tak mandi laie niee...

hahhhaa~!!
Just spent the night doing multimedia-stuff!
Picked some shots for the pictures page.. (updated!!) and helped Prisca set up her blog layout! ekkeke! Sorry dear, since you don't want to learn by yourself.. you just have to settle for simplicity.. ekkeke! :p
O yeah.. found this pic while sorting out my pictures collection!!
ENJOY! ekkekeke!!

Let's get high!!! :))

Okay, loving this song for the moment!!! Just heard it from my long list of playlist.. ekekke! I really need to sort it out sometime soon.. :D Sangat suka Vertical Horizon~! :x

Won't Go Away by Vertical Horizon

Heal me baby, baby
Won't you
I go crazy, crazy
For you
Won't you tell me, tell me
What to do
I go crazy, crazy
For you

Cause the way you look at me
I can say you set me free
And no matter what you say
I won't go away
I won't go away

I see your world, the world is you
I see baby, baby blue
Everyday is a day to get through
Till I see baby, baby blue

And the way you look at me
I can say you set me free
And no matter what you say
I won't go away
I won't go away

And it takes
Such a long time to get through this
Such a long time to find this kiss
And I can't forget it
I'm not ready yet

And I came such a long way
From where you are
Now I'm falling from this star
And I can't forget it
I'm not ready yet

Cause the way you look at me
I can say you set me free
And no matter what you say
I won't go away
I won't go away

Heal me, baby, baby won't you
I go crazy, crazy
For you
Won't you tell me, tell me
Something new
I am crazy, crazy
For you
I am crazy, crazy
For you
I am crazy, crazy
For you

Okay.. how was my day..?
A bit weird, considering what I SHOULD be feeling.. heehee~
Thanks Dar-ling miskol pagi tadi.. heehee~ :x Or my work memang for sure unfinished.. :p
Humm.. sent the typography work in the morning.. Which turn out to be crappy.. huhuu.. diugut that I will fail this subject and the trimester.. hehhe~ There were tears in my eyes right then but COME ON!! What's the point of regretting the thing that you purposedly did, 'aight? Takde gunaa... It's my own decision, and it's my fault.. I am deserving for what ever I may get. heehee! I think I grew up pretty well, lah! I'm taking responsabilities for my actions! woooh~! I'm making myself proud.. (in some funny way..)
Okaay.. thanks to Lily and Prisca for replacing my non-available conscience.. ekkeke! RP lak tadi cam pandaaang je.. ekekke! Not helpful at all! :p I'm sure I've said some things yang boleh membuatkan my dearest friends annoyed. Seemed like I didn't care much about my future, do I? huhuu~ So thanks, you guys.. You've been very helpful throughout this Beta year.. :x We'll see how it'll go in the next trimester, yaa!
Pape hal pon.. I can still take Media Production Process in the next trimester! That's what we've been waiting for all this long, 'aight? :D
O well, been messing around these days.. Agak teruk!
Had breakfast at Selera Putra with the three.. :D Tak sudah sudah kite nie dengan otak otak yee? ekekke!
So there's the photography submission and Malaysian Studies paper left on Thursday. And then I'll be going back home.. to my ever-dearest family~!! :x Dua minggu tak jumpa Nina, Dida and Izzati~ :( Can't wait can't waaaaaaaaaiiitt!!! :x Entah sejak bilaaa la Wanie jadi homey sebegini. :D Papa!! Needing hugs!! :x Entah bila nak jumpa 'sweetheart' yang bole menggantikan hugs Papa.. ekekkee! I'm getting hopelessly hopeful again.. :p
So what's been on my mind? Just been asking myself.. "Why can't I just have crushes on those typical good-looking guys like Bahijah does?" huhuu~ Won't that be easier to forget? I really should learn to let go 'coz this crush of mine is pulling me in deeper and it keeps getting me wandering in dreams.. :p Buncit btol~!

