Sunday, May 27, 2012
A quick one.
Friday, May 25, 2012
Kisah 43 Ringgit.
Aku yang gatal ni haritu pegi keluarkan duit dari dalam bank, so dalam akaun ada 42 Ringgit camtu. Dalam purse ada 43 Ringgit, duit selebihnya ada dalam Moleskine. (Aku suka selit duit dalam buku, please jangan rompak!)
Al-kisah, pagi tadi dalam penuh kegeraman aku pegi airport untuk collect airport pass.. Sepatutnya pegi ngan Encem tapi dia takmo bangun dari tido. pffft!
So, teksi; RM8, ERL; RM15, airport pass; RM17.
Dengan tinggal RM3 dalam purse, aku doa doa ada lah RM10 notes kat ATM sambil menyumpah diri sendiri sebab keluar rumah tak bawak duit selit selit tu.. (Gaji kat Maybank dah masuk dah tengahari tadi, tapi aku CIMB so kebiasaannye petanglah baru masuk.)
Naseb baik ada, aku withdraw RM30.. lepas lah untuk naik ERL balek. And naseb baik jugak Bestie baik hati datang pikap dari Bandar Tasik Selatan.. heehee!
Alhamdulillah jugak semua urusan yang aku nak buat since awal bulan dah selesai;
1. collect airport pass,
2. update buku ASNB -- which is actually "Akaun Remaja TING".. hahahha! Ada since lepas Darjah 6, tapi langsung tak penah masuk duit, rekod pun masih ikut nombor surat beranak! hahahahha! (Surprisingly aku maseh ingat nombor surat beranak walaupun sebenarnya aku skarang banyak lupa benda),
3. report pasal kad Touch n Go aku yang di top up, tapi tak masuk walaupun dah kene deduct from akaun,
4. blablablaa.. cerita pasal kat bank lagi..
5. manicure-pedicure!! muahahahahha
So yeah, dari lima benda, cuma satu je yang tak official!
Rasa macam adult sangat harini.. Highlight of the day, dua strangers yang interact dengan aku arini teka tepat profession aku. Sorang mamat booth Digi tengah nak promote latest package kat area nak amek aiport pass, so takdelaa hebat sangat kan dia teka.
Sorang lagi pakcik customer service kat CIMB. Soalan dia simple je;
"Harini tak keje ke?"
W: tak, off day..
"Keje flight stewardess ke?"
W: ...ha ahh
"Nampak, dah tau.."
Hmmmmmm.. aku pun tatau la apa yang dia nampak. Aku pakai oversized tee, jeans ngan sandal. Mekap pun eyeliner bodo je, rambut aku semak ikat simpul tak bergetah. Kuku okaylaa, berwarna since memang baru je lepas buat. Tang apa yang dia nampak? Aku nak jugak tau, tapi tak pulak aku tanya..
Lately aku asyik terfikirkan leading yang buat aku gelak kuat aritu. Rasanya bukan sebab aku minat dia.. tak kot? hahahahha! Entahlah. Mostly aku just hoping dapat fly ngan dia lagi so aku rasa seronok bekerja. Or mungkin juga sebab aku janji nak kasi dia something. hahahahha
Haritu tiga hari trip, aku sorang pompuan.. sorang steward senior, sorang batchboy Cik Amyan, sorang lagi baru fly sebulan..
Kesian si senior kene banyak bersabar since the first two days tu aku maintain depan. Lepas dia komplen komplen baru lah last day aku keje belakang.
One thing aku notice pasal bebudak baru ni.. diorang ni extra extra EXTRA berani.. not in a good way. Aku tak nafikan, memang aku budak skema, take off ngan landing; silent review since day one sampai sekarang. Tapi yang sorang ni, first day dah tuding kat salah satu equipment dalam aircraft and tanya aku apa tu. Ayoooooooooooo!
Aku rasa out of place bila kat smoking room, aku dikelilingi crew senior while diorang tengah komplen pasal crew baru dalam set diorang. Aku rasa tak layak nak mendengar lagikan menokok tambah..
Tapi sekali terdengar nama budak yang aku penah fly sekali and proven to be bermasalah, aku tak dapat nak berdiam diri. HAHAHAHAHHAHAHHA!! Yes yes, aku pun ikut mengumpat. Ntahpape ntah!
