Mamak, Fritz satu pliss!

sigh. That'd be awesome; to order up one hunky dude, seemingly messed up but turns out to have such a wonderful soul! I want one!! (Incidentally, so does Alia.)

I had a pretty crazy day.
Woke up early to catch the 11:45 show for Chermin with Dida in Midvalley. She took the day off to relax and she decided to catch a horror flick with me since I wouldn't watch it with her at night. ahhahaha!
Let me say that I didn't like the film. It wasn't that scary but incredibly sloooww. Most - if not all of the actors were stiff as logs. My only thumbs up is for the people who made the trailer so good that it had fooled me and Dida to be so interested to see the film. That was definitely -- an excellent marketing strategy!

We got back at about three when Alia had called to ask if I had wanted to see Catch and Release with her in OU - heck yeah!!
We bought tickets for the 4:50 show so we spent the spare time having lunch in Sushi King.
I think the film was absolutely charming. Okay, I may be biased since I just adore Jennifer Garner, but honestly! It was a good film. Sweet -- and funny too! That dinner scene when Sam said, "So, are you a bitch or a butch?".. hilarious!
Then of course, after seeing two movies.. I just had to go to the loo.
Then! Alia just got to talking about TMNT, being surprised that it's already out and so.. We went to catch the 8:20 show! ahahhaha!! Not before getting some snacks in Waffle World. I ordered the Classic Belgian Waffle and guess what?
It's NOTHING like Belgian waffles!!
That put my curiosity to rest -- annoyingly though.
Penyu Mutasi Ninja Remaja was neat! The animation wasn't impressive or anything but I just like how the storyline goes. I don't believe that many people can say this, but I can really relate to turtles! hahhaha! I was so into it that I find myself very upset everytime Leo and Raphael was on the screen. (In case you didn't know, I feel a very strong connection with Raph -- being stubborn and impatient; my specialty, really. Plus, I'm always the more-upset-one after winning a fight with either of my sisters. Quite pathetic now I think about it.)
Ohh! I think the animation looks better during the fight scene in the rain. That was impressive.

So I ended up arriving home at half past ten..
That's how I spent my crazy movie day.

Just a quote from Yasmin Ahmad's blog;

"..before you kick ass, you must first get OFF your asses.."

ps: On a very different note; I can honestly say that I couldn't care less about you. Any form of niceties that I have ever done was obviously a complete lapse of judgement. My hopelessness is indeed, my weakness. Never again will you see that from me.

Oh finally!

It has ended..
Three weekends of Cik Mi's wedding celebration has ended. It went great, but honestly.. having to go back to Bukit Kapar every weekend preceding to this weekend was tiring; physically and mentally.
So I am.. definitely glad.
Thank you Cik Alia, Farah and Zaki for coming. That was really neat!

Okay, today's heat is really taking up all my strength. I kept dozing off everytime I got in the car, so I really should just go to bed.

Hope you guys will have a very good Sunday!
I'll probably just stay at home lazying, but how I wish I could go to Formula One this year! eurghh! With Massa on pole position and Raikkonen on third too!
And Manchester United lost to Portsmouth! The dismay...
Obviously, shite happens sometimes.

edited on 5:53 PM, April 8th 2007.
Well.. definitely, this has been quite the shitty week. Alonso won the Sepang circuit. Suppose the fact that me and Dida didn't go to see it wasn't too bad of a thing after all.

You are what you eat.

Hey there boys and girls!
I am back.. for good? Who knows anymore! But truthfully, I've probably travelled too much for my own good. It's not about the "not being home" that bugs me. It's mostly the tiresome 12 hours journey and the cabin pressure that seems to hurt more and more lately. sigh. It's silly, but there were moments when I felt like my eardrums would really pop. Horrendous, I'm telling you.

London was alright but I think my knees would've fallen off if we stayed even a day longer. All Nina and I did there was trying to complete the long shopping list that Dida had given us. I feel a tad bad that I went all psycho and obsessed about the shopping list instead of putting Nina's curiosity of art galleries to rest. Nina didn't even get to do anything touristy on our visit except for seeing the Trafalgar Square which happens to be opposite of the Tourism Malaysia office! If it hadn't been there.. Nina would have been practically deprived of any well-known landmarks in London.

Let's just summarize that I still feel bad about dragging Nina shopping than pushing her to choose a gallery for us to visit. Geez. I'm horrible.
Oh, well.. but we did have fun at the Liverpool Street market and also visiting Primark. haha! It was very amusing.

Putting London aside now, let me tell you about Old Trafford!! It was SUCH an extraordinary experience -- watching my favourite team in the Super Suite which we were told -- had cost £50 000! Gile la bapak! I can't tell you how lucky I felt. Amazing! Oh, and the Asian Broth with Udon Noodles served in there (there were a few choices of starters of course, but Nina and I had to opt for the vegetarian dish.) tasted great! It made such a big impression. I hope Nina will find the recipe for that somewhere so she could try to replicate it. heehee.

Okay, as some of you might have bothered to know, (I realize that I don't really have lots of friends that cared about football as much as I do) Blackburn Rovers had scored an opening goal at the first half of the game -- which plainly sucked. I was truly worried if I had sucked every bit of Man U's luck by being there. How can I ever tell anyone that the day I went to see my team play was the day they had lost! Oh, the horror!
Good thing as it turned out, I needed not to worry as Manchester United scored FOUR goals during the second half. Nina and I had jumped around like maniacs during those goals; we jumped and cheered just like any other United's fans at the other side of the glass.
Although I did missed Solskjaer's final goal of the match as I needed to go to the loo from the endless supply of tea. That was about when I realized that I was definitely in England.
So, what else?
Ohh, Nina got to experience my "gift/curse" of attracting old men. This time he was an Australian, seemingly in his forties.. the youngest of the lot, actually! hahahahaha!! So really.. if there needed be, I could have a sugar daddy in every continent of the world!
Handy, eh?

I can't help myself from watching Miss Potter each time I got on the plane. I just can't get over the look on Ewan McGregor's face when Beatrix (played by Renée Zellweger) said "yes". It was brilliant! As a matter of fact, I am now a true fan of those two when they're both on screen! (I also adore Down With Love, which interestingly is about an author as well - fictional though it may be.) But the story.. was incredibly sad at certain parts that I just prayed the flight attendants didn't see me cry. sigh. Those two are excellent actors!

Ah well.. that's all for now.
It had been one tiring trip. Definitely a new experience as I had never travelled with Nina before. Wish Dida had been able to come with. Maybe one day the three of us could take a trip somewhere. That'll be uber cool! (Oh, how lame can I be to say "uber cool"??)

Have an awesome day, everyone!

ps: I think I've just managed to fix my archives, so.. horaaayyy!!
Also, I will put up some pictures for this entry sometime later.
pps: (Just for my own note,) I wrote "Personal Assistant" under "Occupation" on my landing card to Heathrow. I thought it was funny, so does the rest of my kinsman! heehee.
edited on 6:26 AM, April 12th 2007.

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Pack my bags again...

Will be back next Wednesday..

Oh, Rumi..

The minute I heard my first love story
I started looking for you,
not knowing how blind that was.

Lovers don't finally meet somewhere.
They're in each other all along.

An older post.
I have such a good sense of taste in this area, no? (There's a copy of Rilke's book on Goong too!)

Ah well, though the song may not be in the same category as the poem, I just can't help remembering this song when I think of the poem.

Ooh anyway! The 3rd season of CSI: NY starts this April 2nd on AXN! whoopee! I'm definitely excited even though I might not be around to catch it. Oo yeah!
The glamorous life of a jet-setter.. (HAHH! I wish..)

ps: I just realized that the layout for my archives are pretty screwed up. So please, for your own good (and mine too) don't bother checking them out. I don't know what ticked me off the most. The fact that I can't read them from the texts overlapping one another, or the fact that I've been so ignorant to realize this earlier on. sheesh!

OH-MY-GOD! OMG! OMG! eeek! Just found this! Yeayy! Can't waaiit!!
edited on 11:38 PM, March 27th 2007.

Mukhsin...

*sigh*

Finally got to see it.
May I just say.. that when I got myself a good deserving boyfriend, I'd like to keep him safe and if he ever gets jealous of my guy friends.. I promise that I'd just whack him in the head instead of giving him the silent treatment.
huhuuu..

It was bittersweet. I sort of understood why it won that award in the Berlin International Film Festival. I think the storyline was pretty simple, but it had left me in a very deep thought.

