Oops! I did it again.

I was feeling all proud and mighty for the most part of this month.

I pretty much didn't shop at all! Hahahahha! There are a few bits and bobs around here and there but nothing major to the point where I need to jot it down anywhere.

Sure I bought a few packs of strawberries and Kit Kats in multiple flavours while I was in Narita, but they're not all for me. Got a pair of pants and a top at GU while I was there but that was ¥3800, so nothing major.

Then few days ago LaSenza sent a text...

BUY 2 BRAS, Get 3 FREE @ all La Senza stores from 24 till 27 Mar.

Damn!

I caved, naturally. It sounded like a good damn deal!

One problem.

Whenever I go into their store, I always get tempted by their lounge wear..

So today, while Hubs stepped out of the store, I chucked a set of pajamas at the till and boom! Made my entire purchase -- something MAJOR. (Uhh.. I should also mention that I stocked up on panties while I was there. Bahhahahaha!!)

So I told Hubs that I should be good in the undies department for the rest of the year. Kinda also told him that he should stop me if I start talking about buying undies in the future.. But I didn't tell him the exact amount I paid today, because.. well, husbands don't have to know about EVERYTHING, do they? Hahahaha!

Anyway, looking forward to payday so my credit card bill wouldn't look too scary.

All I want is more TIME..

Well, THAT happened.

It's been SO long since I've properly sit down and just write..

I do intend to do that sometime, but I'm supposed to get ready for work in three hours and I haven't had any sleep yet. ughhh!

I need a long holiday.. I think I deserve that.

What is in my Travel Makeup Bag.

Oh hai, Happy New Year!

I've been extremely quiet of late, I know. I have PLENTY to write about but I've been extremely busy (in my mind) that I just haven't got around to write much.

So here, a fluff-entry just to tell you that I'm still me, still alive.. Just not very present.

My current makeup bag is a clear plastic case from The Body Shop that I bought during a two-hour transit in Kuching International Airport a few months ago.

Random note; The Body Shop in KIA is cheaper than anywhere else in Malaysia because apparently they stock directly from the UK instead of Singapore like the rest of The Body Shop in the country.

I do love this makeup case. It fits the purpose and I could see all the junk that I have in it! Of course, if I'm being totally honest, I settled for this bag because I am covetting for Anya Hindmarch's In-flight Case but I simply couldn't justify the crazy price. hihihi

Starting off with the face, I've recently started using primers. Mostly because I'll be doing my own makeup on my wedding so I'd like to know if primers would extend the longevity of what I have on my face. I've been trying out the Hourglass Veil Mineral Primer and I don't have much to say about it. I don't even know if it actually make my makeup lasts longer. hahaha! What I can tell though, it feels like nothing on. Very light, very comfortable.

I have my Chanel Vitalumiere Aqua on rotation. Not my fave, not a perfect colour match, doesn't feel great on my dry skin, but it's 'spensive so I better use it up! Hahahha!

I love the packaging though, very travel friendly.

I have two concealers with me because I love them both equally and they're both on their last legs! hihi! The Naked Skin concealer is probably lighter in consistency than Nars Radiant Creamy concealer but they both give excellent coverage.

Then I have my Bourjois Healthy Balance powder, which I don't often use but is definitely one of my faves.

For contour, I can't be without my Nars Contour Blush in Paloma and though I mostly use Oasis as blush, I also have Roman Holiday for option. Plus it's tiny.

When it comes to eyes, it does seem a little crazy. Mostly because I tend to just chuck things in and forget about it.

I have a MAC Paint Pot in Layin' Low which I LOVE. The colour is perfect for me and it feels lighter as a base than Urban Decay's Primer Potion. My best buy from Mitsui Outlet a while back. (I'm not particularly well-conversed in MAC products so I don't know how cheaper it is than in MAC stores.)

Then I have Nars And God Created The Woman palette because that is my love, right there. Everything that I need is in that palette.

I also have By Terry's Ombre Blackstar in Misty Rock, and a bunch of Laura Mercier's Caviar Stick Eye Colour. Despite the gap in price, I don't really think By Terry is better. Both products stayed well on my lids and they both speeds things up for me when I overslept and need to get ready pronto. hihi

As for liners, I trust in Kat Von D if I'm feeling a cat-flick. But for lazy times, Urban Decay's 24/7 Glide-on Pencils are still my fave. 

I have a couple of Marc Jacob's Highliner there, that I bought in the gift set during the holiday season but I don't love it. I even hate it for tightlining. It's okay for lining the lids but whenever I line my waterline, it always always transfers on my contacts! I mean, what the heck!!

For my eyebrows, I have Anastasia Beverly Hills brow pencil (still prefer the Brow Wiz) and Nyx tinted Brow Gel.

Surprisingly I only have three lip products in my makeup bag; Nars Velvet Matte Lip Pencil in Dragon Girl, Bourjois Velvet Rouge Edition in Plum Plum Girl that my super awesome supervisor bought me last month and Shu Uemura Rouge Unlimited in MPK376. Would prefer an actual name than numbers in a product but that's not important. hehe

Because I only had three things in my makeup bag, I dug my handbag just to show the reality of my love for lip products. hihi!

