! Would do good to their confidence, eh?
Okay.. gotta get back to the telly and see what's going on.
England vs. Jamaica!

Update!
That was bloody brilliant, wasn't it? 6 - 0!! It was just excellent!! Don't know what I was so worried about! That was great!!
Now I'm REALLY looking forward to World Cup!

Beckham was brilliant. He's just.. amazing! Did you notice how smooth his passes were? It's like.. cooooo-- and the ball's at someone else's foot! I really missed him playing among English people.. What I'm trying to say is, I WANT HIM BACK IN EPL!!! And I'm SURE that I'm not the only one.

Owen.. humm.. I can't see why the commentators likes him so much.
Gerrard was.. pretty non-existant wasn't he? It's disappointing. Oh, the commentator kept calling him "Stevie Gerrard". ekkekeke! Sounded like he's a kid.
Finally, Peter Crouch!! heehee. Such a funny guy. It's entertaining, but that robot dance has got-to-STOP! ekekke!!

Well.. Well done, England!!

World Cup.

.. Just next week!! woohoo!!
Then we'll all start seeing football, eating football, sleeping football! Really looking forward to that!
I just remember the last time when it's all the telly was showing! CRAZY!! But the thought of it just brings back fond memories somehow. heehee.

As a typical sucker, I'll support England as usual! - No matter how people kept saying that their chance of winning are slim. They seemed pretty okay last week in the friendlies. So I'm hoping that they'll go as far.. as they possibly can!

Eh.. okay. Watching this old movie on Net5.. Sleepers?
Very... hummm.. what's the word.. curious.

Heppy Birthday Pa..
and Nani too!!

Update!
Sleepers.. was sad!!! The way that there's a "storyteller" along the film was great but it was really sad! I hate how their lives turned. It's.. sad!!

I've got a confession.

Yesterday, I spent a LOT of money and Dida knows nothing about it! So, hush!

It's just A notebook actually. A notebook that costs 15 Euro. (eek!) It's called Moleskine notebook, and it looks simple as ever! It's the line it said on a bit of paper around it that was the selling point for me; "The legendary notebook of Hemingway, Picasso, Chatwin." - I'm a sucker for that stuff.

You can never find one in Malaysia! At least, I've never saw one. And throughout the two and a half months I worked in Kino, there had been a couple of times when a customer asked for a "Moleskin notebook". They were of course, had been Europeans. (Okay, they looked like one.)

I haven't used the notebook, naturally. I've always bought notebooks in advance and finally find measly reasons to start using them and regret it later. ahhahaha!! But in my defence, I have learned to have a little bone and not just write stupid things in my favourite notebooks anymore.

Although now I'm wodering.. If.. When I start using my Moleskin notebook, and ran out of pages... How am I supposed to replace it?? I haven't seen one back home! aiyyayayaa.. Talk about not thinking before buying.

Currently typing this out as I watch the Travel Channel. Man, wouldn't it be wonderful to be one of those people on Globe Trekker? But I don't think I'd be a great presenter. *sigh* I'm not friendly enough.. and my foreign languages are simply horrendous!

I'm so going to miss Europe.
I'm going to miss the telly, the crazy weather and even the awful winds!

Thought for the day.

I find living in Europe kinda tricky. I love it of course, but it's tricky! Especially since nowadays it has been raining a lot. For example, just the other day I was trying to go out and get some groceries when it suddenly rained! So I sat on my bed, waited for it to stop. When it finally did, I grabbed my tudung and was fastening the pins when it rained again!!
My simple plan of going out and get groceries had suddenly became very.. tricky.

When I finally managed to get out, the sun was up so I had been pretty happy to get all the things on my list without getting wet. But of course, just as I was getting home, waiting for the pedestrian traffic light to turn green so I could cross the road.. it rained! ahahhahaha! And there I was by the roadside, grinning by myself like a lunatic.

Dida sleep-talked last night. It was really funny 'cause she answered when I asked her to repeat herself. She said something about "getting dark again". ekkekeke! She couldn't remember the dream she had when I asked later, of course!
Why, eh? We always forget the dreams that made us sleep talk. Shouldn't we remember it more? humm..

Man, I'm dreading the fact that I'm going back home this month!!

Simple thoughts.

Was I wrong, or Steven Gerrard is really using a different number on his jersey? I thought he's using number 4. Tonight he's wearing number 9!

