Let's kick a$$!!
Just a question... ever felt so furious that it ruins your whole day? Ever felt so angry that your heart beats faster just to think about the cause? Ever felt so mad that you just can't say anything about it? Ever felt so pissed that you could just strangle someone??!
Urgghhhh!!! How could you?!!!!!

English can be funnn!!
Heyy, don't diss me for this but English CAN be fun!! At least my class is.. Hihhihi.. Well, it gets a bit boring when we had to start working on some essay stuff..
It started off with a discussion about what we want to do.. That cause and effects stuff or compare and contrast.. So then Majin and I were into some sort of debate coz we wanted to do the different things.. So anyway.. ends up Majin won.. then we started doing the cause and effects.. Bluerghhh! So anyways.. the silly part is since Gabe kept on making the topics ended with 'deaths'.. Like... greed.. they became greedy for a wish to be rich.. and when they get rich.. they're unhappy.. they feel the need to take care of their money.. paranoia.. and they get insane.. which leads to - SUICIDE! Now.. that's the sort of things we talk about in class.. Even from the last trimester.. Death and all that has become the favourite topic in class.. the weird thing is.. all of the members in the class are all the happy type! Not at all the depressed.. Hehhe!
Then.. when we had to start making the outlines for our essays.. I get sleepy! Nyeh nyehh.. good ole Juvita, Aisha and Rina get to finish the work and our group became the first to get out from the classroom.. Weeee! Thank you loads gurls!! ^_^
Oh well.. I'm hungry right now.. But hey! Gotta wait for my friends to get back here.. Eating time became more fun when you're with the people you care! Hehhehe!! Ohana means family and family doesn't left anyone behind! AHHAHHAHHA!!

What would you say if I change my path.. away from you?

Because I'm a girl..
OooOoo yeahh..! A new week! Funny enough.. the three occupants of this room were late this morning.. Ana and I woke up pretty much late than we would usually wake.. While Fina wasn't even around by 8:30!! Hahhahha!! She only got to the room when me, Ana, Bahijah and Sheeya were walking towards the E-Theatre.
Lecture was normally boring.. hummm.. what more can I say? So now I'm wasting my time while waiting the clock ticks by for my class at 4.. Bluerrgh! Owh! I forgot to mention... that I got Ms Zaiha back for the trimester!! Hihhihik! We were all cheering when she informed us last week.. ^_^
Wokehh.. so anyways.. I'm kinda sleepy right now, but I guess it's too late to get a nap at this hour.. Sheesh! Soo.. what else can I say?
Owhh.. last night was weird..! Seriously.. Got extremely sleepy while we were doing Fundamental.. (Probably 'coz I got a bit fed up 'coz my color won't 'flatten'!) And people have been asking me weird questions.. And my dreams were all jumbled up while I was sleeping.. I don't know!!! Urgghh!! Everything just seemed weird.
Probably 'coz I got tired from running back and forth from my room to Sheeya and Bahijah's room.. hehhe! 'Coz we were all excited with that application Fariz gave.. so I had to run around to help the two get their thingy to work. Hehhe..! It was tiring, really.. Even got myself confused, trying to figure out their IP addresses..
And then there's this one time when Sheeya entered my pc.. and gosh, I hate to lose control of things!! Urgghh! I was pretty pissed really.. But finally.. I solved it all.. by switching off her pc!! Wahahhaha!! Neat stuff, really.. if you're willing to let people take over the pc.. Hihhihik..
Wokehh.. gotta run! An errand to do.. Aisha asked me to wake her up!

And I do get tired from waiting..

Just a thought..
Another week gone by.. a new day is arriving..
My heart beats faster when I think about tomorrow..
Will I change for the good? Will people treat me differently?
These are the things I wonder, when I think about tomorrow..
Had a pleasant dream this morning..
But I can't say if it'll happen for real..
I wish that it would.. for that means I'll have a brighter future..
It's a long way ahead.. but everytime I get to think about it,
I get scared..
Do I have enough will to go through it?
Or will I run away like I always did?
The things I regret keep bashing in my head..
It's my fault, no one else to be blamed..
Why should I go away? I could not say..
Maybe I'm just too afraid of what people might say..
I don't want to regret anymore.. but why is it everywhere I turn,
I'll always find it in front of my face again? And why do I feel like I'm going to run again?
I don't know when.. I don't know how..
But if the time comes, forgive me for what I've done..
Remember me like you do care..
But don't keep thinking about me in your days..
For I am not worthy to hang around in your thoughts..