Asking again if I'll ever get tired of this.. :x I hope not! :D

errr...

feeling MIGHTY HOLLOW inside.. should be feeling something else, though.. oh heck! I'll tell later when I'm less shaky, okie~!

getting to the point where I need ya'~

I simply don't know..

if I'm the silly one or you're sillier than me. All that I know, I'm hurt this night.. somehow..
Wish that somehow you'd understand how it hurts inside without me telling you.. someday...

Been listening to Westlife loads these days! ehhee~ For your info, that line up there; can't lose what you never had, that's really a song by Westlife! heehee~ Been liking that song since I first heard it when I was in Form 3! :D But I still haven't post the lyrics of that song out in here, 'aight? :D

If Your Heart's Not In It by Westlife

I'm missing you
Girl even though you're right here by my side
Cause lately it seems
The distance between us is growing too wide

I'm so afraid that you're saying it's over
It's the last thing that I wanna hear

But if your heart's not in it, for real
Please don't try to fake what you don't feel
If love's already gone
It's not fair to lead me on
Cause I would give the whole world, for you
Anything you ask of me, I'd do
But I won't ask you to stay
I'd rather walk away
If your heart's not in it

You say that you love me
But baby sometimes
You're just saying the words
If you've got something to tell me
Don't keep it inside
Let it be heard

I'm so afraid that you're saying it's over
Girl I'll make it easy for you

If your hearts not in it, for real
Please dont try to fake what you don't feel
If the loves already gone
It's not fair to lead me on
Cause I would give the whole world, for you
Anything you ask of me, I'd do
But I won't ask you to stay
I'd rather walk away
If your hearts not in it

How I wish I could take us back in time
But it's gone too far now we can't rewind
There's nothing I can do
To stop from losing you
I can't make you change your mind
If your heart's not in it

If your hearts not in it, for real
Please don't try to fake what you don't feel
If the loves already gone
It's not fair to lead me on
Cause I would give the world, for you
Anything you ask of me, I'd do
But I won't ask you to stay
I'd rather walk away

If your hearts not in it
Please don't try to fake what you don't feel
If the loves already gone
It's not fair to lead me on
Cause I would give the world, for you
Anything you ask of me, I'd do
But I won't ask you to stay
I'd rather walk away
If your hearts not in it

Okehh, this is my favorite super-small talk for the time being:

wanie (11:10:21 PM): azarul~! get well soooon!
wanie (11:10:24 PM): ok itu je.. :D
wanie (11:10:25 PM): byebye
azarul (11:10:43 PM): hihihi
azarul (11:10:43 PM): tenkiuuuu
azarul (11:10:45 PM): :D
azarul (11:10:53 PM): i will!!
wanie (11:10:57 PM): yeaaaaay!
wanie (11:11:02 PM): pastu kene main gita balek, okie!
wanie (11:11:03 PM): :x
azarul (11:11:12 PM): haffunn wif subm tomoro yaa
wanie (11:11:20 PM): heehee.. okie :p

Macam senang hati tengok Azarul online.. :x

ekk !!!

huwaaaaaa!!
Bahijaaaah~! Sorry!!
Tadi Wanie memula nak bising main-main je.. Sekali cam sangat serius pulak.. Sori BJ! Wanie tak marah langsung.. sorry sorry! Teruknye Wanie nieee.. menda kecik pon nak kecoh! huhuu!
Tak sengaja langsung nak cakap segarang.. sekuat.. se-harsh tadik.. wuwuuu~ sowee~ ;;)
Macam kelaka sikit.. sampai camtu Wanie.. tapi I really didn't mean it! ekkee! okehh? :x

ps: cemane Wanie leh geram/menyampah/sakit ati ngan Bahijah pon.. you're still one of the best!! No doubt!! ekekke! Sayang BJ.. always and always.. :x

message for no one

I hope you're not talking about me.
It's getting me annoyed silently, even when you don't say anything to me.
It's not fair.. everything that you did to me was never fair.. And I get so tired with you. Mentally and emotionally.. You really tire me out, even up til now.
So please don't try to fake what you don't feel.. What you've never felt for me.. Stop all those nonsense 'coz I'm just tired thinking about you! Wondering if you'll ever screw my life..
Everyone has a past, and so happens that ours was not a pleasant one.
Give it up already..
Just as I have already done..
Thank you for everything that you did for me.. but please let me go.. walk away...