I like watching sports on BBC. Main reason is of course; I understand every word the commentator said. Saturday, I saw this really cool football match, England vs. ROW - which stands for the Rest Of the World. The game was for Soccer Aid and there's a bunch of artists and veteran football players on each teams. Maradona played for ROW while Robbie Williams scored for England! heehee. I don't remember the scores, but England had won. Ooh! The referee was that bald French dude who used to do Nike's commercial. What's his name? Dida's asleep and I don't feel like waking her up.

Alright. Kind of sleepy. Woke up pretty early this morning 'cause I didn't want the cleaning lady catches me off guard again. It's been twice that they came while I was having my shower. I'm starting to think that they just like seeing me in my towel. ahhahahahahaha!!

Sweet dreams, world!

"Salad, darling?"

heehee. An older kebab store fella said that to me and I just can't help liking the sound of it! Such a nice ring when people added "-love" or "-darling" to something really typical! "5 Pound, love."

My weekend in London...
I was grinning the whole time. It was not at all as I had hoped; what I had hoped.. was a fairytale, so never mind that! What it was, was tiring.. but I was happy! Extremely happy that I was there.

We had some problems with the travelling agency - which I'd settle with tomorrow - but people around London were really really nice!! Not as scary as the ones on telly.
It feels odd to be in some place where you can understand every single word conversed around you. All of a sudden you're listening to EVERY SINGLE WORD conversed around you. I'm a real eavesdropper while I was there. Listening to every conversation at the hotel or in the tube.. My sister kept asking me, "what are you smiling at?" heehee.

Our first day, a guy asked where I was from while we were in the tube and for what ever reason I was cold to him! I surprised myself. I'm usually quite friendly to strangers - too friendly even. Dida must have gotten to me. She told me off at the Schiphol Airport last week when we were heading to Barcelona. She said I was being too friendly to a creepy old guy. heehee. My bad. I can't pass a chance to have a candid conversation with a stranger!!
Anyways, I feel bad about the one in the tube. When we got off at Piccadily Circus Dida asked, "why didn't you chat with him?" Geez! Make up your mind, woman!
Then we got to Trafalgar Square.. where another man asked where I was from. So I say to myself.. "better be me, then!" I was feeling sorry for the guy earlier.

Med, the guy at the Trafalgar Square was really nice! He asked if we had any plans on what we're going to see since we have such short time. We said that our "plan" was to just walk around and stop where there's something to see! He then said, "oh, so you're following your nose then," - and my sister, for what ever reason rubbed her nose! ahhahahah!! That was funny. Med ended up walking with us, showing us routes to take if we'd like to head down to the Buckingham Palace, Big Ben or the London Eye.
He was really nice - and keen too! He noticed that Dida was quiet so he decided to leave us two to enjoy the walk. I laughed, o'course! Said, "yeah.. she's not too fond of strangers." heehee. Good man!


One thing I noticed about Londoners, they ARE keen to other people. And very polite. VERY polite. For instance,
A: "I'd like a cheese burger, and perhaps a large fries, please."
B: "Would you like salt and vinegar with your chips?"
A: "Yes, please"
B: "Would you like ketchup or mayonaise?"
A: "Ketchup, please"
B: "Anything else?"
A: "No, thank you."
heehee! And I thought you could only hear things like that when you read out of a text book!

We went to every tourists attraction, I think! Don't think we had left anything out. So.. three days in London is quite enough to see everything. It just depends on what everything is to you. I say it's enough to see everything, but it wasn't enough to really see them. Am I talking in circles? heehee.

I'm afraid I can't tell you every single detail that had happened in London - What happens in London stays in London!! ahhahha! naah~ I'm just tired from the travelling. Very much glad that we didn't plan for anything next weekend or me and Dida will never get our rest!




The rest of the good photos that we took in London will be uploaded on Fotopage when I feel like it.
yeayyy! Got four stamps in my passport now!

Update!
ooh! I didn't have a conclusion to my entry!

Okay, so I love London. It was bloody brilliant! I wish I could make the city my boyfriend! Okay not really. I wish it could be my blood brother! Then I couldn't possibly dump him, right? It's just.. weird how right I felt, being there. haha! Macam balek kampung of some sort.
I wish I had more time to see everything and go everywhere that I had wanted to. If only we had more time and our feet didn't hurt as bad as it did!! Man! I SO want to go there again!
Then maybe I'd have enough time to find a bloke for Muz and myself! ekkekeke!

Madame Tussauds; I think it's over-rated! It was amusing.. but it wasn't exactly amazing. So if you're thinking of going to London, you can skip that. I'd say, to see it is a novelty but I really believe you won't miss much. The Will Smith definitely needs more work! heehee.