Also.. I'd like to say.. that even though I realize that I'm 22.. I actually find that Mohd. Shafie Naswip kid (he's 14) was kinda hot! hahhahahahahaha!
I feel like a pervert now.
Anyway, I thought he was brilliant at that part when he called Orked out in the end. That kid was amazing!
Mukhsin was very well worth it..

Okay. That's all for tonight. I'm knackered from being out all day long. I was in Bukit Kapar, then SACC Mall, then IKEA/Ikano, dinner at Ang More Cafe (with Dida, the parents, Cik Yam, Hannah and Sarah, Cik Mi and the newly added Cik Ros).. and lastly, GSC Midvalley.
Now I'm home.. I just want to have a lie down.

edited on 12:52 PM, March 26th 2007.

(no idea)

Dida called earlier for me and Papa to get ready. We were heading to KL to pick up Mama and Nina from work so we could all send Nina back to Seremban.
(Abang Min didn't approve so much of that -- that dude is weird on some level.. but that's a different story!) It was really nice to talk to the entire family. We don't get much of that, having the kids running around a lot most of the time.

Laughed a lot during (late) dinner. Abang Min and the kids have already fallen asleep upstairs, so there we were around Nina's dining table, wolfing down the food we'd bought just minutes before. Dida naturally found something to joke about Mama.

Mama being Mama.. dotty and all, lagged a bit when the four of us were already laughing, and so;
Dida: Mama has short term memory loss..
Mama: Who said that?

kikkiki! Pardon yourself if you don't find that funny. Mama is always funniest when she didn't mean to. We were laughing so hard and I just might need to remember this one sometime.

My mind has been a little weird lately. It doesn't matter who's talking, but every conversation I listen to sounded like Korean! I guess I shouldn't have watched all 24 episodes of Goong in 2 days. Even my dreams are all messed up now...

The thing about K-Drama..

They have this really twisted storyline - heartaches after heartaches.. (ohh, how talented those actors, to cry right on cue!) that are stretched out soooo long - that it makes me sooo tired - then making me feel to never actually fall in love.
That tiring.
It gets me so anxious in the beginning but once I get to the middle, I feel like I should hide in a hole than knowing what's going to happen next, to the 'path' of the end. sigh. The middle part of most dramas I've seen had always made me feel like screaming.

Hey, that's just me... I still watch those Korean dramas though. haha!
Talk about not knowing what's good for you.
Hmm.. Never been keen on Koreans before, but now I'm having thoughts of; "Kalau dapat mamat Korea pon best jugak!" hahahaha! -- Sorry, English-speaking-only readers, it's a bit embarassing.. that thought. *stares feet*
Fact: Koreans are on average the tallest among Asians.

Anyway.. have you ever noticed?
In English, people would say.. "Just a second," or "wait a minute".
In Malay, we say.. "Lagi 5 minit eh." ("5 more minutes!") hahhahahaha! We Malays.....

Trying to remember that interesting line Cik Alia said to me yesterday. God, what exactly was it..?

heeheeheeee.

Cik Alia and I had a little barter today. (Temporary it may be..)

She lend me her copy of Goong and I lend her two of my Cecelia Ahern's books.

I can't stop grinning now.

Just for notes, I will refrain myself from complaining about getting fat in the future.

I am weak.

It's raining out. The clock says it's a quarter to 2. I just finished the last few pieces of those tinned rambutan in syrup 'cause that's what I found in the fridge. I just felt the need to chew something while actively pondering, "no bread for a week?"

In case you haven't heard, I am trying to lose some meat. Not too sure about the pounds since the scale says I'm at the right BMI, but most of the people around me have been saying that I'm getting wider.. or thicker.. and it's really really bugging me.

It's one thing when you are fat and people say that you are.
It's another when people look at you and say, "oh, you're not as thin as I thought you were.." That's just depressing on a whole new level.
And I got a new line just a few days ago.. "your cheeks look fat.."

I'm not going to cry over those 'cause that's just.. pathetically VAIN. But really.. it doesn't make me want to jump with joy either.
Is it necessary for you to be that mean? Seriously? What ever happened to treat people like the way you want to be treated? Because really, I've never treated anyone like that.

I honestly have NO idea why everyone keeps a tag on everybody else's body. Seriously.. is that everyone ever cared about??
"Oh, I saw her the other day.. She gained some weight from the last time we saw her.."
Doesn't that sound just ridiculous? Is it true that human being are really this shallow?? That is just sad. Truly.

Thank God I actually know the downsides of aneroxia and bulimia. No way I'm heading towards that anytime soon. I'm just.. mostly upset that I've been hearing enough people talking about my body to start cutting down eating bread.
Malaysian's staple food is rice, but I'm never too keen on rice. So really.. taking away bread is taking away my staple food. sigh.

Now you know why I prefer strangers than friends. I'm stupid enough to listen to what they think. Not just that they've already told me enough secrets for me to have a system overload! But me, being a secret keeper is another story.
For now, just for notes.. I did a few sit-ups just now and I think I pulled a muscle on my back.

I hate it when I conciously know that an act of rebellion right about now won't do me any good.

Anyway.. on a different note (just as upsetting). Since it's been raining this past couple of days, you drivers.. Please drive carefully. I took this picture on Monday on my way back from KL. Even a BMW couldn't stop you from spinning on a wet road. Okay?

ahahhahahahhaha!!!

God, I need to get over myself.
ahahhahahaha!!
I can't believe I am still the spaz when around someone I like. This is very idiotic. ahahhahaha! Dida thought I was scared -- I wish! Better being scared than "too-self-concious-about-making-a-fool-of-myself-and-end-up-making-a-fool-of-myself-anyway"!! ahahahhahahah!! Crap!

Anyway, may I just say.. even though the idea of having a good friend in the fashion industry sounds like the best thing ever.. for me, that is scary.
I like my crazy colour-uncoordinated things, thanks very much!

Aaaaaaaaaaaa!!!
I'm rambling.
Excellent.

I have hot cousins.

I swear.. if they weren't family, I'd happily have a crush on them.

First of three Cik Mi's wedding ceremony was last night. It was held in De Palma Hotel, Ampang. (The lady's side.) The second will be in Penang at the end of this month and finally.. the last one for our side of the family in Bukit Kapar in April! woot! Looking forward to that, actually. (Surprising.. considering I never really liked weddings.)

I need to stop myself from stuffing my face with pancakes. Oh no. Curse the new layout. Makes me wanna blog even more!

This part of my life is called..

I know I wrote "unstable" on my Yahoo! Messenger, but honestly.. I don't know what this part is really called. It's a hundred of jumbled words and none of them meant good.

Just saw The Pursuit Of Happyness. Will Smith really deserved the nomination for an Oscar. He did such a wonderful job. The story about Chris Gardner was.. amazing. Inspirational.
If you haven't seen this film. You probably should. It's a brilliant movie (a tad slow though) even though it depresses you at times. Frustrating too. But I just can't help being touched by his sheer determination to-- of course, be happy.

Made me feel very useless, unfortunately.
Thinking that the only thing I'm determined for right now is getting a full download of CSI: NY episodes since the one I got the other day was in French! How frustrating it was to have waited for 5 whole days and getting them in French. How measly.. and small I am, while somewhere out there.. someone is truly and absolutely working his/her ass off to pursue their goal.

And I felt embarassed when I watched In Her Shoes last weekend. God, I can't let my sisters be Rose. Nor do I want to be Maggie.
I must not settle for this.
This will not do.

So this is a pretty real entry than the ones I've posted since the last few weeks. I promised myself that I was taking a break from blogging so I could work on my very first manuscript.. but I lied.
I haven't written a new paragraph for two months. Two months of spiraling downwards.. sinking to the floor. Probably the main reason why I've been a pretty lousy being; testy and all. Being incompetent depresses me. The incapability of writing -- depresses me.

So now I should go and protect my dream.
Burn the midnight oil or what ever.
'Til the next entry...

Soo...

What's new with me?

Sunkissed trampoline.

March 12th it is..
Happy birthday Ratman. Hope I get to meet you one day.


Also.. a happy belated birthday to Bahijah (on the 8th!) and Incik Pae! (the day after!)
Hope you guys had a great time.. and an awesome year ahead!

Ohh! And the 16th is Red Nose Day!!
Can't believe two years have passed...

Just this one,

I promise!



Please go out and see the movie Music and Lyrics.
Please go and make Hugh Grant and Drew Barrymore richer than they already are -- they deserve it.
Please watch it and listen carefully to every word conversed.. and sung in the film. They - are - BRILLIANT!!