Two lip liners; Maybelline Color Show Crayon Khol in Magic Magenta and Nyx in SPL 817, Hot Red.

Then I have my "emergency red lips" in the form of Revlon Colorburst Matte Balm in 250 Standout.

My favourite plum/purple-y tones at the moment; Nars' Damned and Kat Von D's Everlasting Liquid Lipstick in Bauhau5. Gorgeous colours, if I may say so myself!

I also have a neutral one in Double Dare. I kinda want more colours from this line because they feel great on my lips and stayed really well.

Oh! Then I have a limited edition DKNY gloss in Empire Red that was gifted to me.. a little over a year ago! Oops. Does this mean I should throw it out?

Okay, that's all the makeup I have in my travel bag(s)!

I am currently in JHB and flying home in a little while so I should pack this up and start getting ready.

Hope you're all well and have a good 2016!

Cooped up.

I realized something a few days ago.

I respond really.. really badly when being held down.

Physically.. I think.

Not sure what I'm trying to say right now.

But the other day, Encem and I were hanging out watching tv. He was on the sofa while I was lounging on the floor with my head propped by the sofa. At one point Encem rested his arm over my hair and as I tried to get up, I got stuck -- and that really REALLY pissed me off.

It was quite unexplainable, how furious I was.

Somehow not being able to move made me so so mad.

And this month's roster has been.. quite unaccomodating, I suppose.

Off one day, work another, off another day, and goes on until today. I think I'm going crazy from not going outside! Sure, I go out a little. Went out for dinner then head back home. Just that.

I was hoping I'd be okay with that, with the wedding coming along and all. But I am honestly going mental! I just bit Encem's head off over nothing. I am so testy.

I don't like it.

It's been a while..

I know..

I have no explanation or an excuse for not blogging this past few months. I would think about blogging; have the exact words to type out once I'm in front of my laptop.. But somehow it just didn't happen!

I had wanted to talk about my holiday in Krabi with Bestie.. and what "beauty" products that I thought was essential for a beach holiday -- that was supposed to be my April entries. 

I was supposed to write another "Quarterly Favourites" in June but obviously that didn't happen!

My sombre mood had vastly improved now that Encem's back for good.. (for now.) I hate to admit that I need him in my life, but he is the light in my dark, dark soul. (Dramatic, I know.)

I've thought about writing about the recent make-up bits and skincare that I purchased, took pictures of them while they were still new and untouched.. But that entry didn't happen either.

Is it possible that I've gotten so good at talking to myself that I longer need to write them out? hahaha

Anyway, my dear sister got married a couple of weeks ago so that's what's up with my life. I have a new brother-in-law! I am so happy that Dida has someone in her life now. Someone who can take care of her. Someone who makes her happy..

And I never really said this out loud, but I am SO happy that she got married before I do! hahaha! I really hated the idea of getting hitched before she does.

To change the subject, I am working for a differently named company now. Not too sure how I feel about it just yet. Work remains the same. Kinda. I might have some kind of thought on it in a few months. But then you know how I don't really enjoy talking about work.

I might end up writing those things I had intended to write as mentioned above, one day. But I'm not promising anything!

Basically that's pretty much what's going on with my life.

..Also that I'm planning a January wedding. *cue surprise score*

Now let that sink in...

I've been bad..

Has anyone keep tabs on my blog?
Because even I hadn't.
It's been months since I last blogged and it's been my longest "break" yet!

I've got a bunch of things I'd like to write about but for what ever reason I just.. didn't.

Anyway, I'm fine.. I'm good.. Just not feeling particularly chatty, I guess.

I'll try and put my thoughts together and come out with a decent blog soon!

Quarterly Faves [Beauty]

If you hadn't known, I watch a LOT of beauty-related videos on YouTube. I don't know why, really. Something to do..? To get some inspiration..? An excuse to shop -- because somebody recommended something..?

Yes.. Yes.. YES!

Hahahahha!

Anyway, those "beauty gurus" on there always posts their "monthly favourites" and though they're one of my favourite things to watch, I honestly can't fathom how they could have different favourites each month when my favourites normally lasts all year! (And more!)

So anyway, I've had awesome discoveries this past few months and I just had to share them. An excuse to talk about something light, really!

First, the Sephora Pro Airbrush Concealer Brush #57 (retails at RM89). It's almost Godsend! I don't know about you lot, but I can never seem to blend my concealer seamlessly with my fingers. My fingers tend to pick up the concealer instead of distributing the product onto the intended areas. The bristles on this brush are soft and dense yet long enough to move along your skin and blend the concealer perfectly!

I just can't be without it and so I LOVE the fact that it comes with a cover so you can travel with it, no problem!

Second in the list is Laura Mercier Caviar Stick Eye Colour in Khaki. (Retails at RM89) Oh wow.. This is the stuff that I grab when I have less than twenty minutes to get my face ready! (I keep sleeping through my alarm lately. bleh!)