By the way, when we were back in our building in Rotterdam, I managed to get this one fella almost hit the glass door with one look! ahhahaha!! I could be such a successful geisha! ahahhahahahhahaha!!

Me.. ecstatic!!

Emy Rothenberger is an angel!!
Everyone, if you know someone with that name, treat her kindly.. She's.. awesome!!

Okie. Not much time to explain all that.. gotta get ready!!
I'm going to visit the number one city that I've always wanted to go to!! Can't count the times I've sworn to myself that I'd go there before I die..

I just made one wicked pasta sauce!

Of course, I'm the only one to be the judge of that since my sister had been asleep since she got back from work earlier. Wish I had more spices in this house. Would love the idea of throwing in some oregano or basil! heeheee.

It's a bit late for a meal.. but I was bored. I just gotta eat when I'm bored or I'd start getting rather cranky. Could've just made myself a bowl of instant noodle but there are only 8 or 7 packets left so we gotta save them for real emergencies.

I'm dragging out, I know.

I called Muz earlier. She didn't say much, but that's just the way it is. I'll do the babbling, she'll listen, and then tell me things like, "mesti Dida tak layan kau kan? You're babbling way more than usual,"; which was.. true! ahhahaha! Well, I just don't have anything to babble to her. Plus, I always babble to Muz. That's my thing.

Then she came up with this theory; I'd only babble for three things which are movies, books and boys. That doesn't sound too good, does it? If it weren't for movies and boys I'd be a real geek. If it weren't for the movies and books, I'd be.. well, someone who keeps on talking about boys! Either way, it's bad!

Then she asked if I missed home, which then I laughed. She reckons that I can get dumped into any country 'cause I'm so detached from anything or anyone at home.

True.
I actually WISH that I'd get dump into some other country in the future. I like this travelling thing. Works great for me.

I don't sound like I'm running away from something, am I? 'Cause I'm not! I don't think I am.. Wish it would've been easier to understand your own psychology rather than having someone telling you what you could've guessed yourself.

I want coffee.

"You just couldn't love me."

Last week I did this Tickle quiz, What's Your Love Story. Nothing exciting, really but today I got an email from Tickle that two of my friends had done the quiz and that I can see what they've got!

So my girl friend got Romantic Rescue and that just means that the perfect love story she could have is one where "love" gives a better meaning and significance to her life. "Some people put themselves in the role of hero in this love story — nursing an ailing partner back to health, saving him from a string of previously destructive relationships, maybe even saving him from a physical danger. Other people with whom you share this story cast themselves as those in need of rescue - relying on their partners to swoop in and save them from whatever ill-fate's been visited upon them, either real or imagined."
heehee. I never thought of her to be anything like that. But it's not exactly surprising.. I think she likes a bit of a challenge, although I don't know what will happen once she's done her "saving".. or "being saved".

I scored a 2 on that. Shocking. I thought saving or being saved was kind of my thing since I crave for those stuff on every show I see on the telly. Oh well.

My guy friend got Loving Too Much, which I thought was funny!! A little too lovey-dovey for a guy. heehee! But it's very true. You know it is.. This is the love story when someone just loves someone too much for their own good. "The people you're most attracted to are usually just out of reach and all the more alluring for it — like those early crushes on teen idols. The less available your partner is, emotionally and physically, the more desirable he becomes. People who share your story have plenty to offer, but they tend to put too much love into someone they shouldn't. Some people also interpret their partner's actions as they want to, not necessarily as they were intended. Sometimes this happens because they spend more time focusing on the fantasy of a relationship rather than the reality of one."

Very tragic.. and yet that is my secondary love story. (according to this complete report I'm reading.) ahhaha!! Go figure. Sounds very much like me.

But my Love Story is actually Love Conquers All.. Just the sound of it makes me shiver. ahhahah!! Too "fairy-tale". It's just silly. "At its core, the Love Conquers All story is very romantic, triumphant, and full of courage to face yourself with honesty. The catalyst for change in your love story is usually a pivotal event, circumstance, or reevaluation of yourself. Even if fate doesn't throw obstacles in your way, it's possible that you do. Do you shy away from romantic commitments? Do you make excuses for not dating? Do you wish your relationships never progressed passed the lovey-dovey stage? Are the people you date "all wrong" for you? There's a reason you're holding back from pursuing a good thing. You may put excuses between you and another person, or you may intentionally pick the wrong person to give you an out, an alternative to getting serious. The real courage in your love story comes from taking a good look at yourself, and questioning your motivations."

ha-ha. This report has successfully made me feel like...
But I still like Tickle! I think they have the best quizzes online.

Hola!