It was SUCH an awesome movie. Finally got to persuade Dida to see it and she was just as happy that she did! (Yeayy!! Made me so proud!) The movie was an hour and a half, but it took us about another hour to get home because we felt like cruising and so Dida drove the car at an average of 60km/h. (Slowest ever, by the way!)

ps: Alia, if by any chance you get to read this at Nur's place.. hope you're enjoying your time there!! Lupekan pin untuk Pae.. Just remember mine! ahhahaha!! Walaupun his birthday is coming up! ahahha! Lupekan saja!
pps: That promise at the beginning was of course, to myself. Now I should go and be somebody useful for a change.

Sungguh kurang sopan..

I've been tagged by Cik Alia apparently, so here..
RULES: People who are tagged should write a blog post of 6 weird things about them as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. Don't forget to leave a comment that says 'you are tagged' in their comments and tell them to read your blog.

1. Ants makes me itch. I'm not sure if it's a physical thing or more of a psychological thing because they don't even have to bite me to make me itch.. just looking at them gave me the strong urge to scratch my arms or legs. Ants-- are horrifyingly annoying like that.

2. I beat myself up when I forget about a TV show that I really wanted to watch. Really. Sometimes I feel like my heart dropped a few inches inside the rib cage. There were times when I actually cried for not being in front of the telly.. even though I was actually having a good time outdoors!

3. I cannot say how much I want a pair of Christian Louboutin's shoes! I must've pictured myself in one at least once a day! I don't know.. it is an odd sort of a goal I think. Something I need to achieve someday. Is it weird? I don't know. Maybe it isn't so weird for a female - wanting shoes.

4. I second-guesses people under the Scorpio sign. I know, that's almost racism but it's really not! I always have this feeling when I came in contact with a Scorpio. I don't hate them.. nor dislike them. My mom's a Scorpio! (and though we rarely see things eye to eye but 'dislike' and 'hate' is too much of a strong word.) I've had a good friend who was a Scorpio and she was nice.
But I don't know.. I just.. have this heaviness that if there is anyone that could murder me in my sleep, it'd be a Scorpio.

5. Ohh, everytime I meet a new person, I'd ask their zodiac sign. It usually came up first before their names. I also remember my friends by it. Date of birth - not so much, but I try.
My close friends knew me too well by now that everytime they told me about their other friends, and I asked "what is he/she?", they'd respond by the zodiac sign. (Instead of something else that actually mattered, like their job for instance.)

6. I have a hard time focusing on people's eyes when they talk. It's not that I choose to look at a different part of their body -- it's just hard. I always feel like there's a higher level of seriousness when I look into their eyes and it makes me slightly uncomfortable. I usually look at their lips. I don't mean to be somewhat-sexual in any way, but I find it amusing to watch their teeth. Plus, sometimes I need the visual aid since my ears are a little stubborn, they just refuse to focus on the other person's voice sometimes.

6 persons whom I will tag.. you know, it's times like this when I wish I had more friends! haha.
Bahijah, Ana, Aisyah, Hanis.. and Dar too since he's also my friend (not just Alia's! hahhaha!) Ohh! And Ablen so he'd have something to write on his blog.. maybe.. someday!

Anyway, just for notes.. I had spent the afternoon with Alia. We just hung out and had lunch (a late one) in Secret Recipe, SACC Mall.. and completely blew our purses! It's scary how much we spend when we're around each other! hahhahaha!
Good times, though.

OMG! It's almost March!!!

Back in Shah Alam.

OH MY GOD!!!
I cried.. and cried. I just couldn't take it, pretending I was all macho and truly convince myself it was just a show.. last week's of Grey's Anatomy was friggin' intense!! God! It was unbelievable! It was.. painfully sad and I'm still tearing up right now. Can't wait to find out what'll happen this week.. I just.. can't get around Derek's and Christina's grief.

Hey everyone. I am now home, and so is my sister - for good. Or at least for the time being.

So you know when you feel like you're dreaming.. (I think I'm going famous with this "dreams"-metaphor stuff) It was 7 am yesterday.. (I think it was yesterday!) Anton was driving me and my sister through the streets of Holland towards Schiphol Airport when I just thought.. How did I get here?
Surely, I was in an airplane two weeks before but just.. how? Sometimes I feel like asking complete strangers, "Why me exactly?"

Like in dreams, everyone knew what they are going to do next - except you. You are the only person who decides what you're going to do. So maybe if there is any chance you could interact with everyone else, they could tell you what you're supposed to do. Maybe we could ask them life mysteries and actually get the answers, yeah?

Anyway, I was never good at interpreting dreams. I just note them down and wait it out until one day things just somehow clicked and those sleepy memories had somehow seemed like an epiphany in a foreign language of sorts.
So I say.. I will have no choice but to wait it out just like always. I'll just see what happens next, and I will keep you posted.

Oh by the way, just so you know I wasn't trying to sound ungrateful. This is my way of saying how grateful I am for my luck and that I am still disbelieving the ludicrousity of my life slacking.

I had a considerably nice flight. Food was terrible, for the first time I agreed with the cliche about airplane meals but I had a really nice seat mate so that makes up for everything in my book! His name was Greg, American, forty-nine (I swear I am not the "old man attractor" like Dida likes to say!) a Leo and spends 27 hours every two weeks on a plane from The States, transit in Amsterdam to Kuala Lumpur and again to Ho Chi Minh city. I was over-friendly I think! I now even know that his wife is a Virgo! haha!

I saw Alia a few hours after I got home. We got lunch and on the way back we made a quick stop at Alam Sentral since Alia had wanted to send her shoes to be repaired. I stayed at the car... and fell asleep!! hahahahha! Alia had to shake the car to wake me up and let her in. (Sorry - again Cik Alia!!)

Okay, I have to go. Need to catch up on all of my favourite shows!
(Fine, sleep too..)

Back in Rotterdam.

Goede avond! (10:25 PM here!)

We're back from Frankfurt and Berlin.. and what have I learnt?
I believe that I am at the age of finding a good sugar-daddy since I keep attracting old men all over Europe!
One asked for my email address at the subway when all the while he had been talking to my sister! Seriously.

I like Berlin. We like Berlin.
Now I should probably start packing. We're flying back to Malaysia this Wednesday and good byeee Europe 'til God knows when..

Aaaaaa!!!

I know it's just horrible (in a way) of me to say this but I am GLAD that I'll be coming home this Wednesday. I NEED my TV fix!!
Need.. need... need.. NEED!!
Especially now that I've read their reviews!! Aaaaaahhh!!! I want to watch House, Heroes, One Tree Hill.. The Office! And Grey's Anatomy especially!! Aaaaaahhhhh!!!!!
Why did Dida only get dial-up! If only she got dsl.. or what ever it is called. Aaaahh!! I just can't stop screaming and whining! I WANT MY SHOWS!!

On a different note, we are heading to Frankfurt today. Berlin tomorrow.
But I still want my shows. heh!

The search is over!

I found the dress! I found the dress I've been looking for the past two days! Cheers!! Dida was right about them keeping some clothes off the rack.
I went to Dordrecht earlier and didn't find the dress there. Tired (mentally), I went back to Rotterdam to do my "chores". (Y'know.. going to the market/supermarket getting groceries.)

I had just came out from C&A returning the earrings I bought yesterday since one of its stones had gone missing and went into H&M, with heaviness in my heart; preparing for yet another disappointment.. calculating how many H&M stores that I might have to look through when we get to Berlin.

I walked towards the part of the store where I saw size-42 yesterday and to my surprise, there were a couple of sleeves on the rack! The first one I saw was size 38 so frantically I flipped the hangers one by one.
38 - 42 - 40 - 42 - 36!!!!!
The last one!! *manic laugh* I grabbed it.. went to the paskamer (fitting room) just to make sure.. spent more time than I should in there satisfying my vanity.. and happily almost-skipped towards the cashier! heehee.
I have now lost any reason to shop for myself. (Except maybe.. for the perfect little shoes? ahhahahahaha!! Naah.) I am happily content.

Afterwards I had went to the market to find some coccles. On my way back, I saw this one old man dancing horribly to the song that was playing at the record stall. It was really horrendous; American Idol-worthy. But he was perfectly happy doing what he likes. Not a care in the world. Makes me think, I want to be like him when I'm old..
Tua ganyut tak sedar diri. ahahahahhahahahahaha!!!!!

22 Years and 2 Months.

I am officially -- that old.
So what have I learned so far?

1. Although many writers find smoking helps, it does not work for me. So happens that the lighter my head gets, the further ideas flew away from my thoughts. It didn't help that I have a history of asthma either. But I must note that somehow it manages to help my bowel movement -- same as coffee. haha!
This means that I shall continue on my quest to find the perfect vice.