Just swipe a thick line across the lash line, blend it with my finger and voila! Eyes done! And it'll stay all day long without creasing -- at all! This shade in particular is described as "chocolate brown with bronze pearl" and it does have that pearlescent finish.

I also love NARS Velvet Eyeshadow Stick in Nunavut (retailed at RM99) which is a matte dark purple shade if I wanted a darker "look" but the line is limited edition so I'm not too sure of its availability by the time this post goes up. (They were still available in late February when I went to get the matte black shade Flibuste.) 

Seriously though, I think I'm addicted to these crayon eyeshadows. They are very creamy and so easy to blend out! I also love that they're twist-ups instead of pencils that you need to sharpen. Makes me really curious of By Terry's Ombre Blackstar now, to be honest! (On the wishlist!)

Bio-Oil! (Retails at RM54.95 at Watsons for the 125ml) Hahahha! It could be considered as something for beauty, right? I've been struggling to calm the rashes on my legs from extreme dryness. Tried a bunch of creams, Soap & Glory Butter Yourself Up (RM62) refused to work on me anymore, First Aid Beauty Ultra Repair Cream (RM128) -- which smelled straight up like Eurax -- did nothing, even Josie Maran 100% Pure Argan Oil  (RM184) just made my legs slick -- but still itchy!

So far, only Bio-oil has stopped my urge to scratch my legs like a mad-woman -- if I remember to apply twice a day, as suggested. Not sure if it reduces my existing scar as the rashes are pretty much raging still.

Extreme dryness.. It's a problem, folks!

Honestly, I should just go and see a dermatologist already.. but.. ick! Damn.

Tarte Amazonian Clay 12-hour Blush in Exposed. (Retails at RM117) Well, I got the "tester" size sometime last year (or was it late 2013?) for RM30. Described as "nude" but it straight up looked mauvy-pink on me! Apart from being matte, I love that the shade is pretty muted so it works well with whatever colour I have on the rest of my face. Plus it lasted well more than 12 hours with very minimal fading on me.
I use it so much that I hit pan on it! That's right.. I hit pan on a blush!! Though it's a teenie baby size of a blush at 1.5g, still.. whoaa..

I must say that I am pretty excited about the idea of using something up.

This next one was a calculated splurge. A "splurge" because I don't need another perfume. "Calculated" because I've been wanting it since.. August, I would say.
It's Giorgio Armani Si Eau de Parfum. (RM300 for 50ml, RM430 for 100ml) Smells really sweet, fruity. Reminds me of mangosteen for whatever reason although it isn't listed as one of the notes! haha!
Smells a bit heady if I sprayed on too much but then again it was my first eau de parfum that I own, oddly enough! For whatever reason, I've only been keen on eau the toilette before Si!

Anyway, I really liked the way it smell. Thought of finishing up one of my existing perfumes first before getting it but I saw it being sold cheaper while I was walking along the counters in Perth airport. So I just.. grabbed it! (#crewlife perks!)

I've also been loving NARS Velvet Lip Liner in Patong Beach. (Retails at RM85) Described as "pink rose", it is your-lips-but-better material! It may not be the best texture on my lips (as all lip liners are) but with my Nuxe Rêve de Miel underneath, the liner glides on like a dream. Actually, even without a lip balm I would still wear this because I LOVE the colour!

Also worth mentioning, the Audacious lipstick in Anna, (retails at RM95) described as "smokey rose". I'd wear this on an offday, damn it! That's how much I love it. Yet another YLBB product. I once wore it for work and the grooming people stopped me because my "lipstick seemed too pale" apparently. hahaha! Can't wrap my head around a seemingly mauvy shade to be "pale"..

Basically I'm all over these two if I feel like wearing make-up on an off day. Something that I can put on without looking "too much".

Earlier this year I decided to actually note down the nail colours that I use. Mostly because I have way too many of those.. and it should be near impossible to choose a favourite when I pretty much change the colours every single time I paint my nails. Surprisingly though, there is one colour that I've painted my nails with TWICE in the course of this three months.

It's Revlon Colorstay Gel Envy in Up The Ante. (AU$16.95 from Priceline) It's a bright pinky-purple shade that somehow says "happy". hahaha! I do love the formula of the nail polish and it has a wide brush -- yayy! I also love the top coat from the line. I'm keen to get more shades from the line (I can honestly say that there are three more that I'd like to get!) but as aforementioned, I have a LOT of nail polish.. So I'll be waiting for some good discounts to come along! heehee
Sorry if this range isn't in Malaysia yet.. or is it? I haven't been looking around the makeup aisle of Watsons or Guardian for fear of getting things that I don't need. heh!

A surprise favourite was the Bath & Body Works Body Scrub in Wild Madagascar Vanilla. (Retails at RM65) I'm not sure if BBW's body scrubs are created "equal" but mine actually lathers up, which makes showering a total breeze! I've used body scrubs before, Soap & Glory Flake Away (RM55..?) definitely did not lather up. I love that the one I have here has a mild scrubby texture so it does not aggravate my skin and because it lathers up, I don't need to wash myself again with a foamy soap. Oh and the smell..! I really can't say no to vanilla scents.