I've let us go..

bijak-pandai

yeaaaaaaay~!
Went through the Operating System's paper. Was it hard? ekekke! Actually I felt VERY lucky this morning! 'Coz there were 4 questions and we need to answer 3 of it. So I answered the objectives (which was so fun to guess! ekekke!), the one with the Unix Shell.. (Bahijah mentioned something of it last night! hahha!) and the one with the word Kernel in it (which I read myself to sleep to! ekekke!!) Guess I'm just plain charmed.. :D I always have the right people that I need at the weirdest times. ekkeke!
Well, don't know if I answered them all correctly, but at least.. I only skipped ONE sub-question! ekkeke! Wahhh!! I'm so proud of myself! Papa, you should too~! ekkekeke! (Papa would be nagging at me if he saw how I was last night.. ekkee!) Ehh, everyone should be proud of me! ekeke! :x
Settled our (Asha, Ana, Bahijah and myself) photography right after the exam. Now we only have to focus on the typography~! weeeeeeee!! (now, let's try to focus on how to focus.. ekekke!)
Azarul, get well soon~!!
don't let the guitars collect dusts for long!!
Ina and Amri too~!! Get well get well get well!!!

Just been thinking.. maybe it'll be okay if I'll never move from this confusion. Not knowing how you feel keeps me going somehow and it makes me anticipating for tomorrow. Not knowing keeps me in this circle of wonderings but I never want to lose this feeling. Not this one.. 'coz I want us going always.. and always! heehee! :x What ever happens, I never want to lose this.. even if it's never mine to lose. :)

Stranded by Plumb

You know it only breaks my heart
To see you standing in the dark,
Alone waiting there for me
To come back
I'm too afraid to show

If it's coming over you
Like it's coming over me
Crashing like a tidal wave
That drags me out to sea
And I wanna be with you
If you wanna be with me
I'm crashing like a tidal wave
And I don't wanna be
Stranded, stranded, stranded, stranded

I can only take so much
These tears are turning me to rust
I know you're waiting there for me
To come back
I'm too afraid to show

If it's coming over you
Like it's coming over me
Crashing like a tidal wave
That drags me out to sea
And I wanna be with you
If you wanna be with me
I'm crashing like a tidal wave
And I don't wanna be
Stranded, stranded, stranded, stranded

I miss you, I need you
Without you I'm stranded
I love you so come back
I'm not afraid to show

If it's coming over you
Like It's coming over me
Crashing like a tidal wave
That drags me out to sea
And I wanna be with you
If you wanna be with me
I'm crashing like a tidal wave
And I don't wanna be
Stranded

always and always..

bosan betul. . .

Found this link from Bahijah's blog..

Ida Hazwanie Mohd Idris was a Sensitive Poet in a past life. Discover your past lives @ Quiz Me

I am SO tired of seeing myself surrounded by sensitivity..
Paling geram.. I only got the results just by entering my name. sheesh~!
so crappy! even if it's just a quiz.. pelik la jugek kan, tengok sikit sikit word itu yg keluar..
bluergthhh~!

woke up at 3 and have been spending the day talking to myself...
and Bahijah said thinking too much is actually a disease...

Goodbye Again by Vertical Horizon

I'm on the outside looking in
What do I see
so much of this left to begin
Where would I be
I'm on the outside looking in
Cover me through this night

I guess I don't know what's left to say
Hear me out
All of the dreams of yesterday
keep breaking me down
What's on the outside
can you say?
Am I getting carried away

It's in your mind
It's in your eyes
So it's goodbye again
It's way past time
for one last try
So it's goodbye again

Goodbye again...

I'm getting on
what's the use?
You know how I get
I can't decide which is the truth
at least not yet
I got the feeling that it's you
what can be said alone in this room?
And now...

It's in your mind
It's in your eyes
So it's goodbye again
It's way past time
for one last try
So it's goodbye again

Who wants you now?
Maybe somebody else
I'll wait around
Maybe you'll forget
you were never here
Maybe forget
you were never, never, here...

