Read and think.

..I saw you and became empty.
This emptiness, more beautiful than existence,
it obliterates existence, and yet when it comes,
existence thrives and creates more existence!

The sky is blue,
the world is a blind man squatting on the road.
But whoever sees your emptiness
sees beyond blue and beyond the blind man.

..Why should we grieve that we've been sleeping?
It doesn't matter how long we've been unconscious.
We're groggy, but let the guilt go.
Feel the motions of tenderness around you, the buoyancy.

Excerpts from my favourute favourite poem at the moment, Buoyancy by Rumi.
Have a good day, people!

"Well done, moral fibre!"

Excellent day!! Well, may not have been as I hoped it would be.. but I don't have a lot to complain. Spent exactly 13 hours outside and I'm really really pooped! (But apparently not too pooped to hold this update 'til tomorrow.)

Although we had planned to watch The Legend of Zorro, due to some unavoidable circumstances we had to miss it. *sigh* To kill time, we went to KLCC! (which we later left at quarter to 5 so we wouldn't miss Harry Potter in GSC at 5:30 pm!) We yacked, we walked, and we met Muz' brooding guy friend whom she calles "Aries guy"; who most of the time makes me feel like I should give a good slap at the back of his head. (if I could reach it.) He's really not a bad guy, but he never smiles! Except this one time when I made him laugh.. at exactly 8:45 pm - yes, I wrote the time down.
Ooh, we saw Wardina at Coffee Beans around lunch!


Okay!! Now I shall talk about Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire (Harry Potter dan Gelas Berapi - believe it!) Surprisingly.. I can't complain! Really! I sort of loved it! I love Mike Newell!!! heehee. I thought it was bloody brilliant! Of course they left some things out, but they did most of the things I love in the book! The funny ones especially! Me liiike!! It was sort of odd in some way.. This one was both the funniest, yet the darkest of all four.
The best Harry Potter movie yet. SO much better than Prisoner of Azkaban. Although you sense that little rush that they need to get the film done for 2 hours and 37 minutes, I'd say.. THIS IS STILL THE BEST HARRY POTTER MOVIE YET!!!
Go see it! Go see it!!!
Emma and Dan was really really brilliant in this one. Just love them both! Too bad Rupert didn't get as much screen time as the other two. Ooh~ and the Phelps brothers!! (Weasley twins) Love them!! Ralph Fiennes.. ooooh~ I didn't exactly imagine Lord Voldermort looking like that.
Alright alright.. enough promoting. Go see it for yourself! Wouldn't wanna spoil your viewing pleasure. heehee.

(by the way.. I've finally found a dead Pak Arab poet that I can adore! - I've been adoring dead English/American poets all these while. Feels nice somehow! hihihi!)

Goodnight goodnight, world!!

Trailing days..

heehee. The title would definitely NOT reflect the real entry for today.
Was bored, so I had spent the last couple of hours on Apple's movie trailer page. I can't believe the number of movies I'd like to see! If only I'd been living in the States, then I'd probably seen half of the movies on my list.
In Her Shoes (12th Jan,2006)
Elizabethtown (2nd Feb, 2006)
Prime (9th Feb, 2006)
Rumor Has It (9th Feb,2006) - Mark Ruffalo! heehee.
Yours, Mine & Ours - Danielle Panabaker as one of the kids!
Brokeback Mountain

(those are the dates when the movie will be released here)
*sigh*

hihihihi!

I am rather giggly tonight, after seeing MTV's Never Before Scenes of Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire. I know I shouldn't watch those things, but I can't help it!! I'm just SO anxious!!

Thursday is going to be SUCH a movie date for me and Muz. I've already booked Zorro 2 for the morning (yeah, we both haven't seen it) and Harry Potter for the afternoon; well, late afternoon more like. Can't wait!! Really excited.

Really really excited!! Have always wanted to waste money on multiple movies on the same day! Finally getting it! hihihihihi!

And now I shall wait patiently for Thursday.. and House on 2am! hihhihihi.
All giggly.
G'nite world!

eh.. Disturbed...