And my top TOP favourite; Anastasia Beverly Hills Brow Wiz in the shade Soft Brown. (Retails at £12.21) I feel bad for neglecting my Tarte Brow Mousse but damn this Brow Wiz is SO easy to use! A twist-up pencil on one end, a spoolie on the other. The point is very fine so you can't possibly over-draw, unless maybe you do your makeup in a badly lit room!
Sure, £12 (roughly RM70) for an eyebrow pencil is a lot, but I've had mine since November and I still have a good amount of it. And I rarely EVER leave home without my eyebrows on!

I got mine from BeautyBay.com -- they ship internationally and offers free shipping with purchase over US$15. (Takes about 2 weeks for the shipment to arrive.) The Brow Wiz is US$18--something, but you'll be charged in GBP on your bank statement.

Quite a long entry, this one. Hope you don't mind this sort of entries every once in a while. Perhaps it'll inspire you to try out something new from Sephora. They should be having their 20% off sometime in April/May! Gotta keep a lookout on that! (Make a wishlist/shopping list -- I am!)

*Prices stated are from Sephora, unless mentioned otherwise.

**An exception for NARS' products as they are only available from their stores in Pavilion, KL and Parkson Gurney Plaza, Penang.

#FeelingSpendy

I could go on weeks without having the urge to shop for anything.. then I could have a blip of moment where I'm "feeling spendy" and leave my account balance to just RM44.
HAHAHAHHA!

One would think that by this age I would learn how to actually save money -- but Nope!
Good thing Encem "accidentally" brought my credit card with him so I've been spending the money that I have instead of building up my debt. heh

Started earlier this month when I went to Origins to repurchase my favourite night cream, but of course, Azilah; the sales person in Midvalley store talked me into getting some other things! (No regrets though, I haven't found anything that I hate from all the Origins stuff that I've tried so far.)

Perhaps I should mention that I pretty much always end up getting a couple of Washi tapes whenever I go out? sigh. I should stop, though.

Then I did Kansai flight.. Walked around Rinku Outlet -- with no intention of shopping at all. HA!

And then two days in Darwin.. oyy! I do find it funny how crew normally spends their money on groceries in Australia, because that's what I did. Honestly, Woolies and Coles are what I am most excited about when thinking about Australia! hahaha
Managed to repurchase my favourite hair masque -- AU$32, ka-poww! Actually I've seen the Macadamia Natural Oil line in SaSa here, but the last time I went looking the hair masque was out of stock. Now I wonder if I could actually get it cheaper here. hmm..
Anyway, I also got some bits of things from Priceline (their drugstore) naturally. Then I bought some tops from Cotton On because I felt like it. heehee! I'm such a girl!

Five days 'til payday! teeheee

Something random.

Home for the weekends.

This time when I say "home", I meant the place where I grew up in -- Shah Alam.

It's not often that I get the weekend off! And I could only see my family during the weekends, pretty much. Dida works crazy hours during the weekdays (and on the phone most weekends too, to be honest) and the parents are in Bangi during the weekdays to look after their grandchildren.

So yeah, since Encem isn't around.. Weekends are my #familytime now.

And while I sit here in the bedroom that I share with Dida, I find myself irked that I forgot to throw in my lip balm and body moisturiser into my duffel bag. Ughh! Those stupid little things that irks so much!

I came back from Kansai last night where the average temperature was 9°C so naturally, my skin is as dry as a desert and itches like hell!!

It's been a long week. Safety recurrent on Monday and Tuesday (passed and free to fly for another year!) then followed by KIX trip on Wednesday.

It's annoying that I adore the cold weather (a perfect excuse to whip out my boots and jackets!) but my skin disapproves of it so much.

Anyway, I had a pretty good time in Kansai. Mostly shopping, since Rinku Premium Outlet was within walking distance to the hotel we were staying in. I accidentally spent a small fortune at Nike and GAP. heh!

Then of course.. The 100¥ shop! gahhh!! I swear I can never go into one without buying something! This time I got my hands on some Washi tape dispensers! One that holds six tapes for 100¥ (108¥ including tax) -- a BARGAIN!!

I was SO excited about getting those that I began to arrange my Washi tapes as soon as I got home (Bukit Jalil) instead of packing my bag for Shah Alam and making sure that I had my moisturiser and lip balm were included!

HAHHAHAHA!

There you go.. A totally random, and pointless entry for you to read this week.

Have a good week ahead!

Bath & Body Works

How did I manage to forget blogging about one of the most exciting store-opening in the country!

Bath & Body Works is now in Malaysia, folks! It used to be one of the stores that I would buy online from -- and the online store doesn't even ship here! Or even accept Malaysian credit cards!

Seriously, I went through all kinds of trouble just so I could get my fix!

Note: I also used to order from Victoria's Secret but now that they're here, I've lost interest in them somehow -- even though I was mostly ordering their clothing items and we don't get them here!