Baguslah bulan puasa takleh merokok. Kurang jugaklah aku mengumpat nanti. heehee.
Actually bila banyak crew baru buat hal, aku jadi risau.. Leading skarang banyak yang best, sempoi.. Aku risau ada nanti yang kene pijak and diorang jadi lain.
Dah tiga tahun dengan company, maseh banyak lagi Leading yang aku tak penah nampak pun sebenarnye.. So yeah, risau..
Anyway, birthday Encem bulan depan.. aku maseh tatau nak kasi dia apa. Well, actually haritu dah decided, tapi sebab dia buat aku menyampah siang tadi, terus aku tatau patut ke aku kasi apa yang aku plan nak kasi tu. hahahahha!
Ah, it's so apparent that I am ruled by my emotions.
Oh! Haritu masa aku kat Shah Alam, keluar ngan Dida gi karaoke sampai LIMA JAM!! wahahahahhaha!! Yes yes, kami memang melampau. Tapi sangat puas hati ye. Karaoke dua orang, sampai lagu yang tak penah nyanyi pun tetiba nyanyi..
Dua hari lepas aku tengah berjalan ke arah bay dalam terminal, tersempak ngan muka familiar.. Dia pun recognize aku, lambai dengan penuh mesra. Aku tanya dia nak kemana, dia reply;
"Bangalore lah, mana lagi?"
hahahahahhahaha!! Aku pun tatau la apa aku buat sampai passenger dari flight entah bila ntah boleh ingat aku. Selalu sangat ke aku buat flight Bangalore? hahahahha! Kalau next time dia ada dalam flight aku, I better remember his name. Tak aci lah aku just ingat nama mat saleh haritu je.
Oh ohh!! And for the first time dalam flight aku ada ex-schoolmate from sekolah menengah!! Siapakah?
IMRAN!!!!!!!!
Haaahahahahahhahahahahha!!
Aku dah ternampak dia dalam line nak masuk kapal. Aku perati betul betul gak, takut tersilap orang. Skali bila dia dah kat depan, dia yang cakap, "dah lain eh skarang.."
Aku tatau la apa respon sebaiknya untuk komen camtu, aku just cakap, "kaannn.." hahahha! Tak reti aku nak ala ala mesra sedangkan time skolah pun barely bercakap.
Sungguh aku kadang kadang masih pelik cemana aku boleh jadi cabin crew..
Sunday, May 20, 2012
Once Upon A Time..
As most tv shows have ran through their season, I am now in need of a new show to watch as I wait for the renewal of the shows that I currently follow. That's how I started with How I Met Your Mother, actually. Encem and I went through seasons one to six while the seventh was just starting..
And now the two of us and Bestie can't go through a day without at least one HIMYM reference. Gila!
It hasn't been very exciting, this past few days.
Got myself waxed, went to see the new shopping mall in Setia Alam.. went karaoke with Dida from 11pm 'til 4am last night! Then I got up at 4pm today!!
That was new.
I'd never slept that long. Dida reckons that it might be Monavie's doing. She's been telling me to try it out, and I guess that's what happens when I do.
Encem's birthday is next month.
I can't say that I'm not looking forward to see next month's roster. Mostly just to see where we'll be on that day. I'd spent the last two birthdays flying.. I can't remember how he'd spent his last birthday though. Perhaps next time I should blog about it.. after all it's the only way I am able to remember anything these days.
Oh well.. sorry for the boring entry.
I had something to write about yesterday but I was at my parent's place, so naturally now I'd totally forgotten what it was all about.
Friday, May 18, 2012
You make me smile.
I even skipped a full day on twitter two days ago! ..which never happened before. I always had something to quip in a day but on the 16th.. I was absolutely quiet, I surprised myself.
Anyway, I'm sort of getting the wish I made a few blog posts ago..
My roster is really loose this month; two days of work, two days off, three days work, two days off.. Basically that's how my roster looks. And right now I am on my first day of three days off.
Super awesome.
Although I haven't gotten the chance to actually miss work.
And I know that I am not going to love the allowance I'll be getting, but I am not at all complaining.