Just found out about this movie. Really disturbing.
Heath Ledger and Jake Gyllenhaal?
*sigh* Such a sad saad day...
(but I heard the film is good! - very verrry good.)

House

I love talking about House. Everytime I think about the show.. I can think up of something philosphical. Looking forward to tomorrow for another episode on AXN. Another 8 episodes of this current first season. And since I know no self-resistant, I've looked up on some episode summaries and now I'm especially looking forward to the 20th episode!
(That's six weeks from now.. *sigh*)

Scary questions.

Hihi. Cik Ila just asked me one of the scariest questions I've ever met in my life.

Are you happy?

Hihi. (If you'd known me pretty well.. I usually dodge - or TRY to dodge "hard" questions with laughter.)
I'm a person of ideas.. to explain exactly my thoughts and what I feel would probably take half a day. Plus, "happy" is so abstract to me.
So, questions like "are you happy?" or "what are your plans?" or "are you in love?" just give me shivers most of the time.

But in attempt to answer your question, Cik Ila..
I am mostly happy. Of course there's room for me to be happier but I'll work on that sometime soon.

To fellow MMU students, good luck in the new semester!
And I'd like to give a shout out to my couzie Sarah who's starting her exam today! whooppee! Hope she'll do a great job! My sisters are blaming my batch for the horrible impression on the smaller couzies.
(There are seven elder ones in my extended family then there's me with my two cousins in the same batch. The elders did respectively great on their SPM and us three.. pretty much started the sucky ones. hehe!)

These kids are SO grown up!

Looking forward to next Thursdaayy! I indulged myself to a short clip from the film that isn't in the trailer and now I'm just so excited to laugh about it with Muz!

Three cheers!!!

Stupid Frank Lampard.

Gooooood Michael Owen!!
And Wayne Rooney.
And Steven Gerrard,
and Joe Cole.
(and who ever passed the ball to Rooney for the first goal - which I didn't get to see cause my mom was watching this lame Hindi movie on TV2)

Brilliant brilliant play at the last minutes. hihi.

New textbook.

That's what Tuesdays With Morrie shall be to me from now on.
Although the story left me pretty poignant once I finished reading it, I really reaaally hope I'd be able to see life as Morrie had seen it.

See. I've been told that I've kept my guard up all the time. And once, a guy told me that I am afraid of getting hurt. So! The question is, don't you have to be broken to be afraid?? Honestly, I don't remember being burned so how did I become.. broken? It doesn't make any sense!
And it just upsets me, reading all the time Morrie talks about love.
Well, I've forgotten what my point was when I started this but certainly.. I still have lots of things to figure out!

Okay. Moving on.. I got a silly short message at 12 am this morning! It was a birthday wish for me - which wasn't until next month!! *rofl*
Going to be nice here by not saying his name. But I kinda like the idea of embarrassing him a little by this post! hihi. Sorry.. too much temptation!

Good night, world!

A sorrowful day..

I'm very close to tears today. Reading about Morrie did something to me. Of course, I've never been too shy with my emotions, but Morrie made me realize how stumpy my feelings really are. I realize today that I still have a lot of things to learn.. to feel. I also realize that I haven't shown my true feelings to the ones I love.
So I hugged my mom. And I hugged my dad. I couldn't say any words, though. So I hoped that they had felt my heart going to them in the embrace.

And earlier today I was working on something dear to me. For some odd reasons I can't help but started to weep.
For these tears are a wise man, who had died long before I was born. His goodness will I remember and his wisdom will I try to follow.

"If you are going through hell, keep going."
- Winston Churchill.

 On this day, Morrie says he has an exercise for us to try.
We are to stand, facing away from our classmates, and fall backward, relying on another student to catch us. Most of us are uncomfortable with this, and we cannot let go for more than a few inches before stopping ourselves. We laugh in embarrassment.

 Finally, one student, a thin, quiet, dark-haired girl whom I notice almost always wears bulky white fisherman sweaters, crosses her arms over her chest, closes her eyes, leans back, and does not flinch, like one of those Lipton comercials where the model splashes into the pool.

