Wonderfalls!

Man, why the heck did the show had to be cancelled after one season. *sigh*
I'm so SO SOOO glad that Eric and Jaye end up together (sort of) in the end! It just gives off the impression that you really don't need to chase love; that if things are meant to be.. it will be!
heehee.

Goodnight world!

Definitely pooped!

I shall refrain myself from going any farther than ten feet from my house's door.. for at least this next two days!

Wasn't planning on going out today, but Mama bribed me by saying that she'll buy me something if I come along. So we all end up going out for a last minute shop before the Deevali/Eid Mubarak this coming Tuesday and Thursday.

We went to Midvalley and pretty much looked around for something nice to buy. Mama bought me a pinstriped pants (which I've always wanted!!) while she and Dida bought some Raya panties. ahahhahaha!! (Dida went hysterical that I'm posting this!)
We also went to check the Real Rewards store since Papa wants to see if there was anything worth to redeem with our fourteen thousand points but Dida reckoned that we should wait out and collect a lil' bit more points for the microwave. hehe!
(boring details, I know.)

We also checked out Kompleks PKNS and Plaza Shah Alam - which were horribly packed! A bit surprising, but of course I've never really shopped around Shah Alam in mid-festivities.

So! 6 hours spent outside has just left me feeling extremely tired!! I better get some lie down or I'd fall off this sofa.
Goodnight, pretty people!

Ohh right, by the end of the day Dida bought a new sofa for home - this sofa!

pa·thet·ic

adj.
1. Arousing or capable of arousing sympathetic sadness and compassion;
2. Arousing or capable of arousing scornful pity.

Exactly what I thought of Manchester United's goal keeper, Van der Sar. Really.
Currently watching the match between Man U and Middlesbrough - and hating it. I fear that I have lost any reason to watch them play ever again. I'm even caring more for Bolton Wanderers as Dida notices more of Wigan Athletic FC.

Oh great, Middlesbrough just scored another goal. What's happening here???

Man U is #5 in the current standing and Middlesbrough in number 12 for God's sake!! And Arsenal at #8 as Liverpool at thirteen? The only team maintaining their pride is Chelsea - which I think is just as pathetic.
(sorry, has never been a Chelsea fan!)

Bah! The English Premiere League has simply lost their excitement in my point of view. I believe it all started when David Beckham went to Real Madrid. I'm not exactly a fan of his, but I just loved the way he clicked with his team mates. Ooh~ and last week I just found out that Steven Gerrard has a fiancee and a baby. bluerghh.
There goes another person that I would-have talked about on the blog! haha!

Don't get me wrong, I'm NOT like one of those girls who watched football because they liked fit European men running around in shorts. I love watching football for the sake of loving the game itself - or I couldn't possibly went to the stadium and watch Selangor play!
But of course.. when it comes to EPL, watching fit European men running around is an added bonus!

I think it's just sad that even despite the pathetic-ness of Manchester United, I am still sitting here in front of this laptop, in front of the telly - rooting and hoping that somehow my team would catch up and win this match - possibly by miracle, of course! heh!

It's almost poetic, my loyalty.

But now, I find that it'd be impossible for Man U to catch up to three goals!
- put Selangor in their place, they'd surely be able to catch up! ahahhahahhahahahaha!!

Behold!!

Finally got the refill for my pen.
You may cheer now coz I should stop yapping as much as I've been the past 6 days. hehe.

Btw Shahnon, ape pasal miskol at 2:54 am? Mau cari gado ka?
ekkekekeke!

Have a good day, people!
--original post at 1:03 PM--

I on the other hand just spent the whole day watching movies. Yesterday I finally saw The Longest Yard, and today I watched The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants and The Skeleton Key.

I like the Sisterhood best. Currently loving this song, from the soundtrack of the movie.
Black Roses Red by Alana Grace

Can I ask you a question please
Promise you won't laugh at me
Honestly I'm standing here
Afraid I'll be betrayed.
As twisted as it seems,
I only fear love when it's in my dreams
So let in the morning light and let the darkness fade away

Can you turn my black roses red?
Can you turn my black roses red?