Three girls in one room.. Hihhihik!
Wokehh.. goin' home some minutes from now..
Slept at Sheeya's last night. Honestly, Ana and I left our room around two in the morning.. but we stayed talking until about FIVE! Ahhahha!! Talked about so many stuff! Mostly about the things that has been bothering our minds... ^_^
Today's a bit silly really... Me and Ana only woke up when Sheeya got BACK from her class.. hihhihi! And Sheeya said that Ana did some weird thing in the morning which made me laugh so hard! Hihhihih!
It rained again today.. spent the day mostly in front of the window.. the air seemed cool!! Hihhihi.. Well of course me, Ana and Sheeya also used the chance to see who passes by the building.. Hihhihik! Very pleased to know that Ana seemed happier today.. at last.. at the end of the week... Kan Ana.. kan??
Eyyhh!! I need to pack my bags!! Maybe if I can still remember what happened today.. I'll tell you about it sometime later...
Well.. have a nice weekend!!
Probably I'll get back here on Monday.. Rase malas nak balek awal... Hihhihik!

It's mind-boggling but I'm enjoying every moment of it! Hihhihik!
Hello lovely people! Hihhi.. In a pretty good mood today, but I have to say that I'm still feeling sleepy.. Urgh!! Oh yeahh.. woke up this morning with a bit of a cramp on my left arm and few hours later.. I find it swollen!! Sheesh! Seems like my arm was bitten by something.. amazingly it even causes cramps! Well, what can I say.. I'm just simply irresistable! Even for bugs.. ahhahha!!
Got to go to Fundamental this morning.. Well, nothing much really.. Got to mix some colors.. got myself bored.. (coz I kept getting the wrong tones and I just can't seem to 'flatten' the color!) But anyways.. the day can still be considered as okay.. ^_^ I skipped my English today.. just decided not to go and hang out with the gurls around HB1 and our room.. Hehh.. Then at 2 I went to their session of Fundamental.. Hihhihi! Really.. I just felt like making myself bored all over again.. Hihhihi..! I'd have to say that I enjoyed my own Fundamental session better.. Hihhi..! Plus.. the gurls said that they might come over to my session next time.. Yaayyyyy!!
So anyways.. I'm tired of course.. just got back from Street Mall for an early dinner.. caught a glimpse of Winter Sonata.. Hihhi.. Sent silly messages to Alitt.. all five of us.. Sheeya, Bahijah, Ana, Azura and myself.. sent Alitt messages like - 'Alitt, jom kapel! Ekonomi meleset ni.. dating pon jadik ahh!' and 'Alitt, jom dating.. buat isteri pon ok gak!' and some more silly silly SMS that contains the words 'ekonomi meleset' and 'couple'.. Hahhaha!!
Anyways.. gonna sleep at Sheeya and Bahijah's room tonight.. Hihhi..! Though.. BJ won't be around 'coz she's going home!! Talking about home... hummm... I feel hessitated to go back.. urghh!! My dad's gonna ask about the Maths paper.. and I really don't know what more could I say... I really hate that when it happens!
Wokie... going to Sheeya's room in some moments.. if any of you guys need to contact me.. Just message her on Y! M, asking for this reaaaaaaaaaaally cute-but-a-little-shy lil' witch wokie! Hihhihik! Or.. well.. try again tomorrow lahhh!! AHHAHHA!!