 For a moment, I am sure she is going to thump on the floor. At the last instant, her assigned partner grabs her head and shoulders and yanks her up harshly.
 "Whoa!" several students yell. Some clap.

 Morrie finally smiles.
 "You see," he says to the girl, "you closed your eyes. That was the difference. Sometimes you cannot believe what you see, you have to believe what you feel. And if you are ever going to have other people trust you, you must feel that you can trust them too - even when you're in the dark. Even when you're falling."

Home by half-ten.

Had an enjoyable day with Muz. Although she kept me waiting for almost an hour, it's really hard to be mad at her! She's simply.. one of the very few people that I give a rat's ass. (That pretty much translates as "one of the very few people that I listen to")

Anyways! Saw Just Like Heaven and loved it! I suppose you could say that it's a chick flick, but as Will Smith had said about his movie Hitch, I'd say this one is a "comedy romance" than the usual romantic comedy.
That Mark Ruffalo.. such a scruffy charming man - ME LIKE!! ekkeke! The film was fun. Lots of witty lines, such as "God made alcohol as a social lubricant. To make men brave, and to make women loose!" Who actually talks like that?? hihi.
Though it has a different ending than the original novel If Only It Were True by Marc Levy. So if you're planning on seeing this one, DON'T make the same mistake as I did! (I picked the book up in MPH some two weeks ago and flipped it through to the last few pages so I'd know how it ends. I know - it should be a CRIME!) I was slightly disappointed that it didn't end as the book did, but it wasn't so bad. GO SEE IT!

Checked around the bookstore and finally.. FINALLY!! I bought this book! Had always always wanted to own it, so FINALLY! Don't feel like reading it at my usual pace though. I'm going to take it slow and easy. Morrie.. wonderful wonderful man.


Spent RM83 the entire day. I'm coming to terms that I may never save a cent.

G'nite world!

About a boy.

I received a call from an old friend yesterday. Well, not exactly an old friend.. he was an acquaintance that got in touch with me since the past week or so.
I thought he was amazing! Well, maybe not really amazing, but amusing, definitely.
I never ever chatted with him or spoke a word with him. We had only started communicating through that Friendster messaging last week. Then we exchanged numbers and started smsing. So yesterday he called me and asked if I wanted to hang out. Being a very typical of me, I said "no" o'course. I even manage to make it come out pretty rude. And then, later that night he called again for a chat and surprisingly it was fun!

I never thought that we could actually talk for quite some time (until his battery died) when we've never exchanged words since.. ever! (we were classmates when we were 15) Later he smsed saying he had fun talking to me. hihi! How 'bout that..

It's been so long since I last talked to people outside my circle, I've forgotten how charming I could be.
AHHAHAAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!

G'nite world.

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ooh~ update!

Your Blog Should Be Purple

You're an expressive, offbeat blogger who tends to write about anything and everything. You tend to set blogging trends, and you're the most likely to write your own meme or survey. You are a bit distant though. Your blog is all about you - not what anyone else has to say.

What Color Should Your Blog or Journal Be?

I find this amusing! I actually never used purple before.. hummm.. *pondering blissfully*

Euurgghh!

Irritated for being so uninspired and sodding lazy.

Trying to think of some theme to make a new layout for the blog. Getting tired of looking at myself too much. And don't you think the pic looks a bit depressing? Well, I think it's a little depressing. Don't know why the heck I like to take pictures of the top of my head. It's not even remotely attractive!

Going to pause all thoughts until I come up with a new layout.

hush hush.

Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire premieres... yesterday in London.(Malaysia time!)
How annoying.
And I have to wait for a whole 10 days before I get any chance of seeing it in the cinema. I expect that I'll complaint a lot once I've seen it, but the thought shouldn't hinder me from actually seeing it now should it?
I've already made plans to see it with Muz and she was shocked when I asked her yesterday. (I'm a terrible planner and she knows it!)

Hopefully she won't be too busy tomorrow. (Later today, I mean.) Kinda hoping to have lunch with her, though I haven't asked her yet. hehe.

My whole darned body aches!!!