Nothing much to update about, honestly.
I suppose I've been relatively happy. I usually write when I'm bothered anyway; when there are too many thoughts in my mind that I can't chase off with sleep.
Encem did try to convince me why I shouldn't be so sceptic of marriages yesterday. I thought that was amusing. He seemed to have this notion that it is more romantic to be married than not.
That he sees the good in me when I can't. (Reminded me of Fruits Basket somehow.. with Tohru and うめぼし)
Which is just great.. I suppose I could write down blind alongside crazy on the list of his "cons". (Which is also his "pros" list. hehe)
Sometimes I swear he sees me way too differently than what I see in the mirror everyday. Or maybe he hit his head hard that he'd forgotten all the bad things I'd done.
But I can't seem to forget. I know.. God knows all my sins.
I am thankful anyway.. I thank God everyday that I have Encem around to make me feel like I am wanted and worthy of love.
I am also thankful for you readers that made me feel like I mattered. That my life did not go unnoticed. Thank you!
Last but not least, I am thankful for creative song writers such as Justin Furstenfeld who writes melodies konon ganas tapi hati halus lyrically. hahahahha!
And could you be the one that's not afraid to look me in the eye
I swear I would collapse
if I would tell how I think you fell from the sky
My words, they pour like children to the playground
Children to the playground
-- Blue October
Alhamdulillah..
Sunday, May 06, 2012
Of weddings..
Thursday, May 03, 2012
Peeta.
Tuesday, April 24, 2012
A jumble of nothings.
The book started off with questions of love.. but by the end of it it's just something.. else. I think.
Perhaps I shouldn't have put it down so much. It was the book that I'd been carrying around during nightstops, but I didn't actually spend any time picking it up. ughhh.
Anyway, it was a good read; as all Coelho's works are..
..love is always new. Regardless of whether we love once, twice, or a dozen times in our life, we always face a brand-new situation. Love can consign us to hell or to paradise, but it always takes us somewhere. We simply have to accept it, because it is what nourishes our existence.
During the weekend I went to see two movies with Dida.
Wrath Of The Titans was alright. Although I must confess that I wasn't really into it as I usually would. Mostly because I was too confused with all the Greek-Gods movies that I've seen! Sure, this one is a sequel to Clash Of The Titans. But somehow I got myself confused with Prince Of Persia because Gemma Arterton was in both of the movies. Then there were Immortals which was also about a mortal.. fighting for the Gods!!
ughh.. So yeah.. I find it hard to simply focus on the movie and enjoy myself. hahaha!
Then there was Hunger Games.
Let's just say that I am SO getting the books the next time I'm at the bookstore! hahahahahha!
Sure, it's pretty much Hollywood's version of Battle Royale, but I liked it's play on emotions.. So yeah, I am getting the book!
Oh, I almost forgot to write about the potluck my friends and I had on the 19th!!
It was neat, we all rendezvoused at Mami's place and the dining table was glorious! Mami prepared the drinks, rice and vegetable soup, Mumu brought her blackpepper chicken and stir-fried veg, Encem brought his mutton curry, I came with my beef lasagne and Bestie brought a huge slab of brownies!
I tell you, we dined like the kings and queens that day!
We dubbed Bestie's brownies as "Brownies Jahat", because it was incredibly sinful, paired with the chocolate sauce that Bestie had also prepared from scratch and also vanilla ice-cream!
I'm so lucky to be surrounded by incredible beings..
Anyway, three more days to another rendezvous with friends! This time we're catching The Avengers at Pavillion!! (Yaaayy, excited for Pavillion because I can't remember when was the last time I went there. haha!)
Oh, I'm looking forward for Encem and Bestie to come back from their trips so we could play that computer game we played last night. hahahahha! They shall be sorry for introducing it to me..
And that is all from me for the time being..
Take good care of yourselves, my dear readers.
Friday, April 13, 2012
The third year..
Today marks the third year that I've been with the company.
Funny to think back how scruffy I was that first day. With the trainer looking directly at me and said how she believed that I must've put a lot more make up during the interviews, the bitch. (Yeah, up until today I hated the idea of seeing that lady. Mostly because of her naggy voice though. haha!)