I'm on the outside looking down
What do I see?
So much of this cold in the ground
Where would I be?
I'm on the outside looking down
Cover me before you go...

It's in your mind
It's in your eyes
So it's goodbye again
It's way past time
for one last try
So it's goodbye again

You're falling out
I'm falling in
so it's goodbye again

It's way past time
for one last try
so it's goodbye....

I feel horrible...

bluerghhh~
feeling MIGHTY horrible somehow. Can't really explain. It's just a feeling I have inside. :(
Updated the layout.. I know it's kinda crappy.. the picture's horrible and the color kinda stink! But heck! I never played with this one before so bear with this 'til I get bored by it. Messy, I know.. an hour's worth of work.. dasar pemalaaas!!
O well.. should get some rest now.. It's starting to rain outside.. and it's just perfect. Reflecting my very feeling this morning..
I really don't know how we got this way, but this is just absurd!! :(

oh! did this quiz:
Your soul is bound to the White Rose: The
Pure.

"I've been waiting in the dark for a long
time, shining my beacon of hope through the
shadow. If you see me, don't you hide your
eyes from me."

The White Rose is associated with purity, honor,
and chastity. It is governed by the goddess
Artemis and its sign is The Cross, or Agape.

As a White Rose, you are a person of your word.
You may have a strong moral code, but
regardless of your virtue, you always stay true
to yourself. To you, love is the most pure of
emotional forms and it's just a matter of
waiting for it to bless you. Some people may
say you are too idealistic, but it's only
because you don't want to mess things up.


What Rose Is Your Soul Bound To?
brought to you by Quizilla

Girl roxXs!!!

at least my friend does~! weeeeeee~!!
Spent the whole day outside..
The day started kinda.. umm.. crappy. Wanted to get shower, but there was no water in hostel. Crappy management! So Asha picked me and Bahijah up so we could get our shower at her place. :x
Okay, the plan was; Jai (Ana's bf) supposed to drive us to KL so we can get our films developed (coz no one else was willing to help! bluerghh~!). But something came up, and he couldn't do it. And so.. us four; Asha, Bahijah, Ana and myself.. decided, "heck! let's just gamble our lucks!" And we ourselves went there all by ourselves by Dzayed's car! (details couldn't be elaborated.. hehheh!) wooaahohhh Asha~!!
Went out at 10:30 am, and we just got back.. 9:20 pm. huuu~ such a tiring dayy!!
So we got our films developed.. Managed to had breakfast with the gurls.. (err, what time was it then? 1:45 pm? hahahha! Asha... Asha.. :)) ) The real breakfast was at Mid-Valley's Mc'D.. (wooaahohhh Ana~!) Printed our slide.. And I managed to grab a Large Rhumba Frappucino from Starbucks :x while Bahijah had a Small Sunrise from Coffee Bean & Tea Leaf. ekekke! (I reaaaally enjoy coffee ice-blends!)
Today is such an amazing day...
Asha, you're amazing!!!!
tired tired tired~!! Should get some rest. I think I'm getting high somehow. ekekke! :D

Heyy you! :p
I Could Be The One by Donna Lewis

I could be your sea of sand
I could be your warmth of desire
I could be your prayer of hope
I could be your gift of everyday

I could be your tide of heaven
I could be a hint of what's to come
I could be ordinary
I could be the one

I could be your blue eyed angel
I could be the storm before the calm
I could be your secret pleasure
I could be your well wishing well
I could be your breath of life
I could be your European dream
I could be ordinary
I could be the one

I would lie here in the darkness
I would lie here for all time
I would lie here watching over you
Comfort you
Sing to you

I could be your worry partner
I could be your socialite
I could be your green eyed monster
I could be your force of light
I could be your temple garden
I could be your tender hearted child
I could be ordinary
I could be the one

I would lie here in the darkness
I would lie here for all time
I would lie here watching over you
Comfort you
Sing to you

Will I ever change the journey
Will the hushed tones disappear
Oh little Rita
Let me hold you
Oh little Rita
Let me love you