Try spending most of 15 hours in a car.

Me and the rest of the family went to Perak on 3rd Syawal. I suppose we didn't mean to stay in the car for that long, but Mama thought we should visit this one house that she'd never been to. Spent almost 2 hours just trying to find it!
Then, instead of heading straight back home Papa had promised to visit Cik Mohlis first. (Silent H! He's my father's brother anyways.) It was fine, but I hope everyone would just stop asking me when I'd finish school!! (ooh~ but Cik Mohlis gave me RM15 for duit raya! ahahha!! and Cik GG said that I have a nice figure! WAHHAHAHA!!)
Nina and Jasmin Abg. Min were supposed to spend the night in Shah Alam but something happened and they decided to go back to Seremban instead.

Sorry if this post doesn't make too much sense. My body just aches so bad, too much pain signals and my brain is left disabled to think of anything else.

I must've went speechless at least a dozen times since the past three days. Maybe I should stick a post-it on my forehead telling that everyone ought to stop asking me what I've been up to.

Sleepless in Shah Alam.

G'morning world!

I remembered my science teacher used to say; if you're insomniac; you can't get to sleep at night, you should refrain yourself from napping in the afternoon.
I knew she was right..
Yet I napped anyways!
Now I'm suffering the consequence.

First Raya was fine. Didn't get to see most of my uncs, aunties and couzies though. Me and the family head out at about 11 and once we got to Meru (that's in Klang, if you hadn't known) Papa phoned his brother and he told Papa that he and the rest were just about to go out and visit the rest of the extended family.
So we end up visiting that extended family members but never bumped into the couzies.
(Am I making any sense here?)

After that we went back home since Papa didn't feel too well.
But at 9pm, we (me, Dida and Mama) went off to see Wan-de in Keramat. Always liked visiting her 'coz she's a pretty fine cook! hihi. (Wan-de is my mom's eldest sister.)
Only head back home at 11!

Read today's horoscope on Friendster and I find it highly amusing!
Sagittarians can deal with just about anything. They can make a joke of it, laugh it off and move on. But there's one thing a Sag just can't stand to hear: 'If you loved me, you would.' In your mind, that translates into a threat to your personal freedom, and it definitely won't work. (It also sounds like a precursor to guilt, something else Sags can't stand.) Heaven help anyone who tries any of that on you now.

Finally remembered to download this.. a song which I simply ADORE!
Counting Down The Days by Natalie Imbruglia

You were right
And I don't wanna be here
If you're gonna be there
Was that supposed to happen?

I'll hold tight
I'll remember to smile
Though it has been a while
And without you does it matter?

There's no room
No place to start
When our souls are apart

I wanna travel through time
See your surprise
Hold you so tight
I'm counting down the days tonight
I just wanna be a million miles away from here
I'm counting down the days

How've you been?
It's just the usual here
And days are feeling like years
And every day's without you

Now I cry
Just a little too much
When I think of your touch
And everything about you

I feel cold
I'm in the dark
When our souls are apart

I wanna travel through time
See your surprise
Hold you so tight
I'm counting down the days tonight
I just wanna be a million miles away from here

I'm counting down the days

I'm gonna be your surprise
I'm gonna hold you so tight

I wanna travel through time
See your surprise
I'd hold you so tight
I'm counting down the days tonight
I just wanna be a million miles away from here

A million miles away from here

Btw, to those who smsed me well-wishes these last few days, I promise I'll send a reply as soon as I can! hihi.

Thursday!!

To my favourite favourite people,
Sorry if I'd done anything so wrong that I actually have to be sorry for. hehe!
I'm sure if there's any, I didn't mean to. Really.

To everyone else,
Hope you'll have loads of fun, good food and duit raya!!
Remember, my birthday is next month! ahahahha!!

Take care all!

Wonderfalls!

Man, why the heck did the show had to be cancelled after one season. *sigh*
I'm so SO SOOO glad that Eric and Jaye end up together (sort of) in the end! It just gives off the impression that you really don't need to chase love; that if things are meant to be.. it will be!
heehee.

Goodnight world!