Drowning in my loneliness
How long must I hold my breath
So much emptiness inside,
I could fill the deepest sea.
I reach to the sky as the moon looks on
One last year has come and gone
It's time to let your love rain down on me

Can you turn my black roses red?
Can you turn my black roses red?
Can you turn my black roses red?
Cuz I'm feelin like I'll blame it on love
I'm feelin like I'll blame it on love

pro·cras·ti·nate

v. pro·cras·ti·nat·ed, pro·cras·ti·nat·ing, pro·cras·ti·nates

v. intr.
To put off doing something, especially out of habitual carelessness or laziness.
v. tr.
To postpone or delay needlessly

To procrastinate, I must stop.
I really don't know what I'm doing these days. I think I'm sort of waiting.. for what, I haven't decided yet.
For sure, I fear that people around me are going to ask what I am up to, because honestly, I have no answer to that, and to conjure a lie is out of the question as I'm a pathetic liar.

Anyways! Added a new link over there! If anyone's curious, Aisyah; an Aries, was my school mate in SAAS and right now studying in the UK. Wasn't really close in-touch in these past years (you know me) but I have to give her credit for introducing me to the odd world of HTML. hehe! Miss Aisyah, thank you!! She practically did my first ever website for me - it was probably when we're in Form 2? Form 3?? She was FAB!!
And there's another thing I remember about her. It was.. most probably her first day at school (she had just moved into town) and the entire class had to pair up for this one English exercise. We got each other and received the only perfect score for the exercise! We were FAB!! ekkeke!

See, I don't get why American teenagers are so upset with their high school experience. I adore my time in high school!!

Believe it or not, I'm actually trying not to update this blog until I have something really smart and witty to say, but as usual - I fail miserably.
I ought to get a kick in the arse and quit procrastinating from buying my freakin' Pilot G-1 0.5 ink sticks!

I'm not in love.

Next month's Astro Guide came around yesterday, and I'm just so excited that there'll be new episodes of Girls In Love on Nickelodeon! woohoo! Just wish they have new ones of Danny Phantom as well. I don't mind reruns, but watching them over four times is just too much.

I'm still not over Sky High. Today I found out that there might be a sequel or even a TV series on Disney Channel! weehee! Sounds great!! Already looking forward to this.
I'm mostly looking forward to upcoming books and movies lately!
There's going to be Just My Luck, Da Vinci Code and X-Men 3 in 2006!! And Cecelia Ahern and Dan Brown has a new book coming out! Especially looking forward to Mr. Brown's The Solomon Key - yet another Robert Langdon's adventure! *shrieking* Can't WAIT, CAN'T WAIITT!!!! Angels and Demons and The Da Vinci Code must be the most intriguing books I've ever read. It's fantastic!! I hope Tom Hanks will do justice to his character in the movie cause Robert Langdon.. is AWESOME!
I had only wanted to go to the Louvre because of him.**

**Robert Langdon is in fact, a fictional character, a Professor of Religious Symbology at Harvard University. Very intellectual and dashing. Unmarried for some unknown reason.
I think Dan Brown created a really amazing character in Robert Langdon.

Humm.. I keep wishing to have an intellectually challenging topic to type about, but obviously it's not being granted. I really ought to stop talking about measly things, eh? But then again, this is my blog.

Ohh, I received a Raya card yesterday. Unsurprisingly it was from my... well, not exactly a "friend", is he? He's like a.. a loyal.. a really loyal, and consistent, and most probably persistent acquaintance I've ever met in my entire life.
I just find it sad that as much as "persistence" should be admired, I find myself obligated to challenge it and.. pretty much pulverize it. Isn't it odd? Maybe I'm a modern day of the devil.

Or there is that slight possibility, that I only make myself available to the unattainable men - like Danny!
AHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA!!
Or I'm just addicted to a tragic love story, cause I'm loving the whole idea of Buffy and Spike. (okay, lame example, but I love Spike anyways!) Actually I can't decide which I love more; Buffy with Spike or Buffy with Angel. I used to love the idea of Buffy and Angel, but now when there's Spike.. he's like.. so.. endearing. And... old.
Oh no!! I think I AM attracted to people who are way too young or way too old than me!!

I'm rambling.
Shutting up now.