I could be your leafy island
I could be your thunder in the clouds
I could be your dark enclosure
I could be your romantic soul
I could be your small beginning
I could be your soothing universe
I could be ordinary
I could be the one

I could be ordinary
I could be the one

I could be ordinary
I could be the one

amazed amazed amazzzeddd~!!

how 'serious' I can be

vavi
humm.. see it how you'd like to see it.
could I accidentally misspelled the word "viva".. or could I have purposedly misspelled a certain curse word in the Malay language? humm.. let's think it together...

sometimes I just feel you so, but sometimes I am just numb.. that's how serious I am about all these. sometimes I see this as a total waste of time. but it's my time to waste, and I happen to have so much time in my hands these days. kinda crappy sometimes. but somehow I just can't help it.

"ignore me.." this goes to whomever that think it means any meaning to them. you can really annoy me sometimes. can't believe how I can get mad at you at times. you can be such a crappy crappy friend, you know that?? trusting you can be my worst mistake. putting any hope on you can be such a big mistake when now I see that you're not at all dependable. but yet again, it's myself to blame.. why should I depend on anyone?? my mistake.. as always. it has always been my mistake.

I am having my period, I don't have time to THINK of what I should or should not say. I am 'surprisingly' more blunt at these times. and I will not beg for your pardon for saying this 'coz this is who I am.. and if you think I'm too much, don't bear me! I can't bear you as well..
so! which vavi do you think I mentioned earlier?

it's a wonder how I don't even feel the slightest guilt...

Sweetpea Tighfield of Tookbank

heehee.. I'm fine now.. :D
Okay, some of my friends went to this site. heehee~ I think I did it before.. and I did! :D The site has been there for a long time, really. And I think I did the name stuff around the first movie's installment. heehee~ Used to even type out all my close friends' name. heehee.. (excited) Name saye sangat cute~ :x ekekke!
In a liking of this conversation I had last night with Ablen.. Though I'm not really sure if we're really talking about the same things here.. ekkeke! Ignore this if you think it's too long to read.. :D

ablen (2:03:55 AM): 'somethin' better than this'... pretty interestin'
ablen (2:04:49 AM): do u want to just keep waiting ??? kalau btol la ader kaitan ngan real life
wanie (2:05:20 AM): maybe...
wanie (2:05:22 AM): sebab
wanie (2:05:55 AM): settling for what i have right now won't make me content for long
ablen (2:08:10 AM): so u just want to keep waiting.. n waiting.. ??
wanie (2:08:43 AM): i'll wait until i get bored of it
wanie (2:09:06 AM): sebab tak taaau
wanie (2:09:17 AM): ntah2 tunggu laie sket je dapat ape yg lebih baik tu
ablen (2:09:42 AM): y don't u make a move to make it quick a lil'..
wanie (2:10:20 AM): move like how?
wanie (2:11:11 AM): maybe somethings are better left alone
wanie (2:11:17 AM): maybe ajelahh
wanie (2:11:18 AM): heehee
ablen (2:11:26 AM): half of it
ablen (2:11:39 AM): is true~
ablen (2:11:41 AM): hehe
wanie (2:11:52 AM): heehee
wanie (2:12:10 AM): lagipun, waiting shows how much i wanted it
wanie (2:12:32 AM): kalo saje2 je.. waiting mmg buang mase
ablen (2:12:40 AM): macamana kalau tunggu2 pon takder jugak ??
wanie (2:12:46 AM): then it's fate lah
wanie (2:12:53 AM): cemane ekk
wanie (2:13:01 AM): pikir ayat jap
ablen (2:13:04 AM): hehe
wanie (2:13:27 AM): saye taknak move sbb saye sendri tak btol2 pasti mmg itu yg saye nak
wanie (2:13:32 AM): so saye tunggu ajelah
wanie (2:13:48 AM): sementara tunggu.. pikir2 jugek
wanie (2:13:52 AM): tak buang mase
ablen (2:14:00 AM): i like that~.. hehe
ablen (2:14:23 AM): so.. if u 100% sure that u want it.. u will make move ??
wanie (2:14:48 AM): umm.. maybe move sikit lah kot
wanie (2:14:53 AM): lebih ade effort
wanie (2:15:00 AM): cam now let things be aje
ablen (2:15:33 AM): hmm hmm
wanie (2:15:47 AM): heehee
ablen (2:16:31 AM): wanie mmg btol2 pandai susun ayat ye~
wanie (2:16:58 AM): :"> domo arigatou~


-Sensitive- You're Sensitive, and you'd like to stay that way. You're sweet and very emotionally charged. You definitely love the person you're with, and always want to know how they're feeling so you can make sure they're happy.