Got back from Barcelona a couple of hours ago. Really enjoyed it there.. it was warm. No. It was actually HOT!!
Me and Dida are a little tanned from the two days spent over there! It's almost unbelievable, I know, but that's what it is!!

Here's a tip; DO NOT fly on Vueling! ahhaha!! The flight might be cheap, but God it's horribly untrustworthy!! We kept being delayed.. for hours!! It's just wasn't fun.

Since we're just weekend-travellers (I'd like to call myself a weekend gypsy, if I may) we took the tour bus; might not be ideal for those with a tight budget, but if that isn't a problem.. it's a MUST!! There are three routes to take, the North, South and Forum.

The North Route took us to places where Gaudi had his works most. La Sagrada Familia.. was magnificent!! Okay, it's a cathedral and I probably shouldn't admire it but it's hard not to! A shame that Gaudi hadn't had enough time to finish his work. (He's the architect I mentioned, who died after being hit by a tram.)


South Route goes around the higher ground of Barcelona; Monjuik, while the Forum goes along the beach.
The tour bus is simply thorough!! They even go to the football stadium. heehee.

Conclusion: It's simply isn't enough to see the entire of Barcelona in two days! Ooh! I have to say this. Catalans/Spanish knew VERY LITTLE English. They're even worse than French. Well.. no. We didn't have any problems in Paris but in Barcelona... it'd be wise to know the basics; "left".. "right".. claro?

Bring eye-drops! The roads are dusty, probably from the numerous palm trees along the city. They're a murder.
Even then, I still *heart* (AHHAHAHAHA!!!) Barcelona! There are cute guys in every corner you look!! Okay, maybe that's just because they're more like my type but they're awfully friendly! - and very flirtatious, which I have no problem with! AHHAHAHAHAHA!!!

Paris and Barcelona.. they're tied as the best city I've been to. Just thinking about it struck me emotionally.. (shameful, I know!)

Will update my fotopage once I shake off the sore muscles.
G'nite everyone! Gonna tire myself out working on my journal.

checklist

chores
do dishes - check
do laundry - check
press Dida's tudung - check
throw away the trash - will check when we leave the house later

luggage
undies - check
enough clothes - check
hotel stuff - check
travel book - check
passport - check
journal - check
cameras - check
extra films - check

attitude
complete excitement and openness to a change of scenery and new culture - check!!!

Now off I go to meet some Catalans!
Be back on Sunday.

Da Vinci Dud?

- So had many reviewers said.
As for me, I've never been any good at reviewing since I am very much biased and tend to be short-sighted.
But if there is any reason that you should believe every word I'm about to say (or write), then this amatur-ish review might do you some good.

Me and Dida went to see The Da Vinci Code. Directed by Ron Howard, starring Tom Hanks and Audrey Tautou.
Warning : Very honest opinion ahead;

Dida hadn't read the book; she's completely satisfied by the film. A good two and a half hours spent in the cinema.
Too bad for me, I adored the book.
Here's an important key.. Enter the cinema, expect the worst, as I did tonight. The moment that screen turns black and Ron Howard's name comes out, you shall say to yourself, "that wasn't too bad!"

Now, if I had expected the movie to be as good as I thought the book was, I'd come out of the cinema in rage cries about how it didn't do justice to the book. Really.
I was expecting the worst. All those comments made during the CNN News at the preview for the medias had prepped me to expect the most awful movie made in mankind history. I say THANKS.

To set it straight, it wasn't "the most awful movie made in mankind history". I say it was okay to me. Just.. a simple, plain "OKAY".
At this very moment, I am thankful to God that I was born with a natural interest in READING.

But go see The Da Vinci Code anyways! I didn't like Tom Hanks as Langdon, but maybe you would! He was nowhere near awful, but the movie-Langdon was just.. ohh I don't know. What I feel for the movie-Langdon is just.. that he's just "another face of another character in a movie." He should've been Robert Langdon, a dashing Harvard-scholar who specialize in the amazing subject of symbols! He should intrigue my thoughts on every symbol I've seen today but all he was.. was just a GUY. It's sad, really.

Okay, what else can I tell you today...
Ooh! I bought something rather expensive today. Don't think I should tell Dida about it 'cause I bought it for someone! Well, a pressie. Ooooh, I just love it but I can't possibly keep it for myself. Wouldn't do me any good 'coz I'd love it too much to use it. But my feelings towards this "thing" I had bought.. Well, if someone had bought it for me, I wouldn't hold myself back to kiss that person.. heck, I might just lick his (or her!) face! ahhahahhaha! Really.