Heigh-ho

'Egocentric', 'ENFP', 'SCUEI'.
Yeah, saying it that way doesn't make any sense but if you bother enough to look it up, you'll find that it practically makes up my entire personality trait. Mostly sounds pretty bad, but I happen to like myself just fine so it'll be hard to find those bad ones changing anytime soon. heh.

I'm starting to think that I'm actually full of myself.

I was looking through the blogs I have in my Favourites, and find that they don't seem to update their blogs as much I do. So why is that?
I'd like to think that I have more thoughts than they do, but we all know how that would be a complete lie. I have a really really average brainpower, and wisdom is something I haven't yet acquire. So, why?

By the way, this song actually sounds better than what we hear from Tru Calling. At least that's what I thought! The song actually sounds very much alike Evanescence, and me like - lots! Though, the lyrics pretty much looks like Bring Me To Life, yeah?

Somebody Help Me by Full Blown Rose

I'm being haunted by a whisper
A chill comes over me
I've been trapped inside this moment
I'm not a victim, I'm not a freak

Free me
before I slip away
Heal me
wake me from this day
Can somebody help me?

I've seen the face of my affliction
of my reality
I'm being tortured by the future
of things that are yet to be
I'm being haunted by a vision
it's like the morning never comes
I feel the burden of confusion
always searching... on the run

Free me
before I slip away
Heal me
wake me from this day
Can somebody help me?
Somebody help me

Now, I'm not a hero... no
but the weight of the world's on my soul
these imagines burn my eyes
they're burning me up inside

Free me
before I slip away
Heal me
wake me from this day
Can somebody help me?

Pardon the idiotic entry. I've been horribly uninspired these last few months.

Azraai, you're so HOT!!

ahhahahahahahahahha!!!
A real update coming later.. when I've calmed myself. Seeing a picture like this, it'd be hard.. but eventually I'll calm myself. ekekkeke!!
Sorry Azraai, I promised but it's too tempting!!

"Throw away your books,"

"-you've got nothing to lose but your grades!"

Don't think I'll ever get tired of watching Tuesdays With Morrie. It's odd that I love the story so much, and yet I haven't bought a copy of the book. Maybe soon. Hopefully soon.

Having a rough night. Some.. health problems are seemingly to creep up on me.
Hate it when this happens!

Putting that one aside, feels like I'm actually having too much thoughts again but as I try to type it out they don't seem to form in words. Annoying, this is.
I may need to force myself to go out tomorrow to get the refill for my pen. Getting 5 refills at one go might not be a bad idea. I think I used up two of those Pilot pen sticks in one month and a half; and I don't think I put them to good use.

All I have is a voice
To undo the unfolded lie,
The romantic lie in the brain
Of the sensual man-in-the-street
And the lie of Authority
Whose buildings grope the sky :
There is no such thing as the State
And no one exists alone ;
Hunger allows no choice
To the citizen or the police ;
We must love one another or die.
- September 1, 1939; WH Auden

ENFP "Journalist". Uncanny sense of the motivations of others. Life is an exciting drama. 8.1% of total population.

Take Free Jung Personality Test
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My new favourite song!

Please, Please, Please Let Me Get Want by The Smiths

Good times for a change
See, the luck I’ve had
Can make a good man
Turn bad

So please please please
Let me, let me, let me
Let me get what I want
This time

Haven’t had a dream in a long time
See, the life I’ve had
Can make a good man bad

So for once in my life
Let me get what I want
Lord knows, it would be the first time
Lord knows, it would be the first time

Gotta love this simplistic, beautiful song. *sigh* And even play-able on the guitar! (of course, I usually suck - but at least I recognise most of the chords in this song!) First heard this on Sky High (mind,) and I just fell in love with it.
Suppose I can say that I mostly love listening to British-written songs.

Humm.. Kinda settles my theory that British men and women are better writers! (eg: JRR Tolkien, Joanne Rowling, Alexander Pope, Shakespear) - or is it just my personal preference, that I just happen to read mostly British written works?

Crap! Looked through Wikipedia (my favourite site currently - such a geek, I am) and found people my age who has accomplished so much more than I have. This sucks.
Well.. I suck!

Depressed...