2. I am a pretty good secret keeper. The question remains, how good is the secret for me to listen and take heed of it in the first place?

3. I'm pretty sure that I can't be bought. I make it a mental note when somebody got me something. Sure, I'm a little nicer to them -- but not too much. haha!

4. Even though I rarely put on anything in PINK, I still can't help looking when I walk pass them. It's a mistery, I think! I am like a fly and the colour pink is the light.

I am such a slow learner, aren't I? I could only think of four things.. how horrible.
Anyway.. this has been..the best weekend ever!

We went to Amsterdam yesterday and found a couple of things that we really liked. So we got them, ate at our favourite kebab place and also went to Hard Rock Cafe since Dida had wanted to get some tees for a couple of her friends.
Then there it was.. the cutest pin ever! *manic laugh* It's the Valentine's Day pin and I just had to have it!

Today I went on a search to find a particular dress that I saw in H&M while we were in Amsterdam. Unfortunately they ran out of my size -- in all 5 stores that we found! The same goes for Rotterdam.. I went to all 4 stores that I can think of and only one of them had that dress -- in size 42!! Urrgh! Frustrating.

I'll possibly head to Dordrecht tomorrow. Just going crazy..
I just checked.. there's 24 stores in Berlin. heh!
We had cancelled Dubai by the way.

Super Saturday Shopping!

Good evening!

It's 9:08 pm over here and I am trying to tend to my achy feet. Just "trying" because I don't really know what I should do with it..


Dida and I went to Antwerpen (also known as Antwerp) today for two reasons;
1. Belgian waffles,
2. shopping!!
It almost makes no sense for us to travel to another country to shop but that's what we did! -- and it was totally worth it, getting rained and achy feet and all.


Dida spent a LOT today and no.. it wasn't just for me. I just got a jacket (can't help myself, it was relatively cheap!!) and a pair of polka-dot socks. haha!
What's amazing about our day was the sale in ZARA. The prices were so low, it was beyond our comprehension! Can you imagine, paying less than €8 for a pair of corduroy pants?? It was crazy! Never before I see a tee in ZARA selling for €4.. that's less than RM20!! We just couldn't help getting pretty hysterical while we were looking through the rows of jackets. Dida bought one for me.. and Nina! (The tag was from Nina's jacket.)

Well, it was fun. It's not like you could shop in ZARA everyday and come out like you had just shopped in Giant Supermarket! heehee. We're probably going to Amsterdam tomorrow to shop some more -- depends on how well our feet recovers. We'll probably end up just catching a movie around here though.

Oh, remember the other day about the snow? Well, it completely disappeared the day after. Kinda sad actually. Wish it had lasted longer..

Just an update.

Hey there!

You know when some days things are happening so fast around you that you had to actually pinch yourself to make sure that you hadn't accidentally dozed off and dreaming everything up again? I am having that.
Yesterday I was a bum at home. Today, I am a bum in Europe.

It's 10:36 am, I have arrived, safe and soundly to my sister's place in Rotterdam. The wind was friggin' cold as we were heading towards the building that I almost lost every bit of feeling on my legs. It's -1 degrees Celcius over here and it had just started SNOWING!!
Honestly, with the snow and the strong wind.. it looked somewhat like a blizzard! But then again, this is only my first time seeing snow so what do I know! Just pardon me for the exaggeration. Can't help being amazed with this. Do people actually go out when it snows?

I found the train from Schiphol to Rotterdam Centraal quite alright. Somehow being a cow isn't on today's schedule. Then Dida came to pick me up a half an hour late which made me quite keen to spend a LOT of her money, shopping; and the amazing thing is, she's already given me the green light!!! *manic laugh*
Seriously, she's completely cuckoo.
Okay well, I will have to clean up those dishes and run some errands. Maybe after I have a bit of a lie down and the snow stops looking so much like a blizzard.

My flight here was alright. I was seated at the aisle, much to my dismay.. plus, the possibly-Russian couple that was sitting next to me was completely unfriendly and had very small bladders. At one point of the flight, the man next to me asked me if I'd like to switch seats to one that is a few rows behind, which I answered with "Why would I want to do that?" My horoscope was freakishly correct about that bit of my travelling.

But I must also note that my seat was actually right next to the kitchen; which sounded bad, but isn't really! Since I can rarely sleep anyway, the hustle of the air-hostess was not too much of a disturbance for me. It's even cool that they were all keen to cater to my needs! I was very well fed and watered the whole time. The fact that there weren't too many Malaysians on the flight, let alone around the section I was seated in, helps - a LOT!
Very lucky, I was.. heehee. Oh! I was also just three seats behind the exit. So having the boring seat-mates was not so bad after all..

Alright, enough of that.
I will write again when there's a need to. (On my behalf.. naturally!)

Leaving on a jetplane.

Again.

Firstly, I hope your eyes aren't swirling too much from the excessive PINK! You know.. February.. tends to get me a bit cuckoo sometimes. The fixation over red and pink is rather contagious!

Okay. So.. 3 a.m. yesterday my nutty sister called and asked me to come to her place (yes, she did make it sound like she's only 20 minutes' drive away) because she was on the verge of breaking down. Thus, after a very busy day for me and my dad; getting tickets, exchanging currencies..
I will be flying off to Amsterdam later today.

Now.. never, I say NEVER by any means.. underestimate the spontaneity of a Sagittarian.

I must also note that that Kabalarian Philosophy analyzation of my name had turned out pretty freaky. I am not complaining, of course.. but I'd hate to think that I will only get ahead by my influences. That's just.. Well, a pussy's way to live a life. So! I am definitely in need of a character change.

I wonder when Malaysian composers are going to start making songs that sounds like this. Again, don't ask me what the lyrics meant.. This is among the rarest songs that I love just for their tunes and this one is climbing up on the list.

Alright! I will need to collect my thoughts before I start pre-packing the things that I need to bring with me.
So.. be back in a jiffy! (That being in about 2 weeks..)

Of comedy and tragedy.

Went to see Stranger Than Fiction today. I really loved it. I have to say that I never liked Will Ferell but this film really changed my view of him. (Just like how Eternal Sunshine Of The Spotless Mind changed my view on Jim Carrey -- he can actually.. really act!) Anyway, Stranger Than Fiction is on my favourites' list now.

Been going back to Bukit Kapar this past few days; getting ready for Maya's engagement party (if you may let me call it that.) A few of us were sitting around at tea time on Thursday when my dad somehow pondered about how the children got so tall. (If you've seen the family.. we're not exactly in the height range of average Malays.) Then Adam said how it's sad for Tau since among the elder male cousins.. he is the shortest. The rest of us just laughed.
Mind you, shortest being 175 centimetres.
Just for notes: Maya, Tau, Adam (and Nadia) are siblings. They're the children of my father's 3rd brother, Cik Kamal.

Also.. later that day I found out that Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows will be out this July 21st!! Naturally, I grabbed my phone and texted in such speed that it would have embarassed The Flash.
So yes.. I've made some plans for that day, assuming that Kinokuniya will be holding a launching the likes of what they had done for the past two installments.

This week's episode of House is my favourite so far. It's not as "medical" as usual.. but I just love all the conversations in it. Imagine conversations between House and Wilson being extended to the entire show; morality, philosophies.. ideas. My kind of thing.

Speaking of TVs, congratulations to Jo Jer and Zabrina for being the first all-female team to win The Amazing Race Asia!! I knew I wasn't rooting for them in vain! hahha.

Probably should sleep now. My dad wants us to leave the house by 7:30 am. I'm going to have to be the 2nd photographer for Maya's thing tomorrow, with Aris (yet another cousin.. we actually have a pretty big family) being the 1st. He's taking with his digital camera, while I'm going old school with the films - as always.
I probably should remind Aris that we should be taking a lot of photos of each other. If not, people wouldn't believe we were even there! Like the time when I took pictures for Cik Mi's engagement; even my father had forgotten to introduce me to the girl's family. It's incredibly depressing actually. Nobody knows that's how I feel - which is of course, making it more depressing to be doing this for the second time.
Then again, I should stop thinking about myself for one second.

Hey, can I say that I'm an Ugly Duckling? Well, the last time I went out with Alia, Farah and Zaki, they coincidentally wore white while I had my black top on. But now come to think of it, I am rather different from my family, character-wise. A little free.. a little wild.. and let's face it - I am not a grown up. So how ever can I possibly turn into the swan that I'm supposed to be?
(Come on, nobody thinks they're going to be a duck forever, right? Except of course maybe.. if they're the Mighty Ducks! hahha!)