Humm.. maybe I should write this now so I could avoid any inconvenience on my behalf in the future;
NOTE TO READERS
In case you have any issue that I use "he" and "him" as singular pronouns identifying any general person rather than "she", "her", "he/she", "him/her", "he or she" or "they" and "them". It's a stylistic choice, motivated by literary convention and the desire to speed up communication, and implies no gender inequities. You may substitute any of the above pronoun options where appropriate.

HAHHAHA!!
Now I shall be free to use "him" and only "him" for as much as I want when I write of no one specific!!
(I actually care to be politically correct.)

Stupid.. stupid Nick!

I wonder why writers just LOVE creating characters who's a border-line egomaniacal arse. And I wonder why I just LOVE getting myself all worked up over these things. grr.

Nick, a character from one of the shows I've recently watch religiously; McLeod's Daughters. It's on Hallmark Channel of Astro but I never really followed it until I got here. It has smartly sucked me into gluing myself to the telly every 12:30 and 6:00 pm. (12:30 is the repeat of the episode on the day before.)
Obsessive.. my second middle name - if that's possible!

Dida woke me up really early today. Just to tell me to look over the other side of the river where a HUGE ship kinda just sat. It was a cruise ship. Calling my name to be jumped onto. Around 5pm it sailed away and left me thinking why I hadn't gone to it. humm..

O yeahh! I made an apple pie earlier today!! It amazes me how a recipe I copied from the internet worked wonderfully. I - actually - baked - a - pie!!! ME!

A shout out to Ms. Fox who according to little Mimi, "went to the shop with her friend", when I tried calling her earlier. Amazed.. Mimi is already in that age where she can answer the phone.. Boy, time flies!
Anyways, then I called Dayat who unsurprisingly got me laughing and shout about. heehee. Okay. Malas nak call Azraai!!!

This song's stuck in the head. Seen too much of tonight's episode of Grey's Anatomy's ad.

My Favorite Mistake by Sheryl Crow

I woke up and called this morning
The tone of your voice was a warning
That you don't care for me anymore

I made up the bed we sleep in
I looked at the clock when you creep in
6 AM and I'm alone

Did you know when you go it's the perfect ending
To the bad day, i was just beginning
When you go all i know is
You're my favorite mistake

Now your friends are sorry for me
They watch you pretend to adore me
But I'm no fool to this game

Now here comes your secret lover
She'll be unlike any other
Until your guilt goes up in flames

Did you know when you go it's the perfect ending
To the bad day i've gotten used to spending
When you go all I know is
You're my favorite mistake
you're my favorite mistake

Maybe nothing lasts forever
Even when you stay together
I don't need forever after
It's your laughter
Won't let me go so I'm holding on this way

Well did you know
Could you tell
You were the only one
That I ever loved
When everything's so wrong

Did you see me walking by
Did it ever make you cry
You're my favorite mistake

This is interesting.

For those who knew me well, would surely know how caught up I can get with horoscopes and tarots and all those silly stuff you should never believe. But anyways, as the typical sucker that I am, I can never say no when I get an email from astrology.com telling me to try their new Da Vinci deck of tarot cards.
Of course.. tarot cards on the internet?? Puhh-lease! But that doesn't stop me from clicking away, does it? *grins*

Since it's free, I can only reveal the first two cards of the eight cards spread. Still, I thought it was interesting.
Don't bother reading this entry if it doesn't mean shit to you. I know how it feels when I come across blogs with boring entries that don't make sense to me.

My first card : Previous Experience
The World
In this position (reversed) suggests that you may have come out of a work-related or career situation or event prematurely. Your business may not have been finished, but stubbornness, unwanted restrictions, or apathy may have led you or forced you to walk away. You may have been told in the past that you have the potential for success, but you just don't apply yourself.
The World serves to remind you that "As Above, so Below." It is both a "graduation" and an "initiation" earned through mastery and integration of previous lessons learned and applied through experience. It takes on almost sacred quality, and reversed, can suggest that more still needs to be done in order to achieve this status. The World and its freedoms can be yours, but you must earn it and accept responsibility for them.

Second card : Personal Experience
The Knave of Pentacles
Reversed, suggests that this Knave may feel enthusiastic or hopeful about a possible oppurtunity for further study, training, or progress. He may be weighing his options carefully so that he can decide which course of action will result in the best possible outcome financially, materially, or physically. This Knave probably has pretty high self-esteem, and is rather independent or able to discern for himself what is in his best interest. This Knave is being reminded however, of a possible tendency to overlook the obvious or feel moody, lazy, unmotivated or unethical whenever he feels overwhelmed as well as the possibility of using material or physical "objects" as a means of boosting his ego or showing off. For a smart person, he might sometimes display a lack of common sense.