Of course, comparing myself to Mami, she was like the rainbow. Yellow and green eyeshadow with pink lipstick. Perempuan gila. But she was pretty much one of the first friend I made. You see, that first day I didn't talk much and had absolutely no idea where I could go for a smoke! So yeah.. I didn't smoke at all that first day. But the next day Mami and I talked and she brought me to LaLa Land where Encem and the rest of the smokers were already hanging around.
I remember Encem was late that first day. Luqqy told the trainer that his car broke down but we later found out that that was a lie.. He'd simply overslept, which happened again during safety class. But of course, that time Luqqy said he ate something wrong the previous night so he's by the toilet having a bad tummy ache!
That was also his birthday, I think!
Encem and Luqqy always stick together.. even the trainers knew that.
On this date three years ago..
I simply had no idea what I was getting myself into. Never thought that I'd be where I be, or gone through what I'd gone through, seen the things I'd seen, met the people that I'd met.
I am remembering stupid things that happened while on training today..
Adi and I trying to see which one of us gets annoyed with the other first..
Encem saying that girls who smoke were sexy, that one time.. Ambik hati la tu, skarang suruh quit!
Mumu and I confessed whom we had a crush on to Bestie in the car ride to the commuter train.
Bestie and I jamming our air-drums and air-guitar to Bunkface while waiting for the train.
Mami telling us that she'd met Daddy long time ago but had only gotten close recently.
Adi's Angina Pectoris.
Luqqy always with a tissue to wipe his sweat.
Mumu and Bestie were convinced that Encem was into Mami.
Mami confessed that she'd met Daddy on Facebook! hahahahha!!
Staring contests around the table at Syed. sampai mata berair!
Toyol toyol in the exam room.. Our schemes to cheat off each other in front of the instructors..
Work-wise.. we are pretty stagnant. But I am thankful, nay, grateful that I joined the company when I did. Sure I'd probably be more stable now had I joined the company earlier. But I am grateful.
You know I'd never been about the money. Sure sure life's easier with it. I won't have to blog so much about the lack of it.
But at the end of the day, it's never the things that I own that I'm thankful for..
Thursday, April 12, 2012
Haro!
Currently in my hotel room in BKI. Just two nights ago I was in Melbourne. I got my Ice Break coffee fix; drank almost two litres of it during the 24 hours stay.
Melbourne was alright. Nothing much to do other than window shop. (Sengkek!) Plus it was Easter holidays, so the bike shops that I've heard so much about were closed. Pffft!
Bloody long flight, and my leader on the way up was the naggy type. You would think that the passenger's needs should come first but to her, it's for HER job to be done first. Oh well..
I pretty much spent the day walking around in the city all by myself.. Getting lost.. Found my way back -- until I bumped into the FO in the evening!
He showed me around the area. Good kid!
I was working in business class on the way back and boy was I glad to be with an awesome team! When I thanked them for their patience and a good flight, my steward said; you can't expect a baby to run with their first step, you let them stand first then walk...
I - just - LOVED - it!!
heehee.. Thank you God! Alhamdulillah..
Oh and for the first time the other day, I Googled a passenger! Hahahahaha! Stalker mode -- ON!
Well, I was curious because this particular passenger (Caucasian male, in his 30s) was on my 737 flight not too long ago, and when I offered him the immigration form he said he didn't need one!
Anyway, I suppose I'm a curious type of person -- when I do take an interest.
Other than that, nothing much going on in my life.
I couldn't get into my work Inbox because I took too long to change my password, so.. Padan muka. I'm going to have to write an email when I get back.. Maybe. Haha!
Recurrent next week. Not looking forward to going to class.
Airport pass expiring next month. Makes me sad, thinking that last year I had it renewed with Puyen. All my favourite work-people are in widebody now. Sigh.
Btw, Cik Saloma, if you're reading this, I am going to miss reading your blog! When you put it up as Private, terasa sentap kejap.. But I suppose I get it. Tapi sekarang terasa tak best knowing that I now have one less blog to read.
Good luck in your future endeavours, and take care!!!
Countdown to payday: THIRTEEN - FRIGGIN' - DAYS!!!