Have a good one everybody.

Dubai or Istanbul...

Can't I do both?


please?

(ahhahahahahahahhahahahhahahahahha!!)
I really can't help pushing my luck to the very edge.
(and Dida's nerve, I might add! heehee!)
ps: Lain topik.. Sebab menyampah, I had to blog this even though I said I wouldn't blog-angry this year. Okay, tatau ape yang bongok, mungkin juge Wanie.. tapi setting fon ni asyik tak betuuul aje untuk send email!! Konon nak best laa blog gune fon, tapi ape dapat?? Baru je reload, dah tinggal RM28.49! Tak guneee!! Ini tidak adil! Gue tertekann! Malasnye nak gi kedai Celcom suh dia set kan.. tak berjaya menjadi MacGyver.. Hmm.. takdelaa marah sangat pon. "Angry" is not the word. Frustrated is.

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Update: Jan 31st/9:51pm
Istanbul is fully booked. How crazy is that??

You know you're obsessed--

with
SUDOKU

when you imagine there were numbers on the tiles of your bathroom floor while you were peeing.

Excuse me John, can you be any more hotter?

This isn't the enlightening entry that I wish I would've written but I just can't help myself. I'm just in dire NEED of writing this;
Of all the things I've ever heard in my entire life, Azraai has the funniest philosophy about love. hahhahahhahaha!! Seriously Pet, that made my day. That water baloon theme will keep me amused for days!! ahahhaha!! That really was.. amazing.

Moving on, for the record.. if I can't have Danny, John would be just as wonderful.
Scratch that. I think I want John more than I want Danny. (For now at least!) hahhaha!! I'm fickle.. can't make up my mind. But then again, I'm only imagining things..
Although, I believe.. things should be even more perfect in your dreams! Soo.. I think I'll take a moment before I decide. kikkiki

Man.. The Office is so wonderful! It's become my number one comedy right now. Of course, I love those easy-favourites like Friends, Seinfeld and The Simpsons but The Office is just different!
Mockumentary is.. cool! There isn't that "laughing track" at the background so you either get the joke, or you don't! --which sounds a bit snobbish actually, but all the more reason to watch it from the beginning!

And when you've seen them, try watching their bloopers - which you can find on YouTube. I laughed 'til I cried one night (something crazy Dwight had said; not too different from what Azraai shared with me earlier) and for the umpteenth time, my mom thought I was losing my mind.

Okay.. I don't have a weird sense of humour (well fine, we could probably argue on that) but this is way funnier than you think.. and on a whole new level of sweet, actually! I just can't stop smiling to this!!

People change. (?)

How far do you believe in that?
Because I don't really..
Rarely anyone could or would change for anything. If it had seemed as if they had changed.. it's mostly because it has always been there in them on the first place. Just because you haven't seen it, doesn't mean that they have changed.
You just got to know them a little better.. looked at them a little closer..

A leopard does not change its spots.

Sorry.

Oh.. my.. God!

Have you seen the new season of American Idol??
Good God!!

That's all I'm going to say.

Liar, liar.. pants on fire.

Aaah.. for the record, I am not angry. More disappointed than angry. And a bit sorry to say that I've been expecting it. So pardon me for practically saying that I don't have faith in my friends.. that I can't tell you that I consider every one of them are reliable. So happens that somebody promised me something and it's been two weeks and the person haven't said a word about it.

If there is anything that bugged me the most, it'd probably be a broken promise. So truthfully, when somebody promises me something.. I rarely take them seriously. But of course, it's in my nature to give the benefit of a doubt.. but two weeks is too much, my friend.

I honestly don't deserve to blog today.. but my hands were itching.. and twitching for me to type out some words. (URL adresses doesn't cut it!)
For the record, when I say that I don't deserve it, it's a lingo saying that I haven't written a single, worthy paragraph in my Moleskine today so I shouldn't treat myself by blogging.
Yes.. Blogging is a treat.

I'm working on the cat story by the way. (Haven't got the perfect title yet, so I'll call it that for now.) I'm only sure of the first chapter anyway. Probably will let Nina read it.. She'd probably hate the entire thing (and left me with nothing to work with - at all!) but at least I know she'll be appropriately.. critical.

I'm boring you. (Myself, honestly!)
Have been downloading The Office (US version) lately! It's just hilarious, I can't believe I'd only started to watch it a couple of episodes ago! I absolutely adore Jim and Pam. They're funniest together. Ohh, and the latest with Jim and Dwight. So cute! sigh. John Krasinski. *giggling like a school girl* And he's not even that old! (and I only say this to debunk Dida's theory about how I only like older men!) Maybe because of "Jim", everytime I see him in other films I just start to crack up!

I'm really boring myself. Maybe I'm just tired and so mood-less from seeing the crappy side of some friends lately. Sure, I can be crappy too if not crappier.. but you don't see me walking around and making promises I won't keep. sigh. This is getting so old.

Anyways, just so you know.. I cheat sometimes, about the hiatus. When I don't blog here, I'd blog at my LL! *manic laugh*

For entertainment purposes that also works as a quick change of subject.

When the night is dead.

I believe, when people shared a ride and decided to chat, most people would talk about things that are light. The weather.. traffic.. or that new sign board at the side of the road. Although that is what I would talk about, everytime I get in the car with my dad, we'd always find a heavier topic somehow.
We'd talk about our believes, philosophy.. "would you want to be kept alive if you're a vegetable and had to be put on a machine?". I've at least cried twice in that friggin' car because we touched a certain topic too close to the heart.

The other day my dad told me that Nina had wondered about when I'll be getting married. I scoffed at the end of his sentence, and extremely curious at what he had said to Nina. He too, scoffed at the idea, saying that by the looks of things, he reckoned that I'd still be unmarried when I'm 27. I laughed. I know he wasn't trying to offend me in any way - he was entertaining me.

He said that I had never seemed to be the "lovey-dovey" type, and mentioned something about how he hoped that he hasn't screwed me up too much with everything he had told me.
Well, too late for that, I said. Because when it comes to love, I think I'm a cynic. But you know what they say.. Every cynic (in love) is in truth, a romantic at heart. I don't know about the other cynics but I admit that it is quite true on my behalf. Because it's so hard for me to believe in love, I have to really see and feel how earth-rumbling it is before I'd yield to it.
So tell me that that is not a romantic thought - that until my world isn't turned upside down and I became unbalanced because of it.. love is simply an idea.
Possibly overrated.

Now I wonder.. can you possibly be an idealist but also a cynic??
Pretty contradicting, eh? Pardon me but I don't think that my thoughts (or heart, for that matter) were ever plain - or straight.

ps: I realize that not a lot of people can relate to what I had said. If you have found love, good for you. But save your breath if you're intending to send me hate-messages or tell me how great the love that you're experiencing. No words can change my views; doesn't matter how brilliantly it's constructed, thanks!
pps: On a lighter note.. I am so head over heels with my can't-be-considered-as-new-any-longer phone that it must be way waaay uncool! (I'm having too much fun with the themes that I can't stick to one for as long as a week! It's making my mom jealous.. she kept asking if we could switch phones. HAH! No way, Jose!)
ppps: In case you're wondering, today's entry was originally written in my Moleskine a couple of nights ago. It was dead quiet at that time.

Hola!

As I said, this is a semi-hiatus, thus here I am.
I had nothing better to do so instead of extending the milage of my Moleskine, I decided to play Caesar III (because I missed it, and I haven't got a copy of the new one,) and only when that bored me.. I logged onto Blogger.

I honestly don't know why I'm explaining myself to this square box, but anyway..

Saw Night At The Museum earlier this week and I loved it! Brilliantly funny. Dum dum, give me a gum gum. That stonehead was so cute! Ohh, and I saw The Holiday at Nina's house earliar today and that was just as brilliant! Especially love Iris' opening lines; "--We are the victims of the one sided affair. We are the cursed of the loved ones. We are the unloved ones, the walking wounded. The handicapped without the advantage of a great parking space!" (and the speech she made to Miles, of course. Basically all her lines were wonderful!)

Now I was just going to keep my ticket stub with the rest of those old stubs that I still have, and here's the list of all the movies I saw in the cinema last year; (told ya' I was bored!)
Pride & Prejudice, Prime, Casanova, Just My Luck, Pirates of the Caribbean : Dead Man's Chest, The Lake House, Click, Snakes On A Plane, My Super Ex-Girlfriend, You, Me & Dupree, Heart, The Banquet, World Trade Center, Devil Wears Prada and Casino Royale.
And that's without seeing any films on April, May, June and November, but with most films seen on September since that was when Pet was around! (boo!)
Dude.. were you looking for me? Just to remind you, there's a higher chance for me to reply an email than an IM.