Doesn't sound too good, does it? But I swear, the freakin' bot is telling my story!!

Liverpool was brilliant!!

Now don't get me wrong, I haven't converted or anything. I am still.. pathetically very much attached to Manchester United (just don't know why..) but Liverpool was brilliant!! Mostly it was Steven Gerrard who had been brilliant, of course! (too bad he's enganged and everything or I would actually consider to turn myself into a Liverpool fan. Too bad..)

I was definitely impressed by their keeper, Jose Reina. All that saves.. he was excellent!

Liverpool won their second consecutive FA Cup; both by penalty shoot-out.
I think Dida preferred West Ham to win it but I was glad that they didn't. They were good, having a lead on Liverpool by 3 to 2.. but they didn't have Gerrard. ahhahaha!! Gerrard actually scored Liverpool's 3rd goal at 90+1 minute!
Absolutely deserved "The Man of the Match".

A bit of fact, Liverpool have had ten penalty shoot-outs and they have won nine of them.
Poor Rio Ferdinand's brother - Anton Ferdinand. He seemed devastated.

Well, that was a brilliant game.

We're staying home this weekend, so you won't read anything remotely exciting I'm afraid.
Thinking about the Da Vinci Code, opening next week! eeeek!

Spring.

Today I was woken up by the sounds of the mowing of grass. heehee. I think it's funny 'cause it reminds me so much of Shah Alam; I'm always waken up by the sound of the motors. Annoying. But it was after all eleven o'clock and these days it's already bright outside by 6am.

Dida told me that her officemates right here said that next week is going to be cold. heehee. I think it's funny 'cause it doesn't seem to be making any sense at all! How can spring turn cold?? I take it's possible if it was cold at the beginnng of spring, but in the middle of it? Of course, yesterday I saw BBC's weather program and it said something about a cold wind to hit London and bring down the temperature to 17°C. A bit cool for spring, eh?

Yesterday I went to D-reizen as Dida had asked me to. Discussed about the prospect of travelling to Germany on the 3rd of June. (It's the only available weekend we have before my return back home.) So I talked to this really nice lady. Pretty too! I think she's a bit of a mix since she doesn't look purely omputeh.. (Caucasian.. that's the word for white people, right?) So.. 3rd June to 5th June;
München for 2 by flight = €704.50
Berlin for 2 by flight = €618.50
Köln for 2 by train = €276.50
(take note, I'm pretty certain that if I had made the enquiry even 2 weeks earlier, I would've gotten a better price, for a cheaper hotel. This is what you get.. last minute.)

Then last night after I showed Dida the print outs the pretty lady had given me, she said "if we'd spend too much since we got here.. the trip's off," and went to all the receipts and started calculating. ahhahaha!! It's.. odd. And slightly disappointing. I slept in a huff when Dida finally said, "we've spent a LOT! Thousands.. Not including the amount I've paid for our coming trips.."
I suppose she didn't exactly say, "the trip to German's off!" but I'll take that's what she'd meant. I huffed of course. Dida made it like I'M the only person who shops around here! She buys more clothes than I do!! Okay, so I spend a bit on photos and Pipoos, but still!! And of course I use a little more money since I'M the one who keeps going out to stock the refregirator.. refrigerator.. ahhh! How ever you spell it; it's a cooling piece of box!
She really didn't have to make it as if it's MY fault. grrr.
Now I'm plain ticked. And disappointed. grrr.
But I guess, "as the philosopher Jagger once said, you can't always get what you want." (I've been trying to get a link so you could listen to Jagger but apparently the connection sucks too much to even have the song uploaded! grr.)

Update on 10:55pm;
Dida had said it.. "I don't think we should go to Berlin.. we don't know how much we'll spend during the trips we've already made.."
And I.. being typically me.. had the nerve of asking, "Köln?"
ahhahahha! I - am - pathetic.
By the way Azraai, I still need your address!

Azraai!

email me your address, okeh?

(bagus betul ade blog untuk kasi important message camnih.)

Awful news from home.

Dida called home yesterday around noon. After a bit of catching up Papa asked her to pass the phone to me as it's been two weeks (maybe more) since we last talked. I think I finally came to "myself" when I talked to him yesterday. Didn't feel like staying "mean" for too long. At the end of our chat, he said "see you soon", which actually made me feel a little down since I like not being back home in Malaysia. huhuuu. (I'm still mean, apparently) But I didn't told him that, of course! (I'm secretly being mean)

Then he passed the phone to Mama and I complaint to her about the rash I've been having since I got here. I remembered that Mama had wanted a perfume so I passed the phone to Dida so she could say to Mama, "Which perfume do you want? It's nearing Moederdag and korting's everywhere."
We laughed, as expected Mama hadn't had any idea on what Dida had just said.