Anyway, back to BBW.. Their first store was opened in Gurney Paragon, Penang of all places but the one in Nu Sentral opened not long after that! Few weeks ago it opened a store in The Curve. (And they're now open at Komtar, JB too!)

I would say that the prices are reasonable. Our currency pretty suck against the US Dollar so two of their 3-wick candle for RM120 isn't too bad.

They are normally USD22.50 (RM 81.40 according to XE) so that's quite an offer! Of course, at the time I am typing this out, BathAndBodyWorks.com is having a two for $24 offer on their candles -- and I don't think we'll ever get such offers in our shores.

My first puchases (at both the Nu Sentral and The Curve stores) were the Concentrated Room Spray (RM 25), the Wallflowers (RM 30 for the plug and RM 25 for the refills) and the Wild Madagascar Vanilla bodyscrub (RM 65).

Priced at US$ 5.50, getting the 1.5oz room sprays at RM 25 is really not bad at all. I got the Paris Amour scent (I think!) first and because I loved how potent it was, I got the Fresh Linen on my second visit

Love the scent! I carry this in my trolley bag to all my layovers. Since I am a smoker, I would spritz this once right after I had a stick and the room would smell like I had just done laundry! Hahahaha

The wallflowers lasted about a month if you just leave it on. Not too sure if I prefer this to candles. The scent doesn't travel well in my household but it is safer.

The bodyscrubs were not made equal. While mine lathers up, and I could skip washing myself with a foamy bodywash, Bestie said that the one he got (a different scent) did not create any foam. Also, I noticed that the aromatherapy line was RM10 cheaper. (But I didn't check if they were the same size.)

I didn't purchase any candles since I still have a few still unused from my previous online purchase! heh

Also, I would like to point out that I honestly prefer Yankee Candle (which you can now find at Great Eastern Mall -- where? and Sunway Pyramid!) but they are pricier..

If you're hitting up BBW and don't know what to get, I'd suggest their Scentportables! Okay, they are pricey for car air-freshener but Bestie got them and his car smells lovely!

Also the room spray, of course!

One thing though, the sales person would stick on a little sticker on the items you intend to buy for whatever reason. Commission? I just find that especially odd.

Anyway, I'm still stoked that we have Bath & Body Works here!

Two days off.

Time for recuperating, catch up on blogs and YouTube videos I've missed and work on my Moleskine. I say "work" because I hadn't been writing much in it (even though this past few days have been pretty exciting) and I'm dying to paste some photos in it!

Thought I'd do some "admin" things today; pay my bills, get the laundry done, properly unpack -- to be honest, I can't remember the last time I really unpack my bags. There's always some kind of trash at the bottom of my bag and I just.. leave it there. Couldn't be bothered. Old receipts, hotel bills, pamphlets of sorts, catalogues..
I should unpack.

But it's half past one and I just had breakfast! Yoghurt, muesli, blueberries and chia seeds.. my kind of breakfast at the moment. Of course I'd love a good batch of pancakes but I came home to an empty apartment last night, I'm in no mood to prepare a hot meal.
I still wonder what's the big deal with "breakfast" sometimes.. but knowing me, and knowing that I have those things in my fridge to just throw together, it's better for me to have breakfast when I really can't say when my next meal would be.

The thing about not having Encem around, I feel like wasting away most of the time. It's icky to depend on one person in your life, really. But normally he'd fuss about whether I've eaten or have had enough sleep. Two things that are massively screwed whenever he's away. I simply don't care. It's nice to have someone who cares about/for you.
Hmm.. I miss my Monkey.

I woke up this morning practically jumping out of bed; thinking that I was late for work! I thought I was over that. And as I tried to get more sleep, my neighbour decided to do some drill-works, thanks!
So here I am typing this blog.. thinking of doing all those boring admin stuff that needs to be done.
I still haven't showered..
Or sort the clothes that I want to send to the laundry.

At least I got the last bits of Bestie's birthday presents wrapped! It is funny how big birthdays are with us. Just for the presents, really. hahaha

I should get a move on if I want to get things done today. I swear I'm barely human when being left alone for too long!

Coming down with something..

Started to feel a tad under the weather two nights ago, but I am ignoring it. heh

I am currently on a 5-days trip; did BKI/PVG/BKI last night and heading to Perth tomorrow! A pretty simple trip and even better, I am flying with friends!

Since we arrived pretty early this morning, three of us decided to hit Sapi Island. The two were keen on snorkeling while I just wanted to be out of the room. I suppose if I was prepared for an island trip I would've packed a more appropriate outfit -- but I wasn't. Oh well.

Still glad to be outside and sort of under the sun. (Currently I am sitting under the mercy of some trees.)

Life's been good..

4 out of 10.

That was roughly the days I got to spend with Encem before he left for Jeddah.
Suckety suck.
Life moves on whether he's around or not.. I still had to work to keep my livelihood. So happens that I am only rostered for ONE turnaround flight -- at the end of this month. That's my way of stating why I didn't get more time with Encem; I was sent to trips.
I did get to send him off at the airport. For that I was thankful. Also thankful that his brother didn't mind driving in silence on the way back.