I've also been following that Korean drama, Sassy Girl, Chun Hyang and I find myself addicted to the songs on the soundtrack.
Especially this one. Despite the fact that I have absolutely no idea what he was singing about, I'd somehow imagine that this fella was trying to be fine with everything but the pain of his heartbreak was too apparent to hide. sigh. Well, it's just my thoughts. Might be my brain tuning itself to a morbid channel again.

That's it from me on the first week of the new year. Thanks for stopping by even though I've told you I'm on a hiatus (as "semi" as it is.) Might I add that typing this entry is a good exercise to the fingers!

Best of luck, readers!

Christopher Columbus.

Happy New Year, everybody!!
I had an extremely tiring day on the 31st but it was fun, spending it with family. The parents and I had went to Seremban to see the kiddies since they're having chicken pox! So Mama had prepared the usual Eid-dishes to bring over to their house so Nina wouldn't have to do too much work, apart from looking after the kids.

At mid-day we head back to Bukit Kapar to celebrate the Eid with the rest of the (extended) family. Plus, there was tahlil and more discussion about Cik Mi's wedding plans.

Cik Alia had passed me an invitation from Idris about a new year's barbeque and I was looking forward to spending the new year's eve with my favourite friends but my dad hadn't seem like making any move to come back to Shah Alam.
As the clock struck 10, Cik Agus asked us (Hannah, Sarah and myself) if we wanted to celebrate new year's somewhere -- and we did!

I went to Sarah and Hannah's house so I could borrow some of their clothes, (Sarah's shirt that Hannah usually wore and Cik Yam's jeans! hahha! I was wearing a baju kurung before the change) and somehow by the time we were ready, there were Anis, Alisa, Sufina and Nadia that had wanted to come with. The boys; Zaid, Ariff, Amin and Adib was in the other car with my dad's sister, Cik Fuah, who is also Cik Agus' wife. (Confused yet?)


Blablablaa.. After watching the fireworks we got take aways from A&W (to my horror, I had to memorize all of our orders.. kept repeating to myself how many burgers and drinks I needed to order.. Obsessing about how many drinks we should get!) and Cik Agus sent me home around half past two.
(Surely you wouldn't want to know every detail!)

2007.. Things to look forward to;
1. The return of my favourite shows so I could start to download them again.. and Heroes on Star World!
2. F1 in Sepang.. hopefully I wouldn't have to miss it this time!
3. Movies; Harry Potter, Fantastic 4.. this can go on for days..
4. My favourite friends coming back for their summer holidays.
5. Dida coming home, of course!

And so begins a new year.. which means a new beginning to some semi-silly resolutions to achieve. (I'm aiming for the moon, as always!) And here are my resolutions for this year!
1. Not to blog angry -- unless it's absolutely necessary for me to let the person I'm pissed at know just what I was thinking of them.
2. Finish a manuscript by mid-year. (Of course, that'd require me to actually pick one of the several works-in-progress I have!)
3. Keep a look out for a job that I can like and not simply one that I can do. (And stay with that job for a minimum of 3 months, of course!)
4. Work harder to achieve these resolutions!!

So have a good one, everybody!
-- and semi-hiatus starts now! --

Let me not be confused forever.
ps: Can you imagine Christopher Columbus saying that? Just imagine him on his ship, looking at the stars and trying to figure out which was North and said, "let me not be confused forever." I wouldn't know if I was supposed to panic or laugh if I were on that ship!

Brown Penny

by William Butler Yeats

I whispered, ‘I am too young,’
And then, ‘I am old enough’;
Wherefore I threw a penny
To find out if I might love.
‘Go and love, go and love, young man,
If the lady be young and fair.’
Ah, penny, brown penny, brown penny,
I am looped in the loops of her hair.

O love is the crooked thing,
There is nobody wise enough
To find out all that is in it,
For he would be thinking of love
Till the stars had run away
And the shadows eaten the moon.
Ah, penny, brown penny, brown penny,
One cannot begin it too soon.

He was Irish.
And a Gemini.

Here's amusing..

The local news today had reported about the damage to the communication cables by the quake in Taiwan; so connections and communications around South East Asia would be interrupted for a couple of days as it'd probably take about 5 days to fix it.

Then the voice-over suggested that we should try not to open overseas websites and stop trying if you can't get connected to the person you're trying to call on the first try.

Unbelievable! Even if it makes any sense, at all.. the thought that the prime time news are telling you to practically stop trying to reach out for a bit of communication is just horrid!
Can they really expect anyone to listen to that?
I logged on as soon as they said that preposterous thing. Such a rebel.

I've come to terms that this blog probably wouldn't exist if I weren't sarcastic and cynical.

F*** Feelings?

I had a bad day today.
I spent 20 minutes of my train ride, writing heated words in my book so I could type it out once I got home. But then the internet was near to non-existant.
Thus giving me a LOT of time to mull things over.

And that brought me to the fact that 2006 is quickly to be replaced by 2007. (somehow!)
So here's a post mortem of my 2006 resolution. (hahh!)

1. If I found a grumpy yet endearing and handsome man like House, or a funny lad who laughs a lot like Danny, or someone typical looking yet charming like Mark Ruffalo, I promise I'd snag him up!
-- sigh. The man does not exist. 4 days left of the year but I doubt I'll get to meet him by then.

2. Stop picking my work and just get on with it a little faster than my usual comfortable pace.
-- hahha! Of course, when I wrote this I was referring to my job in Kinokuniya. Not too sure if I did any much change in my work ethics until my last day.. heehee.

3. Finally decide what I should do - study wise.
-- I think I have. I don't think I'll be enrolling myself to any school this time. Financially it wouldn't be wise as the only course I'd be interested in is not offered in any school in the country! (Well, that might be a nicer excuse than just saying "I'm too cool for school.")

4. Have a thousand in my account, entirely my money
-- Ohh, close! I did have RM700 at some point this year. But currently, I have a healthy RM11 to keep that account "active".

5. Write 300 pages of words.. by the end of the year.
-- errr.. I only managed to write on 56 pages of Moleskine.. OMG!! I am so behind my schedule!!

6. And you can't have a resolution without one that is deemed to be doomed; eat healthier, be nicer to people and not get too grumpy when I get disappointed.
-- Ohh, I know myself too well now. I definitely failed this one!

Okay! I have four more days to think of next year's resolutions. I have a couple of ideas so far. heehee.
Might.. oh fine, I will update the fotopages later tonight. (If the internet allows me, of course!)
ps: Sorry, I've tried uploading my photos twice but it kept showing me "the page cannot be displayed" crap.

I smell! --but not too much.

Woke up pretty darned early today 'cause I've made plans with my friends; to go back to my late grandparents' house in Bukit Kapar, Klang!
Since Alia, Farah and Zaki are big fans of durian, my dad had invited them for a visit. We were lucky that there were a couple of durians left since it's the end of the season!

We just got ourselves tired by walking around the grounds. I think Alia had a blast chatting with the rabbits. She even tried to make friends with the chickens!
We only left after eating some durian and rambutan.. and that's around two! My dad had told them about his siblings and such..
Quite a good visit, I'd say.

We did something more after we went back to Shah Alam so Alia could get her car.. but I'm too tired to write now. So maybe later.. if I feel like finally updating my fotopages, I'll let you know.

It's a small world after all!

This is a picture of my couzie, Hannah. But if you've seen my fotopages, and you look closely at this one.. you'll find some familiar faces in this shot.

Which I thought was AMAZING!!
There I was.. feeling sorry for myself for being stuck in the middle of a thick crowd of middle-aged women.. losing feeling of my legs due to lack of blood circulation. Then I turned to the door and saw two of my friends! I couldn't help pointing and gape. (Even Papa noticed from the other side of the room.) Just couldn't believe it.
All the while my mind was racing; I'm related, so what's their excuse?

Turns out Farah too was sort of related, which was so cool!! (Alia was there 'cause Farah dragged her to it.) But Farah seemed a lot more closer to the family than I am, heehee. No surprise there, of course!
The two sat with my family at the table and I must say, I really like the fact that my friends are NOTHING like me! hahha! They're very friendly and gave me some sort of a proud feeling to have introduced them to my parents. hihi.
Plus, they completely brighten up my dull night!! So, thanks you two!

Alright, that's it.
Not too sure when I'm going to update my fotopages. Kinda lazy these days.