I ran out of ink and now I've forgotten if I had any extra refills left around somewhere or I've actually used those.
*sigh*

Ohh, the neat line Warren had said; "To let true love remain unspoken is the quickest route to a heavy heart" - "And your lucky numbers are 4, 16, 5, and 49."
And now Muz is falling in love with him. Haha!

I suppose now it's time for me to shower.

Finally...

Went break-fast with Muz.
Met up with her in Mid Valley and couldn't decide what we wanted to eat, so instead we went to get a couple of movie tickets!

I suppose it was a bit of a guilty pleasure that we both share; seeing a silly kiddish movie like Sky High. hihi! But we enjoyed it a lot!! Me and Muz were trying hard to quote this line Warren said to Layla in the chinese restaurant, but we can never seem to. grr. Gotta find that line!
I think the movie would keep me smiling for this next couple of days. hehe! Me like, lots!

Other than that, I have nothing much to say.
Ohh! I did talked to Nina earlier. Surprisingly, the thing she had to say to me was not really upsetting as I had expected.
Ooh~ and I told Muz about the thing that had upset me two nights ago, and she didn't think it was too silly of me for being upset! yeay~! Well, not exactly something to cheer about, but it felt great to be told that it's okay to be upset about.. it.

Okie! That's about it!
Have to get back to replying an email from Hanis!
Good night, world!

Wish I wasn't insomniac.

As always, I am left alone in a darkened home where everyone's sound asleep.
Maybe I should get something that can help me sleep - but NO pills. I don't trust myself with pills, or sharp things, or anything big and heavy.

So bored right now, so I'm looking around a dream interpretation site to make a little sense of the dream I had last week.
The dream was scary and silly at the same time. Maybe I shouldn't say anything about it, but I'm going to because maybe talking about it may lessen the scariness of it all.
The dream: I was in a beautiful, huge castle, and I went up the stairs and came to a weird sort of room 'coz everyone there was in their beds and looked sick. To make things short, those people then floated above their beds and the wind was blowing hard and I jogged up on someone by saying; "eh, Mr Satan, does that mean I can leave?"
*sigh* Who am I kidding. The dream is still scary to think about! Even the site I'm in isn't saying anything about satan or devils. bluerrghh. I shall not reveal the ending to that dream, it's even scarier.

See! I ought to be sleeping rather than scaring myself this way!!!

Peachy.

No longer hysterical, no.
There's a lot more people in the world who has real things to be upset about, and I shouldn't be allowed to fuss.

Been a while since I last post a depressed entry, yeah?

I came up with a question for the world while I was eating junk food today.
I had to wonder if everyone has had that one day when all things came so clear to them. As if for one day, everything seems to be telling you something. Your destiny, if you'd like to call it that. (But I think destiny is so much of a mumbo jumbo to believe in.)

I might be delirious from too much sugar, but for what ever reason, I feel it in my gut that I should be someplace else.
And I'm not saying that I don't belong here, 'coz I belong just fine, but there's definitely another place I have to be..

I missed my old life today, but it didn't cross my mind that I'd be better off by still living in that life. It feels like I'm on the other side of a window display, on the outside looking in.
Except that it was a display of iguanas on sale, and I have no intention to buy them, let alone keep.

I'm rambling.
Shutting up now.
Selamat berbuka puase!

..and al-Fatihah to the Prime Minister's wife.

Talk about a downer..

Must be losing half my mind. I'm fussing over something that's happened two months ago, halfway across the world.
Man, I hate it when this happens - stupid little things that upsets me so much. *arrghhh!!* Stupid hag!

breathe in - breathe out

Got bored again, did this thing about my relationship *potential* and how I am with other people. Should be amusing if I hadn't read it after I found out about that thing I'm fussing over.

-----
Your emotional needs were not met when you were growing up and there was nothing you could do about it. Even today, you tend not to express anger or pain or resentment except when you are in an infrequent rage. This is a problem in close relationships.
(I think everything was fine while I was growing up! Don't know what it's playing at.)

You are assertive without being overly aggressive and usually go after what you want with confidence and enthusiasm. Your partners tend to be dynamic, successful people. Your natural energy and moxie is usually sexually interesting to others.
(Moxie:
1. The ability to face difficulty with spirit and courage.
2. Aggressive energy; initiative.
3. Skill; know-how.
Right.. whatever.)