It has only been two days and naturally, it's 20 minutes to 7 AM and I am still up!

I had a lovely day yesterday with Bestie and Mumu. I am so grateful for "clicking" with them almost six years ago. For that I thank God. I love it when He reminds me that I have things to be glad for instead of moping around in sadness.
Why is that, anyway? Why do I have the tendency to wallow in my sorrow?
Maybe that's why I've latched onto Encem all these years. He could laugh at anything, talk about anything -- never stop talking! hahhahaha!
He's my kind of drug (oh hey, Twilight reference there!) and withdrawal SUCKS -- BALLS!!

Btw, that's been my favourite phrase..? cuss..? for a while now. I don't say it as much as I think about it though because really.. now that I've said it, I can't help imagining a person.. sucking balls.
HAHAHHAHA!! Oh dear, God..

I think I might start dieting. Maybe. I don't know. I don't know how to diet when I'm not a big eater to begin with! Not even a real fan of rice, and yet I'm getting heavier!
The thing about Encem being gone -- I haz a sad, I don't have a regular meal-time, I sleep badly - or don't sleep at all and I tend to binge on junkfood because I'm too lazy to prepare actual food! AND I'm thirty, damn it! Bloody hormones and metabolism!

Okay, the clock on the taskbar says that it's 7:02 now and I should attempt to get some sleep. Pick-up is at 2 PM and I haven't packed a thing for my trip! Not that it'll take too long to do that but I HATE doing it so I'll procrastinate, do it after I wake up -- hoping that I won't oversleep! heehee

February.

I'm in Kathmandu again. Feels like I only remember to blog when I'm here. Maybe because there isn't much that I feel like doing other than contemplate. heh!

Nothing much been going on.

Except that Encem's home since earlier of the month so my off days were pretty much occupied. I missed having him around. I missed talking to him late at night and just drift off to slumberland. Him being home also means that the noise level goes up a little. heh! I do find it weird if not a little annoyed that he always ends up picking up his guitars after one in the morning!

Suppose I could pick up one of the guitars and make some noise of my own but I pity the neighbours.

Suppose I'll miss the racket once he goes back to Jeddah -- again. My brain comprehends why he has to leave but my heart just hates it! My heart friggin' HATES it!! And I hate it even more since he doesn't even know when he'll be leaving. The thought that he might have to leave while I'm away on a trip is just upsetting!

I don't know why but I feel like I need to send him off. Like a proper goodbye. Maybe because his roster is interchangeable that even he has no idea when he'll be back again once he leaves.

Honestly I get tired yapping about him all the time. Honestly I don't even talk about him much in real life. I guess I don't feel as bad talking about him on my blog knowing that people could just click away when they're bored, instead of having to sit through me talking.. about a boy.. like some crazed obsessive girlfriend.

Which is how I feel most of the time, really.

Anyway, life's been good. Work's been alright. Mamita and I have been waiting to go to NARS for the new collection to arrive. Somehow she's just as obsessed with NARS as I am; don't know how that happened!

But I must say that it's nice to have someone to talk about makeup with -- and they're just as excited with it! heehee!

Sim, the artist in Pavilion gave me a few samples of the new foundation that'll be released here this month; All Day Luminous Weightless Foundation, to try out and I'm still deciding how I like it.

Of course I'm fine!

I mean, who would ever confess how they really feel when asked if they're okay?

hahahaha!

Not me, definitely.

Anyway, I'm thankful for having family and friends who are well attuned to my moods -- or at least my tweets! hahahhaha!

If I'm being honest, I've been feeling like crap for the past few days. I don't know why it's so hard to say it out loud. Well, I know. I don't want to get those judgy quizzical looks and have to deal with questions that I don't have the answers for.

Sometimes I get shit handed to me and my being just makes it ten thousands worse.

Why?

I don't know! I wish I do.. but I don't!

Maybe I'm depressed. Maybe my mood swings and insomnia could attest to that. Maybe I'm just hopeless, who knows?

Maybe I'll die alone.

Maybe I deserve that.

Maybe I was put here to be a conundrum to everyone and even myself!

What I do know, I've successfully given myself a headache from trying to word my feelings in this entry. Should I even call this an entry? I doubt it.

Anyway, I had the past couple of days off and despite wanting to do a lot of things, I got myself stuck in bed just reading..

Sometimes I feel like I could get a lot of shit done if I hated reading.

2015

Every year I give myself some silly resolutions to achieve and this year shouldn't be any different!

Silly, so I wouldn't be too bummed if I fail to follow through. heh! Not that I don't have faith in myself, but I don't take "New Year's Resolution" too seriously to begin with. You don't need a new year to start working on a life goal, do you?
So yeah, I save the silly ones especially for the new year..

1. Stop putting Blue October, Taylor Swift and Maroon 5 on loop.
It's getting a little out of hand! I am especially OBSESSED with 1989. The album reminds me of Bruno Mars' album or Lady Gaga's. No they don't sound the same, not even the same genre.. but I feel like every song in the album sounded so different from one another. You can't get bored to it!