Mama being typical Mama, having trouble putting words after another and not finishing her sentences (nothing medical there.. she's just silly!) and Dida got tired of waiting so she passed the phone back to me. I asked her again the perfume she'd wanted and then we said our goodbyes.

After a while Dida called home again to speak to Mama 'cause she didn't feel right ending their conversation on that term.

Around 8pm we left the house to catch a movie. (The cinema we went to was called Pathé and their mascot of some sort was a chicken!) Saw a really neat M&M's commercial!! "M&M. For Friends and Fun" heehee! And some trailers (me.. like.. trailers!) The Break-Up, Last Holiday and of course, Da Vinci Code!
Anyways, we saw Failure To Launch and absolutely loved it! There weren't too many people in the cinema (it's an old movie, being the fact that it was released in late March or early April) but I think they'd enjoyed it too. We were all roaring with laughter on the funny parts of the film.

We got back home around 11pm and was ready to go to bed around 1am (after watching the Dutch's Temptation Island that we absolutely didn't understand a word they're saying!)
Then the phone rang.
It was Papa.
He sounded grave and all I can think of at the moment was packing and airplanes.

Papa: Mama got robbed.
Me: And..?
Papa: Dida's ATM is in her purse.. along with her pin number.
(by this time I relaxed a bit but also ticked that my silly mother had kept my sister's pin number in the purse! Relaxed, because Mama's silliness was the main topic of Papa's call.)
The robbery took place at the bus station, (shiver.. thinking of the times I've waited there all by myself.) Mama wasn't alone though so I wasn't too worried when Papa said there were four men with knives. Sakai tak tau malu, sia sia jadi laki. Takde keje lain, merompak! Baik takyah jadi laki!!

Sorry.. Just couldn't help it. It's just the way I feel.. If you're not capable of being a MAN - supposedly a leader, might as well you just DIE and spare everyone else of the shame. Really. Just die.. please.
(thus, the reason why I'm still single. hehhe!)

Mama was traumatized, but fine.
That's all I need to know, really.
As much as I love staying here, so far from home. I'd love more to come home to something rather than nothing.. or no one.

Sorry about the long, dragging intro of this entry. Just wanted you to experience the same dramatic effect of the end of my day.

Ohh snap!

(just thought I'd use a kinder version of my usual "ohh crap!")

I think I've finally found one thing that I miss while my stay here, and it's "not caring how long I'm on the internet and let the laptop on - as long as I get my House downloaded". Honestly, this dial up thing SUX!! The NetPumper is slowing everything down and I can't afford to stay too long online!!
- At least, I can't take another nag from Dida about the bills! ahhahhaha!!
To be truth, I have no problem not checking my emails.. I-just-have-to-know-what-happens-on-House!! &%##@*!!!

Grrrr.
grrrrrrrr.
GRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!
I'm honestly raging here. grrrrr.

A fair attempt to change the subject:
Dida brought me to Antwerp (or Atwerpen) today. She had mentioned the place as "somewhat 'nothing' except for the Belgian waffles and the big Zara store". So I didn't bring any spare films for my SLR, thinking that I won't be needing it. Guess what??
I was wrong - natuurlijk. Dida didn't give enough credit to the place 'coz I had liked it!! I think it was nicer that Amsterdam, and that should say something.

Anyways, we end up going shopping after a couple of hours walking around, sight seeing. heehee. There were mid-season sales on most stores. Korting everywhere!!

So we're going to catch a movie morgen! Kinda excited on that one! Although we had to force a laugh when we bought the tickets yesterday. If we had to convert the Euro to Ringgit Malaysia... haiyyoooh!

Dutch 101
natuurlijk - naturally/of course
korting - discount
morgen - tomorrow
See! I'm picking up some Dutch living here. ekkekke! Little, yeah.. but it's something!!

Hey!

What-d'ya-know.. there's a "condition" when a person writes too much. When a person needs to write rather than simply wanting to.
Hypergraphy.
Of course, that's actually a psychological problem and I believe people would actually suffer to have the condition. I mean.. just imagine! Needing to put your thoughts onto something no matter how lousy they actually are.

Painful.

It's hot outside!

- "As if we're back in Malaysia!"
heehee. My sister's idea of a joke.

