i'd rather be talking to a tree log than sharing my real thoughts with you!

puh~leaaase.

i guess it's funny how easily people can fool you..
and how you can fool them back just as easy! :)
the beauty of relationships. wahhahahahahha!!

a bit psycho in this afternoon, but why should you care? :P

haven't finish studying my human factors but how can i be, when i've been distracted by small small things around here?? ekkekeke!!
tomorrow's going to be my last paper!! waaaaaaaaahhhhh!!!
i know that i haven't even go through today's paper.. but the thought of tomorrow.. is reaaaaaally sweet!! :))

holiday.. holiday.. holiday!
*jigs*

had funn!!

okie.
hijacked prisca's pc for this entry 'coz my pc is plain DUMB!
anyways..

thanks ablen, thanks dar, thanks rosie and thanks prisca for the night!
did you guys had fun? i did, anyways! :)

tapi sedikit sakit tangan.. cedera main fusball agaknye! ekekkeke!!
ohh ablen.. kamu mentor pool yang sungguh hebattt!!!! wahhahahah!! :))
best besttt!

okie.
better off to sleep.
haven't studied for later today's paper and i plan on waking up early to study.
gudnite world! :)

"the hottest love has the coldest end"

-Socrates

this must be... the most relaxing day i have ever had in months!
i mean.. of course i am "bothered" by the thoughts of my 2 exam papers on thursday and friday.
but it was just that. just that!

i love how this feels. :)
so soooo glad that this "everything" is over!!
woo~hoo!!

so i can really have a thoughtless holiday later!!

klakanyeee

head spinning.
ekkekeke! not because of anyone.. but to be truth.. a bit lahh.. yeahh!
overcome with massive emotions at the moment.

you write longer email lah! hebatt!! :P

we sagittarians are amazing, kan? ekkekeke!
we can handle the hard truth so much better than lies, don't you think? heehee.
haaaah~ i like being open like this.
i guess that's what i like most about "us". :P

thank you for being so cool! :)
kamu sungguh cooooool!!
and though i know you'll hate what i'm going to say next.. still i want to say it..
i still think that you're NICE!
wahhahahahhaha!! :P

and heyy.. nothing is better than to lose this friendship! tahuuuuu?!
so ask me out again, ask me out againnn!! ekkekekekeke!

*gedebikk sama waniee*

one tree hill one tree hill
hehhe! these are the main casts of one tree hill.
from left, that's chad michael murrays (lucas scott), sophia bush (brooke), hilary burton (peyton), bethany joy lenz (haley) and james lafferty (nathan scott).

terer seyy wanie ingat name diorang! ekkekeke!!
by the way.. i am bored. did you guess i was bored? *sigh*

excuse yourself.

i think i slept a lot last night! heehee
went into sleep quite early 'coz i can't stand the sleepiness and i woke up around 9! heehee.. and i didn't even notice the miscalls i had :P

anyways! i think i am liking ben jelen now!
his song come on was featured in both one tree hill and the oc. hehhe.
but all his songs are love songs that it gets a bit tiring as i was listening to all ben jelen i have. :-S it's like having someone yapping about the saaame thing 24/7! (eyh! that rings a bell! ekkekekeke!!)

okay.. cite ape laie? i have nothing much to say lahh this early of the day.

Give It All Away by Ben Jelen

Been swinging round in circles, looking for the way,
Fleeing from the time when she wanted me to stay
My world is swirling round, this time I know it well,
Our love is coming down again

Then I realize inside me, I’ve had myself all wrong,
This time I know for certain, I’ve never been that strong
The moment you remember, those times you stop to think,
Our love will come undone again

But with demons sitting at my side,
An angel’s come to ask me why
And slowly I give up inside to say
To feel alive, I’d give it all away

Destructive words to make it so,
But none of this is you you know

Another year, another week, another set of summer sheets
Another ‘we should hang out again soon’
Another drink, another kiss

And with demons sitting at my side,
Another angel asks me why
And it doesn’t take too much to say
To feel alive, I’d give it all away

Destructive words to make it so
But none of this is (I'd give it all away) you, you know

Again and again and again

Then she’s sitting at my side,
An angel’s come to ask me why
And it takes nothing to say
To feel alive, I’ll give it all away

I’ll give it all away
I’ll give it all away

eternal sunshine of the spotless mind

hope i get the title right.

that was a good movie.
though i hated jim carrey and don't really favor kate winslet, but the storyline was amazing i think! it was very.. different!
and i guess what touched me most 'coz the whole story was on memories, and i don't know.. it was touching!
(and it's probably an adaptation from a book of some other language 'coz the names are un-english-ly. huhuuu! what sort of word laa i am using!)

you know how i always wish that i can erase people out so i won't remember anything that relates to them, whether it be a happy thought or sad thoughts?
well.. i am having doubts now.. heehee!