2. Start a scrapbook.
Well, maybe not a scrapbook. After seeing a video on YouTube about Project Life by Becky Higgins, I am especially intrigued. But that crap is pricey, damn! (It's on the wishlist now! hahahha!) I love the concept, as it's more of an album than an actual scrapbook so it isn't the same as writing in my Moleskine. But yeah.. I think this year I'll be sticking more photos into my Moleskine instead of just doodling in it. Then maybe if I end up sticking too many photos in there, I'll get myself one of those Project Life starter kits!
note: there is NO DOUBT that I WILL be getting Project Life sometime in my life. Can't get it off my mind!

3. Set aside a sum of money each month.
I talk about saving up every friggin' year, I swear! But seeing the success of saving up for my birthday last year, I think I should start early this year! Can't think of what I want for my birthday just yet, but perhaps I could use the money for a long vacation somewhere!.. or my wedding. JENG JENG JENGG!! hahahaha!! Still can't talk about that with a serious face. Oh well, it could happen..

4. Control on the beauty stuff.

Obviously I don't need anymore makeup. I've been pretty good with the skincare stuff. I know what my skin loves.

As for makeup.. Honestly, I don't need anymore palettes, lip products or nail polish! But I'll be real, I can't quite say no to NARS. So I'll cut myself some slack in that area heh!

I do need to get rid of some old makeup though. Gotta stop hoarding and throw away expired stuff!

5. Get rid of old clothes and shoes..

I have plenty of that! And I'm not even holding on to them.. Just that I'm too lazy to take the time and sort the ones that I no longer need.

Honestly, "make use of my time better" should be on this list.

Oh, I still don't need anymore cardigans, coats, jackets, sweaters or boots! So yeah, I don't plan on getting rid of old things so I could get new ones.. I just need to declutter my life, really.

6. Blog more than last year.

hahhahahahha!

7. Lead a healthier lifestyle.

Typical new year's resolution!
Smoke less, drink less caffeinated drinks, take less sugar, drink more water, not to skip meals, get more sleep.. Exercise..? HAHAHAHA!! I should take myself seriously, but really, I'm only excited about "exercising" for the cute outfits.

So that's it! Seven of my 2015 resolution!

So far I can say that only #2 is going on well. Haven't started on the rest yet. teehee! I have been taking less sugar in my coffee/tea for the past two-three months but I think it's kinda moot when some days I drink three to four cups of coffee/tea! huhuuu

Did anyone else make some sort of a resolution this year? How are they coming along?

I hope you're having a wonderful 2015 so far and good luck in following those resolution -- if you made any.

Whoops!

I've been silent again.. Sorry!

Feels like I've been giving myself excuses to not blog, but really.. I've been kinda busy since my last update.

I was on leave from 6th to 11th and on 12th I flew to Taipei. Came back from that and headed to Sydney the day after. Came back from that and did one of my longest flights ever -- turnaround Manila that got delayed because the airport was closed at the time we were supposed to land as the pope was travelling!

I was pooped beyond words. I don't know about you but whenever I get a long break from work, it's really hard for my body to get accustomed to working again!

My everything just ached and it was no fun at all! Two days off, and here I am in Dubai!

The last time I was here was yeaaars ago! Now apart from my cousin, I also have an aunty who works here. We got together last night and had a wonderful dinner. Chatting and catching up, said our goodbyes around 11pm -- which was 3am back home!! Hahahahaha

I felt kinda bad for having "dinner" at 1am.. Oh well.

I've also been busy from actively writing in my Moleskine again. I haven't got the chance to share with you my year's "resolution" but among it was to record my daily life in a sort-of scrapbook form. I'll explain when I get around to write about my resolution but basically, January isn't over yet but my Moleskine is significantly thicker! -- and I LOVE it!

My sleep-pattern is still crap. Last night my aunty asked how I get use to "jetlag" or if there's a way around it. I told her that I'm a bad sleeper wherever I am so I am not the best person to answer that! Like last night, I got back at the hotel just before midnight, fell asleep around 2am (6am back home!) woke up around 5 for whatever reason and told myself that it was ridiculous to have enough sleep then. Went back to sleep and woke up again around 8!

Sometimes I worry myself when my body does this kind of crap.

Flying home this evening, another turnaround on Friday and then off days during the weekend! Really looking forward to that!

2014 Round-Up : Resolution

Happy New Year!!
I was meant to post this as the closing entry for 2014.. Oh well!
Every year I like to go back and reflect on how I did with the resolution I set myself to. (I don't necessarily blog about it, though.)

1. For every clothing that I buy, I must throw/give away a piece that I no longer wear.

I didn't throw away as much as I should, I must admit. But I also didn't buy as much clothes as I normally would! So hey, that's something. I do find myself loving Uniqlo recently. I love that they always have some things on offer during weekends! Love their bra-tops (because really, why wear a bra when there's one attached to your top? haha!) and if the Airism bra-top is on offer -- SCORE!