What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?
brought to you by Quizilla
ekekke! kinda interesting for the fact that Ablen said these last night.. :p

ablen (3:05:23 AM): manje tol
ablen (3:05:41 AM): mmg manje
ablen (3:05:42 AM): hoho~ :D
wanie (3:05:44 AM): :p
ablen (3:06:00 AM): hope ur future bf can handle that

hehhe! I hope he can handle me too lah~! :)) ehh.. I keep getting different results of those Quizzillas from my friends lah! Coz all Ana, Asha and Bahijah got -Perfect Girlfriend-.. even Majin (and Dar too!) is a perfect girlfriend for some guy out there! ekekek! O well, I AM imperfect.. :p
Ohh.. sorry girl, for not choosing to go with you. I'm needing a "me" time right here.. :)

...
notice how empty this post really is?

urghh demmit..
why cant i stop crying over some stupid measly thing..!
all i wanted was to be at home.. hug my dad as much as i can.. coz that's what i needed most right now.
so i cant go back due to the stupid rejected assigment.. even if i did, it wouldn't worth the time at all..
so i cant go back.. i just cant.. i shouldnt... so what's the big stupid deal?
why cant i just let it be?
why am i pouring like a leaking tap ???
arrghhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
sakit nye hatiii... tuhan aje yang tahu..
time macam iniiilah wanie sangat tak tahu ape lagi nak buat..
everyone seemed to be disappearing somehow..
felt like screaming... i am screaming.. inside, though..
this is the worst day of my life!! not being able to do exactly what i want...
stop crying you stupid girl!!!!
felt like cursing.. but it won't help anything, would it? let me try it once...
a$$hole!!!!!
no.. it doesn't stop me from crying, so now it's proven that i shouldn't be cursing...
i hate thissssssss!!!
bahijah and ana are going back anyways!! and i'm still here sebab.. entahlaa! baik sangat ke sampai kate takmo balek?? hahahha!! maybe i was just stupid... and still am...
huwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!! stop crying laaaaaaaaaaa!!!!
felt like i'm crying because of the fact that i can't stop crying....
benci laaa... benci sangat..... benci benci benci.......
"i dont wanna be lonely, i just wanna be alone.."
but alone is what i am....

where is my shoulder to cry on ?

sorry if I might sound pathetic but I'm feeling MIGHTY low right here..
Someone tell me that there's something more than Che Mat and these stupid assignments!

More To Life by Stacie Oricco

I've got it all, but I feel so deprived
I go up, I come down and I'm emptier inside
Tell me what is this thing that I feel like I'm missing
And why can't I let go

There's gotta be more to life...
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
Cause the more that I'm...
Tripping out thinking there must be more to life
Well it's life, but I'm sure... there's gotta be more
Than wanting more

I've got the time and I'm wasting it slowly
Here in this moment I'm half way out the door
Onto the next thing, I'm searching for something that's missing

There's gotta be more to life...
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
Cause the more that I'm...
Tripping out thinking there must be more to life
Well it's life, but I'm sure... there's gotta be more
I'm wanting more

Than waiting on something other than this
Why am I feelin' like there's something I missed.....