Well, I'm not too sure if it's like Malaysia but it's definitely warm! We even slept with the windows open last night. The winds no longer bring chills to our bones. Today, I wore a little too much I guess. I think it's nothing more than what I'd usually wear in Malaysia.. a thin, teeny ¾ sleeved tee, and another piece of almost-sleeveless tee. Big mistake. I sweat like a pig. Okay, not exactly a pig, but almost! The point is, I broke a sweat!

I do like the warm weather. It's neat to play dress up here! No matter how you think that you've over-dressed, you'd be amazed at how other people dresses up. There's NO WAY you'd be the worst dressed person in town!
- At least not me! ekkeke!

I do think women are funnily dressed most of the time. For instance, I love wearing my new pair of boots even though they hurt my feet - mostly because they're new. (They're feeling much better the more I put them on, I swear!) But in Beurs today, I saw this woman in a pair of white heals, and there were band-aids at the back of her ankles! Obviously she has been wearing some painful shoes.
It pains me to say this, but I do believe that most women wear what makes them feel good about themselves even though what they are wearing actually feels awful on them.
Sad, isn't it?

Another piece of Wanie's thoughts.

British people are really.. something aren't they?
I mean, all this time I only got British-made movies and series on the telly. I'm afraid I haven't met a real real British person before, but I think I've seen enough reality shows on BBC One and Two to make out that British people are VERY much different from what I usually see in the films.

I haven't decided yet if the "something" is a good thing or bad, but they are definitely.. something! Sorry.. I keep saying that don't I?

Between The Apprentice, Britain's Next Top Model and The Weakest Link.. my o my! Why do they have to be so.. nasty? Okay, maybe not literally "nasty", but they're scary! For what ever reason I get the feeling that most of them simply feels that they're really superior, somehow. I guess Sir Alan has the right to be (superior) but man! He's really scary! - and rude! Really! He's so superior up to the point that he's started to sound really rude!

I hope no one gets me the wrong way 'cause honestly, I ADORE Brits! I *secretly* wish to marry a British lad, for God's sake! So I just had to wonder, WHHYYYYYY????
Why do they have to look so mean sometimes? Other than the fact that they really are superior in the case of current money exchange, they don't need to be that scary do they?
ahhahha!! Listen to me. I've successfully made myself sound like a pathetic weakling. Scared of the people I saw on telly.
(But really.. British people are brutal!)
I will get back to you on this subject when I meet one. (A Brit, I mean.)

Plus, I've never read anything nasty about Brits on Aisyah's or Eileen's blog and they should know better on this subject.
I'm merely pointing out my silly thoughts, of course.

Anyways, I found a really cool thing to do in this house!
- Feeding dish into the dishwasher!
What a cool machine!! When they came out all warm and squeaky.. wow! Pure saticfaction. *glee*

Alright, nothing more to update. Gotta go to the loo and wash the glasses. Would've loved to feed them into the dishwasher but Dida said the glasses felt sandy after I put them in, the first time. Bah! Mengade.

A quick peak peek into the future.

Fact: I shouldn't become a full-time mom in the future.

It's either I love being at home too much that I'd just spend my time immovable in front of the telly and completely forgetting my chores while I find myself drawn to soap operas that never seem to end, or I'd love all the time I have to spend outside and coming back home to realize that I had accidentally spent all my money.

- and that's the case with me these days.
Usually I'm the one with the lazy-bum but today.. I went out this morning, around 10 with €45 in bills in my wallet. After a trip to Wah Nam Hong (the groceries store for Asian stuff), Albert Heijn (the supermarket for other stuff), the market, De Tuinen (I think I shall call it the hippie store 'cause they sell organic sort of things and teas, inscence and relaxing soaps for shower and baths), and Pipoos (a work of the Devil; a shop-ful of paper stuff for scrap books!) - I came home at almost 1pm with COINS in my pocket.
Unless I'd be married to an extremely wealthy bloke, I should never NEVER be left alone at home for too long. NEVERRRR!!
Dida is SO not going to be pleased with me.

Moving on,
you know.. two years ago - no - if you'd asked me yesterday what would I say to a man who gives me a bunch of flowers, I think I'd say thanks.. and adds mercilessly that he'd just wasted his money on a mere thanks. But today, as I carried a bouquet of flowers around town - that I bought 'cause Dida thought it'd cheer up the house a bit - I couldn't help myself from feeling giddy! Such an odd, odd effect!

Flowers do make some girls happy-er then.

Enough rambling. I ought to get on with my scrapbook. After all that I had spend.. I better make it really good looking!