What a dayy..
Heyy.. I do believe that I'm kinda sick in a way.. my body is malfunctioning!! Seriously.. I can't understand how it works anymore! Seriously.. I'd get sleepy anytime of the day! Even after I just had a good nap!! Something's not right is going on!! So.. forgive me if my mood changes drastically.. I'm sure it's not PMS.. it's.. something that even I cannot explain! Urgghhh! HELLLLLPPP! Every moment of the day.. I'm like forcing myself to keep awake! Urrghh!!
Anyways.. Maths paper was a nightmare!! Err.. almost cried at the end of it 'coz I was really upset.. And Dani didn't help in any way.. he actually said.. 'It can't be that bad..' URGHHH!! He seemed to be able to do it.. of course he'd say that!!!!! I just hate those too-positive-thinking-people!! Bluekk bluekk blueeekkkkkkkkk!!!!!! 'At least we die trying'.. ya lahh!! I'm about to jump off the window and commit suicide!! So anyways.. I haven't spoke to my dad yet.. just messaged him before and after the test.. he must've been really upset.. Apelaa nak jadik ngan Wanie ni??!! Sampaaahhhh!! HUWAAAAA!!
So when I got back to my room.. I burried my face into the pillow.. and then it rained! So I went down my bed and shoved the monitor of my pc away and sat on the table and just stared blankly at the rain drops.. Ehehhe.. somehow I didn't get pissed when Fina, Ana and Bahijah gets positive... And when the rain gets heavier.. we went to HB1!! Got ourselves some hot drinks to warm ourselves.. Hihhi.. Catch up on each other's news.. Since we're not in the same class.. Hihhi.. Truly cheered me up.. Even talked about our moms! AHHAHHAH!! Then had a bit of a walk around MMU.. ehhehe! Got back in our room around 8.. and had a bit of a Magee party.. Hihhihi.. while Azura was getting ready for a DATE!! Wah wahhhh..!! Tak aci.. tak aci.. apa lagi BJ.. jomm kite!! Guys-hunting! AHHAHHA!! Tengah tak sehat ni ade hati plak nak usha orang.. Yeeheehee!
So.. it's night.. And I'm feeling really sick! Really don't know what's happening... Heyy fellas!! If I won't get up by midnight.. errr... well, make me!!!
Oh my.. just realized that the star on my wrist won't come off!! Ayayyaya!

Current song : Anything But Ordinary by Avril Lavigne
~ Is it enough to die, somebody save my life ~

OH... MY...!!!!!!!!!!
I am feeling extremely pleased!! And I'm shocked with it!! OH MY!!! MY.. my.. my!!!
Even with the fact I'm having my supplementary test in a few hours.. I'm extremely happy!! Ihhihihik!
Why.. I managed to get the two songs that touched my heart in this couple of months! Hihhihik..
One of them is that song from Winter Sonata.. Well, yeahh.. I don't really understand it.. but I do know some parts of it!!
- sorry if I love you too much but I can't control it - AHHAHHA!! Neat! But the song is really sad to be the truth.. that's why it touches me! Ihhihihik!
And the other song.. is from that Greese movie.. Ahhahha!!
What's up with me and slow songs these days?!
Anyways.. class this morning was pretty fun!! We were making silly jokes with that Adobe Photoshop.. been messing around with some fruits and veggies! It felt fun again with Aisha and Majin in the same class.. we were pretty noisy 'coz we kept laughing! Hihhi.. and I was kept being interrupted with my Y!M that one of the tutors actually came to my desk and gave me a 'look'.. so what did I do?? I smiled at him!!! AHHAHHA!! Typically me... Anyways.. and somehow that tutor.. Dr. Hew (was it??) kept coming back to our (me, Aisha and Majin's) desk! Hihhihi.. why.. feelin' a bit magnetic, do we?? Ahhahha!!
Oh well.. gotta stop getting silly and check on some more notes! Bob pon messaged suruh stadi.. Hihhihik
Wish me luck!!

Current song : Hopelessly Devoted by.. (what's her name??)
~ I'm out of my head.. hopelessly devoted to you ~

The things I held back..
Ola! Still feeling slow... had a bit of a nap just now.. A very bit to tell you. And the funny thing is, when I woke up.. I asked myself.. "why did I wake up??" Hihhihi...
Gosh, I wonder why I've been having weird dreams.. like.. I don't know! It's kinda hard to explain 'coz it doesn't make any sense at all! Blueerrgghh!
Anyways.. feeling... kinda empty tonight.. why? Beats me! Heyy.. how often do you get that feeling.. when you think that you should just say the things you really wanted to say.. but something just holds you back?? Urghh! That's how I feel tonight, to be honest! There's this 'thing' that has been hanging in my thoughts.. but.. I just can't let it out!! Why?? 'Coz I'm just too demm ego about it.. Urrghh!! But honestly.. the thing is actually a clash of ego and shame.. AHHAHA!! I guess that's just why I can't let it out... as much as I want to..
Know what? Somehow I wish I could just ask the things I wanted to ask, when I want to ask it! Instead of holding it back.. and keep on wondering why.. Blueerrgh!! Know what?? Who knows... maybe one of these days I'll just let it out..!! Though.. I believe that it could be the most foolish day of my life history.. well.. maybe I could throw it all away.. entahlaa! How much I tried to brave myself to brought it up.. something will just turn out weird! Bluerrghh!! Papelahh Wanie ni ngarut!