While you may not be emotionally demonstrative or sentimental, you love deeply, lastingly and loyally. You may be strongly drawn to people either much older or much younger than you are. Love, for you, has always entailed an enormous amount of responsibility.
(Is there really anything to say about this other than just laugh out loud??)

Your sense of humor is one of your outstanding qualities. It usually manifests as a rather wry wit. Anyone you're close to must share this sense of irony. You probably have a special talent or an absorbing interest. Your closest ties are likewise involved.
(funny word to use.. "absorb" - and a couple of days ago I got Rogue. *sigh*)
-----

Hummph.
Maybe I am supposed to stop wanting anything too much, gets me so tired out. She Falls Asleep sounds pretty perfect right now.

I'm losing my heart.

kawaii desu.

Brightly Wound by Eisley

It's happening all the time
When I open my eyes
I'm still taken by surprise
I hold sunlight and swallow fireflies
And it makes me want to cry
I love you...

I shall never grow up
Make believe is much too fun
Can we go far away to the humming meadow?

[I am just wishing you were here]
We were walking there
And I had tangles in my hair
[So we could walk down to the stream]
But you make me feel so pretty
[And we would throw all our leaves in]
You have shining eyes just like the forest lights
[Seeing our dragons when we look up]
And it makes me want to cry
I love you...

I shall never grow up
Make believe is much too fun
Can we go far away to the humming meadow?

This place is so lovely
The kind that makes me very happy
Let's go far away to the humming meadow..

Cute song!

Anyways, for many weeks I've been without, today I picked up again my guitar and try playing some new songs and man, how lousy was I! My fingers were sloppy around the string and now they're sore. (REMINDER TO SELF: never ever put away the guitar too long!)

ooh~ and I found Peyton's site with all her artworks! Well, Dida found it then she told me about it!

ohh! And I managed to download McFly's version of The Killers' original, Mr Brightside, and I have to beg you NOT to listen to it!! ahhahaha!
How I hated it. Well, of course I still listen to it, but I prefer the original. Don't know what the boys were thinking. *sigh*

Streamyx!!

That's right, party people! (hah!)
I am now with Streamyx!!

So the first thing I did - watch some stream video of McFLY, of course!! ahhahaha!!
Well, I wish I could download them, but my Ares doesn't seem to be working somehow. Gotta wait when Dida gets her laptop back from Jimmy. (her collegue who had to borrow her laptop for some work.)
Surprisingly though, my computer didn't get too troublesome to turn on as it usually does. *sigh* It's times like this when I just had to love it's existence.

Nina left me a new testimonial on my Friendster today and I can't help feeling a bit sad over it. I know the message didn't imply in any way to make me feel the way that I feel, but I just feel this way.
And she said she have some psychological findings that she wants to share with me. yikes! The last time that happened...
Well, the last time that happened, had made me so upset that now I rather not listen to her thoughts. *sigh*
Mostly I'm scared that what she has to say is going to be something that I can't deny.

Anyways! Currently listening to Eisley (thanks Shahnon!) and they kinda remind me of Sixpence. Me like! Just that I'm still crazy over McFLY to be enjoying their music as much as I could. hehe!

Okay, now listening to McFLY's Too Close For Comfort, which must be my favourite track in the album, so I shall repeat this song until I'm so sick of it that I'll come near to barfing - which I usually does with practically everything in my life; music, food, people, etc.
(By the way, that's a Megaupload link I have there, if you'd like to listen to the song yourself.)

Humm.. only 2.84 gigs left of my space.
Good God, I need to re-format my computer!

Supposedly sleeping.

Not exactly.
Supposedly be having my sahur but this song sounds so cute and I just had to tell about it first.