Good ass mother liker.

I've got tears in my eyes!!

You can find more of Hugh Laurie and Stephen Fry here, but my favourites are the one up there and the rap and the spoon bender. heehee.
Okay, haven't done much. My parents have gone to some wedding.. somewhere, and I managed to get myself excused! Although I wouldn't be able to be excused from another wedding tonight. Bluerghh!
How come I don't remember as many weddings taking place at the end of last year?? Just thinking about it makes me tired.

Kinda had a weird sort of dream last night. Doesn't make much sense either. Bluerghh! Then I woke up with my whole body aching. Fab!

Now I'm just browing through my mp3s, trying to figure out which songs I need to have in my phone so there'll be a soundtrack for my everyday stuff. So far I'm only certain to keep Jars Of Clay; because it sounds great while I was running, and K7; because somehow it makes everybody else moving to its beat.
Aaah.. my life is so exciting.

Sometime in the future, not now.. I will try taking another hiatus again (God knows how many times I've said that!) or just reduce my blogging to once/twice a week. Maybe January. So you guys might want to start looking for a more lively reading material now.

That's all for now. You have a good weekend!

Bluerghhh

I'm extremely annoyed, I can puke.

Friggin' friggin' annoyed!!
Of course, I can use a harsher word but I'll settle with "annoyed" for now.

I the company

Okay.. it's probably a bit late to say this, but Casino Royale was awesome!!
Finally saw it. Went to GSC earlier to redeem my free ticket since it's my birthday month. I had wanted to see Eragon at first because I don't think I'm ever going to read the book but the guy at the counter told me to choose one with an asterisk symbol; which I would've no problem with if I had known WHICH were the ones with the asterisks!
So the moment he said Casino Royale, I said, "yeah, I'll see that one."

So Daniel Craig is blonde. I hate that bit of fact since James Bond are usually dark haired. But as the film proceeds, I really couldn't care what his hair colour was. It was the best Bond movie to date! The women weren't easy or lame.. and Vesper was cool - up to the last 15 minutes of the film, of course.
Didn't exactly understand that elevator bit, though. Why laa the heck!

And!! I must say this..
The fact that the good guys in the film uses Sony Ericsson just wells me up with pride! *manic laugh* And I'm extremely psyched for having an excellent new company**. I almost lost myself** while I was in the train.
I know Work by Jars Of Clay sounds perfect while I was chasing the train, now!

Before the movie, while I was queing to get myself a drink, I bumped into an old school mate, Enny! Capricorn (yes, I remembered that bit even though I haven't seen her for ages!), not exactly my favourite person back in school. hahha! But she looked good, with a male friend. heehee.
It's awkward, meeting old mates, isn't it?

I also managed to walk around my favourite section of MPH. What did I see? Cecelia Ahern's new book!!! Darn it! And Mitch Albom's too!! Why did I ever went inside..
I've gotta learn to stop myself sometime.

**refer to the new Sony Ericsson TV ad which you can find right here.
Even though mine isn't a Sony Ericsson/Walkman per se, but pshhh! Minor details! heehee. A Sony, is a Sony and the sound is great!

Cheers!

Happy Birthdaayyy
Keith Richards, Steven Spielberg, Brad Pitt, DMX,
Bridie Carter, Katie Holmes and Christina Aguilera!

That's all..
kikkikiki!!

Knackered.

Two of my cousins on my mom's side got married in the past two weekends. A'id is a year older than me while Farizah is my age.
Seems like everybody's getting married young these days. Although everyone on my dad's side seems to be unaffected by this. They're still keeping the tradition of marrying "late" pretty alive! hahha!
Well, Nina got married when she was 25 and even then I thought that was too soon!

Feels like I'm leading a mediocre life now. (Has nothing to do with the weddings! That one was to dignify why I am so knackered.. too many weddings to attend - not that I was doing anything to help, but the awful heat sucked away all my energy.)
The mediocrity was out of the fact that I haven't done or accomplished anything that would make me feel like I should shout from the top of the building about it. So I really need to start writing again.

But my brain is stuck in a mud in the middle of nowhere and I can't get myself out to move forward. So really, all I need now is a rope and a compass and I'll soon be on my way.
Getting out of the mataphor.. All I need is one word that could lead me to write one good paragraph. I know that I need to find that word.

Aaah.. the fear of beginning a new year is creeping in now.
Good thing my cousins; Sarah and Hannah thought I was twenty last night. At least now I feel like I have an extra two years to catch up to the thing that I'm catching up to.

Now's the right time for me to fall off the chair.
You guys have a good week!

231

I do not want people to be very agreeable as it saves me the trouble of liking them a great deal

As much as I'd love to admit that I said that, it was Jane Austen.
But I think she had smartly described a bit of who I am.

Austen would've been 231 years old today if she is still alive.
So.. happy birthday, grandma!

The day after.

Okay. I'm feeling as normal as I possibly can, so I shall tell you what I did the entire of yesterday.
First thing, I woke up late because I got to sleep late! (yeah, what's new?) It was about noon when I finally picked myself up and asked my dad to drop me off at the commuter. Destination: KLCC. (why? No idea.) Well, honestly I was looking for a new pair of shoes. I saw one a while back and thought of buying it as my birthday treat. But! Naturally.. I couldn't find it any longer. Minus one luck/magic.

Then I went to Isetan and got myself some sushi there. But of course, it rained in the afternoon so there is no way I could sit quietly at the park enjoying the bliss. Minus two luck/magic.
My mom called while I was in there and asked if I wanted to come home with her; practically threatened me that if I refused, I won't get my birthday present.

Before heading to Putra, I stopped by at Nose and see if there's anything I can indulge myself with. Then I saw this pair of really shiny red heels. I must've stared at it for a full minute before asking the sales person if they had it in size six. He replied, "size 9 only."
Minus three.

I managed to amuse myself a bit while I was coming down the escalator. I overheard two boys, a little younger than me.. trying to decide if they should go to Coffee Bean or Starbucks instead.

Once I got to Putra station, I had the sudden urge to look at my ticket. Guess what? The fella at the counter had ketuk (cheated) me 30cents! He only returned 20cents back to me when it was supposed to be 50cents. Curse him for taking an advantage over my absent mindedness!
O well.. minus four there. Ohh, and I spent 45minutes there by myself waiting for my mom and sister. Minus four and a half, then.
Tried killing time by calling up my dad for a bit of chat while thinking.. Mama's pressie better be gooood.

I was talking to Nina while we were waiting for the train so Mama only showed me her present once we got on the train. (Nina had to wait a bit longer since she's heading to Seremban.)
Ohh, our train stopped about 20minutes in the middle of the journey by the way. Made me miss 15minutes of Wedding's final episode. hahha!! Minus five?

Dida called.. and talked about something that's been upsetting her. Although it's basically her problem, that's minus six for the fact that it happened on my supposedly day!

Then the parents and I went out for dinner. Ordered shrimps fried in flour (sorry, don't know how else I could call it) but as our drinks arrived, the waiter informed us that they ran out of shrimps!
Minus seven, boys and girls..

So have we had enough of unfortunate events? heehee. I must say, Friday 13th is NOTHING compared to what I had yesterday.. Even talking about it right now is upsetting me. Slightly. Maybe I've been naughty this year, which is a completely plausible reason!

One good thing did happen yesterday.. The pressie from Mama was gooood! Thus making me worry.. How will I be able to pick a fight with her now! Mannnn! heeheee

Birthday wish.

Maybe I'll get to celebrate my 25th in something sexy like this pair of $690 Christian Louboutin's suede peep-toe pumps. Suppose it's weird that I would wish for shoes but I need to own a pair of Louboutin's by then. Let's just say that it's one of my atypical goals. heehee.

But being the out of job 22 year-old today, I'm just as pleased to settle for.. err.. what ever it is that I had spent the day doing! hahha!
Unfortunately there wasn't any magic on my day but I won't say much about it right now for fear of upsetting myself! heeheee!

Thank you so much to those who had wished me.. Shahnon, Bahijah, Ziad, Dayat, Ana, Ablen, Muz, Dar, Ayin, Asha and Nur. heehee! Arep who sang to me.. Pet for calling all the way from over there.. Hanis for the e-card.. and especially to Cik Alia and Farah who came over and completely surprised me! Ohh you two and my sneaky father.. heehee! You guys are the best! I really tasted the love from that very chocolatey cake! There isn't enough thank you in the world to say to you.

My dad had asked me in a hug, if I had set a goal to reach by my next birthday - and one thing automatically came to mind. So yes, I have one. And it's not just a pair of 'spensive shoes. heehee.