just see the movie! it's good. :)

i've said what i needed to say..
and you don't have to say anything in return.
i am not asking you to.

dah demam?

i think i am coming with a fever.
*giggle giggle*
real fever.. getting a bit of chills and dizziness..
and i am missing zahid? wahhahahahhaha!! ya allah.. sudah sudah laa wanieee!!! (but i can't help it!!!) benci seihh AF dah abes! i want to see more of zahid!!! huwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!! :((

had internet application's paper this afternoon and i think i did.. well.. i don't know how i did but i get to answer most of them. entahlaa betul ke salah.. but there were things i get to bantai, at least! :))
funny.. i thought only geminis are gamblers! huhuu.
ohh.. i practically didn't read any of the notes, so if i get horrible grades - it explains!

okay.. that's all..!
don't feel like sharing anything else.
have a good week everyone!

"ingat misha omar, ingat zahid"

baiklah zahid..
tengah ingat la niee! :x

kinda like this song 'coz it's creepy. heehee!
cam.. sangat.. sedih? :D i just like sad songs, i don't know why..

Pulangkan by Misha Omar feat. Ezad

Seharum bunga yang menggoda
Sekadar dipandang usah dipuja
Kau pasti tak percaya
Kasih ku bukan,
Untuk mu, sayang

Tiada ku sangka kau sungguh kejam
Kau rampas segalanya yang kau dendam
Namun takkan bahgia kehidupan mu
Bila bunyi bersatu
Kau milik ku

Misha : Pulangkan cinta hati ku
Ezad : Oh hentikan lah menghantui ku
Misha : Pulangkan oh pulangkan lah pada ku
Ezad: Ku pulangkan kesan hidup mu
Misha: Yang dikau musnah tanpa relaku
Ezad : Bebaskanlah maafkan daku, oh kasih

Tiada kemaafan di sini
Kau ragut degupan hati ku ini
Akan ku jejakimu, kemana jua
Hingga akhir masa, sayang...

another zahid entry

did you know that he's a sagittarian?

wahhahahha!! sagittarian bestt!! i don't care! ekekkekeke!!
zahid was born on december 19th, 1980.
lives in.. keramat, kl if i'm not mistaken.
likes the color orange. (wahh, cam shahnon?? :P)
height: 177cm, and he's the only boy of 4 siblings. (that's what i read, anyways!)
and i just favor this quote from him while he was talking to aznil in imbasan just now,

"ikutkan nak salam semua, tapi tangan zahid ade dua aje. salam pakai kaki tak hormat pulak"

ekkekekeke!
adoiiiilah zahid. :x :x :x

pause!

heehee!
..and i was smiling as i was sleeping this morning. gilok!
sangat gilok!!

anyways.. i love this song.. and i love the 46th second of the video clip.. amy lee coming out from that seether guy's back.. cute! :D

Broken by Seether feat. Amy Lee

{Seether}
I wanted you to know
That I love the way you laugh
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away
I keep your photograph
And I know it serves me well
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

{Both}
Because I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away

{Seether}
You've gone away
You don't feel me here anymore

{Amy Lee}
The worst is over now
And we can breathe again
I wanna hold you high and steal my pain away
There's so much left to learn
And no one left to fight
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

{Both}
Cause I'm broken when I'm open
And I don't feel like I am strong enough
Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away

Cause Im broken when I'm open
And I don't feel like I am strong enough
Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away

Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone

{Seether}
You're gone away
You don't feel me here anymore

suka!!
suka macam macam!! sukaaaaaa!!

demam tak abes laie

ZAHID

yeahh.. awesome!! guy.. baju melayu.. zahid! what more can i ask?? :))butterflies in my stomach.
i know.. lame.
yes, lame..
but i like him so!!
probably i'll get over him by next week though.. weeheee~!!

zahiddddd!! gue suka bangat sama kamuuuu!!

Warna Kehidupan by Zahid
he sang this one in the 5th AF concert

Merah menyala oh jantungku berdegup pantas keranamu
Haru biru fikiranku bila kau pergi jauh
Kehadiranmu mewarna kehidupanku

Putih sucinya perasaan jiwa untuk dikongsikan
Sejingga api membara...sehangat itulah cinta
Kehadiranmu mewarna kehidupanku

Sesaat berjauhan rasa tidak keruan
Hilang arah gundah...tanpa khabar ku resah
Hitam gelita pandangan...rindu makin dirasakan
Hanya satu ku mahu
Berdamping denganmu disisi selalu

Secerah kilau kuning suria...sinar menyelinap kalbu
Sesegar hijau dedaun...senyummu menawar pilu
Kehadiranmu mewarna kehidupanku

Walau seikhlas lafazku kasih
Luahan hati masih tak setanding bahasa
Demi cinta pastiku sedaya mencurah yang termampu
Tahtamu mampan dijiwaku