The Ballad Of Paul K by McFLY

He´s drinking cold Corona
Feels like he's getting older
Now and noticing how he's finding
Grey hairs left in the shower
Tattoos fade by the hour
And he can't understand these feelings
Why life is getting him down
He used to smile now he frowns
And cries inside
It's been this way for a while
And he can't seem to put things right

When life has been unkind
And you're losing your mind
Look in the mirror afraid of what you'll find
It feels like time's not on your side

He doesn't like to mention
Applying for his pension
So his children don't know he's heading
Into a mid-life crisis
He can't afford the prices for
The new kitchen floor he's buying
He's been a drunk of his life
Two kids, a dog and a wife
He doesn´t know
And in the daytime he just sits and watches television shows

When life has been unkind
And you're losing your mind
Look in the mirror afraid of what you'll find
It feels like time's not on your side

Don't know why but somehow
The ones you love you hate now,
you feel down and blue
Look at what you've thrown away
They stood beside you all the way
Now it's too late, it's too late for you

When life has been unkind
And you're losing your mind
Look in the mirror afraid of what you'll find
It feels like time's not on your side

And here's what the boys had to say about the song;
Tom: This song’s inspired, musically, by Supertramp’s ‘Give A Little Bit’, and it’s about our dads. Dads in general, really – but that specific point in their life when they go through a mid-life crisis, with his life falling down and he doesn’t have a clue what to do with himself. I’m not really looking forward to getting properly old.
Danny: From my point of view it’s a song about realising exactly how much your parents keep from you when things are tough, and when they’ve run out of money. There’s a line about struggling to pay for a new kitchen floor – which I can directly relate to. Obviously Harry’s family could afford as many kitchen floors as they wanted.
Harry: And they were heated.
Dougie: Paul K is a weirdo who went to my school – this Greek guy who never spoke and thought he was a dinosaur. Just one of those really, really weird guys. Of course the weirdest thing is that this song isn’t even about him..

Another song I did't fail to love.

Today, I'm a happy girl.

1. I'll Be OK
2. I've Got You
3. Ultraviolet
4. Ballad Of Paul K
5. I Wanna Hold You
6. Too Close For Comfort
7. All About You
8. She Falls Asleep (part 1)
9. She Falls Asleep (part 2)
10. Don't Know Why
11. Nothing
12. Memory Lane


Downloaded their full album!!
All thanks to Dida and her talent in the right Google-ing method and patience. She had really mastered the art of patience.
Yeayyy!! So SOO happy!! I no longer feel guilty for being a crappy fan. hihi.

I'm loving She Falls Asleep; Tom is such a good writer!
And they've revised Memory Lane! ooh~ I love this boys!
Okay, I shall go to sleep feeling all pleased now.
Goodnight world!!

Loving this:

I Wanna Hold You by McFLY

Tell me that you want me baby,
Tell me that its true,
Say the magic words and I'd destroy the world for you.

An army for the broken hearted,
Marching through the streets,
And every city's burning to the ground under your feet.

I wanna hold you,
My skies are turning black,
[Feels like a heart attack]
And I'd do anything you ask,
I wanna hold you bad.

I'd melt the polar icecaps baby,
Watch them flood the earth,
And I'd do anything to show you what your love is worth.

So won't you show me your devotion,
Heal my aching heart,
It's like a neutron bomb explosion,
Tearing me apart!

I wanna hold you,
My skies are turning black,
[Feels like a heart attack]
And I'd do anything you ask,
I wanna hold you bad.

Attention please
We interrupt this program
With some disturbing news
Worldwide evacuation
We're going to lose
They've pulverised the nation
I guess it shows us just what love can do

I wanna hold you,
My skies are turning black,
[Feels like a heart attack]
And I'd do anything you ask,
I wanna hold you bad.
Bad Bad
I'd do anything you ask
I wanna hold you bad

Odd that they have two version of this song.
I like both, anyways.

So I've been spending the night doing several silly quizzes on X-Men and I got various characters from Sabretooth to Wolverine and Rogue - obviously I have some temper issues. *sigh*

You scored as Rogue. Rogue is a strong but tragic personality. She loves Gambit. Because of her mutant powers, she cannot touch anyone without hurting them. Therefore, she longs for human contact. However, this southern gal's strong personality has allowed her to deal with this. Powers: Absorbs lifeforce and powers by touch, Super strength, and flight Rogue 80% Jean Grey 75% Iceman 60% Cyclops 60% Gambit 60% Emma Frost 55% Wolverine 55% Nightcrawler 50% Storm 50% Beast 45% Colossus 40% Most Comprehensive X-Men Personality Quiz 2.0 created with QuizFarm.com