Current song : Perfect by Simple Plan
~ I'm sorry I can't be perfect ~

Crazy feeling..
I have a very nasty feeling 'bout how this thing is going on... urrghh!!
Gonna go crazy about this..!

Current song : Anything But Ordinary by Avril Lavigne
~ Is it enough to love, is it enough to breathe.. somebody rip my heart out and leave me here to bleed ~

How Should Guys Confess : Part Two
Hihhihi... the final part of this cheeky topic! I guess I'd have to say that these are the quite 'casual' part of the topic..

As Juvita would say, you guys should at least make sure that she likes you.. even a little bit so the confession won't be such a shock to her.. You should take her someplace nice.. but act casually. So, no matter how the responses be.. you can still stay as friends. And she said that you should 'tell' her through actions, but not too drastic. 'Coz words can go wrong and gifts might gave the wrong hints..

My sister, Nina said you guys won't have to wait or create a special occasion to get it out your chest. I mean, save it all for the proposal, okie! So that strikes out candle-light dinner and that large bouquet of flowers.. wokehh! As Nina said, better make it a private conversation.. that strikes out while you're hanging out with loads of friends or the cafeteria.. Hihhi..! And, you really gotta SAY it! Make it short and simple.. Make it CLEAR, that's important!
Let me tell you how her fiance confessed.. well, not exactly confess.. but I'll explain that a bit later! Okehh!! Her fiance really like the number 19.. and so.. he actually planned of doing 19 special things in 19 days! Flowers on one day.. letter on a day.. chocolate on another.. but then somewhere around the 14th day.. my sister actually asked him.. "Awak ade ape-ape nak cakap kat saye ke?" Hoping that he'd tell how he feels for her ('coz she likes him).. And guess what?? He blurted it out! Hihhi.. Well, it's a pretty kamikaze thing Nina did.. I mean, by actually asking the guy, means that the girl has this feeling.. but she didn't want to waste it on the guy if he didn't want her. Get me? That's why she asked! ^_^ Oh yeahh.. like she said, you don't have to create an occasion, but your efforts counts, y'know! 19 stuff.. that's pretty sweet! ^_^

Hope all these is helping guys out there understand a bit 'bout girls! Hihhi.. I have to say that.. even if you have a bit of the feeling, you gotta tell her! Nanti melarat.. I mean, just imagine if you waited until that feeling grow.. and by the time you got the guts to spill it out, she doesn't feel the way you do.. hihhi..! Can you just move on with your life?? ^_^ Wokehh.. it's easy to dedicate songs to the girl.. (or guy, for those gurls who's brave enough to make the first move!) But be SPECIFIC! I mean, which part of the songs expresses your feelings. ^_^ Unless it's the whole song-lah! And letters are pretty good too! If you can write-lah! Hahhaha!! If you choose to write.. please oh please.. DON'T RHYME!! You might go from sweet to downright hilarious.. you don't really want her to laugh at your efforts, do you? Well.. just... avoid from rhymes.. just.. PLEASE!! I had such a funny experience about that one.. Can't stop crying when I remember about it.. (hihhi! 'coz I can't stop laughing!) ^o^ But... the thing about songs and letters is that, you'd still have to SAY how you feel.. 'Coz she'll need confirmation.. HAHHA! I mean.. if you talk face to face.. she can ask you if you're serious.. if it's just a letter, she might think it's just one of your pranks! ^_^ Crystal? oOooO yeahh.. YOU'RE CUTE is not exactly a confession.. since plenty of guys might've said that to her.. And you might want to repeat that you do like her.. 'coz there's plenty of like.. there's the 'just' like.. and LIKE LIKE.. Heehee!! Just ask me if you need to know more about the 'likes'.. hehhehe!!
Well.. just remember not to go too slow, nor too fast! If you act too slow.. some other guy might get her!! Or.. if she has the same feeling.. she'll wonder what took you so long to just say it?.. and ended with her running off with another guy who's brave enough to let it out! Hahhaha!! Too fast as in.. you went up to her and said I LOVE YOU.. that's just freakish! She might freak out and you'll never get to see her again! LIKE is much much better word, wokehh? *winks!* Oh yeahh.. I have a story about being too fast though. Actually a cousin of mine.. well, there's this guy.. He probably has been looking at her (my cousin) for so long.. and one day, he went up to her and actually said.. "One day I'll make you my wife" She freaked out, of course... but guess what? They're now happily married! Yeeheehee!!
Well.. just.. let it out, will ya'! It MIGHT hurt a bit (to your ego!.. or if she rejects you).. but it MIGHT also be the starting point of a beautiful story!! Yeeheehee!! Seriously.. until the moment you confess.. you'll forever be 'nothing'.. ^_^