2. No girly-things splurges unless something really good comes along, or I've been eyeing on that certain thing for more than say.. three months.
I don't think I have much of "splurges" in 2014! *pats back* I mean, sure I have about five unused mascaras in my stash but they're all travel size.. hahahha! Excuses, yes. But apart from that, I think I am over that "I need to try everything!" phase. Kinda. My wishlist keeps on growing but I think that's a good sign -- means that I'm not buying them.
Pretty sure my "splurges" now only comes from NARS.

3. Enough shoes, bags and jackets!
Ooh! I didn't buy any jacket!
I did buy a pair of loafers from Aldo because I needed one that wouldn't hurt my feet. (Had a pair from Clarks for years but they're still as stiff as the first day I bought them! ughh!)
And I got myself a Rebecca Minkoff bag -- for my birthday, so that doesn't count!
I've been good, really. And Encem and Bestie had been good to me too for getting me things that I resolved not to buy myself. hehe

4. Slow down on the cigarettes, Starbucks and Coffee Bean.
err.. I definitely don't go to Starbucks anymore -- unless there isn't any Coffee Bean in sight. But.. yeaah.. Coffee and cigarettes are such perfect ways to waste some time! aaghh!

5. Blog again.. Once a week at least
hahahhaha! Well, you know I failed this one.

Are we ready for 2015's resolution?
bahahahha

2014 Round-Up : Life *cough*

--or lack thereof, really.

It's times like this where I'm glad that I have a Moleskine. Honestly I have no idea where this year has gone or what I did throughout this year! I can't have been working so much that I've lost track on everything, can I?
Well, I probably did work a lot for the first half of the year. Or for the most part of the year, even. Not until recently do I get loose rosters -- which is perfectly fine by me!

I don't think anything really extraordinary happened this year -- except that my *big* thirtieth was pretty much poop! (Yes, I'm still bitter!) Can I stay twenty-nine, pretty pleaaase? hahahha!

Suppose it's fitting that I am writing this in Kathmandu, as this place was among my first nightstops this year. *Nothing* much here really. Not that there isn't anything to see, but I haven't been anywhere much around here. It's a good thing that the hotel where we're staying is within walking distance of among the holiest Buddhist sites in Kathmandu. I thought that was something..

Some other firsts were Sydney and Darwin. I've probably been to Australian cities more than Johor Bharu this year! More Sydney now than JB, even!

Then there was the first time in Narita -- where me and two boys took the bus to spend the day in Tokyo! Man, that was a long bus trip but a good one! We hit the Hard Rock Cafe for the merchandises (typical!) and visited dear Hachiko!
I also went to Adelaide for the first time this year and I must say that it's my favourite Australian city so far. There is that chill vibe that I just fell in love with. Can't really explain it. Also, I find that Halal food is even more easier to find there!
And though I've flown to Incheon before (a few years ago, I believe) this year I got the proper chance to look around some bits of Seoul. Managed to even go to the N Seoul Tower and leave a padlock there. *ehem* I wonder if it'll still be there the next time I go -- or if I'll be able to even find it! heehee

I operated more Airbus flights this year, compared to previous years.
I love seeing the new places, but I'm not stoked by the fact that it only happened after the two tragedies that hit us this year. You know which one. I don't want to talk about it. But I will say that I'm not too keen about work after what happened. The constant worry about everything is just.. too much, sometimes. Who would've thought that being an air hostess would be among the most dangerous occupation in the world?
And after what happened to QZ.. honestly, I just.. I can only barely feel anymore.
So I'm moving on..

I was also more keen on writing in my Moleskine again. Somehow it got me to "plan" things out a bit better. Also remembering things like where I've been to so I could write that big chunk up there! heehee
This year Dida and I got to catch the Formula 1 after missing it last year.

My family wore orange for Eid, and despite being pregnant, Kina wouldn't miss our annual jump! (She gave birth to a beautiful baby girl, Amni Madihah on the 20th of September.)

Because I've been to Australia a LOT, I got myself hooked to Pods; one of man's greatest creation! hahahha! I've mentioned that I'm not a huge chocolate fan.. but I am all over this stuff! (The Snickers is my absolute favourite!) You could sometimes find it at Cold Storage back home but at extortionate price! So yeah.. I shall note here that I am at my heaviest -- EVER. Thanks to Encem for introducing them to me! pfft!

My NARSism blew into a whole other level this year. Having them follow me on Twitter and being sent some nail polish even, just got me fangirling like never before! hahahaha

Being away for too long from Encem does not suit me very well. Before the first time he left, the longest we had ever been apart was, what? Nine days? Two weeks, max! So yeah.. I've been out of it whenever he's away for too long. Like I said, worrying gets a little too much.

Can't imagine my life without that twit. Can't imagine a world where there's no him, really.. the asshole.

I am blessed to live another year, have friends and family to pull me through the hard times.. Thankful for still having things to laugh about, smile about. Glad to still have my sanity -- or at least something like it.
Dear God, I hope 2015 will be exciting as hell (not literally, of course; I doubt "exciting" would be the word to describe hell! ha!) and that I wouldn't cry as much! heehee

2014 Round-Up : Beauty

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