So.. what about being 22?
I'm sure maturity will kick in one of these days..

I wonder..

Have I always been this miserable in December? I mean, if it's been sucky.. how come I don't remember it actually being sucky?

Maybe because it's only my favourite month, so I expect a lot from it.. and small, measly things are enough to distress me to the verge of crying.
Like today, when I can't find my bra. Or yesterday when I can't find my panties.. and the day before that when I can't find my jammy-pants. All this actually result to me feeling like my life is screwed!

Horrible.. this is horrible!
I'm freakin' tired of feeling screwed. Especially since it's December and I really feel screwed! It can't be good if I talk about death a lot more than I usually do. I mean, how morbid can one get??

Thought for the week.

As awful sort of a person I am.. and as liberal as my thoughts are (sometimes!) about God.. I do believe in God.
I believe that He knows every bit of me and every impure thoughts that I had.. had not been a secret to Him.

So it's weird now to think that all this time, I've been talking to Him as if He was a friend. Those white lies I told.. He'd shook His head but understood perfectly. Every silly promises I made that made me laugh.. I'd imagine He'd think it was just as funny.
Is that in any way - right?
I don't think anybody else thinks God as easy-going as I had thought.

But then again, who really knows about God?
What's important is my faith in Him and though I'm not exactly religious.. pray as much as I should have.. I appreciate the life I've been given in my own ways.

I am.. a bit "liberal" I suppose. I've had my share of times people nagging on me about what I should and shouldn't do. Those people can just stick their self-righteousness up their own backs, for all I care.
But I like my God. He's just, all-knowing, and shall punish me rightfully. I deserve it, but I believe with all my heart... that He's a friend.

Not sure if anyone catches the point of this entry, but I do, and so did He. That's all that matters. For what ever reason I just needed to put it out there.

Why is it..

Sometimes.. you thought you were having a conversation with someone.. but turns out you were talking to the wall after all!

I've been having that lately.
So annoying.

This is just not my day, my friend.

edited at 9pm
I'm probably going off my rockers. Feels like on the verge of depression just because Nina can't find the pen I'd left at her house yesterday. The stupid thing is that she's glad to give me her pen.. the same exact model and everything. Still.. I am feeling extremely sad that I'd lost my pen! Thinking that Nina giving me hers is beside the point!
How dumb is that?
What is "the point", exactly??? I don't even know!!
Sometimes I just don't know why I go all psychotic.

Those disfunctional things.

Went to Seremban earlier to see how Farhana was doing. She'd been hospitalized for a full week and only returned home last night. Nina didn't go to work for just as long, thus giving her the time to finally feel the same amount of frustration as I had felt when she finally finished reading Rosie Dunne. hahha! She had that book for months!!
The kid was fine by the way, playing along with Izzati like nothing ever happened. heehee.

If there's anything that I'm really thankful for, it'll be the fact that I get along with my sisters so well. The fact that we can easily talk about how disfunctional our family really is. heehee. As Nina and I did sometime in the late afternoon today.
Funny how we psychoanalyze ourselves so effortlessly as if we were just pointing at a massive zit on the face. Aaah.. it's just amazing how your surroundings while you were growing up influenced the person that you've become.
I should probably brought up that subject when I see Nina again.

We left around 7, and I absent mindedly left my black pen there! Or maybe it slipped out of my bag and dropped somewhere, but God, NO!! And I also forgot to ask for my book! hahha! Maan.. I hate forgetting things.

Anyway, can't stop listening to this song. It's Take That, amazingly they're back and sounded just as great!! Typically, I like the lyrics most.

Hating my English now. Maybe 'cause I'm sleepy.

Thought for the week.

What is the worst thing that could happen to you?
Mine would be if I slipped in the bathroom and cracked my head open and nobody knew that I was bleeding to death. My dad reading the paper while my mom watches the telly and at some point, one of them would think aloud about how odd it was for me to take such a long shower.

My dad reckons that something is wrong if anybody keeps thinking of ways to die. I don't think I'm depressed - I'd know if I'm depressed. But morbid thoughts comes just as easily as a happy thought would come to my mind.
Talk about an obsession for fairness. hahh!

Saw a brilliant movie late last night. It's called Before Sunset and the entire movie was about this pair of old mates, walking around Paris, just talking. Can you imagine?? A bit over an hour of Ethan Hawke and this woman (can't remember the name, but she's probably French) just walking.. and talking.
And I find it illuminating! It's amazing!!
edited sometime later
Before Sunset is actually a sequel to 1995's Before Sunrise, with the same main cast, Ethan Hawke and Julie Delpy. God, I wish I'd get to catch that one sometime before I die. heh!

Okay. That's about it for now.
Catch me later!

Winter breaks are mean.

Dates of when my favourite shows will be back;

Brothers & Sisters - January 7th
House - January 9th
Grey's Anatomy - January 11th
One Tree Hill - January 17th
Heroes - January 22nd
Gilmore Girls - January 23rd
Prison Break - January 29th
Lost - February 7th

As you can see, I have nothing better to blog about.

An achievement!!

I got into the shower today after God knows how long. My armpits were.. embarassingly "French". If you have no idea what that means, let me put it in this dramatic way;
an ant would've been easily lost in there.
hahahhahaha!!

I'm still coughing horribly that sometimes I wish I was dead - depressing, I know.

Went out with my dad today, which I thought was an achievement since I haven't set foot on the ground for weeks! (Or so it had felt.)

Gotta dash now! The dad needs to use the computer to help the sister out with some things but the internet was plain dumb a second ago.

Oh Peter!

It's you.
It can't be you!
*sigh*

Okay, I'm definitely loving Heroes. It's very cleverly plotted and the first station that will air it on Malaysian television will be just as clever! I mean, come on! Lost gets on your nerves with their twisted plot lines after a while.. but Heroes.. man, Heroes is smart!
I'll bite my nails 'til I know what happens next in January then. eeeeek! Winter Breaks are mean!

My parents had been nagging about how my cough hasn't go away yet. They're making it as if it's my fault and I have no idea how they've gotten that idea.

No special thoughts today. heehee.
Ablen, heppy birthday!!

Thought for the day..

The important thing in a relationship is the want of being in one.

And the ability to keep a straight face when you talk about one. heehee.

So cheers to those who are in a healthy sort of a relationship, and cheers to those who are just fine as single as they are!

Thought for the day..

What would you eat when you have absolutely no appetite and had been spending the last five days eating almost nothing yet trying to make the metal-like taste that's been lingering on your tongue go away?

And jello is no longer an option because you've got yourself worried the last time you joked about getting diabetes.
It really isn't funny when your body is deteriorating.
(You can only joke about yourself so far..)

edited at 9:22pm
Ate a Quarter Pounder for dinner. It tasted so funky, I had no idea how I managed to eat as much as I did..

Surprising..

I just realized that I actually have a Multiply account!! hahha! I didn't remember about having it at all.
Anyways, I deleted it of course. I'm fine with Friendster and Lifelogger, and I can't honestly say that I care for half of all on my friends list.

Earlier I asked my dad if he thought I was still having a fever. Instead of putting his hand on my forehead; acting like the human thermometer, he just looked at me and said I was fine. I asked him how would he know?
He simply answered that if I was still unwell, I wouldn't be smiling.
heehee!

I must say, the attention I get from the parents these past couple of days was kind of nice! Now that I'm only reduced to some throat-aching coughs, I'm starting to miss the special treatments! hahha! (What a brat..)

One thing about getting sick though. I wouldn't have to worry about how much carbs I'm taking since I don't eat anything at all! It's been three days of "crash diet" for me. Been sustaining myself with jellos, believe it or not. So in the future I'd probably end up thin - but diabetic! Excellent.

Okay. Going to watch Grey's Anatomy now and then straight to bed! Wouldn't want to have a relapse. heh! Plus the sound of my lungs purring just gets to me. At least I won't hear it when I'm asleep.

Be well, everyone!

ps: The Harry Potter and the Order of Phoenix trailer just gave me the chills!! Ooh! Can't wait 'til July 13th!

Hellooo December!

We meet again.
It's been a full year and I've missed you, old friend.

I think all relationships should be like this; full of surprises, always something new to learn. Just remember last year's tears that I shed for the almost-horrible birthday! It started awful in the beginning but you made it up right in the end.
And now you're still.. my favourite month.

Oh, always.. always..



ps: 4x09 of One Tree Hill was absolutely brilliant!! Somehow it surpassed House's exceptional crankiness in 3x09. hahha!