Well... enjoy your experiments! Heehee.. hope one of those works for you!
Gosh, I need sleep badly!!

How Should Guys Confess : Part One
Hahha!! Now, before I get serious with my Maths.. I should get this topic done.. ^_^
Yeeheehee... ain't it cheeky?? Well, I've talked about crush.. I've talked about hints.. so I better just go through with the whole subject! ^_^ Anyways, this time I'm asking all around the girls so you guys out there could choose which ways are more compatible with you! Yeeheehee! And so this is what they said... ^_^

Azura said.. Hehhehe.. Eye contact is very important! So don't wear any tinted glasses when you say it.. 'coz she needs to see the sincerity in your eyes.. And.. probably you should say it in whispers. So it'll be like a real 'secret' between you two. Ahha! And probably, you also might want to sing her a very nice song.. Hihhihik! Just.. pick a nice place to say it... and tell her that she looks good. Hihhi...

Fina agrees that you should confess at a special place. Somewhere special, meaningful and memorable for either the guy or girl.. And cards would be nice too! Fina also agrees that the guys should say nice things about the girl. All that really matters is that you say all the right words and you're very sincere about your feelings..

Mya said she's prefer those romantic things like flowers. And as a guy, you should be sweet! And you should know how to play with your eyes... Hehhe.. And dress smartly! You don't really want her to go out with a scruffy looking guy, do you?? Aaaannnddd... Mya also said that you probably want to say it in public.. as in.. all the people around you are the witness of your feelings for her!

Now, Sheeya said.. before you confess anything, you should date her first! Take her somewhere nice to dine in.. and do dress nicely! And to make it all more special, get someone to play some song for the both of you!

Ana thinks that anyway anyhow.. you should get her to see the hints.. Make her see that you have some sort of feelings for her.. Y'know.. look at her and those stuff! Aaaannnddd... well, for Ana.. she'd really like it if the guy confesses under a tree.. (note: it's supposed to be romantic) And heyy! Just to make that hint obvious, the next time you have to do that public speaking.. talk about her!!

Honestly.. this is what they all said..! So if any of you guys like any of these gurls.. do take note! Wokehh!! Though.. I have to say.. this ways doesn't work for every girl, okie! Anyways... Part Two is from my point of view and my sister's and some experiences-lahh! So... probably it'll be up sometime tonight! Wokehh!! I need to get some shut eye now or I'll faint! Later~

Samui
Mak aihh sejuknyer!! My teeth is chattering!!
Dah berkurun tak mandi sepagi nihh!!
HUWAAA!! My chest hurts sebab jantung laju giler!!
Urghh..

Ayyayyayyayya!!
And now I'm glad I'm not sleeping when I really should..
'Coz now I get to listen to this one catchy song I first heard from Miss Teen.. Yeeheehee!!
Well.. I guess even with my eyes are puffy and my back aches like mad.. I'm still enjoying my time.. AHHAHHA!!
You don't really get to hear that everyday, do you? Hihhihi..
Anyways, this song.. it's a bubble pop - sorta though.. And the talking part is pretty stupid I have to say.. But heck! I think the song's pretty neat! Yeeheehee!
They're pretty cool in Miss Teen.. the boy I mean.. He's pretty good at making the moves 'manly'.. Nyehh nyehh! They were dancing to girls' moves but he somehow managed to make it guy-ish! AHHAHA!! I was pretty impressed, really... But sheesh! They're just kids...