There's gotta be more to life...
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
Cause the more that I'm...
Tripping out thinking there must be more to life
Well it's life, but I'm sure... there's gotta be more
Than wanting more

Torn yet again..
My priorities keep jumbling up.
Felt like really crying my eyes out.. running to someone who'd think that I matter to them.. Someone that I wouldn't mind showing how low I can be at times. Someone to comfort me at times like this.. everytime..
*tuk tuk*
I don't have anyone like that.. everything is just in your dreams, Wanie.. there were never anyone you can really run to..
At times like this.. all I can do is wish. Wish that for one moment.. there'd be someone. But not just anyone.. a someone..
And there's this voice keeps telling me... you can't have that person just by wishing, Wanie..! So it is.. but what else is there to do??
I am pathetic.. yess..
Feels like I should leave... just leave everything... but that is not the answer.
Felt like I should jump off into a big black hole... that is not the answer as well..
So tell me now.. where's my shoulder to cry on?
(yes, I have great friends.. truly good friends.. but I'm not expecting them to be right here, right now.. You must've misunderstood me in some way, dear. I'd totally call up for you if I wanted you to be right here, but I didn't.. 'coz you're in the same situation as I do.. I didn't expect you or the other two to be my shoulder to cry on.. I hope you don't think of me as one silly git whose a selfish brat.. 'coz I don't think I am.. 'coz I know all of us needed the time..)
Crying is a sign of weakness.. so I am weak.. what's the point of trying to be strong, anyways!

...
Horrible day..
[ edited on 2:14 pm of November 14th 2003 ]

tired of wondering...?

sto·ic
n.
1. One who is seemingly indifferent to or unaffected by joy, grief, pleasure, or pain.
2. Stoic A member of an originally Greek school of philosophy, founded by Zeno about 308 B.C., believing that God determined everything for the best and that virtue is sufficient for happiness. Its later Roman form advocated the calm acceptance of all occurrences as the unavoidable result of divine will or of the natural order.

tired really.. Was so tired that I accidentally slept though I planned on to wait for another while..
overslept for the photography submission. ekekke! woke up at 8:54 am after Bahijah knocked vigorously on my door. Kecoh gile rase pagi tadi. Even Asha overslept.. such a horrible morning! :(
And we still haven't submit our work 'coz it wasn't our turn yet.. the chance of getting rejected is.. 90%. I was putting the 10% for some miracle.
Going back home later today. I am so torn apart! Tak tahu mana yang patut dipilih.. All my priorities are messed up! Buncit btol!
tired of my works.. tired of being late.. tired of being torn.. tired of being tongue-tied..
tired of wondering..
but wondering is all I have right now so I'll be holding on to that for a while.. :)

oh! Selamat berbukaa~!
oops! What time is it? 1:57 pm.
oh heck, selamat berbuka anyways~! *winks*

*the greatest fan of your life...

related status

these were the status messages that was up this night that is related to the accident:

azarul,ina n amri..semoga cepat sembuh.
harap-harap derang okey..sian ina~~ iskisk!
hope they are going to be fine....
:: lets pray 4 ina-amri and azarul ::
Thank U all 4 concerning bout ina, amri n azarul
ya allah kesiannyer kawan2 aku...
seram dgn cyberjaya byk eksiden
..berhati-hati di jalan raya...
abg az** accident. gile terkejut!
azarulll
tibai mat salleh tu jom...tak ngaku lak dia

some of it were stated by the same people..

They're all fine.. :) Thanks for telling, Darling! hohohoh! (sangat suka name Dar sebab leh buat camtu.. tambah -ling je dah jadi name manje. Cuba try tambah kat Bahijah... Bahijahling!! ekkeke!! burok! Ashaling!! Analing!! ekkeke!!)

8-} rase cam tengah tak betul sangat.
Come back quick!!

my friends.. Out of the question.. ?

this ought to take just some minutes. a bit jumpy to type out much..
Went out in the evening to get our (ana, asha, bahijah and myself) photography work done. Had break-fast outside.
Went back around 9..? When we arrived in Cyberjaya, we talked about the accident that took away the life of this FCM Gamma guy just last night. Saw the site.. the accident knocked down two light posts..
Horrifying just to imagine about it.
And then... when we drove through D'Melor.. saw two cars.. ANOTHER ACCIDENT! Broken glasses were everywhere.. Saw a police car near the spot.. And All 5 (including Dzayed) of us were wondering to ourselves what happened there.. the fact that there were 2 car accidents in just 24 hours.. I just hate to think about all this.
And then when I got back to the room.. I saw some loads of Y! M windows.. 'Forwards again.. bluerghhh!' I thought.. until I read one of it..