I pray that it'll be earlier than that..
Friday, April 06, 2012
Wind on my face..
I kinda spent more than I have to, but I have no regrets! After all, I'd spend it on a bike!
MUAHAHAHAHAHHAHA!!
Gaya hidup sihat, katanya.
As much as I'd like to join Bestie running around the park, I'm honestly not a big fan of running. hehe.
So anyway, I bought a bike right before Encem and I drove to Cherating!
And believe it or not, we spent two days there and not once did we even sat by the beach. Sangat rugi! ughhh
We went cycling at Sungai Lembing with a few friends instead. It was a murderous route for a beginner like me. Bloody hills. I turned white countless of times and was wheezing badly. (Thank you, cigarettes!)
But it was a fun day.. After the gruelling ride, we were rewarded with a cool dip in the river!
Wishing that I could have more of that in the future..
Now, on to work..
I find myself partially indifferent towards it. It's odd. Half of me is excited that I'll be flying to Melbourne tomorrow night, while the other half is wishing that I am still on holiday.
I wish to be on a break until I start to miss flying!
Boleh?
Wednesday, March 28, 2012
Annual Leave.
I did however had a get together with the few of my favourite people on Earth yesterday. Just a typical gathering I suppose.. Just me, Encem, Bestie, Mumu, Mamita and Baby Ezra! heehee..
I'm pretty sure that if you'd seen us in Midvalley yesterday, it would have seem a bit odd. Five young adults pushing a baby stroller.
I don't know, it just felt weird. It still feels like when we were back during training days, but the fact is that Mami is now a mother of a 5-month old baby, Mumu is married and I am in a relationship with Encem. hahahahahha!
Just 17 days away to mark the third year we've been with the company. It doesn't feel that long.
I still remember how we used to have the mamak-session right after training, until 8 pm everyday.
Mami was sort-of single.. hahahha!
Mumu hadn't met her spouse yet..
Encem and I were just friends.
And Bestie.. well, Bestie tags himself as "forever-alone".
It's fun when the four of us who are still flying gets the same day off. So far we'd always do something together on that day. And next month's roster is kind enough to let us have two off days together. It's not consecutively unfortunately, but I'll take what ever that I can get! We're planning on a potluck at Mami's place and I'm pretty certain that we're all excited about it!
Oh I'm really hoping that I'll be doing something fun in the next few days...
Tuesday, March 20, 2012
Pulling heaven down.
-- more on Bipolar Disorder.
mm yeah, if I were ever to diagnose myself, this would be at the top most of the list.
I did mention that I was hypochondriacal on the main page of this blog, right? Anyway, to be honest I do feel like something is wrong with me somewhere.. which is why I've always wanted to see a psychiatrist -- but never did. Mostly because I hate seeing any doctor!
This goes back to when I was fourteen; when I went to the doctor for a fever and a small lump at the back of my neck (which was nothing,) but then was told that I have a low haemoglobin count.
Anyway, it's a pretty long story but basically I came home with a bunch of meds (which I was supposed to take for a pretty long period of time, but ditched it after a few weeks!) and the knowledge that when I want to get married (assuming that we both plan to procreate), my future husband needs to get his haemoglobin count checked.
Hmmph!
Oh, I'm going away from my point.
My point is -- I prefer to be oblivious.. bordering on ignorant, maybe.
I need bliss, but to know.. If it is confirmed that I have an underlying mental problem.. I'm pretty sure I'm going to spend the rest of my days alone. The thought of passing on my horrible genes is just.. scary.
So yeah, my manic mood swings is pretty unmissable -- which is honestly why I no longer write as much. I HATE seeing proves of my craziness.
I'm relatively happy as I write this. I'm grateful for the days that God has given me. Especially when I am feeling as full as the past few days. Despite being alone, I am truly.. happy.
Funny how I've been listening to Blue October and think that I want their songs in the background on my wedding day.. It's like.. so.. "APAKAHHH??"
hahahahha! Of all the things I can wonder about...
Oh, I had been at the training school this past two days learning English for the announcement rating -- which was awesome! May I rephrase; I was awesome! HAHAHAHAHHA!!