Sesaat berjauhan rasa tidak keruan
Hilang arah ku gundah....tanpa khabar ku resah
Hitam gelita pandangan....rindu makin dirasakan
Hanya satu ku mahu
Berdamping denganmu disisi selalu

huwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhh!!!

huwahahhaha!!

wahhahahhahahahahahhahahahhaha!!!!

do you honestly think..???
silap.. you don't think! that's the problem.
you should try that once in a while..
i promise you, it'll do you good.
it also won't hurt..

okay? :)

trime kaseh pengafundi zahid

zahid wonn!! zahid won the second season of Akademi Fantasia!! this is awesome!!

though i don't agree the second and third placing..
farah and bob should be amongst the list. :)

i like laa that farah!! she's a great girl. ekkeke!! that time about johnny was funny and cute. she really is cute. heehee!
sukaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!

i like her just about as much as i like zahid.
but that's not true...
i like zahid more.. more.. sangat MORE!!!
gosh, nak zahid please!! after all, he's only 23! not that "old", huh?

nak naaaaaaaaaaaaakkkk!!
i want to chase hamsters with zahid at his house!! naaaaaaaaaaaaaaakkk!! :x :x

sleepy now. but i better be sleepless. hohohoho!

liar liar pants on fire. who are you trying to fool now? :)

black.

head spinning.

so i'm back in cyberia again. supposedly studying for monday's internet application paper.
i am kicking myself for something that shouldn't bother me. especially since i proclaimed that i don't care. but i guess i do. not much, but i do..

i guess i am just sorry that you were born with a small brain under that big head of yours. shouldn't blame you for that, kan? :P

okay. i should rest to be honest 'coz i haven't had the rest that i really need since the last.. 3 days, i think! but typically.. i can never get a rest here. and that's why i just can't wait for august 20th.. my last paper.. and then.. off to homeeee!!!!!

huwaaaaaaahhhh!! tak sabarnyeeeeee!!!
i guess that's the only thing that gets me driven over here. home
or i'd probably already join that group of poets and writers! :))
(am i proclaiming that i'm even near that group?? wahhahahahha!!! perasan.)

Moment In The Sun by Clem Snide

When it's my moment in the sun
Oh, how beautiful I'll be
But in a normal sort of way
Like I am you and you are me

'Cause I have a lot of things to say
And you'd be wise to listen good
I think that hunger, war, and death
are bringin' everybody down

When it's my moment in the sun
I'll share my problems with the world
and pschychosomatically I'll sing
to God and all his pretty girls

When it's my moment in the sun
I won’t forget that I am blessed
but every hero walks alone
thinking of more things to confess

o yahh.. tadi kat umah time tido kejap, i dreamt i was chasing cute, fat hamsters with zahid and his family at his house! wahhahhahaha! yeahh.. ZAHID! gilok!
gud luck, zahid for tonight! heehee!

what felt like a bad dream.

6:50 pm.
was sleeping when i received a call from dida. i think she's the new "bad news bearer".
what comes out from the other end of the line sounded unreal..
this must not be real..

so here i am.. waiting..
with my heart pounding fast, and a big headache coming.

and i found that reason why i'm not going to that bowling game.

nak dijadikan cerita...

kasihan laa kamu ni labu.
isyk isyk.
hope you're happy, yah? :)

so i'm back here in cyberia after being at home for a measly 15 hours!
crap.. totally crap it was! but it's better than nothing, yes! :)

submitted my portfolio. my heavy portfolio! it's amazing how it got my hand hurt just from carrying it around. heehee. ngade.
humm.. right now, i am suddenly not so sure that i'll be going for bowling tomorrow. not because that i hurt my handddd, tapi sebab entah. many reasons kot! o well, i don't know..

i honestly don't know about so many things and that is what so crappy about my life nowadays. i am simply uncommited to anything.. what so ever.. at all - and i think i know the reasons why.
*sigh*

gotta work things out someday someway.. :)

anyways! tengah takde mood.
sleepy, yet sleepless.
tired, but restless.
and i should study for next week's finals but the thought of it only makes me wanna puke! hahahahah!

awesome!

halfway home.

thanks lily!

thanks mama.
nothing beats the 'traditional' coffee and crackers, yah?
hehhe.

i wanna run far.

sedihnye.
i was messaging my sister when she told me something that just made my heart dropped.
*sigh*

you. me. talk. soon.

please..

i don't really know what i'm going to say,
but i know i need to say something out.

should've had one serious talk with you long ago.

probably it's my fault that it has come to this.
i have a knack of messing things up,
and i'm sorry that it had to be you.

sorry.
we need to talk.
but maybe it's just me who need this talk.

i can ignore everything else in this life..
but i refuse to ignore you.
you deserve better than that.