someone (9:32:50 PM): someone: someone: someone: sesape yang kenal kawan2 amri iqwan, azarul and ina ... dieorang accident.... everythings fine n dieorang dah dihantar ke ospital.. plz fwd this! thats all i know at this moment

ERKKK!!!!
I know those guys.................................
MERISAUKAAAAAAAAANNN!!!
You know, it's one thing if an accident occured somewhere nearby but it's really another thing if your friends were in it. Takuutnyee~
Dar, Fariz and Azilah are at the Putraja Hospital right now. Kinda wish I was there.. but come to think of it.. NAK BUAT APENYERR PONN!! Busy body btol.. :">
Hope they're all fine. I mean, really REALLY fine.
There'll be our photography assignment tomorrow... cemane ?

Do you know where you children are?

Hug-and-Run :x

it goes something like hit-and-run.. :D
Been feeling pretty nice since I woke up. Had great companies through the afternoon, or this ought to be quite a dull afternoon. :x

as·phyx·i·ate
v. as·phyx·i·at·ed, as·phyx·i·at·ing, as·phyx·i·ates
To cause asphyxia in; smother.
v. intr.
To undergo asphyxia; suffocate.

The word was in Muse - Time Is Running Out. Loving the song.. The beats are just nice! Like the drums pretty much!! :D Wanted to post the lyrics over here in the last post but then I noticed Shahnon had already posted it in his! :p

bahijah(3:33:35 PM): that's what u always wanted

heehee~! Funny how things happen according to your thoughts. Cam.. you just imagine some things.. and somehow it was proven that you ARE going to do the things that were on your thoughts. ekkeke! Faham ke? I think I'm talking in circles right now. :D
Anyways! Feeling too good to say anything more!
It's like.. I'm very content of today! Everything about today just amuses me and I love being amused this way. :) :x :x :x Macam kalau suka orang, every silly things that he or she does won't matter much 'coz you just like 'em too much to care about small things like those. heehee~ That's how the afternoon has been for me. Loving the hours that had past so much that it doesn't really matter with the fact that I could use a lil' bit more of sleep.. :D
:x

{ addicted to addictive addiction }

Playlist

been repeating these songs lately:
1. Jason Mraz - You And I Both Dar said he sounded gay, but I like the song anyways!
2. Muse - Unintended doesn't sound like Muse much! heehee!
3. Muse - Time Is Running Out really love the beats, thanks Iqbal!
4. Westlife - If Your Heart's Not In It interesting lyrics there!
5. Saliva - Rest In Pieces such a great song! a bit sad though..
6. Bic Runga - Sway besh nyanyi lagu ni kuat kuat! :D
7. Frente - Bizzare Love Triangle know the chords to play it already! but I'm such a crappy guitar player.. :(
8. Save Ferris - Let Me In suka ati je smalam humm lagu ni time Che Mat tengah bebel bebel rijek keje.. :D what can I do.. the song's stuck in my head...

i've been watching you and all you do
for quite some time
knowing all the ins and outs of you
i should have known what was on your mind
but all the world is spinning round and round,
inside my head tonight
i will fall into the darkness
and i fear i will never see the light

i've been watching you and all you do
for quite some time
knowing all the ins and outs of you,
i should have known what was on your mind
but all the world is spinning round and round,
inside my head tonight
i will fall into the darkness
and i fear i will never see the light
the light

so let me in
all that i wanted from you
was something youd never do
so let me in
oh please tonight,
dont let this end tonight
i'll fall

through the light the darkness seems to be
so very strong
how does one alone against the world
find the strength to carry on
what happened to the way we used to love
it seemed as though life had just begun
but now that love has come and goneto fade away
like the setting sun
ohhhh

cause you won't let me in
all that i wanted from you
was something youd never do
so let me in
oh please tonight,
dont let this end tonight
cause i'm starting to fall
so let me in

it was all that i wanted from you
it was something you never knew
to let me in
but not tonight,
for this is the end
tonight
i fall

>:D<