During the class, I mean. My announcement wasn't so great, I spoke too fast.. as always. Imagine how Lorelai and Rory Gilmore would speak to each other.
Anyway, two days off..
Dear God, please let me keep having this good feeling.
Friday, March 16, 2012
A thousand secrets..
Wednesday, March 14, 2012
To borrow--
Learning to love life by living through loss and mistakes
Lessons learned then gradually surfacing
Letting go, stripping naked to scream
I am not perfect, nor do I strive to be
I am alive in this world of face-first falls and public breakdowns
I'm a retarded, disfigured clown
Dying to be heard for the simple art of letting this heavy wall finally fall
I'm an equal being of no race or color
A hallucination if you will
Sneaking into the lives of strangers and letting them fall apart
To a new rhythm, just to feel better.
Monday, March 12, 2012
In a bad funk..
Wednesday, March 07, 2012
A jumble of what-evs.
Oh ye, lupa.. Pagi tadi change aircraft dengan Bestie yang sambil membawa handbag.. HAHAHAHHA!! Wish I had a picture of it..
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Update!
March 9th Just booked an appointment with a manicurist for my next day off.. Curse you, Groupon!!
Tuesday, February 28, 2012
Too much..
I had the last three days off.. and now I am just so lazy to get to work tomorrow.. pfft!
Three days trip, HERE I COOME! *fake enthusiasm*
And I know I've said this before, but I'm gonna say it again; I really hate it when I'm just so used to having Encem around. pfft!
I am an addict, I tell ya!
Good thing that I'll only be away for three days.
sigh. Three days.
Oh well. I hope you guys are having a good week.
Oh, and, welcome to the family, Cik Amyan.. Hope to see you soon!
Thursday, February 16, 2012
Sedih.
At least that's how I always feel anyway.
Maybe I'm just needy.
Point is, I'm disappointed.. I am always the one being forgotten. Or taken lightly of. And I have no idea how to change that!
So I'm disappointed.. Frustrated.. Sad.
Haritu aku fly dengan sorang tech crew yang membesar kat Shah Alam. Turned out dia pun skolah Raja Muda, panggil area Seksyen 16/17/18++ "Seberang", and agree that Bukit Jelutong bukanlah Shah Alam!
Hahahahhahahahaha!
Terhibur hati aku.
Banyak jugak aku berbual ngan dia. To a point where sampai sakit tekak gak la.
Sebenarnya aku tengah lelah hati. Letih.. Sangat letih...
Hari Isnin lepas buat empat sektor. Reporting 0735, abes keje 1755.
The very next morning aku start on trip empat hari.. (Malam ni last night di Labuan.) Finally esok balek rumah!
Aku sorang je pompuan (selain supervisor) dalam set. Letih. Hari hari memain flirt. Hahahhahaha! I know this is going to sound bad, but it's a bit boring to not be able to do anything more than just flirt.
HAHHAHAHHAHA!!
And I hate the bit where they seem to be more interested in me than my own boyfriend. Huhuuu.
Ye, saya tahu, saya perempuan yang lemah lagi fickle. Tralalalaa..
Anyway, balek trip esok.. Then lusa buat empat sektor lagi!
Roster aku minggu ni memang ntah hape hape. Aku simpaaan je dalam hati betapa letihnya aku sebenarnye. Sure, I'm writing this on my blog, but I'm not exactly twisting your arm to read it, kan?
Aku tak paksa korang untuk baca. And yet korang baceee gak blog aku ni.
So I thank you, from the bottom of my heart, for being curious, for wanting to know what's been going on with my life.
Thank you.
Sangat.
You have no idea..
Monday, February 13, 2012
Speechless.
To be clueless.
To be speechless.
I realize that when something truly bad happens, I'd go completely still..
I wouldn't know what to do next.
What do I do next??
You know, "Hazwani" means pemberianku.. or "my gift"..
WHOSE gift????
Tell me, whose gift am I??
Because I sure don't feel like a gift.
Useless, more like.
Like one of those little crystal trinkets that you put in the display cupboards; they're pretty to look at, but completely useless!
I suppose some people do give out those crystal trinkets as gifts.. So maybe I am just that.
Anyway, I don't know what to do. Words failed me this time.
I just wish I could do something, is all.