Current song : I'm Gonna Make You Love Me by Play feat. Chris Trousdale
~ Yes I will.. yes I will.. ~
Yeeheehee!!

Sleep
What sleep??
I can't get any sleep!! URGHH!! It frustrates me!
It frustrates me that there's too much stuff in my head and it frustrates me that I just can't get my eyes shut!! Isyk!
Tak tido la gamaknye...

Current song : Hanging By A Moment by Lifehouse
~ I'm standing here until you make me move, I'm hanging by a moment here with you ~
Aaaahhh... Jason Wade!!!

Guess what, guess what??
I accidentally hit the bruise I got!! Gosh, it hurts!!!!!!!!!!!! HUWAAAAAAA!!
Can't my day go better.. not worse?! Sedeyynyerrrr...
Camner laa bole terpukul luka nihh..
Anyways, it's the bruise I got on Saturday... I posted something just some minutes after I got 'hit'. It's a stupid story really.. how I got the cut.. But anyways.. if you're curious where the bruise is.. it's actually on my forehead.. YEPP!! As if there's nowhere else to get a cut!!! Urggh!! Accident prone!
Did you know that through out the time I've been in MMU.. I've fell on ground level twice, fell at the stairs twice.. bumped my leg plenty of times, and bruised my forehead twice??! AHHAHHA!! Silly me.. the ground level ones are pretty funny, but the forehead ones are just too painful! Bluerrgh! Tolonglaa takde parut! Isyk!
Oh well.. gotta sleep! My eyes are getting puffy...

Sometimes I give myself the creeps..

Flop Poppy - Kau Dan Aku
Kau masih cantik seperti dulu
Saat pertamaku jumpa denganmu
Terasa inginku bersamamu
Tapi aku tidak seperti dulu

Kau senyum mesra
Mungkin entah mengapa
Tapi ku tak bisa
Pasti ada yang kan terluka

Jangan ditunggu
Pasti takkan berlaku
Walau ku cinta kamu
Biar disimpan adakan sempadan
Aku dan juga dirimu

Kini aku telah berdua
Masa depan yang tak kita duga
Ku tahu kau masih mengharap jua
Tapi ku tak bisa meninggalkannya

Kau senyum mesra
Mungkin entah mengapa
Tapi ku tak bisa
Pasti ada yang kan terluka

Jangan ditunggu
Pasti takkan berlaku
Walau ku cinta kamu
Biar disimpan adakan sempadan
Aku dan juga dirimu

Yeah.. somehow I like this song! Heeheee!! .. After all those hours, I finally managed to get it!! Yeah yeahhh! Hanging around with my dad through out the break.. dah disogokkan with Malay songs! Heehee!! Maybe in these few days I'll post the other two Malay songs I like.. hihhihik!

Stupid connection!
Gosh! Now I'm getting pissed again!
I've been trying to download this song and the connection is not helping... AT ALL!! Urrghh!!
Sheesh!! Good thing I need to get on with the study anyways!!
But.... urrghhhh!!!!!!!! I HATE THIS AGAIN!!

Current song : A Thousand Miles by Vanessa Carlton
~ It's always times like this when I think of you and I wonder if you ever think of me ~

Yeah yeahh!!
I am feeling amazingly quite happy right now! Coz finally.. I found the song I've been looking for agesssss!! Well, actually 'coz I just forgot to find it.. but anyways!! I GOT IT!! I swear I could start a jig right now..! Yeeheehee!!
Wokie... gotta STUDY!! Hyuckks!

Current song : Halfway Around The World by A*Teens
~ Halfway around the world, I'd still be feeling the way I do ~

This sux!!
Gosh!! I believe I can really kill something right this moment!! Everything's just.... felt wrong!! Urgghhhh!! I HATE THIS!!!
Anyways.. I'll be having my supplementary Maths test on this Wednesday.. So I'm wondering.. how about my Fundamental class? AIYYAAKKK!!
Stupid.. stupid.. stupid..!!! Now I have another extra entry for the things I regret! Stupid!!!!
Urgghhh!!

I just hate this feeling.......